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rotthepoet · 13 hours

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Could I please ask for some smut w Lorenzo & either Theo or Matt?

Where they’re usually real mean to the reader, but one day heard a rumour bout reader being intimate with someone else, and get all possessive saying that he’s theirs and stuff? Basically punishing em for going out with someone else, and readers just confused cause he thought that they hated him??

It’s totally okay if you don’t do this!!!! I’m really sorry if you don’t

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OMG POOKIE NO NEED TO BE SORRY YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL BRAIN AND THIS IS DELICIOUS‼️‼️‼️I’ve already written a theo/enzo threesome and i’ve been itching for more Mattheo requests so i hope you dont mind me picking Matty 🙏 hope you like this king 🥰

Warnings: Amab!reader(he/him used), Oral, Degradation, mean!lorenzo and mean!mattheo, reader creams his pants oops!

Because why the fuck is Mattheo dragging you out of the Great Hall, Lorenzo coming in hot right behind them. With all the struggling youre doing against Mattheo, trying to tug your arm from his iron grip(because Mattheo is a big, scary dude. Hot. But genuinely intimidating), Lorenzo comes right to your side, hooking his arms under your left arm. Mattheo adjusts his grip and now they are quite literally dragging you down the hallway despite your protest.

You’re thrown onto the bathroom floor, looking up in fear at the two towering men. Mattheo locks the door with the flick of his wand, and Lorenzo grabs you by the collar of your shirt, lifting you up off the ground.

“The fuck do you think you’re doing, hm? Trying to make us jealous?” He scowls at you, and by this point youre probably shaking in fear and half in tears.

“Listen- I don’t know what I did but please just— i’ll do anything if you just let me walk out of here.” You plead, but it falls upon deaf ears.

Mattheo stalks towards the two of you, slinking behind you as you turn your head to try and follow his movements. Lorenzo grips your jaw, tugging you back to face him. “Eyes on me, i’m not done with you.” He snaps, and you nod obediently.

Mattheo’s hands untuck your shirt from your pants, and despite the fear coursing through your veins, you cant help but feel pleasant shivers run down your body. When your shirt is untucked, warm, ringed hands run over the soft skin of your stomach, trailing up to your ribs. A soft gasps escapes your lips, and as much as you will it to stop, blood rushes down between your legs.

Lorenzo hasn’t let go of your chin, forcing you to keep direct eye contact with him as Mattheo explores your chest, pressing wet kisses to the side of your neck. What the fuck is happening?

“You think you can just go around with whoever you want? Do you know how embarrassing that is for us? For our boy to be off fucking some nobody?” Lorenzo finally releases your chin, and your head falls slightly right as Mattheo gnaws at the soft skin between your neck and shoulder.

“Our… our boy?” You croak out, head dizzy from the continuous switch ups. Mattheo smirks against your skin, his strong hands groping your waist.

“Yeah… our pathetic boy, all whiney and needy.”

“Thought you…” A pleased sigh slips past your lips as Lorenzos hand starts to unbutton your shirt, and runs his hand from your chest to the hem of your pants, “I thought you hated me…”

Lorenzo scoffed and Mattheo suddenly pressed his hand down on your shoulder, heavy enough to force you down to your knees in front of Lorenzo. “Hate you? Who put that idea into your head?” Mattheo asked, his fingers combing into your hair and tugging on the strands, forcing you to look up as Lorenzo unbuckles his belt, letting the leather fall to the tiled floor.

His fingers worked swiftly, and within seconds his aching, red tip was at your quivering lips. “Think we gotta make sure he knows his place, yeah?” Lorenzo looks up at Mattheo, who forces your head down onto Lorenzo’s tip. Your eyes go wide at the intrusion past your lips, but you cant deny how fucking hot it is.

Their conversation becomes nothing but background noise as Mattheo sets your heads pace, fucking your throat on Lorenzo’s cock. You gag around him, drool flooding from your bruised lips and dripping down your chin. Embarrassingly, on hand reaches down to palm your aching boner, moaning around Lorenzo’s dick. Your other hand reaches up, cupping Enzo’s heavy balls and squeezing gently, eliciting a pornographic groan from his lips.

Tears prick at your eyes as youre forced further down, Enzo’s fat dick hitting the back of your throat while Mattheo holds you down, chuckling as you gag and whine. Lorenzo’s head rolls back as he releases into you, filling your throat with hot seed, so much that it spills past your lips.

Finally, youre pulled off of Lorenzo, eyes half lidded and pants stained from your own premature release. Enzo barely regards you, patting your cheek before he pulls away. You try to stand up again, but a firm hand holds you in place as Mattheo replaces the spot Lorenzo had once stood.

“Where do you think you’re going? You’re not done apologizing yet.”

#rot says so #🦙 anon #i really hope you like this pookie 🥺🥺 i was really inspired for this #lorenzo berkshire x reader x mattheo riddle #mattheo riddle x reader x lorenzo berkshire #lorenzo berkshire x reader smut #mattheo riddle x reader smut #lorenzo berkshire x reader #enzo berkshire x reader #mattheo riddle x reader #slytherin boys #slytherin boys smut #lorenzo berkshire #enzo berkshire #mattheo riddle

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arom-antix · 2 years

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So.

I finally watched Yuri!!! On Ice.

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talkorsomething · 3 months

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I have Got to get more transgender

#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ #transmasc #trans ftm #transgender #i like 2 say i'm very trans already but unforch i am Not Really. mostly boring ftm Guy Ever #so tempted to cut my hair again but my sense of what i look like is already so fuzzy i dont think it'd help..#want to dye my hair anyways. at this point i'd take whatever color i can get if not purple LOL #it's almost everything i could want and yet ... still me. still the same life. stuck.#soooo high functioning like you wouldnt believe EXCEPT istg i need an emotional support human who will guide me through tasks #such as 'pay with your Moneys Card at the Store'#or... idk that's it really. maybe go grocery shopping without feeling like i'm not meant to be there also #or like. exist in general maybe #reasons why not emotional support Animal: creature cannot understand capitalism. and also is not as necessary as a service dog specifically #idk! every time i come on here i fall apart (in text) and then pull myself back together for another day of ... this i guess.#i'm not even having like crying breakdowns or anything to go along with it i'm just held inside this shell of a body. typing away again #i'm soso tempted to make things worse. progress wouldn't matter anymore... at least maybe it would feel real that i'm like this #i wish my face fit on my body right. and also that i did not look quite so much like a vaguely gnc lesbian #like at LEAST let me look butch as hell but no. curse of sad hair & uncertainty #miss my little mullety thing from that brief period in october... miss my short hair from back in 2017 ...#just dont feel satisfied with what i am now. in general.#top surgery is literally Within my reach but i'm not sure about cost and i need to wait because of doing guard now......#my list of do i want t i kept for the past month turned out to be a bunch of maybes #partially cause i got sick. partially cause it stopped being shark week and i forgot about it #as always happens...#still unsure in my new(er) name. only heard it once #didn't feel the same way as with my old one? but idk. just don't know.#missing guard also but feeling conflicted about not having time for other hobbies...#since winter season is over i've had so much time to play guitar! that's insane! mostly cause i stopped playing for unrelated reasons...#just tired again. wonder if i need more sleep than what i always get. kind of restless.#there's nothing else to say i guess. just wish i could be a person the way everyone else seems to be.

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philosophicallie · 4 months

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ok time to try to blame someone else instead of me

#being dramatic but idk im also trying to think abt why i am this way #in part to the fact that i inherently view myself as a burden and always have since a child since i could like. comprehend the things my mom #was going through for my life & moving the america etc etc #but like yeah i was basically as independent as couldve been in the PH bc i had multiple ppl who could take me places and take care of me #but in the US it was just my parents and our family and our X amnt of cars #idk i just keep thinking about how much i miss doing anything in my life and how i used to be a dancer a martial artist a potter like #there was so much to me and now because i refuse to learn to drive and get a car i just. am locked out of everything #bc my aspirations cant work out on 1 vehicle in sparse & spread ohio #like idk maybe its the fact that i always was just like im not allowed to have friends im not allowed to go out in the summer #im not allowed to visit friends or extra places or events #never really been independent until i basically ran away and even now im just #only partially independent bc sure i have money and i have my own space but. im dependent on a driver and other ppls schedules and it just #idk i cant not see myself as a burden all i can think of is that im not a good enough woman let alone wife and thats something no one wants #like i barely know how to cook i barely eat i dont clean i barely wash i barely provide like. yeah idk also ever since i had a breakdown #i feel fundamentally just. changed especially about food. and idk i have been asking for others to cook for me more but i still am waiting 4 #the next time someone says you can make it yourself and i starve for the next 24 hours #idk dude i literally cannot see myself as not a work of labor. its all mama ever ranted at me about. very verbally very constantly up until #i stopped being difficult with her being the head of the family of like 12 #whatever. whatever #im done blaming someone else im gonna eat my words with regret and shame :/

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bloomingbluebell · 5 months

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i feel so bad sometimes when i see people complaining about how their favs don't get a lot of content compared to my fav who gets a ton of content and i don't... really know what to do about it?

like i know i'm literally a part of the problem but i also literally cannot focus on anything else. i literally only read fanfiction about one character at a time and anything else just does not grab me as much. i can't explain why.

#yeah this is about lu #i feel so incredibly guilty when i can literally talk about none of the other boys only wild #and i can't explain why! it's not like i dislike the others at ALL #i love them #but they're not. the same to me.#literally my only options are to keep doing what i'm doing or to stop engaging with fandom altogether #like no fanfics no fanart nothing #which i. don't want to do #and im not exaggerating when i mean i do not read anything else #when i was in the got fandom i read ONLY fanfiction centered around arya #those bookmarks are still on my ao3 too. i have a lot of them #and there were a variety of pairings as long as i could get on board with them somewhat #(some of them icked me out but they didnt like. ruin the experience yknow?)#(got/asoiaf is just. one of those series)#and now its the same thing #i have a few bookmarked tua fanfics i just. never read #i liked tua until season 3 but it wasnt like. special interest levels of like #i would watch the new seasons in a weekend and hyperfixate but then they were just. gone #idk my brain is really weird /neg #i dont like only reading fics centered around one character but they make me really happy when i do read them #i wish i could branch out more but again. what i read makes me happy

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rapidhighway · 1 year

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i think i might just have to give up and leave this school

#like i dont really want to i dont #i have friends there and if i drop out i have no idea whats gonna happen #and i dont want to stop seeing everyone #but im just so bad at this #i just dont fit in this place i dont have a brain that can come up with this stuff #i cant do abstract thinking im not good at any philosophy or anything #im not even that good at drawing tbh #but i wanted it to work out so bad #but i dont think im just good enough to do this i cant do it i cant come up with stuff i cant make contemporary art or whatever they want #from me #i really wanted to be in this school #i have no other aspirations from art #like whats even left for me and now im bed even at that #i know everyone wonders how i even got in #someone in my group even suggested i should drop out hah #but i cant do it because i literally have nothing else i dont want to do anything else #i dont want to go to work yet i dont want to leave my friends at this school #but i cant even pass this year because i cant do these things they ask from me i im not good enough for it #i cant come up with anything ever #i guess i should just stick to drawing fanart as my hobby and do something else but theres nothing else im good at or im even willing to do #idk man i dont know what to do #i dont want to drop out #but i dont know how to push harder i dont think i can do it by just trying harder i think im just inherently bad at this #oh god okay im gonna shut up now i just needed to get this out bc im scared to talk about this to anyone #if i even mention this to my parents they either yell at me or react with just the worst apathy you can imagine #so i guess they dont really care they just want me gone or to do something with myself but im really just kind of useless #i feel like i dug a grave for myself here and its been like 13 years in the making you know #and none of them will help me they just tell me to do it and be done with it and i ask for help and they dont #ok now im really shutting up

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silverislander · 5 months

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people smarter than me have said this before but jesus christ why does every job seem to require at least a year of experience and a degree in some hyperspecific field. where did the entry level positions go? how am i even supposed to get experience if none of yall will give me a job without it?

#theres already almost nothing related to my field being offered but even the unrelated things that i think i could try are out bc of this #most of the stuff id actually care abt doing actually require 3-5+yrs! in a field that i cant get into without experience i cant get!#and people talk abt how 'nobody wants to work' i am BEGGING you for a job. literally begging (cover letters).#im coming to the horrifying realization that its possible Nothing i have done w my entire life matters. i have nothing useful #i really feel like i made a mistake. that cant be the best five years of my life i wasnt even happy during most of them #i applied to six jobs weeks ago and ive heard back from one of them and it was a rejection. and theres nothing else to apply to #my degree isnt helping and all of my hobbies are useless. why am i only good at/passionate abt arts. why not math or smth instead #i should have just done ece like i was planning to instead of my honours. what was even the point #and im watching other people in my year get great jobs right out of university. watching my BROTHER get offered work on a silver platter #hes 19 and got five different offers + didnt apply people just asked him to work for them. second year in a row this has happened #hes never had to work for minimum wage. hes always had a good job in his field lined up anytime he wants to work and it always pays well #and i finished five years and ive had to beg for everything ive ever gotten and its still not enough to count for anything #im proud of him but fuck it stings a little #levi.txt #vent tw #oh right i forgot i should just walk in and shake the managers hand. /right/. and they will simply give me a job on the spot bc of this #if people whove been working the same job since before 1990 dont fucking stop giving me bad advice istfg #and these same people say nepotism isnt real and in the same breath talk abt giving their nephew a summer job at their company #literally all i want is work i can be decent at that i care abt and making a living wage. it doesnt have to be fun i dont want to be rich #i just want to do an ok job feel like my work matters and make enough to start my life. thats all

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hecksupremechips · 5 months

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Actually cry so goddamn hard when I think about Shinjiro Aragaki healing and being loved and having to learn to be okay with himself and being taken care of

#writing him has just been like. OOOOWOEOEOEOOE i piss tears i cant handle this shit this gay ass shit #i came up with an idea for just like a cute short one shot i wanna do soon and hnnnghh im so emo about it #very healing its like very hard to write some of the shit im gonna be writing cuz basically #some of it is just a little too real man and while i crave the angst and the drama i am just like #AND THEN EVERYONE HOLDS HANDS AND ITS OKAY PLEASE DONT CRY PLEASE #and ive mentioned how shinji has accidentally become nb to me now because i just kinda happened to write him that way without meaning to #and now another thing im noticing is that in my fic hes kinda bpd coded #it definitely wasnt intentional but now im accepting it as truth no one can stop me #i just really need him to be happy its more important to me than anything else man i need it for me #and he needs to be gay with aki they need to kissy and i think its funny cuz even in the parts where shinji is mad at aki and pushing him #away its like. he kinda has it bad lol and its clear he feels no actual hatred towards aki but more just self deprecation because he doesnt #feel good enough and like idk i just think about their respective roles in society like #aki is an honor student star boxer hero very attractive very kind very popular got adopted by a rich family #hes going places you know meanwhile shinji is a drop out who never had a family ever hes homeless hes sketchy hes on drugs #his reputation couldnt be any worse and he just leans into it and feels he has no future and hes worthless garbage #and aki could literally have anyone he wants you know he has an army of girls pining over him but he doesnt want them #HE WANTS SHINJI AND NO ONE ELSE HE SPENDS YEARS CHASING AFTER HIM #and shinji HATES it hes trying so hard to push him away and be the crusty delinquent and make aki see how worthless he really is #but aki just doesnt stop he loves him so much makes me sick SICK #and shinji really loves him back hes like not gonna shut up ever about aki hes like either doing it in a gay ass annoyed way #or hes like ‘haha omg aki is so cute though hes always trying so hard to be tough but hes just so sweet and gentle you know i hope he #doesnt push himself too hard if he got hurt id fall apart hes so silly i hope hes eating good i desire him carnally’#yeah sorry gamers this is just a pairing i cant be normal about they mean so much to me personally the fate of the world rests upon them

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upsidedowngrass · 1 year

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i will say one of my Biggest pet peeves in one fanworks is 'liam becomes the new airy.' like im sorry i respect u and ur interpretations and ur creative interests !!! im glad ppl have fun and have ideas about post canon one, theres a lot of potential there!!!! but also the moment that i see a work have liam do this i instantly stop paying attention

#not putting this in the tag cus i dont wanna make ppl feel bad!!!#and like. i HAVE seen works that mildly explore it but in a way that i kinda like #but its just. it bothers me So Bad #like it contradicts every trait liam has ever shown in the series AND all of his motivations #'ppl qct ooc under stress!' yeah but it doesnt make ppl act in ways Completely diff from who they r... like hes still liam #at that pt hes just a whole new CHARACTER #but its like. his ENTIRE motivation is that he wants to stop anyone else from going what he went thru. will do anything to prevent that #itd literally undo what makes his entire character him at all to have him go back on that. thats literally his most prominent motivation #its SO intrinsically tied to him as a character #like yeah!!! him and airy are both isolated in that world. there are strong similiarities between their characters #but they still went theu snth DISTINCTLY different.#airy died and was isolated. liam was kidnapped and then isolated. it feels just different enough that i CANT see how #liam would just end up as 'airy 2.' their experiences may be similar but theyre still extremely different #and its like. ive said it before but i think julien is meant to serve WAY more of a parallel to liam than airy is #if theres anything i think liam would do if he couldnt get home? it would be to try and try and try #until hes just... not going anywhere #his stubbornness (and juliens stubbornness for that matter) is vital to understanding his actions.#hed never stop even if it meant he REALLY never stopped. and i think thats just as emotionally impactful #and? even if he WERE to act ooc. uh #tbh? i think hes terrified of dying. he does NOT like it. i think esp after the waiting room hed dread it bc all he knows of it #is that hell just keep dying and dying. or end up just stuck there forever #but. if he were to start rly going against his established traits. i think hed more sooner off himself than start s3 #ESP since it is his own concern for others that makes him act the most Against his own self in the entire series #when he tries to kill airy. bc he couldnt stand the idea of everything continuing #and airy doing this to more ppl. THAT is what is strong enough to make him go against his own personality #and i think its too deeply intertwined into his character for him to try to deal with isolation by kidnapping people #esp not owen.#suicide mention #ANYWAY. these tags r long #OK TO RB BTW if u want i just didnt tag it bc i dont wanna make any1 goin thru the tag sad or anything

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inkedlove · 3 months

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so frustrating when you wanna be someone's friend and they just are not cooperating. I'M INTERESTED IN YOU AS A PERSON. PLEASE INTERACT WITH ME.

#literally don't even care if you ever ask me anything about myself #i just wanna know about you #stop directing the conversation back to work please #we dont even work together anymore and somehow he still manages to always make the conversation about work #if i bring up something else by text he will literally ignore it and just answer the stuff about work #and on the phone he just manages to shut stuff down so quickly unless it's about work and then he has follow up questions and everything #and it's not that he wants me to go away because he's telling me to stay in touch and keep him updated #and that he'll send me links to help with getting a good phd and restaurant recommendations #and so WHY wont he talk to me about anything else #literally something as simple as how his weekend was #he wont tell me #he just blanks the question and asks about whatever work related thing i'm calling about #fucking frustrating man #i wanna hang out with yooouuuuuuu #tell me about your day please #he must just wanna keep our relationship very strictly professional but it's so odd to me to have the boundary be like this #to the extent of not even being replying when i ask how he is like that's insane #surely it's still within the realm of professional to ask how someone's weekend was #it's just hurting my brain because he seems to care about me so much in a work sense and is making sure that im doing what is best for me #and he looks out for me #so it cant be that he really dislikes me THAT much surely????

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cruelsister-moved2 · 1 year

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i hate this post wheneveri see it sorry lol i can smell the supersessionism. ‘there’s an old jewish story’ yep because judaism is just a quirky abstract reminiscence to help u fix the brokenness of ur own religion and not like a completely different religion with its own theology and philosophy unrelated to urs. there are no people it belongs to or thinkers it produces there is simply an ‘old story’ which you can now insert ur own very specific cultural understandings and theological baggage onto without wondering what the person who said that actually meant by it and if theywould enjoy u using it 2 talk about the guy who invented antisemitism n was forced down their throats for the next 2000 years

#i dont even know which 'old jewish story' its referring to because #thats like a super common mystical idea #if anything it sounds like more at home in islamic mysticism but i guess #something something 'judeo christian' [starts coughing up blood]#im aware imbeing a hater its not that deep btu i feel like that was a final straw for me today #if nothing else in the world i want christians to know that when anyone from literally any other religion uses this word they are not #referring to the same thing you are. call it a semantic coincidence #i increasingly avoid using the word because its like it confuses more than it explains #its better that you approach other religions with a complete blank slate and assume ur learning abt different deities altogether than to #think u have any understanding of what another religious person means when they talk about their god/s #its like when a word meaning something as vague as to do wrong or to disobey etc #gets translated as sin and its like. sin connotes an inherently christian concept that no other religion shares #comparative religion stop ittttt fr just stop #im still laughing from when i was watching this video n it was like. comparative religion dramatic reenactment #andthen it was just the guy trying to shove a square block into a round hole like in one of those childrens toys..#anywya theres more context to this but its not really relevant when this is how its being shared n expressed whatever blows up

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girlscience · 1 year

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I am getting a gym membership. fuck it. i want to do powerlifting so fucking bad. it is literally all i think about anymore. i just want to throw weights around for an hour. i want muscles so fuckign bad

#i also want to actually swim again and unless i get a membership somewhere that will never happen #i literally got a sports bra specifically so i could do this and would stop using the excuse of not having a bra to wear #i even found what seems to be a really good beginner 10 week plan to start powerlifting #i just need to fucking do it #i dont need to do anything else #fuck calories and bulking/cutting. i just need to get into a gym and start #anything else is a problem for future me

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ventingbit · 5 days

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#why did i Do That why whywhywhy #i think im actually going to throw up #I JUST WANTNRD TO SAY HI YP MY FROEND BUT NOOO OFC ITS NOT ACTIALLY HER ON WHATS SUPPOSED TO BE H E R FUCKING PAGE #“since you eont syop messaging ny sister” BRO THAT EAS LITERALLY OVER A WEEK AGO WHAT??#and when something happend between her mom and i thats been iver a year oh my god.#i shoulfve fucking known it wasnt her why did it fucking do it #UGDHDHDHSHS #i fucking hate it here #i sent maybe like 5 total meaages but thats bc i had things to say dickhead AMD ALOT OF IT WASNT EVEN ABOUT SPECIFICALLY WJAT HAPPEND WOTH #HER FUCKING MOM AND I LIKE?? IM BEINH CALLED THE FUCKING INSANE ONE WHAT #Thats not continually messaging your sister thats beukg concerned for her asshole and again! LITERALLY. OVER A WEEK AGO.#its not like i messaged anyone else either like. i did last year WHICH STILL WASNT ABOUT THE THING I (ADMITTEDLY STUPIDLY #bc iy was smth else i was mad ad-) GOT MAD AT HER MOM ABOUT LIKE.#im just really concerned for my friend and im supposed to stop caring like that?#idk ehy i did that. ofc it was her mom on her fucking page.#I EVEN GOT TOLD TO LEAVE HER ALONE?? AS IF IVE BEEN MESSAGING CONSTANTLY OH MY GODDD #“drama stirrer” my fucking ass i was just hoping one of you was actually a fucking decent person so my friend can get the proper help she #should have #i did have a inking that ofc it wasnt myfriend on there so i did send a message saying how sad it was for other people to be on someones pag #page acting as them i didnt say anything hateful or anything either and yet i get told “friend showed me this and basically you can fuck of”#and a whole rant from her sibling. acting as if i messaged them specifically again. lmao okay then #IF THRY DONT WANT HER BEING FRIENDS WITH ME SO BAD WHEN ITS BAD ENOYGH IM LITERALLY IN THE SAME FUCKING AREA AS HER #THEN JUST FUCKING BLOCK ME?? ATLEAST I WOULFNT BE GOING IN HOPIMG IT WAS ACTUALLY MY FRIEND THIS TIME.

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pears-trinkets · 3 months

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#every time i ask for help it ends up worse than it was #when i ask my mom she accuses me of not wanting help and not knowing what i want and how its my fault i dont want to be better #im always accused of not wanting help and not doing anything as if im not always researching and calling doctors and social workers #but thats my mom shes crazy and manipulative #but then when i take friends by their word that i can always talk to them and open up and say that i need them #i get ghosted???? 🥲#like its kinda funny at this point #and i know its a common autistic thing that people think that we dont mean what we say and play down our emotions #and that freeze and fawn trauma responses change how we show distress and sometimes makes us not show it appropriately #but every time i said #hey im feeling really bad i need you #to someone #they answer way too late and go like haha oops oh well!!!! sorry so busy!!!#as if my request had a time limit and now it didnt matter anymore #or they literally stop answering me for months #i texted my mental hospital friend in november for her birthday and she answered in january and i told her im in distress #and i havent heard from her since #every time i need someone their own life comes in the way which is fine and natural but #i really get the feeling i only matter to people #when im there for them and to help them or when im fun to be around #everyone says hey its okay and important to ask for help #people who care want you to ask for help #and i remind myself of that and try to work on my abandonment issues and all the self isolating #and then i get ignored and abandoned and i literally cant do it anymore 🥲#i know its unfair to think my friends should know that im having a stressful time so they should know better and check on me #so i dont do that and i communicate #but it doesnt do anything!!!!! literally nothing!!!#i think its even making it worse because they think theyve let me down so much i wont ask again and theyre off the hook #what else can i do????? like genuinely im so confused #and because i get hung up on those things i get borderline diagnosis that are wrong because i obsessively try to be fair and not too clingy

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ghostfacd · 10 months

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ALL BECAUSE I LIKED A BOY? | TOM BLYTH

pairing. tom blyth x fem!actress!reader

summary. after you and tom called it quits, the internet can’t help but make you their punching bag, all because you liked a boy.

part 2 | installment of this au | recommend you read it for more context!

CELEBRITYNEWS Months after the pair announced they were dating on Instagram, couple Y/N Avocot and Tom Blyth have now since broken up due to personal reasons and “mutual agreement” according to a source. We will miss the sweet ex-couple, and we wish the best for Y/N and Tom!

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user1 guys im going to cry

user2 this wasn’t in my 2023 plans.

user3 actual tears

user4 ik rachel is heartbroken rn bc they’re both her close friends and she introduced them to one another 😭😭

➥ user5 you’re so right OMG

user6 they were so good together?? im upset

user7 he’s single now….. YES

ynuser me time 🌞 (new skincare video up soon yayy!!)

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user8 guys, it’s official. she unfollowed tom

➥ user9 it’s the way he still follows her and likes all her posts like this is too sad to watch ☹️

user10 girly after unfollowing tom and everything even tho he still follows and likes her post

user11 she doesn’t deserve him lol. not then, not now, not ever

sean.kauf ur time

conangray yess i love you yn

➥ ynuser @/conangray @/sean.kauf i love you two 💘

rachelzegler only girls party

➥ user12 oh?

hollywoodnews Oh? is this a new romance brewing? Actress and music artist, YN Avocot and her fellow actor and cast mate Sean Kaufman seen awfully comfortable in multiple restaurants not long after YN’s breakup with her ex-boyfriend, actor Tom Blyth

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user13 cant defend yn anymore

➥ user14 she never asked u to defend her stop being delulu..

user15 welp called it, she’s a hoe

user16 doesn’t sean have a gf? not her homewrecking…

user17 acting like all that after she’s single please someone humble her immediately

user18 guys stop sending hate to yn, it’s literally not gonna help anyone. she’s single, she has the freedom to do whatever she wants without you guys being down her back 24/7.

liked by @/tomblyth

➥ user19 hello tom blyth literally liked ur comment??

user20 not tom still being nice to her even after all this. Personally me? Id never take that level of disrespect

ynuser “all because i liked a boy” OUT NOW! This song was originally something else that I put off for a really long time until now, it’s all from my experiences so it makes it very personal for me. I hope you guys like it as much as I do! As always, be kind to yourself and one another ❤️

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sean.kauf love this, love YOU!

➥ ynuser ❤️❤️

conangray this is a masterpiece

user21 THE REFERENCES TO THE HATE COMMENTS OMG ☹️☹️ this song is so good she doesn’t deserve all the hate she gets

user22 and all of this for what? WHEN EVERYTHIN’ WENT DOWN WE’D ALREADY BROKEN UP

➥ user23 TELL ME WHO I AM GUESS I DONT HAVE A CHOICE

➥ user24 ALL BECAUSE I LIKED A BOYYYYY

user25 the way tom hasn’t said anything..

#coriolanus snow x you #Coriolanus snow #coriolanus snow angst #coriolanus snow smut #coriolanus snow imagine #coriolanus snow fanfiction #coriolanus snow x reader #tom blyth x reader #tom blyth #tbosbas #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games x reader

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pulchrasilva · 2 years

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I love 24 because I used to daydream about the polycule living in the same house and raising Kim and being super protective of her (for good reason) and now I daydream about them torturing each other to death

#theyre in love ok i know it #also im fucking DYING at the fact that jack pushed nina so far she cant see anyway out of this other than killing him #he was only pretending to want her dead (supposedly) but once he made clear nothing could stop him if he truly decided to kill her she took #matters into her own hands and i lkve her for it. literally what else was she going to do #'i know nina i know how her kind works' no you dont. stfu. sit down #FIRST she was a spy you have no idea if anything you know her about it true. this should be obvious #SECOND if you really knew her you would know she would take drastic measures to protect herself #jack is being an asshole and even worse an idiot. i hope nina shoots him fr she would be so justified in doing it #hes not gonna die bc hes the kain character but i want him to suffer for the next weeks #24 series #24 polycule #24 nina #24 jack

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