#i choose not to reflect on what that means for me :)

[ninupi]

Hii, can I request headcanons or fic for Mitsuya with a model reader?

crush? | t. mitsuya

₊˚⊹♡ tags; fem!reader, finale timeline so spoilers? mitsuya being a absolute sweetheart as usual, also him struggling a bit as a new designer lol, this is a slowburn ngl...y/n overthinking towards the end

₊˚⊹♡ wc; 3,500+

₊˚⊹♡ a/n; this was a bit vague so I wasn't too sure what you wanted exactly, I didnt mean for this to be so long but then I just kept writing and it became a lot longer then I anticipated LOL also ill probably rename this later, i never even know what to name some of these sometimes

Mitsuya threw down all the photos of headshots his assistant had brought him to look through "This is it?" he sighed rubbing his eyes tiredly. The girl stumbled around a bit "Uh yes sir, that's all of the models...you don't see any you like?" she questioned a bit frustrated.

"I'm sorry, but no, none of them have what I'm looking for exactly..." he sighed, standing up and picking up a headshot of a young man. "None of them? Like not a single one?" the girl questioned, a bit shocked. Mitsuya only shook his head while pacing around. 

"Well, I don't mean to step on your toes or anything, sir, but the show is in two months, and we need to start booking models..." she muttered, looking through her emails, hoping to see a response. You can call Hakkai, and I'll choose some of the people here, but give me a few more days to pick someone for the main piece."

Mitsuya ran a hand through his hair, softly pulling at the roots in frustration. He had someone specific in mind for the main piece of the show. Unfortunately, Okamoto, his assistant, was unable to book you. They didn't even receive an email back from your manager.

Mitsuya knew it'd be a miracle if he were able to book you for his show but he still tried. But now that the odds weren't in his favor he had to find a new model for the face of the show, he could just go with Hakkai. He wasn't too sure Hakkai wanted to sport a dress on the runway though...

You watched from the corner of your eye as your manager angrily swiped through her tablet, hundreds of emails in the reflection of her glasses. You went to say something when you felt a tug on your hair "Could you be a bit more gentle?" you muttered getting fed up, that was the sixth time this stylist had tugged on your hair in the last twenty minutes.

You didn't say anything when he softly apologized while continuing to do your hair in a crazy updo for your upcoming photoshoot. "Are you ok over there? You look like you're about to throw that thing" You call out to your manager who's now angrily typing away on her tablet.

"You would think after sending 15 emails and not receiving a single one back this person would stop emailing me about you," she muttered with furrowed eyebrows, who the hell was blowing up your manager about you anyway? You had just started seriously modeling this year and you've been very successful but you didn't think you were that desired by some people. 

"Who is it? What's it for?" you question now really curious about this person's persistence while shifting in your seat. "I don't even know, it's to walk at some small runway show, nothing worth your time." She sighs lifting her glasses to rest on the top of her head. 

You had only walked a few runways, and each time it was a bit chaotic but you had lots of fun "Oh really, who's the designer? I wouldn't mind doing another runway!" your manager looks at you a bit shocked while you smile at her innocently. 

She quickly recuperates and walks over to you holding out her tablet "He's a small upcoming designer, Mitsuya Takashi? I've never heard of him personally but Hakkai Shiba walks at almost all of his shows." She explains while swiping through some of his designs. 

"No way! I love his clothes, why didn't you tell me sooner?" you whine looking at all the emails his assistant has sent your manager over the last two weeks. You feel yourself basically shaking in excitement at the thought of walking for one of your new favorite designers. 

"I didn't think you even knew who he was, I didn't until I got her emails!" she explains pointing at the tablet in your hands, and to give her credit you had just discovered the upcoming designer recently. 

One of the other models at a photo shoot you were at was wearing a beautiful dress and when you asked her where she got it, she explained that Mitsuya had made it for her as a thank-you for modeling for him. Not only was the man extremely talented, but he also seemed really kind. 

You had always searched for his clothing at any store you had gone to, you never had any luck though. You were thinking about reaching out to him yourself but lately, your schedule has been extremely busy. This was the perfect opportunity you were searching for. 

"Tell him yes, anything he wants, yes I'll do it! If I have stuff scheduled when he needs me, cancel it!" you smile handing your manager her tablet back and standing up seeing now that your hair is done. "B-but what about the shoot with miu miu?" your manager sputtered quickly following behind you.

"Cancel it!" you smile closing your dressing room door in your manager's face. 

When Okamoto barged into Mitsuya's office sputtering about booking you he thought she was crazy. But when she showed him the email from your manager stating you agreed to walk the runway in his clothes he almost passed out. He immediately started stitching together your dress, too excited to sleep even though it was already past midnight.

Now two weeks later, he was almost done with the piece just having to add the tedious details and fix some stitching here and there. But it was also the day you'd come by for the first fitting and be meeting mitsuya for the first time. 

To say he was nervous was an understatement, he kept pricking his fingers while working on the other pieces for the show and stumbling over stray rolls of fabric. He didn't even realize the time until Okamoto came in telling him you'd be there in an hour, he quickly started to clean his office not wanting you to see the chaotic room. 

When he finally finishes cleaning the room he looks around for any stray items lying around. Not seeing a single thing hethrew himself onto his chair when a big sigh, he knew you should be here any moment. He was so nervous he keptthinking about what he'd say to you when he finally met you. 

"Thank you so much for accepting...no thank you for giving me the opportunity...no..." he sighed still not able to think properly when he heard his office door open. Quickly standing up he dusted himself off and watched as you and your manager walked in talking to Okamoto. 

"Yeah I was so jealous after she told me he had custom-made it for her, I was tempted to steal it from her dressing room when she wasn't there!" Mitsuya watched you as you laughed while readjusting your purse on your arm, he doesn't think he's seen a more beautiful woman. 

You were wearing a simple outfit, a black long-sleeve turtle neck, some dark-washed jeans, and a pair of black boots. It was nothing special but Mitsuya thought you looked amazing, he couldn't even bring himself to say something when you looked at him. 

"Oh my god, it's so nice to finally meet you! I've been waiting for this day since Saki told me about this!" you exclaimed briefly motioning over to your manager but quickly making your way to Mitsuya shaking his hand. He could only smile in response a little too shocked to say anything at the moment. 

"Really? I didn't even think you knew who I was..." he awkwardly laughed while shaking your hand "I just discovered you recently from Momo? I'm sure you remember her, you made her that gorgeous custom dress! I've been searching for some of your pieces in stores but I've had no luck" 

Mitsuya was loss for words the more you kept talking, you knew who he was? And you were on the hunt for some of his clothing on your own time? Not even saying anything he immediately bowed at a 90-degree angel "Thank you so much, you don't know how much that means to me, seriously" 

You immediately begin to panic "What? What do you mean I haven't done anything!" you say while bringing him up by his shoulders "You agreeing to model my clothes is good enough, you're a very sought-after model y/n. You wearing my clothes is bound to help me take off as a designer so I thank you." 

You can feel your face flush a bit, you've never had someone be so sincere to you in this industry before. Now you realize you've made a great choice by agreeing to model for Mitsuya, you hope you can continue to work with him in the future. 

"Ok let's get to work before you make me cry or somethin'.." you softly joke taking off your bag and handing it to you Saki "Oh I'm sorry I didn't mean to- ok yeah let's get to work!" Mitsuya stumbles putting his glasses on and grabbing his sketchbook.

"You can take a seat over there if you'd like" Mitsuya motions over to a couch in the corner of his office when he notices your manager aimlessly standing around "Oh thank you, do you mind if I make a few calls and whatnot?" she sighs taking a seat with your stuff. 

"No of course not, if you need anything just ask me or Okamoto" he waves off now walking over to you "I actually already started working on the piece if you'd like to see it? Or even try it on?" he mutters flipping through his sketchbook"Of course I'd like to try it on!" 

The rest of the day was spent talking and getting to know each other while Mitsuya tailored the dress to fit you better and went over the rest of the look with you. He also asked for your input and what you thought would look good or what you'd like to wear, you could help having a small crush on the man after leaving his office that night. 

It's now been two months since you and Mitsuya first met and you two have gotten a lot closer since that day. Some nights after you've finished with your fittings for other designers you'd invite Mitsuya out for dinner, wanting to talk the man more.

And if you two weren't out for dinner you were constantly texting, but now that his show is this weekend you haven't heard much from him. You weren't too surprised you imagined he was extremely busy trying to finish the last details for the show and whatnot, but you had to admit you missed him. 

You just finished with a small photoshoot for a magazine when you checked your phone and saw that he still hadn't responded to your message from this morning. "Loverboy hasn't answered you?" you turn to glare at Saki who ignores you while packing up your stuff. 

"I told you to stop calling him that…but no he hasn't answered" You sigh grabbing your bag from her arm and begin to walk out of the studio "Do you want to stop by his office?" you almost trip when walking down the stairs "What? We can't just stop by his office like that, he's probably really busy!"

Saki only shrugs her shoulders while opening the door to the building allowing you to go first "Why not? You can bring him a coffee or something, I'm sure he'd appreciate it" You bite your lip contemplating it a bit, you really did want to see the man but you also didn't want to bother him if he were busy. 

"Ok yeah let's go, but we have to get coffee from the place by his office, he really likes that place!" you explain while getting into the back of the car with Saki who playful rolls her eyes "Yeah I know you've only told me a thousand times how much he likes that place."

Now standing outside of Mitsuya's office with his and your order in one hand and a box of pastries in the other you wonder if this was a good idea. You two had hung out plenty of times but you'd never shown up at his office unannounced and you hoped your sudden arrival didn't annoy him. 

Before you can even think about turning around his office door opens and you see a beautiful girl walking out on the phone. She doesn't notice you at first too immersed in her conversation but when she does she gives a look of confusion and then goes wide-eyed. 

"Are you here for Takashi?" at first you thought she was one of the other models walking in his show but when she refers to him by his first name you begin to doubt it. Who exactly was she? Mitsuya never mentioned a girlfriend before or anything similar. 

"Yazuha can you go to the bakery down the street and get us some stuff?" you hear someone call from Mitsuya's office making the girl roll her eyes. "Actually it looks like someone is here for Takashi" She then motions for you to walk into the office as she continues her way out the door still on the phone. 

When you walk in you see Mitsuya looking in your direction with a confused face which quickly morphs into a smile "Y/n! What are you doing here?" he quickly makes his way over to you grabbing the sweets and drinks out of your hand and placing them on his desk. 

You quickly glance over the man standing in what you assume will be his runway outfit and back towards Mitsuya "I just wanted to see you, plus you never answered my messages. So I thought you could use some fuel or whatever…I didn't think you'd have other people over I should've gotten more" 

You begin to look through your bag for your wallet going to ask the other man what he'd like "Don't worry about it y/n, I'm sorry for not answering your messages I've been finishing up Hakkai's piece all day. I'm almost done, if you want we can all go grab dinner together or something?" 

You didn't even realize he was leading you to sit over on the couch until you were seated "Oh uh- ok yeah that's fine with me" Then it hits you that you didn't even introduce yourself to the other person in the room. 

"I'm so sorry I'm y/n, I guess we'll be walking in the show together it's nice to meet you" You smile up at the very tall man who just turns away from you with a blank look on his face. What the hell was his deal "This is Hakkai, he's not good at talking to girls so don't take offense. And the girl outside is his sister, Yazuha, I've known both of them since middle school."

You watch Mitsuya continue to work on a few pieces of Hakkai's suit while the boy doesn't say anything just then Yazuha walks back in "Don't bother talking to that guy, he can't talk to girls" You turn to her with a small smile while Mitsuya softly laughs "Yeah Mitsuya's already told me, I'm y/n it's nice to meet you" 

Unlike her brother Yazuha has no problem talking to you "Yeah I know, who wouldn't? You're like one of the top models right now, I thought Takashi was lying when he said he booked you." she muttered while shaking your hand. 

"Ah I'm so glad Okamoto reached out to my manager, it's been so nice working with Mitsuya I hope he and I can keep working together in the future!" You hear Mitsuya curse a bit under his breath "Are you ok Taka-Chan?" you turn and watch as Mitsuya nods sucking on his thumb.

"Y-yeah just pricked my finger a bit, but yeah I've really enjoyed working with you too y/n…" he smiles, and you note his ears are red. You return a bashful smile and turn back towards Yazuha who's giving you a smug look "Right…well if you start working with Takashi a lot then you'll be seeing us a lot too so let's be good friends" 

You've always had after-show jitters but right now you feel like your heart is going to explode out of your chest. The show went great but before the show, you barely had any time to actually talk to Mitsuya, just a quick prep talk and good luck. But right before the show actually started he had told you to immediately find him afterwards. 

You wondered the entire time what is it that he wanted to talk to you about, then you wondered what he'd have to say about your walk. What if he hated it and never wanted you to model for his clothes ever again? You didn't even notice when he knocked on your dressing room door, too preoccupied with your thoughts. 

You only realized he was there when he gently opened the door "Y/n? Are you in here?" you quickly walked over to the door opening it the rest of the way "Oh I'm sorry I wasn't sure you were in here" you notice he has a big bouquet of flowers and an even bigger gift bag in his hand. 

Unable to say anything you just pull him into your dressing room and close the door "Sorry I didn't hear you knocking on the door" you mutter turning to look at him. He doesn't say anything and neither do you for a while until he holds out the bouquet "These are for you…"

You take the flowers from him and notice their your favorite flowers in your favorite color. You also notice how nicely they're wrapped, they had to be really expensive "Mitsuya, these are gorgeous…thank you so much." 

He only shrugs with a shy smile on his face "I wanted you to have something nice… I-I did my best to wrap them but I've never done it before so I'm sorry if it looks a bit sloppy…" He rambles while gently grabbing them from your hands and setting them down. 

You couldn't believe that he took the time to wrap the flowers himself, they look professionally done. You couldn't even deny it anymore if you wanted, you've totally fallen for Mitsuya. He's been nothing but good to you since you first met and watching the way he treats his friends and other models shows that he's just a great guy. 

"Mitsuya they're gorgeous, they look perfect seriously, thank you so much for these." you mutter still admiring the beautiful bouquet "Oh well I'm glad you like them, I also have this for you…" he whispers placing the huge gift bag on a chair in the room leaving you to open it.

You wonder what can be in the bag, it's massive but when you peek inside the bag you don't really see much. Turning to him to give him a suspicious look he just shrugs his shoulders with a cheeky smile "Open it" Turning back towards the bag you pull out the tissue paper. 

At first, you just see some fabric but when you pull it out you notice it's a gorgeous dress. Looking at all the intricate details you're lost for words "Do you like it..?" you hear Mitsuya ask while he walks up closer to you "You made this for me?" 

You turn towards him now holding the dress close to your chest as if he just threatened to take it from you "Yeah I made it last week, if you don't like something I can- No!" he looks at you wide-eyed at your interruption "Sorry but no Mitsuya it's- it's…I seriously don't have words I can't believe you made this for me?" 

He can't help the cocky grin on his face "I'm so glad you like it…" Then you notice his smile falter a bit "Would you like to wear it tonight to dinner…" Was he asking you out right now? Like a real date? "With me I mean" he quickly clarified seeing your blank look.

You seriously wanted to jump for joy but decided against it to not embarrass yourself "Like just you and me…? No Yazuha or Hakkai?" you don't want to get your hopes up too soon "Yes y/n just you and me, no Hakkai or Yazuha, just us. Like a date" he softly laughed walking towards you grabbing one of your hands. 

You got one little hop in before you stopped yourself "S-sorry I'm just really happy right now" you explain when he gives you a funny look "But yes, I'd love to go on a date with you Mitsuya" you mutter now too shy to look him in the eyes.

"Ok great, I'll wait outside for you then we can go" he smiles softly rubbing the back of your hand with his thumb "Ok I'll get dressed right now!" you laugh gently pushing him out of your dressing room and quickly grab your phone to tell Saki she can leave without you. 

[crimson-and-clover-1717]

Con said at SFROP that David Jenkins told him to play Izzy as a mix of Salieri from Amadeus, and Iago (Othello).

I think the Salieri/Mozart parallel with Izzy/Stede is really interesting. Salieri cannot understand why God would choose to bestow his favour on Mozart, who in Amadeus is presented as an immature dandy whilst nonetheless being a genius.

In the same way, Izzy cannot understand how Ed (‘God’) can view Stede, this ‘ponce’, with no talents associated with traditional piracy, or traditional masculinity for that matter, in such a favourable light over himself.

The thing is, people often like to create God in their own perceived image. And Izzy thinks that his version of masculinity should be performed and valued by the man he idolises. After all, Ed can do it better than he can! So when Ed begins to act more like the femme man he’s just met, it’s an invalidation of Izzy’s selfhood. If God is in fact a bit goofy and whimsical, what does that mean for me?

What Izzy does is look for confirmation of self-worth in Ed’s reflected glory, whilst Stede looks for validation via his own agency and actions. Stede isn’t trying to create ‘God’ at all (just as Amadeus’ Mozart focuses on himself). And because of that, Ed is allowed to be himself around Stede - a man, not an object to be moulded into shape then worshipped. Ironically, the man whom Ed is just happens to be very much like Stede.

With regard to Amadeus and OFMD, the difference is Salieri is the villainous protagonist. The story is Salieri’s. We hear of Salieri’s childhood, the death of his father, the pact he makes with God. Amadeus is very much presented through the lens of Salieri.

None of this is true for OFMD (except for the brief voiceover at the beginning of 206). Stede is indisputably the shows central protagonist, with Ed as the secondary protagonist or deuteragonist. Izzy is the antagonist. It is not Izzy’s story - he is a device. Just as in Amadeus, Mozart is a device really in exploring Salieri’s bitterness and shame at his own lack of genius.

Does Izzy have a backstory to be told? Absolutely. Write some fan fic. Write your Wide Sargasso Sea. But in canon, Izzy is a spanner in the works only. It is not his story.

[talonabraxas]

Kabbalah: The Three Triads Talon Abraxas

The Ethical triad

Among the Tree's many divisions are three triads, each composed of three Sephiroth. These triads interweave with the various worlds, and map to five "souls".

The second of these triads is the top triad of Yetzirah: Chesed, Geburah, and Tiphareth, referred to as the "Ethical" or "Moral" triad. This group is what we think of as our active consciousness.

This is also the "fire" Triad, whose ruling influence is the Sun. (A Triad's "ruler", its governing influence, is the Sephirah in the middle pillar.) It is an active Triad, being both a builder (Chesed, Jupiter) and a destroyer (Geburah, Mars) plus the apprehension of the Divine (Tiphareth, Sun). About this Triad, we are told:

The union of the three primary emotions of the heart, chesed (72) gevurah (216) and tiferet (1081) equals 1369. 1369 is a square number (the square of 37), a sign of perfect "interinclusion" in Kabbalah (where every part of an object reflects all of its parts, as in a hologram).

The Triads are divided from one another by veils. Above this Triad sits the Abyss, separating it from the Supernals; and below it sits Paroketh, holding it apart from its lower subconscious.

Some teach that this Triad is the Superconscious, which I assign to the Supernals. That assignation doesn't make sense to me, so I don't use it. You should bear in mind, however, that much of what I say about the Triads is my own thinking, and not something you will generally find other systems agreeing with.

You can think of this triad as the active principles — apt, since we already noted that this is the "conscious", separate from the "subconscious". This being so, it relates in some way to the right pillar, Mercy. Its base is Tiphareth, the Sun. Of the four elements, it aligns with fire (will) and air (intellect).

There is some confusion here if you follow the Jewish method of assigning letters to paths. There, the mother letters bind the left and right pillars together. There are only three traditional Hebrew elements, and they associate with the mother letters in their capacity as the principles of thesis (fire), antithesis (water), and synthesis (air). In that system, this middle Triad associates with Alef (א), air — which, while consistent with the Soul Ruach (whose name means "breath" or "spirit"), is rather at odds with our view of this Triad's attribution as fire principles.

Those of you familiar with Robert Pirsig's Metaphysics of Quality might think of this Triad as "social" patterns. These are the rules we construct for the purpose of dealing with others, and the stories we tell ourselves that let us make sense of and choose how to investigate the universe we inhabit.

The Formation of the Tree of Life:

[katerinaaqu]

This may or may not be for an oc but how do Greeks come up with names? And why do they all sound cool?

Oh that is such a great question! ^_^ You mean modern Greeks or ancient Greeks? We do have two ways to come up with names in Greece so let's start with modern times that has a simpler way:

In modern day Greece we usually name children from the existing name pool that we have and that can vary from names we know in antiquity till latest years. More often whatnot the names come from patron saints that exist in Orthodox Church tradition. Of course Orthodox Saints can still have ancient names and most of them are very old indeed but it is not uncommon to have names that are linked directly to antiquity such as Phaedra, Electra, Alexander, Menelaus, Penelope, Odysseus etc. Names of Greek gods are also often given to kids. I have seen many people named Aphrodite, Ares, Hermes etc (although never names from the big three gods like Zeus Poseidon or Hades hehe)

When we are being named we have the tradition to be named after our grandfathers. So my name, Katerina, comes from my grandmother. The tradition calls for using the names of the father's side first and then the mother's but that is not obligatory and people do talk about it of course. In one way it is us honoring our ancestors and our family and keep names within the family. Other ways we name our children might come from a promise to some patron saint (if one is religious for example and pray to some patron saint for the health of the child) another way that a name comes up is what we call "air baptism". Basically when a child is born very frail or weak and there is a chance he won't make it, the nurses that first hold the child, raise it in the air and move it softly in a cross-like way naming it after a patron saint they honor or a celebration that comes closeby or some other symbolism like that. This is because in Orthodox Church a child must not pass away without baptism so the tradition kinda stuck in. The parents might choose to do a proper baptism later with the name of a grandfather or the name of a loved one of course but this type of baptism kinda stays officially as well from what I remember at least.

Now in ancient Greece naming is interesting. It seems that in mythology at least they either are linked to a character's appearance (for example Oedipus= swollen feet because as a baby he was pricked at the heels and his feet got swollen) or perhaps a symbol or their story (for example Aegisthus coming from the word meaning "goat" because he was nursed by a goat) By n large it seems that the names in Greek mythology are descriptive; they mean something for the person that is being born. They describe his appearance (for example "Glaukos" meaning "blue" or "light blue" or "grayish blue" which could be an indicator of his eyes) or it could be feelinsg of one person towards something (infamously Odysseus named by the verb that means "to be angry at" We can expect a name to be chosen in mythology for instance because of lore or because of someone's story. In real life it also reflects for something or some event (for example Alexander the Great's sister was named Thessaloniki which means "winning of the Thessalians") or out of some wish or symbolism.

As for why they sound cool you are just very sweet. I would say though that perhaps it is the allure of the "exotic" of the names that make them sound cool. Quite honest Greek names or Greek-inspired names are common all over the world like names like Alexander or Helen or even their variations (for example Alexander-> Xander) are quite common across the globe. I would say it is the idea that they have ancient root that makes them sound exotic or cool to someone's ear like to me several names of let's say Native American or Polynysian names sound cool and exotic. I should say it is because they have a rich history and are descriptive and have special meanings that make them sound cool in the eyes and ears of people just like to me other names sound cool (not that I do not feel that Greek names, especially some rare ancient ones do not sound cool but maybe because I am a proud patriot and love my country too much! Hahahahhaha)

I hope this answers your question a bit but I would be happy to elaborate further if you want in reblogs or comments etc.

Also in Greece we have the tradition to celebrate our names to what we call "Name Day". Basically is like....birthday for our names. If for example one's name corresponds with a patron saint we celebrate the name of that saint the day it is his or her day (for example Saint Catherine's Day is the day she died in martyrdom which is on 25th November so on 25th November is my Name Day where people call me to wish me happy name day.) oftentimes we include gifts and presents to the person that has their name day and the person that celebrates brings sweets or something of that kind to distribute to classmates at school or collegues at work etc. For names that are not necessarily linked to patron saints but to ancient names and such we have set some official name day for them as well on the callendar.

[shesalittlelost]

I'm gonna apologise for the snark but... you said a lot without really saying anything. You failed to negate a single one of my points, if you even understood them that is.

Because... what is the purpose of justifying Nesta's conservative views? I'm not attacking her for that, simply pointing out how it was completely forgotten later in the series just like most major things about her personality and character are so Sara can make her into someone who she could “relate” to the most, leaving nothing for Nesta, the character and everything Nesta, the self insert since that is more convenient for Sara to write. And yes, she very much is a self insert, sorry but it's just the truth. I mean, in Maas's own words ACOSF is almost like an autobiography.

Again, why are you explaining me her friendship with Gwyn and Emerie? Did I deny that? No. I only pointed out how the only female characters Nesta befriends are the tertiary characters who hold no plot relevance outside of their relationship with Nesta and were solely created for her while all the other major female characters that exist independent of her like Feyre, Elain, Mor and even Amren (who Nesta previously grew close to) she simply cannot coexist with, mirroring Maas's own history of female friendships.

I'm not gonna talk about all your other points because you didn't make any.

Lastly my post isn't me hating on Nesta so don't take this so personally. It's me analyzing the choices that were made while writing her and Sara's narcissism that seeped in between the lines bcz Nesta isn't real but the author writing her is and how she chooses to write a character, through which she explores her own emotions the most, is a reflection of her imo.

I've noticed this that most Nesta stans treat Nesta less like a character and more like a vehicle that they can use to be as misogynistic as possible and live their own mean girl fantasy on the internet. And the saddest thing is that it's not just her fans who do it, the author did the same to her so I'm gonna talk to about the latter first.

Nesta in ACOTAR wanted to go out and carve her life on her own because the realisation that she still hadn't found a purpose for herself while her sister already did and that she owed her whole life to her chafed at her. That's why their reunion in the first book was so touching. I was so looking forward to see what Nesta does with her journey but she isn't allowed that. Fast forward to ACOMAF, she's just... a mean girl, unnecessarily poking at her sister for no reason at all. This scene is used as a way to start Nesta and Cassian's “banter” and “romance” (lol) and in order to do that SJM basically walks back and kills whatever little but extremely significant development Nesta had in book 1. Her concern for her sister that made her risk her own life is forgotten and instead she's made to be petty, antagonistic and stupid and incredibly shortsighted even (when in book 1 she was the only one in the family who listened to Feyre & understood the threat Fae posed to the humans) to Feyre for no reason other than to clash her with Cassian. And since then it's been like this. SJM keeps obliterating everything that made Nesta, Nesta. Her ability to resist glamour? forgotten. Her not wanting to become a warrior? LOL her whole personality is just being fandom's cookie cutter sword and armour girl now. Her being averse to casual sex? Well.... you see... she lavvvvsss sex so muchhh that she starts daydreaming about having a threesome with her bf and his brother to a point that her brother-in-law can tell that from her face and gets awkward (🤮). Her wishing to explore this world on her own? Yeah lol that's not happening. Like ever.

This girl really just got moulded into someone that Miss Maas can conveniently use to live her own fantasy in the ACOTAR world. Maas is known to not get along well with other women in the field who are as popular and successful (if not more) than her and allegedly called one an ableist slur. It's public knowledge that she was horrible to her other author friends until they cut her off. She now lives in her own bubble and picks some two or three new people, less popular than her to befriend, who just hype her up. Sounds familiar? Yeah. Nesta too can't ever get along with any other major female character who is as equally relevant in the story as her. Elain was her best buddy until she stopped being Nesta's side chick. Feyre, she was always jealous with, in her own words. She looks down at Mor for not being dressed modestly causing the men to laugh at that insult (Sara, you're very obvious). That scene where Rhys aka SJM gasses her up by calling her an illyrian (warrior) as a compliment while comparing her to Elain and implying Elain doesn't count coz she just isn't one. Like there is such a big “she's not like the other girls! she is ✨different✨” energy going on with the way she's written, especially her relationship with every other women in the story, except for the two girls who are written solely to be her hype girls, that I literally can't stand it.

It starts to make sense why she appeals to a certain kind of fans here who also suffer from the “i'm not like the other girls” syndrome. A lot of these people don't even like or care about Nesta's character or story that much no, they just latch onto her to hate on every other character, especially the female ones, that they can't self insert as. Calling Feyre the nastiest things, hating on Elain for being a selfish bitch and Mor for idek what. Like these people are physically incapable of talking about her or praising her without comparing her with or bringing down other women in the series. I wonder if they realize how crazy they look to others coz they are very transparent.

[andtosaturn]

Why did you have to make me feel that?

[sideblogdotjpeg]

ive been thinking about the red string superstition recently and also sol bufo always and it makes me sick how uncannily caldwell tanner has made sol to perfectly target me personally

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[vonclosen]

vent. sorry i’m honesty hangry and upset

actually i’m still annoyed. has anyone in this damn fandom heard of filtering tags. for shit. they don’t like

also like not to be ‘what about’ but seriously if your biggest problems are fucking shipping wars on tumblr dot com i envy you. truly.

[triglycercule]

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"Hi" you almost caused my death (from sheer happiness)

[thechosenanubis]

People who call Sibuna Found Family and then go: " X and Y are the mother and father of the group while Z is the child, obviously! "

Makes me question if you know what Found Family actually means....

[dangans-ur-ronpas]

i read 'the gender of mona lisa' and i feel. both extremely seen and yet incredibly infuriated

[sisterdivinium]

It's interesting to stroll around Fanlore reading discussions that took place in 2007 talking about the fractured nature of fandom on LJ and people interacting without having enough context (as in commenting on a post they did not read by a user they do not know) when you're living in 2023 and people distribute likes without reading anything or commenting; when there's supposedly "drama" of unknown origins happening in more than one website at the same time because there's no real "home base" for fandom activity anymore; and we're all carrying on with our lives reblogging things without even looking at previous notes and reactions to that same post even if out of simple curiosity...

[sereniv]

apologies are hard and can be embarassing

but life is too short to let your grandma go to bed sad

[brushes-of-sage]

Nah but vol. 24 really has me feeling things for the LoV now 😭😭😭

[maxthesillyy]

asked discord friends to assign max caulfield an eeveelution and this is how it went:

as you can tell it went exactly as planned. /j

[calandrinon]

Me: mămăligă for breakfast :)

Me (singing absently while making it): 🎶 paparugă-rugă, ia iesi de ne udă 🎶

Me: actually we've had enough rain for a bit

Me: don't want another flood

Me: what do you sing in autumn to turn the rain off?

Me: ...

Me (singing): 🎶 mămăligă-ligă, pentru dejun mică 🎶