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hipstergecko · 1 year ago

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And you try to make carrot soup but it is just one sad lonely carrot in a pot of boiling water.

Until some jerk shows up and dumps a full on rabbit into it saying "this plot could use some MEAT" (the jerk is also me throwing in a plot bunny) and suddenly the carrot is forgotten. It's rabbit stew now.

And when the soup is ready you find it tasty until you come across the carrot and are like "what is THAT doing in here-oh wait..." And feel the shame of derailing your own plot.

do you ever find yourself bedeviled by writing ideas that are the equivalent of finding a single carrot in your fridge. your brain goes "we should write a pirate story" or "we should write a parisian thief caper" and you ask, "all right, what do we cook with that, then?" and it says "no other ingredients (:"

#story writing #this may or may not be me #i never post stories #i dont think i can handle that rn

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ganondoodle · 5 months ago

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i cant lie, im also beating myself up about not being able to get excited for the new game, or anything anymore it seems, while it can be fun to criticise things, some things you just dont like so badly that the frustration knowing it could be so much better but isnt and you not able to change it outweighs any fun- i dont like being a 'hater', i hate totk, but not bc i hate zelda but bc i LOVE it and want it to be better (though im starting to doubt my ability to do anything good with it too..)

and with the new game trailer (like, i still hope its better than im fearing rn) i feel similarly as when the next totk trailers dropped after the first one (which DID excite me), all of them gave me a sense of dread bc it seemed to go into a direction i wouldnt like, i tried to tone that voice down to enjoy the game, but then .. i was right

i dont want to be an annoying complainer about everything new, but maybe i am and i dont like that thought, i dont want to spoil anyones fun, i want to partake in it :(

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #either way #i know im in a bit of a swamp of bad feelings rn so i dont trust myself and what i say fully #but i have been thinking about trying to only work on destiny in terms of fanart #and look at my original stuff and perhaps gamedev a bit more seriously #dont get me wrong im not 'leaving' the fandom #but the things i like are so few and tiny parts of old games that are pretty much irrelevant to the modern fandom #like trying to keep driving on tires even when they lost all their rubber #after botw and the first botw2 trailer i was so deep into the theories of it all- and now i dont even want to look at the thumbnails #(even if those were largely boring or kinda weird- i felt like i was taking part in a fun group about stuff i like? in a way?)#what scares me about doing more original stuff though is ...#even my fanart was niche and largely not “popular” so doing oc stuff might be even worse and idk if my frail self worth can handle that dro #and to the last point of the post itself................. maybe a fear of losing community too #like how in school you where at first a part of the class #and as you got older your classmates started to notice how different and weird you were #and then you were alone

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sleepy-stitches · 8 months ago

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google search how to safely have my friends from other groups smell each other through the door like cats so they can be introduced

#thinking about birthday plans and it is scary #i have to work out something to actually Do other than just throw a bunch of people in a call and be like we are hanging out now ^-^#because i feel like there are some flaws with that #although...... almost all of my friends own tabletop sim. which is awesome and has a lot of potential #ouuuugh i also have to think about peoples schedules. which is so fucked up and evil #i should be able to just psychically know if everyone is free on like the fifth of april rather than having to ask #sighs. this is probably more than my brain can handle rn but also if i dont do anything for my birthday ill die. whatever whatever whatever #i stay certifiably silly #original post placeholder tag

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applescabs · 6 months ago

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its pride month. you know what that means.

#tedpost #also its been over 2 months. please mg give us the round 2 results.#i dont think i can handle haruka dying rn though ill probably have a breakdown over that.

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broodingheroine · 4 months ago

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started my morning listening to the first ep of part four of malevolent and I've been actively tearing up at john wanting so badly to go see a movie

I'm using the lightheartedness to ignore the fact that I think john made a deal with kayne too

#malevolent #malevolent podcast #john doe #i love him so much #but hes def hiding smth so im extremely wary rn #i dont think arthur can handle another betrayal guys

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puhpandas · 6 months ago

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hi mutuals im just curious.

#im a ggy lover myself and would obviously love to see it realized in a game #but i also like gregory as a character more than his semi-canon backstory #and have complicated feelings on if i want them to confirm ggy at all.#i love ggy but dont want it to take screentime away from gregory #who alongside vanessa havent been focused on in years #(ruin was mimic basically the whole time #doesnt count) and need the screentime desperately.#personally #after THIS long (2 and a half years since gregory screentime and over a year since GGYs release)#i cant help but always wonder if theyve just. waited too long and they shouldnt confirm it.#at least just that they shouldnt release something just for the sake of confirming it and just leave it as book knowledge.#if they did focus on ggy in a game i'd want it to serve the plot involving multiple characters and progress slowly #i dont want it to be confirmed then its just background knowledge i would want there to be a plotline of #gregory remembering it throughout the plot of a game and dealing with it.#it'd confirm it then but it'd also still be wholly focused on Gregory alone and also be a natural reveal for people who dont read the books #for me its option 3 i guess. by all means its for sure canon at the moment im just talking about how it would be revealed in a game #or if at all and left as knowledge someone who read the books would know #my idea is wishful thinking we'd never get something that intricate #i can hope though #i could be so cool #but damn theyre just handling the story so strangely rn #pandas.txt #pandas talks #poll #thoughts #pre hw2 dlc #jic

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dawnarrii · 7 months ago

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Ts cast's last names

I was creating sims4 Vere and saw the second name box, then this idea popped up Thus my ideas on the cast's names(Im doing this on a whim its bad-)

Vere; -Vere Lavinia -Vere Corydalis -Vere Evangeline

Mhin; -Mhin Estelle -Mhin Hoang

Kuras; -Kuras Pandora

Leander; -Leander Smith -Leander Gideon -Leander Lugwig

Ais; -Ais Atticus

Sen; -Sen Mira -Sen Eden -Sen Lawerance

Elyon; -Elyon Cordelia

#Im not doing middle names I dont think I can handle that rn-#last names are hard to do....#touchstarved game #touchstarved #Dawnarrii idea/rant #Going on the divorce case Kuras and Vere shared a last name before breaking up

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mik0is0bored · 3 months ago

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AAAUUUUGHHH IM SORRRYYYY IM SO SORRY DONT COME AFTER ME😭😭😭😭

#yes i made this why i made it is beyond me #i made one of yuuji too but i dont think i can handle looking for it rn #i finished my 9 page annotation assignment for history finally like i didnt ask to summarize Christianity or anything but guess what i did #yeah. summarized every relgion in the past 1000 or so years #I AM SOBBING I TOOK IT PERSONAL WHEN HAIBARA DIED. HE REMINDS ME OF MY BROTHER HELP #jujutsu kaisen #haibara yu #mik0is0crying

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thebirdandhersong · 20 days ago

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y'all the Lovely Runner withdrawal is BAD. I haven't seen love portrayed in such a generous, radiant, lovely way in a drama in a solid while (I wouldn't count LND in this, though it had MASSIVE potential to hit as hard as LR)....... that was just. so good

#songbird's romcom romp of '24 #i do have twinkling watermelon and the chinese drama whose name i forget rn lined up #because i looked at the rest of my to watch list and it looked BLEAK.#as in i dont' think i can handle watching past lives or 20th century girl rn. i simply don't have #the emotional energy to deal with that.#anywayyyyy i miss themmmmmm #lovely runner

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ratatatastic · 7 days ago

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do you write fic on ao3?

unfortunately for everyone involved i do!

#ask #and if youre wondering about my handle i write on anon so its doesnt particularly matter (shrugs)#and also i think its pretty easy to figure out which fics ive written because i want to makeout mad sloppy style with an em dash #anyways (waves offhandely) it doesnt really matter much because i have like posted an ss on here before so you know #its not like im trying to hide it like eh #but also because of my disposition that would put a tranced rabbit to shame i dont exactly yell it from the hilltops either #the moral of the story is if you ask me what im working on ill yap about it maybe like post an excerpt #and months later youll find something posted on anon and youll be like oh! so they finally posted it!#so to spare you all (lies on my tummy like we're at a sleepover and giggles) you wanna hear what im working on #haha of course you do youre a prisoner in my yap box #and i want an excuse to talk about it hidden in the tags so people skim over it and not read it <3 #SO the earliest wip is from like early october about a magical realism au because i rewatched lwa as i usually do and well theres this one #ep about a magical animal if you will... and you can kinda guess what it is from that lol its sashaforsyekky #because the dreaded @/tungpin infected me with the brainworms about this trio specifically #and it really is ekky going 🥺 at whatever sashaforsy have (persumably) got going on woe is him its at 5k rn but uh ive stalled progress #because puppyekky has consumed my every thought which leads me to my second wip that ive been labouring over since the start of october #that also just broke 5k and not even remotely done lol whoops but its puppy ekky in a team environment with a heavy emphasis on the euros #rn there are scenes scrabbled out with sasha (multiple) mikksy luosty lundy and forsy. i know i have an idea for bobby.#and really lets see where the muse takes us i have vague ideas that are mmmhmm but we'll see when we get there!#the third one isnt the most likely to get finished but uh it is sashamaffhew global series stuff because it stemmed from #“it really is funny that sasha is treating the finland trip like he knocked up a girl #and is trying to make her meet his parents so it doesnt feel like a shotgun wedding when he you know marries her to take responsibility“#and i just think a maffhew pov with that thought in mind because of the whole touchy at e11even thing is funny to me like think mundane #slice of life oh i feel like im being wined and dined i hope i dont fuck it up jfc i think im fucking it up oh god this feels romantic #anyways it feels remotely ooc to me and it really was more of like a writing break from the wips stated above so (shrugs)#might not see the light of day but its 2k as of now so i do feel its a shame if i dont /try/ to finish it you know? its just low priority #anyways thats my writing check in and i am a prisoner to my own mind i will go insane haha these wont be published anytime soon #because i am slow and get distracted soooo easily so you know <3

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cent-scratchnsniff · 26 days ago

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doodle dump

#lobotomy corporation #lobcorp #lobotomy corp agent #lobotomy corp oc #pretty sure i have more i missed. just doodling since i cant get myself to make more than bare minimum effort rn #ocs as well so i dont need to think abt how to properly portray another. considering i literally made them up #personality wise anyways. took some creative liberties when it comes to actual gear and random generated agents anyways #maybe ill actually ramble abt them on the sideblog. Eden and Eliza mirrors to one another and picking specific aspects of humanity to cling #to. Eden deciding the subconscious and concepts of humanity brought to life is more ideal that humans themself. the more one loves of human #ity the less one begins to love of humans. Eliza becoming subservient and wanting to activly love humans and her kin even when they hold no #love for her in turn. Both needing to be rewarded or feel rewarded for their dedication. Idealizing each side. the idea of everyone is capa #ble of good and thus should be forgiven and unquestionable love and loyalty. Eden viewing people as senselessly killing oneanother in furth #er elaborate ways and rejects the idea of people all together and finds solance in the Concept than the Living #Angelina and Ryn with how one views time and survival. One hyperfocused on surviving of the current day and neglecting their own very self-#and desires while the other only looks towards the future and idealizes to the point where they dont even see the today. delusion to claw #through reality. Safety team w Brook Eliza Evgeni and Katya is a little harder to explain but the main concept with them as a Group being a #a jab at the happy workplace family that gets along. nuh uh #i guess another idea that is weaved into them is 'survival' and how one sees they can be fit to live or find a meaning to live. and the con #tradictions that arise from anothers perspective and how people 'ought to live'. a clash of either accepting or denying anothers way of #how one should survive. and the projection of a way to live. of 'i view this to be right and thus i will have you do this thing' saving an #aspect or person that they can see themself in to then essentally save themself.#will i be able to handle such ideas with finesse? likely not i dont have faith in myself to properly encapsulate such topics to a perfect #enough degree but it is interesting to explore

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fun-k-boards · 5 months ago

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I hate how I'm like this.

Then my mutual interacts with me

But then I'm back to this

#i get a short burst of seretonin then it just. ends #honestly ill reblog when im tagged or smth but idk if i can stay active for any longer.#i feel just #so so ill #everything hurts and i have a KILLER migraine #im probably gonna just. stay offline as long as i can #i need to do things irl #and my mums aunt has an infection #shes like 80 #if she survives this we dont think shes going to make it to secember #i cant fucking do this #ive already had two people die this year #i cant handle another #i cant do this #i love talking to friends but im jusy hanging on by a thread rn #maybe ill be better soon #i dont know

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hacksawboy · 1 year ago

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honestly if the ending of saw 2004 didnt tell you that lawrence was fruity than maybe the mausoleum will. look at this shit. youre telling me this guy was so extra that he needed to make a pretty palace building just for one tiny miniscule trap. you expect me to believe hes straight? thats dedication of someone who is either autistic or has way too much gay audacity, or both. gay ass doctor. got his degree in doctor and dicksucker

#saw #saw 2004 #lawrence gordon #no but seriously im going insane over this trap rn #god its so fucking extra. larry you extra ass bitch #i dont know if hes the gayest apprentice though hoffman is like REALLY cunty #idk pvp. competition. who can kiss more men #oh yeah the trap itself is really cool. really good intro to the movie as well #tumblr lagging out my entire fucking laptop dude oh mygod #my laptop can run the most intensive shit but it cannot handle tumblr and spotify at once nice #fun fact for reading this far my grandpas name is actually lawrence and we call him larry and i think thats like REALLY funny

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p3answer · 7 months ago

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i need to stare at a png image of sasuke in order to muster up the courage to watch the next code geass r2 episode

#i havent been able to watch one all day bc ive been on the verge of an anxiety attack all day and i dont think my heart can handle r2 rn #im fine btw . its just i had to do a presentation and was exhausted once im done so the nerves arent gone #either way im staring at sasuke png a last resort to keep calm (i keep remembering vote2 so its not helping even a little)

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leyyvi · 1 year ago

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debating on whether or not i want to post this gojo piece or if it's gonna attract a weird crowd bc jjk crowd is just so big rn.................

#listen aot is big but the fandom explosion happened like...what 2 years ago? it's relatively calm on tumblr #FOR THE MOST PART #rn i just look at jjk and i feel like so many people from clock app and bird app are looking at the tags and #IDK DO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN #it feels scary to write for an active series ig JKHGFJKGH #also it's a oneshot and idk if i can handle the pt2 comment possibility #i also dont really post a lot anymore i think need to work up the guts to post my shit again #i even still have that gojo geto shoko reader fic :(..........just sitting in my drafts :(((

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puhpandas · 2 months ago

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thinking abt the ggy easter eggs rn

#im so ready for whateber theyre cooking #this is like the only era rn where the sw games arent interesting me rn im so ready to want to engage again #plz focus on ggy vanny gregory vanessa cassie and not cassie dad mapbot dying absent father doing nothintnfor the story #and a game based totally off of books instead of the other way around #i really hope SW games dont become super tftp oriented #as in they make games based off of books instead of the other way around #that would suck majorly #a ggy game would be new content based off of game lore that does exist for ggy and not the book #like patient 46 and his canonical mysterious past #plus everything the tapes said he did #it could be so good #i really want to just see like. any progression of the story #outside of very basic ideas like 'vanny cassie' that are probably going to happen but are so bare bones #theres not much you can think about #insyead of useless plots like cassies dad. sorry but its true if hes the hw2 story he does nothing #nothing that cassie couldnt have also done if shes the protag #i know that sotm has to happen before they can progress so im being patient #but man #i hope we get more stuff like ruin that has good linear on screen storytelling and is more character oriented #everybody liked ruin but not everyone likes sotm #when hw2 came out i saw soo many opinions not just by me and the moots or something but just #fans on twitter diehard or casual #that hated how hw2s story was handled #people actually want storytelling now at sb and ruins scale instead of old school barely comprehensible frustrating lore #thats what sotm feels like its leaning into and im not excited #i hope its a one time thing since its a good chance to do that #a game that already takes place in the og fnaf days #before it even #of course its a good idea to put old school easter eggs and characters and story and stuff of the og days #i just miss my guys :(

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