#i do wonder if its someone playing into it for someone reason. tryingto do something nice for me by being mean

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trust me, i KNOW going for your self esteem would be better, but why waste my time tearing you down if you do it for me. you clearly give the answers you do so your little internet friends will validate you. its easier to just hate you.

it actually makes me uncomfy when ppl are nice to me, i dont knnw how to respond and its not very nice to tell someone to stop or to shut them down when they make the effort to be supportive of me eveneif i dont want them to,

i guess i do have internet friends on tumblr, i only personally talk to like 2 or 3 of them but not as often as i should, i have a hard time responding to messages n stuff. i do like a lot of my mutuals tho! terminally online so parasocial relationship is strong