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You have synesthesia?? How does that work for you? Is this how you manage to use the word “meat” in a way that makes me go “holy shit that’s good and cool i need to read that sentence four more times” instead of “ew”?????
I do!!! Letters, numbers, and words all have colours and sometimes visual textures for me-- and while numbers and letters on their own are generally only a single colour (7 is a bright, grassy green!!! while "K" is a pale peachy pink, for example :] ), when i put them into words they often take on entirely new colours, some of which even bleed into each other like watercolour paints. Ironically, its why i use the UK spelling of "colour" in the first place-- the "u" turns what looks like a dull, desaturated blue into a smeared blue-and-purple that i find really pretty to look at :]] so when i say i like to paint with words, i kinda mean that literally 😂😂😂😂😂
But yeah, i'd imagine thats why my writing is Like That™ to some degree-- a lot of what im doing behind the scenes involves matching the colours and visual textures of a given word with all of the others in order to evoke a particular vibe or image in my writing. There are a lot of layers to how i write, but this is probably the one that takes both the most time AND is the one i happen to talk about the least WKDJWKSJEJ
#shouting speaks#asks#discovered the word ''halation'' yesterday as well which is a dark burnt orange at the beginning of the word that bleeds into periwinkle#on the back end#which was like. perfect for what i wanted in the scene#since a lot of the words AROUND it are various shades of browns oranges reds and creams#i think the colours i see the most of are purples greens and oranges tbh. p much every word with a Q and U in it has a shot of purple#if not taken over by it entirely#for those curious A is blue B is red C is a darker green#i made a chart once with hex codes to show what i see to other ppl but i have ZERO clue where it is now#the other funny thing ive noticed is that when numbers combine their individual colours stay the same#they dont blend like letters in words do#75 is green and magenta respectively the same way 7 and 5 are#36 is yellow and orange same as 3 and 6 when separated#its funny but helps me remember stuff quick im like REALLY good at remembering like. card numbers and license plates bc of it#txt
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The Person of Interest, previously known as "The Guy" before finding out they are also genderqueer and uses they/them exclusively, just sent me a voice message and the nerves are nerving, why am i nervous to open a voice message 🙃
#kee speaks#i dont remember if i talked about that conversation#i'd been anxious to bring up the gender thing cause i didn't know where they stood on that#considering we met while working at a christian summer camp and they attended two christian colleges near me#so we were both very in that situation when we met so i was anxious that maybe they still had that mind set#and the fear that they'd react badly upon me coming out#but i finally broached the topic by just asking 'a weird question but are you still xtian?' lol#they in fact are very much not and are norse pagan#and they mentioned some gender exploration as they left xtianity so we were able to get into that#it's honestly wild how similar our lives have been cause our marriages lasted about the same amount of time and we divorced at the same tim#left xtianity around the same time and discovered our gender queerness/sexual queerness around the same time#it's wild#but we've been chatting on and off and sending reels back and forth on instagram#but today i was cleaning out my car in order to sell it (got my new truck yesterday~) and I found a pin i made at camp#with my 'camp name' on it and i'm like 80% sure that this person was the one who gave me that camp name so i sent a pic of it to them#and they sent a voice message in reply and I'm anxious to open it now lol#I'm wondering if it's going to be them yelling that name the way they would when they'd see me across the dinner hall lmao
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Huge day for annoying Rories
#I want to know what historical figure he apparently is !??! I feel like itll pretty funny if revealed...#I assume they can't say it because it will be revealed in his dlc. (Coping)#Its funny I was just looking at the mythology of Odin because of his similarities to Raven like yesterday#And Odin was born before Christ so ...though he is a mythological character and not historical though#But I wouldn't be surprised if in the Guilty Gear universe Odin was just a real guy or something#I need Raven in Strive season 4 please god .#I really dont know how to feel if him being older than jesus is true LMFAO like that's kind of an annoying retcon when so much#previous material establishes he was born in the holy roman empire & was drafted into the war#and thats how he 'died' and discovered he was immortal. Also all of his silly little german man quirks#(scratches head) Ohhhhhh Daisuke Ishiwatari you done this again to my pre-established canon
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issue w wanting to write prycecutter centric post-canon longfic is inevitably you have to write doug and renee and isabel and daniel. who are all unknowable and impossible forever
#953w#i rlly dont understand how most fics in the tag are about the crew. discovered yesterday that theres 20-27 pryce+cutter fics TOTAL?? insane#im no stranger to smaller pairings (dh yuri enjoyer) but it is so hard to believe. like those are the most interesting characters innit
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Hi guess who feels like he just experienced 8 consecutive days in a matter of 2?
#rennikorambles#holy fuHUCK I AM SO EXHAUSTED. I AM LITERALLY EXHAUSTED#I WOULDNT BE SURPRISED IF I SAY THIS MIGHT BE THE MOST EXHAUSTING TWO DAYS OF MY FUCKING EXISTENCE...#yesterday in class our very first subject was our advisory one and since the cheer dance has been crucial we just went down to practice#great straining start to the day! (i do like our cheer dance though i think we'll beat the other sections but MAN IS IT TIRING.)#and then i had to go over to the avr to get prized and shit for winning 1st place on the spelling bee(it was nothing dont even care abt it)#and then after that immediately had to go down (since this was the end of class) and practice AGAIN for 2 more hours#good god and thats friday for you#and im pretty sure this was when i discovered that my brother (who usually goes home at 4 and my practice ended then)#had left me behind and gone home already. and like usually whenever i have practice and end at 4 we just go home w#*together#but. yeah. that didnt have me feeling good but it was okay#and when i was ready to pass out hoHOH NOO NONO#my aunt decided hey! we should celebrate your wonderful high grades by going out together (me my brother and my cousin) and h#have a sleepover! and we were just. sure ok. so we had to pack IMMEDIATELY and get on going#more stuff and more waiting in traffic happened and shit and more shit#and then we got to the street mall and hogh boy MORE WALKING. but i love the place so i didnt mind (still walking though. haugh)#and then ate at a place ive never eaten at. i liked the food really! but then my stomach decided death for me#(apparently eating dinner 9 hours after lunch isnt good..?) so the rest of the time my stomach was squeezing and i felt like throwing up#but it was fine i didnt throw up! AND THEN ALSO I FAILED TO MENTION. My class paid to reserve 4 hours at a court to practice#which was at 10 am the next day. so i had to sleep early which i did! woke up at 7 <3 watched enola holmes....#bUT I STILL GOT SO FUCKING LATE I ARRIVED AT 11. didnt even get to savor the sleepover haugh..... and then practice OH practice. sufferings#after a whole problem with a bunch of idiots at the court that barged in we decided to cut the practice at 12:30#i got picked up by my parents then we went home! .BUT ITS NOT OVER YET. WE HAD TO BRING OUR HOUSEHELP TO HER HOUSE#and they said it'd be quick. just a quick drop off to help her.#bUT NOOOOO WE WENT TO THE FILIPINO EQUIVALENT OF COSTCO AND THEN AN AMUSEMENT PARK#WHICH WAS SO COOL OH MY FUCK BUT ALSO HOLY SHIT.#first of all i got to finally try the Vikings ride and a roller coaster! good news i can handle roller coasters!#bad news i cannot handle vikings. theyre.... overwhelming- i couldnt even SCREAM from how scared i was#anyways i roamed phil costco it was so fun. but my poor feet. i have sustained 5 different kinds of body pain.
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Pokemon AlteRed With Gun is um. Really good so far?
The last time i tried AlteRed was a couple years back and the sprites were...pretty bad. Evidently the team refined a lot of their ideas and made some genuinely excellent pokemon in the end.
Here. Just one example.
This is Zigzagrub. It's a bug/electric retype of Zigzagoon. It has some fun ideas, and the core color palette is pretty good, but the shading is off and the freehand spritework is less than stellar. It's pretty average as far as rom hack spriting goes. This is from the original AlteRed, it's what I encountered in version 10.2.
THIS is the modern Zigzagrub.
Holy SHIT what a pokemon! FosterZ and Chairry did this according to the doc and just look at that little guy! It's still recognizably a Zigzagoon retype, but it's also a firefly and those BLUES. I saw that and said "I NEED IT." This sprite is in AlteRed With Gun and i believe is also in the current version of the original AlteRed.
It shows an incredible improvement in the art department, and it gets me excited to find out what else they've done to the pokemon i know and love. AlteRed With Gun is sort of a difficulty hack, a companion to AlteRed they apparently released for April Fool's. As old school binary hacks they have their bugs, but come on. Go back and look at the Zigzagrub. That's a friend.
For me a rom hack lives and dies by the quality of its sprites and AlteRed is thriving. I'm personally extremely pleased with how it's developing, and I'm having enough fun with it in a casual playthrough i might even do a challenge run or two.
#idk i felt compelled to review this rom hack i started playing yesterday#its just fun and it has so many cool sprites#apparently one of the bugs is that all the in-game trade pokemon are in this weird state of like#both shiny and normal. they appear shiny and their battle intro includes the sparkles but their summary page is that of a normal pokemon#same sprite but no star no blue panel nothing. its super weird lmao#the one bug im actually a little miffed by is this one that affects Substitute.#not the move the pokemon. Substitute exists to give you exp but its also catchable albeit with a comically low catch rate.#i had an easier time catching byoxys#once you catch substitute though you will discover that it doesnt do anything you want it to#it acts as though you dont have enough gym badges for its level even when its level 4 and you are the ot#anyway i have three of them and two are shiny and i want to use them very badly so i hope this is a fixable issue and not like#a load bearing coconut where if you get rid of it the whole thing breaks
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good news gang we do not have a pep rally
#yesterday someone in the humanities gc said gang and a dude thought she meant the crip way and not the scooby doo way#and he was like no i dont wanna hear it yr a Law Abiding Citizen. and i (as a joke) (unofficial leader of this gc)#was like you dont know me ive pirated a movie#and he was like yr parents can afford a maid stfu (SMILE AND LAFF YALL 😭)#this dude also lives in the same neighborhood as the girl he said this to. like hello#ok post canceled someone is in the same gc rn acting like she just discovered sparknotes#hello.
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im gonna start going to therapy again
#i had a fight with my parents in which they discovered for the like hundredth time that i have depression and they were like#why dont u just talk about it normally ???? and first because no second because my mom gets mad at me for being depressed and third because#i already did so many times and every time it leads to nothing because they just dont care and forget about it within like two days#its been 10. TEN years of agonizing psychological hell and they still refuse to acknowledge that i am depressed#i mean i even changed like five therapists in the mean time… that should tell them something#but yea i think after when was said yesterday i will probably go back into therapy.. hopefully because my brain is going to some really#*what#upsetting places so i really need it
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honestly, picture in picture view has completely negated my need to ever use my phone when im not on the move
it is vv bad for my studying habits, since now i cant actively put away my phone to not be distracted, but also, i have two videos, and a stream open at the same time, while playing my music and trying to review a report, and i am the exact amount of overstimulated to be at least sorta effective at working
#this close to also opening a podcast#but i think that may be a bit much#i switched to firefox like a year ago but have only now discovered i can have multiple picture in picture views open at the same time#also i think this is like a ff thing right? never noticed it being possible in chrome#seriously tho#i dont think ive opened my phone since before my meeting yesterday evening#and that was only bc i needed to pick ppl up and i didnt have my laptop w. me#caffeines cackles
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i need to study for my final which is at 2pm <- i have not studied at all for it. but i am sooo sleepy
#i fell asleep at like 10:30 and woke up at 7:45 . like. 9 and a half hours of sleep. and i didnt even do anything taxing yesterday#but i got up and went to the campus coffee shop and got a little hot chocolate and now that ive finished it i have to start studying#but im soooo sleepy like i cant even describeit. i could just close my eyes and fall aslee right here#also im busy eavesdropping on these girls at the next tabel over. i started listening to them bc they were talking abt using ai for hw#and i dont like when people do that so i listen to them with an air of unease#but now theyre talking abt planes and ive discovered that one of them has a dad who lives in austria#talkin
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just had 2 deliveries back to back
#logbook#was out counting yesterdays delivery 30 min before most staff get in. then the first delivery camr like 5 min after.#then we got another delivery sitting and waiting while we finished the first.#NOW at 10a i can go back and finish yesterdays delivery.#at least fake birth isnt killing me today. and i dont have a bad migrainr.#today i feel oh so much better#LOL anyways. its been a morning. only 10a. what more will we discover. .
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uh oh
#ok yesterday i got a grade back which assured i got enough credit to continue my study next year. awesome.#and yesterday was also the confimation that my brother (14) could go to his next grade.#both of us had been a bit uncertain on whether we'd pass or not but weve made it =w=bb YIPPEEE#awesome. good for us.#now..... brother (18) has throughout the year been veryvery excited about his study. mom has admitted he had the least of her worries.#but. guess who. was not able to make it.#ITS SO UPSETTING AND IM NOT EVEN HIM.#(guy discovers empathy)#it is heartbreaking.#the way our colleges work is that since he hasnt reached the minimum he cant do this study for like 5 years.#so he has to find an entirely different study he has to commit to.#im. i dont know.#sillyposting#i genuinely did not see this coming. i was mentally prepared if me or the youngest didnt make it (as prepared as i could be anyway)#but. waugh.#this whole year he has been calling himself an engineer and all and i hope to GOD he can find something that works for next year.#i do wish him the best. i will even probably withhold jokes about it.#god bless him
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Really fightin the urge to go make the last of my taquitos
#my wife is going to roll her eyes when she sees this probably lol#i have discovered taquitos#and i dont know why but i wanted nothing to do with them growing up#i probably ate a really spicy one or it had something i didnt like in it and it turned me away from them#but now im like#i could finish a box in a day if i didnt hold back#and i just got this box YESTERDAY#I LOVE THEM I WAS SUCH A FOOL
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i still haven't understood the purpose of the gift giving system in dragons dogma cause. it seems like having a high bond with a npc can be obtained tru other means (exhausting their dialogue options, completing quests for them) and maxing out their bond doesn't make a tangible difference, so far, in the story. but i'm quite obsessed with it because it seems to give additional cute info about characters which i find so endearing...i love useless info
#yesterday i discovered that julien's favorite gift is cake#i dont even like him that much but its So endearing to make the stoic knight type's favorite gift be smth unassuming like food..#gnawing at the bars of my enclosure#a
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DONT MAKE FUN OF HIM HES TRYING 2 FIND IT
((he cant feel it, 2 muhc hair))
been seenin' this meme everywhere,,, he been rattling in my head for awhile now lol
#IDK THE ORIGINAL IMAGE UR REFERING 2 SLUIGGY BUT THIS IS JSUT SO CUTE SO LIEK AJKSFHAJSF#this wormup got away from me...........#technically this is a colored sketch#ANWYAYS ANWYAYS DARK BROWN HAIRED BART SUPREMACY WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO#back 2 my origins just 4 funzies#i keep liek pinching sluggys drwaing its so cute KJAHSfkjd#I DIDNT SEE IT YESTERDAY IM UPSET#oh shit wait#eyestrain#im discovering i should put eyestrain 4 like every art post i do nowwwwwww((that i color))#srry 2 ppl who dont like bright colors but also like bleh pretty colors 4 meee#1 day ill draw bart when some1 forces him 2 tak care of his hair#bc my hc rn is that he just shakes his head like a dog until its dry#water droplet pellets- BULLETS????? if he shakes his head @ supespeed would they bcome lethal? idk#anwyays im having fun but now i must go abck 2 working damn#I HOPE U HAD A GOOD SLEEP SLUGGYYYY!!!!!!#SWEET DREAMS 4 THIS NIGHT BTW!!!!!!!#bart allen#dc#reblog#๑ï#sluggy ๑ï#puppee art#pup legit hardwired my brain now bort stays up here more then he used to rent free#<- prev#ME MENTION ME MENTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i just talk about the silly guy & he infects u himself <333 JFKHJDSHF#bart bart abrtbabarbt borrt btoabrt
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do you like scary movies?
synopsis - taking an acting job may end up with you discovering alot more about the esteemed director than you wished you would've known
includes - mr reca
warnings - gn!reader, fluff??, mentions of murder, minor character death, wc - 1.5k
a/n: this possessed me yesterday... i dont like it that much but here you go! happy halloween to those who celebrate :) shouts to @mitsvriii (reca kisser in denial) + @theother-victoria / @https-sourlimes (my fellow ceos of the reca fanclub) for proofreading!! and victoria has kind of enticed me to make a part two...
“it's a bit insensitive, don't you think?” another of actor whispered to you
mere moments ago, you had all been handed the newest script for the highly esteemed mr reca's new film. you had always wanted to have a part in one of his films and so when you saw a post about auditions on paperfolds university notice board, you jumped at the opportunity, to say the audition was nerve-wracking would be a massive underestimate. for one of your first auditions, going for a role in mr reca's film was certainly ambitious.
but by some stroke if luck, you landed a part. and the lead role at that - you swore you nearly ascended to aeonhood when you received the news. the nerves never really went away however, now you felt an immense pressure to do well. mr reca himself had chosen you to play a lead role in his new film. you couldn't let him down.
on the initial audition post, it detailed how it was for roles in a horror film, nothing else. he could be quite secretive like that. so as soon as all roles had been chosen the scripts were handed out in complete confidence and you were all informed of when you needed each part memorized.
“i mean sort of? but people make documentaries all the time…” another one actor whispered before they were quickly shut down by the former who angrily whispered back,
“yeah but those are documentaries! and normally they have eyewitness testimonies!! not some actors acting out stories around it!!”
your slightly scrunched your eyebrows as you re-read the script. you could definitely see it as being somewhat insensitive. it was very evident that the director had taken some inspiration from the current serial killings that were plaguing penacony and outside the dreamscape.
there had been multiple instances of various penacony goers suddenly becoming unresponsive in the dreamscape and then later found dead in their hotel rooms in the real world. it had taken penacony by storm and multiple messages from the family had been issued to try and calm the masses.
although the family's noticeable lack of actual action was what caused most of the panic, they only addressed it and told people to stay safe. not taking any proper action like they should be doing.
this was probably why mr reca began directing a horror film now, with everyone's eyes on the news about this masked killer horror was all the rage - it would be weird if not even one director didn't capitalize of this event as morbid as that may seem.
but some days, penacony was the emptiest it had ever been due to the constant fear of becoming the serial killer's next victim. apparently, however, mr reca didn't seem to be phased by such fads. as written in the scripts were detail for detail deaths that perfectly resemble their real life counterparts.
each one even had a perfect example for how the kill was carried out which, admittedly, sent a shiver down your spine. it wasn't exactly unknown that reca used some real life scenarios to model parts of his films, but this did seem excessive. but you weren't really in a position to argue against him.
so while your fellow actors bickered about the script, you bit your tongue and held your thoughts in - despite the constant unease that plagued the back of your mind. you were an actor, this was a film. all you had to do was memorize your lines and prove to mr reca that he chose the right person to play the main character.
the first few days of filming had gone well, so far your character had yet to encounter the killer and was living up to the overused “plot armor” character. from what you had read in the script, your character was meant to live until the end, losing all your friends along the way and narrowly escaping death more times than you could count. typical horror movie protagonist.
you had to admit, mr reca certainly was… out there when it came to the creative liberty he had taken about the backstories of how the kills were carried out. you could almost imagine that he was there with how well thought out it was - especially paired with how accurately detailed the kills were… even though the family kept most of the details secret…
he probably had a way of getting those. probably best not to dwell on it.
everything went rather smoothly until the last couple scenes. your character was meant to encounter the killer face to face for the first time after seeing your best friend be killed - in the same manner as the last victim that lost their life a couple days before filming to the real serial killer - and then you'd run away and survive. pretty standard acting in your eyes.
but when you entered the studio, the first thing you noticed was the lack of other actors or crew. the only other person you had seen so far was the other actor who was meant to be playing the role of ��your best friend” but they were leaving as you entered.
then you encountered mr reca himself, standing in the middle of the set half dressed in the exact same outfit as the real masked killer detailed by the family to watch out for. he was really making this authentic huh?
“mr reca, sir, i didn't know you were playing a role in your own film?” you poised, you knew he'd be there with his assistant but that was to oversee the filming but you hadn't expected him to take up a role himself.
he hummed “yes. normally i don't but i deemed my original choice unfit and it's too late for replacements” the costume certainly fit him too well for a last minute replacement.. did he have it made recently?
he took a couple steps over to a table that was on set, looking over it before picking up a knife that seemed a bit too real to be a prop, “plus, i had an idea. a change in scenes you may say and i wanted to personally try out my new idea”
panic flooded your body at the idea of not going by the original script you memorized, but you swallowed any hesitancy and agreed, you could handle an impromptu scene change right? you shakily agreed and sensing your nerves, reca continued
“don't worry, i don't expect you to get it right on the first try, i did drop this on you. i may need to act it out a couple times to decide myself” this time, he stalked over to you and gave you a smirk that set off your fight or flight “i haven't quite decided which kill i prefer yet”
the filming certainly took longer than you anticipated, mr reca kept changing the scenario and you always tried to keep up with his ideas but you were wearing thin. it appeared as though his main change was making your character become the final victim. you knew it was all acting and he was trying to find the perfect end but there was something about how passionate he was about each scenario that unnerved you more and more.
each scenario was so perfectly planned out. you could take a guess that they could all be carried out without a hitch or even a suspect if the current serial killer were to perform them. even halfway through, on one of your breaks, you made a joke about it to him.
“you know, mr reca” he turned to look at you “your scenarios are always really planned out! it's like your a natural at this” you let out a small awkward chuckle as you trailed off
he smiled “a good director must know about what he's directing, that's how a film feels authentic” a small pause as he looked down at the “prop” in his hand, turning it a few times “and even get some hands on experience…”
you couldn't quite catch his last few words so you asked him to repeat but he made a small vague dismissive gesture with his empty hand
“dont worry about it, what's more important is that i think i figured out what i want for the scene” he beamed and so you agreed to wrap up filming for that day.
the next day, for your own piece of mind, you decided to ignore the latest death that occured last night being carried out the exact same way that you acted out with him that previous night.
and you didn't look into the fact that he personally asked you to act again in his next horror film as the main character again. it was all a coincidence right? mr reca wouldn't hurt you if it wasn't though… right?
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