#i have sleep hallucinations right

[acianoh]

Be careful what you ask your God for.

[heartshattering]

5 AM

Just me and my overactive mind facing the nighttime again 🙃

[canibalistic-brownie]

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[kiki-strike]

PTSD is so stupid saw a jar of biscoff cookie butter at the store and went ha that’s the brand they had in res. (Completely unaffected). Then went home and had a panic attack about it (????)

[ropes3amthoughts]

I feel like I’m going crazy. I swear I can hear Hot To Go in the distance, but every time I try to get closer to the music it disappears entirely. Then whenever I lay back down I can hear it in the distance again. I am fairly confident I’m experiencing some sort of auditory hallucination?

Ok when I was typing this my siblings barged into my room and their loud noises completely overpowered the imaginary Hot To Go in the distance and I’m pretty sure it’s gone for good now. That was so weird though. Do I just have to combat imaginary sounds with real sounds in order for them to go away? What are you even supposed to do about imaginary music? Like it wasn’t stuck in my head I swear I could hear it in the distance but it just wasn’t real. Man this is weird.

[dammarchy211]

In this post is mainly about sleep and i thought it implied that dexter gets nightmares.

So does dexter have nightmares? If so how does he deal with them?

Yeah! Fun fact about Dex, he has narcolepsy, which involves too much REM sleep (the part of sleep where you are dreaming), as well as frequent hypnogogic hallucinations and sleep paralysis. This doesn’t necessarily mean nightmares or scary stuff, but for Dexter is usually does. That’s also part of how Raz would enter his mind the first time, Dex has such an overactive mind while he’s sleeping, that Raz would accidentally drift into his mind while their both asleep. This also manifests as a lot of Literal nightmare entities in his mind.

As for dealing with them, for a long time he doesn’t. He’ll wake up from a particularly bad dream and not go back to sleep out of fear or protest or whatever. Or not want to lie down again if it’s sleep paralysis or hypnogogic hallucinations. Not super frequently, but sometimes if it’s really bad or he gets overly paranoid he’ll wake Batty up, or sometimes even less he’ll get Wanda (or Ant). Most times Dex kinda just survives off of the principle if he wakes himself up enough and THEN go back to bed, he’ll dream about something different, which usually works.

I like the idea that there are some sleep hypnosis psychics or something that could combat the overactive REM sleep, THEN Dex could get a nice night’s sleep with less nightmares, but he doesn’t know anyone who can do that jfhjrgj. Cheri definitely could, but they’re never rlly close enough for that to happen, HOWEVER Raz IS her student so……

[voiceshearingyouloud]

I can’t sleep because I’m hallucinating which has to be the worst trade deal in the history of trade deals because then I start getting more psychotic because of lack of sleep. It’s also fucking stupid because I’m always like oh am I hallucinating? And then I record it so I can check but now I’ve started hallucinating the recording which like ahhhhh fuck me. And turns out I actually was hallucinating which I should’ve known and just ignored but no, now I’m all annoyed and freaked out about it. I wish I could have a brain that can just tell what’s real and what’s not. I feel like that’s kind of the bare minimum for a brain, let’s be real.

[fitzselfships]

okay idk if I'll post this or if it will stay in my drafts but I am super emotional and thinking about Stretchy so this might be long lol

I'm thinking so much about how Stretchy has been such a major comfort character for me for a year now. He genuinely means the entire world to me and he's really helping me to cope with everything that's wrong with me <:]

Last year was rough for me. I just like. suddenly had a bunch of health issues hit me, and then this year was all of a sudden dealing with what I thought was schizoaffective disorder, but only recently found out it's psychosis and severe ptsd. Idk why my brain latched onto Stretchy (or Little Robots in general) but I'm not complaining

Sometimes I wonder if Stretchy even realizes just how much he's done for me this year and last year. I know he's just a fictional character and it's probably silly to get this emotional over him, but he genuinely has helped me through so much. I really do wonder sometimes how he would even react if he knew how much he means to me

@ Stretchy ily so much!!!! /p

[chronic-creation]

I would take a prazosin to help me sleep better and not have nightmares and so much anxiety but it makes me so drowsy throughout the day and makes my pots really bad so i dont want to. Its also too late to take a trazadone to force myself to sleep because it makes me sleep a full 8-9 hours. I dont want to sleep till 12 in the afternoon. I have shit to do. But its 4 am and my brain is racing and im in pain

[subdee]

Subdue! How are y'all doing?

Good... except tumblr for some reason didn't show me this ask until three days later... aha.

I'm chugging along with the new parent life - the baby will be 100 days old next week - all the cliches about the difficulty of parenting are true but they don't capture the details.

Like how I was so sleep deprived for the first couple months that I would HALLUCINATE the baby in bed next to me, and even when I knew - I KNEW! - that he was in his bassinet next to the bed, while half-asleep I would still touch the pillow or a lump in the covers and it would FEEL like the baby and I would SEE him there. Even though I knew he was not there. That was trippy!

Or how some babies, like mine, have what's called a "shalow latch" which in laymen's terms mean HE CHOMP on the nipple.

(But he's learned how to breastfeed without doing that by now... and it only took two and a half months >_> so now I get to enjoy feeding time with him for another, like, two weeks, before I head back to work LOLOLOL and in the meantime I thought I would try using the breast pump to get used to it and got a painful fungal infection, one of many things new moms all know about but that they don't tell you about so as not to discourage you from ever having kids or breastfeeding them.)

Or how you'll read all this stuff online about awake windows or sleep routines and how important it is to not do ANY of the easy things to help the baby fall asleep, like putting him in the swing or car seat or feeding him to sleep. And how you're supposed to put him in the crib "drowsy, but awake" so he'll learn how to fall asleep on his own but it's actually impossible because your particular baby spits up half his food after meals if you don't hold him upright 20-30mins but during that time he just falls asleep on your shoulder.

And on and on, but actually we are already out of the newborn stage and through most of these challenges (for now knock on wood). Now we're in the infant stage which is a lot more fun.

I'm putting all this TMI stuff here because you asked, but the truth is I'm really enjoying my time with Baby, especially lately. I know all new parents probably think this but MY baby is an actual genius, he's always looking around at everything, and he's already rolling and trying to sit up. He's gotten better at keeping his food down, better at recognizing when he's hungry or tired or gassy or bored, and better at communicating what he wants with his hands. Every day he does something new that he couldn't do before! Plus now that I can like, actually leave the house with the baby my mental health has improved a lot -_-b We've been going to the library and we're doing swim classes next week!

Plus he is super cute, this is not my bias speaking, it is true objective Fact.

[syncrovoid-presents]

I am. Not dead. BUT will be gone for a like a day or few because the stuff at work did not! want! to! work!

Which I'd another way of saying that I finally was able to get free after working 34 consecutive hours in a row. The day prior I got 1 hour of sleep and that is all after 5 days of 10 or 11 hour work days.

I am so sleepy. I am taking tomorrow off and probably going to sleep right through it. Anywho cheers everyone!! I am going to go to the shadow realm now @:P

[alalumin]

I need to stand in the middle of the forest and scream

[caorl]

posting in ehre bc my friends are prob tired of me yapping about this on tt but i cant wait to get a neurologist appointment and got exams done bc im sure i have narcolepsy and have been for a couple years now yet im so so afraid of going bc what if i do have it. and worse. what if i dont have it and all my struggles actually have no explanation other than me being lazy and weak lmao i cant stop thinking about it im so anxious over this

[isa-ah]

been having some creepy stuff happen lately and who knows if it's paranormal or PTSD related ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

discovering that it is, in fact, possible to feel like you’re about to fall over when you’re already laying down.

[skitskatdacat63]

I really got home and then redecorated for like 6 hours straight. I haven't slept in 25 hours basically 😐 and the last time I slept it was like, less than 5. This is how I adjust to the timezone change LMAO

But hey at least my F1 shrine is now more complete :D I now just need to frame the poster of Nando I got at the gp, but I have no idea where to put it. I love when I have an obsession, and then I always put the "shrine" precariously balanced on the tiny shelf on my desk. So that every time I have to find something, I risk knocking everything down