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i’m mostly knowledgeable on luxiem but i really love noctyx and shld see more of their stuff >< also super in lov w iluna

[redxblueihateloveyou]

I'm curious what you think the worst shipping dynamic is? And the reasoning behind it if you have any.

Thank you so much!!!

haha I do have several of those actually. I’ll include both what I think are the worst dynamics and the kind of ships that “I just don’t get why would you ship smth like that”.

1. What I actually call “a mom and a manchild”.

examples: Hatori/Chiaki from “Sekaichi Hatsukoi”, Ikuya/Hiyori.

I guess, technically there’s nothing wrong with this, if they both enjoy being this way, but firstly I just hate adults behaving like infants and I don’t think encouraging such behavior can lead to anything good, and secondly watching this just makes me uncomfortable for many reasons. And moments like when Hyori came up to Ikuya when he talked to Haru and was like “it’s too late and you can’t talk to this man, time to go home” and Ikuya went I just cracked up at this. Also when one part is basically changes the other’s part diapers, but in return gets tantrums or basically nothing or “but I wanna play with someone else tho”, it’s just a kink I do not get, like why would you want to be treated like this is beyond me.

But then I also generally dislike infantile characters, and I can’t ship smth if I don’t like both parties, so maybe bc of this. I always like the mature characters. Like even when I do know in theory that a 13 year old in reality can’t behave like Todoroki, I’m still like, I don’t fucking care, that’s the one I like xD But when 20 years old Ikuya behaves like this, I just do not appreciate it, I guess.

2. “I don’t have an identity, my identity is you or what you want me to be” category, including “my dignity flew out of the window” ones and “I just do what you do”. (I CANNOT HANDLE THIS DYNAMIC, YOU KNOW I CAN’T!!!!!!! I DO NOT WHY, BUT IT’S JUST PISSING ME OFF THE MOST OF ALL PROBABLY)

examples: Eren/Mikasa, Haru/Makoto, Natsusa/Sei from “Number24″.

Sports animes do that a lot. “The only reason I played rugby is because you played it” is a major cringe. And no, it’s not romantic. Romantic is like when you’re both passionate about this and doing this sports together makes it even better/more meaningful, that I get. Not, “I only went there bc you like it” and I’ll have what you have, I’ll do what you do. Like.. huh? You firstly a person, as in fully formed one pls, you can’t exist as someone’s trail. 

Those ships always contain this one person (like Mikasa, Makoto), who are just the accessory of the other character. Mikasa’s problem is not the ackerbond, it’s her life position, she herself chosen to be Eren’s doormat. And some also find this romantic, I think, but I just hate such things. Also the truth of life: if you don’t respect yourself, your crush won’t respect you either. Just saying.

Makoto, I sincerely think, if Kisumi would be his neighbour instead of Haru, he’d be playing basketball at school lmao. Like SD has so many of absolutely terrible scenes, where Makoto just for real turns to Haru and goes “do you think I should go to the basketball club if we’re not swimming?” like dude, I’m... he’s like a walking definition of “meh” if there ever existed one. How can you do not care what you do? Like at all. This is beyond me. That’s sad. Watching him makes me sad.

I just need both characters in a ship be you know THEM, fantastic on their own, then when they’re together they become an absolutely explosive magic. It’s just a true fact.

Also there is one ship who is not quite this category, but kinda touches this theme. Ciel and Lizzy from “Kuroshitsuji”, ike the original Ciel, for whom she wanted to pretend to be a dumb damsel in distress for the rest of her life. Like fucking seriously????? You’d live like this????!!!! Fucking hell, you must really don’t love yourself like at all.

3. Humiliation isn’t my kink.

examples: Dazai/Akutagawa, Midoriya/Bakugou.

Akutagawa and Midoriya are badass motherfuckers and also wonderful human beings on their own. When they encounter Dazai and Bakugou they become sheeps. I hate seeing them like that, that’s basically it. Also humiliation is really not my kink. The whole “treat him like crap” thing. Like some things they did to them is just.. my god, I don’t like it.

Like when Dazai asked Atsushi to throw the phone moment, I literally flinched so hard watching it, I can’t even explain this feeling between the dejection and utter disgust at the fact that Dazai did it, that I felt watching it, but I fucking hated it.

4. Those who bring out the worst in each other or don’t bring out anything in each other.

All my ships literally all with no exceptions make each other the best versions of themselves, push/challenge each other to become better/brighter/happier, etc., or add to each other that piece the other was missing. 

If someone makes someone feel depressed, miserable or even just simply stuck in a rut, that’s probably not it. There are some ships who just simply can’t make each other happy or even make each other unhappy and that’s a fact.

5. Ships with no development or development so tiny that you need 120 episodes and an magnifying glass to see it.

examples: I’d say, but I just don’t want those 10 year olds in my ask box again.

Hate this for obvious reasons. Because as wise ppl say “only fools don’t grow” or "if we don't change, we don't grow. if we don't grow, we aren't really living."

6. Those who are like brothers to each other and said so and don’t emmit any and I mean ANY sexual vibes or attraction in that kind of way towards each other. 

examples: Harry Potter/Ron Weasley (like THE FUCK seriously), Stiles/Scott from “Teen Wolf”, Keith/Shiro.

I just cannot imagine them being romantically involved, I literally can’t. And I don’t get it. It’s like they even say “you’re my brother” thing, but also they just do not give off any couply feels and imagining this kinda make me cringe a bit, cause I have two sisters I’m very close with and their relationship remind me of our relationships so just.. no.

7. They are not each others priority. Meaning both putting someone else or something else before them.

If they don’t put each other first, I most likely probably don’t want it. 

My jam is like Stucky and when they say to Steve “you do this, captain, and the whole world would think of you as a criminal” and Steve being like “fuck you, take your shield, take your idiotic hero rules, I don’t care, he matters to me more than your whole dumbass world”.

My jam is Lan Zhan who went against the whole world and a horde of stupid donkeys and fought for his baby till the end. He really didn’t care if he’d lose everything and what would other ppl think, if it meant that Wei Wuxian will be with him.

On the other hand, we have Jin Guangyao, who had Lan Xichen, but he wanted power and idiots’ love more, so he chose what he chose. Do not get this ship, like no, thanks.

As for putting specific someone else first. Rin/Sousuke, for example. I in general do not get it, but also like there are like 10 moments in the anime like in Yakusoku when Rin forgot about him, when he saw Haru during the tournament and an actual quote “Sousuke looked at Rin, who will always put Haru first”. So like... I do not get it. If you see them as a couple this is technically no good no for Sousuke, no for Rin.

8. Obviously straight ones, but “hey, I need them gay”.

I in fact just do not believe in a “straight ppl do not exist” thing. As I’ve said before there are exceptions where some characters give off the clear bi vibe, but those are pretty rare tbh. And even more rare canonically proven ones like Kanda from D.Gray-man, for example. 

The moment they show some character in anime drool over some girls he doesn’t even know, but he don’t react to any of the guys like this, this just means he’s most likely heterosexual. Cause only straight guys drool only specifically after seeing random boobs. So this thing always throws me off in some ships.

99% of my ships are either canonically gay or most likely gay, but author doesn’t want to label it. 

There are just lots of animes where main character/s have shown no interest in an opposite gender whatsoever like “Natsume Yuujinchou”, “Kuroko No Basuke”, “AOT”, “Number24″, “Fukigen na Mononokean”, “Tower Of God”, “Owari no Seraph” etc., but did in fact show interest in the same gender one. That I get, yes. 

And btw even if you want somebody to be as I call it a “wishful bi”, I think it should be only in situations like if these characters have some absolutely wonderful/undeniable connection, not just the ship for the sake of gay ship.

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That’s probably it. Otherwise I’m fine, I think :D  

[irregirl]

Omegaverse

I really like this kind of genre💘cause the boys inside omegaverse world can get pregnant😂i prefer Alpha x Omega the most, i don't like any beside that❌ for example :

1. Sayonara Alpha

Rate : 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟[ongoing]

Mangaka : Ichinashi Kimi

The uke are older more like 7(?) Or 10(?) Year older than the seme😲😲

At first it such sweet story with innocent baby but it turn out that the uke are worn out😐😂

Because of this i thought shotacon genre are intresting😨😨

2. Kirai de Isasete

Rate : 🌟🌟🌟🌟[ongoing]

Mangaka : Hijiki

Poor uke😢😢he had a cute daughter👸

Heartwarming part when he met his alpha💘the alpha are so nice tho-

Happily they had a baby boy👶 and it's still ongoing

3. Ou-sama to Puppy Love

Rate : 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟[completed]

Mangaka : Noichi Mikuro

It's begin with misunderstand and end with it tho- 😂😂

The prince lived on Egypt(?) And the uke from Japan of course

You can see the uke round stomach and their kids👶👶

4. Wagamama mo Kimi no Tame Nara Ikura Demo

Rate : 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟[completed]

Mangaka : Sanemori Tabane

at first the uke are kinda bitch😗😬, but the seme are so nice and fall in love over him😚💘.

there’s another story, it’s about the uke friend and yeah it’s still alpha x omega😄😄

i like this, it’s kinda gives warm feeling to me😊💞

5. Soredemo Suki desu Kasahara-san

Rate : 🌟🌟🌟🌟[completed]

Mangaka : Omaru

the uke seems like not trust love💔like for the first time neet he want the alpha to bite his nape😲😲

Worstly the uke being harrassed by stalker😲😲omega sterotype things😑😑

Heartwarming part that the alpha still loves him😢💘the ending got me cry😭😭espesially the mom.

6. Ijiwaru na Tsukai no Netsu ni Oborete

Rate : 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟[ongoing]

Mangaka : Sakuraba Yurin

The seme bought an Omega at auction event😖😖

Before the uke lives desperatly, that's why he kinda relieved that he been bought😯😯

This actually interesting can't wait to see the continuation💛💛

7. Bokura ga Tsugai ni Naru Made

Rate : 🌟🌟🌟🌟[completed]

Mangaka : Go Keryoku

It's start with rape😱😱but yeah i like it😋😋

The uke had a lot of sibling that why his parent kind of carefree😅😅

It's actually soft one, make you forgot it's started with rape😅😨

8. Hanagara Tsumi

Rate : 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟[completed]

Mamgaka : Tsuba Daeki

Okey i'm not lying, but this one is SO DAMN BEAUTIFUL😢💘

I kinda confused at first bout the uke feeling, is it hate or love, that the proof how WONDERFULL the author was!!👏👏

I don't know if this uwu manga will had vol 2 yet😅😅

9. Unmei ja nai Hito

Rate : 🌟🌟🌟🌟[completed]

Mangaka : Akimoto Yoshi

The title are related to fate, and yeah they fated to meet💞💞

First meet are unbelieveble, i thought the uke are gonna get raped😥😥

I still thought the seme are menized (?) Since he been liked by many men😅😅

10. Takane no Hana wa Chirasaretai

Rate : 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟[ongoing]

Mangaka : Sakyo Aya

Who doesn't know bout this author? You must know one of her masterpiece, kuroneko😄👏

The alpha doesn't want to get a pair, the omega like to collected alpha stuff and belongings😂😂

Usually alpha will said "you smell nice" instead of "you stink" 😐😐

I gave so many star for my rate😂😂honestly i really love this kind of genre😄💝

[borisbubbles]

25. PORTUGAL

Elisa - “Medo de sentir”

We’ve finally crossed over into the “I like this” territory :-) Let’s celebrate by booting another ballad ^_^

Song Analysis

This will be short and sweet though, since there isn’t much to say. “Medo de sentir” basically the Marie Myriam of its national final: It is a cromulent ballad that did nothing wrong and is solidly good, but not great in all the relevant areas (vocals, composition, staging). 

I mean,

Even so, Elisa gave me a few small nuggets that warmed me to her, serving DRAMAFACE in the FdC Semi

and LOOKS in the Finale: 

Peach puffy sleeves that rival Leonor Andrade’s legendary shoulder pads as a fashion statement <3 (honestly, this is pretty subdued for FdC fashion even? Hold on until I get talk about Felipe in the NF Corner) 

Honestly, you may wonder why I like this more than “Répondez-moi”, but I don’t really have a reason  - unless you’re willing to accept “Medo de sentir is underrated, is performed by a Weird Indie Girl and is from a criminally overlooked Eurovision country” as valid argumentations. Oh and while I only *very* mildly like Elisa, it is a decision I made myself, completely free of the social pressure I feel whenever Gjon, or heaven forbid, Roxen or Diodato, pop up. 

Furthermore, the fact that I still like Elisa even after she won her NF also speaks greatly in her favour. I’m not sure if you were aware of how good FdC was this year? Well, sit down because you are about to witness it!

NF Corner

Remember how old Eesti Laul’s neck was snapped and its corpse was urinated on by the shit Estonians? Remember how the quirky indie weirdo entries had to find a safe haven elsewhere in Europe? The Portugese hallmark traits of “Not Giving A Fuck”, “Doing Our Own Thing No Matter What” and “What Do You Mean This Isn’t A Vimeo Showreel?” allowed for Festival da Canção to absorb Eesti Laul’s broken spirit and channel it from every (Ley-La-)Ley-Line.

and since this is the first *GREAT* 2020 NF I am covering, I will do HONORABLE MENTIONS before I actually review my four choices :o

Dubio - “Ceguiera”: Hamburglar-looking goddess <3333

MEERA - “Copo de gin”: Pure EL-style EDM *and* it’s about drinking gin, needless to say this song is basically *my anthem*.  Jimmy P - “Abensonhado”: Rap rarely is my thing, let alone three minutes of it non-stop. Having said that, this is genuine and dramatic and Jimmy is flanked by a GOSPEL CHOIR (dressed in chasubles!!!) who support him in ENGLISH... I am not made of stone.  JJaZZ - “Agora”: Totally slept on this weird indie anthem, but then they showed up looking like this:

and yes, it was even funnier in motion (sadly gif’ing rights are reserved to the Elite 4 soz) Elisa Rodrigues - “Não voltes mais”: a jolly tropical ballad in a genre I recognize but cannot name (some sort of pimba fado jazz? Does this work?) and was incomprehensibly hated by the Portuguese? Will I ever understand how this country operates? Probably never. Kady - “Diz so”: another pimba fado jazz sort of thing? My friend André (who is from Brazil) tells me it’s actively parodying Brazillian counterculture and leftist stereotypes which is such a random quirk to put in a Portuguese music comp <3

And before we move on, I’ll chuck in a very speclal DISHONORABLE mention for our good friends Blasted Mechanism.😈 I actually forgot to do my jury duties for ESCUnited here, so I’ll just let James (the person with the best taste on our team, including yours truly) do it for me: 

Fucking *TRUTH*. “Rebellion’”s problem  has always been a lack of motherfucking balls. Sure, these middle-aged steampunkers attempt to implement a genre shift between indie rock and fucking ORCHESTRAL METAL/HIP HOP and make it so underwhelming and pathetic? People blame the live, and yes it was *bad* (forever cackling at “REBELGIUM” tho), but it was the studio that failed to deliver on the promises it made.  It always surprises me when people (Sean and Roy I AM coming for you) slam "Verona” for being a “fanwank” and then fall for a Rebellion which is basically a fanwank for heterosexual snobs. #ShotsFired. 

Now, as for the actual Boris faves, LET US START WITH A LIBERAL DOSE OF ASKEW CUBISM

Judas - “Cubismo Enviesado” 

VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?   

VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  

VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?   

VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  VÊS OU NÃO?  

 WHAT A FUCKING SPANDEX CATASTROPHE. “Cubismo enviesado” is a horrible song, the choreography looks like it had been conjured up during a particularly drunk night of bedroom karaoke and Judas can’t hold a tune for the life of him. The lyrics don’t even make sense in Portuguese <33333 It is an art school project gone disastrously wrong. NEEDLESS TO SAY, I AM OBSESSED.😍

Filipe Sambado - “Gerbera Amarelo do Sul”

That look

The regal panache

Those... leather shorts?

IT IS SO QUEER I LOVES IT. As with Cubismo, I am fucking OBSESSED. However, unlike Cubismo, “Gerbera amarela do sul” is *legitimately* great, lol. In addition to having a KICK-ASS fado rhythm and the off-the-charts visual components (the jewellery! the hats! the throne! the hand choreography!), the lyrics are highly intelligent poetry geared at dismantling upper class snobism.😍 Rare to find an entry that kicks ass on SO MANY levels. Even harder to see it lose to Elisa Myriam - but I’m not sad it lost because, you know, it would have befallen the same fate as a “Telemóveis”. At least his existence makes the memory-holing of Achille Lauro’s ICONIC Virgin Queen Cosplay so much easier to stomach. 

Throes & The Shine - “Movimiento”

I mean, entries that open like THIS: 

are instantly iconic, ngl. The best FdC entries offer a great triple of great looks, unplugged stubborn artistry and fun quirky rhythmes. Throes + The Shine pass this with flying colours and I mean, THOSE sunglasses alone yank up the laugh-out-laugh factor to astronomical levels. add in a hilarious choreography, sound effects that seemingly imitate duck mating noises and three very attractive men (in 2020! the concept!) and it’s an instant fave right there. 

AND THEN MADE THEIR ENTRY EVEN BETTER BY ADDING MIDNIGHT GOLD/JOWST EFFECTS TO THEIR STAGING. 😍😍😍😍

MANCHAS DE LAMA NA SUA PELE  

HEROES. 😍😍😍

and of course, this wouldn’t be a 2020 NF without an obvious runaway fave losing at the last minute: 

Bárbara Tinoco - “Passe-partout”

SHE IS TINY <3333:

She’s like a human bonsai... or a personal attack chincilla.

Okay, so Portugal were *THIS close* to out-France’ing the French with this sassy Zazballad, served with a generous dollop of parisian accordion and stank reaction shots.

Yet another entry that shamelessly uses an attractive man as a boytoy prop <333 For a brief moment, Bàrbara and Tiago establish themselves as a pair of lovestruck La La Land idiots, gearing themselves towards the EPIC moment where she will dump him... and then this happens before the first chorus:

Barbara opens up a can of dancer carbs and it completely fucks up her no-bullshit keto diet. 

Those dancers man. They aren’t a *bad* addition in itself, but if your thing is “romance ballad but *plot twist* it’s actually an end of romance ballad get lost loser” do not burn the clou within the first minute of the performance to a group of dancers who don’t even dance *along with the beat of your song*. UGH.

(and also, more devastatingly, the reduce tiaGOD’s airtime how dare they grrr)

Fortunately though, I have learned to appreciate the wrecktitude of it all because it caused one of the funniest downfall narratives in recent ESC history. The Portuguese were, of course, foaming at the mouth with all the decisions Bárbara had made (not even for the points I raised, necessarily?) and Bárbara was having none of it. It went kinda like this

Juries: EWWW DANCERS AND CHOREOGRAPHY YOU ARE RAPING YOUR OWN SONG YOU PHILISTINE WHORE. Bárbara: 

Juries: WOW WHAT *ARROGANCE*!! YOU THINK YOU CAN WIN BUT BOY DO WE HAVE NEWS FOR YOU :-) 

and lo hand behold, the finale rolls on and Tinoco’s dancers are still there, and are even *MORE* present than they were in the semi (but also in sync with the beat) and Bárbara gets promptly jurydunked into third place. 😍 Even though she has the *ONLY* song in FdC that could have qualified in its semifinal. 😍  A woman who stands three apples tall trolling an entire nation and juries because she knew she had gold in her hands and then getting rigged out of the easiest nf victory out of pure SPITE 😍  WHAT AN ARC. 😍

Portugal 2020 vs Portugal 2021

Elisa probably would not have qualified. I’m not sure how popular of an opinion this is, but I prefer the semifinal performance of “Medo de sentir” and that wasn’t the staging they were going for. Not many people seemed to care either way, and that’s usually the death sentence for Portugal. 

Elisa won’t be back for 2021 or whenever Eurovision is rebooted. :sigh: Fuck you, Coronavirus. 

Freaky! Friday! Factor!

See: NF Corner:

Score: 4 Senhits out of 5. 

[waywardfacegarden]

17 & 18 & 19👀✨

Aaaaaaaahhh, thank you so much for the ask!!! :’) 17. biggest anime crush <- this is a hard one, lol.

I have A LOT of anime crushes, honestly, haha. Whoops. It’s a problem I have…

But I’ll say a few so I don’t, like, overwhelm you HAHA.

I think that if I had to choose my biggest crush between all my anime crushes, it would be a tie between Bakugou Katsuki and Yuri Plisetsky, haha. (… I kinda have a “type” don’t I? Lmao.) [[Edited: AND LIO FIOTA. OMG. I CAN’T BELIEVE I FORGOT, I HAVE THE BIGGEST FAT CRUSH ON HIM. IT’S DEFINITELY A TIE BETWEEM THE THREE OF THEM. He’s literally the definition of “he’s beauty, he’s grace, he will punch you in the face”. LIKE. He’s strong, so so so kind, cool, selfless, passionate, SO STUNNING AND PRETTY, and just. Every time he kicks someone’s ass I fall in love a bit more. AKSJKLSJD.]]

They both have me completely on my knees, LOL. And both since the very start of their characters, if I’m completely honest. I love their determination, their passion, the effort they put into all they do despite their bright, innate talent. I honestly could ramble about why I love both with so much of my heart it’s ridiculous, but only if you have, like… time for a 9458298472 slide presentation… ahaha.

Rin Okumura, Kamado Tanjiro, Levi Ackerman and Sasuke Uchiha are SUUUPER close, too. (And I sure have a lot more, lol, but, basically, yeah. Those are the ones that have me head-over-heels, believe it or not.)

18. 10 worst anime you have watched:

Noooo, friend, you ask me something I can’t answer!!!! I have animes I didn’t particularly love, but they’re not… that terrible. It’s more like I think they had more potential or that I despise/hate certain characters on it, but not the anime in general.

That said, I’ll mention a few:

*Spiritpact. I’m not sure, but I think this one is actually popular? I saw it all because I had been seeing a lot of gifs of it around, but I honestly got bored? The story didn’t particularly attract me, neither the characters. And hey, this is just my opinion, obviously, but, yeah. I thought the plot was very basic and I usually don’t mind if I like the characters, but I didn’t feel any connection or love to the characters in general? I don’t know, maybe I was expecting more of it with all the hype. I’m not saying I hated it, I liked some moments but after two seasons I just… expected a lot more, I guess.

Now, the ones I actually dropped:

*Servamp: I had seen a lot of amazing opinions about this one, so I gave it a chance, and honestly? Not my thing. I loved the first episode REALLY a lot, but that’s it. The “big villain” was very dumb, for me, a lot of characters’ relationships felt rushed, the plot wasn’t really exciting me, so… yeah. I think I dropped it on the fourth or fifth, just so you know how rapidly I got bored of it after loving the first one, haha.

*Btoom!: when I saw the trailer, I was like “HOT DAMN, I N E E D TO WATCH THIS”, got to see the first three episodes I think?? And if I’m honest that was WAY back. I don’t really remember what annoyed me/bored me so much about it, but I think it was the main girl?? Haha. I don’t know, maybe I had really high expectations or so. I don’t remember exactly why I dropped it but I remember getting pretty annoyed at one character HAHA. The plot still sounds hella interesting, tho, I’ll maybe give it chance later.

*Zetsuen no Temptest: I started watching it because of a ship but I got bored, too, hahaha. I don’t remember why, either, but yeah, I thought it was good at the beginning… but I didn’t watch more than 3 episodes, I think, haha. Aaaah. I hate not remembering exactly why I dropped it, lol. But it’s kinda the same thing: the characters and the plot wasn’t really exciting me.

The ones I do hate:

*School Days. I H A T E this anime with a burning passion, lmao. One friend rec it to me and told me, and I quote, “it’s really interesting!! I liked the ending, it’s very realistic”. Well, yeah, shit. HAHA. I don’t like the plot; I DESPISE, LOATHE, AND HATE the main character, I don’t like the two main girls (and all the characters tbh), and overall I dislike the plot in general. It’s dumb, stupid, the characters are not likable, and that “shocking” ending doesn’t do much for me. It’s not “realistic” or anything, it’s a fuckboy and two crazy girls, and yeah, not my thing at all. I was sitting there at 1am after finishing it like “what the fuck did I just watch” lmao. Ugh. I really don’t like this one.

*Mayoiga: I don’t know if this one it’s popular, so pardon me, LOL. I just watched it a few days ago and… yeah. I wouldn’t say I hate it. I don’t hate it. But I saw the summary in a rec anime list and got excited and… I just expected something different, I guess. I was looking for horror, suspense, I don’t know… but instead I got moral lessons LOL. Honestly, the “traumas” of the characters were interesting, I absolutely LOVE some characters, and some of them I don’t particularly love them but they’re really interesting. It has really good scenes. The animation is really good. IT HAD POTENTIAL. A LOT. But I don’t like the main character because he’s really fucking boring and basic/plain. He’s just the typical protagonist but done in an annoying way, imo. Masaki is also annoying as fuck imo, lol. I don’t like that the only thing she does at the start is crying and I don’t like how they very much focus on Protagonist Obsession on her like 80% on the anime and on her being a victim. It’s fucking annoying. They’re the least interesting characters, imo (so much that Protagonist had an interesting background and made it boring…), and they focus way too much on them. They had interesting characters, interesting subplots. If they focused on the others instead, if they focused on developing more the characters, their relationships, it would have been a LOT better! But no. It just felt rushed and poorly done by the end. I liked a few plot-twists but overall it felt really rushed because they didn’t focus on the things they SHOULD, so it just felt wrapped up badly, imo. Honestly expected so much more of this one, it had such an amazing start, the creepy vibes were ON POINT, the scenery, certain characters, the mystery (that was solved poorly too imo), it just… I don’t know, I don’t hate it because it has good points, but by the end, I felt like I really wasted my time on this one. The potential it had…

ALL OF THIS IS JUST MY OPINION, of course!!!

19. favorite anime ships

Okay, so. I won’t talk about them because if I do, then I’ll never shut up LMAO (but feel free to ask me about them any time and I’ll ramble a whole lot, be sure of that, haha). So I’ll just mention them in no particular order (brace yourself, they’re a lot. And yeah, I’m almost equally obsessed with every single one LOL):

Sasunaru/Narusasu from Naruto

Todobaku, Bakudeku and Shinkami from BNHA

Asheiji from Banana Fish (this ship T-T)

Kagehina from Haikyuu!!

Abemiha and Tajihana from Oofuri

Mikayuu and Yuunoa from Owari No Seraph

Kagakuro and Midotaka from Kuroko no Basket

Honoka Maki/Tsuguhito Yuta from Kiznaiver

Tanaka/Oda from Tanaka-kun Wa Itsumo Kedaruge

Shion/Nezumi from No. 6

Abeshiya from Fukigen na Mononokean

Ioriku from IDOLISH7

Galolio from Promare

Nagisa/Karma from Assassination Classroom

Satoru/Airi and Satoru/Kenya from Erased

Yato/Hiyori from Noragami

Ymir/Historia and Jean/Armin from SNK

KITE/Koga from Japan Sinks 2020

[stxrdust-widow]

This is gonna be a long one

Ok ok ok a (not) quick recap of my thoughts before my s4 theory that I’ll probably post tomorrow:

Pre series and background:

- Jane has no ties to sandstorm, she’s just the messenger for their evil doings. This creates intrigue- who is she, why was she chosen, etc.

- She grew up in South Africa until her parents were murdered and her and her younger brother were taken to the murder orphanage. (In this scenario, Ian dies as a child, possibly at the orphanage or with their parents)

- Jane or “Alice” escapes at some point before the US liberated them- Shepherd cannot adopt her (the orphanage probably has records tho so maybe she knows about the little girl that escaped)

- Jane runs away, is either bounced around the foster system or grows up on the streets, joins the army, becomes a navy seal, has good street smarts, is recruited for ORION, where she gains some attention from sandstorm and Carter- she’s probably the only woman- where she meets Oscar (who is part of sandstorm and placed in Orion by Shepherd to manipulate Pre-Jane)

- They erase her memory, tattoo her and send her to the FBI

Season 1:

- Everything pretty much the same, Jane happens to look like a future Taylor Shaw (coincidence for sandstorm? Probably)

- Jane does missions for Oscar since she kinda remembers him and he says that his organization (they) we’re apart of will kill the team if she doesn’t etc (Jane doesn’t know what the organization is, but Oscar is playing in her memories of ORION or whatever). He also says he’ll tell her about her past (but he LIES)

- Jane finds out, kills Oscar, etc

- Jane gets caught by Kurt, sent to the black site

Season 2:

- Beginning is pretty much the same, she escapes the black site, is on the run, gets caught and forced to become a double agent.

- This part is tricky cause she’s not actually part of sandstorm so maybe Nas sees a way in- Jane gets “abducted” by a sandstorm member wanting to know what she remembers, and Jane says she wants to join because the FBI gave her to the CIA willingly (not really) and she’s angry and wants revenge.

- Shepherd finally “recruits” her, Jane’s a double agent, she gets found out by sandstorm, the rest of the season is more or less the same except for Roman, so instead we’re gonna fill it with team feels

- Also Nas and Kurt don’t get together and instead the team grows closer and Jeller happens mid s2 cause they forgave each other and grew closer and now their relationship is strong

- I suppose the whole Allie is pregnant thing can still happen and Jane and Allie are friends too cause aww

Season 3:

- Ooh boy this ones trouble, and honestly it was my least fave season so 🤷‍♀️

- I do like Avery however, so let’s not forget about her. Also, it’s not like Jane actually forgot she had a kid like, Remi knew what she was getting herself into so let’s pass that

- We do need a big bad tho so here it is: Oscar never actually died, much like Borden, so let’s say that after Jane left him to burn, someone found him and saved him

- This way Jane’s glowy tattoos are still plausible and Oscar has a vendetta. He probably also knew about Avery so boom problem solved

- Oscar can be “Tom” and get with Blake and all that still works with HCI global and Crawford.

- In this scenario, Jane willingly gave Avery up for adoption

- I suppose the whole Kurt “killed” Avery thing could still happen, but he tells her right away cause they’re honest with eachother

- No infidelity subplot but Clem can stay and help as long as we’re all in agreement that he and Jane didn’t sleep together

- Jane is angry and hurt, but she’s thankful that Kurt was honest. They all do whatever they can to find Oscar and his associates who set Kurt when they stumble upon a recording of Avery alive and well and rescue her

- The rest of s3 can be the same save for the drama of lying and sleeping with other people

- Also everyone is honest and a family and Jeller loves their (2) children, one of whom will babysit for their younger sister whenever asks with minimal grouching

Anyways, this was not very short but I wanted to change a couple of things before I posted s4

[twyt-podcast-blog]

❝tea with yours truly❞

—grab your cups and let me serve you some hot pipping tea.

today’s episode: the mgas.

unless you’ve been living under a rock, you know what time it is. it’s been five seasons now. it’s the freaking mgas. mnet global auditions that never feel global but who cares? am i late to start talking about it? no. why did i decide to wait? because, i’m over it. i’m over survival shows. i’m over having a heartbreak and being an emotional wreck when my faves are eliminated. that’s why i decided to wait and to stalk. lol. i binged watched freaking four episodes of it. even then, i did not miss the entire season. i was a bit impatient. everyone’s talking about it. everyone’s balls and ovaries are bursting left and right. my bad, if you thought that this podcast is suited for work, you’re listening to the wrong podcast.

before anything, i just want to say that i’ve caught myself listening to luxe’s every night. it was really a good song. y’know, royal, trc, sphere, kt and...nova...are going to recruit new trainees for their companies, but what about the groups that they already have? see, royal’s luxe haven’t been around since march. their main rivals are still fresh in the memory. i’m talking about trc’s k.arma and kt’s eclipse. eclipse even got a summer comeback. the best time to come back honestly with all the festivals. sphere’s convex came back in april. that’s not too long ago. then, you have nova ( /sighs;) i guess that nova is in need of trainees so that they can one day debut something. anything. didn’t i ever tell you guys that, as a little child, was obsessed with jewelry. i didn’t have their talent though.

anyways without further ado, here’s my opinion, as if anyone really cares about it honestly, about the first four episodes of the mgas. i got my notes. it’s all opinions. my opinions. yes, i’ll be biased; however, i expect y’all to bother to check the episodes and performances to make your own opinions and faves.

oh, i almost forgot, today’s drink is starbucks’s matcha frappucino. it’s summer. we drink our tea cold, but doesn’t mean that what we are spitting isn’t pippin’ hot.

episode one started with a nice little shot of the places where the auditions were taking place. cute. there’s a lot of hopefuls. then, we get to see the ceos that we love so much ( /chuckles;) then, they do some lowkey scripted chitchat. you know “oh, it’s a new season again” “i know right.” “i can’t wait to meet the contestants and sign trainees who will probably never get the chance to debut” lol. speaking of contestants, there are 100 people. let me tell you who caught my attention. first, there’s this one named kim seungmin? seunghun? legit, he was imitating animals. like, top pick of the episode. yes, i’m weird like that. to be honest, the entire episode, the ceos were savage. but, i don’t blame them, because sweeties it’s freaking season 5 so you’re supposed to bring it. period. you’ve seen the show at least once, you should know. lot’s singing, dancing, rapping. y’know. it’s what you expect. by the way, an ex-member of convex freaking showed up. i was shook. like, i remember that there were redemption stories since mga season 1. but, it was usually former contestants given a second chance or trainees. a freaking ex-member. it’s freaking romeo under a new alias? i mean you guys know the rumors...but he left allegedly for personal reasons. i have the highest of expectations on him. like, i feel for his fans from back when the season two of the mgas happened. the rollercoaster ride of emotions. i feel for y’all. i’m not gonna lie to y’all. the first episode...i mean...i’m binge watching so i didn’t really take the time to really find my top picks.

let’s move on to the next episode.

episode two: the way episode two started was weird. i mean i can’t be the only who watch that little moment involving...let check my notebook for the names..ah yes, choi yena, wang jackson and son hyejoo. it’s been five seasons... doesn’t the mgas have the budget for seats for all the contestants? as for the skinship moment, y’all know that the fans are out there being like “i ship hyena or yejoo”. anyways. moving on. episode two is, in a nutshell, more singing. more dancing, more rapping. it’s also leads to the first round of eliminations. as i mentioned before, i’m not here for the heartbreak. i know that through binge-watching, i’m not getting emotionally attached to nobody. i’ll cry moving forwards from episode four and onwards. rappers who come up and perform their own stuff. i support you. i kinda expect rappers to be able to pen and to have the courage to take the stage with their own work. does that discredit the other rappers? no, i just happen to love the creative rappers and we all know tiger jk love them too. over the years, the rappers with creative genius had more chances to land in trc. it’s just how it is. so, yeah, choi yoona caught my attention. the whistling rapper, na jaemin too. i like him. recycle boy, hwang minhyun seems to have left an impression because they replayed his clip. oh, and, see, the girl hyejoo who had a moment in the beginning of the episode had another highlight moment. she switched from dancer to rapper and promoted a self-made song. should i make her a top pick? i mean she fits what i like. maybe, if she’s still around in episode four. i’m just gonna say one thing...that guy...park jinyoung. yes. biased? maybe. i mean give me a man with a guitar and that voice. mhm. so, at the end of the episode, they go through the elimination. they also reveal the top three for each category. who am i not surprised for? freakin’ minho.

up to this point, the people i got my eyes on are still alive. there are two episodes left tho. like i said, i didn’t dive into everything. i’m playing catch up. on top of that, i had to have my eyes on my picks. anyways.

i’m taking this moment to take refresher but also talk about our sponsor. so, we are sponsored by this lovely game reminiscent of that one otome mobile game that destroyed our sleeping patterns. if i love you is nice f2p game where you decide to use a dating app. you will be texting, chatting, going on dates and receiving phone calls from waifu or husbando. the upside is that you don’t have to set alarms and to miss on work or school. now back to the mgas.

episode three: so, isn’t just me or interviews are meh. i mean maybe it’s because i just want to reach episode four as quickly as possible so that i can get into the social media aspect, but, some of these interviews...chile. y’all sound so cocky and cocky isn't cute. i could also blame the editing, because it’s mnet. you can’t expect a snake to be nice. it’s the duo performances. man, it’s a staple since the first mgas. i am watching and i’m loving every single second that i am given. the groups overall are really strong. i already brought up names and they didn’t disappoint me. i’m not going to go to deeply on episode three, because episode four is right down in the corner. i kam already seeing myself getting attached, but i can’t deal with a double heartbreak back to back. i need to calm down. i am betting after watching this top 3 that minho is simply gonna ride smoothly. he was in the top in season 2. he bet it’s gonna be the same for season 3. like, everything he did was great. it’s like everything he touches turns to gold. also, two of my picks were eliminated. i’m talking about jinyoung and yoona. see, i should have waited until i reach episode four before i freaking choose the people i’m rooting for. anyways.

all this binge-watching without a chance to really watch highlights on naver as led to the last episode to have aired.

episode four: my children, we made it. all caught up. it’s essentially the second round of the duo performances. they were nice. i want to say that i feel genuinely bad for the contestant lee nakyung. so, first, the ceos commented on how she had been throwing away her jacket every performances. i got to admit that you can’t use the same trick over and over and over again. then, they said that she had better chemistry with minho? that was sad. the way it was edited it pretty much gave the vibe that nakyung is nothing without minho. he was the partner. i feel like everyone who will partner with minho, who’s a vet, might get similar backlash that minho is their saving grace. the girl’s talented. mnet, i know that the comment was about her lack of chemistry with her new partner, but your editing really sucked. sorry, i had a lot of feelings about this above all. anyways, like the hopefuls are very good this season. like, i see no holes. at the end of the day. it is still a competition. then, my friends, they panned on two empty seats. so they brought back the people who were eliminated, bitch. my eliminated faves were separated, but, y’know what, i’m okay. also, i’m sorry that wang jackson was not on list, but then, he did that with park jinyoung. they did that. also, i didn’t give ryujin or sia the attention they deserved. i had to go back and watch their performance to understand why they were top three. ladies, yes. yes. YES. i hope i conveyed my opinion well. minho, again, top three. no surprise there. so, back to the returning kings. they are my picks. y’all know that i’m jinyoung biased at the moment. i got other people on my radar. i’m sad that hyejoo was eliminated. was rooting for her. nakyung, i’m gonna shield her and protect her from harm. i will fight. now, i can finally get into it. maybe some of you were expecting your names to be shouted out. moving forward with episode five, i will be able to really go in-depth with the performances and the people. i also get to check their social media and to see what kind of people they are. 

[jenotation]

0 2 (final) why don’t you know? | na jaemin

— genre: highschool!au, romance, angst; headcanon

— word count: 1k+

— warnings: swearing

His eyes are so pretty and innocent, yet he can’t see your feelings for him. (inspired by ‘Why Don’t You Know’ by Chung Ha)

h/n stands for her name, it’s used for the most popular girl in the year!

0 1 | 0 2 (final)

nOw let’s get started!!

you stopped talking to jaemin,, for a while actually

who cares if you loved this beautiful smiling dude, he hurt you

emotionally

it wasn’t fair. how could he just take the side of a girl that’s only liked for her looks?

sure, she’s pretty. sure, she’s talented. but, does she have a lovable personality? you might not be pretty, but you cared for him. for real.

nothing was a facade with him. all those smiles you shared, all the secrets you shared, all the inside jokes you shared. . .

it all just ends there because jaemin took the side of someone he didn’t know for more than a month? funny.

it’s funny how it’s so easy for you to be replaced. and the feeling was a weight on your shoulders. you couldn’t feel comfortable without jaemin.

you missed him even though his words hurt you.

it might sound childish but she did smash the egg on you first and you had to leave the campus after a lot of convincing the principal

when you came back the next day, all you could feel were states. stares burning your side, the back of your neck, your cheek. it was like everyone was judging you for what happened yesterday (for sure they were)

you had physics and you had jaemin in your class, so he was kinda hard to avoid

you walked into class, and notice how in the back your seat was taken by h/n, with jaemin’s arm resting around her shoulder and h/n just giggling into his neck.

oh how easy it was for him to replace you. . .

you sighed quietly and just took a seat at the front beside renjun, since nobody had any issues with that (you were short)

“are you okay? what jaemin did wasn’t, isn’t okay,” renjun whispered into your ear.

you sighed for the umpteenth time, “honestly? i feel like shit, but i guess that’s what happens when you have fake friends.”

he shrugged, “i don’t think he’s fake, i just think he needs some time for him to process that he lost a kind and beautiful friend.”

was he flirting with you? you couldn’t tell, but you just smiled and continued doing the work

by the time class was over, you were called over by the teacher since you were top of the class to produce something for the science fair next week

you loved physics so you didn’t mind i actually love physics don’t laugh my teacher is good

you ate your lunch, as predicted, alone as you just kept on listening to h/n and jaemin having a seeming like happy conversation which made you envious

the next few months went like that. you were just lonely and an extremely studious student, in contrast to your grades of last year

perhaps ending your friendship with jaemin was for the better?

the last month of the school year quickly turned into the last week of school and you had all of your teachers in your favour, since you always scored your highest in each exam and you were proud

your summer holidays start!! congrats :-) and you still have no friends other than jaemin’s old friends renjun, jeno and haechan :-)

that’s okay tho because they’re really sweet even tho you don’t roll with jaemin!!

they really made you feel comfortable and they made you feel like they were brothers you always wished to have

you started a part time job at your’s and jaemin’s favourite convenience store, ironically and you didn’t really like the job but it was the quickest and easiest way of getting your pay

you did expect to see jaemin but you didn’t see him for a good 3 weeks?? until he stopped by with a tired smile on his face with renjun surprisingly, and when he entered and he saw you behind the counter he stopped his movements.

you eyes widened slightly at the sight of him, as you randomly took out a newspaper from 2017?? but you didn’t care you wanted to avoid him lol

renjun whispered something to jaemin as he nodded and grabbed his favourite peach drink and his chocolate bar and came to the counter to pay.

you silently took the items lying on the counter and you scanned them, “5,000₩ please.”

he silently took out the money you asked for and you put the money into the cash register, and you proceeded to sit in your designated seat right behind you with the same stupid newspaper talking about you don’t even know, before jaemin opened his mouth shitden

“y/n?”

you looked at him with one of your brows raised you really didn’t care anymore

“i’m sorry.”

you looked down, as you chewed your lower lip and played with your fingernails. you didn’t even realise when renjun left the store.

“i’m sorry that i only saw one side of the story. it definitely wasn’t your fault, it was mine. i was blinded by my infatuation for h/n that i forgot about my best friend.”

you huffed, “you can’t just forget about your ‘best friend’ like that,” you airquoted. “jaemin, it isn’t fair that you can just decide to play with my feelings like that. you know that i don’t take shit like that.”

“i know and i’m sorry for that,” he sighed. “i know it was wrong for me to just care for h/n, but it was always you that i cared about when we stopped talking.”

your heart started to race rapidly, fuck you jaemin

jaemin continued, “i realised that h/n wasn’t the one that made me happy. you did and still make me happy. i care for only you y/n, you know that right? i want to be the only man beside you, to look after you and to take care of you. what do you say y/n - can you please go on a date with me just once?”

“that was really sweet, jaemin,” you grinned. “of course. i like you too.”

[xllxxrbxg]

thinking bout thingz....

lol hi so i’m not able to open the tumblr webpage due to the fact there’s still a blackout but then casureco is here alr to fix the damn problem. anyway i was hoping if there was any chance i could have a make out sesh with my current kalandian and he was like inviting me over to his house because his family would be out BUT LIEK theres a scheduled blackout for bukas so i’m kinda like nagdadalawang thinking with it you know but he claimed he’d turn the genset on BUT LIEK okay sure tho IDK whats my experience with gensets. ANW i’m nervous about it simply because it isnt my place and his parents, being prestigious people, might think im a slut. i mean liek- WHO INVITES A GIRL OVER DURING BLACKOUT HOURS WHILE HIS FAMILY IS AT A DAMN BEACH PARADISE. WHAT ELSE COULD WE POSSIBLY DO SA BAHAY NILA KUNDI MAGLAPLAPAN AM I RIGGGHHTTT? anw ayon game naman me basta he makes things happen i can make things happen too uwu but liek nakakatakot lang what if umuwi sila or something or maybe cctv something IDK i swear im over thinking the scenario BUT ONE THING’S FOR SURE: I AM G. HEHE. ok that was whore me speaking but liek who doesnt want their ass grabbed rite. anw im a bit worried thats all. because his prents are rich, probably known in the city, aND OLD. MAN IDK WTD PLUS I HAVE DADDY ISSUES. SO. YK. IDK. OMFG. PLUS HIS MOM IS AGAINST HIM HAVING A GF BEC ACCORDING TO HER ITS RIBARAW. WHICH APPARENTLY MEANS DISTRACTION OR ABALA LIEK OMG me sucking ya sons dick prolly gonna have him doing 10 homeworks at once. idk. anw yan. idek. what to do hihi. prolly need to wait but yeaaaa sayang ligo ko kagabi because i thought may carfun sched kami kagabi but then liek nagluto sila ng baked tahong and pata diba anong laban ko dyan. bayern ibang tahong kinain. anyways !! walang bago mars mejo hindi aketch productive lately nawala mga source of income ko na pinagkakaabalahan ko tho mababalik ko man yun soon AND HOPEFULLY makuha ko na scholar dough ko para makapag:


1. dentist teeth restoration redo (4k)

2. buy clothes (1k)

3. buy a pencil dupe if no hope na dun sa old pencil huhu (1.5k)

so yan man lang hopefully so mga half ng dough magagastos ko and yung other 6k i think bigay o kay mother to help with stuff around. anyways sana makuha ko na dough soon bec my teeth…

also sana magkabebe time na kami ulit ni karlo kasi yung last decent date namin was liek our third ass meeting pa lmfaoooooo liek its literally my favorite day it was perfect. it was not too much and wasnt lacking either so it was a nice day spent w him hihi. so ayon dream date ko naman ngayon is inuman with him tapos the rest will follow its either rated 13 or 18 idk depends hehe. bayern si karlo. but frrrrrrr the guy IS hot. just doesnt register well on cam but liek… when you look at him and watch him speak and see how confident he is talking to random people its liek, im stunned man. lieKKKK. also his dedication in what he likes to do actually makes me like him more wish i could have written that in my letter but liek i forgot now he thinks i’m against him biking all the time. sheesh. tho i overthink it sometimes but truth is he’s just addicted to biking. anyways i like that for him. love that for him because it is an act of self love and it means he is able to materialze his resoureces !!!!!!! which is good!!! he has the privilege, its his job to use it. !!! <3333 yun lang hihihiihihihihihihi sana maglaplapan kami soon. balitaan ko kayo if maglaplapan kami bukas or hindi uwu. pero if hindi man edi wag. pero kung oo sulat ko here yung chika in detail para maentertain kayo mga sis <33

[rqs902]

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im honestly really happy for 銀河 bc they really went out of their box and tried something new and the arrangement was turned out really cool, good for fsc

but theres just something about their performance that feels off... besides the voice crack, it felt like xu yang was rushing? which is big issue for percussionists esp if he and fsc are supposed to be keeping the beat together... maybe im just not used to what electric cello should sound like but pengpeng’s tone sounded scratchy to me again and i feel like he doesnt pay enough attention to the way he ends his strokes? and am i just hallucinating or is their mixing off again bc i just feel like i hardly hear zjy... again. but id love to listen to a studio version of this song bc i think itd solve those issues and the song itself is nice. 

lol why do they keep showing jym when xy is talking??? 

oh i wasnt the only one who thought xu yang was rushing but yea he looked really into the perf and really excited and thats great to see hes really happy on stage but he also has to keep himself calm enough to keep the beat 

oookayyy theres also something off with the tempo in 午睡’s performance and maybe im just being too picky but it really threw me off when they transitioned from bjg to ljt in that first chorus. i think it was the guitar entering too early? i cant tell if i should be more picky towards jym’s drumming bc when there’s rushing i usually go straight to the person whos holding the beat, and he should be the one keeping them together, but if someone else is rushing im glad he was able to keep up to at least rush as one group...lol. but i am glad that they were able to incorporate muji’s sound pretty well in this type of song, i was a little worried about that at first. tbh i dont think ljt and bjg’s voices match really well LOL awkward. and also awkward that they didnt let ljt play guitar too? like hes just jamming out on air while bjg is singing. idk maybe its an optics preference but i just find it awkward. 

i appreciate that ljt has really found a home in his group that can make him feel comforted. the way bjg was saying that ljt felt insecure on his own at the front but then comforted when he turned around and saw his group members behind him. that just makes me think of how lonely he must have been these last few years on his own. 

i appreciate that they have dada making sure to call out each member so they have time to talk during this live broadcast 

i feel like dada could’ve called attention to the fact that he was a witness to ljt and zzn on mrzz1 more tactfully but okay that was kinda awkward 

yoooo im down for a ljt x nana collab, their voices would be so nice oo 

lol i have no background on hyt and jmq, ill need to look into how they know each other

why am i not surprised hyt just like leaves them all in the dust of his go kart lollll im glad xiao xiong is gonna learn something new bc itll be good for him to have more than one thing to do, esp if theres so many other vocals in their group LOL 

but lol awkward ma zhe’s singing is questionable. voice cracking aside, hes very pitchy today... hm i feel like he probably overworked his vocals during practice :\ but also i dont think they fit zhao ke’s rap into this song well. his mic also isnt turned up loud enough, so the mixing feels unbalanced. wow hyt’s outfit tho, this boy’s not playing around LOL also is it just me or does jmq feel unnecessary LOL 

poor ma zhe is feeling real guilty. i respect him for keeping it together as much as he is, you can tell hes really disappointed in himself. 

isnt it kinda sad that 氣運 literally had to mess up so obviously for them to get a worse score than 銀河... also i feel like tencent is prob using this opportunity to put 氣運 third so they can boost 午睡 and fruit planet bc everyone knows 氣運 doesnt need any more help LOL 

yo muji and xiao wu being bros yess

AWWW seeing xiao zhi complimenting qiang ge’s suo na playing and then qiang ge being all modest like “i can accept this” AW i love them and i love how supportive xiao zhi is and how qiang ge can be proud of himself. 

i just love how fun fruit planet it. im just so happy to see that xiao wu really helped pull yrz and qiang ge out of their shells! actually all of them really looked like they were having such fun and i think xiao wu has a part in this. i really like how fruit planet has a running theme of happiness but also simplicity. their music’s sound has a simplicity to it that makes it sound easy-going and fun. not that the music itself is simple, but its just not overbearing and has enough pause and clarity that there are breaks in the song where you can see through the layers of sound and i appreciate that. 

wow i dont remember yrz ever singing this strongly before. i think yrz and xiao wu’s singing both fit well, both have different edges of fun and freedom. and im grateful they used the suo na as a highlight bc it adds an important touch but wasnt overwhelming. 

xiao wu calling out xiao zhi with respect for his leadership i loveee 

yrz talking about how xiao wu gave him strength and qiang ge saying xiao wu gave him courage aw and i can totally see xiao wu bringing sunshine to wsh

lol wait..... they totally skipped you zi.... is this on purpose bc dada has literally called out every other contestant to speak prior to this.

ohh i totally forgot xiao wu did feature on mrzz1 with zzn lol what a coincidence. i always just think of the two of them being on cyzj together but yes i do hope that fruit planet can be #winners like zzn and xiao wu in the future too then hahahaha

IF THIS ISNT THE CUTEST THING 

impromptu group hug!!! as gem’s complimenting how much xiao wu helped them and xiao wu’s just like hey hey listen to what the teacher has to say, kids!!

can we also talk about how ps literally used the same score sheet for all 3 previous perfs until this one he was like f it i need to give them a higher score LOL 

i love how nana is so proud of being a fruit planet member hahahaha can we pls talk about what fruit xiao wu is??? or will tencent not give zy the screentime 

i never thought id need to see xiao zhi comforting ma zhe like this until now

man we all knew 銀河 was gonna lose but at the same time they lost by kinda a lot :\ but also man how will they ever explain anyone other than 氣運 winning at this point LOL the difference is so real

man zhao ke including 熱帶低壓 in his lyrics last time and this time fsc mentioning 熱帶低壓 along with 202... oof xiao li’s the only one left. this shot is so painful 熱帶低壓 really left a big impression on zhao ke

man so many tears but i wonder if wjjw is gonna sign all of these kids lol

im excited for maomao to be on the last ep! i love his friendship with ljt!! but also kinda sad / surprised that next week is gonna be the last ep. this has been a heck of a trip but i cant believe itll be over soon. im wishing no matter what happens, fruit planet can keep making music 

also completely unrelated i just saw a video of yyg talking to lry and tyler about childhood tv and him imitating “one more thing” from jackie chan adventures im LOL 

[kimchichigay]

first love with jaemin

dO YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING BEING NA JAEMIN’S FIRST LOVE AND HIM BEING YOURS MY HEArT alright before we start this is my first time making something like this so pls be patient with me

• ok this twerp would definitely be the kind to slyly drop a lot of subtle but not so subtle hints that he likes you before y'all started dating

• hints as in I’m talking about lOTS OF SKINSHIP AND BEING SUPER CLOSE AND INTIMATE WITH ONE ANOTHER BUT IM NOT TALKING ABOUT THAT KIND OF INTIMACY dONT GET YOUR PANTIES IN A TWIST YA NASTY

• like for example he’ll tuck your hair to the back of your ears like its nothing and then flashing you his million dollar smile

• or him telling you some cringey pick up line that is worth punching his beautiful face for poor chenle nearly threw up his lunch when he overheard you both

• BUT WHEN HE FINALLY THINKS ITS ABOUT TIME TO CONFESS HIS FEELINGS PROPERLY HE’LL BE THE CLUMSIEST LIL SHIT EVER

• HE BE TRIPPING OVER HIS OWN FEET AS HE MAKES HIS WAY TO YOU OR EVEN FALLING FACE FLAT oN FHE GROUND POOR BABY

• HE STILL TRIES TO BE COOL THO

• donghyuck, jeno and chenle makes sure to film everything down and probably make a meme out of his mishaps

• mark and renjun are probably just there for emotional support

• he’ll probably begin by wiping his sweaty (ew) palms on his trousers and nervously clearing his throat cORNY I KNOW

• you will most probably be like ??!??? at first but then you realise what was going on the second you saw the trash can moved behind jaemin. you knew this was bound to happen so you secretly kept it inside of you knowing too damn well jaemin will appreciate it if you pretend not to know anything for his sake

• this hopeless romantic smh

• “ok so y/n there’s this thing I’ve been trying to tell you all along. this may sound ridiculous but this takes so much courage from the bottom of my heart and the strength of jaehyun and yuta hyung’s fist to knock some senses into me. and if I don’t do this now johnny and ten hyung are going to call me a wimp and I have to buy them pizza later because I proved their point. I–”

• but who the hell said you were good @ keeping your mouth and excitement shut you can’t stand the tension anymore too either so lmaO

• “I like you too jaemin.”

• “pls do not interrupt me y/n”

• before he could say the three little words he’s been dying to say, he took a deep breath but stopped half way, opening his half lid eyes widely after his mind was able to process

• “wait what”

• “SHE SAID SHE LIKES YOU DUMBASS”

• “SHUT THE HELL UP DONGHYUCK”

• “can I come out now???” jisung’s head pops out of the bushes

• long story short jaemin was finally able to claim your heart that day and jisung got ant bites from hiding in the bushes for too long with the bouquet of flowers jaemin planned to give you after his confession

• the dream unit with the exception of jaemin also found their new source of entertainment from the video they got that day

• NOW DATING JAEMIN YES LETS GO ONTO THE DEETS

• NA JAEMIN IS DEFINITELY THE TYPE OF BOYFRIEND WHO WOULD SPOIL YOU WHENEVER

• he’ll get you small lil gifts of whatever reminds you of him

• that hair clip??? ITS CUTE BUY IT FOR Y/N that necklace?? A MUST BUY !! THAT LIMITED EDITION PIKACHU DOLL?? SCREW THAT VIDEO GAME WINWIN HYUNG WANTED HE CAN LIVE WITHOUT LIKE HE DID FOR THE PAST 19 YEARS

• he’d even turn up at your house at 2am with fried chicken if you text him at night saying you’re hungry GOALS YALL

• HES ALSO KIND OF LOWKEY LIKE YOUR 2ND MOM LMAO

• I call him dropping by your classroom during snack breaks/lunch breaks with food with him, knowing so damn well about your horrible habit of skipping on your meals

• he would force you to eat with him or at least take a few bites from the food he specially prepared/bought for you

• cOUGHS HE ONLY BOUGHT/PREPARED YOUR FAVOURITES COUGHS

• and didn’t he say he enjoys cooking in the dorm too?? imAGINE HIS HOME COOKED FOOD MADE WITH HIS LOVE

• I’m crying blood

• AND IF YOU REFUSE IM 999999% SURE HE’LL FEED YOU PERSONALLY

• “say ahh, y/n”

• “jaemin I said I’m not hungry”

• “stop lying through your food deprived mouth and eat!!!”

• “jAEMIN!!”

• “LISTEN IM NOT LEAVING UNTIL YOU FINISH THIS LUNCH BOX”

• JAEMIN WOULD ALSO BE KINDA PROTECTIVE BUT NOT CRAZY PROTECTIVE YKNOW

• HE’LL ALWAYS CHECK ON YOU IN BETWEEN TOILET BREAKS BY WALKING PASS YOUR CLASS AND TRYING TO CATCH A GLIMPSE OF YOU THROUGH THE WINDOW

• AND THE SMILE OH NY GSKDNDN THAT SHEEPISH SMILE HE’LL GIVE YOU WHEN YOU TELL HIM TO GO AWAY IN EMBARRASSMENT JSNNDKEBXOEKE

• but lbr it’s either that really cute BF material kind of smile he be giving you through the window or that weird derpy smile he always has when he’s being dumb

• either way you’re embarrassed by this goofball

• and to add on to your embarrassment, he knows that some of your classmates may be watching the two of you so he’d blow kisses/make kissy faces at you

• he just absolutely loves to see you blush because it’s just so cute to him and he loves cute things especially you you’re his favorite cute thing and he wants to keep you by his side forever

• FIRST KISS YES

• YOU CAN NOT FORGET ABOUT FIRST KISS

• AND yALL KISS ON YOUR FIRST DATE TOO OMG SO IMA INCORPORATE BOTH PLS BE PATIENT WITH ME YALL

• because jaemin has been receiving lessons from his hyungs on dating it isn’t surprising that he brought you to the movies on your first date not because it highly suggested by his hyungs…

• you both agreed to meet outside the movie theatre and he was there an hour early and boy was he nervous as heck

• the older members were also there for a little while to prep him up aw how supportive

• sO after giving him half an hour long of prep talk and re-styling his hair (for running through them anxiously mULTIPLE OF TIME) ITS FINALLY TIME

• YOU TURNED UP RIGHT ON TIME AND YOU SAW HIM STANDING THERE OUTSIDE DAZING OFF INTO THE DISTANT

• HE LOOKS SO GOOD JUST STANDING THERE AND YOURE LIKE ‘tF HO W IN THE WORLD DID I END UP WITH HIM BLESS’

• pls excuse me for a moment here oh my god na jaemin is seriously one of the most attractive 16 years olds I’ve ever seen f U CK CALMD DJOWN

• ok lets get back

• IT WAS THEN YOU START TO FEEL THAT WEIRD FEELING IN THE STOMACH LIKE YOURE ABOUT TO THROW UP FROM THE NERVOUSNESS AND ANXIETY BUILDING UP INSIDE YOU

• BUT YOU STILL APPROACHED HIM ANYWAYS FROM BEHIND AND WHEN YOU FINALLY REACH HIM YOU GAVE HIM A LITTLE TAP ON HIS SHOULDERS

• POOR BOY WAS SO STARTLED HE JUMPED A FEW FEET IN THE AIR jk I was just exaggerating

• bUT STILL

• AND WHEN HE TURNED AROUND HIS JAW JUST DROPS THE MOMENT HE LAID HIS EYES ON YOU MAKING YOU BLUSH AND SHIT AND YOU COULDNT LOOK AT HIM IN THE EYES GOD DAMNIT SHDBNDSKDN

• SEEING HOW SHY AND EMBARRASSED YOU ARE BY HIM AND HE JUST LOVES SEEING YOU LIKE THIS ,, YOU BET MY LAST $3 THAT HE’D TEASE THE HECK OUT OF YOU

• “aigoo, my beautiful girlfriend looks even more beautiful than usual tonight. did you dress up especially for me?”

• I want to kms

• you’d just smack his arm and walk away, trying to hide your face. “let’s go buy the tickets before the show starts, you twerp…”

• the smile on his face would just become wider and he’d catch up with you, naturally reaching out for your hand and intertwining them together

• where the fuck did that nervous dipshit go and where the fuck did he find such confidence to become such a cheesy little shit

• jaemin also bought popcorn and drinks for the both of you and being the cheesy lil shit insist y'all share the drink with two straws while giving the excuse “i wouldnt be able to finish mine if we bought two” 

 • “I can buy my share myself” 

 • “nonono it’s too late for that now the movie is about to start and the line for the snacks is now really long lets go babe you don’t wanna miss out the beginning of the movie”

 • he holds your hand and leads you both inside the theatre and to your seats • “what are we watching again” 

 • “the conjuring 2” 

 • TOTALLY NOT TEN AND JOHNNY’S SUGGESTION 

 • “hmm,, ok… wAIT WHAT” 

 • you stared at him wide eyed and jaemin suddenly looked remorseful and he regrets everything especially listening to his hyungs who probably learnt all their “techniques” and “moves” from watching too much corny chick flick and kdrama 

 • “sorry, I should’ve asked you. do you want to leave right now? I can get tickets to see another movie.” 

 • THIS BOY IS LEGIT READY TO GET UP AND GET YOU TICKETS TO WATCH ZOOTOPIA IN THE THEATRE NEXT DOOR 

 • HE WILL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU 

 • but your cheapskate ass just grabs him and pulled him back down in his seat but not letting go of his hand 

 • “its fine jaemin, ive seen the trailer and my friends say it’s pretty good. let’s enjoy this movie shall we? haha.”

• though your face say yes but heart say no, jaemin was reluctant but eventually decided to sit back down when the lights went off

• “but if the movie gets too scary and you dont feel like watching it anymore you can always tell me, ok y/n? we could have dinner early or something, i’ll bring you some place nice.”

• instead of watching in the beginning of the movie, jaemin was watching you the entire time with a stupid smile of his face despite worrying over the fact that you might be scarred for life

• eventually you caught him and you had to forcefully make him stare ahead at the big screen instead. at first he was pretending but soon enough he was immersed in it

• this dipshit istg

• when the climax of the movie came, you knew what was going to happen and you immediately grabbed jaemin’s hand while following your instincts and hid behind his shoulder

• he was caught off guard at first lmao since he was too immersed in the movie that he nearly forgot that hes on a date 

• after realising you had grabbed his hand and possibly squeeze it for as long as the climax part of the movie lasted, he blushed and tries to bite back a smile from forming on his face

• and when he turned to look at you, seeing that you’ve curled up in the seat, ears covered with your other hand and eyes squeezed shut, he was this close into melting into a puddle of goo because you looked so cute and squishy and he just wants to hold you 

• and he did 

• i am trying not to scream as i type this 

• he skillfully wrapped his arm around your shoulders and pulled you into his embrace, stroking your hair as he teases you “aigoo my big baby i told you we should’ve watched something else instead.”

• you both went on to watch the movie like that, you clinging onto him like your life depended on it and him enjoying every second of it and lowkey wishes the movie to be longer

• when the creepy music in the background began to play as the second climax arrive, you were already gripping onto jaemin’s arm. being the perfect boyfriend material he is, he covered your ears. (BASICALLY JUST LIKE THE WAY SUNGJAE DID TO JOYIN WGM WHILE THEY WERE WATCHING A MOVIE I MISS THEM SO MUCH)

• but as soon as it was over (after all that exorcism and shit and everything becomes brighter), you’ll just look up and blush in embarrassment cos jaemin was staring back at you with a smug look on his face tHIS LITTL E SHIT

• you also notice that there are red marks on his arm from where you were grabbing him so you gasped and began apologizing for nearly tearing his arm apart during the movie while gently stroking his arm while rambling on and on about how sorry you are and also complimenting how he’s practically hairless 

• apparently you were rambling on too much that he couldn’t take it??? not in a bad wAY BUT it wasn’t just your rambles that was driving him crazy 

• it was your moving lips

• yes LiPSSSS gIRL YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS

• YOU GUESSED IT

• he kissed you 

• to shut you up 

• and to also finally man up and kiss you like how he should’ve 3 weeks ago when you both started dating

• mmMm gotta get me a guy like jaemin A++

• you were too stunned to kiss him back so you just stared at him wide eyed when he pulled away

• “i-what-huh-wait, jaemin-what-” you poor confused child

• “how did you know peach was my favorite flavor.” he wipes the corner of his lips as he said that with a shit eating grin, causing you to turn crimson.

• “what are you kids still doing here? the movie is over; leave.” 

• whoops 

• so basically that was how jaemin found his confidence and that was just only the beginning of this cute relationship and he just adores the heck out of you and loves you to bits you guys are practially engaged in his head and he hopes that not only you’ll be his first love you’ll also be his last iTSNT THAT THE CUTEST THING EVER

• i am crying blooODdd i hope you guys enjoyed this like how i enjoyed torturing myself ㅠㅠ

[mjeeeeyvibes]

Bakit single ka

( i am writing this letter to confide everything)

so okay i really didn’t know where to start.

Recently, there are some people who asked me, “bakit hindi ka pa naglalovelife Joy, mahal mo pa ba yung ex mo?” and that was really a slap in my face. And i really asked my self na, BAKIT NGA BA? 

so let me detailed everything here are the reasons why:

1. I NO LONGER LOVE MY EX , pero there are times or moments na namimiss ko sya, IT’S NORMAL OKAY. memories hurt duhh but it’s no longer that painful as it was before, shit goes on pare. 

2. I had been in a dating app before so okay madami din ako nameet na THE ONE, the one na kekemeen ka, the one na chenes lang, the one na kemberlu chimay, AND THE ONE WHOM I THOUGHT keber keber. gaga eh. this second phrase will be kinda okay, quiet long bc i want to give emphasis to the things they always said about “HINDI KA NAMAN GANYAN DATE NUNG KAYO NI ADRIAN”  (lol people change guys grow up) and so here it goes, YUP, okay okay i am partying, drink til i drop, get high and so on BEFORE, but it is not because that i am still hurting or am dying because we broke up, helloooo it’s not just about it, it is something deeper than that, too shallow if that was my reason. if i said IDK WTD WITH MI LAYF, it means, i have no idea how i am going to figure out my career, if am on the right path? if am doing things fine? what on hell am i going to do to prove something to my parents, how do i exceed my family’s expectations? AND FUCK THAT’S IT. I’ve met someone who really hooked me hard and i thought.... i just thought lol. HAHAHAHAH (tangina @ self) but that’s how shit goes on, leeeet it go. (#DENIED #ACCEPTED #DELETED #BLOCKED)  we will always come to a certain point where we want to be with someone right? but i guess, that’s was pretty cool to be R E J E C T E D bc you’ll know what you deserved, HOW TO DEAL WITH THE IRONY OF LIFE.. soooo going back to HINDI KA NAMAN GANYAN DATE, eh omg am just exploring my limit, and then now look i am tired of partying and doing such things... i am busy figuring out my life and i almost forgot HOW TO REALLY HAVE A LIFE

3. PAGOD NA KO HANAPIN SI THE ONE (oo punyeta, naghanap ako) sabi kasi sa bible SEEK AND YE SHALL FIND, but it’s not goodie if you applied it in looking the one so wait nalang, it doesn’t matter how long it might be, so ikaw hoy, THE ONE! pag dumating kana, aba ukinam swerte mo, dami nagdaan sa buhay ko ng wala ka and i have really so much to tell to you when you really came in my life. 

4. PAGOD NA DIN AKO SA TRIAL AND ERROR , look grow up, (am being a tita na ba talaga?) pagod na ko sa mga fling, sa mga kemerlat, sa short term relationship, sa lokohan, sa gaguhan, sa walang ipon, sa puro surprise, sa pagbibigay ng regalo pag may special month or whatsoever, so if ever someone came, sorry magiging praktikal tayo sa buhay, HAHAHA (groceries lang masaya na ko) as i learned from this life, when you already encountered the worse to worst scenarios you will really appreciate the simplicity of life, yung mga ganon na eksena? na okay kahit d ako magsine, kahit hindi starbucks ang kape ko, and whatsoever, so ayun, PAGOD NA KO SA TRIAL AND ERROR RELATIONSHIP na ganon na nga.

5.MATURED NA, and yes this is it. it’s no longer about seeing each other everyday, calling and texting until 3am my ghaaad! 7am pasok ko sa work bes intindihin mo madalas OT pa. pag month end naglalaho ako. (tho am here writing this shitty-ness) yung ewan, i hope if someone came in my life he’ll understand that i’d rather stay at home and chill with him, watch news or rather NETFLIX-ing(okay oo na gastos ko to monthly but it’s my only destressing way) why go on a cozzy restau if it’s even more romantic if you cook for me (ang plastic ko sa part na to) but okay hello, reality and way of living, but as much as i want, REAL TALK LOVELIFE and that’s what is meant by MATURED NA, tho kakainggit yung may mga kacuddle chos, but as they said, “FILL YOUR AURA WITH POSITIVITY TO ATTRACT POSITIVE ENERGY” so to my the one, i hope you know this, am really trying hard to stay positive as i can pero kasi PUTANGINA ANG GULO NG MUNDO, alam mo yun  nakakapagod, am really doing my best shit pero shitty pa din.

WOW DAMI KO TIME AH