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lost-technology · 24 days ago

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Hey. Please please please don't do anything drastic. I know it seems really dark right now, and it is. Yesterday was a horrible day for everyone and it will continue to be hard as we all process. But it's so so so important that you keep on living through that.

One half of this that is absolutely true is that you need to keep on living to spite them. You need to live longer than him and laugh when he's gone. Your life in itself is resistance and that's infinitely valuable.

The other half is that, no matter if you believe this or not right now, the world would be darker without you. I mean this really and truly. I don't know you in real life so I can't speak to that, but you bring a lot of positivity and unique views to the trigun fandom. Your reblogs are how I found a lot of the trigun blogs I now follow. Your comments and discussions on Rem make me happy to read, just grinning in real life because someone cares so much about a character that needed more time. It's simple stuff really, but that's what's important. Even people you've never spoken to like me are positively impacted by your life. And that increases tenfold for people who know you in real life that you do speak to and that love you and want you around no matter if they say it out loud or not.

Please keep living. You bring something unique to this world and you're a nice person, which goes for a lot these days. And if you can't believe that, live for spite, just for now, and maybe the other stuff can come later.

Please live. I'm sorry for being so long winded but you really do have a much bigger impact than you could ever see without someone telling you and I want you to know.

We can all get through this and you're not alone. Being together is how we can find strength. So stay and be together with us. Please.

I'm sorry for the long ask. Just want to make sure you at least hear this stuff. You're important.

I do need to get on the phone with my therapist. It's just... I feel like the hits just keep on coming, neverending in my life. This hope to have the first ever Madame President and to not have a man in office (again) who shows all signs of going full fascist - it is bringing up grief in such a way that it seems to be bleeding into my lingering grief over a family-loss I had last year. I'm feeling similar ways. Last year, my nephew died (adult, just on the cusp of 40, my partner's nephew). He was my best friend, my gaming buddy and we were the three amigos on holidays and whatnot. We had him up for almost an entire year on Covid-lockdown living with us. He got me through my partner's heart-attacks when he had those in previous years. Matt was the one who broke the news to me that there was going to be a new Trigun anime because he knew I basically lived and breathed Trigun back in the day and still counted Vash as my personal hero. And then, in January '23, he was gone - cause of death unknown, probably his heart giving out - because he had some health issues. I basically had to go through that. I've been feeling like I've just gotten to pulling myself out of the muck of that, was just starting to feel better (with some random meloncholy still hitting me), and now I'm running into yet another big thing that's making me think "What is life even for?" - There's no justice here. I have no power. There is no rhyme or reason. I also lost a couple of aunts during Covid times, both eldery - one to the disease itself, another through something unrelated, both in 2021. I wasn't as close to them anymore, but it hurt. I had to go into inpatient psychiatric in 2021 because some misunderstandings, a huge fight, a dogpiling (of me) and a public tumblr callout post in one small niche area of the She-Ra fandom just made me lose it. I was accused of plagerism (not true. There was a misunderstanding with someone regarding idea-exchange and what I was allowed use in roleplays on a small roleplay discord. I did legit read things wrong, but it's not like I ganked someone's ideas for a publically available fanfic or was trying to "steal their characters" like they whined to everyone in the fandom about), but because anyone accuses of that, immedately everyone else will side with them and not even look further into it, I was suddenly losing friends - I freaked out, myself and got to harassing some people in a defensive snarl - and then some asshole had to take it off the discords and make it public, which meant I was shunned by an entire fandom and was basically told that I was human garbage and believed it. I did something untoward to myself and had a little hospital stay. The person who intervened to save my life was that now-deceased nephew. And so, I've just been going through hit after hit, some of it being hangover from "We all got crazy under Trump and under Trump's attempts to get back into power" and now... that's a thing again... I am also on Social Security / Disability and am worried about my future. I worked very hard to get it and it might go away. My partner was on the cusp of getting it until they raised the retirement age and who knows he might not get it. We might die freezing under a bridge, I don't know. There is always the question of "Well, now or later?" that looms in the mind. "Murdered by the State or go on my own terms?" I want to be brave like Vash and Rem, but they are fiction and I don't know if I am capable of their strength of heart. Thank you for talking to me.

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unablethethird · 4 months ago

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60. how are you?

3- yeah but I think it's more of the thought of them than their actual self 4-Going to university and studying psychology 5-my frens/moots 6-My bad memory is both a blessing and a curse, but with the power of forgetting comes the guilt of not remembering

7-genuinely think it was the worst year of my life lol, i can't imagine going through that again 8-Yeah, i cry easily in general lol 9-Does my sister count 10-Very, mostly because my base facial expression is :| so unless im trying hard to mask, or you know me well, you will not know lol 11- Nope, i forgot to put it on but im wearing my headphones 12-To wake up as a random cis boy 13- a little scared/paranoid, but distracting myself with tumblr

15- No self awareness, bad memory, smart dumbass, irresponsible, cringe, sincere, accomadating, i will yap for 100 years or not at all, no inbetween 16-I mean, hasn't everyone 17-They suck to have but they exist and i think its normal to have one thing ur insecure about [as long as you don't obsess over it] 18-Kind of? Like if i could choose different options. But if i couldnt choose then HELL NO 19-nope 20-

21- 14, 27/11/2009 [dd/mm/yyyy] 23- my friends hating me, forgetting, never being okay 24-166cm

25-My friends, not even joking 26-again, my friends 27- feeling negative feelings, people being assholes for no reason, my memory 28-If you're my friend and your vibe isnt bad 29- The lorax 30-Hazbin/murder drones 31- A) The epidermis can't bleed, it has no blood vessels B) Hitler was high for most of WWII C) Theres proof that hitler might have been a closseted gay [and killed people to hide it] Bonus fact: snakes smell with their tongues 32) Used to be mainly guys but im at a single sex school so its girls now 33) To play anything cool, to say no 34) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 35) Sport 36) A) be a psychologist B) Be a good,happy human C) make my frens happy

37)idk much about acting but that beetlejuice guy is cool as heck 38) Im a basic bitch but john mullaney 39) I love playing all sports, but my favorite is either dodgeball or basketball [this does not mean im good at them though /silly] 40) me and my old family friends would phsycially fight for fun a lot, and so one day as our parents took us to the park, we went on a big hill and we started fighting eachother, and it was a 3 on 1 [well, yeah my sister was there but she didn't fight and all she did was run, so nobody went after her], and i still fucking won, the self esteem boost was crazy

41) *insert joke about me and fictional character* 42) Girl in pieces, i have never not cried when reading it 43) I cant choose 44) i dont talk to people so idk 45)

49) The arcade, playing pump it up 50) that'd dox em and i dont have pics of my moots 51) Sag 52) im kinda good at reading intentions 53) 1-frens 2-music 3-Fanfiction 4-psychology 5-research 54) if i say it i'll get more anxious lol 55) moots=frens 56) Cheese 57)Foxes!!! Especially red or black ones 58) Their username starts with Z, their pfp shows their oc underwater, and they have a don :3 59) I needed to read a fancomic on undertale but i had to make an account

#ask #zermizomilk #FRIEND!!!#DID IT

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mommypieck · 1 year ago

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Hello! I've been here for a while and seeing how much you've been through so far makes me sad that you've experienced so much sad shit. I recently came back to your blog since I wasn't on Tumblr for a while(I've been following you for sometime now) and decided to snoop around for a bit to see what I missed, congratulations on 10k followers btw🥺. Also I'm sorry in advance this will probably be long knowing how I can go on for a while.

Some things you've been through I can relate to, my family isn't a step family but it's definitely incredibly dysfunctional and can be shitty. It's almost 4am here so excuse any mistakes I make in writing this, I literally told myself if I didn't send this to you now I'm not gonna be able to later so I'm fighting sleep. Also your friendships I'm sorry you're stuck with people who don't deserve you in just about every aspect ☹️.

You seem like such a genuine sweetheart. I had an experience with a friendship I wanted to end before and I remember being the same as you were, wanting to stay in that friendship but couldn't leave because I was so attached to that person. I thought the end of the world was gonna happen when I left because I was so codependent on them. But I realized that the feelings I had when it came to them shouldn't be taken lightly, the bad feelings, every single one should never be taken lightly. I'm not gonna sit here and make any promises towards you that certain things are gonna be perfect but I can at least say that it's gonna be okay. Not just when but comes to friendships but living apart from your family. I know you've probably heard this shit a million times but you're not gonna be stuck in the same situation forever. If you have decided to leave that friendship I hope you felt the relief I did when I left mine, if you haven't decided to yet, you most likely will feel relieved even if there's always gonna be a longing for the good moments you might have had before, don't let the good distract you from all the bad.

When we all are teenagers or were teenagers, we are constantly told how grown up we have to act that we forget how young we really are. You are 19, you are so incredibly young and you have so much time to become whoever or whatever you want to become. I remember Jane Fonda saying that if you can't do something in your 20s,30s,40s or even 50s, you can still do it in your 60s. I DON'T mean that you won't accomplish all you desire now, because I'm sure you'll definitely get there, but you have a lot of time to get there, to think, to breathe, to exist, to have fun, to have new experiences.

Please remember that you haven't even met all the people who are gonna love you yet. You have so many people who will enter your life later on, as long as you allow them to enter and stay, that can and will love you so much.

If your family is shitty or weird, then you can have your own family, family is not defined to me by blood but by love. So I'm not telling you become pregnant or anything, but your friends can be your family, people you meet along the way can always become family, maybe even family members you'll eventually meet again will rekindle your family relationship.

I'm a bit forgetful (ADHD and trauma not a good combo)so I'm trying to remember what else I was gonna add omg.

You're a sweet girl, you're incredibly talented, if your desire is to become a writer then you're perfect for it already. Honestly I live by, "if Colleen Hoover and Anna Todd can write and publish those damn books, you damn well can too." And I know your books won't suck like theirs do. Full offense to Colleen Hoover fans btw🙃 I expect if you're reading stuff by mommypieck then your taste isn't bad.

Anyway this has been so long and I don't want to overwhelm you, so I'll end it for now, stay safe, and I hope you have a beautiful forever because just wishing you one day isn't enough💖🥺💖.

i am at loss of words.i seriously don't know what to say. thanku so much for this message. it means a world to me really. i am so happy that i have people here who stick with me and actually care what i have to say.i kinda feel bad that you spend so much time, typing all of this. but you seriously gave me hope for better life. thanku so so so so so much. i love u and i appreciate you. thank you again.

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kabutoraiger · 9 months ago

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decided to play and finish tales of the abyss for the very first time... in actuality i did not quite finish it as i made it to the final dungeon, failed 10 times at the solo asch fight due to being horrendously bad at video games, and gave up & experienced the rest via the let's play on lparchive (which id already been skimming for all the obtuse side quests i missed)

regardless, i ended up surprisingly conflicted on this one... i watched the anime adaptation as a teen and remember really liking it and ive osmosised the game as one of the best tales but in practice it's like. half something im extremely into and half really not.

when the plot is focused on the score and the replicas and the themes of self determination from both those angles are coalescing it's like yes!! epic!! thinking about van's scheme and the idea of putting faith in an exact copy of the world & all its people to live on while you die along with the original... just like SOMA! 🥰 - me when something is just like SOMA.

but then as soon as i start having to button through whole convos about fonic resonance or sephiroths or whatever the fuck my mood just plummets and im like

"what it's like playing tales of the abyss when you're gay and dumb and still don't know what a fonon is 40 hours in"

as an established jrpg liker i do have some built in resistance to sf/f jargon but i dunno. smth about this feels so much harder to follow than what's typical for tales...

and i feel the same kind of split opinion about the characters like this game has me by the throat with what jade and guy have going on but the rest of the party simply does Not hit for me. luke is interesting as a vehicle for the plot & its existential questions i guess but as an actual character. not so much. same with asch. and all 3 of the girls feel weak in the ranks of tales girls. tear in particular is so boringg 😭 im perfectly willing to open my heart to basic-ass "responsible no nonsense woman who secretly loves cute things" type characters but only if they have literally anything going on besides that!!

not to mention that abyss is pretty aesthetically blah for a tales game... even if i did play the 3ds version, on which to quote a popular tumblr post "a polygon has never looked worse", ive seen a bunch of the original too and it just looks so washed out & there's so few truly memorable locations in this world to begin with. symphonia was the same gen and it had a better desert town, faaar better snow town, fun amusement park locale, etc. i suppose abyss does have its own carnival type place but a ton of players will never even see it so like. 😐

i dunno. it was a real ups and downs experience for sure. glad to finally get to it though after all these years. maybe i am on my way to finally becoming a non-fake tales fan. we shall see!

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killerandhealerqueen · 9 months ago

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39, 40, 43

& hellooooooo how are you bby? i asked many questions because i LOVE hearing about your writing process and all the tidbits you share

Aw, thank you bby! I love answering questions about my writing, it's so much fun. Please feel free to send more!

39. Is any aspect of your writing process inspired by other writers or people? If so, who?

Um...no, actually. My writing and my writing process is all me

40. Do you tend to reread fics or are you a one-and-done kind of person?

Oh yeah. I mainly tend to reread my own fanfics but there are some that I go back to like ALL the time. There's one fic for the CSI: Miami fandom that I've visited like...120 times? I mean, there are like 22 chapters so like, majority of the visits comes from like reading each chapter but like...still

43. If you take/write prompts: what’s your favorite prompt fic that you’ve written?

Ooo...see now this is hard...I've gotten a lot of really good prompts when I used to take prompts...so it's hard to choose. So I'll just give you a few of my faves.

The Moon Shines Bright Over the Woodlands - Elven au

Eye for an Eye - Mafia au

My Everything - hurt/comfort

Chen Yuzhi is MINE - Possessive/Jealous Jiang Yuelou

"Z" for Zhan - Assassin au

Blood In, Blood Out - Mafia au

Violence Is Never the Answer...Except When It Is - Mafia au

Wait, We're Married?! - first ever Devil Judge au

questions for fic writers | send me asks

And then you had tagged me in the "Fanfic Author Asks" so I will answer your question here

42. How do you get over writer's block?

Ah, now this a good question...the only time I ever really had "writer's block" was when I was in a really bad mental headspace. And what I did then was I had gone home to see my family then for like a short vacation (I also had a job interview back home so it like kinda worked out) but I basically like just unplugged/relaxed/spent time with family (and we had all gotten covid at the time so we REALLY spent time together). But yeah, just unplug, go for a walk, get some sun, eat something, hug a friend/family member...just do not think about your work/fic. And I know that's gonna be hard because it's going to be like a looming, negative nagging shadow in the back of your mind, but you gotta beat it off with a stick and just let yourself relax.

Because with me, when I was fighting with my fic Monster Like Me, I basically worked on it for SO LONG and put so much pressure on myself for the fic to be GOOD that I basically sabotaged myself (and ended up deleting the outline/draft to give myself a completely new slate). Sometimes you gotta just step away and breathe.

But also, there's this thing I've seen going around tumblr that's like "if you have writer/art block for longer than a certain period of time, you should probably see a doctor because you're depressed" so like...yeah. If writer's block persists longer than normal for you (if you ever get writer's/art block)...maybe go see a professional if you can't get excited about your work. Or go read someone else's work. Maybe that'll bounce you back. Either way, taking a step back from your own work and letting yourself breathe and think will do a lot better than you sitting and staring at your screen forcing your story to work. Force never works with fics. Ever. I've learned the hard way. If they don't wanna work, they won't.

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loserlvrss · 3 months ago

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𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐕𝐑𝐒𝐒 𝟏,𝟎𝟎𝟎 𝐅𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐓

ִֶָ𓂃 ࣪˖ in which, to show my appreciation, i’m holding an event where i write 500-2,000ish words based off song lyrics .ᐟ PSA idols & prompts may only be chosen once. also, please specify which of the endings you’d like if multiple are listed on your prompt .ᐟ thank you for stoping by ♡ please understand that i do have a life outside of tumblr ( as well as attend school full time ). i am doing this for fun. it might take a couple of days / weeks to get all the asks out c: 40 slots; first come first serve until they’re all out .ᐟ no deadline.

want to participate ? please choose a prompt from down below ⬎

1) ❝ just ‘cause we’re in love, it isn’t trust / do i wanna know the reason you’re not here, and see if i belong to you? ❞ - belong to you by josh makazo : angst without happy ending ( status ) taken !

2) ❝ bathes you in spring sunshine, wipes tears dry, and says i love you twice / seasons change, say you’ll stay the same 봄 거을 겨울도. ❞ - love you twice by huh yunjin : fluff ( status ) taken !

3) ❝ so outlandish, she said fuck me ‘till i scream / couldn’t give a flyin’ fuck if i’m famous / good god she’s on the floor rollin’ her eyes at me. once i get inside she’ll wanna die with me. ❞ - die for me by chase atlantic : smut ( status ) taken !

4) ❝ started with a little bit, now i don’t know how to quit / i need you to feel alive, i need you to fill the void. ❞ - void by the neighbourhood : angst with happy ending ( status ) taken !

5) ❝ somebody let me know, why there’s trouble in paradise? ‘cause i’ve been try-trying to get by, but i lose my mind in paradise. ❞ - trouble in paradise by new hope club : angst with or without happy ending ( status ) taken ! fic

6) ❝ untouched, xo, young lust, let’s— when we drive in your car i’m your baby, losing all my innocence in your backseat. say you love, say you love me / i write my name with lipstick on your chest. i leave a mark so you know i’m the best. ❞ - diet pepsi by addison rae : smut ( status ) taken ! fic

7) ❝ so what, you stayin’ or coming? it shouldn’t be a discussion. all of these girls, we runnin around and i still be craving your love. ❞ - choose by why don’t we : angst with happy ending ( status ) taken !

8) ❝ and if it’s better to bet on us, then i’ll double down / and are we falling in love? say yes or no. ❞ - yes or no by jung kook : fluff ( status ) taken !

9) ❝ and i’m sick of waiting patiently for someone that won’t even arrive / in the back of my mind, i killed you. and i didn’t even regret it, i can’t believe that i said it. ❞ - romantic homicide by jxdn : angst without happy ending ( status ) open !

10) ❝ you’re kissing her like you almost care, but i don’t care / i know she loves you, but she’s never, ever, ever gonna fuck you like me. and i don’t love you, but i really, really, really wanna fuck you / fighting was our favorite kind of foreplay. ❞ - like me by sam short : angst with smut ( status ) open !

11) ❝ you’re killing me softly, i don’t want to lose you / you got me so in love, i’ve never been this possessive. i don’t know how to quit. ❞ - te quiero by kiss of life : fluff ( status ) taken !

12) ❝ i’ve been drinking with cupid, thinking how you’ve been / i’ve been drinking with cupid, thinking of you, babe. ❞ - drinking with cupid by voilà : angst with or without happy ending ( status ) taken !

13) ❝ love when it comes without a warning / you better lock your phone, and look at me when you’re alone / i’m the only one who does it how you like. ❞ - billie bossa nova by billie eilish : smut or suggestive ( status ) taken !

14) ❝ i read an article on the internet, told me that that's how you know you're fallin' in love / hate to be lame but i might love you. ❞ - hate to be lame by lizzie mcalpine, finneas : angsty fluff ( status ) taken !

15) ❝ people asking what we do and i don’t say a thing / you could be my dirty little secret. and you could be my everything i’m needing. ❞ - tell em by sabrina carpenter : fluff ( status ) taken !

16) ❝ oh in your eyes, there’s a spark that could light up a fire / im dying to know, is it me, is it me you want? / ill blow your mind, i’ll make you feel, make you feel my love. ❞ - blow your mind by monsta x : fluff with or without smut ( status ) open !

17) ❝ i wanna be in so deep baby, floating like we’re deep inside an ocean / i’m talking with my hands, oh baby, here is my confession / baby we don’t need no reason, baby we don’t need to wait. ❞ - birthday by ten : smut ( status ) open !

18) ❝ don’t you wish it worked and we were on again? / feelings, do they ever die? / tell me what if we could start clean with no hard feelings between us, could we ever be? ❞ - sting by fletcher : angst with or without happy ending ( status ) open !

19) ❝ with a bottle of wine for two, though i’m already drunk off you / now i’m falling heavily, recklessly. trying not to lose my sensibility, but gravity, it pulls me into you. ❞ - couple of kids by maggie lindemann : fluff ( status ) open !

20) ❝ every time we touch it’s like the last time, holding onto something when it’s not right / maybe that thing you said under your breath, you mean it. / i guess i don’t know, where we took a wrong turn, everything got harder. ❞ - mean it by gracie abrams : angst without happy ending ( status ) open !

21) ❝ how could we know, that this was a happy disaster? / usually i’m fucked up, anxious, too much, but i love you like you need me to. ❞ - imperfect for you by ariana grande : angst with happy ending ( status ) taken !

22) ❝ 모든 게 영원할 순 없으니? let's do it 'til we pass out. you ready or not? 언젠간, 모두 끝이 날 테니. i don't wanna waste our time, no / soaked in your love, 아름다운 이 순간을. ❞ - rush in 2 u by one pact : fluff ( status ) taken !

23) ❝ feel what you need, so just leave it to me / you just have to climb, baby i can make you high / it doesn’t matter if you have some flaws / can’t nobody fuck you like me, baby hold this vibe, yeah. ❞ - skyline by i.m : smut ( status ) taken !

24) ❝ but now looking back i looked at you like nobody else / and i hate that it hurts, that his car isn’t yours. ❞ - his car isn't yours by wendy : angst with or without happy ending ( status ) open !

25) ❝ te encontré, me enamoré, en ti volé y caí / amores de noche, ajenos de día / tanto adiós nos hizo daño, y terminamos siendo extraños. ❞ - dos extraños by danna paola : angst without happy ending ( status ) open !

26) ❝ i want you to drunk text me, saying you still need me. tell me i’m not like her, i made you happier / ‘cause i’m no closer to closure. wish you weren’t sober. we’re over, but i’m not over it. ❞ - drunk text me by lexi jayde : angst with or without happy ending ( status ) open !

27) ❝ follow me home or stay, i don’t care either way / what if i stop breathing, could i get off easy? what if we got even, for all the wrong reasons? what could it change? ❞ - even by bad omens : angst with or without happy ending ( status ) open !

28) ❝ can you feel my heartbeat, when you hit it full speed? anywhere you take me, i’ll go / say you’re all mine. touch me under street lights. ❞ - passenger princess by nessa barrett : smut ( status ) taken !

29) ❝ i know that when it’s all done, i’ll hate you bad in the long run. but somehow it never ends, my heels on the edge of your bed again / ‘cause i know deep down that it’s never gon’ never be us, never gon’ never be more than just something that’s fucking me up. ❞ - run for the hills by tate mcrae : angst with smut ( status ) taken !

30) ❝ he’s like a poem i wish i wrote / oh god i’m gonna marry him if he keeps this shit up / i think i’m in love. ❞ - so american by olivia rodrigo : fluff ( status ) taken !

31) ❝ i don’t know your plans, i just wanna, uh, get some / fuck your ex man, i’m the man now. think i feel bad? he was fanned out. ❞ - girls by the kid laroi : smut ( status ) open !

32) ❝ what’s this new desire called? i didn’t know that much at all ‘bout love before, but now i think i’m learning. ❞ - bewitched by laufey : fluff ( status ) taken !

33) ❝ tonight, i don’t care what’s wrong or right. don’t start blowing up my line. i’d care at 11:59, but nothing counts after midnight. ❞ - perfect night by le sserafim : angst with happy ending ( status ) taken ! fic

34) ❝ don’t ask why, but every little thing you do just drives me wild / there’s no touch or feeling, pleasure or pain, anything like the way you running through my veins. no breath or beauty, no sound or sight, that ever made me feel the way you do tonight. ❞ - eyes off you by prettymuch : fluff with or without suggestive content ( status ) taken !

35) ❝ 내 마음은 자꾸 너에게 달려가. 더 깊어지는 lovesick. 내 맘은 계속 clipping. 멈추지 못해 난 너에게로 가 / you’re the one that i want, the one that i need, don’t wanna be free. ❞ - inside out by nu’est : fluff ( status ) taken !

36) ❝ what if you’re the only one that i ever needed? what if i had stopped you when you said you were leaving, no, won’t let you go / i can’t help but wonder where your head and heart is, maybe that’s the reason why i’m scared of calling. ❞ - what if by eric nam : angsty fluff ( status ) taken !

37) ❝ bebé, volvamos pa’ aquellos tiempos. noche de travesuras allá en mi carro, mojando asientos / dime, ¿qué vas hacer cuando otro man toque tu piel? ¿pensará en mí estando con él? ❞ - mojando asientos by maluma, feid : angst with smut and happy ending ( status ) taken !

38) ❝ all of those lies i told to you, all of those highs i stole from you. it was all out of my control, but i really want you to know the truth / maybe i had to lose you, to know how good i had it, to know how good that we were, to know i’m deep in regret. now your surface is cold, now you’re burnt to the core. ❞ - on my youth by wayv : angst with happy ending ( status ) taken !

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40) ❝ ‘cause this love is only getting stronger / but i bet you if they only knew, they would just be jealous of us / they don’t know i’ve waited all my life just to find a love that feels this right. ❞ - they don’t know about us by one direction : fluff ( status ) taken !

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TWENTY SIX

"Dresden, you alive?"

The wizard gave Nate a vaguely offended look as the mastermind trotted briskly down the spiral stairs. Harry was freshly showered and shaved, his hair still damp; there were faint shadows under his eyes and he was moving gingerly, but he was up. "Bacon will bring anyone to life," he declared smartly, taking the place that had been reserved for him at the table. There was every sort of breakfast goodie readily available, including fresh coffee from a brand-new French press on the counter.

Eliot finished cleaning up from a bout of stress-cooking, and sat at the table at about the same time Nate did. "How are we doing this?"

"What are we doing?" Hardison added. "I'm still not sure what the con is. Or the mark."

"The mark is the man in black," Nate declared as he sipped on some coffee, grimaced, and began to load it up with sugar until Sophie took the pot away from him. "He's trying to get his hooks in on Fedorov. I'm sure no one here needs to be told why that's a bad idea, after everything we've seen with Dresden."

"You do not want organized crime and magic mingling. You'll never dig them out, and you'll never win a fight against them again," the wizard confirmed.

"So, we need to show the man in black that Fedorov, that Boston, is not up for grabs. That this is a cookie jar that will take his fingers off if he keeps reaching into it. We're gonna do that by hitting him where it hurts - his public image as an unbeatable force of magic, a master manipulator. We're taking the portrait back."

"In front of a dozen supernatural creatures?!"

"Unless you can invite a few more," the mastermind suggested casually, leaving the wizard gaping at him. "Now, the fact he had an invitation on him means this is not his party, he's a guest at it. So this is probably a variation of a Zanzibar Market, with multiple items being sold. The sheer amount of information we can't access hints that this involves mostly, er, Dresden's sort of people. I would like to know who all the players are, but I'll take whatever we can get. Dresden, can those invitations be reasonably counterfeited?"

Harry shrugged. "Yeah. Other than the tracker it's just fancy paper and ink. Pretty writing. The guest list is the problem."

"The list is the least of our problems," Nate corrected him. "Do you know why there was a crumpled envelope matching one of those invitations in his pocket?" Nate pointed a piece of buttered toast at the bank of screens. "The Christie's man threw it at him."

"He was less than thrilled to be so openly invited to bid on stolen goods," Sophie pointed out with the most delicate undertone of scorn. "The British will buy such items, of course, but they don't like to be reminded of how they've been acquired to begin with. It tarnishes the image of rightful ownership."

"Now, the man in black knows Parker, Eliot, you, Dresden, and me. That means we only have two people for this con. Sophie's going with Fedorov. Get a feel for the guests, see if you can pull a Kennedy Half-Dollar on them."

"Ooo, I do so love a good Half-Dollar game," the grifter declared giddily.

"No unnecessary risks, Sophie." She pouted at him and hid behind her coffee cup. "Parker, Hardison." Nate laced his hands before his face. "The portrait." The table exploded into exclamations, everyone demanding information. "Stop!" the mastermind all but shouted. "Yes, it's probably going to be very publicly displayed. That's the point. It has to disappear in front of everyone there."

Parker suddenly brightened up. "You want us to play his own trick back on him."

"Mm," Nate nodded, and the thief's expression filled with wicked glee. "Hardison, he knows Parker, so you're going in as the new Christie's representative, you'll be Parker's inside man. Dresden."

The wizard looked startled. "Me?"

"Yes. Aside from helping Sophie pass as one of the guests, you're going too."

"I'm - You -" The wizard nearly choked on his orange juice. "You want me, me, to walk into this thing without an invitation."

"Yes."

"They'll recognize me."

"That's the point." Nate pointed a finger. "Eliot's going with you."

"I am?" The hitter sounded dubious.

The mastermind nodded. "He already knows you work with Dresden. And you, you keep bungling whatever it is the man in black's doing, Dresden. I don't need you to do anything, though I do want you to try a few things. I just need you to be there."

Harry paused. "You want his eyes on me," he said slowly as the mastermind's plan came together in his own mind. "Away from what's actually going to be happening. I'm the decoy. You're playing to his paranoia."

"He does seem to be very paranoid, from all Fedorov told us last night."

"And Eliot?"

"You keep getting hurt," Nate said firmly. "That needs to stop."

"Oh, that's been tried," the wizard said wryly. "But alright, give it your best shot." Hesitantly, he added, " Can I suggest a couple of things?"

"Go."

"The ladies from yesterday morning are coming by today to pick up their coats. If their friend's coming with them, you might want to hire him as extra muscle for the auction."

"An outsider?" Sophie protested.

"He won't care what you're doing. You - He's not - You keep thinking of these people as human. They're not. In some cases, like the vampire, like the imp, their motivations run kinda parallel, yes. In this case, if I'm right, they don't. He'll only care that you helped a friend. He'll absolutely care that you're chasing the man in black out of Boston. And he will very much care if you promise him a good chance at a fight."

"You're vouching for someone sight unseen, Dresden," Nate examined the wizard very levelly.

Harry struggled with himself momentarily. "I guess I am."

The mastermind mulled on that for a long moment. "Alright. You and Eliot sort that out. Anything else?"

"Yes. The spider's coming by later to drop off payment. I want to tack a couple of his wife's dresses on it." He glanced at Sophie, then at Parker. "No one's going to be wearing anything that comes even close at that party. Just in case Parker has to join us on the floor, you know?"

Parker gasped in delight. "Is it a magic dress?" When Dresden wouldn't commit to a yes-or-no answer, she snapped at him. "Harry!"

"It's made with magic. It's not magic itself."

She pondered that. "I'll take it."

"And what can you do for me, Harry?" Sophie asked with a smile.

The wizard flustered. "I don't know. I've been wracking my brains for it. Obviously a Veil's the answer, but you're going to be surrounded by some very powerful creatures. The pins would go up in smoke if they so much as breathe in your direction. I can't think of any thing that would hold up under the kind of Veil I'd have to craft for you. It's a lot of energy, it's like Hardison's screens. I'd need something old, something that won't break under the strain."

The table was silent for a long moment, until Sophie spoke once again. "What about a crystal?" she purred. "A crystal with flawless lines. Completely natural, as old as the world. Without a single fracture, without a single imperfection. Unbreakable under pressure."

"I… guess that might work?"

Parker gasped suddenly.

"Parker, can I borrow it?" Sophie asked eagerly.

"Are you going to make my diamond magic?!" she asked Harry with far too much enthusiasm.

"…. Yes?" he offered tentatively.

"Finally!" she cried out, slamming her hands on the table and launching herself away.

TWENTY SEVEN

There was a lot to do before we even got around to the auction. For starters, there was the security around the house, which was purely physical, very modern, and apparently well able to function even with so many magical heavy-hitters around. Hardison and Parker had gone on about it, but as far as I could tell they weren't speaking English. It sounded like it; it just wasn't.

"It's alright," Eliot had assured me quietly while we snuck away to wait for the selkies. "It makes sense to them. That's what matters."

"I still don't know what you people do."

The hitter chuckled low and tipped his chin to the door of the pub. "Get things back for people."

The two selkies came escorted by their friend. As soon as I saw them, I knew I'd been right.

Eliot rose automatically to his feet, his expression hard. "Why'd I just get goosebumps, Harry?"

"Because he's not human," I reminded him. The man was shorter that nearly everyone there but the daughter, his skin copper and indigo ink under a t-shirt and bermuda shorts that barely fit. He wore thin beach flip-flops and was built like the proverbial brickhouse under a layer of comfortable insulation. His eyes were black, and he had a permanent grin that only widened when Sannah snatched her coat from Eliot's hands with a strangled little cry, clinging to it with a white-knuckled grip.

Her mother was far more contained, maybe because she'd probably not believed us when we'd send word that we had both skins. Her fingers plucked gently at the dappled coat and she murmured something rigidly self-controlled in her own language.

Eliot replied in the same tongue, translating for my sake. "It's no problem, ma'am. We're just glad you're gonna be alright, both of you." He dipped his head at both of them, but his smile was brief and didn't show teeth. He was a very quick learner.

She nodded to that, moving to her feet carefully, her daughter by her side. "We go now." Without another word she turned away.

The daughter looked us both up and down. "Guess not all of you suck," she muttered. She shoulder-bumped the man who'd brought them there, who bumped her back amicably, staggering her, and both women walked away.

"What now, Harry?" Eliot asked quietly.

"They'll walk down to the sea and leave." It was the man who replied, a barely perceivable accent to his English. "It's a long time coming." He eyed us both, though he at least did me the courtesy not to linger. "You've done a good thing here. I'm not used to humans doing that."

"You're exceptionally… settled," I pointed out.

To my utter surprise, he laughed. "I like it up here!" he declared cheerfully, grinning at us. His teeth were very white. "It's warm most of the time. The food's good, even when it's bad. No competition. Them, well." He shrugged, glancing at the door. "Some things are just wrong, wizard. If I could have smelled it, I would have hunted down her coat for her a long time ago."

"They're not the only wrong thing in the city right now."

His whole face scrunched up in a grimace. "No. The stink of that one is everywhere, like poison in the water. Maybe I should go home, too. At least for a while. Unless…" He looked at both of us, and his grin turned lopsided and mischievous. "Tell me, wizard. Are you and the human doing something about that, too?"

"We might be," Eliot admitted. "What's it to you?"

The man squared off with him, his face mere inches from Eliot's. I saw the hitter frown minutely, sniffing. I suspected I knew what he was smelling. Salt. Depth. Blood. He didn't budge an inch, but neither did he so much as tense a muscle.

The man laughed in delight and stepped back. "I would wish you luck! It's bound to be a wild ride."

"Ride might have a ticket with your name on it," I suggested when Eliot blinked, confused into speechlessness.

His brows shot up. "Mine? Who told you my name, wizard?"

"Your smell. Your eyes." I considered. "Your lack of shoes."

He groaned and looked down. "Does this ticket require shoes?"

"Yes. But," I assured him, "it's bound to be one hell of a fight."

He got the bright, beaming look of a kid being told he's going to Disneyland. We were told to call him Nick. It fit him about as well as the t-shirt, but I wasn't about to argue with my good luck. He promised to come back when it was time to get ready for the auction and he didn't ask a single question, leaving Eliot even more befuddled.

"Harry, that one," he looked at me levelly while we were going back to the loft. "He eats people, doesn't he."

"And seals, too."

Eliot's mouth worked around too many words, none of which he wanted to put out into the world, not really. "He's… Should I be worried?"

"No. The instruction manual on this one's pretty simple: if there's a fight, get out of his way."

The meeting with the spider went quicker. He came in with his suitcases trailing behind him, and he looked as anxious to be done with us as we were to be done with him. He handed Hardison a brand-new smartphone. "Standard setup, it should be able to do all the things a human phone does." He handed me the two hangers, covered in plain black bags. "I picked two she should not miss. They are not her best, but I hope they are sufficient."

I peeked past the neckline of one of the bags and saw a flash of delicate pink, the color of fresh salmon. "They'll do."

"A pleasure doing business with you," Hardison was doing that thing, where he sounded vaguely British, friendly and threatening at the same time. I had no idea how he was pulling it off, and I would have loved to get him to teach me the trick. The hacker offered his hand.

The spider hesitated, but eventually took it. "Please excuse me. Humans, when I am not in control, they make me nervous."

"Entirely understandable," Hardison replied, and that was wholly Ford he was channeling at that moment, so mild, so potentially lethal. The spider couldn't get out of the pub fast enough.

"You did that on purpose," I told him.

"Hell yeah I did," he agreed with a grin that I couldn't help but return. "I ain't nobody's burger."

I lost track of time while I worked after that. Parker came to get me at the safehouse. Both the window and the garden door had been replaced, and she had some dry-cleaning and a paper bag for me. "Can I see it?" she asked before I could even say 'hello'.

"It's not gonna look any different, you realize."

She scoffed at me and, honestly, what did I know. If someone had told me one day I'd be holding a cut pink diamond the size of one of my knuckles, let alone working a spell into it, I'd have laughed at them while I looked for a quick exit, which is what you should always do when confronted with crazy.

But the Rosalind diamond was exactly that. I know crap-all about gemstones, let's begin there, but I didn't need a formal education to recognize the absolute beauty of the stone. Hell, I didn't need an informal one to know it was one of a kind. Even when I'd looked at it with true sight I'd found no imperfections, no flaws, nothing that might snag or leak or botch the spell I meant to embed into it. Old as the world and completely without fault.

I didn't ask how Parker had gotten it. I may not be a quick learner, but I do learn. Parker offered me the paper bag; it smelled like roasted turkey. "Trade you."

I dismissed my circle and brought the piece of raw silk to the workbench. To be fair, if not because I also had access to some ingredients I would've never been able to afford on my own, I'm not sure I would have attempted the Veil. I uncovered the diamond. In the light of the candles it shone like a fallen star, filling the basement with light.

"You changed it!" Parker exclaimed at once.

I nearly dropped the sandwich she'd brought me. "I did?"

"Yes." She picked it up, silk and all. "It's brighter. It's…" She frowned in puzzlement at the gem. "It's more alive. It speaks louder."

"Uh…"

"It's a thing," she assured me distractedly. "Are you done?"

I pointed out my sandwich.

"Oh, right." She pulled a can out of a pocket and set it next to me.

"Are you nothing but pockets?" I asked her teasingly.

"No. I'm also lockpicks and a taser," she shot right back with that wicked grin, and I nearly choked on the drink. "Is the magic gonna stay in the diamond?"

"Uh, yes and no. It's a nice Veil, probably the best, the strongest I've ever made. And the diamond can hold a lot of energy, much more than I expected. But, the more you use it…"

"The quicker the battery's gonna run out." She sighed, her disappointment obvious.

"You really… You don't care if it's dangerous, or nice, or random, you just like it, don't you? Magic."

"Well, yeah. It makes things make sense."

"It's… Wh- I'm - What?"

"Yeah. Even if you don't understand what's going on, even if it's bad, there's a reason. There's a why. It may be a bad why, but it's a why, you know." She stared at her hands. "Sometimes if you're a kid even a bad reason is worth having. It's better than no reason at all."

"Not everything in the world can be fixed by magic, Parker."

"No, obviously not, or you wouldn't be all beat up," she replied tartly.

"Hey!" I worked on my sandwich some more. "You know, there's a piece of magic you do get to keep forever." Seeing her face light up made everything absolutely worth it. "The dress."

"The dress?"

"The dress."

TWENTY EIGHT

The night of the auction fell warm and breezy, the scent of the Bay a mantle over the city, the Charles lending a kiss of coolness to the river's vicinity. It almost felt like summer in Chicago, except for the salt in the wind and the constant buzz of magic drip-drip-dripping into me. I'd run myself empty preparing everything for the job, and it hadn't made a lick of difference in the long run. I couldn't imagine being a wizard and living permanently in Boston; the city could burn you alive without even trying with its siren's song of unending power.

The auction was taking place in Charlestown, in a gracious manor house tucked out of sight and out of mind among the many newer luxury apartment blocks springing up like mushrooms all over one of the oldest, and wealthiest, of Boston's neighborhoods. The owner, from what any of us had been able to find out, was human. I figured he might be a thrall, either vampiric or fey, but no, the man was just plain ol' human, wealthy and oblivious, like so many could be. In under fifteen minutes Hardison had lined up the family's sins, and while his son had pinged Leverage's radar by dint of being associated with pelt-collecting lawyers, his daughter had hit mine. Or rather, the company she kept while she peddled the family's properties like some sort of supernatural AirB'n'B. While my own field of expertise was limited to the Red Court, and my overall knowledge of the Jade Court was nonexistent, Amethyst Roughan's boyfriend was a known quantity: he was White Court.

"Does she know what she's doing?" Nate had asked.

"Yes and no." I explained. "She knows it's sketchy. She knows it's weird. But depending on how long the vamp's had contact with her, and how much toxin he's doled out, she doesn't care anymore. He's had years with her. At this point all she wants is him. In a biblical fashion."

The mastermind's brows shot up at that. "So she'll side with him."

"Yes. But she's also easy to take out of the game. Hell, you stuff her in a closet and lock the door, and there you have it."

Nate snorted laughter at that. "You sound almost thrilled, Dresden. Glad to have a problem with an easy solution?"

"You have no idea."

And then we had to sort ourselves out according to Ford's plan. Parker took off early. Hardison was doing something to the U-Haul van, I wasn't sure what. Eliot went down to deal with Nick when our improvised bodyguard arrived, and Ford was doing something with Fedorov, -

It crashed into me then, the realization that I had really agreed to do this. That I was going to crash into a party full of deadly monsters. Again. That a counterfeit invitation was going to be involved. Again. That good people were going to be on the line, again.

And all at once I couldn't breathe, no matter how hard I tried. I splashed cold water on my face, for all the good it did. The aftershave was still burning on the nicks the leshy's claws had left on my cheeks, but the rest of me felt colder than ice. I curled my hands into fists and they were still shaking, I couldn't get them to stop, I couldn't -

"Harry." Sophie's hands were warm on mine.

"I can't do this." I sounded like a dying cat, and not the funny cartoon kind.

She made me look at her. Not long enough to trigger a Soulgaze, but I felt it there, lurking far too close. "This isn't just nerves, is it?"

"I've walked into worse traps." I still couldn't catch my breath, it was rattling around in my chest, making funny noises. "I've lost people who walked in with me, expecting me to keep them safe. I don't - I'm not worried about me -"

"Harry," she repeated, her tone a little harder. "We are worried about you. Don't you get it? We aren't walking in with you; you're walking in with us."

"That doesn't change anything."

"It changes everything. You may be going in as Harry Dresden, Professional Wizard, but you aren't the shield and the sword, Harry. You're the pretty princess. The distraction. Listen to me: you wouldn't even have to be a wizard for this, it's just very useful to the con that you are, do you understand?"

God, I wanted to believe her, I did. And the funniest part of it all is that some part of me did believe her. She took the little decorative pin I was supposed to put on my shirt from my hands. They were still shaking, but it wasn't as bad, at least, and I focused on them, on trying to get them to stop.

"We're none of us alone tonight, Harry. Not us, not you. I know you're used to being alone, I was a solo operator for a very long time. It takes time to get used to being part of a team, and time's the one thing we haven't been able to give you. But if you have our backs, and I know you do, we will have yours."

"How do you know I will?"

"Harry, it's you," she replied dryly. "I don't think you know how not to have someone's back.

I did laugh at that. It wasn't much, it sounded terribly rusty even to my own ears, but she'd caught me by surprise and the truth doesn't always hurt. Sometimes it just tickles your funny bone.

And then I made the mistake of looking up, thinking she'd have looked to make sure she didn't stab me with the pin thing.

The darkness was warm and velvety, and it was full of mirrors.

Some were big, the size of a person. Some were slivers, no bigger than one of my fingers. Some stuck close at hand to one another, piece by piece assembling a larger whole. Sophie was there, at the center of it all, but I couldn't see her, couldn't see the truth of her, mirrors whirling sedately between her and me, obscuring the truth of her. She directed them all with little gestures and grand sweeps of her hand, as if they were books she were organizing into a vast, endless library. Some parts of her were reflective, as if she'd once been nothing but a mirror herself. But for the most part she was real, solid, as confident and beautiful as the woman in the loft with me.

Then the image of her gasped and flicked her fingers at me, and she broke the Soulgaze before I could.

I staggered back, more out of shock that she'd done that than anything else. I could still feel the warmth of her, the sheer and enveloping caring. Sophie Deveraux had a thousand faces at her disposal, and a thousand more ready to be created, and in the midst of it all she still knew herself, knew who she was with the sort of awareness even some immortals couldn't manage.

And who she was truly cared. Cared for her family, her friends. Me.

"Oh, Harry." Before I could even begin to feel guilt or shame about what she might have seen in me, she'd hugged me tight. Not gonna lie, I've fantasized a time or three over a gorgeous woman getting so close to me. At the moment, that fantasy was the last thing in my mind. Then she pulled away and said the words I least expected. "You're a good man, Harry Dresden."

She couldn't have taken the breath out of me any more thoroughly if she'd punched me. "I'm glad…" My throat felt funny, my voice didn't want to work. I cleared it up so I could sound as manly as I damn well was. "I'm glad one of us believes that."

"One of us absolutely does," she told me, perfectly balanced between stern and playful, and put her hand out. I gave her the ear clip, though my hands weren't shaking anymore, thank goodness. "Let's work on the other, shall we."

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Chat: He's scrolling real fast lol

Chat: nice nips

Chat: Here till I see a tear <- that person has been there from the BEGINNING. They are really committed to seeing him cry 😭 tumblr moots... did we find ur twitch or smthin🤨?

Left boob flinching again. I hate it here.

NAW NOW THE RIGHT IS MOVING TOO??? omg. Somebody tell him they'll donate 100 twitch incentive thingies whatever they are ONLY IF Sauce does the boobie dance like Dwayne the rock johnson

Sauce has like a ring light, u can see it reflect on the TV. Influencer queen

Sauce leaves screen to munch or he got self-conscious of his titty jig, chat worries if he's gonna cut the stream off

K, audibly munching hot cheetos somewhere off in the distance: he ain't cuttin it off 😐🙂

Chat: AHMAD DONT END THIS STREAM

IMMA COME FIND YOU !

DON'T YOU DARE

(They're seething😭 the sadists)

Sauce trying to be grateful for the subs but it's hard lol 'ppreciate the uhh..'*starts dancing to new york music with roll of seal*

Around 19:00 he starts dancing and looks like a pigeon

20:30 he's talking about the other tat he's getting already while his muscles are still twitching in pain. Sauce. Go to bed 😭 man he probably can't with all that pain.

He's still holding up the tat drawing waiting for people to say 'W's but instead all the chats doing is talking about his toes

Cut to him and the neck tattoo again

22:40 Sg: ayy you owe me uhhh a bluerade & *idk wtf he said here*

K: wth u mean bro 🤨?

Sg: haha im kiddin im good im good 🤭🤭

Kyle talks about his appreciation for the chat, getting hyped from everyone saying W tattoo AWW he's so sweet

Chat: I know that wipedown b hurtin

Sauce: THAT WHAT IM SAYIN!! That wipedown def be hurtin 😫!!

K: sorry :(

Tatman picks camera up to look at the masterpiece he left on sauce's neck (🤨)

27:58, K: mhm 🙂

Sauce's neck fuckin. Convulses and he moans and gets up lol, Tatman has to move the camera to find him. Unappreciative ghoul 😭

He sits up and just kind of dissociates. Long silence. GOD HIS BOOBS ARE MOVING CRAZY. LIKE IN SEPARATE WAYS. IT'S LITERALLY TERRIFIYING

THE MIC KEEPS CUTTING IN AND OUT NOOOOO but basically sauce is like ' they talkin shit bout me 😔? Ughhh' and kyle comes over and says something and sauce smiles

30:05: Sg: yeah that shit gonna hurt <- said with blissed out in pain smile

Sg: hol on-THE CAMERAS TILTED--(makes feeble attempt to fix it. Realizes muscles and skin are experiencing the seven layers to hell.) Nvm i guess it's all good- (lmfao)

K: *tries to help fix it for him anyways* (OK Gregory abbott elementary.. I see u)

Sg: it's all good :) (expression is that of a dying man fighting his demons) (compulsive desire to be in control) *shoots constant worried looks at the camera*

Sauce ends up getting up anyways to fix the mic situation 🙄 like thanks but can u just let this beautiful malewife take care of u DAMMMN!! stubborn ass 😑.

I THINK IT'S KYLE but someone just gently slides their phone in front of our face again to show us some cool image/tattoo I think maybe? It reminds me of the Muppets, the movement he made. It's so funny, I feel like a baby. He's pointing to shit but I can't hear him

Sg: yeah it's definitely fire 😫 <- on the verge of collapse

Sg: CHAT I DONT KNOW HOW TO BREATHE

Chat: it's still choppy (it is)

Sg: ??? IT'S STILL CHOPPY 😦?!??!?? (YES!!)

Sg: .... i think it's only choppy for You 😒🙄. (His instant victim blaming)

IT'S STILL CHOPPY!!! but now some of the chat is gaslighting him that the others are gaslighting him, im sick

Some mod Don asks Sauce how much a tat costs. Sauce suggests Don text tatman and tatman might give him a lil discount cus he's a friend of a friend. He gives tatman his best seductive heehee sauce look. .....i don't think tatman is going to give Don a discount.

Sg: he said tell him im using code sauce for 25 percent off 😹

K: 😐

Sg: 😥

Sg: just lemme know when you're ready to- (blow my back out. The mic cut off when he said that tho but trust me. He said that)

Sg: chat said don't end the live 😹 easy, im not gonna end the-

[VIDEO ENDS]

taking lil notes on the sauce getting a tat stream.... will be reblogging with more bcs this video is fucking long as shit plus with me always pausing to write whatever nonsense i find funny? yea, idk if ill be able to get thru this all lmao 😭 but yea this will just be lil blurbs rewritten n commented on as i watch on one device and take notes on another like a lil movie major or smthin LMAO. To shorten typing time, Sauce will be SG and tat man will just be K as his real name is Kyle. ok? ok

SG, impatient & cocky, trying to show out 4 the stream like a little loser: ay cmon bruh im ready 😤!!🤘🏿 *goes to lay down on the jets styled?? tatting bed??? idk what that is i don't get tats.. i just know they probably fucked on it cus sauce winced when he had to sit down LMAO. went from ay bruh im ready to EUAGH 😫!! Eh 😣😖!! in a millisecond LMFAO*

K: *checks himself out on camera for a split second*

K: *very polite to the stream's viewing. Apparently has never streamed or got an audience up close n personal during his tat sessions. Only shows the before and after photos so this is a new but very fun experience for him. aww, so cute <3 sauce getting him to try new things!!!! He's nervous about getting the best angles for us and he's always trying his best to please!! ( he's so service top it's Mad. it's MADDENIN!!! ) Sauce dramatic diva demanding hot n s*x fierce reporter mean fake bitch and his quiet polite and personable yet professionally firm, keeping sauce in line when he needs to fulltime cameraman part time bodyguard when the situation gets unexpectedly (or expectedly. Not everyone has Tat man's insanely loyal patience with sauce...) hostile WHEN??? Slowburn We're just workers/he's just my minion to ........... don't ask why we came out of the same bathroom at the same time STFU ?? HELLO??? TAT MAN!!!*

Chat: cook up kyle

Kyle: !! :] !! yea 😺!! im boutta cook 🥰 (HE KEEPS GETTING SO SWEETLY HYPED UP FROM SAUCES LIL AUDIENCE. IT'S SO CUTE LOL)

1:05 (around there idk none of these time stamps will be any accurate bcs i pause late after realizing smthin was funny then guestimate where it started so sorry :( ): sauce walking his big b00bies up in our face jumpscare :/ . To help Kyle zoom the camera per his chats demands. He lowkey high key very anxious and micromanaging abt kyle using his camera equipment lol. He just loves telling people what to do but also that shit is probably very expensive. But cmon sauce. Kyle the cameraman's got it!!! HE EVEN HAS THE PERFECT CAMERAMAN NAME LIKE?? Let him take care of you bbygirl ..😼

Sauce once again (a bit more gingerly this time) sits himself on his jets style seat thing and let's out a little cry of pain when his ass hits it??? sauce these bttm allegations are BEATING ur ASS lmao????

Kyle does what sauce was about to do for him and sauce kinda :/// >:( 😰😰😠. Sauce try to go five seconds without micromanaging challenge impossible. Complains about chat being able to see his facial expressions being too close up now and how he won't be able to fuck with Kyle no more cus of it cus they'll make shit is weird. Kyle simply responds ' That's love 🙂. '

Sauce goads the chat asking if he should end stream. Kyle at first thinks maybe he isn't cameramanning right and gets a little nervous/sad at disappointing sauce but quickly catches onto the strategy and joins in on the bait. The chat take it with a chorus of Nos. Girlboss sauce malewife Tat man media powercouple ftw?

2:58, K: wait turn ur head a lil bit? *Sauce looks at him* no, other way *sauce looks away, exposing neck to him and pre-ink*

K admires his work. Shows it off to the chat, tells them he's getting them right. Zooms in on sauce's neck

SOMEBODY SAID 'L NIPPLE' IN THE CHAT WHAT???? Chat language is so.... beautiful 😭

'Stop being a lil girl take the pain like a man'????? Yall sure this is twitch and not p*rnhub ??? tf?

Kyle zooms in. Chat: "glad to get the nipple off the page" HELP. my thoughts exactly

Kyle tries hiding sauces face with his zooms bcs he knows sauce was self conscious about his expressions lmao. Chat, instantly, and these are different people too. Everyone is a sadist here apparently. My kinda people 😼: 'WE NEED TO SEE HIS FACE FR' 'HIS FACE BRO WE NEED TO SEE HIS FACE' 'WE NEED TO SEE HIS FACE IF HE CRIES'

3:38 Sauce, reading the chat bcs if he doesn't have attention that he can feel for five seconds he explodes and dies: is my face in there ? <- literally just whined about not wanting his face seen bcs he'd get weird comments and ruin his very heterosexual very platonic relationship with tat man. But is now turning his whole tune around for some shred of people pleasing attention omg 🙄 poo fimbly 😑

K: nah they be clownin 😿.. *just wants to protect him*

Sauce agrees a bit then quickly changes subject to compliment himself.

Sauce notices camera needs shifting so he tries but Kyle's on it before he can. Sauce keeps trying anyways until eventually the needles settle him slougish

5:10 chat tells them to zoom out but sauce defends his cameraman: AINT NO ZOOM OUT 😾😾!! HE TRYNA GIVE YOU THE UPCLOSE LOOKS !!

Kyle zooms out anyways

Sauce whines about his nipple lol

Sg: yall weird af 😑 Yall tryna see my nipple or smthin 🤨? *incredulous look to camera*

K: FREE THE NIP!!!!! <- reading off chat, sadly

THE CHAT BULLIED HIM INTO HIDING HIS BOOBS LMAO. He got a blanket 😭 so now he's gonna be with another man... while under a blanket ? um. sauce I think this is pretty lose lose if u ask me .

Kyle wearing those black tattoo gloves gently touching sauces neck.... soft dom and not even trying to hide it 🤨?

Chat: stop moaning 😐

Sauce: my bad bruh 😔

Someone: get the tissues ready (????)

Sg: in da trenches 😼. in da trenches 😼

Someone in chat: sauce do u like when men fuck u? ( 🤔.. it's a fair ask 😳.)

Chat: the right side of my neck hurted the most (average sauce fan iq, im afraid )

Chat: SAUCE BABY START TWERKING

( now im just finding funny chat stuff cus all sauce doing rn is trying to not cry by randomly singing along to the music and kyle is working)

Chat trying to plot lies on kyle by spamming kyle messed up smthin so sauce can get worried lmao

9:40: around there, maybe a bit later, sauce starts groaning and cursing more

Chat: Sauce is it hard

Sauce asks how many people watching bcs u know he looooves an audience. Kyle doesn't know how to check so he has to stop and ask the chat

Kyle: Seven- ..... 776? 800? a thousand? man idk :(. yall play too much >:( yall play too damn much 🙄! ... i fuck with yall tho >:)

Chat trying to gaslight sauce into thinking Kyle's actually tatting a dick on his neck

I've been skipping or doing other stuff during some of the tatting. Sauce got up to try and figure out some twitch function? Mic suppression? idk. He lowkey stalling lol.

Kyle starts asking what the chat been saying around 31:40, curious.

Sauce and Kyle mumble to songs internmentedly lol

33:25 around there kyle raps to a song he rlly likes. Sauce adlibs it's cute

PAUSING THIS AT 35:10. We basically got an hour left in this jawn. YALL WE WATCHED ALOT IM PROUD!!!! OK im leaving this here for now, reblogging l a ter maybe even finishing it idk? I just need this shit sent cus im a lil nervous if it'll even load... this was a lotta work 😭 all for tatman and sauce interactions damn... ion even know this man's last name .. i need to go do strong people things now BYE see yall soon hopefully

#WE'RE DONE!!!@@@!@#.....with this video anyways #DAMMIT. I KNEW SMTHIN WAS MISSING FUCK #TATMAN STILL HAD TO BLOW SAUCES BACK OUT WTFFFF #thats why i sat THRU this WHOLE TING #ugh i think the actual is 2 hours n smthin #WHICH LIKE #I HAD A FEELING #but im bad with numbers 😭#man #whatever 😭#sauce #ted longer #sauceman #thats tatman and sauces new shipname #tell ur friends

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sunsetsareformuggingz · 3 years ago

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I really don't understand this issue that some younger My Chem fans seem to have with fans in there 20's, 30's & even 40's. They see it as totally normal and acceptable for teens, even tweens to be obsessed with a band that broke up when they were in kindergarten, thirsting over men old enough to be their fathers - but when fans who were around from the beginning or at the peak of their popularity still love the band just as much they call it cringe or embarrassing. "You're an adult, don't you have better things to do than be on Tumblr?"

Yes, I am an adult. Do I have better things to do? Let's be honest - we all have better things to do. But I'll let you in on a secret: you don't stop liking things when you become an adult! I know, I was just as surprised as you. Just because you grow up doesn't mean you are no longer allowed to like what you liked 20 years ago. Did you eat peanut butter & jelly as a kid? If someone told you now you couldn't because "aren't you supposed to be an adult?" Would you want to punch them in the face for saying something so dumb? Me too. One of the biggest messages the guys pushed was knowing you fit in somewhere, that you weren't alone. So when you act like we don't belong you are doing exactly the sort of thing they were fighting against. Gerard would be very disappointed, just saying.

We are all here because we appreciate the same thing. We all have some sort of connection to this band that makes us want to find other people like us so we can talk about it and get excited about it. I don't give a fuck how old you are. So for those of you young My Chem fans that think being an adult means doing taxes, buying life insurance and planning your funeral, I feel sorry for you - and I hope when you become an adult you still choose to enjoy this "idea" as much as I still do.

#rant #my chemical romance #my chem #mcr #fans are fans

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crispys-laptop · 4 years ago

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aeonian (h.h.j)

genre: fluff, angst, immortal au

word count: 1.4k

~warning: mentions of death, character death

Network tag: @stayverse

a/n: thanks to @blueprint-han for the banner and helping me with this fic. I swear if it's not for you, it wouldn't turn out this good 🥺🥺 (and I come back to tumblr :3)

The first time you saw him was when he stepped inside the cafe that you worked at. His presence was enough to captivate people, their gazes lingering on his form as he walked past them and went to the counter.

"One cup of Americano, please."

His order was simple. Just a cup of Americano. He ordered the same thing the next day. Until it became a routine. He would walk into the cafe and come up to you. You would be ready with his usual order. You both exchanged smiles, you being too shy to start a conversation.

"I think he likes you." Your co-worker would say, giggling.

You shook your head at her ridiculous statement, continuing your work as you felt his gaze on you, watching you intently.

A few weeks later, you mustered up enough courage to talk to him. As you made way timidly towards his table, your heart beating frantically, fearing his reaction.

"Excuse me? You come around a lot but I haven't caught your name yet. Mine's Y/N and I just hope we can be friends?"

His smile was beautiful. Too beautiful to be human. Yet his eyes were carrying something, like sadness and longing but you couldn't pinpoint it.

"The name is Hyunjin. Nice to meet you."

"Why do you keep coming to our café even though it's miles away from your place?"

Hyunjin looked up from his cup to stare at you, lips lifting in a smile. He pushed the cup away from him, finger drumming on the table as you waited for him to answer.

"Your coffee is delicious. They remind me of someone. That's all."

You frowned at his answer. Hyunjin seems to notice that you were not satisfied with his answer yet he didn't say anything.

"Why don't you ask that person to make your coffee then? Did you guys fight or something?

You asked, absentmindedly stirring your coffee. Hyunjin went quiet for a while before opening his mouth.

"She died a few years ago."

You stopped stirring, guilt starting to fill your being. You grabbed his outstretched hand, nearly knocking the cups over.

"I'm sorry. That's rude of me. I don't mean to bring that up." "It's okay."

Hyunjin smiled lightly, patting your hand as you kept on apologizing. You eventually picked up your head to look into his eyes, fighting back his gaze.

A wave of nostalgia suddenly hit you. You didn't know why but his eyes seem familiar somehow. Like you already saw them before.

"Y/N? Are you there?"

You jerked out from your trance as Hyunjin waved his hand in front of your face. He looked worried.

"I'm okay. It's just I think I remember something when I stared into your eyes." "Oh. That's good."

And the next day, he didn't come back.

People think being immortal must be nice. You won't die. You won't get hurt. You could live for so long and you won't ever get old. It's a way of avoiding death, the thing that people feared so much.

But not for Hyunjin. If he had to choose, he chooses death.

For starters, he needs to see all his loved ones die with his own eyes and it will continue to haunt his memory forever. He can't stay in one area for a long time just in case anyone noticed him. No matter how much the town means to him, he had moved away to avoid causing a ruckus.

He needs to change his identity often which is the only way so people won't recognize him and sell him out. He hates being immortal.

Not to mention, it's hard for him to fall in love. Hyunjin has been falling in love with the same person every time for 400 years now. No matter how much you changed over time, he still falls for you.

It hurts to see you falling in love, getting married, having kids, and hearing you passed away. He could have approached you yet he knows he won't stand a chance with you and the thought of seeing you dying hurts him.

Yet, this was the first time you approached him first. He still looks after you from time to time, helping you in secret if you have ever been in trouble and it surprised him when you approached his table shyly, asking to be friends.

And so Hyunjin agreed.

But when she started to remember a little bit from her past life, Hyunjin knew it was time for him to flee. He couldn't risk you remembering him. As much as he hated to leave, Hyunjin knew it was for the best.

For 40 years, he lived alone, far away from your city. He suppressed his desire to see you, to know if you're doing good, to find out if you got over him.

Until one day, he couldn't take it anymore. So he went back to your city, just to watch you from afar. Seeing you after all these years, still smiling brightly while running the little cafe, made him feel relieved to see you doing so well without him.

He was surprised to find out you still didn't get married yet, like your other past life. Until he found out you were still waiting for him and you already knew the fact about him being immortal.

Turned out, Hyunjin stupidly left his sketchbook, the one where he keeps all his sketches of Y/N from her different life after their last encounter together. And it seems like she pieced it together to form a conclusion that he's immortal.

And so Hyunjin decided to come back. This time, to stay until your very last breath.

The bell on the door chimed merrily as someone stepped inside the cafe. You picked up your head from the old cash register, smiling at the person in front of you.

His presence, as always, drew people in to look at him, gaping at his figure. Even after 40 years, he still had that dazzling smile on his face.

"You didn't change much, Hyunjin." "And you aged beautifully, Y/N"

You chuckled slowly, shaking your head as tears collected at the brim of your eyes. Hyunjin helped you to get out from the counter, his hand gripping yours tightly.

"I may be old but I'm not fragile yet."

You mumbled as Hyunjin fussed over you, asking if you were comfortable. You sighed, smiling, a bit amused at his antics. You pulled his hand to sit next to you. Smiling, he held your hand tenderly, as your tears once again flooded the brim of your eyes.

"I missed you."

As the noises from the background faded into silence, you focused solely on Hyunjin as he did the same, the feeling of longing evaporated as you both basked in each other's presence, letting out the yearning for each other.

"Me too, Hyunjin. Me too."

Hyunjin took one last look at the graveyard, focusing on your tomb. He watched as your close ones went back along with him. His mind flew back to the last conversation you had with him yesterday before you passed away in your sleep.

"I'll try to remember you in my next life."

Hyunjin smiled as he fixed your blanket gently, patting your hand. You smiled back as his hand intertwined both of your hands together.

"Don't bother, Y/N. It's never gonna work."

You chuckled but it was quickly cut off with a cough. Hyunjin quickly handed her some water as he helped her sit up on the bed. You waved his hand away as the cough subsided, shaking your head.

"We just need a miracle, Hyunjin. If I can remember you after our last encounter 40 years ago, why won't I remember the next time we meet?"

You reached out to your nightstand and took out his sketchbook, handing it to him. Hyunjin reluctantly accepted it, feeling a bit lost.

"If you show me that sketchbook in my next life, I'm sure I'll remember. After all, I won't forget the person who draws me so beautifully like that."

You chuckled as Hyunjin flipped through the pages. He nodded.

"Now let's get you to sleep. It's late."

That night, Hyunjin drew you while you were sleeping peacefully with a smile on your face as you breathed your last air.

He gripped the sketchbook tightly in his grasp, willing himself not to cry. He let out a watery smile as he walked away from the graveyard, promising himself to do what you told him to do before.

Except, you were never reborn.

#stayverse #skz x reader #stray kids imagines #skz fluff #stray kids x reader #stray kids fluff #skz angst #skz au #skz scenarios #skz hyunjin #skz headcanons #skz hyunjin fluff #skz hyunjin scenarios #hyunjin fluff #hyunjin angst #hyunjin fanfic

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mbrainspaz · 3 years ago

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okay I didn't expect 'Spider-Man: Valley of the Lizard' to be high quality literature but by the hoary host of hoggoth--

I'm a little under half-way through and so far 80% of it feels like a sheltered 40 y o white guy's travel blog from the late 90's and the syntax alone makes me want to scream.

Yet I keep on reading. Chalk it up to morbid fascination and a dash of masochism. If you ever wanted an absolutely perfect picture of why various writing 'rules' like "don't use so many gosh-darn adverbs" exist, check this badboy out babey. *slaps roof of audiobook* It's a masterpiece production of What Not To Write in almost every way.

To be fair the main reason I'm cringing so hard is because I used to make all these mistakes and hearing them from someone else is really just slapping me in the face with how badly I used to write. Okay, how badly I still write... sometimes.

Here's my main takeaway so far--

DON'T TREAT YOUR READERS LIKE IDIOTS, IDIOT !!!!

Don't slap readers in the face with descriptors and other info that could've been implicit. Don't repeat the same plot points a dozen times by rephrasing them without adding any new info. Don't use five different names for the same thing in a single paragraph--call a lizard a lizard! Don't tell readers how to feel by overstating POV character reactions. Make them feel it by writing. Hey, take it easy on the 11th grade vocab words too, especially during fight scenes.

and uh, lay off the 'noble savage' trope I guess but hopefully that's less of a problem for anyone reading this on tumblr in 2021.

✨ Weird audiobook reader tangent below the cut. ✨

The non-writing related thing that's been bugging me is that the audiobook reader sounds like he has a north-western American accent. Pretty sure it's the same guy who read the Spider-Man book by Jim Butcher (the reason I started down this grim literary spider-man rabbit hole). Couldn't get a New Yorker to voice Spider-Man---FINE, but jeeze guys, at least get another British guy who can fake a decent north-eastern American accent! If I hear Peter Parker pronounce 'won' as 'waahn' one more time I'm gonna let a horse step on my headphones.

POST GOOGLING ADDITION TO THE ACCENT TANGENT: The reader is some guy named Tim Paige who read the book in 2020 and apart from the distracting accent he does great. His Twitter says he's living in NY so I'm willing to consider that I may not know what a New York accent actually sounds like... but I swear it doesn't sound like that???? Different guy did Jim Butcher's but they have the same accent, which is somehow more concerning. ONE MORE GOOGLE LATER: Okay yeah Jack Meloche who read the Jim Butcher one is from Michigan, so that tracks with the vaguely Canadian sounding vowels. On some level I'm right to be annoyed lol. Tim Paige definitely doesn't do a New York City accent. I guess Syracuse is far enough north that people sound like Canadians up there too. I wouldn't know, I've never been farther north than NYC. 🤷 I also found out 'Valley of the Lizard' was written in 1998. The way they talk about cell phones would've given it away if describing Corpus Christi as a quaint rural town hadn't. If you're wondering what Spider-Man is doing in Corpus Christi, he isn't. It's Dr. Connors. Why is he there? To write a dull & culturally ignorant travel blog apparently. K bye. Back to slowly dying of facepalming. Cheers pals.

#writing #writing advice #taking notes #talking to myself #accents #american accents #voice acting is hard #spider-man #MCU #spider-man eu #personal problems #a review nobody asked for #valley of the lizard

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indierockandroll · 5 years ago

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Answer all the cute questions because you're all the cute

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? Link

2. Are you outgoing or shy? Shy 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? I dunno... Link. He’s downstairs. 4. Are you easy to get along with? Probably not. 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? Maybe 6. What kind of people are you attracted to? Cats 7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? Link 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Depends. 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? My boss. 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? “Me too.” 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? El Farol by Santana, Miracle Aligner by The Last Shadow Puppets, It’s Alright by Mother Mother, Tu es ma came by Carla Bruni, Tightrope by LP, and that is five. 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? Depends. 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? No. 15. What good thing happened this summer? Summer starts tomorrow. 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? My mom? I guess. 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? I hope so. 18. Do you still talk to your first crush? No. 19. Do you like bubble baths? fuck yes 20. Do you like your neighbors? No 21. What are you bad habits? Ordering coffee from GrubHub for like $18 just to get it delivered to work. 22. Where would you like to travel? London, England. 23. Do you have trust issues? Yes 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Snuggling with the cats. 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? My legs. 26. What do you do when you wake up? Snooze the alarm. 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? Lighter 28. Who are you most comfortable around? My mom 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? Yes 30. Do you ever want to get married? I don’t know 31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? Yes 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? James Mercer, Billy Joel, Beyonce, uhh there is a list. 33. Spell your name with your chin. mkjoityghyswedjh 34. Do you play sports? What sports? No 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Yes 37. What do you say during awkward silences? nothing, I keep them awkward silences. 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? Sweet, likes sticks and rolling in the grass, loves long walks, enjoys watching birds and cars and barks and is named Link and is furry. 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? Grocery ones. 40. What do you want to do after high school? ????? I am doing after high school now. 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? No. 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? I’m happy? 43. Do you smile at strangers? Yes 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Space 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? Work 46. What are you paranoid about? Being disliked 47. Have you ever been high? Yes 48. Have you ever been drunk? Yes 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? Not particularly 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? Purple 51. Ever wished you were someone else? Every day 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? My insanity 53. Favourite makeup brand? Bare Minerals 54. Favourite store? Wegmans 55. Favourite blog? TBD 56. Favourite colour? Purple 57. Favourite food? Tofu and rice 58. Last thing you ate? Tofu and rice 59. First thing you ate this morning? Tofu and rice, at 4pm 60. Ever won a competition? For what? Baking/cake decorating 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? No 62. Been arrested? For what? No 63. Ever been in love? yes 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? I was 14 65. Are you hungry right now? No, i want beer 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? No I don’t have tumblr friends :( 67. Facebook or Twitter? Neither 68. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblr 69. Are you watching tv right now? No 70. Names of your bestfriends? Amanda, Erinn, Julie 71. Craving something? What? Beer 72. What colour are your towels? All kinds of colours 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? Three 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Not anymore 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? a lOT 75. Favourite animal? Cat 76. What colour is your underwear? Gold 77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? I like mint chip 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? Light turquoise 80. What colour pants? Black with white constellations 81. Favourite tv show? ATM Good Omens was a topper 82. Favourite movie? V for Vendetta 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Mean Girls 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Mean Girls 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? Damian 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Bubbles maybe 87. First person you talked to today? Mom 88. Last person you talked to today? mom 89. Name a person you hate? I don’t hate anyone 90. Name a person you love? I love my cats 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? Yes 92. In a fight with someone? No 93. How many sweatpants do you have? A lot 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? A lot 95. Last movie you watched? Restraint 96. Favourite actress? Margot Robbie is nice, I like her and I like Inbar Lavi 97. Favourite actor? Hugo Weaving, Keanu Reeves, Tom Hiddleston, David Tennant 98. Do you tan a lot? No 99. Have any pets? Yes 100. How are you feeling? uncertain 101. Do you type fast? Yes 102. Do you regret anything from your past? Some things 103. Can you spell well? Yes 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? Yes 105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Yes 106. Ever broken someone’s heart? Probably 107. Have you ever been on a horse? Yes 108. What should you be doing? All kinds of things 109. Is something irritating you right now?Yes 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? Yes 111. Do you have trust issues? Yes 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? My cat 113. What was your childhood nickname? Morgie 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Yes 115. Do you play the Wii? Not anymore 116. Are you listening to music right now? Yes 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? No, vegan. 118. Do you like Chinese food? YES GIMME THAT SHIT 119. Favourite book? I don’t even know anymore 120. Are you afraid of the dark? A bit 121. Are you mean? I try not to be 122. Is cheating ever okay? No. 123. Can you keep white shoes clean? I TRY 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? No 125. Do you believe in true love? No 126. Are you currently bored? No 127. What makes you happy? Nothing 128. Would you change your name? Yes 129. What your zodiac sign? Gemini 130. Do you like subway? Yes? 131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Kill him 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? My... boss... 133. Favourite lyrics right now? “It’s alright, it’s okay, it’s alright, it’s okay, you’re not a monster, you’re a human, and you’ve made a few mistakes.” 134. Can you count to one million? Yeah 135. Dumbest lie you ever told? Dunno? 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? Open 137. How tall are you? a few above 5 138. Curly or Straight hair? I have both 139. Brunette or Blonde? I have reddish brown 140. Summer or Winter? Winter 141. Night or Day? night 142. Favourite month? May 143. Are you a vegetarian? Yes, vegan. 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Dark 145. Tea or Coffee? Coffee 146. Was today a good day? Not a terribly bad one 147. Mars or Snickers? Neither 148. What’s your favourite quote? Unsure 149. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? No books nearby, all downstairs.

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dibidibidismol · 6 years ago

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For the Anon who wanted me to answer all the questions: I hope you're happy.

— 1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

A Baby named orlo

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Depends on the situation

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

My bestest friend and I have a shopping date soon!

4. Are you easy to get along with?

Probably not. I dunno.

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Yeah, probably.

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

People who use she/her pronouns.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Probably not.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

Byun Baekhyun.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

No.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

A group of close friends.

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“Great!”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Expect by Girls Day

Eternity by VIXX

Tried to Walk by B1A4

Sorry by The Rose

Closer by Oh My Girl

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

So long as they don't tangle it.

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

I believe in chance.

15. What good thing happened this summer?

I got a scholarship to a programme I applied for! Met some new friends!

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Hell yeah. A sweet baby gave me a smooch. Baby kisses are the best.

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

I think it's a possibility.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

They moved far far away.

19. Do you like bubble baths?

Not really.

20. Do you like your neighbors?

Yeah, I babysit for them sometimes.

21. What are your bad habits?

I'm a sucker for my dog. I give him too many treats.

22. Where would you like to travel?

I'm not much of a traveler but I hear Portland Oregon is nice this time of year.

23. Do you have trust issues?

Probably?

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Afternoon Tumblr, Spotify and Tea time.

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

My nose.

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Do my daily language learning sessions and wash my face.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

Lighter

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My dog and/or friends.

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Hahahahahahaha No.

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Yes.

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

Yep.

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

I'm Demi, and don't know any celebrities.

33. Spell your name with your chin.

Done.

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

I've done a lot of basketball and a bit of track and field.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

I don't watch much T.V anyways.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Story of my life.

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

When in doubt talk about the weather.

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

She/her pronouns, actually reciprocates my affections, ace/demi friendly, not allergic to dogs, fluent in English, mildly intelligent, has a compatible sense of humor, not abusive.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

Target, H-mart, Costco,

40. What do you want to do after high school?

College and Law school

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Not everyone, but most people.

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

I’m tired, thinking, or listening to music.

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Unless they're giving off bad vibes.

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Outer space. I have a fear of the deep ocean.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

Devotion to my dog.

46. What are you paranoid about?

Germs, skin cancer, the deep ocean, my friends not loving themselves enough, everyone I know secretly disliking me, etc.

47. Have you ever been high?

On caffeine.

48. Have you ever been drunk?

On life.

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Yes. But I'm telling y'all anyways. (My dog was giving me sad eyes so I gave him a treat. And then another. And another. And another. So he ended up having like half the bag.)

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Black

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Oh yeah. I've been jealous of many of my friends. They're all so attractive and funny and smart and I'm just kinda there.

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

I wish I was more intelligent.

53. Favourite makeup brand?

I don't wear enough makeup to be able to differentiate between the brands.

54. Favourite store?

I like Eastern Asian grocery stores and Target.

55. Favourite blog?

My absolute favorite recently deleted, but my current favourites are @homosexo-l @ot-nine and @queerfictionwriter

56. Favourite colour?

Black, Crimson, and shades of purple.

57. Favourite food?

Right now I'm a big fan of carrots.

58. Last thing you ate?

An egg and roasted mushroom on a hamburger bun.

59. First thing you ate this morning?

Fruit and protein smoothie with whole grain toast.

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

I’ve won a couple basketball related things, a handful of academic awards, speech tournaments, and a few other things I'm forgetting.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

When I was really young (7 or 8) I was suspended for taking the cookie sprinkles from the class cabinet and distributing them amongst our classmates.

62. Been arrested? For what?

Nope.

63. Ever been in love?

Yeah. It sucks.

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

We both leaned in. *smooch*

65. Are you hungry right now?

I'm hungry for Love and Affection.

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

Nah. I love my real friends a lot.

67. Facebook or Twitter?

I don't have either.

68. Twitter or Tumblr.

Tumblr.

69. Are you watching tv right now?

I don't really watch TV.

70. Name of your bestfriend?

Mira

71. Craving something? What?

Craving love and affection. Also garlic eggplant.

72. What colour are your towels?

White.

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Four big ones plus eightish throw pillows plus five pillow pets.

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

They have their own corner of my room.

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

60? I have a ton of tiny ones.

75. Favourite animal?

My dog.

76. What colour is your underwear?

Black and Pink.

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Chocolate.

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

Banana.

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

Black.

80. What colour pants?

Black.

81. Favourite tv show?

I don't really watch TV but I like Ask us Anything/Knowing Bros and I liked Weekly Idol pre-current MC line up. I also like the Great British Baking show.

82. Favourite movie?

Tangled

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Mean girls? I haven't seen pt2.

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

Mean girls? I haven't seen 21 jump street.

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

I don't really remember the characters, but I think I liked the teacher.

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

Dory!

87. First person you talked to today?

My dog.

88. Last person you talked to today?

See above. :)

89. Name a person you hate?

Donald J. Trump

90. Name a person you love?

Amber Liu!

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

Donald J. Trump

92. In a fight with someone?

My mother.

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

95. Last movie you watched?

The Lorax

96. Favourite actress?

I dunno. I don't watch a lot of TV.

97. Favourite actor?

See above.

98. Do you tan a lot?

I would if I didn't stay inside so much or if I were to lay off the sunscreen.

99. Have any pets?

I have a dog. He’s the bestest. I could go on about him for hours...

100. How are you feeling?

I'm a little tired but my dog is here next to me so I'm good.

101. Do you type fast?

I'm alright on an actual keyboard, but touch screens slow me down a lot.

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

I regret having picked the wrong Duolingo chest and only getting one Lingot instead of five.

103. Can you spell well?

My initial guess tends to be correct, but I tend to doubt my spelling capabilities and confuse myself over wether or not I was correct.

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

I miss the group of people who I went to school with for seven plus years. We were used to each other and it's hard to replicate that camaraderie.

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Nah.

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Hahahahahahaha No.

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

I took riding lessons when i was younger.

108. What should you be doing?

Baking a pie. I want pie.

109. Is something irritating you right now?

America’s President.

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Yes.

111. Do you have trust issues?

See #23

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

My friend/ theripast @squish-io

113. What was your childhood nickname?

Dictionary.

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Yes.

115. Do you play the Wii?

No.

116. Are you listening to music right now?

Yes.

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

I'm Vegetarian.

118. Do you like Chinese food?

Half of my family is Chinese so I only like the good stuff.

119. Favourite book?

The Monsters of Templeton by Lauren Groff

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

No.

121. Are you mean?

Maybe?

122. Is cheating ever okay?

Once I cheated at Pandemic. The rules of the game were too complicated and I was playing against an expert.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Probably, I don't have any though.

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

I believe in attraction at first sight but not love.

125. Do you believe in true love?

No.

126. Are you currently bored?

Nah, I'm answering these, it's pretty fun.

127. What makes you happy?

My dog! Kpop crack! Tumblr(sometimes)!

128. Would you change your name?

Maybe.

129. What your zodiac sign?

It starts with a “P”

130. Do you like subway?

Not particularly.

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

First of all, that would never happen. Either way as my best friend they would know that I'm gay and so if their pronouns are not she/her it wouldn't be an issue. If their pronouns were she/her then... I dunno. Depends on what would make them happy.

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

See #10

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

Shawty imma party till the sundown (so I can make it back in time for curfew) 134. Can you count to one million?

Yes. For efficiency I'd count by 500,000s.

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

“I'm straight”

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

I can't sleep with the doors open.

137. How tall are you?

Smol.

138. Curly or Straight hair?

Wavy.

139. Brunette or Blonde?

The former.

140. Summer or Winter?

Winter.

141. Night or Day?

Night.

142. Favourite month?

November.

143. Are you a vegetarian?

Yes.

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

Dark.

145. Tea or Coffee?

Tea.

146. Was today a good day?

Sure.

147. Mars or Snickers?

I don't eat either.

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“Love is like a fart. If you have to force it it's probably shit.”

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

No. 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

“Well,” Miss Morgan said, her voice losing conviction, “what do you mean, talking about people dressed like me? Blue hats, and so on?”

#that's a wrap #ask game #reblogging #with edits

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zorume-star · 3 years ago

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I posted 529 times in 2021

13 posts created (2%)

516 posts reblogged (98%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 39.7 posts.

I added 61 tags in 2021

#one piece - 9 posts

#hopepunk - 8 posts

#ace - 7 posts

#fanzine - 6 posts

#ace pride - 6 posts

#punk - 6 posts

#roronoa zoro - 5 posts

#asexuality - 5 posts

#ace week - 5 posts

#perona - 4 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#so in many classes i didn't do the homework at home but in the first minutes fo class and just didn't do it at all depending on the teacher

My Top Posts in 2021

Thanks hopepunk community for all the beautiful posts on Tumblr.

I'm pretty sure I'm in depression, and that I've actually been in depression for 3 years now, just wouldn't see it, and a few weeks ago I discovered hopepunk. Reading all the posts warmed my heart, got me to tears sometimes, made me smile, and the best thing ? I crafted and wrote and did things I stopped to do for months or years.

After all those hopeless years, I finally have something to soothe my mind and remind me that hope keeps us alive and makes us do great things. All I need is hope for the future to finally see that I can choose from many paths. That I can still do good around me and that it'll be worth it. That kindness and hope and community are everything that capitalism and patriarchy and all those fucking bad systems fear.

Let's fight the damn depression off and start doing good around me.

So yeah, thank you hopepunk community. Your posts are appreciated.

6 notes • Posted 2021-10-11 12:26:55 GMT

If you're a filthy little queer anar punk like me (or honestly, just a regular human that works too), you may like those tips and ideas and links :

Quit big social medias, they're made to be addictive so you stay on the app and it give them money. Also they rely on things that make you angry and hurt to make you stay on the app.

Instead join free open-source community-driven social medias and platforms instead (suggesting Fediverse). With a real moderation and instance made by people just like you. Double-check your instance before joining though !

Rediscover the web outside what you can get from the GAFAM with those linkrolls and search websites : • • • • •

Read this article about "laziness" and why the researcher think it actually doesn't exist. Good vibes and positivity at the end of the read guaranteed.

Do something you used to do as a kid. Play with toys, craft, climb to trees, sing out loud in your room, cook pastries, read your fav books again. For me it was crafting and I just customized the cover of my little sketchbook and it felt sooo good !

Check out this list of leftist zines !

Remember to take some time to go out. In the morning it helps a lot to start your day. And to open your windows to change the air inside.

Your friends for researches : Sci-Hub and 12ftLadder.

In you need to know that anarchy works, read this.

Learn something new with those explorable explanations. It's awesome !

Just go through the "hopepunk" hashtag here on Tumblr if you feel hopeless, hate yourself, are depressed, feel sad today... Honestly it just feel so good and I cried and smiled a lot scrolling through this and I feel so much better since I know this.

Remember to breathe slowly and unclench your body sweethearts !

Please if you have linkrolls or other awesome articles, websites etc... to share... well, share it in the comments and I'll add them ! Or reblog with your links, as you wish.

A lot of love for you all here. You're great and deserve some love and hugs !

30 notes • Posted 2021-10-18 14:46:40 GMT

What would you do if you had a basic income that could cover housing and food and basically living ?

I know a lot of us are afraid of the future. Because we live in a world where we need money just to survive, but we also know those jobs aren't the thing the world need right now.

So tell me, what kind of business/job/activity would you do if you didn't have to worry about money to survive ? Tell us everything. Go wild.

89 notes • Posted 2021-10-25 13:45:23 GMT

I feel SO much better since I've discovered "solarpunk" and then "hopepunk", a few weeks ago. I've also stopped Twitter a week ago. I got back to creative things. I wrote for the first time in months. I tried myself on a mini-fanzine. I tried to fix my old ideas notebook. I created a terrarium, took care of plants.

I feel better. So much better. I'm in depression, I'm pretty sure of that, and I got a psychiatrist appointment in a month.

But thanks solarpunk and hopepunk. And thanks me for getting outta Twitter and limiting myself to Mastodon, Artfol and Tumblr. I have much more hope and positivie vibes in my life now, and it feels so good.

I have hope for the future now. I don't know where I go. I still don't know what kind of job I could do. But at least I got hope and music and craft to keep me alive now.

129 notes • Posted 2021-10-10 12:00:38 GMT

Write for yourself. Draw for yourself. Craft for yourself. Sing for yourself. Dance for yourself. Do anything creative for yourself, if it makes you happy.

I know it's hard sometimes because we want to share our stories and crafts with the world, and we end up having expectations and want to please the world, and eventually loose the happiness of creating.

Take that back. Create for yourself. Show it to the world if you want to. Some people may love it and follow you. And that's awesome ! But the only expectation you need to have is please yourself first. Do what makes you happy.

324 notes • Posted 2021-10-15 08:05:07 GMT

Get your Tumblr 2021 Year in Review →

#my 2021 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #hopepunk #let's get punkier

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