#i feel like i should be over it buuut im really not

[angelsheartts]

hiii idk if requests are open so either have this as a silly little thought or a request <33

lucifer and (ideally gn/male) reader have been flirting for a little while and then one day lucifer finally asks reader out, but they reject him

he’s super confused thinking he may have misunderstood their whole dynamic until he overhears reader telling someone at the hotel the reason he rejected lucifer is because reader feels like lucifer would never be able to love them as much as he loved lilith/doesnt want lucifer to use them as a rebound

overall i was hoping for hurt/comfort but whatever rows your boat, love your stories and i hope to see more of them in the future !! have an amazing day <3

.° ༘ THE OTHER WOMAN ᝰ.ᐟ .

#pairing: lucifer, x gn reader.

#cw: angst, fear of being the second choice, lucifers backstory with lilith, starting something new, accepting that relationships come to an end, happy ending 'cause im not that mean hehe (at least not yet).

#note: I LOVE THIS REQUEST SM, i haven’t wrote any angst in my blog BUUUT i love it, this request is mwuah.

everyone at the hazbin hotel knew that lucifer had been courting you for the past few months, everyone except you.

or, well, that’s what the sinners at the hotel thought, at least. you obviously knew that the king of hell had been flirting with you, and at the beginning, you almost fell head over heels for him, until indecisive thoughts started to fill your head.

"was he REALLY flirting with you?", "why would he still be wearing his WEDDING ring if he had been flirting with you?", "will he ever LOVE you like he loved lilith?", "will his daughter even ACCEPT your relationship?"

as soon as those thoughts started appearing, you started distancing yourself from the fallen angel, sadly for lucifer he had already started to get the courage to officially ask you out on a date.

the king of hell wasn’t an idiot; he noticed how you started to make up excuses to not talk to him alone or how you weren’t really responding to his flirting anymore, but decided to be stubborn and brush those thoughts off.

-

as soon as you received a text from lucifer saying he would pick you up around eight, you knew he was planning something, and as soon as you saw him all dressed up, nicely done hair and his prideful smile showing on his face, you knew what was coming, but who were you to not appreciate his efforts? if you knew that it was going to end someday, why wouldn’t you enjoy the moment? yes, you were being a fool for accepting his offer, but having a tiny crush on him wouldn’t hurt you, right?

after having a nice and really luxurious meal at a restaurant in hell, lucifer guided you to an actually peaceful spot where you could see all of the pride ring. ironic. who would even think that hell has a peaceful place, one where you should feel relieved, but why weren’t you feeling that way? was it because you knew what was to come?

"(name), is everything alright?" lucifer interrupted your thoughts with his angelic voice, or could you say demonic? at the end of the day, he was still an angel, just a fallen one. "mmh? yeah, i was just..lost in my thoughts i guess" you answered, admiring his glowing red eyes shining in the dark. "oh, okay" he said, letting a nervous laugh come out. "i think there is something i need to tell you, (name)" lucifer said, this time his voice had a serious tone. "i thought that after lilith I couldn’t get to love again, but heavens was i wrong. i had the chance to get to know you this past months, and…you've changed my life in that short time." he started, giving a sincere smile "would you want to be my partner?" he asked, fidgeting with his fingers as you stared at him.

oh, well, that question made you nauseous. "i-, i don’t think i want that, lucifer" ouch, that hurt his pride."I think it’s time for me to go, i’m sorry" you said in a quiet tone, standing up and leaving him there, and as much as you didn’t wanted to look back, you did, but the only thing you could see was lucifer in the same position as when you stood, this time though, he was hugging his knees staring at the view you both were looking at just a few minutes ago.

-

since his confession about his feelings towards you, he hasn’t been in the hotel, and the cast started to suspect that it has to do with the date you had with him. charlie was the most preoccupied, since she had been the one to encourage his dad to finally ask you out. she tried texting his dad to ask him about your response, but the king of hell just responded with a "it didn’t go as planned, but don’t worry about it, char-char."

after that text charlie obviously knew that his father was feeling bad about whatever happened that night, and would isolate himself from the others, so for her attempts to not let that happened she kind of tricked you into visiting him, she asked you about the date, and since you kind of lied to her by telling her that the date went as normal as a date should go, she then answered by saying something along the lines of "if that’s so, would you mind reminding him that he needs to come to the hotel?"

you could write lucifer a text message telling him to come to the hotel, but since you literally ran away that night, you forgot that your cellphone was laying somewhere near to where you both were sitting, so yeah, you did in fact lost it.

-

going to his mansion was a really weird feeling, what can you even say after rejecting someone? would he even open the door? as you were lost in your thoughts again, you heard the front door open, and as you made your way into his house it wasn’t really hard to find his bedroom.

as you knocked before opening the door, the first thing you noticed was how lucifer had his bedsheet covering him, it made you smile since you noticed how charlie did that too, so you could guess she got that from her father.

there was a silence as you both stared at eachother, until lucifer decided to interrupt the silence. "i-, i-i’m sorry about what happened, i think i might had misunderstood our relationship" he confessed, his messy hair and dark eye bags made you worried "it’s okay lucifer, and about that night..there is still something i haven’t told you about my answer" you declared, making him look at you with such hopeful eyes, oh hell, how can such a prideful fallen angel have so much faith in what you were going to say. "i said I didn’t want to take it further, since i still believe your heart belongs to lilith, and because of that i thought that rejecting you would be the best option." he opened his eyes at the mention of his past lover. "but, me and lilith haven’t been dating since seven years, (name) what me and her had is long gone" he reassured you, while signaling you to sit on his bed, the king bed who looked so comfy yet so empty. "lilith still is an important person in my heart, she has been with me since beginning of humanity and is the mother of my daughter, but the persons who’s my heart belongs now is you, my love" after hearing those words you could feel your eyes fill with tears, of course lilith was gonna be an important person in his life, but why would that stopped you from being in his heart as well, were you being selfish all this time? wanting to be the only person who’s important to him?

"and, this time i haven’t been at the hotel, i thought about why you said no, and i think i may have noticed something" he said, getting out of his bedsheets and caressing your face, you could feel your face burn at his touch, yeah, you really have missed him, "you were always staring at my wedding ring, weren’t you?" he asked looking at you with a glum face, yes, you do recall looking at his wedding ring while he looked at you with loving eyes, the ring that made you doubt so much about his feelings towards you, "i was a fool for wearing my ring while flirting with you, and if my ring has made you have those doubts about our relationship, you should know that i had decided to take it off" after hearing those words, you noticed that he was right, you haven’t noticed until now, you didn’t feel that cold ring against your face. "and if you still willing to try, i’m sure that soon enough i will be using a ring who will be showing who my heart really belongs to"

"that’s so cheesy" you answered chuckling, you tried to jokingly ignore the fact that he just said he would propose you, because if you took it serious you were sure that your face would be as red as the famous apple, actually, you were sure that if he offered you the 'fruit' you would have accepted, wait, were you even thinking about a fruit? but anyways your angel needed reassurance from you, that in fact, you liked his cheesy words. "yes, i still want to have you in my afterlife, lucifer" "well, if that’s my future’s wife/husband wish, then, who am i to object?" the fallen angel winked at you before starting to teasingly kiss your whole face, the moment he started doing this, you noticed something you didn’t thought you could, you felt like his first option, not just a rebound.

and yes , it will be a long journey until he really overcomes his past relationship with lilith, but since he's willing to do as much for you as you would do for him, you both will soon overcome your fears of past experiences.

[espresso-lessdepresso]

you asked for ted stuff, its my time.

Ted looks like the least touch-starved person. Now pair him with a touch starved reader(ex me). boom. just imagine how sweet he would be? like he would be so understanding?

Boom indeed. Brain! Ted with a touch-starved reader! Go!

Ted Nivison hc2 (im doing headcanons now who am I???)

Ted first didn't think much about skin ship until he noticed the lack of it from your side. You just never initiated it, it was never something you were used to giving or receiving.

Ted noticed how easily you got overwhelmed, worked up or exhausted from skinship so he tried to not overdo it. He would chuckle a little sometimes when you wouldn't know how to react to the skin ship, finding your awkwardness amusing and cute.

Ted at first thought that you disliked being touched altogether. But what's with that look in your eyes whenever your arms brush against each other?

Ted found that your little crumbs of skin ship were somehow more intimate than they should be, it meant more to the both of you; you letting him in little by little and him savouring every touch you allowed him.

Ted even savours holding your hand. Just- his palm is so big compared to yours, he finds it oh so endearing. Slowly gliding his thumb over your knuckles, not really interested in whatever else is going on in the background. Just you.

Ted tries to not go overboard when you let his arm around your shoulder, he tries to not pull you into him because it might make you uncomfortable and take everything two steps back. But god, if you lean into him, there will be a smile plastered on his face. He'll be just so giddy and proud, pressing his lips on the top of your head.

Ted, why must he be so sweet and understand, why must he let you take your time and have you helplessly fall for him?

Just don't melt into his hand, finally giving in, when he holds your face in his palm, he wouldn't know what to do with himself at the sight. Do you know how difficult it is for him to not pepper kisses all over your lips and face?

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This a heavy self inserting buuut my brain was brring so...

When Ted notices that the reader is feeling unwell, their emotions too big for their own good, he would gently place his hand on your shoulder. He would be completely taken back when you hug him, arms around his torso and face pressed against his chest. He would be so grateful that you find comfort in his touch and would try his best to calm you down. Or let out all your pent-up emotions. Either way, he's right there for you, gently rubbing your back up and down to get you through it.

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master list

[bloomsinthespring]

haiiiii people on my blog... i meann no one is here but i'll be discovered soon, i know it ｡⁠◕⁠‿⁠◕⁠｡ ive seen that those blogging things are getting popular as of late, so i thought why not...

to be very honest with you guys i don't know much about the internet (>.>) i asked this girl who lives here who's always on the school pc and she told me to just talk about myself so i will do that!!

umm where do i even start. so much to say hehe!!!! ... wellll my name is foxglove, to start... im 18 years old now!!! and im in my last year of highschool (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) i will miss my friends when its over... i live in a not very nice place but it's okayyyy because my girlfriend lets me spend a lott of time at her place. btw i have a girlfrienddd and shes the best ever!! (⁠✿⁠ ⁠♡⁠‿⁠♡⁠)

she doesnt like taking a lot of pics with me (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) umm i didn't ask if i could post it but i covered up her face so it should be okayy. hehe... she'll get mad if she finds out (<.<') idkk if she'd know... the girl who lives here said blogging is popular with people our age and my girlfriend is too mature for that!!! but anywayss she always forgives me bc im cutee and she loves me very much and i love LOVE her too (⁠♡⁠ω⁠♡⁠ ⁠)⁠ ⁠~⁠♪

asides from that... i really like dancing and acting and i want to be on a big stage someday (⁠☆⁠▽⁠☆⁠) after i graduate and both my coach and sister jordan even said i have the spirit for it (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠) ... oh yeah sister jordan is a person who works at the temple... i like going to the temple too. im more comfortable there as of late. it's not that i didn't like the guy who was in charge before sister jordan buuut i think she doesn't play favorites as much... ◉⁠‿⁠◉

ummm i don't know what else to say, but maybe i've said a lot already (⁠ʘ⁠ᴗ⁠ʘ⁠✿⁠) hehe thats good... maybe if i talk a lottt here i can let my girlfriend rest more... umm she's always tired bc she works a lot but i always want to talk (>.>'') sometimes she gets annoyed...

anywayss, thats it!! feel free to talk to me, i dont bite (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧ (only a little!!)

[rkrkerked]

pluto ep 4 notes

- may looks sooo adorable in that helmet

- “i want to be able to see myself” what a cutie

- food delivery has never been more romantic

- girl you’ve exchanged saliva and you’re getting shy over sharing a water bottle

- ok ms lawyer we see you

- that ice cream looks good asf

- don’t get food delivery if you got deported and you’re broke (!) bruh

- i too want to share an ice cream like this w somebody 🧍‍♂️

- EX?! EX!!

- oop may’s real mad

- i know they just met (it’s still only been like a week right?) but they really can’t hang for one day without some sort of conflict

- ai should be grateful that may keeps giving unnecessary rundowns of their relationship bc she’d be clueless w/o them lmao

- that’s so real tho, dating a close friend just bc you want to feel loved

- “it only happens when you love me” aww

- oom and may must have had the most shallow rs in the world bc wdym you told eo nothing and didn’t even sleep tgt

- “your girlfriend aka your sisters girlfriend” why’d i laugh

- idk how to feel about this ex, “how did it feel? was it weird since you’re both women?” um ok? get out of her business buuut ai is dating her sisters gf and it’s an objectively shitty move to not go visit your newly disabled friend in the hospital while he’s recovering from an incident that involved you too especially, just to see your sister’s gf

- im dead, if someone stops me like that in the middle of giving head i would not be that chill (well id obviously still stop but how can she be so nonchalant)

- i love the friends makeup

- i keep confusing ai’s friend and oom’s friend

- fortune teller rizz 🤔

- “why can’t it be me?” :O

- ai is lowkey not a good friend bc why would you ask your friend, that you know harbors a longtime crush on you, to read a story you made for your new girl? and she was pretty harsh in her reaction to the friends confession. but it is true that her friend has a gf and should keep it cool.

- don’t tell me ms officer heard everything behind a closed door, how thin are the apt walls

- wait nvm cctv footage is kind of crazy like that’s not even your apt how’d you get that girl

- may’s a badass but not her defending what looks like an archetypical thai series villain

- oh so he IS bad

- wait it was her dad instead? bruh he needs to leave her alone

- omg the ex IS bad

- meanwhile ai has no clue and is writing a love story

- the little prince is such a goated book

- why would the customer say that? why would that ever be an appropriate thing to say to a family member of someone in the hospital??

- let him know grandma

- not another ex!

- “the one she can never forget” why would he say that?? 💀 men in this show need to stop speaking

- “her favorite ex” dig it in deeper why don’t you

- i don’t want to compare but this show has so many similarities to last twilight, like the bike scene and the flower thing (bc didn’t mohk try to give a sunflower but got upstaged too?), it’s not a bad thing bc it’s not a copy or anything, there’s still a lot of differences, and LT was a great show. but it is interesting to note.

edit: i read through reddit and apparently the rich guy may defended in court was the same that hit ai’s friend which is why her ex went to get revenge. now i see. but why would he get revenge on the lawyer who’s just doing their job and not the guy who actually caused the accident??

[mythicalmagical-monkeyman]

So im not gonna tag any one in this because idk it feels awkward tagging people to come view this fic cause it’s so brutal buuut WHO WANTS SOME COOPER ANGST?? lol/not really, anyways under cut as always

Summary:

Left over magic from the Nightmare King brings rise to the Red Moon leading to the left over corruption in Night Hunter’s system to act up and so he decides to go after Cooper

Or

Basic white boy one beats up basic white boy two and tells him he sucks or smth

Additional Tags:

Other characters are mentioned slash there very briefly. Cooper (LEGO Dreamzzz) angst. Hurt No Comfort. graphic descriptions of violence but no blood/gore, Cooper gets beat up. Night Hunter Being an asshole. Corruption. Cooper being a little shit. I am the soul dealer of content related to this duo and it shows. No beta we die like Cooper’s feelings. Night Hunter is in his Six Eared Macaque era. Night Hunter calls out Cooper’s insecurities and uses them to bully him. Character Study (?), Don’t quote me on that, I Don't Even Know, author is running on limited sleep. Nightmare King is haunting the narrative even to this day. Angst, this is lowkey brutal imo. Swearing

Castle Nocturina’s halls were empty, strikingly contrasting how one would usually find it as of late; crawling with dreamlings and dream chasers from across the globe, sounds of all kinds echoing. Tonight was different however, its residents were either hiding or they happened to be outside marveling at the never before seen Red Moon that cast demonic light into the Castle through its windows. Either way everyone was unaware of the lone soul that snaked down the halls, his mind clouded with red. 

Beau didn’t want to be there, no not really, but as the Red Moon crept through the dream sky and filled everything it cast its light on with a deep feeling of unease he could feel his mind continue to slip. 

He should’ve expected it if he was being honest, he should have prepared better. Put some sort of safe guard up on his landing to be completely safe in an event like this but too little too late did the idea come to him. It was far too late for him to do any of that as by the time he thought of it the Red Moon had already risen and Beau could feel the Nightmare King’s corruption crawling back into his system after being dormant for quite some time. 

If Beau had to guess this “ Red Moon ” must have been tied to some sort of contingency plan the Nightmare King had set up long ago. Something that if the Nightmare King stayed dormant for too long it would rise from wherever the Nightmare King had been keeping it and affect all the things that had once been affected by the King’s corruption. All things of which Beau was unfortunately a part of. 

As much as Beau tried to fight against what his rising corruption was forcing him to do by throwing himself against walls when he could or doing what else he could to tire himself out his body kept on going. Additionally much to his dismay his mind seemed to continue to haze over the harder he tried to fight back.

Well he hoped if he came out of this funk with Zoey’s arrow aimed at his chest she could eventually forgive him again. 

His body dragged him up a set of stairs that he recognized as ones that lead up to the sliding glass door entrance to Castle Nocturina’s garden and as he reached the top he found the glorious view of the Red Moon greeting him. Interestingly enough, taking in the moon seemed to help some of the haze in his head fade but he could tell the thoughts starting to form were tainted by the growing corruption. 

The Red Moon was so massive only the top half of it could be seen from the garden, its glowing red surface seemingly grinning a Cheshire cat smile at Night Hunter as his eyes widened to try and properly take it all in. As small figures moved at the edges of his vision Night Hunter felt his gaze being drawn to the dream chasers littering the garden. 

Ah, just who he was looking for. Royce and Oz were amongst the gathered dream chasers but more specifically so was the new Brooklyn Bureau; the two annoying Garcia siblings, the cowardly shapeshifter, his daughter, oh and the blond one who’s whole existence Night Hunter was pretty sure was pointless. 

Night Hunter quietly pushed open the door and slipped outside into the garden where he quickly darted to hide behind a potted topiary cut to look like a teddy bear. 

Now what was he…

Before he could come up with a plan of action to begin to dispel the group of dream chasers gathered outside he noticed what looked like a small dispute arising between Oz and … uhhh, shit what was his name again? 

Oh right, it rhymed with pooper. That was it, Cooper!

Oz and Cooper were seemingly having a disagreement and Night Hunter quickly found his attention drawn towards it. How curious. Any discord between his enemies would be great for him, whether to manipulate or use to get under someone’s skin.  

Granted he was unfortunately a little too far away to hear what they were saying perfectly. 

He watched the two talk, a bit of squabble popping up as Cooper seemed to disagree with whatever Oz was saying which Night Hunter found himself perking up at. 

Wasn’t this the kid that respected authority to the point where it came off as teacher's pet? Where’d he suddenly get a backbone? 

Night Hunter’s excitement was killed in a split second though as Mateo joined the two and rested a hand on Cooper’s shoulder thus cutting off whatever had been bound to happen next. 

Cooper deflated. The conversation continued for a bit longer but eventually Cooper gave a small nod and walked off, crossing his arms grumpily. 

As Oz and Mateo rejoined the rest of the dream chasers, Night Hunter fixed his jaw noting how he had been gritting his teeth. 

A sharp whistle came from Zoey and Zian came flying in from somewhere. Zoey helped Oz and Albert climb aboard where they were joined by Logan. In a similar vein Mateo dream crafted his blob into a strange looking flying machine and hopped onto it with his sister and Royce as the girl who Night Hunter was pretty sure was called Astrid also dream crafted her wheelchair into a large eagle. The three teams then took off into the air towards the Red Moon just as Night Hunter noticed a little late that Cooper had made his way over to the door Night Hunter was hiding beside. Luckily Cooper was very much grumbling at his shoes and had yet to notice Night Hunter. 

Night Hunter stepped back quickly and hid himself more in the shadows. 

“Protect the dreamlings,” Night Hunter heard Cooper grumbling as he reached the door, “can’t believe I don’t get to check out the dream moon.” 

The blond reached out a hand in a way that screamed that he really didn’t want to go back into the Castle alone only to startle slightly as he found the door to be left wide open. 

Ah shit, he’d left it open. 

Night Hunter bit the inside of his mouth angrily, well he supposed that because of his still somewhat hazy mind he was bound to mess up like that at some point. 

Cooper began to glance around, looking on edge, and Night Hunter did his best to hold still in his spot within the shadows. 

Cautiously, Cooper turned back to the door and ducked inside, closing it behind him. 

“Hn,” Night Hunter grunted, easing himself out of the shadows and glancing in the direction the Brooklyn dream chasers had flown off in. They were mostly just small impressions on the horizon at that point, traveling towards the Red Moon at a steady pace. It would take a lot longer than he liked to catch up to them, and not to mention they outnumbered him greatly even if the gathering of other dream chasers down in the garden didn’t notice him take off after them. 

He could set up a trap for them of course. Slowly take out the dream chasers left behind one by one until they were all taken out then wait in turn for the others to return and do a similar thing. Granted that would mean he would have to figure out how to deal with Phil the Castle guardian. 

Never Witch had done it once before though and she hadn’t even had the upper hand of knowing the layout of the Castle so if he could do it right then all of Castle Nocturnia would fall by the end of the night. 

He was just left with one real question however, which dream chaser would he be starting with? 

Night Hunter mused on it for a moment before the perfect answer came to mind; he had already gone inside where he’d no doubt be perfectly alone and primed for an ambush. 

He snuck out from behind the bush and returned to the door where he opened it and slipped inside, this time remembering to close it. 

After a quick look around he found Cooper sullenly leaving that section of the building and entering a hallway that led to another. Without another thought, Night Hunter snuck after the blond as quickly as he could. 

As Night Hunter entered the hallway that Cooper had previously, he ducked down the other hall that led off to the side. He knew the two halls would eventually meet back up so if he was fast enough he could cut Cooper off. 

Much to his luck that’s exactly what happened. As he reached the crossroad that linked the two halls back up he slowed down a little and stuck to the shadows. Soon he heard footsteps echoing up from Cooper as the teen rounded a corner and continued on down the hall passed Night Hunter, to caught up in watching his own feet to notice the other. 

Night Hunter suppressed a smile and exited out of the side hall, “Cooper!!” 

Cooper jumped and turned to take in Night Hunter’s outstretched arms in subtle fear. Upon noticing Night Hunter’s hook hand and darker outfit he took a step back and rested a hand on his hourglass, “What do you want?” He asked, still eyeing the hook hand cautiously.  

“Well we all want a lot of things if I’m being honest,” Night Hunter answered, placing his hands on his waist and leaning forward slightly, “You want to go check out the Red Moon.” 

A guilty look crossed Cooper’s face as he cringed a little. 

Night Hunter noted the boy’s reaction and started to slowly prowl a circle around him while beginning to vocalize a list, “but you also want little Mr what’s his face to fall in love with you. But perhaps you also want…” Night Hunter trailed off, smiling coldly as Cooper’s face scrunched up like he was expecting a physical hit with whatever Night Hunter said next, “some freedom yes? Or hell maybe even those lost tech skills of yours. Would make things sooo much easier wouldn’t it?” 

Night Hunter came to a stop in front of Cooper and fixed the boy with his smile, waiting for a second to see what Cooper would respond with. 

Shakily, Cooper opened his mouth but it quickly snapped shut. 

Oh how curious.

“Getting those back would make you a whole lot less useless, no?” Night Hunter leaned forward and with as much venom as he could, laced his words with it. 

Cooper shrunk into himself and in a weak voice tried to protest, “I’m … I’m not useless,” 

“HA,” Night Hunter barked a laugh, “is that so?” 

Taking a small step back, Night Hunter fixed Cooper with an amused look, “Remind me again what exactly it is that you contribute to the team? Ever since they stopped with all the infighting, they’ve seemed to be getting along just fine without you.” 

Cooper opened and closed his mouth a few times as he tried to find the words to protest against what Night Hunter was saying as Night Hunter took up inspecting his hook. 

“They-they still need me!” Cooper finally got out but as soon as it passed his lips Cooper seemed to shrink even more into himself. 

Night Hunter snorted, “That so? For what exactly? You’re the tech guy with what tech skills exactly? Honestly if your friends want something fixed they could just go get Albert!”

Cooper shook and with a laugh Night Hunter reached out with his normal hand and gave the blond a sharp shove. Cooper fell down onto his butt and stared up at Night Hunter with fear, only to look away. 

A chuckle tickled at Night Hunter’s throat as Cooper swiped at his face before scrambling to his feet where he hugged himself. 

“Ok I can admit, these are starting to get through, but-but why are you telling me this?” Cooper asked shakily, trailing off as if not wanting to voice what else he was thinking of adding to that sentence, but eventually he continued, “I-I thought we were cool now? What with you being Zoey’s dad and all,” 

Night Hunter scowled, ignoring the small part of him that was agreeing with the teen, “Look kid, I’m taking you all out. Nothing personal,” 

“Really? Because it feels highly personal,” 

Night Hunter growled, and with a flick of his wrist he fear crafted a loaded crossbow, “Yap all you want, Curly, isn’t anything that’s gonna change my mind.”

Cooper’s gaze flicked nervously from the crossbow to the red light streaming in through the windows as he took a small step back. 

“It’s the corruption isn’t it?” 

Night Hunter blinked. Color him surprised. 

Cooper bit his lip and took another small step back before continuing, “I knew the colors of this “moon” or whatever it is looked familiar, it’s some type of Nightmare King’s magic isn’t it? It’s connected to the corruption he’s able to spread and it’s messing with whatever’s left of his corruption in your mind, isn’t it?” 

Night Hunter shot a warning shot at the spot on the floor next to Cooper’s foot. 

Cooper let out a small yelp and scrambled a few feet back. 

“Hey kid, leave the character breakdowns to me, yeah?” Night Hunter hissed while tilting his head to the side to crack his neck. 

A small squeak came from Cooper, “Ah shit, shit, if the corruption is fucking with your head… I’m in big trouble aren’t I?” 

Night Hunter grinned and reloaded his crossbow as he aimed it again, “What was your first clue?” 

Cooper’s eyes widened and just as Night Hunter fired he took off down the hall. 

A laugh shook Night Hunter as his arrow struck the ground, running? Predictable, but they didn’t call him Night Hunter for nothing. 

In record time Night Hunter stowed his crossbow and pulled dream sand from his hourglass so he could fear craft a shadowy lasso. 

He flicked it once and then swung it towards Cooper. 

“RUNNING NOW ARE WE!?” Night Hunter yelled, “Guess that really is all you're good for! Running away and waiting in the wings while your friends go off and have fun without you!”

The lasso extended far past it’s original length and snagged Cooper’s foot as he ran thus succeeding in triping the boy and knocking him to the ground. 

Cooper let out a groan. 

With a harsh yank, Night Hunter pulled on his lasso which caused Cooper to be dragged a number of feet closer to him. 

Lazily, Night Hunter made the walk over to Cooper and arived just as the boy was starting to fiddle with the lasso around his ankle. Night Hunter gave the lasso another flick and yanked Cooper down again hard enough that there was a sharp crack as the teen smashed his chin against the ground. 

Cooper let out a pained whine but it went unheard by Night Hunter as he let out a low chuckle, “You can’t escape me. Hell you can’t even fight me, not with how useless you are.” 

A whimper came from Cooper as the teen reached down to his belt and weakly started to dream craft something. Night Hunter kicked at his hands before anything could form and just for extra messure smashed his boot down onto one of Cooper’s hand’s, pinning it to the floor. 

Cooper let out a pained scream and Night Hunter felt himself being encouraged at this. He wiggled his boot, squishing Cooper’s fingers further as he flicked his lasso thus freeing it from around Cooper’s foot, and dispelled the shadowy rope. 

“AGH!” Cooper yelled out and Night Hunter removed his foot. He moved so that his feet rested next to Cooper’s chest and with a chuckle he kicked Cooper in the gut. 

Cooper let out a grunt and Night Hunter kicked him again. He then grabbed the blond by the back of the shirt, picking him up so that he could more easily punch him in the stomach as well. Cooper choked but Night Hunter wasted no time moving on to his next move. He gripped the cloth of the back of Cooper’s shirt and swung the teen around violently enough that he went crashing, back first, into the nearby wall. 

Cooper crumpled to the ground in a heep. 

Night Hunter watched him, listening to Cooper letting out coughs and grunts as he struggled to get back up. 

Hu, persistent little shit. He forgot about that. 

Night Hunter made his way over just as Cooper managed to struggle to his feet. Cooper shot a weak glare at Night Hunter and then spat a wad of spit onto Night Hunter’s boot. 

“Ugh,” Night Hunter grimaced in disgust at the spit and kneed Cooper in the stomach. 

Cooper let out a grunt and collapsed backwards against the wall but just as Night Hunter went to grab him Cooper held up a hand. 

“Hold on a sec, just… before you kill me,” Cooper grumbled out in pain, “I got somethin’ to show you.” 

Night Hunter grit his teeth but let Cooper continue. 

Cooper looked up at him with pained eyes and then took the hand he was holding up and turned it so he could flip Night Hunter off. 

Night Hunter growled and went to grab his crossbow only for Cooper to throw his other fist with a punch aimed at Night Hunter’s neck. Night Hunter caught the fist by the wirst before it could land and then twisted the arm violently out to the side. 

Cooper cried out in pain as he collapsed to his knees but he wasn’t there for long. Night Hunter grabbed him by the shirt collar and put everything into slamming the teen into the wall behind him. 

Apparently the force was strong enough to crack the wall as the area around Cooper splintered as a small impacted crater sprung up behind the teen. 

“You are nothing, ” Night Hunter bit out, sneering at Cooper as he groaned, “Nothing but some kid that got too wrapped up in his best friend’s fantasies to realize that he’s not a hero.” 

“There’s nothing special about you.” Night Hunter hissed. 

Cooper’s lip trembled as he struggled slightly against Night Hunter’s hold, “No. No my friends-!”

“Your friends don’t need you,” Night Hunter stated bluntly, pulling Cooper forward by the shirt collar just enough so there was room to slam him back again the wall. He then began to repeat this movement to emphasize ever sentence he bit out with his vemon laced words, “hell they don’t even want you, I saw the way they pushed you aside earlier. You’re an after thought to them who brings absolutely nothing to the team. They could just as easily get by without you.” 

Night Hunter kept going, hardly noticing the tears starting to stream down Cooper’s face, “ In fact the only reason you ever mattered to them was because they need to use you for their own gains .” 

Cooper shivered violently as Night Hunter pulled back, whining as he was also pulled along and bracing as Night Hunter yanked him up. Any support Cooper had been getting from the ground vanished as his feet swung forward, out from under him. With a twisted look on his face, Night Hunter pushed Cooper downwards and slammed him against the floor like the teen weighed nothing. 

The floor splintered in likes, same as the wall, and Night Hunter felt Cooper go limp under his hand. 

Too easy. 

Just as easily, Cooper slipped from his grasp as he let go and left the teen lying limpy on the ground. 

A small laugh bubbled up from Night Hunter, and with a breathy sigh proclaimed, “Face it kid, you would’ve been better off staying locked up in one of those Grimkeepers.” 

Night Hunter unhooked his crossbow from its sheath, reloading it with an arrow, and aiming it at Cooper as he mused about where he wanted to sink the arrow into. Cooper shifted a little to which Noght Hunter was surprised, he was sure he would’ve been too hurt at this point to move much. Much to Night Hunter’s disgust the blond still had enough energy to reach over and wrap his hand around the back of his boot. 

Night Hunter growl and planted his free foot onto Cooper’s face to try and push him away but Cooper’s grip only tightened and he gave a tug. Thanks to his bad footing, Night Hunter fell backwards as Cooper pulled his foot out from under him. 

Night Hunter landed with a grunt, bastard. He kicked his unheld foot against Cooper’s face and the teen let go as he was forced back. 

“ How,” Night Hunter growled, “Are you still being an issue,” 

Cooper shakily managed to push himself up onto his hands and knees as he let out a weak laugh. Thought it seemed to pain him enormously, Cooper forced himself to look up at Night Hunter and fixed him with a look full of pain, tear streaked cheeks included, and yet seemingly no hate. 

“I won’t let you hurt my friends,” Cooper wheezed out. 

Night Hunter was tempted to kick him again. 

Just as a response started to brew on Night Hunter’s tounge, he noticed Cooper had reached back to his hourglass and had begun to dream craft something. Night Hunter scrambled forward but Cooper simply slumped over to the side and Night Hunter pounced onto empty floor.

Whirling around as fast as he could manage, Night Hunter turned only to find Cooper lying on his back and holding a godforsaken Edison Bomb in hand. 

Shit. 

The Edison Bomb lit up, gold and red, and before Night Hunter could shut his eyes properly, only managing to look away much to his own dismay, it went off, filling that section of Castle Nocturnia with a blinding light. 

The first thing Night Hunter noticed when the spots cleared from his eyes was that the red light from the Red Moon was starting to die off, along with the hazy feeling in his mind. Whatever had been happening with the moon was starting to be fixed and Night Hunter was left to deal with the consequences of his actions, which weren’t many if he was being honest. 

He rubbed at his eyes to help his vision clear faster and once it had he found Cooper had flopped over on his side. The teen had begun to hug himself, curling up in a fetal ball and tensing, waiting for another thing to hit him. 

Everything else was the same as Beau remembered however, the floor and wall a splintered mess. So it really had been been that bad. His hazy mind had blurred most of the combat and a number of Beau’s fully formed thoughts that should’ve made him hesitate on what he was doing to Cooper. 

His corrupted state had really done a number hadn’t it? 

Beau glanced down at himself and took in his outfit, the corrupted garbs of the Night Hunter, and with a strained sigh used his fear crafting to will away the outfit and replace it with something a little more friendly; a flannel shirt and jeans. He shifted a little awkwardly and then reached out a hand towards Cooper only to stop short, yeah no he definitely wouldn’t appreciate being touched by Beau after being beat up by him. 

Beau drew his hand back and worked on mustering up the words to apologize. Finally they came, “Shit, kid I’m … I’m so sorry,” 

Cooper curled more into himself with a shutter, “Don’t-” he whispered. 

Beau closed his mouth softly and moved so he could sit down harshly on the ground, the weight and energy he had used up during the battle starting to blister up and leave him feeling sore and regretful. 

Beau wasn’t sure how long passed before he heard Cooper speak up, his voice still weak and shattered, “The truth is supposed to hurt right? Don’t apologize for that.” 

A sour feeling rose up in Beau’s throat, he was sure that out of everything said that night that had to have stung the most. 

Damn. 

Beau reached up to massage at his jaw as he tried to think of something encouraging to say but Cooper eventually disintegrated into a flaky glowing yellow dream dust as he awoke before anything else could be said. All that remained of him was the cracked floor and a small puddle of water where Cooper’s head had been resting.  

A frown crossed Beau’s face, he couldn’t blame the boy, he wouldn’t have wanted to stay there either. With that though Beau had been left alone with a guilty feeling started to eat away at his gut like maggots as the proper bright light of the dream world started to flood in through the windows. 

Oh god, Zoey was going to hate him if she ever found out about this. 

[moon-mine679]

putting what he did under a cut!!

i hate this fucker. ive been angry at him still even if what he did was like alright. but anyway, i was having a bad day and didnt wanna talk to some other friends, and i was jokingly saying 'omg we should skip!!' and he was like 'fuck it my life is over' whatever ig... thats like how he normally is. BUUUT, in our entrepreneurship class, we really needed to decide something by the end of class, and he was fucking just deadpan 'fuck my life' ALL BECAUSE I SAID 'LOL WE SHOULD SKIP.' ALL BECAUSE OF THAT. anyway, he kept bugging me about it, so i just left to walk around to avoid him, and when he came back he was like 'bluds gone for the whole period', YEAH I WONDER WHY. we ended up getting an idea luckily, but that was cause my teacher came to us first. Afterwards tho, he was INSISTENT i answered if i were to skip. he was soooo fucking annoying with it, and when he figured out i skipped without him he was angry with me. why do you care???? fuck off dude.

and everything else he did: constantly would follow me and my friends. is disgusting and constantly tells me hes constantly after revenge. in entrepreneurship class, wont do jack shit. made fun of my weight and when i said i was starving myself he said 'good'. constantly brings down the mood with his suicidal feelings. and when was writing a story, CONSTANTLY complains to me about how he doesnt know what to do, but when i try to give him advice hes like 'no' (sometimes acts the same when i give him suggestions for mental help). has a crush on me only because i comfort him, doubt hed love me when im bleeding and venting like i do with everything on this blog. and he would constantly dismiss my mood and feelings in order to talk about his own (kinda what he did)

i get hes mentally ill, and i think i should be open-minded and shit, and i really am trying to be, but hes pissing me off at this point. idrk what to do :(

idk if this poll will do anything to affect my final choice, but i really just dk what to do

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

Yo mate r u doing alright after the whole

uh

getting hit by car thing

it's been... over a week now, but i still do feel a bit sore. my ribs hurt a bit, but it's manageable. the bruise on my right ankle is itchy but healing. going out feels a little anxious, though. cars moving fast scare me???

im planning on getting back to work wednesday because im so tired of just being cooped up in the house.

i think i said this, but i ammmm a bit stressed??? uh, that lady didnt have insurance. i got the report a few days ago, and she got cited for hitting me and not providing financial liability. so my medical is a bit complicated. got the run around with the ER clinic(?) with giving them my updated insurance (didnt have my cards on me and its been well over 72 hrs).

i did get one of the medical situations figured out and updated but they told me they bill two different ways??? super complicated. my dads trying to get in contact with WHERE the ambulance charge is and how we get that total.

buuut... we are probably gonna take her to court. at least to get some kind of compensation. she tried to pay me off with just a bike. kinda disgusting tbh. 29 yr old should know how to look left.

i wont air my grievances. sorry augh. its just- complicated???? but its good. im not more injured and like my ribs are still sore. sleeping upright sucksssss. but im just glad to be okay.

sorry for oversharing but AHH its just a lot to think abt. thank you for caring and asking. that means a lot.

if theres any good thing to be said ive had a lot of time to do things i love. ive been reading a bunch and playing my ps4. getting good sleep. my mental health has genuinely been... good other than that headache. its so peaceful and simple to just exist and do things that i love. i wish i could do this more often. i haven't had time like this since i graduated high school. i literally jumped into this job august of 2021 and never really... took a break like this... i really needed this. like... REALLY needed this break. injury or not this is really such... a nice break...

[demonsfate]

me personally, i feel like booboo the fool 🤡 bc i got hopeful seeing how old victor was so i dared to wonder if reina would be. Not Young SKSBSJSNSB i forgot only males can be over 25!!!! OF COURSE they made her a highschooler 💀

i DO like her characterisation and i get it but like. i feel like things like her voice and attitude don’t really match her appearance…? with the way she acts, i feel like it would have made sense to make her, idk, a little older? not 30, bc that would have been too much for the babies at namco to handle 🥺🥺 but at least, not a highschooler!!! there was literally no reason for that except for the fact that they’re cowards LMAO. i would have been pissed if they made her all squeaky and shit. but at least right now, i just don’t feel intimidated by her at all. idk personally i find her characterisation (mainly her voice tbh) a little jarring with her young looking design and she just seems like a little shit AJSBSBSB

really im not surprised AT ALL, but a sigh was still soghed 😔 ig we’ll find out in january what she’s really about. i have a feeling i’ll warm up to her at some point though

LIKE. i was already expecting reina to be young. i knew there is no way she's gonna be as old as kazuya or lee. but i was guessing she'd be around 24-28 years old. i was... not expecting her to be a high schooler LOL. like, for some reason, that took me by surprise. so reina was worse than i was expecting!!

and i know, know, there ARE plenty of old dudes who have children later in life. but the problem doesn't necessarily lie in heihachi having a kid at a late age, it lies in the fact that there can't be any older females in the tek series. jun's the only "older" woman we have whose actually 40+ in the game. nina and anna don't really count since they were cryogenically frozen, and therefore haven't actually aged mentally or physically since tek2. hell! even lidia is only 29, and according to her backstory, was apparently 21 when she got into office. except... i looked it up and yup

poland's the same rules as we are, you have to be 35 to be president. they couldn't even make a PRESIDENT 35 years old. so, of course heihachi's youngest kid is his daughter.

and i do agree, it is kinda bizarre since... they did actually give her a fairly deep voice (as you would expect heihachi's daughter to have) which isn't seen often with the "school girls" of tekken who usually have higher pitched voices. so idk why they went with the idea that she's a high schooler at xiao's and jin's school. since that raises questions (has she seen xiao and jin before?) but... MAYBE she's actually gonna have something to do with jin and xiao, so maybe THAT'S why she has to be a high schooler. we'll see when the game comes out. right now, reina's background is a total mystery, we're only guessing what it could be. hell, her being heihachi's daughter isn't even actually known yet, we're just assuming due to her taking his personality / movesets, and the leak.

which, yeah... that's also why i'm scared she'll be an actual threat / hinderance in the story. because a high schooler isn't all that intimidating. an older woman would've been much "scarier", and more believable she could go up against the likes of kazuya and even jin. which i've seen many people try to defend it with "so what if it's a high schooler flooring kazuya? this game is full of unrealistic crazy stuff!" and it's like i'm SOOO tired of "TEK IS UNREALISTIC IN THE FIRST PLACE, SO THE SUSPENSION OF BELIEF SHOULD JUST BE COMPLETELY SNAPPED!!11!" it's like..... a story can be fantastical, but still have grounded rules for its own universe. and when it comes to power level scales, the series has been... mostly consistent. so to have a teenager who can possibly be a threat to kazuya or jin is just going too far imo. BUUUT... we also don't know if that's what's going on. we'll just have to see when 8 arrives.

which i would've liked reina a lot more if it just wasn't for her connection to the story, and my fears i have regarding her because of that. but we'll see when the game comes out. maybe i'll be blown away and she'll become one of my favorites. we won't know until we play 8!

[lambfromfield]

ive a lot of the reception for signal void’s release has been negative from what i’ve seen anyway. particularly the comments on the youtube video, and most of them are upset about one thing: the fact that the tale isn’t available on interloper

more below the cut bc i assume im gonna be rambly lol

which like i get. you’re paying for this expansion and you’re not getting the tales that are specifically mentioned in the title? fair. if i strictly played on interloper i’d probably be annoyed and frustrated about that too

buuut it just gives kind of rude to me when people say things like “what about us good veteran players??” like :/ really? i would venture to say that almost certainly the majority of casual players (which, tbf, likely make up a good portion of hinterland’s fanbase) do not play on interloper for a variety of reasons. and still, even OTHER vet players don’t like interloper (myself included). it can just be too difficult. or maybe someone just doesnt wanna play on interloper and thats fine!!

i guess it kind of loops back to the idea of the silent majority? of course a lot of people are going to be happy with this update but never say anything. instead you have the small majority of interloper players upset. which again is totally fair, it just gives weirdge to me

also hinterland is generally a very responsive studio. it’s not some EA. the bugs with the prior update were fixed. and yes almost all updates like this come with some kind of bugs, it’s just kinda how shit works lol

i just think we should give them a little bit of trust you know? in the end i feel like a majority of complaints we’ve had over the years for them get fixed or eventually don’t seem that big anymore. i’m certain that this isn’t a slight toward interloper players--i’m also certain that the reasons that hinterland made this choice weren’t willy nilly decided. there’s no reason for them to do that. cutting corners doesn’t make sense, they’ve already pushed back release dates and all of that sort thing and i’m sure they’d do it again if they have to

anyway <3 not to be controversial on main hehe

[nihiltism]

since ive been too College to have enough art for any sort of summary im just gonna put a general year end rundown of what i feel i did best on this year!!

i think every year since i figured out that i dont need to use pens to line has just gotten better art wise for me. FUCK lining. pencils are my best friends forever and ever and can do your job better than you ever could. anyway apologies for some of these drawings being crunchier than others, i only recently got a scanner and Cannot be assed to scan my old art for this post rn.

also the first art here is a hatoful boyfriend spoiler. i mean i guess the last one is too but its vaguer i think. anyway. none of these are actually analyses of what i learned with each art im just braining

april 5th-

you guys know this one i REALLY like it. why in the goddamn were my best pieces this year hatoful boyfriend. anyway i uh. hey did you know that i didnt do the notgeki with graphite because i like mixed media. i did it because i have not owned a grey pencil for my some-teen years of drawing ever. i only JUST got a grey pencil like. a couple months ago. i mean im good with graphite i would have done it like that anyway but. yeah. anyway this was abt the height of my beginning hatoful fix and Also indirectly what got me to meet like a bunch of my mutuals here!! i did. not know there was a hatoful community. and because That i actually started using tumblr so!! hey thanks hitori. i need to do more birdform art.

april 15th -

this motherfucker! ill be. completely honest i dont have a lot of feedback for a lot of my graphite art bc ive Been doing this. ok actually yknow what i will say. there is a limit for how dark something can be with graphite and i Very much remember going over the inside of the cloak So Much. this was my pet project during my weekly 3 hour long lecture so god bless it. also i do still like how i did the eye. can i draw eye guys exclusively please.

july 3rd -

not really Art im proud of but!! holy shit i dont design often and i dont hate this!! this is at least in part thanks to my gf. my gf knows how to clothes better than i do so i did ask them for help. also i really need to scan this one. or maybe draw her a new ref. anyway (holds up celine) look at her. look at the silly.

september 6th -

this one was a trade for my friend raicatty and. also something i probably should have scanned. but its fine. anyway this one did teach me something and its To Line Your Damn Pieces Darker. lining with the color that youre going to be coloring in is kind of Asking For Disaster if it overlaps with others and u can. see that. this is a bit imparseable. but its also pretty. and thats all that really matters. a fun fact for when i ever do commissions is that being allowed to use this purpley pink pencil i have will make me really happy. its so pretty.

OERSHRIMP INTERLUDE

OERSHRIMP INTERLUDE

november 13 -

forgive me for including a sketch in this but YOU DONT UNDERSTAND IVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO DRAW HUMANS. like. NEVER. much less in an actual decent pose. (god bless adorkastock) im So very delighted by this oboromaru and hes!! like!! one of my least favorite characters!! (not to say i dislike him hes just lower). i dont know what happened here!! if this wasnt at the very back of my Sketchbook I Just Put Away Because It Was Falling Apart id say id finish this one later. rip. he and that dark daroach sketch i had there can just vibe i guess.

aaand the big one. december 8th -

things i learned from this one! 1. the scanner did not pick up the red lines very well! 2. scanners are good! 3: NEVER do a full page project again! buuut i do want to say i am like. insanely proud of this one. its the first art ive done i can really say has any sort of Composition and im so delighted that it turned out just as cool as it looked in my head. also this took forever and i could have easily messed it up Multiple times in the process. so god bless.

[squashwurmz]

ent. 1

today is tuesday, aug 20, 2024. not sure why i formatted like that buuut anyways!

i had an okay day. nothing really special. my first period is always fun and my second period i TA, so it's not like i do anything there in the first place.

ooh, i also spent all day listening to music. this months song is seasons in the sun, which makes me kinda sad. im pretty sure its from the perspective of a man reminiscing life on his death bed, i think. when i hear it, i think of someone who wants to commit but finds it hard to. they take notice of all the nice things in life, like singing birds and pretty girls, but still know that they're going to do it anyways. i really like the lines "goodbye my friend, its hard to die" and "goodbye papa, please pray for me"! the last lines of the song definitely are more towards an old man dying, plus the mentions of running out of time, but i feel like they can also be interpreted as someone succumbing to their mind and/or mental illness. thats just my perspective though :P i also rlly like the nirvana cover!

tbh i think why ive been listening to that song so much is just because ive been coming to terms with my own feelings towards committing. in my mind its all together with accepting the fact that im growing up and changing, and so are the people around me. i dont really allow myself to enjoy media very much anymore since i immerse myself too much, and once i come out of it, i get very depressed. ive had suicidal feelings before but my sophomore year was especially bad.

coming out of that year alive made me really think about what's making me feel this way. i dont really talk to my parents a whole lot, even though i know they try. it sounds so overdone but they don't let me express emotions easily so i kinda just shut off around them. i dont really like being around them.

i think ive grown disconnected from my friends over the years, but they'll always be my people. i doubt anything could really change that. they know more about me than anyone and i love them with my whole heart. if i stay, its most likely for them.

hey, also, ive never had a boyfriend!! i would KILL to have a cute sweet corny ass teenage romance. im a junior man, times running out!!! i dont know what im doing wrong. its like everyone got a manual on how to interact with each other and get TGOETHER BUT I DIDNT!! what the egg. this year its my mission to catch some bitches PLEASE

im taking ap studio art this year soo im making a portfolio. i only have one idea for my investigation and its.... *drumroll* growing up!! whew!! i dont have the concept really polished, but its something along the lines of coming to accept the fact that im getting older and evolving as a person, which means so are my peers and so is my environment, which is all very much out of my control. id also like to note the bonds ive made with my girls too though, since its played a big part of my life. theres genuinely nothing more in the world i couldve asked for than to grow up with my friends like i did.

ill probably have a more exacted idea as the week goes on and once i retrieve my notes from the art room. anyways i think i have a caffeine dependance now so i should figure out how to not! have that.

i think that's it for my first entry!! see u next time :3

[-true-happiness-]

4th week of the month is over (as of two days ago).

Hello, late post shame on me tsk tsk tsk buuut here it is! I really don't have a reason im late other than I been sleepy c: on the 28th I was like oh yah I gotta do this and before i knew it, it was midnight. I have been noticing I been feeling very out of it lately, like just going through the motions but I have been mad forgetful and losing track of time and whatnot. It hasn't been super negatively impactful - just something I am noticing more and more.

Aside from that I have basically everything set up for my trip to California which starts in 2 weeks 🤪🤪 I am excited but plans have changed a bit so I am hoping things will go well. Instead of me and my two friends it is seemingly going to be me and one other friend. But like.. We haven't talked bout times and day and what we will do sooooo my hope is we will coordinate to come up with a plan. I got them a gift so it should be fun and a nice time meeting them so I am looking forward to it. Im just a lil anxious it won't go in a direction I would like but I think at the least I can make the most out of the experience.

This month is about to be over, crazy how fast the year is coming to an end. Only 4 more months and we will be in 2025. Hopefully August will bring good things, let's see.

[pesterloglog]

Jake English, Tavrosprite, Roxy Lalonde, Vriska Serket

Act 6, page 7497-7499

JAKE: Tavrosprite is it ok if we pretend to have a conversation over here for a while...

JAKE: So that i look busy and not come off as big of a doofus as i feel like?

TAVROSPRITE: i CAN OBLIGE, aND ALSO PERSONALLY IDENTIFY, wITH THAT IDEA, aND THE FEELINGS OF SELF LAMENESS BEHIND IT,

TAVROSPRITE: bUUUT,

TAVROSPRITE: i COULD ALSO HELP YOU OUT WITH A REAL CONVERSATION TOO, iNSTEAD OF A FAKE ONE,

TAVROSPRITE: iN FACT, mAYBE WE ALREADY EVEN SAID ENOUGH WORDS TOGETHER, jUST NOW, fOR THAT TO QUALIFY, }:)

JAKE: Hahaha oh tavrosprite.

JAKE: You have always been the one ray of light shining through the clouds in what has otherwise been an emotionally stormy game experience for me.

JAKE: Im so grateful that you found it in your ghostly bosom to drift over to lomax now and then to cheer me up.

JAKE: Often enough to give me a real pickmeup when feeling blue over friend problems but just seldom enough to feel like a rare delight when you did.

TAVROSPRITE: yEAH,

TAVROSPRITE: i WAS UNDER STRICT INSTRUCTION FROM VRISKA, tO NOT INTERFERE WITH THE TIMELINE MUCH, fOR LOTS OF MONTHS,

TAVROSPRITE: sO i DIDN'T SAY HELLO OFTEN,

TAVROSPRITE: sHE HELPED ME BE BACK ALIVE, sO, i OWED HER THAT MUCH ON ONE HAND,

TAVROSPRITE: bUT ON THE OTHER, i THINK SHE WAS DOING HER BOSSY THING, fOR THE SAKE OF JUST TELLING ME WHAT TO DO,

TAVROSPRITE: aND i DIDN'T SEE HOW JUST BEING FRIENDLY SOMETIMES, wAS EVEN CHANGING THE TIMELINE MUCH, oR WHY THAT IDEA EVEN MATTERED?

TAVROSPRITE: bECAUSE IT SEEMED LIKE MOST OF YOU ALL HERE, nEVER DID MUCH IMPORTANT STUFF ANYWAY,

JAKE: Haha! Its true. More tiptop wisdom from that sage bullheaded noggin of yours.

TAVROSPRITE: wHY DO YOU WANT TO BE PRETEND-TALKING, (eVEN THOUGH IT'S REAL), aND LOOK BUSY TO YOUR FRIENDS?

JAKE: Im just not up to all this socialization yet.

JAKE: Maybe i never will be.

JAKE: I feel at ease talking to you but all these others... i dont know.

JAKE: It feels really awkward and i think i lost most of my prior bravado due to a lot of bad things that happened with my friends.

TAVROSPRITE: wHAT HAPPENED WITH THEM?

JAKE: I just messed up with everyone in a lot of ways im too embarrassed to even talk about.

JAKE: And now i just feel gunshy about... everything i guess.

JAKE: Even polite conversation with fun new people i should be thrilled to meet!

JAKE: I couldnt even set things right with my buddies now if i WANTED to.

JAKE: Jane is asleep so i cant make amends with her after she became an angry robot and punched me in the gut and jailed me and threatened me with eternal marriage and baby making duties.

JAKE: I mean sure she was brainwashed when she did all that but im SURE i did some stuff to deserve it!

JAKE: Dirk is still way off somewhere so i cant address THAT whole spicy meatball which i still feel terrible about.

JAKE: And roxy...

JAKE: Well okay roxy is right there but look at her shes having a blast with all these people she actually really LIKES and who are probably ACTUALLY LIKABLE.

JAKE: She probably wants nothing to do with me either so i might as well do her the courtesy of leaving her alone.

TAVROSPRITE: bUT,

TAVROSPRITE: iSN'T SHE,

TAVROSPRITE: wAVING AT YOU, aND SAYING HELLO, rIGHT NOW,

TAVROSPRITE: dUE, aLMOST CERTAINLY, tO OVERHEARING YOU TALKING ABOUT HER NAME?

ROXY: hi jake!!

JAKE: Oh.

JAKE: Yeah.....

JAKE: It would seem she is.

JAKE: Those are probably pity waves though.

TAVROSPRITE: iIII,

TAVROSPRITE: dON'T THINK THAT IS TRUE,

TAVROSPRITE: i HAVE BEEN THE GETTER ALMOST EXCLUSIVELY, oF THE PITY VERSIONS OF VARIOUS DEEDS DIRECTED AT ME, aND,

TAVROSPRITE: i THINK THAT'S NOT WHAT SHE'S DOING, tHOSE ARE NORMAL WAVES AND HELLOS,

TAVROSPRITE: yOU SHOULD PROBABLY DO ONE OF THOSE THINGS BACK TO HER,

ROXY: HIIIII JAKE

ROXY: JAKE

ROXY: JAKE DAMMIT HI

JAKE: Oh.

JAKE: Um sorry.

JAKE: H... hi roxy.

JAKE: Youre with us again and... and... i like that.

ROXY: :D

TAVROSPRITE: nICE, bRO!

TAVROSPRITE: kEEP WORKING AT BEHAVIORS OF THAT SORT, yOUR SELF ESTEEM WILL GET BIGGER,

JAKE: "I like that???"

JAKE: Thunderations what a fucking clod i am.

JAKE: I really need to keep a lower profile.

JAKE: Even basic pleasantries are a bit above my huckleberry for now.

TAVROSPRITE: i GET IT, sELF ESTEEM IS PROBABLY THE HARDEST EMOTION TO MASTER,

TAVROSPRITE: iT HELPS TO HAVE HELP,

JAKE: And i appreciate it mr tavrosprite really i do.

TAVROSPRITE: nO, i MEAN NOT FROM ME,

TAVROSPRITE: dO YOU HAVE A FANTASY PHANTOM REPRESENTING YOUR SELF ESTEEM WHO YOU CAN LOOK UP TO?

JAKE: A phantom??

TAVROSPRITE: bECAUSE i DID ONCE, aND IT HELPED ME,

TAVROSPRITE: tHEN HE BECAME REAL, aND *REALLY* HELPED ME, bUT NOT BECAUSE OF BELIEVING OR ANYTHING,

TAVROSPRITE: jUST BECAUSE OF COINCIDENCE, hE HAPPENED TO BE MY ANCESTOR,

JAKE: Well...

JAKE: Yes i suppose i have SOMETHING like that.

JAKE: A brain ghost of my friend dirk who visits me sometimes.

JAKE: I GUESS he represents my self esteem but...

JAKE: I dunno how helpful he actually is!

TAVROSPRITE: wHY,

JAKE: Because of all the consternation that my relationship with REAL dirk has caused me!

JAKE: He says all the right things to make me feel better about myself but when he visits my brain i never ACTUALLY feel that comfortable or good about myself.

JAKE: I just feel kind of weird and truthfully spend most of the time hoping he just goes away and he probably KNOWS that too because hes my brain and that makes me feel WEIRDER!

TAVROSPRITE: i SEE,

TAVROSPRITE: yOUR BRAIN IS COMPLICATED THEN,

TAVROSPRITE: i'M GUESSING IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE SOME SORT OF GENIUS,

JAKE: Really?????

TAVROSPRITE: yES, aBSOLUTELY,

TAVROSPRITE: i HAVE A SENSE FOR THESE THINGS,

JAKE: Gosh.

TAVROSPRITE: mAYBE, iNSTEAD OF LISTENING TO THE UPSETTING WORDS OF A COMPLICATED BRAIN GHOST,

TAVROSPRITE: wHAT A BRILLIANT MIND LIKE YOU NEEDS, iS SOMETHING SIMPLER,

TAVROSPRITE: lIKE LISTENING TO THE NICE AND FLATTERING WORDS, oF A REAL FRIEND, }:)

JAKE: Maybe youre right!

TAVROSPRITE: nOT RELATED TO THAT, hAVE i MENTIONED,

TAVROSPRITE: yOU'RE ACTUALLY QUITE HANDSOME FOR A HUMAN,

JAKE: Wow you think??

TAVROSPRITE: aLSO YOU HAVE A DASHING PERSONALITY, aND YOU SEEM PRETTY STRONG, aND YOUR VERY SMALL PAIR OF CREAMY LOOKING PANTS IS REALLY COOL,

JAKE: Holy cow.

JAKE: Youre right tavrosprite.

JAKE: These nice observations about me...

JAKE: Why they really do seem to be making me feel at LEAST infinitesimally better about myself.

JAKE: What a chum!

TAVROSPRITE: tHIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING, OF THE FEELGOOD FEELINGS YOU CAN FORCE INSIDE YOU,

TAVROSPRITE: tHROUGH THE REPETITIVE MENTIONINGS OF SUCH THINGS ABOUT YOU,

TAVROSPRITE: bUT ALSO THROUGH DEVELOPING YOURSELF AS A BRAVE ALIVE HERO,

TAVROSPRITE: iT'S TOO LATE FOR ME TO DO THAT, sINCE I LIVED A WEAK LIFE, dIED, aND WAS LUCKY ENOUGH TO HAVE A FRIEND WITH A GOOD ENOUGH HEART TO BRING ME BACK,

TAVROSPRITE: bUT ONLY AS A SPRITUAL GUIDE, sUCH AS THE ONE FLOATING BEFORE YOU,

TAVROSPRITE: sO i CAN'T BE THAT HEROICALLY GREAT ANYMORE, bY TRAGIC DEFINITION, bUT YOU CAN,

TAVROSPRITE: yOU'RE LIVING, sTRONG, nICE, aND OF EVEN HIGHER IMPORTANCE, iMMORTAL,

TAVROSPRITE: sO THAT GIVES YOU, bY MY ESTIMATION, lITERALLY FOREVER,

TAVROSPRITE: tO GET BETTER, aND BETTER, aND BETTER, aND FINALLY PROVE YOURSELF,

TAVROSPRITE: tHAT WAY YOU CAN WIN YOUR FRIENDS OVER, aND EVERYONE WILL LIKE YOU AGAIN,

JAKE: Boy shitting howdy! :O

JAKE: Just imagine... from hobbledehoy to hero.

JAKE: Wouldnt THAT spiffy predicament just razz my berries.

VRISKA: Tavros, would you leave that poor kid alone?

VRISKA: What sort of nonsense are you telling him?

TAVROSPRITE: nOTHING,

VRISKA: Oh, 8ullshit.

VRISKA: You're filling his head with lies, aren't you?

TAVROSPRITE: nO,

TAVROSPRITE: iT'S JUST A BASIC CONVERSATION, NOT ABOUT ANY TOPICS, yOU'RE PROBABLY GOING TO SAY, yOU DISAPPROVE OF,

VRISKA: Hey kid, what's he telling you?

VRISKA: What's your name again? Jape?

JAKE: Ja...

JAKE: I

JAKE: J...

JAKE: Yes. Sure.

TAVROSPRITE: nO, iT'S NOT jAPE, wRONG,

VRISKA: Who even cares? Your overly simplistic human names all sound so alike to me.

VRISKA: Anyway, listen Jape.

VRISKA: Whatever load of shit he's selling you in a misguided effort to cheer you up, don't listen to him.

VRISKA: It's all a 8unch of sappy delusional gar8age.

VRISKA: I'm not going to let you down easy, and some day you'll realize this is the 8iggest favor anyone's ever done for you.

VRISKA: You are never going to do anything important, and you'll never amount to anything. Period!

VRISKA: Neither is Tavros.

TAVROSPRITE: wAIT, nO, nOW HOLD, ON,

VRISKA: No, YOU hold on, Tavros.

VRISKA: You had more than enough chances to prove you could 8e a relevant contri8utor to our adventure, 8ut you 8lew it every step of the way.

VRISKA: It's time to face the facts. You're never going to have that "8ig moment" that vindic8tes your arc of personal development. It's just not going to happen!

TAVROSPRITE: nO, i KNOW THAT, i JUST ADMITTED THAT,

TAVROSPRITE: yOU WEREN'T LISTENING TO OUR,,,

VRISKA: It's not going to happen for Jape here, either. So stop filling his head with nonsense.

VRISKA: I can just smell it off him. He's just like you, really.

VRISKA: A loser is a loser.

JAKE: *Sniffle.*

VRISKA: Here's the 8ottom line.

VRISKA: Pages just suck!

VRISKA: All of them do. They just can't ever seem to get it together.

VRISKA: I think it just happens to 8e the class players get stuck with if they're naturally that sort of person.

VRISKA: It doesn't mean they don't have value as people, 8ut they'll never have anything significant to contri8ute, so they really should just stay out of the way.

VRISKA: There's a certain quiet dignity in understanding your utterly cripplng limit8tions as an individual. Ideally, a VERY quiet dignity, so the important people can still hear themselves think!

TAVROSPRITE: oK BUT, wHAT ABOUT ALL THAT, bIG PAGE POTENTIAL,

VRISKA: That's also a lot of misleading horseshit, and really kind of a cruel stipul8tion of the class, to 8e honest.

VRISKA: It makes losers think there's actually some light at the end of a long tunnel, so it keeps them dreaming instead of facing the facts!

VRISKA: Sure, they could reach all that potential if they worked really hard for a long time, 8ut don't you get it?

VRISKA: The very n8ture of who they are PROHI8ITS that! They don't have what it takes to stick it out to the end, 8ecause they're too weak mentally.

VRISKA: So it's just the game playing a nasty joke on them. Like dangling a carrot at the end of a ridiculously long stick.

VRISKA: Only an asshole would knowlingly play along with such a vicious hoax.

TAVROSPRITE: aRGH, nO, aNY FORM OF FRIENDSHIP ENCOURAGEMENT, nO MATTER WHAT, iS UNIVERSALLY GREAT i THINK,

TAVROSPRITE: wE ALL LEARN THIS AS FACT, fROM LOTS OF THINGS WE SEE AND ENJOY, iN STORIES AND STUFF,

VRISKA: Oh my fucking god.

JAKE: No... tavrosprite shes... shes right.

JAKE: Shes right.

JAKE: *Sniff.*

TAVROSPRITE: vRISKA, lOOK AT WHAT YOU DID,

TAVROSPRITE: yOU MADE MY FRIEND JAPE SAD,

TAVROSPRITE: dON'T LISTEN TO HER, aND COME HERE BUDDY, fOR A REASSURING EMBRACE,

VRISKA: TAVROS DON'T YOU FUCKING TOUCH HIM!!!!!!!!

VRISKA: Remem8er, you've only 8een prototyped once!

VRISKA: Do you REALLY want to fuse into an eternal monstrosity with that weenie?

VRISKA: God, what a weenie singularity that would 8e. May8e I should stand 8ack and let it happen!

VRISKA: For science. Also, it would serve you right.

TAVROSPRITE: oHHHHHHHH,

TAVROSPRITE: yEAHHHHHHHH?

TAVROSPRITE: wELL GET A LOAD, oF THIS!

TAVROSPRITE: aCTUALLY,

TAVROSPRITE: nO, yOU'RE,

TAVROSPRITE: rIGHT OF COURSE, i WON'T HUG HIM, bECAUSE,

TAVROSPRITE: tHAT SOUNDS REALLY, rEALLY BAD,

TAVROSPRITE: sORRY JAPE,

JAKE: :(

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just need to record like 10-15 mins more of audio for my album then i can put it all together yayyy. ok thats a lot of time but i def want it to atleast be over 30 mins.. last one ended up being like 45 mins or smthn which was a really perfect length tbh but i kinda wanna focus on it all being stuff i like a lot and i threw some songs i didnt care for too much on my last one just cause i wanted to pad it out and convinced myself i liked but in hindhsight theres def stuff on it im meh towards but only like 1 or 2 tracks tbh. im actually v vain and proud abt it in hindsight. tho i wanna for sure record a track on melodica and smthn with pitched bowls filled with water. maybe might make a song be both at the same time. but also do wanna like make songs be solo instrument performances so maybe not. also would like some more stuff using my bass and toy piano and to record atleast one track using the electric organ but hard for me to pull out anything inteeresting out of it even tho it does sound really great. not as great as like a farfisa or vox continental would sound in terms of electric organs but like still sounds like an organ so its neat.  def wanna get some more songs in there with like concrete melodies and stuff but also dont want it to feel like my previous album part 2 or anything so like its tricky coming up w/ stuff. kinda just have to wait for stuff to come naturallly but also should start pushing myself to come up w/ some more melodic stuff to make it not all be like sound pieces but guess ill see. i do liek A LOT of the sound stuff ive come up w/ like just lil mood pieces n stuff especially like the first 5 songs like am legit so exciiited to show ppl :) also have an accordion i also wanan record smthn on tbh.. so like once i get atleast a melodica piece (after the piano 26 arrives) and then atleast try the bowls to see if i can record anything cool on them or if its tooo like hard to actually salvage a track out of them w/ a solo performance. w/ the organ and accordion like i wanna record some stuff w/ them but  i havent rly been practicing enough on them  so if i cant then ill be fine. buuut yeas...

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Ayaka and Xingqiu's older brother's is not even out yet and now im already simping for them, also I raise you these: Imagine getting courted by 2 hot oniisan in tevyat 😳

Ion think Xingqiu's gēgē will be playable, that's how much hope I have (does he even have a Vision-) 😭 Buuut since Mihoyo will be releasing more male characters to make the men to women ratio almost equal from now on, maybe he will eventually be playable? IN ANY CASE THERE WILL BE MORE HOT MEN, SO LET US REJOICE FELLOW HUSBANDO COLLECTORS 🏃‍♀️💨💨

Being courted by two hot onii-san, with one being the head of his clan and the other being the heir of his family 😏

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(Y/n) had the misfortune of being stranded in Inazuma because of the Sakoku Decree while she was travelling, and was forced to make a living there as a result. She’s not one to give up easily though and was able to land a job at a popular teahouse that Ayato would frequent during his free time. He must have been attracted to (y/n)’s refreshing personality and smile that shines brighter than the sun, and he would make an effort to visit the teahouse she works in whenever he had the time to. (Y/n) was always the one who served his table since the other waitresses were far too intimidated to approach him.

The two developed a close relationship over time, and after the Vision Hunt Decree was abolished, he helped arrange a ship bound for Liyue so she could go home, even though he really wanted her to stay with him in Inazuma. But since she admitted to feeling extremely homesick, he thought that he should do something to prevent her smile from being extinguished.

It was so hard for him to watch her leave. She filled his mundane life with colours, and it felt as if his world was turning monochrome once again as she bid him farewell. At least (y/n) would be bringing a part of him back home with her to Liyue. The blue kimono she wore was splashed with his colours, and the patterns even included the Kamisato family crest. Before she could walk away from him, Ayato caught the end of her sleeve between his fingers and kissed the fabric, causing a faint blush to flit across her cheeks.

“Please consider returning to Inazuma,” he implored, his bright eyes staring straight into hers, “I’d like to see you wearing a white kimono next time.”

When (y/n) finally returned to Liyue, Xingqiu’s brother (let’s call him Xingchen for now) would be the first person to welcome her home. He had been worried sick when he received news of her being stranded in Inazuma, and not a single day would end without him thinking about her. But wait a moment - he noticed that she's wearing a beautiful kimono that seemed to be tailored for noble women. He doesn’t have a problem with her wearing fancy clothes, but he does have a problem when the person who gifted his childhood friend the kimono had clear intentions of courting her. He’s not dumb, he can see the family crest that was sneakily added to the patterns.

Xingchen had intended to make (y/n) his betrothed since he’s going to become the Head of the Feiyun Commerce Guild in the future, and it seems like another man from Inazuma was bold enough to make the first move on her. Well, he’s not about to let her go easily now that he knows someone else of a higher position than him had taken an interest in her. You bet that Xingqiu’s brother will make (y/n) wear new dresses that have his colours instead, so let's forget about the kimono that Ayato gave her, yeah?