#i hope jinu is doing better

[wonuwrites]

anything with winner jinu plz~ there is not enough of him on here!! 💕💕

omggg you are so right about no enough Jinu content. I love him so much. xo (I will try to write a one shot about him soon <3) p.s: wasn't sure if you meant a drabble or what not so I just did a random number from this . I hope it is okay <3 Pairing: Jinu x Reader Prompt #: 16- “just listen to my voice.” Currently Listening to: this Warning: mentions of anxiety. a bit angsty but also fluffy and soft.

You hated feeling like this. Like the world was closing in on you and you couldn't breathe. You hated it, especially when logically nothing was causing it.

There was only one person who knew how to help during these times.

Kim Jinwoo.

However, you were anxious to call him because he was doing a variety show with Seunghoon and you didn't want to bother him. You thought maybe you could do this but after fifteen minutes of struggling, you realized you needed him.

You shakily grabbed your phone and pressed his name and hoped that you weren't interrupting anything.

After 3 rings, you heard his lovely voice and couldn't help but feel a little better.

"Hey baby, just was about to call you," you heard him say cheerfully.

You wanted to say something but when you got to this point, words were hard. Your silence normally would worry people but Jinwoo knew you. He could tell what the silence meant and you could hear shuffling from the phone receiver and knew he was walking somewhere more secluded.

"(Y/N)," he says softly, “just listen to my voice.”

You took a shaky breath before nodding, "okay."

He then started to talk about miscellaneous things that he found to take your mind off of the anxiety. He talked about the variety show, he talked about Jeju Island, hell he even talked about the one time he got lost in Tokyo trying to find the Tokyo Tower that was in front of him.

You couldn't help but smile at your boyfriends stories and soon everything started to feel better. You felt grounded.

"Oppa, thank you," you whispered into the phone.

"Of course, Jagi, you know I'm always here," he said causing you to smile even more.

You had no idea how lucky you were to have such an amazing boyfriend.

I'm so sorry this was so bad, I had writers block for this. I will try to do a better one soon xo

[bluesidedaydream]

Finally built up the strength to listen to Remember, turns out it was not enough strength like, at all, and now I'm a mess

[jeinseovipjwalkcom]

WINNER FIRST IMPRESSION

Winner members meet you on their vacation. They find you cute and want to know you more. So here's their first impression of you 😍

JINU

It was 2 days before New Year and he decided to go to Imja Island. While he was on the way to his hometown, he saw you on bus. He was looking at you while you realized there's someone's eyes on you 👀 he made sure to make it naturally approaching you. He made conversation with you and asked your destination. He was surprised that you also wanted to go to Imja Island to have holiday. You knew from the very first he is Kim, Jinwoo. He asked you to contact him if you need guide (LOL I don't know he will do this or not but he always looks so passionate with Imja Island). You ended up call him and that was how you met and knew each other.

Hoony

First time you came to South Korea and you barely knew about anything. So you just looked up on internet restaurant with good rating. You two met while waiting in line. He was taking his day off. He found you cute and he decided to get your attention by dropping something and asking you to give back to him. A little bit creepy at first you thought, but after a while you realize he's Lee, Seunghoon! You were blushing knowing he's Hoony. You ended up eating with him because he thought it would be better not to eat alone. Well, he's Lee, Seunghoon... 😉

Mino

You were in Osechill. You came alone and ate as much as you can. You didn't care about what people think. You want to de-stress your situation by eating. Mino slowly approached you and asked if you were okay. You just nodded and kept eating. You didn't see he was Mino. You are a fan of him since WIN. Mino saw you came 2 days in a week like for a month because you find Osechill has good vibe. Mino kept talking to you until you realize the person you were talking to is Song, Minho. You were blushing and Mino laughed. He pat your head because he found it cute. He said sorry and you said it's okay. After 2 weeks you came, he asked your number (in case you want to come again).

Yoon

He was in Busan to visit his mother. By the time he spent his time at his favorite place. Since it is very popular place, you also came and spent your time after visiting your parents. You hit him unconciously while thinking about something you shouldn't think on holiday (school things LOL). You suddenly said sorry and he just asked if you were okay because that was too hard. You said yes and looked at his eyes. "Wow, he's the person who's on TV" you couldn't remember his name even though he's a celebrity. "Why are you here alone?" It was midnight so no wonder he asked your reason you went out alone. You just smiled and left. He found it odd. He wanted to wait because he didn't want to interrupt your thinking. He ran to chase you and ended up taking you home since it was midnight. "Hey, I'm Seungyoon. I live there and you can contact me to have company even in midnight. Maybe we could be friends...?" That was the first time you opened to stranger and you don't regret it since he is such a gentleman.

Note: Thank you for reading this! It is my first time writing fan fiction. I open any request (suggestion and critic since it's my first time). Hope you enjoy this!

[sujusoo]

Giving Attention to Their Pet(s) - Winner Reaction

A request from @redluv4joy ! I love seeing Winner with their pets. I loved watching the series with Dingo? they did awhile ago, I hope they do another one when everyone comes back from enlistment! All the Winner members are such sweethearts so I can’t imagine them getting too jealous, so I hope this works!

Jinu - Bay + Ray

Jinu would find it absolutely adorable when you gave your attention to Bay and Ray. He loves seeing you cuddle close to them. Jinu loves the kitties, and it makes him so happy that you love them as much as he does (as long as you don’t love the cats more than him!) If you do spend too much time playing with the cats, Jinu will just get a little pouty, but giving him some love will make it all better. 

Hoony - Haute 

Hoony doesn’t mind it when you give Haute a lot of attention, but can get a little jealous sometimes. He loves you and he loves Haute, but you’re HIS significant other, not Haute’s. If you come over to Hoony’s place, and coo over Haute before you give him a kiss, he’ll probably give you the silent treatment for a little while. The only time he doesn’t mind you giving Haute all your attention is when you’re dressing him up in a cute new outfit. 

Mino - Johnny

Honestly, you’re probably the one to get jealous. No matter what gender you are, Johnny is the number one girl in Mino’s life. He wants you to love Johnny just as much as he does. Mino’s dream cuddle position is having an arm around you and Johnny purring in his lap. He loves coming home to see you petting or playing with Johnny.

Yoon - Thor

Another member who loves seeing you with his pet! Yoon wants Thor to have all the love he can get, and he’s so happy you can give him love when Yoon is off on tour. Every time he sees you with Thor, he grabs his camera to take a picture. When he’s off on tour or overseas for something, he wants you to watch Thor so you send him cute videos of the two of you playing around. 

[kz-i-co]

Sorority Secrets: Part III

Summary: Will your plan make everything better or worse as you try to dig up more secrets that lies within Kappa Nu sorority.

Pairing: Bobby/ Reader

Genre: smut/angst/fluff

Words: 4.7k

Part 1 | Part 2 ╫ Part 4 | Part 5

m.list ╫ ikon masterlist

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"This plan is stupid." You said reading the note. "I dream about you every night.....seriously." You rolled your eyes. "That's not gonna sway her."

"All she probably wants to hear is how in love he is with her." Bobby said like it was obvious.

"Shhh." You and Bobby moved farther to the back of the library for a more discrete aisle.

"It will work." Bobby spoke once again.

"Are you kidding me? It's gonna take more then that. She's cold stone now."

"I guess you're right." He sighed leaning on the book shelf.

Your eyes wondered around thinking of another plan until one jumped out at you with a simple flyer. "Oh my god the Zeta Swing Charity, it's perfect."

"A blind date? That sounds pretty risky." He said.

"They just need a moment alone together. No other Kappas and Theatas showing each other off."

"What if they fight?"

"We'll watch them and make sure it's romantic." You smiled feeling hopeful.

"So how can we mess with the charity so we make sure they end up together?"

"We'll just distract the Zetas and take their donation." You shrugged. "Easy."

"In front of a whole party of people." He laughed. "Sure."

"But first, I need to get the insight of it. Meet you later?" He nodded and leaned in about to kiss you causing you to push him away. "Not here. Someone could see." You looked around.

"Fine." He mumbled and turned the other way.

....

"Hey, Dani?" You smiled seeing a Zeta. "What's up?"

"Hey (Y/N)." She looked at you confused from your approach. You never have really spoken before.

"I had a question about your charity. How does it work exactly?"

"Well whoever wants to buy a ticket gets a card and you fill it out of what your interest are and we sort them into different color buckets so we can match everyone up with a date."

"That's cool. Can I buy tickets for my Kappas?"

"Well, we'll be going door to door tomorrow so you don't need to right now."

"Oh okay." You tried not to sound disappointed. "When do you find out your date?" You asked.

"Saturday morning everyone will receive a card with an address on it for a date that night."

"Just an address?"

"Yeah. In this case we don't get any stand ups or refunds if they don't like who they get." She shrugged.

"Okay good to know."

This was gonna be harder then you thought. How were you gonna switch the tickets?

.....

"Will you please stop pacing?" Jennie was sitting on the bed across from you.

"I don't know how we are going to pull this off." You said biting your lip.

"Maybe we should just go back to plan A instead. Find out which senior is dating a Theata and then we can just take it from there."

"But we can't get any information from the Theatas because even they don't know and Jinu is not telling anyone, purposely for this reason and we can't get the information from the seniors because then Haeryung will get involved." You we're rambling.

"(Y/N) calm down. Take a breath. Everything will be fine." She started.

"Ladies!"

"Ugh." You both rolled your eyes and continued on your way downstairs.

"The Zetas are here if anyone wants to participate in their charity." They're here already? They said 11.

"It's $5 a card and we'll have you fill it out and we will set you up on a blind date." Faye spoke as the other kappas were blushing. "Who wants one?" She began and no one rushed into raise their hand or grabbing their wallets.

"Oh come on ladies. It's still the beginning of the school year. Non of you should have boyfriends or girlfriends yet." Mimi smirked.

"Can I make one small request?" Haeryung spoke up. "As you may know we do have our strict rules of no Theatas."

"We'll make sure none of you have a Theata no worries." The leader spoke.

"Alright ladies, go ahead." She smiled. "We must help out our fellow sisters."

Most of the girls got their card except you and Jennie. "Come on (Y/N) there is tons of hot not Theata boys out there."

"I can't think of dating right now, I'm working on my studies." You smiled.

"It's just one date, and it's for a good cause."

"Not thank you."

"We help out our fellow sisters."

"Well then I can just give them the $5 then. I don't need a card." You fought back.

"Sorry we can't accept it." Faye pursed her lips.

"I don't feel like going on a random date with a guy I don't know."

"We offer lgbt set up as well." Dani spoke.

"No, it's not that." You shook your head.

"Is it because you fell in love with a Theata and you're keeping it a secret?" Haeryung spoke making the room fall silent.

"No. I told you I'm not into dating right now." You stood your ground.

"Then explain the hickies on your neck." She sassed.

"What hickies?"

"Don't play dumb (Y/N). You obviously need to work on your makeup skills."

"Why are you calling out me? I'm not the only one who has hook-upped at a party."

"Okay, we aren't forcing anyone to play, it's no big deal." The Zetas we're caught in between.

"Fine I'll take one." You began causing Haeryung to look at you once again. "But you have to get one too."

She laughed. "I don't have time to date, I have tons of work I have to do."

"On a Saturday?" Jennie asked.

"This is a ticket to a date you probably couldn't even get on your own." You spoke up.

"Excuse me." She looked at you with hatred.

"Just look at you, you're too uptight, you obviously need to get laid." The rest of the girls giggled causing her to shy away and make her way out of the room.

"She'll take one." Mimi gave the money.

The rest of the girls were patting you on the back but you held that ticket in your hand with disappointment on your face. Now you had to go out with some random guy when you were suppose to be with Bobby watching over Haeryung and Seunghoon. Now what?

"That was awesome." Jennie laughed.

"Was I too harsh?"

"Nah, she'll get over it, let's go get the guys."

You got up to your bedroom and you immediately started to get undress as well Jennie.

"Woah woah wait." Bobby came out of your closet, scaring the both of you.

"What the fuck?" You said.

"Sorry." He looked guilty.

"How long have you been here?" Jennie asked picking up something off her desk.

"I just got here but you guys were no where to be found and I heard someone coming so I got scared and ran in the closet." He spoke.

"You picked a wrong time to sneak in. All the girls are on their way out." You started.

"Oh great. Then maybe we could stay here." He gave you a sly look but it soon changed once you looked at Jennie. She was reading some note, taking all her attention. "Um to look for clues or something."

"Jennie you okay?" You asked.

"Oh yeah. It's nothing."

"Oh hay, Hanbin said you two are hanging out today?"

"Yeah." She smiled. "I better get going." She grabbed a few things and made her way out.

"They are so cute." You smiled.

But as soon as that door shut Bobby was already leaning up on you kissing his favorite spot causing your most trouble in this damn house. "You need to stop being so messy, Haeryung's been noticing."

"Just tell her you have a boyfriend." He didn't stop causing you to lean against your dresser.

"I can't because she'll want detail: what's his name? Which fraternity? Etc."

"Tell her to mind her own business." He started pulling the straps of your shoulders.

"I can't, have you met her?" You said as his lips went down closer to the top of your breast.

"Fine, I'll find a new place then." His hands were exploring your body causing your head to fall back, soaking in the pleasure.

"She's up to something." You both stopped as you heard voices pass your room. "I'll catch her, just like that Jiyong trash."

Then you heard the front door shut. They must all be gone. "Jiyong is the girl Haeryung got kicked out."

"Great so she's going to frame me if she catches me or not."

"We won't let that happen. She will go on that date and they will click like old times and forget about you." Bobby reassured.

"I just need to make sure I can steal her card tomorrow morning." You said nervously.

"How did you get her to enter?"

"It's a long story." You bit your lip.

"You think everyone is gone?" He had his head leaning against the door.

"They should be." You said causing him to smile and quickly be at your side once again. "We can search her room." Your face lit up walking right passed him causing him to pout.

You opened the door and made your way down the hall. The house was completely silent so you knew it was vacant. You jiggled her handle and opened the door to a typical tidy room.

"She's such a princess." You rolled your eyes. "Be careful what you touch because she'll probably know."

You got down on her knees and searched under the bed first as Bobby was looking through her desk table.

"Not even a spec of dust under-here." You got up and began to search the closet. "Anything?"

"No, just a bunch of old photos."

"Nothing." You turned around and began checking her night stand. As soon as you opened the drawer you saw crap and more crap. You rummage through a little seeing nothing important until you hand felt something weird, like silicone. You pulled it out and screamed at the top of your lungs feeling disgusted.

"I touched it." You got up and ran to the bathroom scrubbing your fingers.

Bobby was alarmed from your sudden outburst and looked where you were searching. His worried expression quickly to a devious smirk followed by a chuckle.

He closed the drawer and made sure the room was left the way it was and made his way to the bathroom where you were drying your hands.

"Thought she was too pure for that." You spoke causing Bobby to laugh.

"Maybe we're being too harsh. She's probably not much different then us."

You laughed at him with pure sarcasm and your eyes glanced down to what he was holding. "What's that?"

"Oh I found this ritual book." You rolled your eyes and grabbed it.

"Oh my god, this is the kappa nu student handbook." You quickly looked through it.

"You don't have one?" He asked.

"Well we have a printable, but this is the actual book." You we're flipping page by page. "Ah here it is. No theatas."

"Really." He looked next to you. "It's hand written though. Meaning it's a forgery."

"Well we can't know for sure by this copy, we need to look in the actual copy that is probably in the Deans office."

"Okay." He shrugged. "Well just have Dk steal it."

"I don't want to risk anyone getting in trouble."

"Dk can't get in trouble, his father is the Dean. He didn't even want to go to this school."

"Alright." You agreed but were still feeling uneasy. "I just wish there was a better way."

You we're starring at Bobby trying to think of something. "I wonder if Jinu has ever snuck in here." Your eyes light up. "We need to check the other seniors rooms. T-they could have evidence of Jinu."

Your we're speaking so fast You we're sure if Bobby could even understand you. You ran to Jeonghwa's room first. You felt a bigger suspicion with her more then Mimi because it seemed that Mimi was more of a dedicated minion to Haeryung then her. You began to check everything quickly once again, bed, closet, etc.

"I think it would be too easy if she had evidence lying around." Bobby said already giving up.

"Yeah. It has to be Jeonghwa though. I'm sure of it."

"We can steal her phone...wait, I'll steal Jinu's phone." He shrugged. "He'll probably won't be as discrete with his."

"This is nuts. We are going through so much to uncover a secret that will be over at the end of the school year. Maybe we should just wait it out."

"What about the Juniors who will be your seniors next year." He asked.

"I don't know, maybe they won't be as cruel." You sighed.

"So being a secret is going to be tough." He started.

"I know but we'll just be careful."

"That's not going to work." He started to smirk.

You just stared at him with confusion. "I don't know how I'm going to control myself around you in public."

"It's not like we aren't going to see each other." He was climbing over you causing you to lay back on Jeonghwas bed.

You giggled as he started to kiss down your neck once again. "I won't be able to hold your hand or kiss you in public."

"You can managed." You began playing with his hair behind his head.

He brought his lips up to yours as his hand started working it's way up your shirt. He was grinding against you, feeling every inch of him.

"You that turned on already."

"Well you teased me earlier." He said kissing down your chest on the outside of your shirt until he pushed it up revealing your exposed chest. He was sucking on the one and playing with the other. You couldn't help the moans escape your mouth causing him to be more excited.

You reached for the waistline of his jeans, blushing from his erection bulging through. You reached down to unbuckle his jeans and began palming him on the outside of his boxers causing him to stop kissing you and pause in his track. You bit your lip from how weak he was against your touch. He leaned down farther kissing you once again as you continued pulling him out properly.

"Do you have- Wait a minute." You looked around the room, forgetting where you were. "Shit, this is Jeonghwa's room and she'll know-"

You both froze from the front door suddenly opening. "Fuck fuck fuck....get up." You panicked and quickly got out of Jeonghwas room. You stood at the corridor seeing Mimi place her keys down on the table with her face in her phone. You pushed Bobby to go into your room but the commotion sent her eyes up to you.

"Hey." You smiled nervously.

"Aren't you suppose to be on the quad with the rest of the girls?" She asked.

"I wasn't feeling too well." You lied.

"It's not contagious is it?" She made a look at you.

"No just a migraine."

"I have a question." You started again as she was about to enter her room.

"What?"

"As sisters we're suppose to be honest with each other right?"

"Yes of course." She said but you can tell she was confused.

"I just feel like sometimes seniors Haeryung and Jeonghwa are keeping secrets." You said as innocent as possible. "Maybe that's why they're so against me."

"They aren't against you." She said reassured. "And you can keep your personal life to yourself if that's what you wish but you should know that we are sisters and we are always there for each other if you want to share anything, and no judgement."

"So we can keep secrets?"

"If it's not hurting anyone or yourself then why not? Everyone has secrets, doesn't mean you are a bad person."

"I hope Haeryung and Jeonghwa feel that way." You said trying to sway.

"Like I said, everyone has secrets, they don't wish to share."

She entered her room and closed the door behind her. You went back to your room disappointed as Bobby was waiting for you on your bed.

"Nothing. She admitted they are hiding something but got nothing." You sighed.

"You don't think It's Mimi do you?"

"Who's dating Jinu? I don't think so, she never leaves Haeryung side most of the time. It's Jeonghwa who is always out and doing something."

"But her room had no evidence."

"Maybe she knows Haeryung checks our rooms when we aren't here and doesn't want to get caught."

"She snoops through your room?" Bobby asked almost annoyed.

"That night you snuck through my window, she entered my room and was surprised I was there. She said she collects all the laundry but it's probably an excuse to snoop."

"If I were you I would leave while I still can." He teased.

"I wish. My mom loves this place." You laughed.

You heard Mimi's door close once again and open the bathroom door followed by the splashing sound of the shower.

"I guess she's not leaving anytime soon." You giggled.

You got up and looked out your door to the empty hall. You closed it once again and locked it.

"Let's finish." You smirked and noticed Bobby about to get up. You pushed him back down and got down on your knees in front of him, taking him by surprise.

You noticed his bulge still visible from before and continued pulling him out once again, right where you left off. You immediately stated to pump him causing him to bite his lip.

You leaned down bringing your mouth to his member kissing the tip. He was getting harder by the second. When you started to bring your mouth farther down, his breathing picked up. You bobbed your head at a teasing pace. He closed his eyes and his head leaned back weakly.

He started letting out soft moans making you smile against him. When you brought your head back up you noticed how red his tip was that you knew he wasn't going to last long. You started to suck as far as you would allow yourself and stroked the remains with your hands.

"Fuck, you're good at this." He said looking at you weakly.

You blushed and pulled him out of your mouth but continued stroking as you kissed up the sides. You continued to suck one last time because you knew any minute he was gonna crumble. You could tell by his lack of staying still was the signal. He moved your hair out of the way and couldn't help but play with it. He was a moaning mess that you were lucky the shower was still going unless Mimi would clearly hear him.

At the point you felt him twitch and release inside you. He collapsed back laying on your bed as you continued cleaning up the mess.

"Let's get out of here." You suggested. "Let's meet up with Jennie and Hanbin." You said already getting ready.

"Sure." He was still wiped out on your bed. "Or we can just stay here."

"Not as long as Mimi is prancing around the place."

"Fine." He got up putting himself together.

-

"What's wrong?" You asked Jennie as she was getting ready.

"Nothing." She smiled. "Just tired."

"Oh okay. Well I switched the cards so Haeryung will being going on a date with Mr. Theata Leader." You felt so achieved. "Can't wait."

"Aren't you suppose to go on a date also. How will you see how things go?"

"Shit, I forgot. How am I gonna tell Bobby?" You felt timid all over again.

"I'm sure he will understand."

You were ready to go and already started texting him. You went downstairs as the other girls were about to leave to follow the address on their given card.

"I better have gotten someone who cares about his grades and also looks handsome." Sorry to disappoint you. "Good luck (Y/N) on your date. Maybe you'll meet a nice guy who isn't into foreplay as much as you."

You rolled your eyes at her followed by a genuine smile. "I hope you have a great time on your date Haeryung. Hopefully you will have a date who actually knows what fun is."

You looked through your phone once again and saw no text back from Bobby. What if his phone is dead and he thinks you stood him up? You thought of the worst.

You noticed your address was the cute little restaurant on the other side of the school. It was known for its very romantic setting and intimate surroundings. You waited outside as long as possible before you were forced to go in.

You got to your assigned table and noticed a guy already seated at the table. Once he saw you he stood up and bowed. "You must be my blind date."

"Nice to meet you." You tried not to sound so rushed but you wanted to sit down for a few and fake sick or something to get you out of there. You both exchanged names and just sat down awkwardly. The most annoying part was the seating area was round booths so you were forced to sit on the same side as him.

"So what made you want to join in the charity."

"Just helping out fellow Sorority sisters." You pursued your lips. You tried to avoid eye contact as much as you could and keep your eyes glued in the menu.

"You ready to order?"

"Just a water please." You said speaking before him.

"Yeah same." You handed the menus back.

Once the waitress was gone he scooted closer to you and reached for your hand which you quickly pulled away.

"Look, I only did this charity to help out, I'm not looking for a relationship."

"We can take it slow if you want."

You just laughed and shook your head staring at the different tables. You tried to be as sweet as possible but you were too uncomfortable.

"This is a nice restaurant they've chosen." He tried to make small talk but you just nodded.

You felt him lean in closer once again and didn't try to come off as bitchy but you wanted to just take off. This guy clearly wasn't getting the message. You felt his hand caresses your exposed thigh and tried to make its way up your skirt. You jumped away and he looked at you with confusion.

"I told you I'm not looking for a relationship."

"Okay. But doesn't mean we have to waist this date." He leaned down trying to kiss your neck and this time you were out of the booth and out the door.

You went outside quickly and grabbed your phone and still saw no text from Bobby.

"Hey I'm sorry, can we start over?" The guy followed you.

"I already have a boyfriend alright." You raised your voice.

"I'm sorry I'm just confused. I understand you want to help with the charity but why for blind dating. This is suppose to be a set up for people who are looking for relationships." He started getting angry.

"You're right. I shouldn't have."

"Hey, I'm sorry for sounding like a jerk but it's pretty fucked up if you ask me." The raised his voice. "All you sorority girls are the same, think you rule the school and can walk all over the place but all of you are just selfish and stuck up and don't give a shit about anyone but yourselves." You we're silent as he attacked you.

"I'm stuck up? You were practically dry humping me in there when I moved away from you twice. You're disgusting."

"That's another thing all of you are teases and slu-" Then next thing you knew he hit the floor from the powerful swing of a right hook. The guy stood back up and took off.

"What the fuck are you doing here with that guy?"

"Bobby? I tried texting you."

"I was worried I was going to be late so I left and forgot my phone but you never showed up." He was angry.

You didn't know if he was angry from before the dumb guy attacked you or after.

"I'm sorry I couldn't-"

"You entered the charity?" Then it was worse from the look he was giving you. Betrayal.

"Haeryung made me. It was the only way she would enter."

"Doesn't mean you had to show up."

"I wasn't gonna do anything, I was gonna say hi and leave but the guy ended up being a creep."

He sighed but you could tell he believed you. "I'm so sorry." You wrapped your arms around him and looked up and pouted. "Please forgive me, I'll do anything you want."

"Let's just....get out of here." He tried to leave but you still had him locked down around your arms. "(Y/N) come on."

"Not yet." You leaned your head against his chest, embracing into his warm touch. Then you looked up once again, kissing him tenderly.

"So how did the date go?" You asked as you both were walking to his fraternity, hands interlocked.

"Well...." He started and you knew it didn't go well. "First the dumbass was late, and once he got there he laughed and her face turned so red. It was hilarious. She thought the whole thing was a joke. She got up and he eased her to sit back down but they basically fought the whole time. They were talking about their past and how much a jerk he was and it ended with her throwing her water in his face."

"She didn't even give him a chance?"

"No. Sorry." He said. "Look I know you want to expose Jeonghwa and Jinu but I feel bad about it. Jinu is a good guy and I just don't want their relationship to get ruined because of us."

"You're right. We'll just leave them alone. I guess It's time for Plan C. Sneak into the Deans office and find the official Handbook."

....

"Hey have you guys seen Jennie, she won't response to my text." Hanbin spoke as soon and you and Bobby went through the door.

"She was out earlier maybe she's back home and resting. She's been a little down lately." You said.

"I should go anyway, it's almost curfew. I'll tell her to call you." You said kissing Bobby goodbye.

You walked the short distance to your house and made your way inside. You saw the girls watching a movie in the living room and saw no sigh of Haeryung. Where was she?

You continued walking upstairs and entered your room, surprised it was completely dark. "Jennie? You here?" You blindingly made it the light switch turning it on.

You turned back and saw no sign of Jennie and what's worse was her side of the room was completely empty. Her closet was open with dangling hangers empty, drawers opened and vacant as could be. Your heart was racing as you went over to her bed seeing nothing left but a note.

I, sister Haeryung and the rest of our Kappa Nu sisters are sorry to inform you, sister Kim Jennie have been banished from Kappa Nu Sorority. You have failed to abide our rules and not only have you been warned but failed to take matters in your own actions. It's best to pack your stuff as soon as possible and continue on your way. Best of luck in the future and hope no harm comes to you and your further here at Seoul University. Sister Haeryung.

You threw down the notes and paced back and fourth before marching to your door. As you were about to open the door you saw a white envelope on the floor from being slid underneath. You picked it up and opened the letter as the words were too familiar.

I, sister Haeryung and the rest of our Kappa Nu sisters are sorry to inform you, sister (Y/L/N) (Y/N) have been banished from Kappa Nu Sorority.....

[l000ey]

all he do is lie → z.j

pairing; kim jongin x zhou jia x jennie kim (ft. kim jiwon, kim hanbin, kim jinwoo, lee seunghoon and mentions of lalisa manoban)

summary; skyler discovers that her boyfriend cheats on her with one of her best friends

warnings; skyler being hurt (#skylerdeservesbetter), cheating and fake friends

note; I know I said that skyler punched jennie but, honestly, I don't see sky punching someone, that's something more red or storm but not sky so we stay with that attack of anger

2019

The tears did not stop falling down her cheeks as if from a waterfall it glided nonstop through the rocky wall of a mountain, her face was red as were her eyes and the tip of her nose. The tear-covered screen had caused the pain that had implanted in her chest. Jia wished she hadn't got up that day.

Her gaze was fixed on the screen already turned off by the loss of physical contact, although Jia was not there. Her mind was lost a few minutes ago.

Why?

The girl believed that when her heart was broken she would always have thousands of questions in her head but no, the only one who wanted to escape from her lips was that. The already familiar feeling of choking began to burn her chest until it reached her throat releasing a sob. They say that crying takes away the pain, so why was it still there?.

It hurts. so much.

Everything was going well. She was happy. She had woken up feeling that at last her life made sense and she was safe, at last, but it all went away. She had got up ready to go to the studio and create new songs for the next IKON album or maybe her, had eaten with Bobby and then recorded a song, had talked to him for the date they had tonight, had been daydreaming with time to go see him.

But apparently she had been daydreaming all this time and that article confirmed it. Why? She wondered again. Why had her friends cheated on her like this? Why had he made her go through this knowing how difficult it was for her to love after Hanbin's? Why didn't Lisa tell her?.

The typical sound of iPhone made her come back to reality. A message, from Hanbin.

kim hanbin

I have seen the article

Where are you? I'm coming for you

With an empty look, she released the phone on the sofa, wiped her tears in a sudden movement, hurting herself by rubbing the hard leather sleeve against her cheek and rose from the chair to leave the room.

"Sky, where are you going?" Bobby's face appeared behind the door when she opened it, a bag of food and a few cans of Coca Cola in his arms indicated that he had received the order they had made an hour ago. He frowned when he recognized the redness of her eyes and nose. His eyes softened with concern "What happened?".

But she ignored him, walking determinedly to the elevators. She ignored the calls of her groupmate and the look Jinu gave her when he saw her enter the same elevator as him while she furiously pressed her fingers against the screen. The tears shed on the screen, rubbing with every letter she touched.

me

can i go to see you?

jenns 🖤💗

I'm busy

What if we meet up with the girls this afternoon and watch a movie?

me

oh, sure

Suspicion. That feeling was added to anger, sadness, anger, outrage and pain. That list of feelings that Zhou Jia had memorized from the first letter to the last and something in her heart told her that it was not going to be the only feeling that was added to the list today.

She raised her head and laid her eyes on the boy who looked at her curious and worried "Do you know where Jennie is now?".

Jinwoo's eyes widened as his back pressed against the wall, surprised by the tone the young woman used “I-in practice room three. Hoon wanted to use it for today's practice but Blackpink already had it reserved”.

"Thank you, oppa" And with the same cold tone as ice, which was unusual for the girl, she answered before the doors opened, letting her out in a hurry.

Skyler did not run but her steps were quick and determined until she heard laughter too familiar to her. A masculine laugh that she had become accustomed to hearing for almost a year and a half. Her body froze in place, stopping her walk in the middle of the hall.

The urge to vomit came when she heard some female laughs also known to her and followed by them, kissing sounds. Her gaze fell to the ground, she felt her eyes flood rapidly but swallowed it. She refused to be seen crying, she didn't want to cry again, she didn't want to cry anymore for any man, she didn't want to be hurt anymore.

She didn't want it to hurt.

In a few seconds, without even thinking about it, she was in the room catching one of her closest friends sitting on her boyfriend's lap while he ran his fingertips down the skin of her back that the tiny top she was wearing left him.

He did that to her. He also stroked her hair as he was doing to Jennie, looked at her as he was looking at Jennie at that moment and smiled at her as he was smiling at Jennie now.

At Jennie, not at her.

She smiled when they saw her. She heard the gasps of surprise and saw how they separated as if the simple touch of their bodies burned them. Without realizing the tears fell but the smile did not erase from her lips.

"Skyler" The girl tried to approach her. Her voice wasted guilt but she knew better. Fake, everything was fake. Jennie was never her friend.

"I didn't want to believe it but I guess it's true” She looked them up and down, finding hickeys in Jongin's neck that she hadn't done last night, so they had to be recent. From now "Why?".

Jongin's honey eyes frowned in a sad look and his thick, beautiful lips pouted “No, I didn't want to but… it was a mistake and then it went to more. I'm sorry, I didn't want to, I'm sorry. Please, I love you and—”.

"No" She raised her hand along with her voice, looking at him with hate. At that moment hse felt the purest hatred for Kim Jongin and Jennie Kim. She looked at him with disgust and revulsion making him feel like a little boy who needed his mother's arms to protect him from the monster “Don't say you love me if you don't feel it because you clearly don't. Neither of you does it” She looked at the one she once called a friend. Oh, how she regret “I don't understand why you did this to me, after you've seen me because of what I've been through. You—“ She pointed to the boy “You have excited me and filled with dreams and then go and fuck one of my friends”.

She let out a laugh that, honestly, scared them because they had never seen Skyler like this. Zhou Jia was a peaceful, loving and affectionate girl that illuminated your days like the brightest sun but now she only looked like a broken glass with which you can cut yourself and leave a deep wound on your skin.

"Do you know that yesterday he was talking about getting married, having children and going to live together?" The other girl looked at the man with dull eyes, her heart also breaking "He told me that he loved me and to expected a ring shortly. I suppose that he will also have said something like that to you, he will have excited you convincing you that he was going to leave me and take your hand telling the world that you are now his, but, you know what? He lied to you!” She shouted still with that sarcastic smile on her face.

Behind her appeared Hanbin, Bobby, Hoony and Jinwoo. The Ikon leader who led them froze at the door watching the girl let off steam. He looked among the lovers with his eyebrows furrowed.

“All men do is lie!” She shouted and Hanbin knew that he was one of the reasons why she had said that “They delude you and then leave you. They make you love them, trust them and let your guard down so they will then stab you. But for me it has been worse because not only has a man stabbed me but a friend has also stabbed me. And, honestly, I don't know what is worse” With a look of disappointment, she turned around, astonished to see the boys but she struggled not to express any emotion. She stood next to her leader and without looking at him said "I hope you are happy."

But he was not happy.

[shownuslaugh]

Monkey See

Series: EVE au

Pairing: EVE/SJ; EVE/Astria

2019

“UNNIE!” Eve bounds toward SJ, face pink and flushed with exertion. “UNNIEEEEEE!”

SJ steadies the younger girl when she almost barrels into SJ’s body. “Eve, what’s the matter?”

“I- I saw...” Eve doubles over, hands on her knees as she pants. “Oh, holy shit, I’m out of shape. Ugh, it burns.”

“Your chest?”

“My eyes!”

“What?” SJ giggles as she rubs Eve’s back gently. “Girl, what are you even talking about?”

“When were you going to tell me Top has a girlfriend?”

“That’s not really your business, Eve.” SJ has to hide the pleased tone of her voice. Seems like Top finally made things official with Astria. Good. It’s been a long time coming.

“Well it’s about to be your business,” Eve mutters. “Literally. They’re doing it in your office.”

“What!”

Eve’s eyes go wide as she watches SJ storm off towards her office, yelling something that sounds like ‘can’t ever keep his dick in his pants around her’, but Eve can’t really be certain. The dramatics of it all is a little hilarious though. Even if Eve feels a little bad for starting it.

“Excuse me?”

Eve turns around when someone taps her shoulder only for her mind to go completely blank as her eyes meet Astria’s.

“You’re Astria,” Eve blurts. A large smile stretches across her face. “From Winner. Oh my God, it’s so nice to meet you! I’ve been a huge fan since you’re debut and I’ve gone to so many concerts! You’re amazing on stage! My boyfriend’s bias is Jinu but I actually adore you! Are you here to see SJ? I know you two are friends.” She pauses in her tirade with a small gasp. “Are you joining VIP Entertainment? Are we going to be company sisters?!”

Astria can’t help but laugh at the younger girl’s enthusiasm. “You’re Eve, right? You were incredible on SNL and even better on Hello Counselor.”

To herself (or at least what she thinks is herself) Eve whispers, “fuck she knows who I am.”

“Is SJ around?” Astria can’t deny the kid is adorable. All starry eyed and happy energy.

“Oh! Yeah! She went to go pry Top off some girl in her office!” Eve’s voice drops to a conspiratorial whisper. “I think he has a secret girlfriend.”

Astria visibly pales and Eve tries to backtrack. “I could be wrong though! I only saw a second. Maybe he was giving her the Heimlich... or CPR... or- oh! You’re leaving. Okay. It was nice meeting you!”

Without anyone around her, Eve is a little lost. She could stroll around a bit, take in the sights of the building, but that would bore her to death. She could call Sangmin? He offered to give her vocal lessons with SJ’s permission when she was on Knowing Brothers. He’s probably working though. Plus, Eve keeps forgetting to bring it up with SJ anyway. She could call her boyfriend but she knows for a fact he’s working. What with preparing for a comeback... or whatever it is they’re calling it now. Eve really has no idea and neither does anyone else really.

Just as Eve is about to give up and go work on some new material for the stand up special she’s working towards, Astria comes walking back down the hallway. Eve wants to stop her and talk but there’s a haunted look in the other girl’s eyes. A look Eve’s never seen before. It sends a chill straight down her spine.

“Are you okay?” Dumb question. Eve knows it even as it’s coming out of her mouth, but she can’t stop it. Word vomit. “There’s some orange juice in our kitchen. I know that always makes me feel better.”

Astria shakes her head. “No thank you.”

Part of Eve really wants to know what happened between Astria, SJ, and Top. The other part of her knows it’s not her business and she shouldn’t ask.

“Umm... listen, I know we don’t know each other or whatever, but, like, you’re a really cool person and things are gonna work out for you.” Eve rubs her forearm. A nervous habit. “No one’s worth getting that bent out of shape for.”

Something seems to click with Astria. Her shoulders straighten and there’s a little light coming back to her eyes. “You’re absolutely right, Eve. Thank you.”

“Oh, yeah, any time!”

“I really hope your boyfriend is a good man.”

“Well, I don’t know if I’d call him a man exactly, but yeah, he’s a great guy.” Eve smiles dreamily. “I think he’s kinda perfect. His eyes are to die for and he’s got the softest hair. His laugh is annoying but in a really cute way, ya know? Plus, he’s just a really sweet dude and-” She cuts herself off. There’s no way Astria wants to hear all this right now.

Astria, for her part, smiles softly at Eve. “I’m glad he’s so good to you.”

“You deserve someone like him too.” Eve nods as if her word is law. “And you’ll get it one day soon. I know you will.”

“Have a good rest of your day, Eve.”

When Astria walks out the front door, Eve dashes off to find SJ. She looks in every room (not that there’s an excessive amount), every closet (again, the number doesn’t require more than one hand), before settling outside SJ’s office. She starts to knock, but stops herself when she registers the argument going on inside.

“Are you fucking kidding me, Seunghyun!” SJ rages. “After all the trouble she’s caused us, caused our family! You just bring her back?!”

“She’s changed-”

“She’s manipulating you! And what about Astria, huh? You just toss her out like yesterday’s trash?”

“Astria can do better than me.” Top sighs heavily, the low sound reverberating around in Eve’s chest. “She deserves better than me.”

“You know what... do whatever the fuck you want. I’m sick of warning you against her. I thought you’d have some sense by now but I’m clearly wrong. But Seunghyun?”

“What?”

“If you ever, and I mean ever, bring her around here again that’s it. I’ll fucking end her before she even looks in Eve’s direction. I should go after her now for even breathing in the same room as Astria.”

“Always protective of your girls.”

Eve hears a little bitterness in his voice and her stomach turns.

“Oh, don’t even.” SJ makes an annoyed sound. “I’m protective of everyone I love and that includes you. I’m just annoyed you’re being a dumb ass.”

“Watch it,” he warns her. 

“Seunghyun, just... just be careful, okay? I hate that you’re doing this but if I can’t stop you I’m at least going to stick around so I can have your back.”

“I’ll see you later, kid.” There’s the sound of a quick kiss- like he gave her a peck on the cheek- and the door opens. Eve jumps back like a kid caught with her hand in the cookie jar, gasping loudly. Top looks at Eve with curiosity before nodding at her and leaving.

“Eve,” SJ calls her into the office. When Eve walks in looking like a kicked puppy SJ opens her arms, petting Eve’s hair when she falls into the hug. “I know you were listening, but for everyone’s sake you need to forget what you heard, okay? It could have repercussions you aren’t ready for if you get involved.”

“But aren’t I involved already? I’m the one who told you. This is all my fault. I didn’t want you and Top to fight because I opened my big mouth.”

“No, sweetie, this isn’t your fault and I don’t want you thinking that way. All this started long before you came on the scene. Let me worry about all this. Don’t get involved.”

Eve nods. “Okay. Oh, SJ? Can we invite Astria out with us for lunch one day? I think she needs a friend.”

SJ chuckles. “Of course we can, kid.”

[above-the-angelic-horizon]

8 People I’d Like to Know Better

Tagged by my angel @etherealjjong

ONE//Name: Monica

TWO//Birthday: 2nd of September

THREE//Zodiac Sign: Virgo

FOUR//Height: 165 cm

FIVE//Hobbies: Travelling, napping, reading, listening to music

SIX//Favorite colors: I can't choose one, sorry :(

SEVEN// Favorite books: Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell, A discovery of witches by Deborah Harkness

EIGHT// Last song I listened to: Call Anytime by Jinu and Mino of Winner

NINE//Last film I watched: Silent Voice

TEN// Inspiration or muse: Nature, travels, poetry, music....anything really

ELEVEN// Dream job: travel blogger

TWELVE// Meaning behind your URL: the blog is based on a sky-like aesthetic, so I just made it more poetic I guess :))

Tagging @deviltoes @love-delfi16 @fate-brings-me-hope and anyone else who wants to do it ^^

[prince-dongju]

Dear Diary

Drabble Game #11 

Jinu (Winner) X Reader Fluff. 

@peachyseokwoo I actually really liked writing this one, it’s simple but cute. I hope you like it :)

Documenting your life was one thing you never failed to do. Every night before you went to bed or through the day when something happened, you’d jot an update down. You found it to be therapeutic. Writing your feelings helped relieve tension and let a weight off your chest.

It was late at night and your friend Jinu was over watching a movie. He couldn’t sleep since his roommate's friends were over at his place, and heaven only knew how wild Mino’s friends could get. After finishing a couple of movies, Black Panther and The Notebook, (this movie was what actually inspired you to start documenting your days) you went to the kitchen and decided to quickly write in your notebook, blaming it on disinterest in the movie. In reality, his hand on your knee had you feeling tingly all over and was messing with your head. Skinship was common with him and although you felt something special for him you didn’t know if he felt the same way, or if he just liked skinship. Escaping to the kitchen and expelling your feelings sounded like a much better idea than enduring the restless feelings. You must have lost track of time and it wasn’t long before you heard a voice behind you

“Dear Diary….” You involuntarily jumped, taking in a deep breath. He laughed at your reaction and continued reading “Should I ask him? I don’t want to ruin an amazing friendship with Jinu if…” His words cut off as you abruptly slammed the cover down on the book.

“How about we get back to the movie?” You gave him a bright smile, but the look on his face showed he wasn’t letting this off so easily.

“What do you want to ask me?” He stepped closer and you took a step backwards, running into the table. “Go ahead. Don’t be shy.” He was really enjoying this, his smirk growing wider by the second.

“I was just wondering if you liked me.” You spit the words out so fast they were undecipherable.

“You gotta say it slower, I can’t understand you.” With a chuckle, he took another step, coming within a foot of you.

“Do you like me?” Your eyes focused themselves on the floor, sure he would say no. When he spoke, he spoke with confidence and a laugh in his voice.

“Of course I do.” He leaned forward and quickly pressed a kiss to your cheek. “Let’s get back to the movie.” He grabbed the hand you had pressed to your face in shock and drug you to the couch. When he put his hand on your leg, and even put the other around your waist, you still felt the tingles, but knowing his feelings made them feel a little sweeter.

You always knew keeping a diary would pay off someday.

[madeherkind-a]

“How are you feeling?” - jinu

         her head is pounding, and the waves of nausea make her wish that she was at home, curled up in bed. she had been feeling the beginnings of whatever bug she now had for a while, but sophie had continued to deny to everyone that she was feeling bad. clearly, that had been a horrible decision, because she now regrets not staying home. she drops her head into her hands, and focuses on her breathing, hoping that it will make her feel better. and then, she hears his voice.

                           no.    not  now.

        it takes her a moment before she finally looks up at him, and she swears—even after all this time—she can feel her heart breaking all over again. her head is still spinning, and him being there is not doing anything to help her. she takes a shaky breath as she drops her gaze again, wishing she knew how to stop her heart from pounding in her chest.     

        ❝ i’m fine, ❞      she insists, keeping her gaze focused on the ground. she tries to push herself up from her seat, but her stomach lurches at the movement, and she quickly finds herself settled back into her seat. she tries to play it off, but she knows that the chances of jinu believing that she was, indeed, fine were slim.    ❝ i just need to sit for a bit, that’s all. ❞

[dovelikewar]

Sentimental Song Challenge

Hello friends! Another week, another blog post. This one is actually a bit different from what I have been doing, but it will hopefully still work out fine. So, I frequent an app called Amino. On Amino, you can join various communities where you are able to blog, talk to people and all that fun stuff. I really love the app. I am a part of many communities, but probably my favorite is Winner City, the community for supporters of my ultimate bias kpop group, WINNER. Recently, a challenge was posed on the community to blog about a WINNER song that meaning to us and to share our story. In an attempt to be more active over there as well as bring a little piece of that side of my social media life over here, I decided to kill two birds with one stone and just do the challenge in both places. Fair warning, this is about to get emo, so if you don’t wanna read all this mush, feel free to leave. For the purposes of this blog, I will include a brief introduction to WINNER and the members.

WINNER is a 4 (previously 5) member group under YG Entertainment (an extremely successful company in South Korea). The members are:

Name: Kang Seungyoon

Stage Name: Seungyoon or Yoon

Position: Leader/Vocalist/Maknae (youngest)

-Vocals for YEARS

-Would probably die for WINNER

-Really wanna hug

Name: Kim Jinwoo

Stage Name: Jinwoo or Jinu

Position: Vocalist/Oldest Hyung

-Gets mistaken as the maknae on the daily because he’s v smol

-One of the most adorable humans on the planet

-An actual king

Name: Song Mino

Stage Name: Mino

Position: Rapper

-My ultimate bias

-Fashion king

-Cutest smile you ever saw

-Acts cool, but is really very soft

Name: Lee Seunghoon

Stage Name: Seunghoon or Hoon

Position: Rapper

-Deputy Lee

-Makes me soft

-If dimples could kill, his would.

-Cares so much about Inner Circles 

Now that you know a little about the group, I shall move on to the challenge. So, the song that automatically came to mind for me was one of their newer songs, ISLAND.

To be blunt, I deal with pretty severe anxiety, specifically social anxiety. As can probably be assumed by now, music has always been a way for me to feel better. I went back to college for my second year in September, and it has been just as difficult as last year. I have found myself being very anxious and lonely a lot of the time, but the entire time, WINNER has been one of a few things that has consistently been able to make me feel better.

ISLAND specifically has become the song that I automatically listen to when I am having an anxiety attack. Something about hearing their voices calms me down. Seunghoon's verse at the beginning especially makes me feel better:

“Don't worry All the things you're afraid of I'll make that go bang"

I have no idea what it is about this specific song that helps me so much, but it does. I've found that just hearing their voices is comforting to me, maybe because they just generally make me so happy. Either way, I'm grateful for WINNER.  I'm proud and grateful to support and love a group that makes me and so many others so happy just by working so hard and being their goofy selves. 💙💙💙💙

That is it for now, friends. I hope you enjoyed this small change of pace. I’ll probably go back to regular scheduled programming within the next couple of weeks depending on if I post next week, but I thought this would be a good way to introduce my ultimate kpop group on this blog. Thank you for reading if you did. Now, go listen to your favorite song. It misses you. 

- 🕊️ ❤️ 🏹  

[hottytoddynews]

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[shownuslaugh]

Honesty Stings

Series: Winner 6th Member AU

Pairing: Astria/Top

2018

             For as long as Astria can remember, she’s dreamed of that fairytale love everyone grows up reading about. From Cinderella and Prince Charming, to Aphrodite and Ares, she wanted that true love. She wanted marriage and children with a man who loved her above all others. She dreamed of it. When Astria met Seunghyun, she put those dreams on the backburner, more than content to just be with him in the moment. Dreams come back though. They come back and bite you in the ass when you least expect it.

             “What are you thinking about?” Top’s deep, sleepy voice pulls Astria from her thoughts. He rubs his eyes, sitting up to get a better look at her.

             She shakes her head. “It’s nothing.”

             “It’s something. Have you even been to sleep yet?”

             “No,” Astria pulls her knees to her chest. “I just… I keep thinking.”

             Top hums to show he’s listening to her and wraps his arms around her, pulling her down so they’re lying face to face in bed. He runs his hands over her soft curves absentmindedly. “What are you thinking about?”

             “You.” Astria hides her face, pressing herself closer to Top. His bare chest is hard yet smooth against hers. “What do you want from me? In the long run, I mean. Is this- are we just, I dunno, fun for you?”

             “What are you talking about?”

             “Would you ever marry me?” She finally blurts out the question that’s been burning her up on the inside for months now. “We’ve been dating a decent amount of time… I just… I don’t want to get my hopes up. I need to know-”

             Top pulls away from her as if every inch of her skin suddenly burns him. He all but falls out of bed, fumbling around in the early morning light for his t-shirt.

             “Seunghyun, what are you doing?”

             “I need to leave,” he tells her. “Now.”

             “Why? Seunghyun, it’s five in the morning.” Astria watches him leave the bedroom with a growing sense of dread. “Seunghyun!”

             Three days pass.

             Three days of no word from Top.

             Three days of wondering what the hell she did to make him look at her like that. Like she was the worst mistake he ever could’ve made.

             It’s on the fourth day she breaks down at dance practice.

             “Astria, what the hell?” Hoony groans in frustration when she misses a step and glides back into him, her elbow digging in his stomach.

             “I’m sorry,” she answers.

             “Stop being sorry and start watching what you’re doing.”

             “I didn’t mean it!”

             “It doesn’t matter if you meant it or not! Are we supposed to show this mess to our fans on our comeback stage?” Hoony throws down his hat, raking a hand through his sweaty hair.

             “Just back off,” Astria mutters. Her gaze falls to her feet. No wonder Top left. She can’t do anything right, can she? “I said I didn’t mean it, so just back off! Why are you being such an asshole about this? How many times do I have to apologize before it’s enough?”

             “Both of you cut it out,” Yooon chimes it. “Why don’t we all take a break?”

             Yoon and Jinu take Hoony out of the room while Mino lingers beside Astria. They’ve all seen the dark circles under her eyes and the way she moves a little slower than normal. They’ve all seen the way she refuses to eat but tries to hide it as having ate earlier. They’ve seen it all. They’ve waited patiently for an answer. Mino can’t wait anymore.

             “Hana, please talk to me,” he approaches her slowly. The way you would a scared animal. “I hate seeing my best friend like this.”

             Astria shakes her head. “I don’t know what I did, Mino. I just asked a question and he ran away. Was I wrong? Did I… did I do something I shouldn’t have?”

             “Who are you talking about?”

             “Seunghyun!” Astria can’t stop the sobs that wrack through her body. She doesn’t know what she did. All she knows is she’s scared, and hurt, and uncertain of the future. “I haven’t heard from him in four days.”

             Mino isn’t quite sure what to say, so he blurts out the first thing that comes to mind. “Hyung’s an idiot if he left you like that.”

             Silence falls between them, heavy but comfortable, like Astria’s favorite blanket.

             “I’m sure he’ll call soon,” Mino adds after a few minutes. “And if he doesn’t… oh well. There are better people to spend your time with. There are people who actually adore you to the ends of the Earth.” His voice goes soft at the last statement, and Astria leans her head on his shoulder.

             “Thank you. You’re always here to pick up the pieces, aren’t you?”

             Mino wraps his arms around her and kisses the top of her head. “What kind of friend would I be if I only hung around for the good times? You mean a lot to me. To all of us. Of course we want to take care of you.”

             “You sound like Yoon,” Astria giggles.

             Mino crinkles his nose. “Yoon sounds like me.”

             As if summoned by the sound of his name, Yoon pops his head in the practice room. “We’re done for the day. I think we all need rest. Astria, do you want me to walk you home?”

             “I’ll do it,” Mino says before Astria can even answer. “It’s been a while since we hung out by ourselves anyway.”

             Yoon nods. “Make sure she stays safe.”

             Astria loves all her boys. They’re the center of her world most of the time, with Top being a close tie. But it’s as they’re walking to her apartment, that Astria remembers why she has an extra special place for Mino. He makes her laugh until her belly aches and her eyes are red from tears. He makes her smile until her cheeks are sore. Mino knows what to do to keep her happy and keep her mind off her almost constant state of dread and fear.

             “And then the skeleton said-” Mino cuts off mid-punchline when he sees Top standing at Astria’s front door. “Oh, hyung…”

             Top shifts his weight to his other foot, hands shoved deep in his pockets. His voice is as cold as his gaze when he says, “thank you for walking my girl home.”

             My girl.

             Astria isn’t sure how exactly that makes her feel, but there’s a tightening in her core that makes her stomach flutter.

             “You can go now,” Top continues.

             Mino looks to Astria who simply nods. She isn’t afraid of what Top will do. She’s afraid of what he’ll say.

             “We should go inside,” Astria says, grabbing Top’s sleeve and hauling him inside her apartment. He settles on her couch with his hands placed over his knees.

             “I think honesty is the best policy here.” Top has trouble meeting her eyes, but forces himself to look up. What he finds tears his heart in half, burying the words in his throat. “I shouldn’t have left like I did, but I was caught off guard. When you asked me about what we are… the truth is, I don’t know.”

             Astria shakes her head. “What do you mean?”

             “I love you and I want to be with you for as long as you’ll let me be with you, but I can’t give you what you need. I can’t promise you forever because it would be a lie. Everything I’ve ever told you, every single time I’ve said I love you, I meant every bit of it.” Top stands up after his speech, uncertain of what to do next. “You deserve someone who can give you a straight answer. Someone who can promise you the world. That’s not me.”

             “So… is this… do you have someone else? Is this you trying to tell me you have someone who expects less and you want them?” Astria’s head is swimming. She can’t seem to think even remotely logically. “Are we breaking up?”

             “No!” Top takes a few steps forward, putting his hands on Astria’s shoulders. “God, no, Hana! I promise you, you’re the only one in my life right now and it’s been that way since I met you. Please, don’t cry, I can’t handle you crying.”

             She looks up at him, eyes teary. “What else do you expect, Seunghyun? You basically just told me you can’t take our relationship seriously.”

             “That’s not what I mean! This is the most serious I’ve ever taken any relationship. I just don’t know how… I can’t… this is new for me. The idea of staying with you forever is terrifying and I swear it’s not because I don’t love you. All of my relationships end. All of them. I’m as scared of hurting you as I am loving you. It’s the weirdest position I’ve ever been in.” He pulls Astria close, tucking her head under his chin.

             “Please, just listen to me,” he pleads. “I’m trying to be honest with you and tell you that I’m not in a position to give you what you need right now. But please, don’t leave me. Please.”

             Astria doesn’t know what to do. Should she stay and hold on to the hope that one day, somehow he’d be able to finally give her what she wants? Should she wait for the day he might decide he wants to marry her? To have children with her? Or does she end it all now and find someone who can actually commit?

             She knows she should give him some kind of answer.

             She doesn’t.

             “Hana,” Top’s voice is thick with tears. “I love you so much. Don’t leave me.”

             Astria doesn’t respond.