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Fop redesigns for funsies but also bcs I saw some star heel boots and had to put Dale in them immediately.
#No Dev in this lineup simply bcs I cannot imagine him wearing anything but his cannon outfit#he has no sense of fashion or personal identity to pull an outfit from LOL#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#hazel wells#dale dimmadome#fop peri#fop cosmo#fop wanda#redesigns#outfit redesign#art#digital art#fanart#Im not gonna be using Dale or Peris redesigns bcs those arent things I see them wearing regularly they were more just fun explorations#Hazel Cosmo and Wanda im def using tho#I know I didnt change Wanda much but#I have a small but insane pet peeve where I cannot stand a characters pants and shirt being the same color.#So I made Hazels sweater more purple and changed her pants to a different and darker blue#Gave cosmo a more relaxed dad vibe while keeping it a button up#Wandas mostly the same I just mostly used her human outfit and changed her sneakers to boots#Peri has less visible fairy features than his parents because hes more insistent about hiding them#Also if Peri looks uncomfortable in his outfit it is because he is ā„#I wrote like an entire paragraph about Peris relationship with gender identity and how fairy society biology/gender binary comes in conflic#and then I pussied out of posting it so now all you get is peri looking kinda uncomfy in a skirt#The long story short of it tho is that Peri identifies as the human version of male#while the closest he can get to that in fairy society is kind of transfem#So dressing like that around other fairies is closer to making him feel himself but still not entirely right
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I kind of want to either write or read a time travel fix-it fic where it's Tobirama who travels back in time - BUT it's not Tobirama's POV. He's only a side character. It's mainly focused on Madara and Hashirama. Occasionally Mito, Izuna, Touka
This post got real fucking long so here's a read more
Just a really funny fic where you never quite get to see what Tobirama is doing, because he's not the POV character and the other characters don't know/don't pay attention to what he's up to. But like he is doing important stuff yk he's taking advantage of that future knowledge
For example:
Madara and Hashirama meeting at the river. They've figured out/confessed to their respective clans and are discussing peace and who in their clan might or might not support them
Madara asks about Tobirama and Hashirama is like "Hm? Tobirama? Honestly I don't think he cares about the Senju-Uchiha war at all. He's far too occupied with his own war against the mold youkai."
"....The what?"
(It's not too obvious from Hashirama's POV that Tobirama keeps sneakily fucking up Zetsu's machinations, but what's significantly more difficult to ignore is that Tobirama is increasingly getting ambushed by White Zetsu drones ('mold youkai') - that he eliminates with extreme prejudice and alarming fury)
Just, stuff like that. Main plot is making peace, focused on most of the main family EXCEPT Tobirama (who is otherwise occupied and is thus rarely focused on much) and possibly Izuna. So it's all stuff about battles between the Senju and Uchiha, probably having to deal with internal issues as well (Butsuma/Tajima? Elders? Coup/assassination attempts?) and plotting how they could possibly get peace, it's stuff like negotiating with the Uzumaki + Mito's marriage to Hashirama, it's the Uchiha having to deal with one of their allied clans turning on them (barely noticed sub-plot during this where Tobirama is trying to prevent/rectify the sabotage Zetsu did to the Uchiha's fancy tablet), it's about planning for their eventual village (Hashirama finds notes on plumbing on his desk, written in Tobirama's hand - when the fuck did he have time for that? where did he even learn about plumbing?), it's about trying to get the Daimyo on side, it's about all the politics of trying to get other clans to move into the village too, it's about ah fuck bloodline thieves discovered there were plans for a shinobi village in the works and are doing a frantic attempt to kidnap/'harvest' as much as possible before the bloodline clans are too protected in the planned village so now we have to deal with this fucking trafficking ring...
The sub-plot is an Tobiizu fic where Izuna is (correctly) CONVINCED that Tobirama is Up To Something, and (incorrectly) decided it's malicious to the Uchiha et al, and has taken it upon himself to investigate and Stop Tobirama's Evil Plans At All Costs
Longsuffering Tobirama is far too busy for Izuna's bullshit. He's attempting to prevent/stop/counteract Zetsu's machinations, he's trying to kill Zetsu, he's trying to destroy the big old statue (yk the one I mean, idk what it's called, if it has a name), he's trying to make sure the bijuu are all safe and Won't get sealed into jinchuuruki OR the aforementioned statue...
(he gets distracted for a bit with a side project wherein he decides actually it would be really funny for him to convert the cave the big statue was in, into a place for the kyuubi to hang out. that takes him quite a while since he has to run Zetsu out (so many White Zetsu drones...), destroy the statue, alter the place accordingly, and then find and convince the kyuubi that actually this is a great idea - without the kyuubi just fucking eating him)
...he's trying to make life easier for Madara and Hashirama (oh, Butsuma died from a mysterious illness right before he could enact his incredibly stupid plan against the Uchiha? damn. what a shame. anyway-), he's having to reinvent everything he remembers from last time he lived through this shit because whilst some of those jutsus/techniques/inventions (cough, Edo Tensei, cough) aren't strictly necessary, some of them are VERY MUCH NEEDED
That takes. So much time. Luckily Tobirama doesn't have to do all the research over again, since he remembers it and it's incredibly unlikely anyone will call him out on it (....except Mito with regards to certain seals. he very begrudgingly does research and writes notes and invents plausible-mistakes-that-could-have-been-a-first-attempt) so for the most part he can skip straight to inventing or writing out the final project/knowledge
Some of Zetsu's machinations are incredibly annoying to counter, actually. Like at some point the blasted weed installed/had nearly installed a puppet ruler in Land of Water which, what? Why? Urgh
(Please imagine the absolutely incredible amounts of suspicion and incredulous disbelief and paranoia etc that Izuna is aiming Tobirama's way once he (eventually) discovers that the 'White Demon' is seemingly MESSING WITH POLITICS RE: WHO RULES A FOREIGN NATION?!?!?! is nobody else seeing this!! Izuna is NOT CRAZY look at this bullshit somebody needs to stop him-!)
So long story short Tobirama has a LOT on his plate and he is so so incredibly stressed. Somebody help this man. None of this shit is helped by the fact that
a) Zetsu realised very rapidly that someone was fucking with his plans, and promptly started trying to kill Tobirama off, or failing that, sabotage Tobirama's plans in turn
(thus the years long and increasingly violent 'war against mold youkai' that starts when Tobirama is like, ridiculously young, and Hashirama casually mentions to Madara)
b) Izuna. Just, Izuna. He's fucking obsessed with Tobirama (why) and also the most paranoid person ALIVE it sometimes seems, and he just, won't stop, sticking his nose in Tobirama's business, how does he seem to be fucking EVERYWHERE doesn't he have anything else to do it's not like Izuna even knows the shadow clone jutsu how is he doing this why-
(Izuna like. What could possibly be more important to my rival than ME. And anyway he can't possibly be doing anything GOOD so it's for the best I intervene really this is entirely altruistic-)
c) amongst all this, Tobirama still has to somehow maintain at least a vague, plausibly deniable, belief that he's like. A regular person, involved in only normal things. Because if anyone finds out what he's really doing, or what Zetsu really is, or that he's from the future (IZUNA GET YOUR NOSE OUT OF-), then that introduces just. SO MANY new moving parts and this is already fucking complicated enough as it is, alright? Yeah yeah yeah teamwork makes the dream work, two heads are better than one, etc, but this is essentially a war of information and manipulation between Zetsu and Tobirama and when your main power is info+manipulation the fucking LAST thing you want is more moving parts + more people who could leak info/know your info/unintentionally fuck up your (future) knowledge. No. As much as possible he has to do this on his own. Which means he needs to act like he's doing nothing at all. Actually spend time with his family, be seen running normal missions sometimes, help in clan matters, attend the Senju-Uchiha battles when relevant...
Which is all really really hard when there's only so much time in the day. And Zetsu doesn't have to worry about 'spending time with family' or anything so any time Tobirama spends doing that instead of working towards destroying Zetsu's shit is-
(thank fuck Tobirama still remembers how he invented shadow clones, is all he can say. thank fuck for that)
Over time Tobirama increasingly gets a handle on his terrifyingly long to-do list, which means that 'Izuna is being really annoying and following me almost all the time' moves up his priority list. Eventually Tobirama figures out that the easiest way to get Izuna to stop GETTING IN THE GODDAMN WAY is to just. Humour him. Give him attention. Yes yes you are the most important person in my life and all this inconvenient shit is just stopping me from devoting my energy to fighting you now if you could just put that lady over there under a genjutsu and- (Tobirama trying to get Izuna to help un-fuck Land of Water, it only sort of works)
At some point they fuck because Tobirama's stress levels are at an all-time high and he needs SOME sort of outlet. (Could be entirely sane+consensual (relatively. given who we're talking about) or it could be dubcon) and Izuna actually chills the fuck out for an entire ten hours afterwards. Amazing. Clearly they'll have to do this again
So they do
(yandere4yandere tobiizu for the win. Tobirama starts out normal (again, relatively, considering who we're talking about) whilst Izuna approached everything about Tobirama in a completely sideways obsessive way from the start, but Tobirama gradually starts to also get more obsessive/possessive over time. Like what do you mean the one person who has followed me unquestioningly for years and wants to kill me and kissed me yesterday and volunteered to help me fight a bijuu might LEAVE?? no. fuck you)
(Izuna with a hiraishin marker tattoo-)
anyway back to 'things even further complicating Tobirama's life':
optional letter d) Tobirama is trying so hard to seem normal and not like he's from the future or fighting an evil mold-plant-creature that wants to revive his mom from the moon. So, so hard. But alas, facts work against him
Like, I mean, imagine from an in-universe perspective. There's this guy with really weird colouring, he's known as the 'White Demon', he's better at suiton than anyone else alive and if you've seen him even SLIGHTLY try it's terrifying (think: drowning on dry land, sudden rain/storm/tsunami, blood ripped from a dozen bodies in half as many seconds-), there's? more than one of him? HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE and he's so fucking hard to kill but even when you kill him he just. doesn't. die. (friendly reminder that Tobirama is abusing shadow clones like nobody's business in an attempt to stay on top of his insane amount of work to do -> yk, the jutsu he invented, that doesn't work like any other clone jutsu, and that in this timeline he has thus far told nobody about. someone destroys a shadow clone and is incredibly alarmed that theres 1) no corpse 2) the White Demon is STILL ALIVE after they KNOW they killed him?!)
There's also rumours about him fighting/negotiating with bijuu, and quite a few witnesses to his ongoing war with 'mold youkai'
The majority of people (excepting like, people he's close to in his own clan, plus Izuna and possibly a few others) aren't sure he ever sleeps or eats or drinks, and wounds don't seem to last long (healing jutsu from the future + whilst he's sleeping/eating his shadow clone(s) are still out and about)
Then there's the insane amount of knowledge and jutsu and inventions he offers-
Long story short on top of everything else, Tobirama doesn't have to deal with people knowing he's from the future or about the whole issue with Zetsu
....He DOES have to deal with basically svery person in existence being 100% convinced he's not human, though
#tobiizu#my own posts#senju tobirama#time travel fix it#for the purposes of this fic zetsu + kaguya would exist but not the rest of the ootsutsuki bc. no. no more space aliens one is bad enough#also ignoring the whole indra+ashura reincarnation thing the sage did bc. no. this fic idea is more than complicated enough as is#anyway yeah ill probably never write this bc its way too many things at once for me to keep track of and id have to do all this worldbuildin#worldbuilding and OCs and stuff but. god i wish it existed. i want to read it#maybe ill at least TRY to plan or write it some day...#if someone else wrote it tho thatd be epic. link me if u do thatd be so cool#but yeah im just cracking up at like. izuna going insane. most of the cast having no idea tobirama is doing anything notable at all rlly#beyond his inventions and occasional paperwork. a longsuffering Tobirama with an IMMENSE workload giving someone the most#dead-eyed stare ever when they try to ask what manner of being he is
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Nothing to see here just steph stealing glances of klay like heās afraid heās going to get caught šš (via namxsj on twitter )
#nba#golden state warriors#dallas mavericks#steph curry#klay thompson#steph/klay#ok first of all oh my god#secondly i need asg week to be NEOW actually I donāt think im capable of waiting til feb#both teams have kinda been floundering (mavs to a lesser extent but still) and I am growing Impatient for the reunion !!#also the buddy hield cycle being proven right for the 4th(?) time. lmao. some of those dumbasses rlly thought they got prime klay back#the victory lapping after beating the blazers jazz pelicans and pelicans was like nothing I had ever seen#especially towards a fucking legend !! like klay fucking thompson !!!!#no one not even pr-trained to high hell steph curry himself could ever convince me that heās hopeful or even okay with this bullshit#he needs klay. klay needs him. they need each other and always have but itās looking more and more likely that steph is#gonna go out like kobe while klay is gonna gonna keep chasing the ghost of pre-injury self#that last part felt so wrong to type out because i personally think heās been everything you could want and more from a guy#who went thru everything that he went thru and#his comeback is probably my favorite comeback story in any sport ever of all time bc itās such a fairy tale. and it also actually HAPPENED#!!!!!!!!!!!!#ppl talk abt the injuries like they happened to him and then he just disappeared forever like no bitch !!!!#he came back and they won it all that same year !! led the league in 3pm the year after that !!!!!! led the league in ft% the year#after that n ppl still acting like he adds virtually no value to any team that wants to win a chip when in reality that couldnāt be further#from the truth#I wrote it like that because I get the sense that they both look a little lost/confused at times and I canāt help but think that#losing embarrassingly or not they might at least be in better spirits (if nothing else) if they still had each otherās company#oh well. lol#ok I think thatās everything I had and a million sorrys if this post exploded on ur dash i wish I could turn off my stupid sports rpf brain#but I canāt ā¤ļø#wishing every happiness to the two of them tho theyāre my babiest girls frfr#nik's rants
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Ok so last week I saw the videos/screenshots talking about fop Peri which got me a bit curious about this show, and after seeing āBattle of the Dimmsonianā and especially the Cosmo-Wanda-Peri part of āLost in Fairy Worldā (thereās someone on Tumblr posting clips of all the Peri-centric moments since his debut), I was genuinely impressed with how the characters were written and I wanted to gush about them! On top of doing some overanalysis of those characters. Btw I also saw some clips from āOperation: Birthday Takebackā (again the Cosmo-Wanda-Peri side of it).
So hereās a post talking about Cosmo and Wandaās relationship with Peri, Peri in general, Peri with Dev and a few other random thoughts about the early episodes given this made me start to watch the show (ended up making it its own post), though I havenāt gone far yet (Iām on like episode 5-6, which is episode 4a or something). On that note, take what I say in this post with a HUGE grain of salt since I donāt have the full context for Devās character arc.
Tl;Dr: The Fairywinkle-Cosmas are adorable, loving but also realistic in their portrayal.
Peri is the definition of ā20 years-old who recently left his parentsā homeā and I love him for it.
Dev and Peri are a terrible match due to Periās inexperience, Dev not taking him seriously, and Devās daddy issues making it hard for him to connect with a fairy who has loving parents.
(Btw on top of the characters moments, what made me start to watch the show is also the fact itās apparently incredibly wholesome and fun + apparently the writers of āInfi//nity Trainā worked on it (and if thatās true itās crazy how nobody is talking about it to bring in new fans; I mean remember when the Duck//tales reboot came out and everyone pointed out how the writers of Gra//vity Falls worked on it? We should do the same thing here, at least again if itās true) + Hartman isnāt involved and itās hilarious how the creator of those characters not getting involved is a good thing)
Oh and spoilers for āBattle of the Dimmsonianā, āLost in Fairy Worldā and āOperation: Birthday Takebackā! (4.6k Words below)
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Ok so āLost In Fairy Worldā and why I love its charactersā writing so much. Iām actually going to start by the lesson at the end and build from there as it seems like the best way to get a train of thought going.
So the lesson of the episode for me was basically a ānew hire vs experienced employeesā with a second layer added due to the three fairies being family, and thatās already something I really appreciate!
By the end of the episode, Cosmo and Wanda learn that they need to back off and let Peri do his thing. Heās an adult, he got hired for a reason, let him do his own trial and error and learn his own way. But at the same time, Peri shouldnāt be afraid to ask for help or advice if he needs it, the more experienced people are here for that! And again, thereās the family layer to that discussion that I really like, with Cosmo and Wanda being particularly clingy bc Peri is their son, while Peri is particularly embarrassed to ask them for help because theyāre his parents, probably not helped by the fact he likely very recently left their home and seeks his independence.
And thatās another thing I absolutely love after watching this episode and āBattle of the Dimmsonianā, with āOperation: Birthday Takebackā adding to it as well: Honestly, Peri has to be one of the most realistic depictions of ā20-something who just left his parentsā houseā Iāve ever seen (yeah I donāt watch much stuff outside of cartoons, working on that). They somehow managed to make him very clearly be an adult with adult responsibilities, all the while giving him a level of inexperience and immaturity that reminds you heās still young.
Giving some examples, the way he talks in general makes it obvious heās an adult, and when introducing himself to Dev + telling him he canāt visit Fairy World in āLost in Fairy Worldā, he has that suave put-together personality to himself. But at the same time this suave personality crumbles the second Dev opens him mouth.
And on top of that, Periās one day into his job and his already exhausted, spends the entirety of his debut episode worrying about what his parents will think of his career choice, and in stressful situations tends to turn towards others for help very quickly (reading Da Rules, low-key panicking a bit and looking at his parents in āLost in Fairy Worldā, hiding when facing Vicky, moments like those).
There are also those moments where he either acts or sounds childish (with his voice even getting a bit higher), like when Wanda asks if he has a godkid plus him hiding behind his wand right before that, and earlier on when he didnāt want them to see him, the āmy wand is missingā line and tracker line in āLost in Fairy Worldā (the āsowwyā when telling them his tracker is off tho), the ending of this episode as well when he apologizes to them, also when his parents tell Jorgen that Peri did nothing wrong and he lets them take the fall, or that moment in āOperation: Birthday Takebackā when he goes āmoooomā with a whine.
Thatās actually something I absolutely love about those interactions, and why I find them realistic. It could have been SO easy for the writers to make Peri act like an adult all the time while his parents are the coddling cringy kind that make him look like a kid. But instead, it comes from both sides. You can clearly tell from how Cosmo and Wanda act that heās their baby boy, but you can also see from Periās dialogues and actions that they are his parents. And I am so happy they took this direction!
So yeah, Peri is the most āyoung adult who just left the nestā ever and I absolutely adore this characterization. Heās an adult with a job and responsibilities, but heās still young and can find himself relying on his parents or talking to them in a childish way. Such good character work!
Another thing I love about their dynamic that we see very well in āLost in Fairy Worldā is just how much those three love each other. Thatās something I did hear about this show, that it was a lot more fun and sweet (compared to the og which could be very cruel and cynical when it wanted), and you can really see it with those three.
With Cosmo and Wanda taking over Periās job, you can tell theyāre not doing it out of any malice or feeling that Peri canāt do it. Heck if you pause at the scene where Peri tells Dev he canāt go to Fairy World, after heās done talking and right before Cosmo takes another picture, you can see Cosmo and Wanda looking at Peri with the biggest smile (and itās adorable!). And itās the same with the rest of the episode. If anything, theyāre so used to taking care of godkids that they just do it out of habit, without realizing theyāre causing an issue.
Heck Iād even theorize that their behavior is partly due to their time with Timmy, hence it being a force of habit. For a long time (possibly 50 years if that one secret wish is canon), Poof/Peri was with his parents helping with Timmy, but he wouldnāt do much besides granting wishes. Poof couldnāt talk, so most of the time heād just stand there while his parents did all of the talking. I wouldnāt be surprised if some of this was the reason why Cosmo and Wanda are straight up talking over Peri in āLost in Fairy Worldā, they just got used to do so when taking care of Timmy and are now getting back into this habit.
On top of that, Cosmo and Wanda are just excited to finally be with their son again after their 10 thousand years-long vacation. Plus, when Peri does call them out, by the end of it they acknowledge their mistake and apologize, promising to back off. And while they remain cuddly towards him, from the looks of it they did stop coming in-between Peri and Dev, letting their son do his thing.
Also worth noting that, despite doting on Peri, they still very much talk to him like they would talk to an adult. Yes they hug him a lot (and I mean a lot) and call him pet names, and they were definitely excited to see him again in āLost in Fairy Worldā, but other than that they clearly respect him as an adult, listening to him and trusting him. Iām not going to list examples because itās basically every dialogue in which they donāt ābabyā him. That being said I feel like āOperation: Birthday Takebackā displays it the best from what Iāve seen of it.
As for Periās side on this, heās annoyed by his parents stepping in but itās obvious he doesnāt hate them at all, quite the opposite. He just wants them to take him seriously as an adult, which is understandable. Also the fact he isnāt afraid to call them out is a very good sign. On that note, I love how when telling them his tracker is off, he actually apologizes (though he doesnāt have to, his reasoning for turning it off is understandable, and I appreciate he tells them those reasons!).
Also I live for that scene at the beginning of āOperation: Birthday Takebackā when his parents ask for a tour of the house (btw love Wanda telling him theyāre ready to get him out of there if needed), they show interest in his suggestion, which makes Peri smile sheepishly. Itās such a cute moment and to me really shows Peri wanting to be seen as an adult and enjoying being seen that way by them, but also how heās clearly attached to them! Idk itās just a very cute moment! I love those three!
Also kind of a last minute addition before moving to Peri and Dev but looking at āOperation: Birthday Takebackā, I canāt help but laugh at how at the very beginning, the second the godkids are doing their own thing, Cosmo and Wanda throw themselves at their son. Itās very sweet. Also I love the implication that theyāre here bc theyāre Hazelās godparents and need to stay with her, but also they really wanted any excuse to see their son!
And the reason why I say last minute addition is because this made me realize that Cosmo and Wanda do act pretty differently towards the godkids compared to Peri, which I find to be an interesting detail that makes their characters more complex in a way. Like yes, Cosmo and Wanda are very parental types, but to an extent you can see a line between them being with their godkids, who they are here to mentor and steer in the right direction for a few months until the kid is happy, and them being with their son, who they raised from infancy and isnāt going anywhere.
Now thatās not to say that Cosmo and Wanda donāt love their godkids, itās obvious how much they adore those kids and care for them and probably remember each and every single one of them, but yeah you can still see a bit of a difference. At the very least, from what Iāve seen so far they canāt help but hug Peri literally everytime they have an excuse to do so, while having a bit more boundaries with Hazel.
But again, thatās a last minute thought and Iāve only seen a handful of episodes, so I might be wrong on that. Take it with a grain of salt. Still, I find it interesting to have those characters who are basically social workers and how thereās a bit of a difference between the kids they take care of for their ājobā and the kid they have in their personal life. Again, thatās not to say they arenāt attached to the godkids, they are.
But yeah, all of this to say, the way the Fairywinkle-Cosma family is written in āLost in Fairy Worldā honestly blew me away and really got me invested into watching this show, with āBattle of the Dimmsonianā and āOperation: Birthday Takebackā only adding to it (and Iām probably looking way too much into this and making it sound like the writing of this episode is much deeper than it actually is; Iām obsessed with this disaster (affectionate) of a family, help).
As for the part about Peri and Dev, basically thereās an element of Cosmo and Wanda talking over Peri in āLost in Fairy Worldā that I wanted to explore, but then āOperation: Birthday Takebackā came out and thereās that moment in the ābreakupā scene where Dev talks about his father not noticing his fairy while Peri is being hugged by his parents in the background. And while this is a visual gag, Cosmo and Wandaās action in this scene actually fits very well thematically and made me realize something about how Dev might feel about Peri.
So now youāre getting a whole section about how Dev and Peri are a terrible match for each other, due to three main reasons:
1. The one everyone already talked about, Peri is severly underqualified. While you could say heās been a godparent since he was a baby, back then all he did was grant wishes while his parents dealt with the talking + emotional support. Not only was he doing a small part of the job, he also had his parents, other more qualified fairies, helping him. Also the scene with Vicky tells us that Peri doesnāt have the best memories of his time as a baby, which is fair enough.
(note that I believe he was 7-8 years old when he had to say goodbye to Timmy, so he does remember him. As for Vicky, Timmyās parents likely stopped hiring her once their son was 13-14, hence why Peri only has blurry memories of her, he wouldāve been a toddler at best by then)
So yeah, Dev is Periās first kid, and Peri is not qualified for him. He loses his patience with the cupcakes, bites back when Dev is short and snappy with him (the classroom scene at the end of the āunder//taleā episode, yeah I havenāt watched this one outside of this scene; and the beginning of āOperation: Birthday Takebackā with the flying shoes) and donāt get me started on Peri telling Dev in āBattle of the Dimmsonianā to give the staff back because āwhat will my parents say if my first godkid dies on me!ā
Like PERI??? MAYBE DONāT SAY TO THE KID WITH ABANDONMENT ISSUES THAT YOU ONLY CARE ABOUT HIS WELLBEING BECAUSE YOU WANT TO IMPRESS YOUR PARENTS??? JUST A THOUGHT???
(note that I do believe Peri cares for Dev, itās just that what he says here really comes off as him not caring, and since Dev is the one hearing what Peri says in that scene...)
Also obviously thereās the ending of āOperation: Birthday Takebackā. Tbh I donāt blame Peri much for this one since, again, heās severely underqualified, but yeah his response to Devās wish was not the right one, which is reflected by Dev reacting with a frustrated scream which honestly made me feel bad for this kid. Peri going āas you wishā is just too distant and āprofessionalā. Thatās a kid in a vulnerable state! He needed comfort! Sure Peri had to go because Dev literally wished for it, but a more qualified fairy would have known what to say, if only something along the lines of ātake all the time you need, Iāll be there for you once you feel betterā.
So yeah, Dev is deeply hurting and a complete newbie who doesnāt have the patience or positivity for it was not going to make things better.
2. What I originally wanted to say about āLost in Fairy Worldā before 3. showed its head: I think Cosmo and Wanda being around inadvertently makes things worse for the duo.
Thing is, Dev is a difficult kid. Because of that, I think that in order for him to open up to his fairy, said fairy needs to earn his respect so to speak. And not to say Devās fairy should be full on authoritative, but yeah they definitely need to be someone Dev respects and listens to, which is not the case for Peri. And I think the main reason why has to do with Periās relationship with his parents.
Basically, kids are smarter than we give them credit for and are observant as well. And what did Dev see his fairy do? Spend the first day on the job being terrified of meeting his parents who turned out to be incredibly sweet people. Then in āLost in Fairy Worldā it honestly looks like Peri, Cosmo and Wanda just wanted to catch up and brought the kids for the heck of it, and Dev gets to see his fairy being babied by his parents, along with said parents talking over him. Then as said before thereās also Peri going āmooomā in front of Dev in āOperation: Birthday Takebackā.
And about āLost in Fairy Worldā, thereās that moment in the beginning where Cosmo and Wanda tell Dev he canāt go to fairy world, only for Peri to step in and basically repeat the exact same thing as his parents (the ātrialā part from Cosmo and āI canāt let you goā from Wanda). And while this line is a joke, I do think itās important for Peri to put his foot down like that.
Because yeah, Peri is the one Dev should be listening to. Itās not just a question of āthis is Periās jobā, itās also about Dev seeing Peri as an adult. But with Cosmo and Wanda, itās a bit more complicated.
This is also another element I really like about this episode, Peri needing to be the one doing the talking so that Dev can take him seriously as a potential guardian.
But yeah, the thing is, itās not working. Periās immaturity shines with his lack of patience for the kid, which Dev picks up on, leading the two of them to get snappy with each other on āeven groundā in a way, which doesnāt help Periās case. And on top of that you have Cosmo and Wanda, who even with their eccentric side remain mature adults (and I love how them being eccentric doesnāt make them seem any less adult; love adults being allowed to have fun and be themselves without being shamed or called childish for it!).
Now as far as Iām aware the show never really talks about this, but I honestly wouldnāt be surprised if Cosmo and Wanda being around played a role in Devās perception of Peri. Not only because of them being mushy parents as previously discussed, but also because they are clearly older and more experienced than Peri, making it harder for Dev to take Peri seriously. Hopefully this makes sense?
And speaking of Dev with Cosmo and Wanda, I actually get the feeling he somewhat respects them? At least more than Peri? And on that note, thereās that scene at the very beginning of āOperation: Birthday Takebackā that I find both adorable but also pretty depressing when it comes to Dev.
When Cosmo, Wanda and Hazel show up, they ask if Devās dad is here, to which he mentions āProject Hā. And at that Cosmo makes a comment about this project being a big surprise party, and yeah this moments gets me.
Because for a second there, Dev actually smiles. He knows that what his dad is doing has nothing to do with the party, he says so himself in response to Cosmo, but he still smiles, because he understands that Cosmo is trying to cheer him up and appreciates the effort. Idk this gets me, especially also seeing the way Wanda and Peri are looking wary as Cosmo keeps talking, clearly unsure of how Dev will react.
Like am I making a big deal out of a ten seconds moment? Probably. But thereās just something about this sad kid closing himself off whenever his problems are brought up, acting like an entitled brat most of the time as a coping mechanism, yet when this random adult he vaguely knows tries to cheer him up, heās able to understand it and appreciate it. Idk, again, it just gets me. And sadly it really shows how bad of a match Peri and Dev are. Peri hasnāt been able to get any sort of progress with this kid, but the second his dad shows up and talks a bit suddenly the kid is giving a sincere smile. Yeahā¦
Now granted in regards to Dev respecting Cosmo and Wanda more, it might also have to do with them not being his godparents, considering Dev is basically using Peri as some sort of servant at times since heās a spoiled brat and all.
Finally for this part, I want to bring up that scene in the secret lair with Vicky showing up, because to me this is a very good example of Peri actually failing Dev, which in this case will make the kid not take him seriously (on top of not earning his trust and being frustrated with him).
Now I will say, I canāt blame Peri for panicking the way he does upon seeing Vicky (btw I forgot to mention it earlier but the way he goes ālalalaā and continues while turning into a drone and looking at the banging door in horror is so real. Again Peri is peak young adult energy). Heās had to deal with that woman since he was a literal infant, of course heās going to be traumatized!
Still, Dev doesnāt know that. All he knows is that thereās this scary lady his and Hazelās fairies know about, but he has no idea what history is between them outside of āshe was terrible to our previous kid and scares usā. Also heās 10 and has a bad home-life making him selfish, I donāt think he can fully understand the adults around him being traumatized.
But yeah, all this to say, in this scene, Peri is completely paralyzed, hiding behind the others waiting for Vicky to leave, letting his parents do the talking. And yep, we yet again go back to Cosmo and Wanda being the mature adults around here. Also worth noting that once Vicky puts on the nice act, Hazel stops being afraid of her but Dev still looks intimidated!
In that moment, Peri should have been there to protect Dev. Thatās his job as a godfairy. His kid was scared and in potential danger. Yet Peri did absolutely nothing. Instead he stayed hidden, technically behind his kid which means using Dev as cover, and who came to both his and Devās rescue? Cosmo and Wanda, the other two fairies in the room, who are clearly more mature and are Periās parents.
And again, I donāt blame Peri for being paralyzed in fear like that, but how do you explain that to Dev? How do you tell that kid that heās braver than his adult magical all-powerful fairy? That while he had to stand and somewhat confront Vicky, that adult fairy thatās supposed to protect him went hiding behind mommy and daddy? Hell from what Iāve seen, earlier in the episode the kids do stand up to Vicky, which makes Periās actions worse!
So yeah, hopefully this whole part makes sense as it feels a bit like a mess. The main takeaway here is that Dev needs a fairy that he can see as an almost parental figure, someone he clearly views as an adult and respects as such, that way he can have someone he can trust and be comfortable with, easing him into breaking down his walls. But Peri isnāt any of that. Heās a young adult which makes him still quite immature, and on top of that his parents basically live next door, thus leading Dev to see his fairy getting treated like a kid. It just canāt work out between them as long as they stay like that.
3. Finally, the part related to that moment of Dev talking about his dad while looking at the fairies: Dev has some serious daddy issues related to his father never paying attention to him on account of being a piece of shit who only cares about himself. And the thing is, Dev doesnāt have anyone he can relate to on that front (saying this since itās hard for him to open up, so having someone with similar issues could be a bit of a push for him).
Hazel has caring parents whose main issue is being busy, on top of her fairies who clearly love her and spend a lot of time taking care of her. Now I havenāt seen much of the school kids but also Dev isnāt exactly close to any of them apparently? Meaning that in any case he canāt relate to them.
Then thereās this fairy that shows up, meant to cater to him but also help him emotionally, and wouldnāt you know this guy talks about wanting to impress his parents and being afraid of them! No but seriously, thinking about it, I canāt help but wonder if for a moment Dev thought he and Peri could bond over family issues, at least subconsciously. But nope! As soon as Peri reunites with his folks, turns out theyāre the sweetest most loving parents ever.
Iām actually surprised that from the looks of it the show doesnāt draw a parallel between Dev and Peri on that front. I mean you have a kid with an incredibly absent parent who wants nothing more than to get his dadās attention, being taken care of by a fairy who finds his parentsā attention suffocating and just wants them to leave him alone. Thereās interesting storytelling potential here, especially when taking into account how much those two struggle to get along (basically Periās family situation making Dev feel worse in a way due to his confusion as to why Peri puts a bit of distance between himself and his parents)
Which loops back to that scene at the end of āOperation: Birthday Takebackā with Peri getting hugged by his parents while Dev is opening up about his daddy issues and how this visual gag fits the theme of the scene. Dev is feeling like shit about his father not loving him meanwhile the fairy thatās supposed to take care of him is being cuddled by his incredibly loving parents who adore him.
On that note, thereās an element I havenāt touched on in this episode, and itās the fact that Hazel and Dev were in trouble with Vicky but didnāt have their fairies to protect them due to the trio visiting the house. While this scene is another example of Peri failing Dev, what I find most interesting about it is the fact that Peri āabandonedā Dev to spend time with his parents. Idk, I canāt help but think that this detail twists the knife even further for Dev. Not only was his fairy not here to protect him, but his absence is due to him hanging out with his parents who love him and wanted to spend time with him.
Speaking of which, I wonder if Dev is also angry at the fact that Cosmo and Wanda are able to take care of Hazel and be there for her whenever she needs while still finding the time to hang out with their son and be involved in his life. In a way itās further proof that Dale is an atrocious parent, at least when taking into account Devās pov since I doubt a kid his age spends a lot of time hanging out with other parents, so Cosmo and Wanda are basically the only couple he can compare his father to. Basically I could see Dev noticing how much Cosmo and Wanda do and it making him feel even worse about why his dad doesnāt love him the same.
But yeah all this to say, just like everyone else in his life, Peri canāt understand Devās issues with his father, issues that are the core reason why he has a fairy in the first place. On top of that, Peri not only has the one thing Dev wants, but the kid sees him push it away on numerous occasions.
And thatās the end of what I wanted to say here. Hopefully this isnāt too much of a mess since Iām writing this while sick + sleep-deprived due to illness + havenāt watched much of the show past a few episodes and the clips on Tumblr.
On that note, yet again please take this post with a grain of salt, especially the Dev-Peri part. I originally just planned on gushing about āLost in Fairy Worldā and how much I love the Fairywinkle-Cosma in it, but seeing the ending of āOperation: Birthday Takebackā made me want to talk a little more about Dev. That being said given how little Iāve watched thereās probably a lot Iām missing about this kid, so by no means do I think this analysis is perfect (also, the fact Iām writing this while illā¦). Now Dev does seem to be a āpredictableā character, hence why I feel somewhat comfortable writing this despite seeing so little, but again I might be wrong.
(Btw when I say Dev is predictable Iām in no way saying it negatively, quite the opposite! I love that him getting a fairy low-key made him worse, and Iām very curious as to how theyāre going to resolve him spiraling the way heās currently doing.)
In any case, thanks for reading!
#fop#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop a new wish spoilers#fop spoilers#Flor talks#long post#Fairly Oddparents#really hoping this post makes sense#like while writing I was into it but afterwards it's like 'I didn't even watch it what am I even talking about ?'#this is what happens when you just want to talk about one episode but end up bringing up three others#still happy with what I wrote tho; even if it's likely wrong#the thing I'm most 'worried' about is when I call some of this stuff realistic#can't help but be like ''but is it tho ? do I know enough to confidently say that ?''#btw since I forgot to point it out : I wrote this before seeing the Ir//ep episode; hence no mentions of it#though from the clips I've seen the thing it would bring to this post is more proof that Dev and Peri are a mess#and that Peri needs to be less immature for the sake of this child
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wildflower by billie eilish except itās post s3/4 billy feeling guilty and undeserving of steve, and almost bad for nancy? a weird sense of guilt because when he first moved to hawkins he would watch them when he thought no one was looking, lonely and yearning. wanted steve to touch him like that, treat him like that, love him like he loved her. but anytime he was caught, he panicked and spewed hate. anger was safe, anger protected him. a gay teen from california in hawkins? he didnāt have anything else to resort to. but now heās too tired to be angry at the world and too in love with steve to ever feel how he did before nearly dying. but he never quite made amends with nancy. nancy, who he wonders if steve is thinking about every time he kisses billy. who heās been too afraid to approach and talk to. who he feels hates him, and knows he doesnāt deserve steve. he knows she broke his heart, but he also knows steve pictured a life, a family with this woman. he doesnāt know if he can give steve that. billy wonders if he thinks about nancy more than steve does, too scared to ask. scared all his crazy thoughts will be confirmed. he knows sheās with jonathan, but he also knows that she was his first true love. sheās with jonathan, but he swears he feels her eyes on them whenever steve hugs, touches, kisses him. swears sheās giving them the same almost sad, wanting look he had to fight when he used to look at them.
#harringrove#billy hargrove#steve harrington#heyyy draft i wrote and forgot about like a week ago#idk man#i wish i was better at translating my thoughts into words#i just be closing my eyes and visualizing shit and feeling it to my core#but anyways the image and idea of billy yearning for steve the second he rolled into hawkins#laid eyes on him and nancy in the parking lot and knew he was fucked#he was envious of nancy and hated her at the same time and everyone thought he was taunting them to get close to nancy to piss steve off#when in reality he just wanted steve and the more he learned about steve the more he wanted#couldnāt understand why she would leave steve the same way he couldnāt understand why steve would choose him years later#but now that he has steve he still feels like heās doing something wrong#like he broke girl code or something#steveās love is billyās drug tho#i also feel like last season teased a little bit of stancy and like their nostalgia?? esp with jonathan moving
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#nvm even after exams theres not much time to draw#classwork has been fun tho :) just wish a day had more hours in it#carmen lobcorp#lobotomy corp#project moon#art i made#creepy lass i keep thinkin g about her.....#in the sketch i just wrote DISTORT DISTORT DISTORT all over n deleted it while editing the scan cus it looked concerning
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More matador!Fernando! Ferrari this time :D (I can't help myself.....)

- facial hair

+ closeups


I really wanted the vibe of this Nando pic, I think I did pretty well??

#GUYS THE BULL DO YOU NOTICE WHAT BULL DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE SUBTEXT DO YOU UNDERSTAND MY IMPLICATION#lmao tho i mostly put it there cause i saw this rly cool pic w the shadow of a bull on a matador's cape#i dont understand how i ended up making this one more intensive and detailed than the other#but im not mad cause i really like it aaahhhhhh#but i think this one took more than 6 hours and the other one was 5Ā½?#and both i ended up working until an absolutely horrible time. dont ask me what time i wrote this post#okay btw i didnt draw that embroidery. thank you medibang pattern brush now beloved š#i think it suits him!!!! i was thinking of doing stars anyways so I'm glad it worked out#two people id like to blame:#thank you 005 for accidentally reminding me of the sword!! im glad his other hand is not just idle :)#and thank you suzuki-ecstar for asking me at some point if id ever draw facial hair on nando#^ particularly the 3 Musketeers look. so thanks. i suddenly remembered and i had to draw it š#it kept shocking me how baby faced i drew him every time i took that layer off#also every time i worked on the suit red genuinely ceased being an actual color to me#its bright red right?? like very fluorescent?? but my brain kept going: is this too orange?? this isnt red right????#anyways happy with this!!!!! there were a lot more roadblocks than the other but it all worked out#but wow wish i had this level of diligence for yknow. schoolwork.#i can spend 6+ hours on a drawing straight but school? nah i give up every 20 mins or less fjfkkfl#also not abandoning my other aus or anything but i have a lot more ideas for this honestly#i think the ref pics are a lot easier and more interesting to find than for my other AUs#<- cause its so much more modern lmao. so i have a lot more inspo than trying to find ultra specific 18th century paintings#i wanna draw 3 things rn:#nando w the ceremonial cape. seb in a matador suit. and of course some silly vett//onso in this AU#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#catie.art.#fa14#matador au
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I want to write something but I am feeling totally uninspired... Does anyone have any suggestions on what I should try writing for?
#classes have started for me#and i've been doing lots of reading as of late too#i've also just been generally thinking about life#about who i am#why am i here#and have just been overall feeling kinda#sad and blue i suppose#tumblr is still one of my main places to run to whenever i'm too stressed to dio anything tho#i just wish i wrote more tho#ā„ļø girlie says
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#[whispering] is it worse when blogs go on a hiatus or when they just slowly slow their posts to an almost complete stop#asking for a friend ššš#lookin like i will not have time for this blog tilā¦ā¦. like fuckin november#two months late to my own one year celebration lol#iām quiet yāall are quiet the fandom be quiet cos itās two years since new content#im still v much obsessed w steve tho lol#but u can tell the energy here (online in general) has died#i canāt tell if it would be more annoying to do a hiatus and then just post when i get the time and energy or to not bother w a hiatus#and just continue as is#sigh sigh sigh#much to think about#jay talks#delete later#still mourning my last piece š#sheās not dead i just wish i hadnāt freakin. sigh no i did wish i wrote her i just wish things had been done differently
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YWDaC: Maybe Itās Not So Fun After All
Hiii here is part 2 of pirate shenanigans Iāll probably do one more to finish this out but it probably wonāt be for a while cuz I have some other stuff I wanna work on so enjoy for now āØ
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Ingredients: pirate battle, wood splinters in a guy, stitches
The next few weeks were truly a learning experience, and also just an experience. Castys learned far more than he ever thought there was to know about ropes and knots and wind and how to clean things, all while his back slowly hurt less and less. He hadnāt even been whipped that much, but it was still super unfun as an experience, enough to motivate him to be a good little pirate. Well, more like a sailor, they hadnāt done any pirate activities since he was so kindly given a spot on the crew.
And of course when battle did come, he wished he could go right back to the peaceful days of hard labor and yelling.
Kamon had been teaching him to use a sword during their free time, since Castysās spear wasnāt well suited for combat aboard a crowded ship, but before he even got a chance to use it, the ships had to fire their cannons at each other a bunch. It was loud, somehow way louder than heād been expecting, and his arms burned from carrying ammunition up from the hold. By the time the fun part started, he was already gonna be exhausted, just great.
His new orders were to take supplies up to the main deck, and he was somehow surprised that there was even more chaos and yelling up here than down below. They were getting pretty close to the other ship now, and it was probably almost time to board them and steal all their shit, which he was actually excited for. Mainly the stealing part.
Just as he set the crate down, there was a loud crack next to him, and his body lit up with all these sharp little pains, likeā¦he looked down, and he was indeed covered in splinters. They were a wonderful variety of sizes, from tiny little ones that werenāt even making him bleed to ones that were as long as his hand, but the worst one had poked completely through his fucking cheek, filling his mouth with the taste of wood and blood, which was a weird combination. Ears ringing, he stumbled away from the destroyed railing, and was just about to start pulling the splinters out before he remembered the medicās stern warning to not pull splinters out yourself. So he had a cheek piercing for now, hooray.
Before heād made it back belowdecks, Captain Izogie called for everyone to get ready to board, so nevermind to hauling stuff. Castys pulled out the sword heād been given, the weight still feeling a little unnatural, but it was all he was gonna get. He saw some dudes climbing up the rigging and swinging over on ropes, but heād rather just wait and walk over on the plank like a normal person. Was boarding another ship a normal person thing? Okay, really, swinging looked fun, but he didnāt feel like climbing when he was full of holes that were full of wood. Also he didnāt trust himself to land without breaking something.
And then it was his turn to cross the plank, running so he didnāt have time to look down and think about falling into the cold ocean, jumping down into the chaos of the fight, trying his best to weave through the clashing metal and warm spurts of blood, and suddenly he was face-to-face with someone, someone he didnāt recognize, and he raised his sword, but just as he was about to swing he remembered that heād never fought another human, not for real, and he couldnāt help but hesitate, and they didnāt, they swung, he only jumped back at the last second, it was them or him, he had to fight, remember what heād learned, remember what it felt like to slice through flesh and hear screams, and it was more familiar once he did it, coming back to him now, his grip steady as he jumped over the body and moved on, belowdecks, rummaging around for valuables, helping his crewmates pry crates open and carry them back to the ship, the wood almost slipping out of his hands, when did they get slick with blood, he wasnāt sure, it was all a haze of back and forth, up and down, fight and slash and stab and dodge and search and carry and he almost walked back across the plank onto the now-sinking ship, all of its contents plundered, all of its crew dead.Ā
The fight was over, and everything hurt.Ā
With shaky hands, he tried to put his sword back in its scabbard, but someone stopped him. āClean your blade, newbie. And then go see the doc. You look like shit.ā Castys nodded, wiping the blood from his sword with his shirt before sheathing it and stumbling belowdecks. Maybe heād get less of a share of the treasure this way, but at the moment he didnāt care. He just wanted the damn splinters out. And the gash in his arm probably needed stitches, which were always his favorite.Ā
He found Alfynās quarters without much trouble, having been there before after heād been flogged on his first day. The healer was busy tending to people with more pressing wounds, so Castys just sat on the floor and watched. Alfynās healing magic was so strange to watch, the way he could just hold his hands out and make flesh rejoin the other flesh super unfamiliar to Castys. Neither of them could use magic back on the islands, so the whole concept was sorta new to him, especially this weird healing stuff. His fingers teased with the splinter through his cheek, wiggling it against his tongue. It would be kinda funny to pull it out and then try to squirt water out of the hole in his cheek, but that would require pulling it out and then finding water and also someone who would think he was funny, which sounded like a lot, so he settled for fucking with it and waiting for Alfyn.
By the time he got to him, Alfynās nose was plugged with a rag that was either completely soaked in blood or just red, but maybe it was red because it had been soaked in blood before. He looked Castys up and down, and Castys showed off his arm gash since it was very painful. Alfyn nodded, beckoning Castys to stand. āNothing youāve gotās pressing enough to use my magic on, but Iāll still get you fixed up. Youāreā¦Castys, right?ā
āThatās my name.ā Castys sat on the little table, the spots of blood on it soaking into his pants, which kind of sucked, but what wasnāt dirty on this ship, anyway? āSo why canāt I take out the splinters myself?ā
Alfyn laughed a little, coming back over with tweezers and a metal bucket that had a bunch of other splinters in it. āI donāt trust you lot to get them out completely. If you do it wrong, little bits can get left behind.ā He then started pulling out Castysās splinters the right way, which seemed to be to do it slow and to use tweezers, but Castys could be wrong since he was a little distracted by all of his little wounds hurting all over again. Alfyn did the one in his cheek last, and once it was out Castys poked at the hole left behind with his tongue despite the pain, which got a sigh out of Alfyn instead of a laugh.
āPlease donāt make the wound worse, Castys.ā
āSorry.ā He was then a very still and patient and well-behaved boy while Alfyn cleaned all of his wounds, arm gash included. Whatever liquid Alfyn was pouring on everything stung a lot, but he sat still so he didnāt make things more difficult for Alfyn, who looked really damn tired now that Castys was paying attention.
āAlright, your arm and cheek are going to need stitches, so please keep holding still like youāve been doing.ā
āThey used to call me statue boy.ā Kind of funny considering the time he almost did get turned into a statue, but that was a joke for just him. He clenched his fists and Alfyn approached with the needle and thread. Heād been through this more than once, heād be fine, it was all things heād felt before. The sensation of the needle poking into his skin, the tug of thread following behind, the hand on his chinā¦
āHold still.ā
āIām trying, but itās hard not to laugh at the faces youāre making.ā
āIām trying to focus here, Castys, come on. You donāt want this to be a super nasty scar, do you?ā
āUhā¦I donāt really care. As long as I can still eat food and stuff what does it matter? I donāt see anyone else besides you, and I donāt think you care either.ā
āI-I donāt, butā¦maybe there will be other people, someday?ā
āEven then, whatever. If theyāre scared off by a scar on my face theyāre probably losers, anyway.ā
āSo youāll fit right in, then!ā
āAnd yet you still hang out with me all of the time.ā
āYeah, ācause thereās literally no one else, dumbass. Itās not like I have options.ā
āSucks to suck. Iāmā¦Iām okay with just you, though.ā
ā...Me too, Castys. But that might change if you donāt sit still.ā
His scars hurting more than his actual wounds was stupid, but it was certainly happening. He left Alfynās quarters in sort of a daze, trying to bury everything the stitches had brought to the surface. Focus on anything and everything else, on the awful food, on talking with Kamon, on getting more respect from the other crewmates, on drinking stolen ale, on the share of the treasure he was promised once they reached land.
But that night, lying awake in his hammock as the crew snored around him, his scars still hurting, the pain cutting through the warm haze of the alcohol, he didnāt feel any less alone.
Nextā
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#i wrote something#castys#pirate whump#stitches#splinters#HAHAHA USING LEGACY EDITOR SINCE I SAVED A FEW BLANK POSTS TO MY DRAFTS#i wish i saved more but oh well#bit shorter of a thing it's less than 2k words wow#i just didnt have anything else i wanted to do with this one idk once again i feel like there's not much but also i know all the lore#i dont think ill be able to keelhaul him tho š he's being a very well-behaved boy since he's so young so he doesnt have any reason to be#he's not used to pain like normal so he's scared of getting whipped again and that's enough to keep him in like#most people make random ocs and get attached to them#i make random ocs and end up using less than i planned on#but it is what it is (ļæ£_ļæ£;)#now im gonna work on goretober bits and maybe the next E&T chapter cuz it would be cool if i could finish that by halloween#i can write i just have to force myself to do it really i just want to game and watch anime in my free time#but i dont want that to be the case i would like to Make Something#oh and sorry the fight was like a paragraph/sentence it just wasnt working any other way so sorry if it's underwhelming or something idk
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Iām excited, I think Potionless is going to become my new most popular fic within the next chapter or two
#my fics#ignore me Iām just rambling#I wish I would have started potionless when the fandom was more active but alas#itās still getting a good amount of traction obviously#it was just hard won compared to comfort food#which I wrote while camp camp episodes were still airing I think#itās just interesting#I kinda wish I would have finished comfort food because it was so fun to write#Dadvid was sooooo popular and I said fuck that and did a momgwen fic lol#Max and Gwen were so fucking funny to write#I kinda miss it for real but I have no inspo for that fic anymore and donāt really remember what my plan for it was#sad!#I think the endgame was for max to move in with Avi and I think I pretty much got there anyway tho#it just needed a bit of wrapping up tbh
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Wild thought but I (as an empath) think I was going through something while writing this one
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Your transfem Tim fics are just SO amazing and moving to me and I love them so much. But I'm curious since a couple days ago you said your most popular ('by any other name would smell as sweet') isn't your favorite you've written- which one is, and why?
Thank youuu also hm i think its too mean to say 'literally any other one' bc i dont hate it or think its bad i just. Looking back i would change many things. Like maybe lower the amount of supporting characters in that fic. Paralytic states + crude and graceless are dear to me bc i think the levels of repression and tiptoeing around the issue comes through better and it takes tim longer to come to terms with it, and i think he'd be much more withdrawn about it/keep it close to his chest than i wrote it in that fic. Thats just the sort of stuff i changed my mind on as time passed and i thought about this hc more so u know it happens. Drowning lessons has a vibe i still really enjoy it feels kinda self contained? And hairline fracture is special to me bc its a part of a kind of complicated au im probably never actually going to write. So yeah im v fond of all of them for different reasons
#Sorry this got so long i had to use this as my chance to talk about it<3#When i wrote that fic i was still in that stage of reading comics (and specifically bat comics in this case) and feeling like i should fit#All of the bats in there#And now i wish i hadnt bc 1) why would jason be there 2) i dont think tim would be that open about it with Anyone so early#So like the fact that damian and steph figure him out so early is funny and i know what i was getting at there#But i dont agree with my past self i think hed be much better at hiding this bc of his many internalized issues around this#And again why is jason there. No offense to my jason friends i just do not think it makes sense that i put him there#I know why but i disagree#Listen i wrote this fic over a year ago i changed my opinions on a lot of things as i continued to read more comics#Nothing wrong with that. Does haunt me tho#Ask#Thank you<333 sorry for all this<3
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Y'ALL last night i spent a total of 2 minutes tops on my appearance and then went to a lesbian bar full of attractive people anyway, got up onstage during an event about sharing stories of queer joy, openly wept almost the entire time I was up there, and I STILL managed to give a good performance and come away feeling charming!
And THEN a troupe of improv actors and a pianist put on a short and very sweet sketch based on what I had said about the joy of seeing elder Trans folk in public as a disabled Trans person.
And I hope the queer elder I saw there really felt that love especially. I felt the troupe's performance really did me justice, and it was so beautiful.
But also, y'all, I was still able to crack jokes that got the whole room laughing WHILE I WAS CRYING!!! - A skill I'm just realizing I probably polished while I was in intensive group trauma therapy lol. Shout out to all my fellow IOP/PHP buckaroos in the chat!
and the best part about this little performance of mine? My most favorite-est proudest little detail?
It was easy. It was EASY!?!?!? IT WAS EASY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As in, the words I wanted came so naturally that I was able to deliver them with excellent timing on split-second judgment!!!!
Do you know what that means to me??? Oh I am so proud of this little Jack here! He who worked so so hard for a thing like that! I worked so much and for so long, and I shall - no, I MUST - celebrate the precious joy and pride of having achieved this childhood dream!
Oh to tell Younger Jack that he would be able to do such a thing one day! That sweet anxious confused child would feel such relief just to know it can be done! What a wonderful victory! It felt so good!
Life is fucking hard and dreams can come and go, but I can say that in this way at least I have become the kind of person I always dreamed I would be. ā¤
AND I know that if I had rolled low on my charisma throw [i.e. made a social mistake] - which I have done, often do, and SHALL AGAIN [see profile picture] - I could have brushed it off with the ease of an old actor who knows that performance has only ever been the business of consensually making oneself look like a fool!
.... Or perhaps I would have processed my mistake with the knowledge of a fellow who has been to enough poetry slams to know that a kind and loving audience in a vulnerable safe space generally just responds to a performer's nervousness/awkwardness/difficulty communicating by rooting for them! I knew I was in a space where people wanted to see me do well, and that helped a lot. Bless those people for making that space. ā¤ā¤ā¤
This post is not focused on my many MANY grateful and loving emotions about elder queers because, as I may have mentioned, I've sort of already expressed a lot of feelings about that for one 24-hour period. š
#original#diary#queer joy#autistic joy#I have infinite thoughts on how my social skills are deeply autistic and also deeply good#and how people who have difficulty communicating deserve just as much love and respect as everyone else.#but I've already made posts about that and I'll make some more later#this post is about celebrating something hard-won and deeply precious to me. both as a stage performer and as a social person.#something something social skills are like learning to play video games something something muscle memory#oh man I just felt my sleeping meds hit like two tags ago#okay. goodnight. i wish good things for you. I wish you warm evenings where people you love call you friend and the air is sweet ā¤#- i wrote those tags last night lol#my point stands tho.#I think a lot about how the best way for me to get into the habit of feeling pride over my accomplishments is to do so intentionally#and often repeatedly publicly and loudly. I spent enough of my life in shame. now it's my turn to brag for the rest of my life!!!#and also to lift up my friends and loved ones and community as much as possible!
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Actually the band I was there to see when I saw type o for the first time was one of the Bands I was hyper fixated on and that was nancy. My dancing face lasted about 10 years. I managed to work my way up into the first row at the show which was general admission at the Bomb Factory in Dallas.
The girl who was standing next to me started talking to me and we hit it off like crazy right off. So we decided we were going to link arms so that no one could pull us out of the front row and believe me lots of people tried. So we're standing there waiting for the show to start and I don't even know what I was doing or what I was thinking but I was looking somewhere else. Suddenly I heard the girl go: OH. MY. GOD.
I looked up and saw Peter for the first time--- right in front of us towering over us. That was definitely something I never ever forgot. That was 30 years ago. And it's still one of the best shows I've ever been to.
you saw them live in 1993 oh my fucking god š vicariously living through this message! if i had managed to work my way to front row i would have just yeeted myself at josh at this point but they all were damn fine that year physically and musically š©
#peter was so fine in the early-mid 90s i just wish he would have reflected more on what he said sometimes#like even tho he always wanted to provocate and get strong reactions out of people some things just went way too far#it got especially bad when he got addicted to coke by the late 90s he just decayed completely mentally and physically#i read soul on fire recently and it explained a lot more about him and put some pieces together and made things make more sense#ive seen and read almost everything i could find on the net and i genuinely dont think he was the awful bad person some people (1)#(2) on social media make him out to be#but of course a lot of his behaviours and what he stated alone and in some of the bands lyrics which he wrote is critique-worthy!
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I think I mentioned it here before but I wrote some paper for a class where I used F1 interviews(like the post-race press pen) as examples, right? My prof asked if she could use it as a sample work for future classes omg!!! But mostly I'm cackling evilly over the fact that F1 is forever memorialized in that paper, I hope someone in the future reads it and is like "...wait a minute" š
#i used post-azerbaijan bcs it was the most recent when i wrote it#so fucking rip Nyck bcs i used his post-dnf interview as the main example JDJFKGKGLGL#this makes me wish i wrote their full names and used more examples#but i wonder if you could figure out the race by the examples i used š¤#anyways thats cool as i said mostly just laughing abt the fact that my F1 obsession made it into an example#speaking of f1 interviews(or sports in general) i touched upon this in my paper but during the race interviews are so interesting#i cant remember if they do them so much now(i feel like my brain just dumps most of my race wknd memory except the highlights š)#but in like older races they always made me cringe bcs#someone would have a silly dnf or smth and the interviewers would be sooooo blunt with them#ik its their job but god i cannot imagine going up to someone after they just crashed out and being like#'so that seemed pretty silly why dod you do that' basically just questions where you the viewer are like#UGHHHHHH HOW ARE YOU ASKING HIM THAT YOUD MAKE ME CRY IF THAT WERE ME#anyways :) interviews are interesting bcs of how they remove barriers that exist in normal conversation#man if only i used nando as an example in that paper ughhhhh i dont think his clip fit with what i was writing tho#but max got in there :D good for Max :D forever memorialized in some random paper#catie.rambling.txt
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