#i honestly dont feel like im into parx in a bitter spiteful way i DO NOT want to hate them i DONT have fun seeing them ruin themselves???

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is it bad that im only into parx for the drama at this point 😭 like

the music is shit, the band dynamic is shit, the band MEMBERS are being immensely shitty, the merch is shit, but the drama?

fucking immaculate

i dont think its weird at all LOL i think ur not even alone in that honestly 😵‍💫😵‍💫 id wager a lot of us on tumblr (including fans here for MUCH longer than i) who have been into parx before all of This went down feel similarly……..

despite the asks i answer and the opinions i express on here i personally feel like im still in it for like……… the version of waterparks i fell in love with initially 😭 even though its probably gone for good at this point, in the era of bad behavior and bad lyrics and bad fandom and bad merch….. like im still so ATTACHED to that scrappy little band of friends i watched all the interviews for and saw in 2018 and loved the music of!!!! and for how they interacted with each other that filled me with SOOOOO much love and passion and joy that i wrote and drew and created nonstop out of love for them…… like the 2018 versions of awsten and otto and geoff still live in my brain and heart i cant stop caring about them even if it would make sense to just accept theyre gone T___T but im stubborn and i cant just stop caring about things once my bear trap of a hyperfixation brain falls in love with them so im like MAYBE WE CAN KEEP THAT VERSION OF THEM ALIVE….. JUST FOR A LITTLE BIT LONGER IF WE ALL KEEP CREATING FOR THEM………… awsten knight is not a real person he is our collective oc. he is blorbo from our minds and we can resurrect the better version of him via black magic if we try