#i cant use sunscreen daily. i just cant

[muttever]

i need to stop leaving the house during daylight hours, i keep getting fucking SUNBURNS

[veesdiaries]

𝟔𝟎 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫'𝐬 𝐞𝐯𝐞…

and bum! in a blink of an eye… bye bye 2024, hello 2025! cant believe i'll be putting my christmas decorations back on in a couple of days!

now that time of the year starts when we feel the need to accomplish all the goals we have ignored for the 305 days, and as in every year we end up overwhelmed and disappointed! But all this happens for lack of organization and planning… here i came to give you a few tips to close 2024 with that good feeling of work done!

𝐏𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 -

gym/workout - i guess it is a canon event on everyone's lives having as goal: starting gym. Every year is the same thing, empty promises and if you're reading this; this year was nothing different. But you still have time, THOUGH no crazy diets or crazy workout routines, they'll just give you a fast burnout!

So why not start gym or working out 3 times per week? Or maybe pilates every morning? Yoga? There are unlimited options to move your body, you just need to find the perfect for you!

daily shower - never thought i had to say that but… SHOWER DAILY! please, please, please!

the shower trinity - exfoliate, shave, moisturize! exactly on this order ONCE per WEEK!

skincare - we all want a shining skin for the holidays makeups, what better than skincare? but keep it basic! no need of fancy products (unless they work good for you)! the essencial: sunscreen! no matter if isn't sunny, sunscreen is THE product that never MUST be out of your skincare routine!

facial massage - using gua sha or ur own hands, there are some videos on yt! and no, that shit isn't just a lie tiktok invented!

everything shower - once per week give yourself a princess day (mine is every sunday), do your nails, wash your hair, do face masks, exfoliate, shave… everything! usually i do all this on my sunday reset!

𝐌𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐥 -

journaling - putting your feelings out instead of keeping them in until the moment they blow up is the best thing you can do for your mental health! take a moment for yourself, take a breath and start to write all your thoughts, no filters! it can be in your notes app, your diary, a paper you'll burn later… but you owe this to yourself!

find a new hobbie - never too late to find a new passion, you can go trying all of your options until you find the one you most feel comfortable in doing! maybe cooking? or painting?

reading - this one could fit into the category above but i decide to put it apart. If you're like me and made a huge goal of books you wanted to read and haven't even touched a book this year… i feel you! You still have time to start your journey as a reader… maybe 10 minutes per day? Or bolder 5 books until christmas?

meditation - i confess i wasn't going to add it cuz i'm not very fan of it… but i know it is a goal a lot of people have! You can find some good meditation videos on yt or you can simply take a calm moment to take deep breaths and just enjoy forgetting your worries!

law of assumption - i know some people don't believe in it but i couldn't let it out of this list so fuck it! this shit change lives! i recommend SO MUCH for you to do some research about the theme, just stay away from the loa community on tiktok! here on tumblr there is the #loablr

have a to do list - end of the year can be very overwhelming for a lot of factors but mainly cuz you feel there's so much to do but so short time! a to do list can help you to keep track of the most important events (so you won't miss anything) and also give you that feeling of organization!

go on walks - adding this to my mental section cuz i think it fits well here! go on walks either alone or if you have a pet take them with you, walk around the block or go to a square! put your headphones on and enjoy the vibes, it's autumn, maybe the leaves are already orange where you live, weather is colder… romanticize it! evermore season after all lol

girls, for today that's it!! that's all the steps i thought for a good end of year though i might do a second post near december talking about the same thing but in a more reflection way! like goals and feelings!

(need some tips for the autumn fashion season? check this)

welcome november <3

xoxo, V ☆

[cupidzome]

domestic!stainmight + random hcs pt.1

chizome blushes like a schoolgirl i know it hes pale as a vampire and when he gets red he gets CHERRY RED. hes tried to train himself out of blushing bc its so hard to hide when ur glow in the dark pale.

toshinori's eyesight gets worse as he gets older and he has to get glasses but he doesnt like wearing them because hes like "i can see JUST FINE!" (squints) "see watch me read that billboard thats all the way over there"

chizome doesnt have puppy dog eyes but when he looks at something he wants his pupils get really big and watery and toshinori is like "ur like an open book without that mask" & buys it for him bc he will not ask for it

they communicate in physical touch. tugging on each others clothes, laying on each other, seeking out each others warmth all the time. theyre a touchy couple bc toshinori likes warming chizomes ever-cold hands up with his own, and chizome likes feeling the blood pulsing beneath toshinoris skin

toshinori has a thing for stains tongue & fangs but when he tries to bring it up like "hey... do you i dunno. drink blood? with ur tongue and fangs" and chizome is like "NO i would never do that to u toshinori i could hit something important and you could die like a million different ways im happy with regular blood packets!" and toshinori is like "DAMNIT! hes too conscious of my overall health"

chizome has a fascination with the human body that leads to him randomly just 'inspecting' parts of toshinoris body. flexing his arm for him, stretching his legs, randomly massaging into toshinoris shoulders. he loves him down to the bone marrow

toshinori picks up hobbies like bird feeding, bread baking, and scrapbooking meanwhile chizome is fighting his archenemies on etsy for a never before heard of comic book thats solely in french and has 2 fans and not even a twitter tag.. he makes himself a blog because none of his posts are under 2 paragraphs hes got TOO much to say.

toshinori adores being in the sun, and if you cant find him around the house hes probably on his front lawn sunbathing. he HATES winter and he lovesss summer so much. chizome has to make sure to get him into the routine of using sunscreen though

they decide on getting a pet and when toshinori is looking through the dogs and petting them all, chizome comes up to him with the most fucked up looking pug ever (like the one in mitchells vs the machines). they obviously adopt it and toshinori gets to name him 'pumpkin pie'

chizome treats everything thats his with CARE. so you know that he does his best to spoil toshinori rotten in the ways he can. he refills the fridge, prescriptions, spices, shampoo, ANYTHING. hes got daily to-do lists and i know he's got a thick planner and the neatest handwriting.

chizomes prepared-ness vs toshinoris desire to help so you can see toshinori happily running errands for chizome with 5 coupons and 20 dollars for toshinori to buy himself a treat along the way. chizome carries cash and he presses the bills into toshinoris hands like "buy urself something nice sweetheart"

[crockerberts]

ok sunscreen review as an autist who HATES sunscreen because it feels icky

AVEENO DAILY FACE MOISTURIZER WITH SPF 15

9/10 stars for me personally for now at least. will explain more below !

once its on it does not feel like sunscreen at all i cant even tell im wearing sunscreen it doesnt get greasy or make my glasses slip or anything PLUS it moisturizes my face and doesnt make me look sweaty either!!!!

my only star off is that for the 10 seconds i am applying it it does have that characteristic suncream feel (though its a little more lotion-y than sun cream so i will give it that) but after giving it like 15 seconds to set in, assuming i applied it correctly and didnt leave globs on my face unsmoothed out, it is completely fine and dandy. i just gotta take off a star for that bcuz i am so obscenely texture sensitive 😓😓😓😞😞😞

i have like never used face sunscreen before and instead opted for staying in the shade all the time bcuz my skin is rlly sensitive but this is suuuuper nice to have cuz im at college now and my campus is SOOOOO bright cuz there’s no god damn trees anywhere. anyway highly recommend for fellow autists who hate shit on their skin i found it at target for like 3 bucks

[rakysglowup]

My Top 3 Sunscreens

You will notice that most of the sunscreens I mention are from Korean brands. I will explain later why I'm so biased towards their products, Okay! let's start with the first one that made me fall in love with Korean sunscreens This was my introduction to Korean skincare products 🫶

COSRX - Aloe Soothing Sun Cream SPF50+/ PA+++

This has to be one of the best sunscreens out there. As a beginner in Korean skincare, this product had everything I needed: no white cast, no smell, vegan ingredients, and a moisturizing feel. You can see the results right away when you apply it. I used this product non-stop for 2 to 3 years, always buying two at a time to avoid running out. It's pretty small, to be honest (Size: 1.69 fl. oz / 50ml), but it's worth it. Just as their official website describes, the sunscreen is "Formulated with Aloe Arborescens Leaf Extract, the daily soothing sunblock is so lightweight that it feels like a moisturizer, and it does not leave any white cast." (COSRX Aloe Soothing Sun Cream SPF50 PA+++, 50ml / 1.69 fl.oz | COSRX.COM, n.d.). See? Awesomeness in a bottle. This sunscreen is ideal for mixed and dry skin types. As someone with mixed skin, I can tell you that it made my skin look glowy just by applying it. However, I have a warning: COSRX has had this sunscreen out of stock for a while now, and I'm afraid they might discontinue it. #FreeAloeSoothingSunCreamCOSRX

Tocobo Watery Day Cream

If you haven't guessed yet, this is another Korean brand, and it is my current sunscreen. I think this is my fourth time using it in a row. I stick with it because it feels watery and doesn't feel like you're wearing sunscreen. Plus, it doesn’t leave a white cast. I'm a pro-No-White-Cast girl. This sunscreen feels more like a light moisturizer compared to the COSRX one. It's perfect for oily skin, and if you have mixed skin like me, you can use it as well. I tend to use this sunscreen when I wear heavy makeup so my face doesn't feel overloaded. According to their website, the sunscreen is, "Cruelty-FREE & VEGAN certification: Mild formula using naturally derived ingredients makes skin comfortable." This sunscreen has a lot of ingredients, making it not just an SPF, but a light moisturizer as well.

Beauty of Joseon Sunscreen Relief Sun

This sunscreen contains 30% rice extract and grain-fermented extracts, providing moisture and nourishment to the skin, making it super moisturizing. I used it only once because it seems better suited for dry skin. It worked well on me; I didn't need an additional moisturizer, and it left my skin glowing. Due to its ingredients, I highly recommend this sunscreen if you have dry skin and want to show off a radiant complexion. I cant say much about this one, it just glows all over the place ✨

Let me know if you would like to know about any other products. Stay tuned for more reviews!

[thaiteaprincess]

Grooming Maintenance

Ladies! Let’s talk about grooming 🤗

Hair 💇‍♀️

For your hair I recommend getting a trim every 4-6 weeks. If you are dying your hair 4-6 weeks is a good time frame too. For bangs a good salon should give free bang trims. For washing you MIGHT be able to train your hair to wash less but some people just have oily scalps. It’s like how some people have dry skin and some have oily. Plus the finer your hair is the oiler it looks. So wash when you need to sis! And always use heat protection when heat styling!

Eyebrows, biggest tip is to not follow trends. Just use the shape you naturally have. A lot of women in the 90s ruined their eyebrows for the current fashion. I personally recommend getting them done professionally every 2 weeks. I like threading and my salon is only $3 dollars! Waxing is an option too but it will cost more. And honestly I like the threaded look better 🤷‍♀️

Lashes, so this one is only a thing if you have extra money. Lash extensions, lash lifts, and tints are all options. I personally don’t like lash extensions because they damage your natural lash but that’s just me.

Body hair, shaving is the cheapest option and you don’t have to wait for it to grow to a certain length like with waxing. I shave EVERYDAY in my daily shower. Oh and don’t forget your toes! We don’t want hobbit feet! Waxing is a good idea because it damages the hair follicle and your hair grows back thinner. But it’s more expensive and you do have to grow your hair. I recommend waxing for armpits and bikini area.

Physique🏋️‍♀️

You need to maintain your body. You will do this by eating healthy which is different for everyone so I’m not giving advice. Expect for SEE A NUTRITIONIST! Your insurance will likely cover it because they LOVE when you see one because it keeps them from paying for all your medical problems caused by a poor diet.

Besides diet daily exercise is important. Yes I said daily. It doesn’t have to be the same thing everyday or even the same intensity. One day you can play a sport, the other day do yoga. Some examples to pick from are walking (yes walking counts), yoga, weightlifting, sports, dance, and cardio. The important thing is that you enjoy it! Personally I like weightlifting so I do that 3 times a week then the rest I do yoga and long walks.

Skin 🧖‍♀️

This one is super important! Make sure you are washing your face once in the Morning and once at night. Exfoliate 1-2 times a week. Moisturizer daily and wear sunscreen DAILY. Stay hydrated for your skin. And use a retinol plus ceramides if you are 25 or older. That’s when you start aging. If you have persistent acne go to a dermatologist. If it’s hormonal go on a birth control which is hormone replacement therapy or HRT.

For your body exfoliate 1-2 times a week as well and moisturize after showering daily. And any time you put on socks apply moisturizer to your feet. It helps lock it in 🔒

Nails 💅

This ones fun but can be expensive 😢

If you are using regular nail polish do weekly manicures at home to save money. Gels are my favorite because they last a lot longer. I don’t have experience with fake nails like acrylic so I’m not sure how often to get those.

For toes once a month pedicure is a must. I recommend if you cant afford regular mani pedis to get pedicures because they last longer and feet can get gross fast! Plus your hands are easy to do at home. But if you have the money get both done!

If you don’t like colors you must put on a clear coat and still manicure them once a week.

Conclusion…

So I hope this helps ladies! Grooming can be a lot of fun! 😇

[mademoisellehypergamy]

This may be along letter but I have to share it with you qnd I know that U can help me and you will do ur best 🤍

First thing, Im going and Ive gone through alots of spiritual change, mental and just personality change like alots ... and the thing is now is time for me to let go of things and discover new things, for example fangirl life, twitter idk kpop, those common interests but in the same time idk how or what shall I do, Im here to take some of your advice since u are such an inspiring woman to me.

+ As I grow up, Im the youngest child in family and the only girl, my family, my bros made me like I cant do anything right, My opinions are always wrong and I just cant live on my own, so I end up  being too scared to see new things or take any decision cuz maybe " its wrong " " who said is right " idk is just too unsure and scared that I cant do it, and Im always wrong even in the little things like " i like apple " they made me feel like a fool, childish for liking it ... or even in the small things they alwqys make fun of me smh, and Im very sensitive too. So if u have any advice on how u became the person u are or if u can share with me u know ur tips ur daily life becuz I really want to learn from and U always inspired me.

Also in the feminine side, my mom was never interested in these things cuz she is naturally feminine and pretty ... so if u have any tips share it with me darling 🤍 ( like how to generally take care of my body / washing, vagina / im also so hairy so it makes me feel a bit insecured too )

I hope if u can share with us alots of ur wisdom and thoughts and everything and pls advice me how to grow from this circle and end it to be a powerful women 💖

Note: Im 18 yo

Hi love,

Awww, reading your message reminded me of my younger sister 🥰 I’m sorry it took so long to reply back to your message. I hope this will help you. In the future I will make a more detailed post about hygiene, but this will help you get started.

🌸 Mademoiselle Hypergamy’s Basic Hygiene Tips 🌸

🌸 Shower Daily. You may have to shower more depending on how active you are, the climate you’re in, and how much you sweat.

Your shower routine should include:

- Washing your ENTIRE body. Your feet/in between your toes, behind your ears, your buttocks, everything! - Use soap. Alright, this sounds silly, but when I was in college I had a roommate who never showered with soap. Please use soap. Use it with a loofah/washcloth/silicone bath brush/etc.

🌸Incorporate Dry Brushing. Do this prior to showering on dry skin. This will help prevent cellulite and keep your skin smooth and firm as you age.

🌸Wash Your Vagina. Do not put soap in the vagina! You can use a gentle cleanser/pH balanced feminine wash (I recommend Rael Natural, vH Essentials, Organyc) on the exterior vaginal area. Never use soap inside the vagina, just water! Click here to watch a video to see the actual motions. *The video isn’t graphic, but I wouldn’t recommend watching it in public lol*  

🌸 Remove Body Hair. Shaving is probably the most accessible way to remove body hair at 18. If you are able to, I would recommend waxing or sugaring (especially if you want to remove pubic hair). Eventually, I’d recommend laser hair removal because it REALLY makes a difference! Be consistent about removing underarm hair if you struggle with body odor.

- Use body scrubs prior to shaving to prevent in-grown hairs and “strawberry legs”.  - Always shave with a fresh razor.

🌸Use Rich Creams After Showers/Baths. Always use thick, luxurious creams on your skin to keep it hydrated!

🌸 Wash Your Hair When Needed. Washing your hair every day is not good! Wash it when it’s very oily/dirty. Invest in quality products. Always use conditioner. 

🌸 Deodorant. Use it! There’s a variety on the market to choose from :) 

Some other just general tips I have to take care of your body: - Work out. Even if it’s just walking. Aim to do this 3x a week. - Drink. Water. I can’t stress this enough! - Use sunscreen. Everyday. You’ll thank me later. - Sleep; Unless you are a student studying for an important exam, there is no reason you should be staying up every night.  - Maintain your hands and feet. Make sure your nails are clean. Make sure your skin is hydrated. 

As for your family, it’s important to keep in mind that although they matter, at the end of the day you came into this world alone and you will leave alone. You must be able to rely on yourself, and that begins with trusting yourself. If you continue to let them influence you, you will never be able to achieve your full potential. 

They may have filled you with doubt, but I promise you that trusting yourself is the best decision. Sure, you can listen to their input, but your choices at the end of the day is the most important. Start by making small decisions for yourself (who you’ll hang out with, what hobbies you’ll pursue), and when you see that the decision ended up positive, it’ll be easier to trust yourself.

As for myself, I became the way I am by deciding that I was going to live life on my terms. Just like when someone decides to be a lawyer, they go to college, take the LSAT, then law school. I made that decision, and began to live my life accordingly. ❤️ 

The only thing you must do is decide to be hypergamous, and then make a plan. Level up. Be smart. Be financially and mentally secure. Don’t settle. Only date men who align with your vision. Realize almost everyone around you can help you get from point A to point Z. 

You also never have to give up your interests (like Kpop). If you enjoy it and it doesn’t hurt anyone, keep it. Just add some hobbies/interests :)

Good luck!

[rfadaydreaming]

boyfriend jumin headcanons

theres no way hes been in a relationship before, never even kissed someone before. you best believe hes going to go all in hes so starved for love

he needs to hear every single thing about your life, even the littlest things. he will remember it all, and asks so many questions too. could listen to you talk for hours and never get bored. your life is so different from his, he finds it fascinating. always wants to know more.

at the beginning of the relationship he has an extremely hard time controlling himself and finding whats right and wrong in a romantic relationship. you have to be very open with your boundaries or he’ll treat you like a doll, he cant help himself hes just so enamored.

does SO much research on relationships, he doesnt like the advice he finds but hes looking in all the wrong places. seven gives him links for real advice from real people reddit instead of mens magazines because those all suck. jumin starts to ask him for help whenever hes curious about something and seven will find a link for him to read. it helps bridge their relationship a bit more. seven is one of those friends thats amazing at relationship advice but for some reason desperately single.

even though he’s new to relationships and still trying to figure it out, that does not mean hes bad at it. no sir. this man was raised on romantic novels and cheesy soap operas. he knows his way into your heart easy peasy

the most beautiful arrangements of flowers delivered to your doorstep, your favorite foods from the most gourmet restaurants in seoul sent right to your work, hand written love letters sealed in wax sent to you while he’s away on business. declares his undying love for you over the phone almost daily.

hes never been around women much before, rikas the exception but he wasnt around around her like you would be with a lover. so hes interested finding out about your habits, routines, likes. the way you cook breakfast in the morning, the way you do your bedtime routine, your afterwork routine. always finding something new to love about you every new day.

he really adores anything and everything you think is a flaw. he prefers you with your quirks rather than aiming for perfection. theres nothing wrong with being “plastic” but the majority of those types of women he’s been around are the rich snobby type more than every day women. he prefers you. again hes never been close to many women so its kind of amazing but sad the things you can find to think harshly about. things he absolutely would never imagine someone being insecure about in the first place. he loves this body, it makes him upset when youre so critical to it.

he’ll explain to you what goes on behind the scenes of corporations and how exactly they make you insecure about those odd little things just to profit off of it, theres nothing wrong with you to begin with but if you believed that then they would be out of business, you see. knowing that aspect of things is why hes understanding but still saddened by your insecurities.

hes a very possessive man and is unashamed about it. hes never had anything as important as you to protect before so he doesnt care how ridiculous he may be sometimes, as long as youre safe. body guards, frequent calls, locations on, always wanting to be with you if he can. if that all bothers you i feel like that would be a bit of a disagreement area. his personality is naturally possessive and he does it out of love so bear with him please. he would definitely tone down as time progressed but for now he doesn’t want to let you out of his sight. trusts you, not other people.

he likes to observe you a lot, your day to day. it’s interesting to him even though it can be a little annoying to you sometimes. asks questions constantly. hes so curious. jumin let me go to the bathroom in peace hes literally a child

it makes him so happy when you laugh at his jokes. everyone else thinks they’re not funny but he doesnt care, as long as you laugh hes happy.

if you wear make-up it’s literally amazing for him to watch. he’ll stand in the bathroom and just observe. you can GLUE eyelashes to your FACE?! and its common?! this is so shocking to him. he had no clue. its kind of embarrassing for you but hes just so interested. never watched someone put on makeup before. the process is so intricate and careful, hes so fascinated by this strange magic. youre so smart too, he doesnt know any of the names of the things you use but always asks so he can remember for gift giving purposes. shades you like, shades you dont like, companies you dont buy from, your favorite brands. somehow has a giant mental notepad and writes all this down for safe keeping

speaking of smart he thinks you are the smartest person on the face of this earth. hes so confused at certain aspects of life and you help him get it. why do people eat fried chicken when its not nutritionally dense or even healthy to consume? it doesn’t make sense. because its yummy, jumin. wow, youre so right...

always texts you little reminders throughout the day to show his love. dont forget to eat breakfast dear. dont forget to wear sunscreen before you go out love, its hot today. dont forget that i love you so much my darling ♥︎ SO CUTE hes so caring

this man is so so touch starved, he always wants to hold you or touch you in someway. if he could bring you everywhere with him he would. he starts to get anxious if he goes too long without your comfort, truly doesn’t know how he made it for so long without it

not the biggest fan of pda but it depends on the situation. he likes making others jealous but he doesn’t want anyone else to see the way you look after he kisses you in that one special way that only he can. thats for his eyes only

loves showering you in anything you desire. you are spoiled. he’d buy you a whole ass island if you wanted one. he never understood how his father could just give away so much to a woman but now he cannot say a THING. he’d go completely broke as long as it made you happy

if you dont like tons of store bought gifts he’ll spend more time on meaningful ones. picking you flowers from the rooftop garden and arranging them himself, he embroiders as a pastime so he’ll make you cute little cat decals and stuff like that

he likes to do things for you like paint your nails, wash your hair, put lotion on you after a bath etc. loves it so much, if youre not comfortable with him babying you its totally fine but if you are he’ll do it whenever you let him

he has very cold hands. never really thought about them until he met you, really hopes you dont mind. tries to warm his hands up where he can before he touches you, but secretly loves when he runs his cold fingertips down your skin and you get gooseflesh all over. thinks its cute.

gets insecure sometimes. not really about his looks, but his personality. luciel is funny, zen is handsome and suave. yoosung is sweet and open with his emotions. he wonders frequently why you chose him out of anyone else.

all in all jumin is someone you need to get used to being in a relationship with, hes not the average joe and has a lot going on with himself that he needs to work through. but if you help him, love him for him, he’ll be the sweetest lover you could ever ask for.

[shuatoyou]

one last summer - l.c

[day 38 of a tct summer collection]

✗ pairing; chan x reader

✗ genre; fluffy fluff and angsty angst :p

✗ wc; 3900

✗ summary; each day is spent counting down until the end of summer, you do this every year but this time around, its harder to watch the days go down knowing once the count hits zero, its time for him to go.

✗ song; pink skies by LANY <3 

✗ a/n; i cant believe this is my longest fic yet ?? i hope u guys like it !! i chose to write for chan kinda on a whim bcos i dont do that a lot and he is just the best angel ... also i thought i should involve a little bit of my signature angst for my first writing collab with my best friends if u wanna see amazing stuff click below to travel to . . .

A TCT SUMMER COLLECTION *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

the alarm ringing at a time you would never find yourself awake during summer, it could only mean you had an important day to look forward to.

today was the beginning of the countdown to the last day of the last summer you had together.

“chan, wake up,” you mumble sleepily at the boy, who was in a deep sleep at the foot of your bed. he scrambled about for a second before going completely still. of course he was back asleep.

you groan at the sight of him cuddling into the blanket, even more in spite of your attempt to wake yourself up and him at the same time. although, it was cuter than you wanted to admit. perhaps your heart went slightly crazy... but that was another issue for another day. or never.

“fine don’t wake up loser, i’ll eat pancakes on my own.”

hearing that, he jumps straight up “i don’t think so.” he glares at you while you sit under the warm blankets amused at his reaction.. he sighs in defeat once he realises it was all a play for him to wake up. of course you wouldn’t indulge in a beautiful breakfast without him.

morning flies by, and before you know it noon comes around. the clock reads three pm and you’re both sprawled over the couch binging ‘a silent voice’ for the nth time. the entire movie makes you sad but after watching it so many times you become immune to the tears.

chan on the other hand, doesn't. like always he finds himself getting teary at the same scenes every time. perhaps that was one of the qualities you adored in him: he never hid how he felt even if he hated the teasing that came with it.

after deciding on a whim you didn’t want to waste the day inside, you switched off the tv and threw a box of tissues at the emotional boy.

“what was that for?” he whines, throwing the tissue box off him.

“wipe your tears. i wanna go out,” you smile cheekily before skipping off to get your shoes on, shortly followed by chan.

“we’re going out in sweats?” he questions, pointing at the lazy attire you had both become accustomed to everytime you were together.

you shrug, grabbing the keys off it’s special hanger. special because it was made by chan himself when you were both in the second grade and making matching key hangers for each other's houses was sentimental you could say. or as your parents said.

when you were both younger, they were convinced you two would grow up together and maybe get married in the future. the two of you became inseparable over a short amount of time - all because of the one day he offered you his juice carton after yours had been stolen by the class bully in the first grade. that was almost twelve years ago now and that same boy was still standing in front of you.

“what are you thinking about?” chan nudges you as the two of you walk down the same road to your usual frozen yoghurt place.

“just some stuff,” you shrug.

“like?”

“pre-school.”

he hums in response, and you take this as an indication to go on.

“our parents really dealt with our crazy friendship the daily playdates... imagine if we ended up how they wanted us to.” you smile fondly, the thought of it all was enough to plaster an expression on your face.

“don’t remind me, they would’ve married us the moment we turned 18 if we left it up to them.” he chuckles. “they think we were meant together”

“do you?” you retort.

“do i what?”

“think that?” you ask not facing him. you would rather not have him fully see the crimson building up on your cheeks.

“i don’t know, i guess. we've been friends for so long, i've never thought about it.”

you nod understandingly and walk the rest of the way in silence, a comfortable one at that. there was never anything else when the two of you were together.

maybe that’s why you didn’t want to let go yet.

“BEACH DAY!”

“ugh, do you seriously have to scream that down the entire hallway, y/n?”

“yes because it’s beach day!” you yell one more time, forcing a reaction out of him but your amusement quickly dies down after feeling the soft impact of your pillow in your face.

“heh”

chan proudly walks out the room leaving you dumbfounded but you quickly scramble back onto your feet and chase after the boy jumping on his back earning a grunt from the much taller male.

“you suck.” he groans

“be careful you are in my territory little boy” you snicker signalling to your house which had been the location of the endless sleepovers for the summer holidays.

“speaking of, i really should go back home and pick up some more of my stuff before we leave for the beach.” he mentions as he lets you down from his back and the two of you take your seats by the kitchen island.

“oh that’s fine, want me to come with you? i miss your mom anyways.”

“don’t you have your own beach bag to pack?” he asks, grabbing a plate which mimics his actions and starts piling up your plate with his favourite breakfast stuff before passing it over to him.

“i can do it later” you smile now making your own breakfast plate. chan looks down hesitating with it.

“nah it’s okay, i’ll be back quick anyways” he mumbles, picking at the food making you lift a brow without saying anything as you delve into your own happily.

he didn't want to upset you but the small little things you had been doing for him had been harder to let go of as time went by.

however it's not long before breakfast is over and chan waves a quick goodbye before leaving for his own home for the first time in ages. it was quite normal for the two of you to spend a large amount of time at one and others houses both families gave up in trying to send you two back to your respectable homes.

meanwhile you spent the time he was gone packing your own beach bag consisting of the usual tower, sunscreen and one of the disposable cameras you bought for summer memories documenting. chan had laughed at the big box that arrived at your house a month ago especially when you told him it was a box of eight disposable cameras.

“you have your phone plus a polaroid camera, why do you need disposable ones?” he asks curiously prodding at the box.

“these ones come out cuter don’t judge. plus i’ll give you one or two that we use during the many adventures for you to process and hang up the pictures in your new room” you look up at the boy hopefully as he sighs in defeat.

giving yourself a little round of applause you open up the box and immediately grab one of the cameras pulling chan closer to get a selfie.

“this one is to mark the start of our summer adventures documented by a disposable camera.”

shaking your head you pull yourself out of your daze right on time as the doorbell rings. you only assume it’s chan and you’re right as you open up the door to the boy with his hands filled.

you take one of the bags from his hand letting him into the house.

“what’s all this?” you ask curiously trying to look at the bags as best as you could through the little openings.

“extra clothes, stuff for the beach and snacks my dad brought back from japan for you. he said he forgot to give them the last time”

excitedly you rush over to the bag he held up to you, japanese snacks were one of your favourite and chan's father had made it a regular occurrence to always bring you back some after his long work trips away in osaka.

which was where the family would be moving by the end of summer hence why the two of you spent each day doing something new counting down the days till the moment he stepped onto a plane without you.

noticing the sad look on your face while you looked at the snacks longingly chan threw an arm around your shoulders.

“what’s with the look? come on we’ve got waves to catch y/n”

“i'm gonna miss you” you pout and his gaze softens pulling you away from the bags and into his embrace allowing you to relax in his arms for a bit. he thought this would happen one way or another but he only expected it when it was the last day.

“are you ready to go?” he whispers while rubbing your back and you almost wanted to say no just to be able to stay like this a little longer but nevertheless you pulled a way nodding beginning to walk over to the bags so you could put them away into the car.

the drive to the beach was only peaceful, which was normal when it came to you two. just endless music and comfortable silence but you knew the tension in the air would not decrease anytime soon due to the nature of this entire summer.

“will we still talk when you leave?” you blurt out, failing to face the boy currently sat in the driver's seat.

“why the sudden question?” his face evidently changed to the questioning look he’s always had when he was confused about something.

you shrug and he doesn’t question furthermore which you appreciated because it would’ve been tough having to explain the endless worries in your mind.

reaching forward for his phone you scroll through his playlists until you find the one song that the two of you often found comfort in when together or apart.

“we have seriously got to get over this song”

‘shut up, i love you’

you laugh at his statement but that doesnt stop the two of you from singing along to the lyrics like it was your own song. you occasionally turned to the other watching him nod along to the song, your heart was in pain. how could you let go of him so soon?

‘you're my best friend’

another morning, another day crossed off till chan had to leave by the end of summer. the thought of him leaving soon made your stomach churn to the point you wanted to scream. so many unexplained feelings and yet you had to act like everything was okay and making the last few memories this summer would be nothing. you had no energy to get out of bed and do anything today even if you knew that the day would just go to waste.

“so what are we doing today? making more memories?” chan asked right on point with your thoughts almost teasingly.

“you ask that as if i have no reason to do this.” you mumble turning away from the boy and nuzzling further into your blanket.

“there's still time before i leave y/n”

“not enough though, chan.” you finally turn back to him, frustrated that he couldn't understand why you were so keen on spending time with him.

“yeah but i don't want to do all this just for the sake of time, i want to do it because we both love spending time together. don't we?”

you nodded pitifully, struggling with the real reason why it was harder to get through summer. your feelings were a factor in it all but you couldn't find it in you to tell him.

“can we just spend today at yours?” you asked softly, scared if you raised your tone it might betray you somehow.

this time it was his turn to nod before moving closer to you, unsure of what he was going to do. you looked up at the boy who only brought you into his embrace once again, causing your heart to do countless backflips.

“you’ve been giving me a lot of hugs recently.”

“mind your own business”

you giggle, letting your breathing steady at the pace of his. your mind drifts to the fact somehow you only felt this way when he was the cause of it.

he couldn't help but smile to himself when you let go in his arms, allowing him to hold you, physical affection was never a common thing in your friendship.

‘i think our hearts are starting to show’

“let's get ready to leave, hm?” he spoke, almost in a whisper as you pulled away and met his eyes. they had that usual sparkle in them. the one you adored.

his house, you were always warmly welcomed by mrs lee who treated you like her own child, perhaps that's why you and chan’s friendship was able to last as long as it had, your families ordered each other as much as the two friends did.

“i was wondering when he would bring you around again, how’s summer been so far?” his mom asked as you took your seat on one of the island chairs like you usually would while chan went to grab a bottle of water for you and him.

“it's been okay” you smiled at the woman now sitting across from you with a kind smile waiting for you to continue. “we’ve just been chilling you know how it is.”

“has he confessed his undying love for you yet?”

“mom! what the hell?” chan exclaims in shock trying not to choke on his sip of water and you sit there stunned.

“i'm joking sweetheart” she reassures the two of you noticing the red on either of your faces, giving you a knowing smile before turning away which lingers on your mind slightly longer than you would have wanted.

it takes a moment for chan to calm down and when he does he drags you out of the kitchen to his game room hoping to get away from his mother's endless teasing.

“god, i'm sorry i hate when she does this.” he runs a hand through his hair expressing his frustration and you chuckle nervously.

“does she say this stuff all the time?” you wonder, taking your seat on chan’s gaming chair making him sit on the bean bags on the floor. but he doesn't seem to pay any attention to it while he recovers from the past events.

“sometimes, it's always stuff like when am i going to ask you out or confess or something crazy you know?” he explains, fanning himself.

something crazy… the words stung momentarily as you thought about anything happening between you guys would be crazy to him. nothing would happen anyways, not now.

he shakes his head while walking over to plug in his monitor, “my mom truly believes we’ll end up dating.” he laughs to himself but you only go red at his statement, turning around on the gaming chair dangling your legs trying to distract yourself.

he frowns at the way you turn around but does not question it any further, instead, he picks up two of his game controllers and puts one in front of you before settling back down into the beanbag.

“what are we playing?” you ask finally turning back around

“mario kart?” he states more like a question though and you agree, leaving the gaming chair to sit beside him on one of the other beanbags.

you couldn't help but think how much you were going to miss this, zoning out as you think of the last time you two played.

“if i win, you have to fulfil one of my wishes, and if you win then… whatever you want.” chan writes it all down on paper kind of like a mock contract and you laugh as he slides it over to you to sign.

“please don't wish for anything crazy or expensive” you beg jokingly.

the only response you get from the boy is a simple wink which directly sends the butterflies into your stomach like every other time he does something.

you guys start your game and immediately the tension rises as the two of you compete for first class, occasionally nudging each other to throw the other off.

“i am going to win this, i promise you.”

your words lose all meaning as the big number two appears beside your character and you huff, mad at the fact you lost to chan once again who had managed to secure first place. it was frustrating how good the boy was at this game.

“what was that?” he lifted his hand to cup his ear teasingly waiting for you to repeat your previous statement.

you shove him away from you and cross your arms still salty at the loss.

“i think i choose to use my wish now.” he looked at you now.

“fine, what is it lee chan?” you kept your arms crossed as you also turned your body to face him.

“i’d like a kiss.”

you never expected to kiss him that night, and even if it didn't make things too awkward afterwards it only made you sure of the feelings that grew for the boy.

“wanna make a bet if one of us wins?”

you look at the boy stunned at his suggestion.

“did you forget what happened last time?” you ask fiddling with your fingers.

“yeah we kissed, no big deal right?” he turned away to turn on the game and you sat with your face evident with disbelief.

“really? no big deal?”

“huh?” he looks at you, puzzled.

“friends dont just kiss…” you try your best to explain but it felt like it was going over his head from the way he looked at you with so much confusion.

standing up, you unwantedly raise your voice “all summer you keep filling your head up with these things like we can never date and all of that rubbish after we literally kissed not so long ago, does that not mean anything to you?”

“it wouldn't matter anyways, i'm leaving. i’ll be gone soon.”

“that doesn't mean we won't stop talking. you said so yourself.” you fretted with a pleading look.

he looks at you saying nothing and you can only scoff feeling all the blood rush up to your head in anger before opening the door to leave. staying would only make things worse and you knew he wouldn't try and resolve anything if you did.

“where are you going?” he calls out as you’re about to go down the stairs with tears of frustration filling up your eyes.

turning around, you respond quietly to the boy, “is that all you’re going to ask?”

“what do you want me to say, y/n?”

you laugh in disbelief and struggle to keep yourself from choking out any tears, “i’ll give you time to think about it.”

with that you make sure to compose yourself enough to wave at mrs lee with a big smile by the time you’re down the stairs and she responds with a pitiful one, she most likely had heard you both. letting yourself out, you also let out the breath you’d been holding, leaving your childhood best friend all alone for the first time this summer.

walking home all alone was the worst part because your overwhelming emotions would not stay inside of you causing you to spill every sadness filled tear onto the pavements you walked on.

you made your way inside your house and without greeting your parents you locked yourself away to wallow in your sorrows for that entire weekend occasionally letting your mom in to comfort you without telling her the reason to your sadness unaware that at one point your parents worriedly notified chan you weren't feeling good sometime, it was only till you heard your mom softly knock on your door to tell you the said boy was waiting for you downstairs.

your heart wouldn't quit racing in your chest as you opened the door to her soft eyes begging you to talk to him after realising whatever happened was something to do with him. so you follow her downstairs, making your way into the living room where chan was sitting uncomfortably on the couch hoping for you to show yourself. you walked as slowly and quietly as you could trying not to notify him of your presence but that didn't work when you heard his voice call out your name making you shut your eyes tight in pain.

“i know you’re there y/n please talk to me”

freezing on the spot you decided not to go further into the room in fear of bursting into a sob at the sight of him. so you sit on the floor behind the wall separating you two.

“im listening.” you call out as quietly as possible.

“i'm assuming you’re not going to come in, that's okay.” he nods to particularly no one, perhaps himself.

it was silent as chan inhaled deeply, thinking about how what he was going to say would change things.

the atmosphere got more awkward by the second which was a new feeling for the both of you, never once had there been such a moment together.

“i'm sorry”

“i’m sorry we never sat down to talk about our feelings much lately. i feel like everythings been about me and the fact i'm…” he stopped mid sentence he was hesitating although it was inevitable one way or another you would be hearing this out loud again.

“i'm leaving y/n and i don't want to leave without telling you that you do mean more to me than just a best friend.”

your eyes widened in shock as you stood up hoping to run away from this situation but chan was one step ahead of you as he held onto your wrist, a gentle but burning touch that pulled you back towards him.

“maybe i'm too late but i'd like you to know later than never. so please say something?” he pleads, searching your eyes for some sort of a non verbal answer while waiting for you to speak up.

“you’re leaving next week… good luck.” you whisper, straining your voice enough so it wouldn't break. “im sorry too.” you pull out from his grip and walk off to your room without making eye contact with your mom who stood by the staircase with a pitiful look, all meant for you and the boy you left standing alone in your own house.

and when he left you knew that was the last time you’d see him.

“chan? you’re home quite early. how was y/n’s?”

he looked at his dad with a blank expression and shrugged his shoulders, his mom hadn't told him she saw y/n leave upset.

“it's going to be tough but i hope you’re both ready to say your goodbyes soon,” he smiled, giving his son a pat on the back.

if only it was like that and if only he could go back to reverse all the stupid things he said.

the blank feeling burdened you also as you caught a glimpse of the photos you had already gotten processed from your disposable camera.

letting go now would make it easier for the two of you when the time came though in your heart he would still be the most important person for a while until he wasn't. maybe in another world something would be different so the two of you wouldn't be where you are right now, instead in a much happier place.

perhaps in that happier place you would’ve said goodbye…

[seashellronan]

hi haley i hope you don't mind answering a few questions i have as i start developing a skincare routine. i've never really had one before but i know the basics are to cleanse, moisturize, and use sunscreen but i don't know what products to try as a beginner. do you have any product recommendations or is skincare very much a trial and error experience? do you have any recommendations for eye serums? do you have any advice on how to look for products that are reliable but not overly expensive? are there any other steps i should know? sorry to be such a bother with all the questions but i trust you and i hope you can help

its not a bother at all but im not sure how much help i can be with specific products because im not a dermatologist so i dont have experience with every product and the ones i have done brand training for are mad expensive. I tend to reccomend stuff that is free from perfume and parabens as its less likely youll have a reaction, I would also be wary of alcohol content, a little bit of alcohol can be okay alot will most likely irritate your skin. some brands that meet the criteria are the ordinary, la roche posay, elave, cera ve and some glossier products, Ive tried all of these and liked them all except cera ve which didnt agree with my skin but i know alot of people who like it.

eye serums are a bit of a con, unless you have a very sensitive or dry eye area or have specific concerns with puffiness or dark circles, your other products will be enough for moisturising and to prevent wrinkles. as for other steps, cleansing and moisturising and spf daily is great and will maintain skins moisture levels and protect from sun damage, but thats all it will do if you have specific concerns you will need other products like a serum to wear under your moisturiser and a regular exfoliant. I cant really reccomend a serum without knowing/seeing your skin. generally we say its good to have a vitiman c in the morning and something like hyalauronic acid at night, but if you have other concerns you may want to target them instead. as for an exfoliant i recomend an aha/bha peel instead of a scrub, but start with something mild like a the ordinary lactic acid 5% and do not use it everyday even though i think the instructions tell you to. so yeah pretty much its all trial and error but also you wont see much of a difference from just cleansing and moisturising

[xo-lynnea]

My Clearest skin tips

I often get compliments about my skin. I try to take care of my skin as best I can with using simple affordable products. Growing up my mother never wore makeup but she always took extra care of her skin, my mother truly believed that a skin care routine should be nourishing but simple and I have found that to be true.

Keep your hair up!

Keep your hair off and out of your face. Especially if you have curly hair , Us curly haired girls typically have more oils and product in our hair and that can cause irritation while rubbing against your face. Braids are a fun way to switch up your style and messy buns are always cute. You can even opt for a half up and half down style. Anything as long as your hair is off your face.

Clean your phone!

Make sure you clean your phone. We take our phones everywhere which means they are exposed to pollutants and bacteria just as we are. Think about it, phones collect a lot of dirt and germs throughout the day between our dirty hands and fingers, the makeup on our face and the various places we are setting our phones (countertops,table, purses etc.) its easy for germs to collect on the surface of your phone. Make sure to give a quick wipe down every night

Gentle cleansers!

I personally like to use African black soap its something that women in my family have been using for generation’s. My grandmother, Aunts and mothers have all used this product for as long as I can remember and I know why it has. never failed to keep my complexion crystal clear.I found that is gentle to use everyday, twice a day. African Black soap is generally made from locally harvested African plants such as plantain, cocoa pods, palm tree leaves and shea tree bark. The ingredients are sun-dried and roasted, and then Water and oils such as coconut oil, palm oil and/or shea butter. You can get raw organic African Black Soap from amazon. Be aware of fake African black soap, Authentic black soap has a marbled brownish/ black color. It doesn’t have a flat black color. Also the soap might cause tingling or burning sensation but no worries its most likely caused by the soap drawing out impurities and excess oils, and the pH levels of the skin will eventually balance out after a few days. I also recommend The Classic Clean by Noxzema it is gentle and really deep cleaning without over drying , this has also been a staple of mine since I was 14 years old.

Moisturize with shea butter

I Love incorporating Shea Butter in my beauty routine because it is multi-functional. You can use it for your Hair, Nails, body and face. High concentrations of fatty acids and vitamins (A,D,E) make shea butter perfect for softening skin. Shea butter also has anti-inflammatory, Anti-Aging and healing properties. It also acts as a natural sunscreen. Using shea butter can condition, tone, and soothe your skin. You only need a little bit so it last a very long time. I recommend getting raw unrefined organic shea butter off of amazon. It should be yellow in color and have a nutty scent. (The scent fades fairly quickly)

Pure Aloe vera and Tea Tree oil.

I use pure 100% Aloe vera gel every night. Aloe has bee used for thousands of years as a topical ointment. It contains antioxidants, enzymes, Vitamins A and C, and it is highly anti-inflammatory. It can help treat burns, hyperpigmentation, acne and dry skin. It helps with producing collagen which helps cell turn over thus helping maintain the skins structure. Sometimes I can even feel my skin tightening after using aloe vera gel. When I experience break outs I like to use Tea Tree oil. I dilute it with my aloe vera gel and put it on before I go to bed. I never recommend using tea tree oil without diluting it. Especially if you have sensitive skin. Tea tree oil is best for treating acne because of its anti-inflammatory and antimicrobial properties. It calms redness, swelling, and inflammation.

Oatmeal face masks!

I do this once a week. Colloidal Oatmeal is really good for sensitive skin. I use Aveeno’s colloidal oatmeal soothing bath treatment. The oatmeal comes in packages I just a table spoon and a little bit of water and make a paste then I put it on my face and leave it on for 10 minutes. Sometimes - typically during the winter ill put the tiniest amount of coconut oil in the paste. I usually wake up with glowing clear skin.

Less makeup

I know we live in an age where a full face of makeup everyday and everywhere is the new trend and that can really take a toll on your skin. People are surprised when I tell them I never wear foundation - ever even if im dealing with a break out. Letting your skin breath is extremely vital. Our skin is more delicate and sensitive than I think most of us realize , I recommend using thinner layers of CC or BB cream if you feel like you need some sort of foundation. But its not just foundation be aware of excessive contour,blush, highlight and setting powders. Not saying you cant wear it just be mindful of how much you are putting on your face is all. Less is usually more.

Drink water

Hydrate. It doesn’t matter if you think it will clear your skin or not. Keeping your body hydrated will keep your body balanced and remove toxins from your body which will majorly contribute to clearing your skin. The healthier and more balanced you are on the inside the more likely your skin is going to appear more healthy and balanced. It truly starts on the inside. I like to drink a gallon a day but the recommend daily intake is 64 ounces. PS. I Never Drink Soda!

Acceptance.

Everyone has breakouts. Majority of people have acne. Alot more people have textured skin than you think. People deal with eczema. Most people deal with hyper pigmentation. I have to deal with clogged hair follicles from time to time. everyone has something on their face that bothers them! Its okay to have “flaws” sometimes the best skin care tip is to accept your face because its your face and it tells your story and there is nothing - nothing more special in this world than you! Our body’s are constantly changing , adapting and growing and our face is no exception to that. Learning to accept and embrace that you will go through break outs, dark spots, weird bumps and rashes and some times might be worst then other times is the healthiest thing you can do.

[babybakuu]

GORGEOUS GORGEOUS GORGEOUS! Please share your skin routine, I needs halp. The little colonies on my forehead and between my eyebrows refuse to go away!😫😫😫

thank u baby 🥺🥺 ill kiss u rn 🥺🥺

here’s my skincare routine,, im so sorry it’s long:

1. cleanse with cetaphil daily facial cleanser for normal to oily skin

2. the ordinary niacinamide 10% + zinc 1% - this helps combat oily skin!!!

3. the ordinary argireline solution 10% - on my forehead, under eyes, and smile lines this is for wrinkles!! start anti aging serums young!! it's hard to get rid of wrinkles if you already have them!!

4. the ordinary caffeine solution 5% + EGCG - under and around my eyes, for puffiness and dark circles (honestly i cant tell if it works)

5. cerave eye repair cream - same as above (idk if this works too LMAO)

6. cerave mositruizing cream (i mfing love this,, it made my skin baby soft)

7. purito centella green level SPF50 - the BEST MFING SUNSCREEN OUT THERE!! lightweight, dries fast, doesn't leave me oily!!

8. aquaphor lip protectant + spf15 - always use sunscreen on ur lips and i try and use like aquaphor / vaseline only bc other things have too many added chemicals that just dry out your lips

i also use the ordinary AHA 30% + BHA 2% peeling solution twice a week and a skinfood rice scrub once a week (the peeling solution is so mfing good and it makes my skin feel sooooo soft after,, i absolutely love it and it's chemical exfloilant!!!)

note: i dont use anything with fragrance in it bc it irritates my skin,, and for pimples i usually get the $2.50 hanhoo pimple patches from walmart (they work rly well!!) you can also use some benzoyl peroxide to help with pimples!!

+ if you use a scrub use a soft one (no walnuts like kylie's bc those can leave micro tears in your skin)

+ check out the ordinary,, theyre a great cheap brand

[nintendogs]

hi its me again two days in a row i never got to talk abt sunscreen so here it is warning i talk a lot and am not makinf a read more yea we gay keep scrolling😤

basically my morning skincare is the exact same as pm-

i do a water rinse or if i feel a leetle peemple forming ill use either benzoyl peroxide wash (cerave😔) or salicylic acid wash (inkey)

then same rice toner centella serum vanicream.

sunscreen has been the keep cool bamboo essence daily for a few weeks.. its so good hdjsjsj i heard abt it from funskincare and then gothamista recently gave it a good review in her latest sunscreen video😊love her

but yea its like rlly lightweight while still not being drying -i dont think theres alcohol alcohol in this not that that matters to me but doesnt smell like it, cant say if it stings my eyes a lot of chemical/organic spfs do that so i always just use mineral spf (using the purito one i forget the name comfy something?) i might try to apply this spf all over the eyelids tho tomorrow who knows... will report back later perhaps

bonus- i ordered the hada labo sunscreen in the same order with the keep cool bamboo. i havent applied to my face since i try to stick to one product for a while but i test it on my neck and ears a lot lmfao. its nice i can tell its more moisturizing than the bamboo one idk if itll be too heavy feeling for rn since summer + mask wearing. But the spf i used to use regularly was purito unscented centella and this one im p sure feels lighter than that one. hada labo is rlly affordable i hate that its in a jar tho it just takes longer to apply so what i actually did was. i had an empty naturium niacinamide serum (lol) which was fine idk my friend bought it for me😳😊❣️ so i washed and disinfected it and transfered some of the hada labo spf in there.. genius me😌 might start applying it to my face later just to finally see how it feels on there lol.

[blissfulparker]

Mystery Of Love—T.H

Parings—tom holland x reader

Summary—you and tom have been friends for years and slowly became each other’s quick fixes until one day you can’t take it anymore and tell him how much you hate it, hate him.

Warnings—angst, sex mentions

A/n—hey lovies! So I hardly ever post one shots anymore so here is my latest attempt at one because I can’t keep up with my own series for the life of me!

You remember the summer that tom had came to join your family, it was the first time you had ever met Toms family. It was the first time you met tom more importantly. You two were young, both eighteen. You remember the way he had walked around with no shirt and quickly made himself a home in the small county house. You remember the way he bugged you and teased you for a while because you were two months younger than him or how you never took your head out of the books even in summer.

You remember the most important thing of all, how every girl fell in love with him. He was British, older, cuter, and that was something girls craved to get their hands on where you came from. Maybe it was the way he smirked at you the first time for rolling your eyes that made him so interesting or maybe it was the way he didn’t care much for the other girls but rather spent the whole summer focusing on himself.

You can remember the exact way he looked at you when you spotted him laying out by the pool all by himself, the sun reflecting off of him like it was meant for him. You couldn’t help but to stare and you thought that maybe for a second you were becoming one of the girls who were to fall in love with him. You didn’t want to fall in love with him, that would hurt too much when summer was over and winter was too far and so much could change in a person for when you went to him.

You could feel the first time he touched your skin when it was warm from the sun. The memory of that was so clear in your head that thinking about it you could feel the tips of his fingers dancing against your shoulders once again as he insisted he put sunscreen on. Or the way he softly touched your hand when you handed him the fruit you had already taken a bite of.

You wished he was still the same tom you could see 4 years ago. He was different now, so much different. He often Times was alone and liked it better that way. You tried so hard with him and fought with him as if the two of you were a couple, that was just to stay with him. You’re heart wasn’t ready for loss, it would never be ready when it was with tom.

Now you’re head pounded as you laid next to tom naked in his bed, you’re legs ached and your hips bruised with soft imprints of Toms fingers tips. It was an argument, again, promising he’d care and promising that he was okay when he wasn’t. He was your best friend, that’s all you wanted, your best friend.

You looked over to see tom sleeping, his hair spread out on the whole pillow, his lips swollen and slightly parted, his skin still was reflecting off the sun as it did the first time you saw it. He was perfect in the most imperfect way.

This wasn’t the first time you had slept with tom, this was becoming a habit between the two of you. He’d come home sad or angry and call you to cheer him up. His version of cheering up was sex and beer, you couldn’t figure that out until the third time though. You hated yourself for this habit because you knew he was using you and in a way you used him too. You needed to escape and sometimes tom was the only way.

“Don’t go yet.” He moaned out as you tried to sneak out of the bed where he took all the blanket for himself. “I’ll share I promise.” He held the blanket out for you to come into.

This time was different, it was the last time you wanted to do this. The last time you wanted to wake up in Toms bed being some girl he used, the last time you woke up in Toms bed having to lie to people saying you’re just friends when you didn’t think that anymore.

“Let go tom.” You told him, his hand was on your wrist as you jerked it out grabbing the blue and white stripped shirt that was his and put it over your body.

“Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed.” He groaned as he rubbed his eyes slowly waking up. “I’m serious lay back down you don’t even have work today.” He said sitting up and you didn’t speak you just walked into the bathroom to wash your face. You couldn’t bare to speak to him.

As you splashed cold water on your face trying to get the old mascara that you had from last night off tom had came behind you to kiss your neck.

“What’s wrong? We can go another round if it’ll make you feel better—“ before he could finish his sentence you turned around to look at him. You needed to be as stern as possible if you wanted to make him go away.

“I’m leaving tom.” You tell him and his eyes look at you with panic.

“W-What ?” He asked panicking as he tried to search for answers in your eyes. You didn’t want to cave in.

How much sorrow can I take?

“I can’t do this anymore, I have to leave.” You felt tears forming, you could see in his eyes too, he needed you to stay.

“Was it me? Did I hurt you?” He was so oblivious to what he was doing, he hurt himself and you both at the same time.

And what difference would it make? When this Love is over?

“I can’t do this because we don’t love each other tom, I can’t do this because what happens when I leave? When you leave? It’s nothing! We’re nothing! I can’t just do this because we’re stressed and tired and scared! We’re scared of each other and we refuse to notice it!” You scream at him with tears pouring down your face, his eyes too had tears coming out of them.

“I do love you I do,” he leaned in to kiss you. “I love you so much okay?” He kissed you over and over trying everything to get you to stay. “I love you so so much.” He trailed down your neck and gripped your hips harder trying to keep you. He needed you.

“You love the idea of me.” You cried out. “You love it when I come to take care of you at midnight you love when I’m there for you when I You’re sad! This is what we are tom, we’re sad!” You tell him and he shakes his head finding your hands and intertwining them with his.

“No were not, can you please just stay and we can make tea or coffee and just figure this out okay? We just need to figure this out—“ he couldn’t finish because he couldn’t stop crying, his heart was breaking. He felt his heart break, because he did love you But was always scared you’d find someone better, you deserved someone far better then the mess he was.

“We have nothing to figure out tom, there’s nothing for us to figure out!” You cried, it was the biggest lie. You could try but you were scared to.

“Come back to bed please and we can talk just let me—“ he cut himself off trying to convince you by placing soft kisses on your lips, they were salty from all the tears the both of you produced. “I love, (y/n), I love you please, I love you so much I need you to stay.”

Shall I sleep within your bed? River of unhappiness.

You wanted to give in, you wanted to go back to bed and fix everything but it scared you. The thought of you and tom being more than just a quick fix was always what you wanted but now the thought was bittersweet.

“Okay,” You whisper giving in and his shoulders dropped as he pulled you in for a passionate kiss, a kiss that he’d never done with you before.

He pulled you into a hug, tightly gripping your skin making sure to not let you go. It was like the hug he gave you when he was leaving in the summer, that was his first ‘I wish we had more time’ hug. He did it rarely and now he was doing it again, because he needed you to live.

“We cant solve our problems with sex.” You mumble into his neck and he nods. He pulls back to look at you and wipe the tears from your face.

“I know that, I really do know that and I know I’m a shitty person for everything I put you though and I know that I shouldn’t call you when I need someone to fuck but you stopped becoming that a long time ago. I craved you (y/n), I craved this Love I had for you and I wanted to push it away and become friends again but that has always been hard.” He tells you and you play with the buttons your shirt and he runs his fingers though your hair trying to get you to look at him.

Hold your hands upon my head til’ I breathe my last breath.

“I hate myself for loving you, I hate myself for giving in, I hate myself for still being here after months but I can’t help it. I tried different guys and none of them have been like you and that was the hardest part, tom, there was no other guy like you.” You whisper and he holds your hands.

“I want you to stay, we can move slow, I’ll work on myself, how about we both start with a drawer?” He laughs a little at the comment but you nod and rest your forehead on his shoulder, tired from crying and last nights sex.

“Yeah I can clear one up for you.” You smile and he kisses the top of your head staying like that for a while.

Blessed be the mystery of love.

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[ashhonestgirl]

The Daily Life Of An Undertail Fangirl: The WaterPark w/ skeletons compay pt1

(Sorry to ruin my other part of the story to give a.. well a story. Base around what I did today. Hope you enjoy ~Hg)

*6:30 am* (yup ik I'm crazy & this did happen)

Hg: *yells from the top of the stairs* SANS, RED, BLUE, BLACK. COME ON! WE CANT BE LATE!

*Ash runs downstairs and drop her bag that has sunscreen, a towel, waterproof case, and extra clothing. She both happy and excited to be going to the waterpark today *

S: *yawn and grabs a bag* We are coming just hold ... *Blue runs past Sans. He too excited for his own good he looks like he is shaking*

B: Come on today is the day. It finally stopped raining after a month and we are not busy. So we can be together in peace. *Ash jumps on Blue's back.*

Hg: Blue I can't wait!! I don't know what are we going to do first!

B: Same here Ash!

Hg: Did you make sure that papyrus and everyone bro coming too?

B: Yup. Paps says he going to get us in his car. And I think Edge is going to take Slim and my bro and meet us there.

Hg: good *hear grumbles from upstairs*

R: *yawns and rubs eye socket* Can someone please explain to me why the fuck are we getting up at 6 in the morning for this?!?! You know some of us like to sleep in now and again. Right?

Hg: I know but we have to bet traffic the park opens at nine. And I know how Paps drives kinda slow.

S: who is going to wake sleeping beauty from his sleep. Slim told me if it's not for his Royal guard routine. He won't get up. *raise his hands* I know, I'm not going to do it. If he's anything like Blue or Red I'm staying out of it.

(Blue and Red love their sleep. But they have a bad attitude when their sleep is disturbed. *cough* Red almost killed Sans like that *cough*)

Hg: *sighs* I'll do it. At least I know how to handle cranky people *gets off Blue and starts walking upstairs* wish me luck at least.

B: good luck Ash

*At Blackberry's Door*

*knock.. knock*

*Nobody came*

Hg: *sigh* ok then let's try this

*opens up the door to his room. Black is asleep on the bed. He's snoring quietly. Ash sits down on the bed close to Black. She smiles looking down at him*

*in head* you know even tho you can be a pain you still look so cute sleeping. *Ash put her hand on top of Black's shoulder and whisper in a motherly way* Black .. Sweety you need to get up. Today we are going to the water park and everyone is waiting for you. *all that she heard were mumbles and grunts* Black... Come on.

Bb: *in a tired voice* go away, mom... Five more mins please *Black curled under his blanket more. Ash couldn't help but giggle.*

Hg: ok. My little blackberry I'll get you in five minutes and if you don't get up when I get back you have to deal with your father *ash started to giggle more but controlled herself*

Bb: ok... Mom... Love u *falls back to sleep*

*Ash smiles and kiss Black's forehead. And walk out of the room. With a shitty grin on her face. And giggle*

R: So ...is he coming out?

Hg: No, but I need your help with something.. Just try your best not to die ok. *smiles*

R: *looks at Ash confused* what you need me to do?

Hg: Be my hus-bone *giggles*

R: *yells* What?!? *ash quickly cover is mouth*

S&B: what was that? *yell from downstairs*

Hg: shhh! *yell to sans and blue* nothing! *whispers to red*  Black think I'm his mom and I need you to play dad real quick so he gets up.

R: *smiles evilly* oh this going to be fun

*Ash and Red walk in Black's room*

Hg: Black please get up it been 5 min

Bb: mmm~ no *still sleepy*

R: *smiles and in a dad serious tone/ soft yell (idk)* BLACK YOU GET UP RIGHT NOW.

*Black jumps on his feet and see ash and Red roll on the floor laughing. He stops, thinks and blushes from embarrassment.*

Bb: *yells* you two are going to GET IT *Red and ash run out of his room still laugh*

B: is black up?

R: oh.. he's up alright *chuckles. Ash elbows red. Red stops laughing*

Hg: he will be down in one min *smiles*

S: good cause my bro is up the street.

Hg: ok

S: How did you wake him up?

Hg: tehe that's a secret I can't tell. *hears footstep coming from the stairs*

Bb: *yawns and looks at Red and ash piss off* morning everyone

All: morning

Hg: hehe are you ready to go *somewhat in baby voice*

Bb: *growls* yes I'm ready... Mom... Thank you so much.

Hg: hehe come on let's go *run pass the boys and giggles.* today is going to be a great day. I can just feel it *run onto the yard seeing Paps in his car.* Heya paps!

P: WELL HELLO THERE HUMAN. ARE YOU READY TO GO TO THE WATER PARK.

Hg: *jumps in the air with excitement* HELL YEA!!

P: LANGUAGE HUMAN ( lol sorry. Can't help but think about captain American say that) DID YOU MAKE SURE EVERYONE IS READY?

Hg: oops and yea I made sure Ahh!. *Blue jump on ash back*

B: I can't wait to go in the wave pool or be in the rapid river or try all the water slides.

S: *waves* hi bro. *Paps waves back* I'm more excited about the long lazy river.

P: *shakes head* OH COURSE YOU WOULD BE BROTHER.

R: I'm just glad we are going out even tho it's super early in the morning. *stares at ash cause it was her idea to wait up early. Little upset* but I would like to go on the thrill water rides.

Bb: *grabs everyone things and put it in the trunk* well I'm just going to relax

Hg: *look at black confused* you are not going to join the fun.

Bb: no I'm just going to read my book and try to enjoy myself and control myself

B: Can you at least come on one ride with me and ash or all of us... Please *puppy dog eyes power activated*

Bb: *grumbles* ugh fine one ride ok

Hg & B: yes!

P: COME ON EVERYONE IT'S TIME TO GO

*Everyone jumps into paps car. And try to the waterpark*

[gazellelovescats]

The thing about pain

I’ve always been a sensitive person. By sensitive I do not mean the kind who gets pissed off by every other thing that happens to them. I’ve always felt way too deeply. Happiness, sorrow, melancholy... Even when it comes to physical things. I cant stand wearing itchy clothes. I had a mild UTI when I was a kid. Although it was mild, it felt like I was dying. I was in excruciating pain. But I am thankful for that pain. If it wasn’t for it I would’ve never gotten an early diagnosis before it became severe. I have a condition called Scoliosis wherein the individual’s spine becomes curved. Although it is mild, I was in debilitating pain for a couple of years before it was even diagnosed. Doctors recommended that I just live with the condition as a spinal surgery would cause more harm than good. The only way to ease the pain is exercise, which my lazy bum doesn’t want to do. But I’ll always be thankful for Scoliosis. This taught me to take care of my body and not take it for granted. I’ve learnt to integrate exercise as a part of my daily life. I had terrible acne as a teenager ( I still do but it’s not so bad now :P). It taught me to take better care of my skin. I started applying sunscreen regularly after that. My lesser wrinkled fifty year old self is going to be so thank for that.

Maybe pain isn’t so bad after all. Its meant to teach us something. Maybe we are better for it.

With love,

Gazelle