#i do not think the PT/OT people i saw were equipped to actually help me. but then again i didn't know i had low muscle tone until then.

[dissociacrip]

i kinda wish the PT people went through with that custom orthotic thing because now idk how much my discomfort with walking could be improved with something like that if it potentially improves knee-ankle-foot alignment.

and yesterday i noted how uncomfortable it was for me to walk (like, not painful unless i'm walking for a while, but like i've posted about before, walking just Feels Wrong and Unpleasant most of the time, but idk if my gait is visibly abnormal to anyone outside of those with relevant PT education) and i'm probably not aware of that discomfort most of the time bc i grew up this way thinking i was just "out of shape" bc that's what my mother always told me.

i have to wonder what the child welfare agency who "diagnosed" me or w/e told my parents about my hypotonia bc if they thought it would go away they were very very very wrong.

my OT had to google what hypotonia was. lol.