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quietblissxx · 1 year ago

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#oof I'm feeling not great today #it's the not wanting to do another work week thing #i feel like I'm on a hamster wheel #i have such great moments but they're not the norm. i need to find a way to make the mundane positive. i need little daily joys #in the meantime i feel like I'm treading water in the abyss #there are good days and bad days and i know I'm just in a bad day but could my head not be filled with cats #i feel so lonely in my bones #this emptiness might drown me #personal #i am tired of feeling like I'm on an island screaming for connection #i am tired of nothing ever being enough. i want to find meaning. i want to live a life worth living #I'm just feeling so hollow

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lovebunnie · 2 months ago

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“i love being aromantic” i say as i feel my chest cavity rotting from the inside at the unquenchable desire for love in a way that is truly a secret third thing but its not a secret i want to keep it is a secret nobody is willing to listen to and im trapped in a state of isolation of my own making because no matter how much love i have to give it will never be enough. it will never be enough. it will never be enough.

#space.txt #aromantic #its like something gnawing on my bones!!!#i am who i am but who i am is somebody nobody else wants #and do i want to be wanted?#im trapped in a world that will never give me the dignity to be truly happy by myself #financially and culturally! im doomed by the narrative #i look forward and there will be friendships but they will never be enough i feel like a fucking ALIEN #i need to meet another aroace person irl so bad its so fucking lonely how do people deal with this #1k #all the notes on this.. WE WIL BE OKAY!!!#2k

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kingslionheart · 15 days ago

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"He was looking forward to this journey." "So he can pray over Hoskuld?" "He was looking forward to seeing you," Steapa said, "for some reason he likes you." —Uhtred's Feast, Bernard Cornwell

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emmaspolaroid · 1 month ago

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it’s like.. Fujino was so fucking jealous of Kyomoto and thought she’d never ever catch up and wanted to quit, but the art she hated was everything to Kyomoto. and i don’t think she ever grasped just how much Fujino envied and admired her, and that she needed her. she was her only friend.

#I’m crying so hard man. creating can be so goddamn lonely sometimes #and fujino was too proud and stubborn to admit that she wouldn’t have ever been able to do any of it without kyomoto #but now she has to.#RIPPING THE FLESH FROM MY BONES #I saw look back today. Finally.#look back #I know the movie inspired a lot of people to run home and create and I’m feeling that too #but more than that is. the profound and inevitable alienation that comes with pursuing a craft #and how it sometimes feels so worthless but. it matters to someone. i promise your art matters.

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salsflore · 5 months ago

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#cw negative #cw suicidality #cw vent #last night was the lowest i’ve ever been in a while . it truly is something else isn’t it #though i’ve been plagued by Those kind of thoughts for a while now i know i don’t truly want to die #more like take a very long nap and be woken up when it’s all over and i don’t have to constantly feel this way anymore #despite everything i am still hopeful for the distant future . i know i will probably cry over uni assignments and maybe fret over-#-workplace drama . but then i will have friends to meet for coffee and money to buy the silly things i want #so i have to look forward to that or else #carrying a level of hurt with me that makes it feel like my bones are being dissolved in acid #constantly waking up and wondering what i did to deserve it. feeling embarrassed‚ too #i want to wipe away those memories . and stop hurting myself nightly #genuinely when i close my eyes all i can think about is how desperate i felt and how lonely i was and then i want to claw myself apart #[ why did no one help me? ] those kind of thoughts ... i have made positive memories but i’m finding more difficulty recalling them #💭

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stinastar · 10 months ago

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This is what it feels like here lately 😢

The chirps are likes and reblogs on things I reblogged, the silence is everything else. Please like/comment/reblog my original posts, I am funny and desperate for attention 😂 Write tags, send asks. It’s so damn quiet in here these days.

Love you all. Hope you’re well.

#I’ve heard the same from others so this isn’t just personal wanking lol #anyhow I miss what it used to feel like here #it feels quiet and lonely these days #even leave tags on my reblogs that you reblog #something #anything #throw me a bone #lol

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torawro · 1 year ago

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catching up with undead unluck and………dear Lord.

#ʬʬ.sosa speaks.com #listen to me y’all listen J-JUST LISTEN LISTEN TO ME PLEASE #andy’s lil alter ego or original personality or WHOEVER victor is got me all kinds of excited #like idk if im shaking bc im cold or im THAT excited n stimulated #this lil serious demeanor he got is making me curl MY TOESSSSS RAAHNQWM #now i see why this isn’t his normal look because he would have been too powerful #a-and HE IS SO BIGGGG HELLO???😩 so so large…..#i’m cumming #i know sex wit this man would….*inhales deeply*#i know it’ll rearrange my entire pelvic bone and shift the position of my uterus #but i want him to #i literally feel warmth and slick building up in my pussy guys HELP ME #i need to be in a room with him where there are no others…..#the way i would immediately be on my knees the moment he looks at me even for 2 seconds #anyway idk why im like this i think im still ovulating (& lonely)

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dont-offend-the-bees · 5 months ago

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Slightly concerned that chapter 2 of my critically acclaimed new fic might be a bit shit...

#dead boy detectives #not SUPER shit #but it's a v diff part of the story #and that slow build of chapter one isn't really present here #it's more meandering with lulls in the tension/stakes #and idk a bit formless #and I'm getting in my head about it a bit bc tbh it's longer than I intended #like it's gotten so big that I'm probs gonna up the chapter count from 3 to 4/5 #and I'm like ok but does it need all this extra stuff or is it a rambling boring waste of time?#this is what happens to my head when I let a one-shot idea spin out lmao #like I know lots and lots of people (including me) are more than happy to read fic that's like #basically just character moments/interactions with no plot or slow/plodding plot #but i feel like the creepy tense ghost story vibe of chapter one might have given people expectations that the rest of the fic will be that #and i'm gonna be real with you. the ENTIRE purpose of this fic is so I can write One Scene in the last chapter #everything else including themes and motifs have grown out of that #and I have no idea if they're gonna hang together in the end #ugh i'm gonna have to finish/post c2 soon before i get REALLY in my head about it and bury it #i have one more section to write i think #and then an edit #if anyone who doesn't mind spoilers wants to read it and tell me if it's horribly boring please dm me lmao #(it's chapter 2 of Lonely Bones if that wasn't clear)#mr. bees speaks

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lonelyplanetfag · 3 months ago

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"i'm gonna die sad n alone🙁" vs "im gonna die cool n mysterious😶‍🌫️"

#if i get old im gonna have an old man shack in the woods n all the kids in the area are gonna thibk its haunted #n when they dare each other to check it out im gonna yell at em n scare em real good #cuz im gonna be sad n angry n lonely n bitter abt how i never had a wife or a husband or anythign #n so one dsy somebodys gonna go poking around the shack n im gonna be dead in there #n then im gonan be a local horror story forever #n all the kids will steal my bones #n then ill finally finally finally feel less lonely n itll be a real nice happy ending #people will love me n talk abt me forever n ever n iwont even have to do anything #wont even have to leave my shack til i die #n theyll say hey remember that old guy in the woods? n everyone will #n i wont even have to twlk or try n make friends or nothin

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shijas · 4 months ago

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#delete later #sometimes… reading romance is soul crushing fr #like wow #will anyone ever love me #i felt so pretty yesterday and it felt like a huge waste which is dumb i should have not introspected on why i wanted to look pretty etc #whatever anyway i’m not lonely it’s i just ?? im not even unappreciated ?? im unhappy yes because at a default i am unhappy i feel idk #like at best i’m contented ?? romance or romantic love wouldn’t even fix it yada yada #i have vvv fulfilling friendships and my relationship with my family is fine so long as i just bite my lip #which ig i’ve just given in to life that way! but side tracked i love my friends and family whatever i like myself well enough that most of #the time i would resist a even a painful death #i just ? even when i’m content or i reach a goal maybe it’s the adhd but i don’t really get anything out of it other than bone deep #exhaustion and a need to pick myself apart and in the theme of the last #year or so i wish someone wanted me romantically idk why #validation? affirmation?? my ego!!!??? idk but yeah i wish someone wanted me #ugh #whatever

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messyemm · 1 year ago

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Leon is the kind of guy that falls in love so hard that he’d do anything you want, even if you don’t ask, even if you don’t notice. That’s how whipped he is.

You said you like his abs? He’s going to go crazy on core workouts to make them more defined for you.

He accidentally eavesdropped when you mentioned you were craving sushi to your girlfriends while they were set on eating Indian? He casually brings you some for lunch the next day.

You hit your hip once against the drawers and the next morning as soon as he wakes up, he moves the whole thing two inches. You never notice.

You don’t need to notice.

#IS IT THE BARE MINIMUM??? MAYBE!! but I’m lonely alright #leon kennedy #Leon being so observant while on a relationship is so canon I feel it in my bones and #idk why it’s so attractive #he’d notice the little thhignssss!!!#wahhh feral!!!

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psalmsofpsychosis · 1 year ago

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#it is one of those glorious days #in which i feel like nothing i ever do matters and i dont matter and i dont know why i keep trying #i'm so bone deep tired of being around people who make me feel like i dont matter abd can easily be left out of any equation #and dont exist for all they care #my best efforts get trivialised to death like ''yeah that's something you did. whatever''#and it makes me sick #i miss my childhood #in which i used to tell my friends about the imaginary worlds in my head and it mattered so much to them #nowadays i feel like i could move mountains or do nothing and it wont matter either way. so i do nothing. and it feels so lonely anyway #in a way the past 5 years have been the most insignificant and irrelevant i've ever felt

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jacobied · 1 year ago

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feeling fucked up tonight<3