#i dont even know why i have tumblr anymore

[feelingdeath]

I FEEL SO FUCKING LONELY

i wanna explode into a million fucking peices.

m lonely and sad and depressed and i wanna kms and i suck and m so fucking dumb and i don't have friends anymore cos everyone's ahead and somehow completely content i don't really know what m doing anymore i wanna be non existent thinking about jumping off my balcony rn maybe will actually do it

when i talk to someone about it all they say is don't worry it'll be fine don't worry you will be alright don't worry everything is going to go amazing don't worry no one judges you don't worry don't panick stop thinking

like fuck you man, hell fuck yeah you think it's helpful. m talking shit like suicide bomber crazy and you gon talk me up like m a fucking 10yr old with diet issues.

i hate this world and everyone in it and i sincerely hope that i die asap idgaf who it kills or whose feelings it hurts.

the pain i feel is inexplicable and i don't how or what to do with it. talking isn't helping. All i do is fucking cry all day for god sake and the toll is up to 3 times till 10:30 am new fucking records innit.

[cavity-collector]

i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit

[todayisafridaynight]

biggest fear for kiwami 3 is them retconning mines love for daigo (unlikely but it’s possible) or like something along the lines of that…. the minedai erasure would make me end it all

SUREST doubt of my life: even if you didn't want to interpret it as romantic, mine's love for daigo is an essential part to his character and motivation in y3. they coudnt erase mine's love without redoing his character

[onemillionfurries]

why does it seem like every website has moved away from giving people subdomains for their pages? what's wrong with username.deviantart.com? username.tumblr.com?? why'd they change from this i would genuinely like to know.

[starmaker-astral]

Anyone in the GO fandom : "I would like to see the S3 of Good Omens one day bc i really love this show"

Anon : "You don't care about SA victims and keep sending support to Gaiman you are a horrible person die"

Hey ! Respectfully, WHAT THE HELL ??¿¿

[iwakuraz]

it'll all be okay because there's only one more day left in the school week and after that it'll be the weekend. wait no what do you mean after the weekend I'll just have to go back to school? what do you mean the cycle of going to school and coming back home completely worn out is gonna continue?

[oetscop]

lonely and depressed > i do drugs > they reduce me to a walking corpse with nothing to offer another human being > it makes me lonely and depressed > i do drugs to cope > they reduce me to a walking corpse with nothing to offer another person > it makes me lonely and depressed > i do drugs to cope > they reduce me to a walking corpse with nothing to offer another person > it makes me lonely and depressed > i do drugs to cope > they reduce me to a walking corpse with nothing to offer another person > it makes me lonely and depressed >

[obnoxiousarcade]

I have a longing to be understood more than anything else i think

[pubby-paws]

It's just constant. I reblog things I see sometimes that talk about trans women being banned, and every single post is talking about someone new. They're the only ones who get banned at this consistently of a rate. I have seen full cock and balls on this website that doesn't even get flagged(much less deleted), but anything that talks about being trans (ESPECIALLY about transfemmes) in a positive or even "wholesome" way gets flagged. Everything they do is scrutinized under the harshest possible lens for what MIGHT be "fetish content"(read: enjoying being trans), and they just ban them. Afterwards, they say "she was a filthy pervert, we swear, for real! Why would you need proof, just trust us! Not on OUR good Christian website!"

Honestly, even when they pull a reason out, I think they're making up something to justify the reality: they think that the existence of transfemmes is inherently a fetish, and therefore if transfemmes talk about being happy about any aspect of being trans, they are posting sexual content and deserve to be banned. More than anyone else on this website.

[salad-storm]

Do you get a kick out of it or do you just not realise. Don't know which would be worse.

[feelingdeath]

you know long distance doesn't work right gg?

shush ur scaring him away, what's wrong with you.

ok ok m sorry, I just thought it was whatever. He doesn't trust me anyways. but that's not his fault, I wouldn't trust me either with all the kinds of shit I keep pulling. god who tells their boyfriend that LDRs suck when u know ur going to be in one very soon fuck ok.

The non-attachment policy still stands though right? But I love him, but you love him, it's love, what even is love?- god shut up. it doesn't have to be a tragedy so stop making it one. m not making it one I promise I just, you know and I know that everything sucks and everyone leaves. plus he doesn't trust us. and it's your fault, u had to go tell him what ved said u absolute numbskull.

how do we fix this? we don't. we let it unroll, ba dum tis. you knew you were gonna be horribly broken apart yet you chose to get completely attached to him anyways so it's like your fucking fault alright. now you deal with it, fuck if you get low though, fuck we arent making out of this alive are we?

College is going to be something though. how am I gonna live without him ( you sound like a dwweeeebb), shush I can be in love ( ur not in love) I am though. he's gonna leave u. yes that even I know, nothing can be this good. we r gonna study thru this. yep, ggs fuck can I just be numb instead of low and teary abt this.

[thelivingsin]

try not to do any activity on discord other than staying invisible and focus on your own mental health in 3, 2, 1, go! (has started since morning)

seriously though.

i miss those two, i wish i was able to say hi in the server but mentally and emotionally i'm not doing well. sorry guys :(

[dreamcast-official]

huh.

[carcinized]

i have srsly had irl queer people make fun of me for being queer + liking sports and tell me that is like, not gay or something. like ok just say youre chronically online. womens soccer is the queerest thing i have ever been a part of hands down. also youre an awful person

[britneyshakespeare]

ppl will just reblog posts w outright historical misinformation in them

[hadrianblackwaters]

I am SO excited for Drumindor to come out, do you have any hopes for that book? Scenes you want to see or development you hope will happen?

Ok again, I think I am SO late in answering this!

And anon my brain is full of holes like the cheese from working an adult job this year and I desperately need to reread the books to actually deserve my username. I am, however, also VERY excited for Drumindor! I, like everyone else on this webbed site I think, love a good heist plot and MY GOD a good heist plot with Royce and Hadrian? Heaven truly is a place on Earth! I want to see them bicker and I want to see them stressed out when they're making their little plans they never end up actually following :')

But mostly I hope we get to see them being friends and see them care for each other in their own weird ways. I kinda hope we get some more emo scenes from Hadrian, I love when he's being tortured by dark scenes from his past and I love when he's mean and a bit scary :') It's funny when no one takes him seriously when he's brooding, but I do also hope we get to see someone (preferably Royce) acknowledging him and his past.

I also hope we get to see some prime himbo behaviour from both of them. Of course.

I am sorry that I can't give a more intelligent answer than this right now, but I need to reread the books because I've forgot so much. It's a real shame! :(

Also PLEASE tell me what you are excited about, too!! Anyone feel free to reblog this with an answer or to reply to it, I'd love a discussion on it and to hear from ppl who actually remember more of the lore!!