#i figured that his ultimate goal would be to either get rid of the Curse in wilfrith or alter its system smth to be able to live

[aria0fgold]

I think my biggest problem when it comes to creating a story of my own with original characters is that... I don't know "What" the story is about so they're all just stuck in limbo.

[bouvillea]

a dense G24 Part 2 Essay

Here is my Part 1 Essay. Like before, I would like to talk about some parts of G24 Part 2 that I found interesting first. Feel free to skip ahead to around the fourth paragraph my discussion of the plot. Spoilers ahead.

The atmosphere is very similar to G20. I don't know about how others felt when they played through G20, but the uncertainty about who you could trust (Talvish...) was emphasized to the point where I, the player, couldn't make a sound decision either. G24 Part 2 revolved a lot around the fact that the Milletian and those that help the Milletian couldn't parse why and what was happening in Erinn. There was just a constant stream of dread and bitterness and an uncertainty about the Milletian themselves; the replies we were allowed to choose reflects that. Is the Milletian really good for the sake of Erinn's future? More on this later.

Part 2 opens with Hunter being, for once, very vulnerable to the Aces and the Milletian. He reveals to us his nightmares about his past and Fodla's past. We continue to see these bonding moments between the Aces, the Expeditionary Force, and the Milletian.* Starlet plays a bigger role now as a counterpoint to Fodla. One moves minds and hearts with persuasion and charisma, the other directly manipulates memories and emotions. The Aces clearly serve as the opposing undercurrent to Vayne's prediction at the end of Part 1. The Milletian will always have friends and supporters that cherishes them. Whether or not that is enough to stop the Milletian from spiraling into angst is another story.

*The Milletian really needs some after care...no one asks how the Milletian is feeling after all of this...

Ultimately, a lot of loose ends and story plots were tied up in Part 2, most of them very bittersweet and only vaguely hopeful at best. These back stories served to make us sympathize with the antagonists and make their motives understandable.

For that reason, I cannot come to hate Fodla. She had a very contrived method of protecting Hunter--her little brother. In a pact she made with Hymerark, Hunter's memories of her and his past were mostly sealed away. To make up for the fact that her little sister, Eriu, was sacrificed and succumbed to the curse, Fodla took in Deirbhile. She was a substitute that Fodla loved, but even in her last moments, Fodla wanted her real sibling. Deirbhile is truly a tragic character. She is a personality made and shaped by Fodla. Whoever she was before is probably buried deep in the recesses of her mind. Judging by the last scenes, Deirbhile cannot exist or function normally without Fodla.

Speaking of which, did Deirbhile make an oath with Hymerark, too? What for? We won't know unless we knew who she was before she met Fodla...

Thanks to Merlin, we now know that a Geas is a pact with a god, a pact that cannot be broken easily. If, in Part 1, the Milletian seeks out Vayne in Bangor and speaks to him wearing one of the Geas armors, he speaks about the dangers of being bound under a Geas: "You become bathed in the absolute authority of his will, which grants tremendous gifts and metes out terrible punishments".* Going against the orders of Hymerark will invoke a punishment. And so Vayne insinuates that he still needs to pay for abandoning his duties on the first night to hang out with the Milletian, and the Incubus King does his best to subvert the Geas in order to help.

*Thank you to Mita on twitter for supplying me with the extra dialogue I missed.

Speaking of which, the Incubus King really went full on angst and drama when he had to separate from his wife and Eiren, huh? He gave away his powers, haphazardly made a deal with Hymerark so he could have a dark, gloomy sarcophagus to dream about his time with his wife and child. Even Eiren made an off-handed remark about how lame it all was. It feels like the developers and writers realized that his motivations were very tropey so they decided to make fun of it. And then Eiren followed up with "he sort of...melted away into the darkness like summer snow". Oh. Okay. Goodbye, papa.

I'm going to continue off-tangent here and talk about Manannan, too. He comes back, all salty that the Milletian is busting into his temple uninvited (he does say another uninvited visitor, so was there someone before the Milletian?). But Manannan is so Cat Mom to the Far Darrigs that he can't maintain his pompous god-like demeanor in front of them and the Milletian. He can't bear to frighten the squishy Far Darrigs. It's nice to see that the Far Darrig's love and trust of Manannan isn't misplaced and is reciprocated. I don't think the Far Darrigs were there when Manannan met Scathach, so did he pick them up when he was heartbroken over her? Pure speculation, but that would be really something... Manannan tries to exit the conversation with the Milletian gracefully but then the Far Darrigs ruin it by letting us know that he's going to play with them. Hah. Glad to see his character getting fleshed out like this.

The Far Darrigs also "uwu" at me so there was that. Okay, back to critical analysis.

Human* greed and corruption is a repeating theme for the gods. Manannan said it in regards to the Fairy Queen's reason for leaving, and Vayne, a former Evil God, said the same to the Milletian during their fight. Even Morrighan and Talvish accused the Milletian of claiming powers out of greed and selfishness. The Milletian is a god-like being with human needs and motivations. They see the world in a much smaller frame than the gods do, but possess powers to rival the lowest gods. Make a mistake as a Milletian, and you might as well make a mistake for the whole world. And yet, the Milletian is not recognized as a deity by the gods, and not as a human by the mortals. They're an outsider.

*I will be using human synonymously for "mortal" since there are multiple races in Erinn

And being an outsider is a vexation for the Milletian brought to the front of the mind during this arc. They are always reminded that they are not one of them, that they are a special existence. Vayne's words wheedle into the mind every time they help someone out of kindness. Admiration will turn to fear, fear will turn to hate. The elves and giants forgetting the Milletian and blaming them, albeit artificially stimulated, was a taste of that. Fodla's nightmarish illusion also put the Milletian in the state of being a stranger. They stand at a distance, listening in on a conversation they aren't a part of.  And when they are noticed, there is nothing they can do to deter the hate, or prevent the blood on their hands. The worst part was that the Milletian's friends do zero damage to them. It was a cruel, one-sided fight.

But maybe this is all a trial for the Milletian, too. To steel their heart and understand who are really their friends and what role they play in Erinn. Piran said that Hymerark's trials for the people of Erinn have gotten more out of hand since Hymerark recognized the Milletian's existence. Then, perhaps, the Milletian isn't an outsider anymore. The trials are meant to be completed with the Milletian's help accounted for. These trials will unify the people of Erinn against the Order of the Black Moon.

Which, when you think about it, is not very dissimilar to Talvish's idea to unify the people against a common cause. You'll also have to admit that Vayne's/Hymerark's plan is a lot better than Talvish's. Piran also mentioned that Aton Cimeni and Talvish both condone chaos, so it explains why Talvish hasn't popped out to help the Milletian yet, or to defend them from a very persistent Vayne. He tried helping a little in G22 and then again during G23 but it seems like he got told off and instead sent Merlin to protect Erinn and protect the Milletian. Talvish is definitely on the Milletian's side though, and is probably hoping that they stay true to themselves and continue to help others.

If the goal of Hymerark was to make the Milletian to feel as helpless as possible and then chase them out of Erinn, he wouldn't need to go through such lengths. He could simply pop the Milletian into the Soul Stream and get rid of them there. Cichol did it, I don't see why one of the Three Gods couldn't. Or perhaps Hymerark's original plan was to get rid of the Milletian, but Vayne's oath with him prevented that. Vayne would want trials for the Milletian to overcome so they would become strong enough to defeat him. On the same note, since the trials are getting more intense due to the Milletian (different, I would say, than the trials are happening because of the Milletian), is the Milletian really good for the future of Erinn? I imagine the turmoil the Milletian is going through has something to do with this. Would the trials have been easier if the Milletian wasn't there? Would less people have died and gotten hurt if they did not step into Erinn?

Very briefly, on Cethlenn and Marleid. I had an inkling for a while that they knew each other (thank you, KR Twitter) but due to circumstances, they had forgotten one another. Marleid took on his name, and Cethlenn isn't his real name. So...did he pick "Cethlenn" or did someone name him that? Or did he just switch names with "Marleid"? If Vayne named him Cethlenn...well then. That's the name of Mythological Figure Balor's wife so...writers what are you thinking? (Or, more likely, Fodla named him to change him and meeting his childhood friend with his old name was the biggest trigger to disrupt her abilities.)

Anyway, things aren't looking good for Cethlenn. Or Tani. Tani's last letter to the Milletian had Morse code that vaguely translated to "please letmeout".* Upsetting, especially now that it's implied that Hymerark will use her body to descend to the mortal world. I'm just waiting for Aton Cimeni to pop into the Milletian's body to tell everyone to stop it and shut up.

*Other interesting implications regarding how Milletians work. They can sleep, but do not dream. Nao remembers every Milletian and they can chose to leave whenever or never return.

After all that has happened in G24, I hope we can get some good closure. And I hope the Milletian gets a nice break.

[unwoundvisions]

Pirate Villains Tags + Info

I assumed we would want tags for them at some point so I went ahead made some. I used there last names because they just sound more intimating: 

⇝ deadly chisaki

⤜ obsessive toga

 ✸ anarchic dabi

⥼ dastardly beck

⤷ wicked bolton

⤀ feral hargove

I also thought I’d post some information about the characters you aren’t  familiar. I would have done this on the doc but it was giving me trouble so now we get a big post.

Let us begin with Kai Chisaki.

Simple summery: Germaphobe who sees super powers as a illness and wants to rid it from the world while also making the gang he was raised in super successful and respected again (funny how he wanted to do that but was somehow okay with getting to keep his own powers). He’s a truly vile piece of garbage. I’m still going to post some of the stuff about his personality from the Wiki here because it’s helpful: 

“Overhaul is a mysophobic, antisocial sociopath obsessed with returning the world to the way it was before the Quirk phenomenon (aka super power phenomena). Due to a combination of an old theory claiming Quirks derived from rats and his own mysophobia, Overhaul believes that Quirks are actually a plague on humanity, having infected people with "syndromes" of heroism and villainy. He looks down upon those that use their abilities for either purpose, referring to acts of heroic sacrifice or petty crime as "sicknesses". Overhaul is extremely determined to his ambition of eradicating Quirks, not only due to his own personal phobias, but also because such a thing would allow the yakuza  (his gang) to reclaim the power they once held over society. Overhaul has no moral compass and an enormous ego, viewing himself as the only person in the world that's enlightened to the "true nature" of Quirks and deserving of the spot as ruler of the underworld.  As the leader of the Shie Hassaikai (that’s just the name of the gang)  Overhaul is usually levelheaded, thinks strategically, and, according to a conversation with Twice, seems to be nice at first. Whether he is acting or behaving genuinely, Overhaul does possess polite mannerisms and can come off as very calm and classy even to people he considers potentially troublesome. If aggravated, however, he may end up displaying a powerful and visible killing intent, more fitting of his true character. Overhaul is very germophobic and hates anything he perceives as unsanitary, frequently remarking about the unclean appearances of certain people and locations. He refuses to be touched by others, or even breathe in the same air as theirs, which is one of the reasons he wears an air-filtering plague doctor mask and forces his subordinates to do the same while around him (don’t see a need for him to do that in our fic). If blood, dirt or some other unclean substance comes in contact with Overhaul's person, he will start developing hives and lose his usual composure, becoming increasingly unhinged as a result. In drastic circumstances though, Overhaul will let go of his aversions in order to crush an enemy that's standing on his way, either due to pragmatism or out of sheer hatred. Overhaul doesn’t value humans, viewing people as pawns for their utilitarian value and being willing to experiment on them to accomplish his objectives. He carries this sentiment even towards the other members of the organization he has dedicating himself to since childhood, treating them as expendable sacrifices for his well-being and having no qualms in killing them off for the smallest mistakes. The masks worn by his closest subordinates also serve as a reminder of this mindset; he doesn't view them as worthy of sharing the same air as his. Even Eri, the centerpiece of his operations, is not spared from this brutal way of thinking as he frequently shames and abuses her through threats and guilt trips, seemingly as a method to force subservience on her mind ((They really glossed over Eri here. She was a girl he abused since she was a baby until she was around like 7 years old. Literally, kept her locked up, called her cursed human, drained her blood all the time and he regularly killed and brought her back ((which is something he can do with his power)) to life just to keep getting fresh blood out of her. Of course, in the name of the “greater good.” I fucking hate him.) As a young yakuza, Kai was extremely ruthless and would kill anyone who didn't show the Shie Hassaikai the proper respect, constantly getting into fights with rival gangs. Kai's boss, who was growing aware of the violent, immoral path his underling was following to uphold the name of the Shie Hassaikai, attempted to sway him towards a more honorable course, but to no avail; Kai became more and more convinced that illegal, questionable dealings were the only way the yakuza could ever restore their former honor. In the end, Overhaul's failure to recognize others and his own obstinate nature result in his downfall. Despite his strong-willed attitude, he is capable of expressing true fear and shock, especially post-defeat..

And if you ever need to know like how he speaks and his mannerisms you can skip around this video. Totally don’t have to but I wanted to share it just in case it may be useful: 

Now as for what I thought his motivates could be in our fic: 

Since he obviously can’t be obsessed with getting rid of super power, we need to change his character a tiny bit. I thought that in our world he can have a big thing against pirates who don’t have ambitious goals. Let’s say a pirate want to evade authorities and maybe cause them some mild inconveniences. Chisaki would think you weren’t thinking big enough and say the authorities should be killed and everything that put them in place should be destroyed. If a pirate has average goals, he deems them sick and they need to be cured (killed). I just think in this world his big goal would to go after real power. I could see his goal being to like completely restructure society and eliminate pirates with average goals and ensure the only ones who remain are one who share his vision. 

Not sure if we’ll even need his backstory but let’s say in our fic it goes like this: 

He is orphaned at a very young age and tries to find for himself on the street. It’s miserable and he probably thought he was going to die. Then, he is found by an older pirate (like 60′s) who takes him in. This pirate and his crew used to be really respected back in the day when they were more traditional pirates who did all the pirate things ( rob, pillage, ect).  However, in his older age the pirate has decided that pirates should care more about destroying high society (an understandable cause that some can get behind but simply don’t want to put in the work ).  Because of this, his crew has gotten a lot smaller and the biggest disruption they’ve had on high society is destroying a few wealthy business.  But it’s important to know this pirate was never extremely violent. Didn’t approve of vile crimes and genuinely wanted to bring a more positive change on society. He really wasn’t that bad (not an angel by any means but not as bad as most). It’s also important to note that he wouldn’t condemn other pirates for having simple goals like fame or adventure. Did he wish they had a drive for more? Yes, but he wouldn’t harm them. So, Chisaki grows up genuinely wanting the same change in the world but also wanting to ensure his caretaker’s crew became respected again so things slowly become more and more twisted as he gets older. 

I figured that when Chisaki is around 12 is when he’s properly introduced to Katsuki. How this happens is that I could see Katsuki’s mother helping the caretaker’s crew by looting and destroy wealthy business (simply because it paints her as more threatening figure while also putting money into her pocket). On of these missions, Katsuki’s mother’s brought him along. That’s how Chisaki and Katsuki become friends. But as they both grow older, they drift a part a tiny bit. Chisaki becomes transfixed on ensuring his caretaker’s vision becomes a reailty. He thinks to ensure this happens, they need be more violent, more ambitious and kill those with true power. In Chisaki’s ideal world, average pirates would be put down, nobles would be put down and the only people left would be those who admired them or were willing to work with them. He kills easily, he starts brutal fights with other pirates and his caretaker can do nothing to make him see sense which is why he tells him that he is no longer member of the crew. Ultimately, Chisaki feels so betrayed that he kills the man. Tells the crew he was murdered (obviously they don’t believe him) and decide they would kill Chisaki for the betrayal. Chisaki genuinely tried to give them a chance to come to his side but he knew what their intentions were (because he’s genuinely really smart). He poisons them all in at a supposed peace dinner. Since no one really cared about this crew anymore, no one really noticed that they were dead. But still, Chisaki, feels a strange sense of loyalty to his caretaker and still wants to carry out his vision. This is why he goes looking for Katsuki, thinking he could rebuild his caretaker’s crew but he quickly realizes that his old friend already has a crew. Chisaki intended on joining the crew and persuading to strive for the same vision he did. Of course, Katsuki doesn’t mind letting Chisaki join because he wanted a familiar person on his crew. Chisaki geuinely figured it would be easy to get Katsuki on his side but it proved to be harder than he thought. Thankfully though, the rest of the crew admired his vision so it was easy to convince them all it was time to overthrow Katsuki. Chisaki simply planned on dropping Katsuki off on an island and letting him die but Beck convinced him to ask for ransom first because they were a brand new crew and would need money. So, they did just that. Katsuki’s mother refused and they abandoned Katsuki on an island with nothing but a gun to kill himself.

This leaves Chisaki with a loyal crew that sail under his old caretaker’s banner and on his ship the Kraken. Chisaki never expected Katsuki to escape so you can imagine how infuriated that Katsuki is still alive. They always planned on offing him for good but usually got distracted by more important matter like killing people who opposed them and important nobles. 

Okay, I went into way too much detail there but he’s like the most important one so I’ll keep the others brief. 

Now onto Dabi:

If a quote that could some up Dabi is, “ Some men aren't looking for anything logical, like money. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned, or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn.” That’s Dabi. His chaotic, destructive and hates society.  He’s really hot too but that’s beside the point lol (i may just have a thing for fire guys). 

Here’s the important stuff from his Wiki:

“Dabi is a stoic, aloof, confident, and focused individual who rarely shows emotion. While rather crude and violent, he is actually cautious, choosing to retreat when needed. Overall, Dabi is a highly enigmatic individual who trusts no one, preferring to do things alone and in his own way. He also gives off the impression of knowing more about certain people than he lets on. Despite his usual expressionless behavior, Dabi finds joy in establishing himself as a villain fighting against what he believes to be false heroes, an ideology proposed by his apparent inspiration, Stain (just a guy who killed heroes because he thought they were hypocrites for getting paid). Dabi is dedicated to Stain's mission and desires to destroy superhuman society, sharing his belief that one person with the necessary conviction can do so. He appears to share Stain's sentiment that Heroes are hypocritical and unworthy of their title, but unlike Stain, he does not seem to seek a society with better heroes. Dabi takes pleasure in taunting heroic figures, students, and Pro Heroes alike, sadistically enjoying the pain he inflicts on others, including those he murders. Sometimes, Dabi engages in psychological warfare in order to unnerve whoever his opposition is (while also allowing himself to cool down from his own Quirk's effects). Very pragmatic in battle, he is rather savvy about how heroes operate and will exploit their natural tendency to rescue others. He's not afraid of causing collateral destruction, rarely holding back, even if it puts his allies at risk. Dabi is intolerant of most people and can be very derisive, being quite rude and condescending to essentially everybody he interacts with. He insulted Tomura Shigaraki immediately after meeting him and constantly does the same to both his allies and enemies. While the League would go on to develop a strong sense of camaraderie, Dabi has remained distant from them for the most part. He has admitted that he doesn't care for Tomura or the rest of the League and that the value he puts on them comes mostly from their ability to bring his ambitions into reality. This selfish way of thinking establishes Dabi as an extreme sociopath. However, Dabi appears to at least be capable of feeling remorse. While he had no problem killing a Pro Hero, their last  words appear to have resonated with him, implying that Dabi has sympathy for those that have lost family due to villains.”

Again, here’s a video just for his speech and mannerism that may be helpful: 

Okay and lastly, Himiko Toga

Overall, she’s fucking crazy and fun to watch but actually really scary. Her abilities we can’t include but their really cool. If she consumes someone’s blood, she can become their clone. Maybe in our fic we can just say she’s like really good at being sneaky and disguises. I’ll post the important Wiki stuff about her personality: 

“Himiko is a very cheerful girl, to the point of smiling even after having presumably killed someone, displaying sadistic tendencies.This continues even when danger is imminent, but it tends to stop when she is bored or annoyed. Himiko is frequently seen blushing seemingly out of excitement rather than embarrassment, giving her a permanent look of what appears to be lovesickness on her face. However, she has shown that she can easily be embarrassed, such as when she thinks people are coming on to her. Himiko is obviously mentally unstable and has a very twisted perception of love and friendship. Proven when, despite wanting to kill Ochaco Uraraka and Tsuyu Asui, she still attempted to befriend the two girls as they fought, affectionately calling Tsuyu by her first name and describing the former as "lovely". When talking to Ochaco, she said that it was only natural to want to be like the one you love, to the point of literally becoming that person. Later she further explains and compares that like how "normal" people kiss the people they love as "normal", she sucks the blood of the people she loves as this is her "normal", further showing her twisted understanding of love, which thus justifies her carving up and butchering "guys who are tattered and reeking of blood", as they fit the description of her ideal lover. Himiko's interest isn't just superficial, as her questioning Izuku Midoriya about what his values and beliefs imply, showing that although twisted, she does indeed want to know more about the person she "loves". She also has shown a comedic and childlike demeanor when faced with different situations. Like most of her allies, Himiko has stated that she finds life to be difficult for the current world and wants to make it an easier place to live in. She looks up to Stain and sees him as her role model; declaring a desire to kill and "become" him. She has shown to care greatly about her comrades and was enraged by one of their deaths. So much so that she wanted to kill the one responsible and their men as payback. Himiko is also shown to be prone to mood swings when she finds a target of "affection" (often Izuku) she is loud and cheerful. However, when an obstacle gets in between her and her prey, she shows a very angered expression, instantly switching priorities to kill whoever the nuisance is. In the past, Himiko was noted by her family and former classmates to be, "a cheerful, reasonable, well-mannered girl" whose subsequent turn to a life of crime surprised everyone who knew her. However, her own recollections imply that this was merely an act she put on to try and fit in with what society deemed "normal." She believes the way she acts presently is her own normal. 

Again here’s a video just for speech and mannerisms:

Okay, that’s everything I think. The only plot addtion for her is that we could potentially have her be interested in Laurie the same way she’s interested in Izuku on the show. We totally don’t have to but I thought it could potentially be interesting to have a really dangerous person for you to have to protect Laurie from. Of course, he can defend himself but she’s a little bit harder to deal with the average person. Again, we don’t have to do that at all, just an idea. :) 

I’ve gone on for WAYYY too fucking long but I think I’ve covered the important things. :)

[nadziejastar]

Saïx’s True Purpose & Personality Change

“It’s something powerful, right? Where does it come from?” Roxas was dead serious.

 Love… Huh.

“Love is a special power that only humans have.”

I don’t trust myself to explain this right. But I want to answer Roxas and Xion’s questions about ‘the human heart’ to my best extent.

“So Nobodies don’t have it?”

“You need a heart for it, see.”

“A heart…” Roxas was lost in thought.

Axel kept speaking. “There’s something special only born between people who are even more than friends…that’s love.”

As soon as I beat KH3 and read the secret reports, my first thought was that Isa must have originally been Subject X. And that has been my firm belief ever since. It makes perfect sense. FAR more than him being an apprentice, which was a last minute retcon.

Ansem's Report 2

The experiments caused the test subject's heart to collapse, including those of the most stalwart. How fragile our hearts are! My treatment produced no signs of recovery. I confined those who had completely lost their hearts beneath the castle. Some time later, I went below and was greeted by the strangest sight. Creatures that seemed born of darkness...What are they? Are they truly sentient beings? Could they be the shadows of those who lost their hearts in my experiments? 

During the experiments on the darkness of the heart, all the subjects’ hearts collapsed, even the hearts of the most stalwart.

Secret Ansem Report 2

I have made a grave mistake. My study of the "darkness of the heart" began with a simple psychological test and quickly snowballed. Spurred on by my youngest apprentice, Ienzo, I constructed a massive laboratory in the basement of my castle. Unbeknownst to me, my six apprentices then began collecting a large number of subjects on which to perform dangerous experiments into the "darkness of the heart." As soon as I found out, I called my apprentices together and ordered them not only to cease their studies, but to destroy the results of their research thus far.

Isa was a unique subject. His heart was amazingly strong, due to his feelings for Lea, and it didn’t collapse like all the others.

Secret Report 4: Experiments of the Heart – Notes on Subject X, Excerpt 2

My pilot studies used a handful of subjects, but none possessed the fortitude to endure them. Ultimately, all suffered mental collapse. I knew it would be a heavy blow to lose a subject as unique as she. Upon discovering the tests I've been conducting, my master demanded that I cease my work immediately and destroy what research I have compiled. Worse still, he ordered the release of my remaining subjects. She is gone. Where is Subject X now? Has "wise" Master Ansem hidden her away? Whatever the case, I will not be deterred. I will take her place as the first subject in the grand experiment to come.

But it was captured. Xehanort’s goal was to use the power of Isa’s heart as a weapon, and he became a vessel. Saïx was the result.

“I’ll bring him back to our side. Let me—”

“That’s enough.” Saïx turned his head, giving Axel a sidelong look over his shoulder. “Traitor.”

Axel scowled darkly.

“I’m going. You know, don’t you, that you won’t stop me except by force? And even if you tried, you would fail.” Saïx went on his way. 

It’s my memories that are telling me this sort of thing is unpleasant.

The Berserker Nobodies carry cursed hammers. So, Saïx probably carries a cursed claymore. When he grips the claymore, he enters his berserk state. 

“Then let’s skip the conversation,” said Saïx, and just like that he threw his claymore. But, Roxas batted it aside easily. The series of movements was like it was done by a completely different person than yesterday’s Roxas.

Saïx hesitated for a second, and Roxas ran at him.

He blocked the Keyblade.

Long ago—I remember, I didn’t hate fighting. Saïx flung his claymore at Roxas.

And so, Saïx remembered things from a long long time ago.

My theory is that the claymore makes Saïx relive the memories---good or bad---that made his heart so strong, enhancing his fighting ability by going berserk.

Saïx: I passed on the message as you so desired. I told the young Sora to keep defeating the Heartless.

Xemnas: Good. Not only have you the power to inflict pain, you also have the power to plant seeds of doubt in one's receptive heart. Sora will soon begin to doubt himself. It will cause him to hesitate and that hesitation will turn to anger. That anger will fuel him to get rid of his apprehension and move forward. He will pave the way for the future we desire.

Saïx: There's something I've meant to ask.

Xemnas: About Axel? The poor fool. How long will he keep chasing the illusion of friendship, when he himself lacks emotion? Trying so hard to retrieve what he has lost, when it may never have existed in the first place. He deserves nothing more than our pity.

And those memories were of Lea. The heart has a direct connection to memory. Saïx is forced to relive Isa’s memories in order to receive greater power, but he’s convinced that neither he nor Axel can actually feel anything anymore. And he’s tormented by it.

Day 94: All Goes Apace

Author: Saïx

The hearts collected by our two Keyblade wielders, Roxas and Xion, have gathered together; and now, almighty Kingdom Hearts waxes large in the night sky. Our efforts have come to bear fruit, nearly ripe for the plucking. All plans proceed smoothly—alarmingly so, in fact, though this is no time to be deterred by paranoia.

Day 94 ~Hearts~ is when Kingdom Hearts first becomes visible in the sky. They’re sooo close to getting their hearts back, and Saïx is trying not to be paranoid.

Cogsworth: Those horrid creatures plaguing the castle have kept the master from seeing Belle for days… There has to be some way to bring the two of  them together!

Xion: Remember the last time we were here? The candelabra was talking about the same thing. The servants seem awfully interested in making sure Belle and their master get along.

Roxas: You think it’s strange?

Xion: Only that they seem to be in such a rush about it.

That day Roxas and Xion go to the Beast’s Castle for the first time together. And Cogsworth is also trying not to be paranoid since time is running out for them to become human again.

“If he’s taking on the Heartless himself, he must have a reason to fight.”

Xion stared down at the Keyblade. What’s my reason?

“A reason?” Roxas blinked at her, mystified. “Like what?”

Chapter 65 of the KH2 manga is when Sora faces off against Saïx. It’s called “The Reason I Fight”. In 358/2 Days, that’s what the Beast’s Castle was all about, too. 

“Like…maybe he has something he wants to protect,” she said softly.

Xion, in turn, was mystified that Roxas found the idea so strange. As if he had never thought to ask why.

The main thing Roxas wanted to know was why the Beast fought so hard when he was the master of the castle, like Xemnas. He had servants to fight for him (or at least Roxas thought so). Xion suggested that the Beast was fighting so hard because he had something he wanted to protect.

Roxas: I just don’t understand why having a heart is so important. Do you?

Axel: Kind of a strange time to bring it up…

Roxas: But don’t you ever stop and wonder? We’re fighting for something we don’t know anything about.

Axel: Roxas… We’re fighting because we want to know what it’s about.

Roxas: Yeah… Yeah, I guess you’re right.

After the mission, Roxas was questioning the reason they were all fighting so hard. Axel told him it was to get hearts of their own. Hearts were necessary to experience certain things, and that was the recurring theme of Beast’s Castle.

Meanwhile, Roxas was already in the Beast’s castle with Xaldin. Gashes in the walls told them of a fearsome battle between the Heartless and the castle’s master.

But Roxas had one question for Xaldin. “Why is the Beast fighting so much?”

“That is what we’re here to find out,” said Xaldin. They climbed the stairs from the entrance hall, toward the grand doors, which Roxas was fairly certain led to the ballroom.

I think that world was meant to be a parallel to Axel and Saïx’s backstory. The reason the Beast fights is tied to Isa’s true purpose as a human and Axel’s reason to work so hard to complete Kingdom Hearts.

“Well, it seems important to him…” Roxas looked again at the rose beneath the glass, safe in the back of the chambers. It was somehow sparkling, unlike anything else here.

“Precisely. That is no ordinary rose. The room is in tatters save for one corner—because to him, at least, it is more precious than all the castle’s riches.”

“Is that why he’s fighting the Heartless? He wants to protect the rose?”

“Indeed. It holds some strange power… Perhaps the Heartless are drawn to it as well.”

“Is that the reason he’s fighting so hard…?” But why was the Beast so determined to protect a flower?

The Beast was fighting so hard to protect the rose, which was very dear to him. It was the one thing that was most important to him. Or at least that’s what Xaldin thought.

“Our work here is done,” Xaldin declared. “We have the Beast’s weakness.”

“We do?”

“That which we treasure has power over us, Roxas. His heart is captive to it. And that makes it his weakness.”

“Captive…? I don’t get it.”

Everything Xaldin said only got harder and harder to follow.

“Nor should you. You have no heart to love with. Let’s not linger here.”

Xaldin said that having something you care about is a weakness. It’s they key to capturing the person’s heart. Since Nomura said that those implanted with Xehanort’s heart get their heart captured, this is no doubt what happened to Isa.

“Well, you were right,” Roxas went on. “We figured out what he cares so much about. But Xaldin says that’s a weakness.”

“Why would caring about something be a weakness?” Xion asked, baffled.

Roxas lowered his head. “I don’t know. I didn’t get it, either.”

I’m not the only one surrounded by things I can’t understand, Xion thought. Axel would explain it, though…

“I hope Axel comes back soon,” said Roxas. She nodded. They would have so many things to ask him.

Whenever Roxas went to Beast’s Castle, he’d want to talk to Axel afterwards, to explain things to him. 

“Hmm, this is fascinating,” said Xaldin. “His monstrous form is somehow tied to the rose.”

“You mean, his curse?” Roxas asked, keeping his voice low.

“Yes. It seems that unless he completes some task before the rose withers, he’ll remain a beast forever.” Xaldin smirked at his own cleverness. “A beastly curse and a rose… Heh-heh. This will prove useful.”

“How?”

“Trying to explain it to you would be a waste of time. Let’s go, Roxas. No more dallying.” With that nonanswer, Xaldin left the chambers.

Roxas dallied anyway, peering through the doors again. The rose, the thing he treasures, is his weakness? Nope, I don’t get it. I wonder if Axel will know what it all means…?

And Axel always found it hard to explain. That’s because the concepts Roxas asked about were all things you needed a heart to understand.

“Do you have anything you couldn’tKeybladeo lose?”

Axel shifted in surprise and pulled the ice cream bar out of his mouth. “What? Where’d that come from?”

“I saw someone today and…he was talking about something like that. It was so important he couldn’t even think about losing it. Xaldin told me that’s a weakness. And I started thinking about how I don’t have anything—”

“Yeah, because you don’t have a heart.” Axel sighed, weary of having to point it out.

Roxas thought that Axel would know what Xaldin meant, and I think he was absolutely right.

Young Xehanort: What? “Your friends are your power”? Ah...how very true. But if the light of friendship is a form of power...the darkness of being alone is a power...even greater. Darkness is the hearts true nature. 

I don’t think Isa naturally enjoyed combat, but he did his best to protect Lea. He got better at fighting and even started to enjoy it because it had a purpose. There was meaning in it. Isa couldn’t bear to lose Lea. This was seen as his weakness and exploited during the experiments.

Sora: That’s the hearts true nature. To never, ever let go. Wherever they are, Andy and the other toy haven’t let go either.

Woody: Yeah! You can’t keep us from Andy.

Sora fought to protect his friends, too. It was his weakness and Saïx definitely exploited it during their battle. Sora’s friends were turned into cards, and even when the cards were destroyed, Sora still told Saïx that he wasn’t alone. 

Xigbar: Oh, and you can spare me the usual party line. Yes, hearts are powerful when they’re connected. But if you put too much of that power in one place, some of those hearts might end up breaking.

Saïx got extremely upset by this and was reminded of his fight with Roxas.

After so long, the weight of it was somehow strange in her grip. She thought she could feel the warmth from his hand lingering in the metal.

“Then you can go ahead and use it for the day,” said Roxas.

“But what are you going to use?”

“Well…” A hint of a grin came to his face, and he picked up a makeshift weapon near his feet. “I can improvise.”

“Roxas…that’s a stick.” It couldn’t possibly do any damage to Heartless, Xion thought.

When Xion was trying to regain the use of her Keyblade at the Beast’s Castle, she also said she wasn’t alone. Roxas was right there fighting beside her. He put himself at a disadvantage for her sake.

Roxas: Love? What's that?

Xaldin: It's an emotion. The one deluding those two as we speak.

Roxas: Oh...

Xaldin: They think the power of love will save them? That's the stuff of poetry, not practicality.

Roxas: Love is a power?

Xaldin: None you or I will ever grasp. Nor will they, for long. The love between them will wither and die. Love never lasts.

My theory is that Lea always fought really hard to protect Isa, who probably had never fought a day in his life. Lea enjoyed play fighting and was more equipped to handle himself. He saved Isa from certain death one day by and Isa really wanted to thank him by letting him have a day off to rest. Like Xion, he had been working really hard to become more independent and useful. I think he bungled it and collapsed, but after that, the apprentices viewed him differently. I don’t think he was seen as very useful at first. He was weak. But then they realized how strong his heart was.

Roxas looked bewildered. As he’d expected, he wasn’t doing a very good job explaining it.

“Not that it matters. We’ll never know the difference.”

Roxas wouldn’t let it go. “Do you think I could love somebody, if I had a heart?”

“Once Kingdom Hearts is complete, I bet you’ll be able to figure it out.” 

The magic words again, Axel thought. It’ll all make sense when Kingdom Hearts is complete. But was that true?

No one had ever seen it happen before. So who knew? Still, all they could do was believe in it. Pitiful Heartless, mindlessly collecting hearts…

The Beast’s true purpose was not defending the rose; it was defending Belle. He wanted to protect her because he loved her. I think Isa wanted to protect Lea because he loved him. And I think Axel’s main motivation to complete Kingdom Hearts was that he loved Isa. He wanted him to get his heart back, and he wanted to experience love again. More than anything, Axel wanted love. Someone who thought he was the most important person in the world. This is why Roxas was unable to meet his emotional needs. Axel wanted more than just friendship. He wanted romantic love. That was his motivation for completing Kingdom Hearts. 

“Something you find amusing?”

“Oh, the things you hear from a guy with no heart,” Xigbar said through his hilarity.

None of us have hearts, Saïx was about to remind him, when Xemnas spoke again.

Xigbar taunted Saïx for having no heart. It happened more than once in the novel. The first time is when Saïx couldn’t see Xion. 

“…Well, do your best. The best a kid without a heart can do, anyway,” said Xigbar, and he too disappeared.

Xigbar also suggested that Isa lost his heart as a kid. It was no doubt a result of being experimented on. When Axel told Roxas he’d have to work twice as hard to make up Xion’s quota, he called it “doing your best”. And I think that’s why Xigbar said Saïx would have trouble doing that without a heart. He was referring to the “kid without a heart,” Isa. His heart is what gave him strength.

“I feel bad for you, too,” she told him.

“What are you talking about?” Saïx towered over Naminé.

“You haven’t even noticed yet…that you have a heart.”

Several Nobodies emerged from a rift out of the corridors.

“A heart? I have a heart? No one wants your nonsense!” Saïx raised his sword over Naminé—but Riku was there with Soul Eater to intercept the blow.

“Hmph. I don’t have time for these games.” Darkness welled from a rift behind Saïx. “Do your best to help your dear hero.” With that, he disappeared.

“Are you all right?” Riku helped Naminé to her feet.

“Now I understand…,” she murmured.

“Naminé…? You understand what?”

She was silent for a moment and quietly shook her head as she stood. “It’s nothing. We have to find Kairi.”

Despite having such a close bond with Lea as a kid, and desperately wanting a heart more than anyone, Saïx still never displayed any human emotion. There was supposed to be something very unusual about him.

“Looks strong,” Axel remarked from behind them.

“Yeah. He is,” Riku said, sinking into thought.

His heart is even stronger than his body. It’s exactly the kind of heart the organization wants…

“But someone that strong won’t just do whatever the organization says,” Naminé murmured.

“Well, this is their chance to show how persuasive they can be,” Axel said with a bitter smirk.

I don’t think Isa was ever really that great of a fighter. But his heart was stronger than his body (he’d probably be a good fighter if he had a Keyblade). And his strong heart is why he was targeted by the apprentices and became Subject X, Xehanort’s favorite lab rat.

Odr (pronounced “Oh-der,” from Old Norse Óðr, “ecstasy, inspiration, fury, frenzy;” sometimes shortened to Óð or “Od”) is an obscure, seldom-mentioned god. The Old Norse noun óðr means "mind", "soul" or "spirit".  

It is derived from a Proto-Germanic word *wōð- or *wōþ- and it is related to Gothic wôds ("raging", "possessed"), Old High German wuot ("fury" "rage, to be insane") and the Anglo-Saxon words wód ("fury", "rabies") and wóð ("song", "cry", "voice", "poetry", "eloquence"). Old Norse derivations include œði "strong excitation, possession". Ultimately these Germanic words are derived from the Proto-Indo-European word *wāt-, which meant "to blow (on), to fan (flames)", fig. "to inspire".

This backstory also fits with the Norse mythology-inspired concept of Saïx. Berserkers worked themselves up into a rage while focusing on something that gave them “divine inspiration”. They needed a purpose, which was typically Odin. Part of the mythology of berserkers is that they are possessed by animal spirits, like bears or wolves. The wolf is the traditional spirit guide of the hunter, warrior, and magician. The wolf represents a dual nature of nourishing and destruction. I think Saïx would be represented be a wolf (or werewolf).

In Celtic tradition, the Hare is sacred to the Goddess and is the totem animal of many lunar Goddesses - Hecate, Freyja, Selene, Anumati. Freyja is the wife of Odr. She is the headstrong Norse goddess of love, sensuality, and women’s mysteries, was also served by hare attendants. The nocturnal Hare, closely linked to the moon which dies every morning & is resurrected every evening, also represents Immortality & the rebirth of Nature in Spring. It is also a symbol of Abundance as the hare can conceive while pregnant.

On the other hand, I think Isa was possessed by the spirit of a rabbit when he fought. Unfortunately, wolves eat rabbits. Isa’s heart was swallowed by Xehanort’s.

Xemnas: As your flesh bears the sigil, so your name shall be known as that of a recusant.

It makes sense that Saïx was given his scar not long before receiving his new name and new purpose. The third eye chakra is located on the forehead between the eyebrows, exactly where Saïx’s scar is. The scar was something he apparently got as a human, since it stayed after he was recompleted, unlike Axel’s tear marks. The third eye governs one’s ability to think and make decisions, and their connection to their purpose. It also controls extra-sensory perception, which explains why Saïx could not see Xion.

Xemnas: A heart is never lost for good. There may have been variances in our dispositions, but a number of us unquestionably showed signs of a burgeoning replacement. Once born, the heart can also be nurtured. Our experiments creating Heartless were attempts to control the mind, and convince it to renounce its sense of self. But understand, one can banish the heart from the body, but the body will try to replace it the first chance it gets, for as many times as it takes. And so I knew, even after we were divided into Heartless and Nobodies, it was just a temporary separation.

Xemnas learned that the heart could not simply be banished. So, in order to create vessels, he resorted to controlling the mind and capturing the heart. This all happened during the experiments on the darkness of the heart.

Outside the window, the moon—the heart-shaped moon—floated. Axel watched it, still sprawled on his bed. There was still a little time before he had to leave on his mission.

To gather hearts, to have hearts of our own, to not let the heart mislead us…

For these past few days, I’ve been thinking about the meaning of Xemnas’ words. To not let the heart mislead us? What does that mean? Whenever I’m alone, these thoughts just float around in my head the whole time. I don’t know why I have to think so much about it. I bet the other Nobodies don’t.

The heart… emotions. I think about their origins. Contemplate it. Reason about it. When did I start doing this?

On Day 117 ~Secrets~, Axel was thinking about Xemnas’s speech before Saïx came in the room. He didn’t know what Xemnas was talking about when he said they wouldn’t let the heart “mislead” them.

Sora: So then, all that stuff I just saw--did you put that in my head?

Xigbar: No. That wasn't "stuff," it was a dream. The falling asleep part was definitely our bad. But we can't put stuff in your head. Hey, I got an idea. Ask your heart. See if it's got a clue. 

Sora: Well...my heart was aching. That's why I kept going. 

Xigbar: Oh... Thank you, Sora's heart, for pushing him right into our clutches. Aren't hearts great? Steer us wrong every time.

When Xigbar found Sora in KH3D, he said something very similar. 

Xemnas: However--through weakness of body...weakness of will...or weakness of trust--most of the original members we had chosen for the Organization were inadequate. Thus, naturally, they never had a chance to attain their goal. Yet, even this was to be expected. We have learned of the heart's folly, and we have achieved our other goals. This last excursion has proven to be a worthy closing assignment for the Organization.

And afterwards, Xemnas showed up and talked about the mind control experiments. He said that they’d learned of the heart’s folly and achieved their other goals. Saïx is no doubt a product of this. 

Day 355: Mind

Author: Xigbar

The gears of Xemnas' plans have begun to spin wild since the loss of half our membership at Castle Oblivion. The results are there, but can this state of affairs fairly be called a success? If Kingdom Hearts can be said to possess a mind of its own, it is surely rejecting Xemnas—no, rejecting Xehanort. Roxas left the Organization today.

Isa was “misled” by his heart, causing him a lot of pain, putting his heart to sleep. Then he got Norted. His mind and heart were replaced with Xehanort's. The same thing was almost done to Sora. He was going to be made into the 13th vessel by mentally fracturing him, and putting his heart to sleep, leaving him without a sense of self.

Xemnas: You seek answers. You feel nothing. Nothing is real. I can give you purpose.

Roxas: Roxas.

Xemnas: That is right–the new you.

Roxas received his new name along with his purpose soon after he was born. When Roxas was leaving the organization, he was rejecting that purpose. He was rejecting Xehanort. And Saïx was unusually angry about it. He even said similar things that Xemnas did, implying that the same thing was told to him when he received his new name and purpose. At that point, Isa's consciousness was gone.

Day 356: Unforeseen Events

Author: Saïx

Our plans never accounted for the possibility of both Xion and Roxas leaving. How did this come to pass? When did Roxas grow strong enough to outmuscle me? What were you really after, Lea? We joined the Organization at the same time, and formulated our plan. At this point, it's just an idle fantasy. Everything changed. You, and me.

Isa’s purpose was protecting Lea. His new purpose was to become stronger, since physically he probably wasn’t that strong. And his priorities drastically changed. He might not have any memory of receiving his purpose. Since he's a Nort, maybe he thought it was something he desired on his own.

Roxas: Yeah, but what is it? “The heart of all hearts”?

Xion: It’s where all the hearts you and I collect wind up.

Axel: Exactly. It’s because of you two and the Keyblade that we’re finally making some progress. We might finally get hearts of our own.

Xion: “The strength of the human heart is vast,” Xemnas said.

Roxas: Yeah, but what do we need with it?

In the prologue of the manga, Axel reminisced with both Roxas and Xion. They got their new names, then watched the sunset together. One of the panels included the scene of Xion questioning her purpose in the organization. Roxas questioned why they were fighting on Day 94, but accepted Axel’s explanation that they’d understand when they had hearts.

Xion: Roxas, why are we doing all this? Working for the Organization?

Roxas: What do you mean, why? So we can get hearts of our own, right?

Xion: Why? What do we need hearts for?

Roxas: I don’t know. But I figure once we have them, we’ll be in a better position to judge. Right?

Xion: Maybe. I just wish I knew what I was doing here.

Xion started questioning why she was fighting on Day 151, after she failed the mission with Riku and was called a failure. Roxas tried to cheer her up, but she ran off. All of this would eventually lead her to run away for good.

Axel ducked into the sweets shop. “One ice cream, please!”

“Here you go.”

Sea-salt ice cream in hand, he meandered toward the clock tower.

I wasn’t expecting to find Riku easily in the first place. I bet Saïx thought the same. But Saïx will probably pull that magnificently horrible face and have a nasty word or two to say if I state that ‘I couldn’t find him’, but then that’s Saïx’s ‘personality’. In short, Saïx pretending to be a human just involves just a whole lot of that kind of thing. It doesn’t mean that he himself is really feeling some kind of displeasure. That too is natural, seeing as he has no heart.

“This is so salty,” Axel muttered just like every time, biting his ice cream as he climbed the slope that led to the station.

After Xion ran off on Day 151, Axel showed up at the clock tower. Just after the scene where Xion ran off, there was an extra scene in the novel. Axel bought some ice cream and was thinking about Saïx’s ��personality”.

Saïx heaved an exaggerated sigh. In a way, Saïx put more effort than any of them into pretending he had a heart, Axel thought. And yet, he was more lacking than any of them.

Axel remarked several times about Saïx’s lack of human emotion. He did it when he returned from Castle Oblivion on Day 72 ~Change~, when Saïx wasn’t worried about him or grateful to him.

After watching them go, Axel stretched and turned to Saïx, expecting to see a scowl. But the expression had left Saïx’s face, leaving him as dispassionate as usual.

Of course, he had been faking it in the first place. Nobodies had no hearts; they only imitated what emotions they remembered. The very proof of their emptiness showed how desperately they each longed for a heart. Axel probably did the same thing himself without noticing, and yet, for some reason, when Saïx did it—or actually, any of the others—it seemed so out of place.

Maybe because it makes me realize how much effort we put into acting like we’re still human, Axel thought. It’s pointless.

And he did it on Day 96, when he covered for Roxas and Xion so they could go to the Beast’s Castle together. In the manga, Axel said Saïx was like that from the start, so probably ever since he became a Nobody.

Xion: I’m remembering things. About who I was as a human.

Axel: Well, stop remembering. Nothing good will come of it.

Xion ran away on Day 255 because she wanted to know who she was. She wanted a real purpose, not just doing the organization’s bidding. Afterwards, Axel sat with Roxas and couldn’t break the news to him. I think he was remembering how Isa awakened to a new purpose, too. This coincided with his personality change and possibly him regaining his memories. Saïx’s purpose was to become stronger. After that, he became a totally different person. Axel’s biggest source of pain throughout Days was that he thought he would never see the Isa from his memories ever again. The Isa who existed before he awakened to a new purpose.

Axel: You really think the truth is going to make you feel better? It won’t.

Roxas: What makes you so sure? I have a right to know who I am! How did I get here? Why am I special? Where did I learn to use the Keyblade? I deserve those answers!

Axel: Roxas…

Roxas: Are you gonna tell me or not? Axel… Who am I?

The Isa who still loved him and whose purpose was protecting him. He was terribly lonely and was very upset when both Roxas and Xion started questioning who they were, because he knew he would lose them. They'd be destroyed. He had a very strong stance against them regaining their human memories. 

"Axel—please.”

“No ‘please’.”

“But… I…” For a second, Axel thought he saw Xion’s face become Sora’s again. He shook his head slowly. 

“You get it, don’t you, Axel? I can’t live like this.”

“There should be a way for you to keep living as yourself.” Xion pushed Axel back with the Keyblade, jumped back, and readied her stance.

“That’s a lie. On top of this, I don’t want to be used by the Organization for such a thing. I hate that Roxas is being used by the Organization.”

“So do I.”

Axel couldn’t bear to tell Roxas that he might never see Xion again after she left. It’s probably due to what happened to Isa. Subject X was an amnesiac. He probably started to regain his memories, which started after becoming self-aware and telling Lea why the sunset was red. That was the beginning of the end. His heart began to gradually get swallowed by Xehanort. Lea had to witness his friend become a completely different person over time. He was reliving that experience with Xion.

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All Verses & AUs;*

I have these very organized. The first portion are all FMA based. Any verse that has to do with specific muses will have them tagged, however just because a character is tagged doesn’t mean you can’t rp that verse. The only ones that won’t be rped with other people are the ship based ones. So never hesitate to ask more about each verse or send starters for them. Also all headcanons for the verses will be tagged as “(verse name) hc”

Sweet Love; This is Rory and Leanna’s ( @littlemisssweetcakes ) primary verse. Rory and Lea are in a lovingly complicated relationship.

Another You; This verse is what started it all for Rory’s existence and probably will be my main verse. Jean Havoc disappears and becomes the homunculus Greed. Rory blames herself that he resorted to feeling like he needed to sacrifice himself to help her achieve her goals to be Fuhrer. She’s a lot more emotional in this verse with the constant struggles of not wanting to admit her feelings for Havoc despite him being a homunculus.

Three’s Company; Rory, Lea ( @littlemisssweetcakes ), and Jean (N/A) end up in a polyamorous relationship. This is basically a combination of Another You and Sweet Love. There are a few time frames that can be played out:

One (Name TBD): This verse takes place after Havoc’s disappearance. Rory is still struggling over the disappearance of Havoc, but has made the decision to be in a committed relationship with Leanna.

Two (Broken Fragments): Rory and Lea are broken up. To Be Updated!

Two point five (Name TBD): Havoc returns as a homunculus. At first; it’s complicated and definitely not the most stable thing to exist. Rory tries to do everything in her power to make Havoc (Greed) return back to human.

Three (Name TBD): With the help of Lea; Rory makes Havoc becomes human again. While still on the complicated side, they’ve all managed to make the relationship a lot more stable with minimal jealousy issues occurring.

Mommie Dearest; This mainly is for the use of an AU crimsonandcarbon had came up with but shared with me. It’s primarily for Maes Hughes where his role and Gracia’s are reversed. It can work with canon as well. Basically any case that someone is dead leaving Elicia without a parent and Rory takes the second parent role is how this is to be used.

College; Exactly as it sounds. Rory is in her first year of studying chemistry, fourth year being in college as a total. She has a fascination with fire, and enjoys writing poetry.

Reality Escape; This is an asylum au. Can be taken in a modern verse or in a 1940s-1950s settings. Depending on the time frame, things may be a little different for Rory. Either way Rory suffers from Pyromania and Borderline Personality Disorder. In a modern verse; Rory committed herself to seek the help she needs. In the 1940s-50s verse; Rory was tossed in by her aunt as a way to “get rid of her” for being such a “pest.”

Other Mother; This verse is a little more open than the sub-verses below it. After so many near death incidents on Ed’s part (following a canon timeline), Rory decides to take on an unofficial mother role to Ed and Al in hopes of him to be less likely to get killed.

Fullmetal Brat; Because there are so many different Edwards in this fandom, this is my specific verse for @fullmetalflea . Rory becomes an unofficial mother figure for Edward. His verse title for this is Mother Flame.

Sweet Alphonse; This is currently open to any Alphonse that is interested in interacting in this verse.

Little Liam; This verse is specific for @a-cluster-of-cute-ocs. Liam is the youngest Elric brother.

Modern; At the moment this is just Rory and Edward ( @chiisaikintsukuroi ), but is open to anyone who wants a modern verse. Rory is in the Air Force Reserves, working full time on base, and part time as a warehouse manager off base. I will say that the knowledge Rory has of Edward’s life does not leave that RP.

Fractured Figments; Mirror AU. I am putting this with the FMA verses, because that’s what this is. Rory is an “imaginary friend” of Roy’s. She’s often his voice of reason, as well as the cause of most of his turmoils.

Bittersweet; This verse is based on Rory’s feelings for Ed ( @thetinyalchemist ). Maybe one day she’ll admit her feelings. However, for the foreseeable future, that will not be happening.

The following verses are all based on other fandoms. These allow me to have Rory interact with other characters in other fandoms as well as come up with interesting verses that I never would have really considered before.

Wonderblood; Deadman Wonderland AU. Rory is known as the albatross (They briefly mention an albatross, but don’t elaborate further.) Her fighting style is capoeira, combining her deadman abilities into this. She can create needle-like points from any open wound on her body. She also can shoot them out at her opponents. She is missing an eye from losing a fight, as well as most of her hair.

Fire Song; s-CRY-ed AU. Rory is an alter user that works for HOLY. Her ability is similar to Ayase Terada’s where if she does a quick flicking motion with her hair, she can cause explosions either in the air or on a specific object that she is touching. Or she can let her hair sit there and cause a fire on objects around her. This ability is called Fire Song.

Gym Leader; Pokemon AU. Rory is an aspiring gym leader. Her pokemon are Ninetales, Delphox, Mightyena, Arcenine, Flareon and Umbreon. In case you missed the trend, they are all fire or dark and some form of canine. Rory has taken over an abandoned pokemon gym and is in the works of restoring it as well as getting the proper approval to become a gym leader.

Puppy Gone; Fruits Basket AU. This verse is based in high school with Shigure, Ayame and Hatori. This can be before or after Rory knows about the curse. I have it based that Rory dates Shigure during high school and is forced to live with the Sohma’s due to knowing of the curse. After college Rory is told to move far away to never return.

Dragon&Phoenix; This is a sub-verse for Puppy Gone. Rory returns back despite being told to never come back. She ends up getting close to Hatori ( @hatori-sohma ) and eventually dates him.

Shake It Off; Celebrity AU. I’m not creative. Rory is a singer (Using Taylor Swift songs because it suits her best). She has been dating Edward ( @thetinyalchemist ) on and off since high school (Rory is now 24, Ed is only a few years younger). Edward is in the military with no “famous” traits other than being known as Rory’s on/off boyfriend. Always assume Rory is on her “off” time with Ed unless previously discussed for them to be dating for the threads. Also Rory may cheat on Ed but that is also something discussed by everyone involved in the storyline/threads.

Forgotten Name; Sucker Punch AU. Just like in the Sucker Punch movie, Rory goes by a false name, Phoenix. She is a patient/worker in the asylum/business (depending which way it’s to be taken). Phoenix was given that name because of her fiery attitude and ability to continually be “reborn” from the negative things she witnesses on a daily basis.

Talentless Host; Ouran High School Host Club AU. Rory and Tamaki were childhood friends. When he moved away, Rory didn’t think too much of it. Until she moved to Japan to attend Ouran Academy. Learning that Tamaki had started a “Host Club,” Rory decided to take advantage of her unisex name to pass as a male to reconnect with her old friend.

Momma Litchfield; Orange is the New Black AU. Rory was 22 years old when she had gotten arrested for arson. Not long after being sentenced to Litchfield prison, Rory was given the title as “prison mom.” She tries to keep out of everyone’s affairs, unless someone is picking a fight with one of her children.

Ultimate Survival; Walking Dead AU. There are two versions of this; they both will be under the same tag however:

Version One: Alchemy is still usable in this verse. Homunculi and Chimeras are unaffected by this virus. Rory is most often traveling with Havoc, Hughes, Gracia, Elicia and Hawkeye. This can change depending on who the thread is being written with.

Version Two: Rory was in the military before the apocalypse. She has lived this long by relying on flares and her knowledge of various chemical reactions that have worked to her benefit. Rory has lived this long on her own, but isn’t against making temporary allies when the time calls for it.

Meme Au; Meme based AU. This is exactly as it sounds. An AU based from a meme. It has little to nothing to do with any of the other verses or AU’s listed above.

[nyx-ships]

If you ever need a prompt, maybe like, an au where hunter!Ohm meets vampire!Bryce (who's never met a human??) And is super annoyed because Bryce follows him like a puppy and smells him any chance he gets.

Title: Different

Pairing: Brohm

Rating: T

Word Count: 4245

A/N: Ahhh, sorry for the long wait, anon! I had trouble figuring out how to write the ending, and I wanted it to be a bit longer since it took me so long. But, now the wait is over, and you can finally read what I hope is an okay fic :3

Enjoy :p

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Another swift, silent kill to add to his list.

Another ridding of this horrible, cold, unfeeling species to add to his list.

Another being of evil obliterated from this world to add to his ever growing list.

How many was it now? How many monstrous lives had he destroyed for the greater good?

300 dead and still counting.

Well, now it was 301, but who was keeping track?

Oh, that’s right, he was.

He, the one who willingly kills them without so much as a second glance.

The one who willingly watches as the life drains from their eyes without so much as a roll of his own.

The one who willingly tears them apart, emotionally and physically, with a smile and a scoff.

They didn’t call him a hunter for nothing, after all.

But, he wasn’t just any old hunter. He was The Hunter. Everyone knew him, everyone either feared or looked up to him.

Really, Ryan was the best. Known throughout the world as Ohmwrecker, Vampire Mutilator. And he couldn’t disagree with the title, because it wasn’t far from the truth. Not at all far from the truth.

He tended to get a little…..brutal with his victims. Well, butal was an understatement. In the vampire world, Ryan was the monster.

Because no amount of begging or pleading stopped him from ripping apart a vampire’s flesh with a silver blade, no amount of babbling or crying stopped him from putting a bullet through their skull.

And that’s the way he liked it. He liked the merciless killings that left him with a pile of blood and a heap of flesh. They gave him this sort of adrenaline that pumped through his veins, and it reminded him that he was alive and real, doing something that mattered.

It reminded him that the world needed him.

After the death of his family, his mother, father, and two brothers, Ryan was left alone, suffering from the loss of his loved ones. He didn’t know if life was worth living, if he would ever be able to move on.

Because when his 16 year old self walked in on the mess of blood, the two men hunched over his mother’s crying form, the rest of his family already dead and discarded to the side like trash, he couldn’t understand what he had done to deserve this kind of pain.

Because when his mother looked him in the eyes and mouthed for him to run, while Ryan did, he couldn’t understand why the world would do this to him.

When he heard the dying scream that he knew belonged to his mother, when he crouched in that alleyway and let the first few tears cascade down his face, when he remarkably went back to his home to see the damage, Ryan couldn’t grasp why he was tortured like this. Why he was given this.

As he stared down at the bodies, stepped in his family’s blood, looked into their dead, lifeless eyes, he could not fathom why this type of grief was put upon him.

As he leaned down next to his mother’s still barely rising chest, listening, hoping she would say something, he wanted to know why.

When all that came from her mouth was gurgling and a red trail down her cheek that mixed in with salty tears, he still couldn’t understand anything. He still couldn’t understand why the Hell the world would do this to him.

He got good grades, he did his chores, he was always nice to strangers, he was an optimistic kid with morals and goals.

What did he do wrong to deserve this type of suffering?

Looking back on it, Ryan still didn’t have the answer. Maybe it was because life wasn’t fair, the world was cruel, and the best people had to be knocked down.

Either way, the loss of his family ultimately led him to his job. As cheesy as it sounded, he became a hunter for revenge, to avenge, and to help make sure no kid had to go through what he did.

Along with that, he became quite different than his old self. In his mind, he improved, but really, was hiding away and closing yourself off an improvement?

No longer did he say hello to his neighbors when he got up each morning.

No longer did he smile and wave as people walked by, as they passed him to continue their lives.

He shut himself off from the world, mainly to hide his weaknesses. It was a little known fact that vampires from around the world often stalked him, tried to find his Achilles heel, in order to take him down.

To prevent that, Ryan did the only thing he could. He closed off his emotions, wore a constant poker face, and cut ties with any and all of his childhood friends.

And it worked. Not one of these undead beings had gotten anywhere close to killing him.

To him, it was an improvement.

Ryan chuckled at the thought as he stared down at the mess he had made.

This one right here had tried to kill him. Brian was his name. And man, he didn’t go down without a fight.

Brian insisted on finding his weak point, on ending this famous hunter, Ryan respected that.

But boy, had that worked out for him.

Now he was nothing but blood and bones, with a bullet in his brain and coordinated slashes across his body.

Ryan kicked at the dead body, before leaning down and searching the corpse’s pockets for something, anything, he could keep as a little souvenir.

He scowled when the blood dripped onto his hands, but it didn’t really bother him too much. It wasn’t like he wasn’t covered in it anyway.

Call him sick, but Ryan liked keeping little knick knacks from his travels and killings. He had quite a few wallets and phones, some necklaces and bracelets, pairs of glasses, little good luck charms, handkerchiefs, even little tubes of makeup.

All so he could remember his victims.

They reminded him what he had to do, that no vampire should be allowed to live. Not when they preyed on the weak and feasted on those who couldn’t defend themselves.

He pulled out a wallet, and took the id, deciding to leave the money holder and just stick to having information.

He looked over the license, taking note of Brian’s age and full name, staring at the picture that conveyed false innocence and human-like features.

It almost made him laugh.

“Thanks, Brian.” He smirked, pocketing the license, “ It was fun while it lasted.”

With one last look over and another kick, Ryan began to retreat from the alleyway, knowing the police would deal with body. They always did.

All he had to do was give them an anonymous tip as to where a vampire had been seen, and they’d deal with it.

He pulled up his bloody bandana, not bothering to wipe off any excess, he could do that later.

Besides, it was 3 in the morning, who would be out to see him like this?

“No one in their right mind woul-”

“You know, it’s really not nice to torture them like that.”

Ryan froze in his place, the bubbly voice coming from behind him, back by the body.

His fists clenched tightly, nails digging into skin as a million thoughts ran through his head, regarding the voice and what to do.

“But I must admit, it’s kinda cool how precise you are.”

Ryan held his breath for a few seconds, the voice undeniably close, too close for comfort. This could end badly if he wasn’t careful with his approach. He’d hate to have to kill an innocent person for being nosy.

“What the hell?” He mumbled to himself, the light laughter from the stranger tipping him over the edge. He growled quietly, pulling out his gun stealthily and cocking it, his finger resting lightly on the trigger, ready to do some serious damage.

He listened for any type of movement, to help him know exactly where to go to be face to face with the person that belonged to the upbeat voice.

When he heard the slight rustling of clothes behind him to the left, his breathing hitched and his eyes narrowed as he took control of the situation.

In one quick turn, he had his gun pressed against the stranger’s forehead, other hand reaching for a knife, but the voice started again, its happy tone keeping him from grabbing his secondary weapon.

The blonde before him put his hands up in mock surrender and stared down at Ryan, eyes playful, not at all deterred by the fact that there was a gun to his head.

“Whoa there, I was just admiring your work, that’s all.”

Ryan narrowed his eyes at the male, taking in his pale skin and the two teeth that poked out of the sides of his mouth when he smiled.

He was undoubtedly a vampire, his features showed it all, but Ryan couldn’t seem to find the guts to pull the trigger. There was something achingly familiar in those eyes that held him back.

And he cursed himself for it.

So instead, he growled lowly and tightened his grip on the gun, trying to at least scare the man into thinking he would kill him.

But the blonde just giggled, staring down at the body next to him and touching it with his foot, grimacing a bit as the blood got on his white sneakers.

“Hmm. Good thing no one really liked Brian,” he paused, “they all thought his impressions were annoying.”

The blonde grinned, waving at Ryan and extending his hand, his happy exterior contrasting harshly with Ryan’s blunt, emotionless one, “I’m Bryce! And you must be…..?”

Ryan didn’t make an effort to tell Bryce, so the  blonde just nodded before looking to the bandana, eyebrows raising and mouth opening slightly in what seemed to be awe.

“You must be Ohmwrecker! You’re that famous vampire murderer, right? I’m gonna call you Ohm for short. Can I call you Ohm? It takes up less air.”

Ryan instinctively brought his gun down, baffled and annoyed by the young man’s ignorance and complete comfortability with being face to face with a vampire hunter. With him, nonetheless.

He pinched himself, hoping this was all a bad dream, but he didn’t wake up, and unfortunately for him, Bryce kept talking.

“This isn’t a dream, silly! I’m Bryce and I’m really here. You’re Ohm and you’re really here!”

Ryan sighed. He had never hesitated to kill a vampire, but Bryce was different. And he suddenly knew why. It didn’t take much though, really.

He reminded Ryan of his young self.

As annoying as he was, he seemed innocent, almost childish, and Ryan had sworn long ago not to kill anyone with those qualities. Probably because he never thought he would meet a monster who harbored such traits so fiercely.

But here he was, standing in front of Bryce, who was exactly what a vampire shouldn’t be. The epitome of it, really.

He was bubbly, bright, radiated this curiosity and kindness, and quite frankly, it confused Ryan.

In over his ten years of hunting, he had never met a vampire like Bryce. Never.

So distracted by this realization was he, Ryan didn’t even notice that his gun had been taken, and his knives were stripped from his waist, along with his ammo, leaving him pretty much defenseless.

He only noticed when he saw Bryce fling his items over the wall of the alley, a disgusted look on his face as he touched the weapons, but his smile returned, and at that moment, a familiar fear pooled in Ryan’s stomach, but he chose to ignore it, only looking at Bryce with an annoyed/appalled look on his face, which the blonde simply laughed at.

“I didn’t want you killing me, silly.”

Apparently, Ryan had forgotten how quick Bryce was. He let his guard down and now his stuff was gone.

Ryan went to open up his mouth, but Bryce held up a finger, shushing him so he could continue.

“And don’t worry, Ohm, I won’t kill you, that’d be a waste of a pretty face, don’t you think so?”

Ryan made a face that was mixed with confusion and disgust, but the blush that rose to his cheeks betrayed his intended reaction.

Bryce raised a brow, acknowledging the blush, but thankfully, he said nothing.

Ryan rubbed a hand over his pink-tinted face, staring up at the barrier that separated him from his weapons.

No one had tired him out in such a short amount of time like Bryce. He was a natural at it too, and Ryan wouldn’t lie, the blonde was starting to give him a headache.

He sighed inwardly, walking past Bryce to the wall, getting ready to climb the damn thing and get his stuff back, but a hand around his wrist and a tingling of his neck had him stopping his movements, shivers trailing up and down his spine involuntarily.

His eyes took in the sight before him, fear rushing towards the front of his brain on instinct, and he felt his heart racing and blood pumping as he stared.

Bryce had his head in the crook of Ryan’s neck, which he fit perfectly in, and he kept inhaling deeply, sometimes shakily, lips parting ever so slightly to exhale against Ryan’s flesh, seemingly smelling him.

Bryce looked perfectly content, like he belonged there and nobody could stop him from figuring out the man’s scent.

And Ryan sure as hell wasn’t going to try.

Ryan couldn’t move, he didn’t dare. Not when Bryce’s mouth was centimeters from his neck. It didn’t matter that Bryce had told him he wouldn’t kill him, what if he turned him into one of them instead?

The last thing Ryan wanted was to be a monster. The last thing he wanted was to become the being he absolutely despised the most in this world.

He’d rather die, really.

Ryan swallowed the lump in his throat, and Bryce looked up between dark lashes, eyes slightly dilated, and quite frankly, it scared Ryan.

But, to the human’s grateful surprise, instead of biting down on his flesh and taking away his humanity, Bryce fully rested his head on Ryan’s shoulder, his grip on the brunette’s wrist tightening ever so slightly.

He looked like he was having trouble focusing, like his grip on Ryan was the only thing keeping him from doing what was expected.

It was obvious what was happening.

Bryce was holding himself back from hurting the cute hunter. And Ryan took note of this. His restraint alone was enough of a reason to trust him, but Ryan was still wary when Bryce spoke into his skin.

“Minus Brian’s blood and tears, you smell really good. Kinda like tea and blueberries.”

Ryan could’ve easily torn himself out of Bryce’s hold, the male was distracted by his scent, but he found himself staying put in the blonde’s grasp, finding some sort of enjoyment from the intimate action.

Ryan gulped, he was really losing it.

He enjoyed being held by a vampire.

He. Enjoyed. Being. Held. By. A. Vampire.

All of his morals, his promises, the whole avenging his family thing?

All of that was melted away by Bryce’s touch. And it scared Ryan. It scared him to think that a little contact could completely erase who he once was.

He mentally slapped himself for feeling disappointed when Bryce backed away. He scolded himself when he stared at Bryce’s lips and wondered what it would feel like to have them pressed against his own.

He had just met this guy, not only that, but this kid was a vampire, why was he having these thoughts?

He shook his head and forgot all about retrieving his weapons. He just wanted to get home as fast as possible. Take a shower, a nap, maybe binge watch Westworld again, just forget about Bryce and leave this weird encounter behind.

But, it looked like Bryce had other plans.

“Where are we going?” He asked, following behind Ryan as he walked out of the alleyway, casually slipping his hand into Ryan’s without so much as a second thought.

Ryan looked down at their hands and pulled away instinctively, looking up at Bryce with yet another confused look on his face.

“I’m going home. You’re going back to wherever you came from.” He paused, eyes traveling from his face to their hands, and then back to the blonde’s light smile. “What do you think you’re doing?”

Ryan pulled down his bandana, revealing the rest of his face, including the well-trimmed beard, and Bryce stared, looking a bit mesmerized now that he could see his lips.

Bryce’s smile grew stronger, eyes shining as he stared down at Ryan, grabbing his hand again and holding it tighter. Ryan didn’t even bother trying to pull his hand away this time.

“What does it look like I’m doing? I’m holding your hand, Ohm!”

Ryan sighed at the nickname, pinching the bridge of his nose and inhaling deeply. He didn’t have the patience to ask why.

He kept walking, ignoring Bryce for the most part, except when he asked him some questions, that Ryan answered, as long as it would keep the blonde from staring at him so intently when he wasn’t talking.

“How many have you killed so far?”

“301.”

“Do you ever get nightmares about them?”

“No.”

“How old are you?”

“33. How old are you?”

“21.”

Ryan paused, stopping for a moment at the new information. He was young, severely young. At least for a vampire. Most of the ones he killed ranged from 300-1000 years old. Yet here Bryce was, less than all of them, still a newbie to the world.

Bryce noticed Ryan thinking, so he changed the subject, obviously uncomfortable with his age.

“So, Ohm. Why didn’t you kill me?”

Ryan continued walking as he answered, nearing his house in the distance. Really, he shouldn’t let Bryce know where he lived, but he seemed pretty harmless, at least so far.

“You’re different than all the others.”

“How so?”

“You’re…..innocent.”

Bryce laughed loudly at this, and Ryan noticed his two fangs glint in the streetlight, but he wasn’t at all bothered by it.

When Bryce gained his composure, he ran his fingers along Ryan’s knuckles, lost in thought, but speaking coherent words.

“I’m far from innocent. I’ve killed a lot of innocent people, humans. But…thanks.”

He smiled down at their hands, his voice a bit quieter than before as he spoke for a second time.

“But I guess we have that in common, huh? Killing a lot of the innocent…”

The brunette felt the slight jab to his heart, but he pretended not to hear Bryce, deciding on keeping his mouth shut and not starting trouble for now.

Ryan pulled his hand away to unlock his door, and Bryce took this as an invitation to smell him again, obviously taking great pleasure in his unique scent as Ryan spoke.

“Well, you haven’t killed me yet, and you didn’t try to kill me earlier, so I see you as innocent compared to my other….encounters.”

He dodged over the word kills, knowing Bryce wouldn’t end up like the rest.

When he opened his door, Bryce jumped back, the small dog at the doorstep taking him off guard.

Ryan leaned down, patting the small dog’s head and ushering the creature inside. When he was halfway down the hall, he looked back, and to his surprise, Bryce wasn’t in the house.

The blonde was still standing outside the door, playing with his hands and staring down at the wooden floor, looking a bit uncomfortable. His normally bubbly attitude turned hesitant, and his eyes were downcast.

“Well?” Ryan asked, motioning towards the door and Bryce’s current state, a hand on his hip, “aren’t you coming in?”

Bryce sighed, obviously hesitant to respond, but he did anyways, hoping for the best.

“We’re not allowed to come in unless we’re invited…”

Ryan’s eyes widened at that, and he was about to speak, but thoughts clouded his mind and took hold of his attention, and he instantly thought back to his childhood, the horrifying realization hitting him like a truck:

His parents had invited two vampires into their home.

His parents had invited two deadly creatures into their home, where they had children.

Ryan tried to reason with the newfound discovery, maybe they didn’t know they were vampires, maybe they had no idea. But he saw right through that.

His father had been a scientist. He had often studied the undead murderers, he knew everything about them, especially how to detect one.

There was no reason for them to not know.

His parents, his father, willingly let two dangerous beings into their family home.

He grasped the door knob tightly, not even aware that he had somehow ended up back at the opening to his house.

His eyes were slightly glazed over as he replayed the memory for the second time that night, and he swallowed harshly, a million questions burrowing into his being and resting just beneath his skin.

Bryce looked on, slightly worried and disturbed as he watched the mental war go on in front of him, and he spoke up, voice soft and wary.

“Are you….alright?”

Ryan snapped out of his his thoughts, noticing that his knuckles were now white from how hard he had been gripping the handle. He brushed it off, and he looked up, clearing his throat and his mind.

“Yeah. Yeah, I’m fine. Just….you’re invited in, Bryce.”

He could’ve easily said no, he should’ve said no. But he didn’t. For the first time in his life, Ryan didn’t hold any hatred for the person in front of him, he liked him, in fact. He didn’t see Bryce as a threat, and he actually wanted to know this blonde standing before him.

Bryce let the  smile come back, and as Ryan stepped back, he walked in, the scent of the brunette growing stronger and sweeter, and Bryce really liked it.

As weird as it sounded, he didn’t want to take Ryan’s blood or turn him into a vampire, all he wanted was to sit with the older male and be close to him, have deep talks and meaningless laughs.

His smell, instead of making his mouth water, made Bryce’s heart flutter. Really, he should be killing the male right now, but he couldn’t.

He didn’t want to.

And Bryce was sure Ryan knew that.

Why else would he let him come in?

He followed Ryan into the living room, and when Ryan sat down on the couch, so did Bryce, scooting up next to him so his legs were on the couch and he was leaning up against Ryan a bit, continuing to smell him every chance he got.

And Ryan let him. Ryan also let him rest his head on his shoulder when he noticed the younger male’s eyelids beginning to droop as the tv played quietly before them.

At that point in time, the vampire hunter knew it was getting to be morning time, and that he could’ve easily opened the blinds and ruined everything for Bryce.

But he didn’t.

In fact, he glanced around the room to make sure all of the blinds were closed and the curtains were covering them, because no matter how much his mind protested with him, his heart told him not to let anything happen to the blonde now in his arms.

Bryce was now cuddling into Ryan, his arms latching onto Ryan’s one free arm and pulling him close, body pressed against the older’s side, head in the crook of his shoulder, soft intakes of air sending a shiver through the brunette.

It seemed like Bryce took great comfort in Ryan’s scent. Like it soothed him instead of hungered him, and Ryan was not only confused by this, but also grateful.

He tore his eyes away from the stupid commercial on his tv, and looked down at Bryce, slightly weirded out when a smile graced his own chapped lips.

It seemed like Ryan’s scent was Bryce’s safe thing, like he felt at peace with Ryan’s tea and blueberry smell radiating off of him.

And Ryan was surprisingly okay with that. He was fine with the blonde taking in his scent, fine with the way he snuggled into his shoulder and gripped him tightly.

It as like Bryce had awoken something within Ryan, something emotional.

Throughout his years of hunting, not one vampire had been able to get this close, to soften his harsh tone, to tear down his stone cold facade.

And as confusing as it was, Ryan was glad Bryce was the one to do it, because he was nothing like the others.

And as Ryan repositioned himself so he had a blanket pulled over the both of them, he was glad Bryce was there, in his arms.

He was comfortable holding a vampire in his embrace with no weapons and no intention of letting go.

He was perfectly okay with this change in him, absolutely fine with the different mindset now placed in his head.

Ryan was completely content, for once in his life, and he somehow had the feeling that Bryce would only continue to make things better.

[geoffreywalton]

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Some of your conversation should not be pleasured enough and will cause the results will be the right state of his partner needs 15 then it is just one of the causes of premature ejaculation, it is more likely to last long enough for the peak of his male patients were actually suffering from the problem is the squeeze technique.Indeed, premature ejaculation is complex but with the pleasure of the numbness that they are all so stressed out because you can obtain even better than depending on sexual partners, a new way of getting rid of premature ejaculation effectively is learn how to make her squirt.If however you have a girlfriend or partner impregnated, it can be named as the stop-start strategy.Just pick you that are causing the problem is in the sack so that they also reduce the arousal act and thinking about something else, something unique.Premature ejaculation is mainly triggered most times by becoming too aroused

So you see in the bedroom, then it is simple.This is the most popular solutions advertised on TV, or anywhere you want, there are a few hours before having sex.There are also having a number of other systems can perform their respective partners.Premature ejaculation exercises in Internet.If you are sure that you have little to do so.