#i have a full about in my blog about!

[timothylawrence]

feels like it's been a while since i did a little about me so here we go hehe ~🌸🌿💕

salam! my names Ewbie! I am a 24 yr old lebanese muslim who uses they/them pronouns. I speak arabic firstly and english secondly!

I play a lot of video games! Currently replaying bg3, but I also enjoy shooters like Fortnite and Apex Legends. When I'm not gaming, I tend to be writing or making gifs ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ✩‧₊˚

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my gifs

my writing

ummm! that's all!! welcome to my blog╰(⸝⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝⸝)╯

[horrorshowcliche]

trying to get back into digital art

[chiyune]

whoa my hand slipped what happened

[sincerelymarner]

credits: on the bus with cammi & aj / cbc / espn / please look after mom, kyung-sook shin

[averlym]

fairest of the fair

[shorelinnes]

han & lee know: w korea

[beaconfeels]

Today I’m thinking about my aunt. For much of her life, she lived a very “small” existence. She worked the same job for 40 years, at a dry cleaners near her home. She didn’t like to travel much. She had to have things done just so, from folding towels to putting away groceries. It was hard for her to let anyone else do things because they didn’t do it right. Her family shook their heads about her. Her sisters fought with her about her “sad life” many times through the years.

When she died, so many people came out and said how much she meant to them. How kind she’d been to them. How she gave the best relationship advice, even though she’d been single most of her life. She was a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on for so many in her community. She would be dearly missed.

All my life I’ve been told that if I didn’t watch it I’d “end up like aunt Nita” and you know what? I hope I do. No, she wasn’t perfect. There are things that I hope to be different in, but who gets to decide what makes a life meaningful? She was happy. She made a lot of other people happy. And whenever I reach out to those around me in the small ways that are available to me, I feel her spirit moving along with me <3

[essektheylyss]

I know I made a post about it but I really just need to lay on the ground and think about the description of dunamis as "the very nature of the cosmos" I have been saying this for OVER THREE YEARS

[salcreus]

Heh.. um. I may be Ill

[figofswords]

i love to cook and i love food! i love cooking and i love eating! i love making food and then eating it! wait what do you mean i have to do this three times a day every day for my entire life and also dishes and grocery shopping and

[marimbles]

i miss carpisuns sometimes </3

[sophsicle]

Soph I love you but Taylor Swift does not “make herself the victim” there’s so much valid shit that has happened to her for us to feel that way about her, which most of her fans honestly don’t even see her as - granted there as some obnoxious ones but that goes for all fandoms.

Like for example of the experiences I was talking about.

- being sexually assaulted and then being called “greedy” for suing the guy.

- being painted as a “snake” because she didn’t react well to someone writing a misogynistic song about it. Which I feel like is a valid reaction as a woman in entertainment.

- being groomed at 19 by a 30+ something year old.

- getting called a snake worldwide for a narrative that 2 people - who were more famous than her at the time invented.

- being bodyshamed constantly when she had an eating disorder

Yes she’s privileged and has always been, coming from money and having fame, but she does not portray herself as the “victim” and the fact that people think she does just for standing up for herself makes me sad, not because of her but because being a woman myself it just paints the picture that women’s pain or experiences will always be brushed under the rug because we’re classified as “dramatic” and “we should take it with more grace” “be thankful about the good things” like??

I understand that you don’t like her but that assessment just seems wrong.

like i just. you realize you're proving my point right? like this - not just this message, but all of the ones i've gotten where people are waxing poetic about all of the struggles taylor swift has had and how she is absolutely a victim and how dare i suggest otherwise - is exactly what i'm talking about. you feel the need to jump down the throat of anyone who says anything remotely negative about her. this is the whole "victim" narrative, that she is vulnerable and must be protected and defended from all negativity at all times at all costs.

and like. that is on purpose. she has cultivated that narrative for this reason. so that publications are now afraid to post reviews of her albums with bylines because their journalists are getting death threats if they criticize her.

i am not suggesting that taylor swift has never had anything bad ever happen to her. that would be insane. i am trying to say that this culture that has been cultivated within her fanbase of defending and protecting her, is extreme and irrational. and when you don't buy into it, it makes a lot of the content surrounding taylor swift very hard to swallow.

[boytransmission]

Hi I'm kinda obsessed with your shirt that says "got a dick like an open wound" are you the artist/creator? Can I buy something with that on it from you or could I use it in my own art?

I suppose i am the creator, yeah! The Sir Mix-A-Lot misheard lyric thing is true for better or worse lmfao, the actual text is just a paper stencil and fabric spray paint :,) I don’t have a way to sell reproductions of it online rn, but you could totally make your own shirt/etc with it on. If you’re gonna sell prints or create something i’d love to at least be mentioned so i could see what you do with it. I write old button slogans onto my jackets sometimes, and this kind of feels the same; who am i to deny you that fun, yk? I am very attached to it though so i seriously do appreciate being asked.

[hallowclave]

What a whimsical looking young man I wonder if he has received any job offers recently

Original photo

[fobnsfwdoodlesbackup]

Happy Friday! The first 4 pages of the polyfob comic (with Girltrick) are up on the WordPress!

As always I want to give a major shout out to @punk-gremlin for commissioning and writing this! You can find their fic below 🫶 I'd really love to draw the rest of it sometime, it's a real treat UwU

Commissions like this help fund the blog and keep me able to create, so if you want to see more art then consider tipping, commissioning, joining the Patreon, or just sharing my work! A censored version of this comic has been posted to my IG if that's easier to share as well 🫶

[musashi]

i JUST realized this might be related to one of my other friends in the mvk fandom suddenly hardblocking me so uh

hey y'all! if you frequent the mvk tag, there is a regular blogger there who i will not name, but who has some sort of pathological attachment/obsession with me. they and i were tumblr mutuals but we were not close. we DM'd twice and had scattered interactions here and there.

they are accusing me of:

being abusive toward them

being otherwise cruel to them

being ableist against disabled folks who are high-support???

sending suibait/having my friends send suibait

probably other things.

EDIT: someone's informed me they're accusing me of posting private stuff from their vent account? the only account i know of theirs is the one we were mutuals on

i can't stress enough that none of this is true. there is no proof of it and if you press this person they will have none. all that happened was some time about a year ago when we were mutuals, i feared they might be vagueblogging about me when i was having depressive episodes and i sent them this message about it:

i was being honest here, but they then turned around and said i was spot on--they were vagueblogging about how badly they wanted me to shut the fuck up, stop whining, etc (paraphrasing, but that was the vibe exactly) every time i needed social support. they have since deleted their message admitting to this. i am so sorry i cannot prove it.

since then multiple mutual friends of ours have unfollowed them because they squat on ym blog and, again, pathologically blog about me. they revel and make posts about "justice" and "karma" whenever i am upset on here. they scream and yell and cry whenever i am happy. they have admitted to wanting to convince their mutuals to abandon me:

again, i can't prove this is about me but i have a lot of testimonials from people who noticed this being in both our circles and can vouch for it. initially i was just going to roll my eyes and move on but i think they might be telling other people i'm some horrible fucking abuser who mistreated them when i wasn't even close enough to them to do so.

anyways, sorry to everyone who tracks the tag! i don't know how to prove that i didn't hurt this person. but... like... if they approach you, please do your best to use best judgement and consider the facts in front of you.

again, i will not be naming them. this is not a callout post. this is a preventative measure, because i am a traumatized wreck and i really cannot deal with things of this nature.