#i don't give a fuvk about Earth!

[lastmanstandin]

#winter #Snow #kitchenerwaterloo #2023

[trinitywc]

On chapter 15 of Endless Winter currently, and loving every moment of it but the lead up to some projects and finals is gonna gear up within the next week so I won't be able to finish as fast as I would like to. Given that, I wanted to verbally dog ear my place & jot down some thoughts before they escaped me (particularly my appreciation for the way you portray character dynamics and the nuance you provide that I could sit and stew on for hours).

I've been enjoying Rutherford and Pinefrost's interactions a great deal. I get the feeling he loves infodumping about his interests, and particularly likes how good a listener, as well as perceptive, that Pinefrost is. She's sharp in more ways than one! and I also particularly adore the way Pinefrost often uses his explanations and points when he is explaining things to her as an anchor for her wandering mind during the present in a way that doesn't make her feel as though she's out of the loop or excluded unlike past scenes when the gang is discussing whether to stay or leave the domicile. Those two bounce off one another so well, and in such a way that it makes it so apparent how isolated Pinefrost has been even amongst her surviving group, and even before that when Creek Clan was still intact. Her loneliness has been really keen in previous chapters, and it's nice to see her feeling like she has a companion that shows her just as many new things as she can with honing Rutherford different skills.

That being said, while I really enjoy Rutherford, I don't know if I trust him fully. He's been dependable and a great source of support for the group, but I can't help wondering about his intentions. Perhaps he just wants company! But it strikes me as odd that he's giving away resources when he was so skeptical of Pinefrost giving Sedgenose her fresh kill, and is directing them all out of the city purely out of the goodness of his heart and during the thick of winter, no less. It makes me wonder to what end he plans to act as a tag along with the group, and not to mention he'd have to make the entire trip back to the city by himself once they get to the river! He seems like too much of an intellectual city slicker to want to rough it with the gang when/if they reunite with the clans... clan??? (Creekwood consolidation with the survivors perhapseth???) Surely he's not doing all this JUST because he met our intriguing mule headed protagonist, could he?

Crackpot theory but maybe he's not leading them to where he say he is- but then again he hasn't lied even with the explanation of the atom to Pinefrost. Crackpot theory #2, he seems to have observed Pinefrost's reluctance to leave, and her feelings of insecurity that she confided over what they have the possibility to come back to with the clans and I have to wonder if he'll use that to either isolate her (unhealthy option) or encourage her (healthier alternative!!!) to stay with him instead. The summary certainly implies so! Crackpot theory #3 combination of both #1 & #2.

Then a random comment and some purely satirical jokes that are essentially nonsense, feel free to skip;

"She had one option, and that was through. Through the winter, through the atom."

SO INCREDIBLY METAL, LOVE THIS. HAUNTING, GUT WRENCHING, TRAGIC IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE- A CAR CRASH YOU CAN'T AVOID OR REDIRECT. So much of ch 11 in particular to be honest! Rutherford's entire explanation left me with dreams. I left it waking up and checking my little kitty cat's nose for black ash.

Pinefrost: Oh yeah we knew this would happen, sedgefrost had a vision from star clan that the great light would take us out :/

Rutherford: the FUCK? the HUH?

Everytime Sedgenose or Woolycloud have an interaction with Pinefrost, I'm that one twitter reaction video, "-and she's the mother, she's mother earth, she is mother gaia, she is YOUR mother 👁👄👁"

I AM ON THE FUVKING FLOOR WITH THOSE MEMES THATS SO FUCKING FUNNY

Good luck with your exams!!!

"I get the feeling he loves infodumping about his interests, and particularly likes how good a listener, as well as perceptive, that Pinefrost is" - It’s kinda shown but Rutherford starts talking to Sedge and Wooly first before diverting to Pinefrost, he couldn’t get the same conversation about the world and atom and stuff from them; they really just click. If they had a glass porch table and a bottle of wine they’d talk for hours and hours. They are both very curious cats, for better or worse.

"Those two bounce off one another so well, and in such a way that it makes it so apparent how isolated Pinefrost has been even amongst her surviving group, and even before that when Creek Clan was still intact" - they do have such good chemistry imho. I wanted Rutherford to be a friend for Pinefrost, genuinely. She is a very lonely little cat. As is he, they are both on each others level, she is able to understand his city/atom terms where other cats cannot, and he is eager to learn more about the world outside the city. Pinefrost needs that understanding/knowledge of the world to feel more secure, and Rutherford gives it her in spades.

"it strikes me as odd that he's giving away resources when he was so skeptical of Pinefrost giving Sedgenose her fresh kill, and is directing them all out of the city purely out of the goodness of his heart" -everything is a means to an end ;) As for your theories… i love em both. I love getting people’s midway theories!

There is no way but through!!!

[pinkpicket]

What is the best and worst quality of your future spouse? A TAROT READING

Okay uglies im back with another reading. Hope u enjoy.

Pile 1

Best quality: constantly on the road traveling so ver adventurous and spontaneous. Like u know how some people never settle somewhere? Ya they're that it's like they left their hometown and ever since they never stopped. Tbh im getting vibes of being on tour like someone sorta famous ( idk if u know the song ride by lana del rey but it beautifully captures the life of ur future spouse but in a more negative light so no worries the song doesn't exactly show how they feel emotionally) so verrry wild and untamable

Worst quality: someone overly emotional that tend to ignore all the red flags just for the sake of love so very naive. It could also mean not being emotionally stable like overly emotional but also not emotionally available. It's a very weird combo.

Pile 2

Best quality: they're very happy with what they have, it might not be the best possible and most beautiful thing in the world but they're very happy with it. So it's like whatever or whoever im stuck with im very happy with even tho others might not seem it as worthy. They truly seem like someone that's very grateful for everything they have I actually can hear them say " so what if u r not the most beautiful person to them? So what if we're not filthy rich or extra fucking happy?? I love you that's all that matters. Our thing might be little and forgetful to others but to me it's all i ever wanted. You're all i ever wanted and I don't care if there's better people out there bc at the end of the day you are all i want" wow okay listen I'll be honest with you, out of all the piles only urs is true love. Unconditional love. That's one fucking loyal spouse let me tell you. And they'll be very fucking proud of the way u r and won't ask you to change a thing about urself bc what u r is already perfect to them. Truly beautiful.

Worst quality: honestly their wosrst quality is not something they can ever control it's like life loves to fuck with this person and that's actually the reason they learned to appreciate and love little things. They weren't just born grateful no they learned to be grateful. So it's almost like life ever game them the chance to ever truly bloom to their full potential almost like setback after setback. They were never given once in a lifetime chance. They're also kinda shy which makes sense for someone that's not used to be in the light or the centre of attention. Honestly this makes me so sad bc none of this was ever their fault, they were a victim of circumstance.

You really got the longest reading lmaooo.

Pile 3

Ohhh lot's of air energy.

Best quality: they're veryyy humble and down to earth. U would never see them bragging even they are the most successful person. Truly a rare quality to have nowadays.

Worst quality: ok shit um soo... they might not always have the best intentions like they do certain good deeds just to get something in return. They're not exactly the knight with the shining armor that does everything to save the princess just out of the goodness of his heart, rather im-going-to-save-the-princess-bc-the-king-wil-give-me-something-in-return type of knight.

Pile 4

Best quality: they're the winner lmaoo and everyone is either jealous of them or they wanna be them. They're constantly celebrated for their achievements and they know their fucking worth too. They're proud of themselves.

Worst quality: oohhh we got the master planner. See now that can be a good thing but in this case it's not. U might be wondering why? Well... they don't care they'll play dirty if it means for them to win. They would sit their asses down and have a whole plan to ruin someone's life just so they can celebrate another win for 5 min. Very dangerous so don't fuvk with them unless u wanna get fucked over.

[entoman-created-by-the-tallgreys]

People say sex is the greatest Fucking Thing

And then it's over and people whine it again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and you die and you're born again and again and again and because of pedophiles they want you to do sex as soon as you're a kid so it's going to happen even longer so you'll just infinite cycle lust now I'm not a Christian by any means I am not of this schizophrenic religion and callings Christianity schizophren and get a major major understatement

But I'm not part of this this Cult of what yeah I understand that you can make the body feel really really good I understand there are things you can do to flesh that give you something called pleasure but pleasure it's like physical pain doesn't last

Sometimes what is the meaning to anything what is the purpose ?

Besides the small-minded trying to keep everyone alive I found more purpose when I was in death and I wasn't life actually life destroyed everything that was my soul I gained nothing from being alive besides hurry up a useless meaningless experiences that I couldn't give a flying fuvk* about

There is nothing in my life I hold precious or sacred if that doesn't say something to you about how worthless at least me in my life if I don't know what does I've experienced tons of video games more than you probably have even imagined I don't care about any of them I mean some I like more than others but I don't care

I have more knowledge and data on my computer on aliens and I know anyone in this world probably even more than the FBI

I've seen so many real life paranormal accounts I was put on this Earth by the grave themselves and I just don't care

I mean I'm dead inside I hurt severely I don't want this lifetime and I can't get rid of it even if I tried suicide is not an option

They won't let me kill myself no matter how hard I try they have control of this body like 1,000 demons have possessed me

They won't let me die on any account whatsoever to me I am to them I am precious but to me I am not

I can't wait to end my existence

That may be the thing that I truly want at the end of virus I would ever walk 11 miles

I swear this down through history there's been thousands if not millions of accounts of people having to walk a little long journey and it gets more paranormal messed up the further they go now I'm going to walk this journey I'm just going to walk it cuz I don't value my life I don't even value my soul

But I won't make a deal with the devil because he's just that bad

He sucks at business so effing bad and people who don't even care about their own soul won't make a deal with him

I'm not the only one

I just don't know what I want to do with myself I can't escape Earth I can't escape Society I can't escape these responsibilities forced upon me I can't escape anything

WHERE THE FUCK DOSE THE FREE IN FREE WILL COME FROM ! ???

What !?

I'm sentient conscious and I can control my body !?

I don't know, I don't care

Had a little bit of wisdom for you the older you get the less you give a Shit

I know this because when you were a little kid you love to play in your room and play video games and you thought the video games or is magical as a whole a real holy book

Then you realize it was just a stupid game

You looked at anime cartoons if they were spiritual and sacred and magical and now you know they're just colorful cartoons that are highly detailed !

As you get older you look back and you realize all the things you thought were important we're not important and you just left with yourself in an empty room sad Alone lost and extremely confused

Most people try to hide the fact or try to escape their own mind and go somewhere else and some people seek out the Divine only to find out that all religions on the Earth are one big lie

I'm doing the same but in my own way I don't know where I want to go but I don't know if I want to be Fae

The Grays are trying to turn everyone into insectoids

They're trying to bug a Fy the whole world

As for me I don't know where to go I don't know if I should go if I could go

God's creations and extremely cruel place and the universe is cold but no effing face !

Nothing in the Lord's creation has any Grace !

And all the creatures in the universe he made unlimited life forms and they're all their own race

I'm only kicked in the ass cuz I can't keep up the pace I don't care the fact that I was forced into the human race

I know for sure that I'm a bug inside even if the DNA has been locked away and deeply it hides

I don't know where I want to go I don't want to mate

I don't look at women I really want to steal my fate - Aka Vore

There's no soul that I want to bond with

I just want to fade away because if I never exist

. . .

Chocolate fact everyone is scared of me disgusted and effing pissed

I can't find anything where I can't go down that kick and not missed !

Either way if not the worst of my life is a curse

Every second of every minute of every hour every day my life literally just gets worse

. . .

That's not the reason why I try to go into enlightenment and get immersed

I'm afraid of from the creation I want to get away from God I don't want to meet the devil I know that sounds odd

I want to escape his creation and all of his will, most people I hear anything I have to say about fairies and aliens think I need to be back on the pill - 😡

But to the end of the day I Swear what I say and yes I 100% Will Die on that Hill

😡

Either way that's not the matter of fact that I wanted to say, this post is not majority of me being Fae

I just don't know why I'm on this Earth at the end of the day

Why is this my faith why am I here why do I have to suffer this pain and always being fear

Why do I have to be broken and always being tears

I don't show it on my face or my body at all I don't let you know my pain and all that I saw

I keep it locked inside my body has no expression

Because if I knew if I let people see what goes on inside me all I'll get is the Aggression 😡

And even if you believe me and you're a kind soul

A good way to do all that done are all going to be in dust in the wind one day in front of the rising Sun

One day all the buildings on Earth will be dust in the wind Matt is not your virtue is that you commit nothing but sin

Weather u Be, Pure evil or great good in the end We'll all be scattered bones in the neighborhood

🤷🏻‍♂️

I just wait and I wash the sky to see if the alien agenda will make people die, I watch and wait for that Faith to see if the war that is said to be great

I wait and wait and wants the sky and watch the Blue Beam's Make people die

So far I'm asking the UFOs are not making people Fry

Annabelle done Saturday happens and it gets over even then I don't think I'm going to find a Four Leaf Clover