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biohazard-inevitable · 10 months

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The worst part about being a vivid dreamer, I think, is waking up from the perfect dream.

You’re enraptured by all the sweetest, most alluring sensations, and you’ve spent endless time being guided by the subconscious on miraculous adventures, made friends and allies that you’ve gotten to know so spiritually, and suddenly, its torn away from you in violent, thundering fashion.

The warm, enrapturing mist that shrouded you for what felt like days or even years worth of time suddenly jolted into the violent cold awareness of reality, forcing your mind to come to terms that none of that happened. The bonds you made, the promises you whispered, the triumphs, the sorrows, the treasures, the sensations were never real to begin with. In reality, you were gone for but a night, when in your mind, you been full of joy for eons.

Drowsily, you churn, shutting out the cold reality in turn for chasing back into that haze thats already shifted, trying desperately to roll back the clock to where you were before, claws scratching alterations to the story in misguided recollections of the tape’s rewinding until you fall into another dream entirely, only to later be woken much the same once more, unable to recast yourself into the abyssal beyond and instead realizing you’ve been out for 16 hours, time you will never regain.

#tw dreams #cw dreams #ask to tag #maybe this is a me thing #my dreams are too vivid and real and they make me want to return #but then i have trouble falling alseep from the start #i cant fall asleep and i cant wake up #its a conundrum for sure

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mummer · 1 year

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just saw asteroid city last night, pls explain the proposed significance of the kiss!!

answering this publicly hope thats ok! cant do a readmore im on mobile *****asteroid city spoilers below beware*****

i dont remember anyones names so this is gonna sound partly unhinged. okay so the edward norton playwright and jason schwartzman actor (not character, in the black and white parts) are lovers right. tbh i thought this was kind of a gag and forgot about it. but later we find out that the playwright died 6 months into the production. i didnt make the connection that THAT’s why the actor-jason has to suddenly leave the stage and freaks out backstage about how he’s not sure he’s Doing it right. hes not talking about acting!! because he himself is literally grieving his lover while he’s playing a character who’s grieving his wife written by his lover so obviously it’s too much!!! actor-jason is trying to find meaning in his death through his writing but there isnt any meaning in death [gerris drinkwater voice] which is what the play is trying to say anyway. he doesnt think he’s performing grief right even in his own life!!! (and tbh it’s the 50s so he wouldnt be able to perform grief publicly anyway!!!!) the play starts with a car accident… anyone would search for some hidden meaning there, some sign…. so when he talks to margot robbie outside it’s not really about finding the CHARACTER’s motivations it’s about the actor himself being able to process the playwright’s death! and adrien brody director was probably also dealing with that too (him and norton seemed to be good buddies) so the whole “sleeping backstage” thing gets a bit sadder maybe? maybe everyone else got this in the theatre and im just stupid lol but crazy making stuff to me!!! the whole story is about sublimated gay grief that cannot be expressed?!?!

the tweet that caught me onto this was here which posits that the playwright’s death was a suicide but i think that’s pretty stupid and unnecessary because the whole thing about the play asteroid city is that death is random and meaningless. im pretty sure that’s what the alien represents— a shocking and absurd event that isnt outright evil or menacing, not something anyone can predict or make sense of, it’s just a thing that happens to you out of nowhere, it doesnt mean anything. he’s a little black figure, he’s death! giving and taking! aagh

#you’re the wife who played my actor :(#posthumus #asteroid city #imagine youre in love with a playwright and he writes a play before he even meets you about how you cant get over his death which hasnt #happened yet. id go insane too #im going to see it again to see how this informs the whole thing because its driving me crazy #rewatching the performances knowing that they're performing people performing. augh.#remember when bryan cranston accidentally appears in frame. rending my garments #also ‘you cant wake up until you fall asleep’ confused me a bit but then i remembered that the margot robbie scene was supposed to be put o #as a dream sequence and it makes sense now. thanks #aliens are the new fairytale monster symbol of death. the ultimate Unknowable #EDIT okay i read the wikipedia summary got some facts wrong adrien brody is sleeping in the theatre during rehearsals so its not because of #the playwright’s death he’s just like that.

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tumble-tv · 1 month

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I love waking up at 2 in the morning when my muscle relaxers wear off and lying in pain while any movement causes my legs to spasm. It's really the best part of my day. /sarcastic

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batshikns · 7 days

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what should i drawwww

#im trying to pass the time as i am sick in bed and feel a wave of exhaustion anytime i wake up #i cant even go downstairs without feel exhausted and about to fall asleep like a horse #batrambles

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skunkes · 2 months

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^_^

#very very excited about surgery like i know in a year it wont even be an issue and ill be extra happy i did it #I've kinda gotten past the anesthesia fear and i lived thru the MRI needle in my awrm so #the IV wont be too horrendous.#so right now my biggest worry is the After....#ive seen ppl say they were mostly resting in bed for like 2 or 3 days #and after that they just had to take it easy to get around but idk. im so nervous about That Part.#+ i cant. fall asleep on my back. lol. im terrified #i rly hope im so exhausted on that first day that i jst knock out upon getting home ykwim #being too aware of pain in the body makes me feel cornered in it sometimes ykwim. like i want to jump out of it ! nervous #i rly hope it doesnt hurt too bad!!!!!!! i know ppl say it feels like sore abs after workout but idk. idk nervous #talkys #especially since i have work to do! i hate feeling lazy. i dont even take naps bc i feel like its laziness i cant be out of commission for #a couple of days. WAH.#my friend had an adjacent surgery and said she woke up in a lot of pain! they obvs administered pain management #immediately but oh god. ykwim. im scared of waking up in a lot of pain being in a lot of pain

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faaun · 7 months

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my research partner and i are huddled in a blanket in paddington waiting for a too-late train i already miss you and you and you

#he keeps falling asleep almost on my shoulder and waking up and readjusting but i want to tell him its ok weve seen a lot #of each other ive seen your brainwaves you called me crying a few nights ago. research partner right now is a potentiality #friend is a certainty. i met a banker passionate about finance. he said his advice made the lives of others better and he likes the numbers #more than he likes anything else. on a high rise near canary wharf the view was wonderful and the people even moreso #he said i loved her but i spent 33 grand on her and i cant do this anymore. his voice cracked talking about her. he did love her.#and she talked softly she grabbed my hand she bought me a pack of Marlborough gold she told me to snap #the russian menthol cigarettes of the tortured polish man near us with my teeth i kept staring at her teeth #bright white and sharp. i couldnt find her heartbeat but i did find warmth and i did find her lips and i did feel #how she felt pressed against a wall. a pretty boy held my hand and i gave him my number. i couldnt stop smiling about her no matter #how many runways youve walked on how many collections youve designed how many students youve taught. senior lecturer teaches me how to do #very unethical things ethically over a double shot of vodka made by the half-persian with broken farsi. she talks softly #and she says her eyes are hazel but they appear a shade of red. pure gold on her hands and leather on her back and her fingers on my lips #(she talks softly sees through me she says something i cant hear but i wont forget the way she flies) she talked to my research partner #about the possibility of moving to sunny dubai with the rest of her family and my heart felt pierced. on her arm i traces a tattoo of a #knife passing through a rose. she told me she thought there was romance in severing so i kissed her some more.#he sat me down and asked me what i loved and i told him and he said no romance no person no tragedy will take that from you.#the room was filled with a collection of people in love with something that wasnt a person and i kept looking at her.#red eyes bitten jawline beautiful hands. it is 3 degrees Celsius my head is on his shoulder i miss my friends #we walked out the lecture hall with arms linked a photo of two years ago and we both said #jesus christ. i miss you all. and i miss logic metatheory lectures. im glad i get to stare at the depth of your eyes #i wish i had met you years ago.#crushposting

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 9 months

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shoutout to Asteroid City for making me pace and cry for a solid ten minutes after watching it

#adding it to the list of movies that make me Insane-#wes anderson. man. what a fuckin director yk #he gets it... he knows whats up...#i love how on surface level his movies - those of them that ive seen this far #they seem kind of absurd and slightly nonsensical. until you Listen to & Think about whats being said in matter-of-fact tones #and then its like oh. Oh. ok. i need to walk into the woods and howl and eat my own heart #not mention just. his artistic view #the staging the framing the shots the acting style the colors the set design the AUGH #IT'S SO UNIQUE AND DISTINCT!!!#i do believe that wes anderson is my favorite director #i want... to try and create something that sort of emulates his style...#absolutely unprompted #i really need to make a list of my fav movies. asteroid city will definitely be on it #you cant wake up if you dont fall asleep....

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acedavestrider · 21 days

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being at this job regularly makes me want to cry but nowhere is hiring and i keep getting rejections all the fucking time and i dont know what to do

#me @ me: no one cares #i dont know what to doooo i fucking hate being here and im so exhausted im so tired #i cant even put my head down on my desk for a few minutes anymore because we have a new hire in my section #ive worked with like four different recruiters and they all ghosted me lol like just stopped responding to me #and i cant stop falling asleep at my desk #ive been sleeping fine i havent even been taking sleep aids or anything and im still so so tired at my desk every single day #its awful. its just awful. i cant seem to wake up #very close to just giving up. i dont think i can explain the type of fatigue im dealing with at the moment

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p-ogman · 2 years

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Girl who says "Hiii", Girl who says "Bruh"

#philza #technoblade #emerald duo #mcyt #dream smp #zablr #i said i was gonna post it when i wake up and i cant fall back asleep LOL

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offorestsongs · 29 days

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got bored and (poorly) filled out this lil template for Lysander; the "feeling" i was trying to convey (with my carefully selected image from Canva) was "melancholy" but i don't think that translates lmao

here's the song if anyone's curious!!

#twst oc #twisted wonderland oc #twst yuu #💌 lore #⚜ lysander #the song is called today i will go to sleep late #to (also poorly) translate some lyrics for you #today i will go to sleep late / when everyone's already in bed / my eyes are opened / and my head is full and empty #and i dont know what i have to think about / to dream of a world / where im not afraid to fall asleep #even though i dont want to wake up / i cant fall asleep / the world is as strange as a dream / a dream is as strange as the world #Spotify

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fox-guardian · 1 month

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I'm so fucked

#ramblings with major #cursing #trying to fix my sleep schedule so i can be on time at work when i have to show up ~6 hours before the store opens #meaning at least 6 hours before i usually get up on early days #and im still struggling to wake up #it doesnt help that i close the night before and if i were to pass out the moment i get home and wake up with Maybe enough time to get ready #id still only get 7 hours of sleep. so with dinner. showering. getting ready for bed. thats at least two hours lost.#and then whether or not i actually fall asleep once my head hits the pillow. well that could be a couple hours.#especially if im so stressed about waking up on time #im not gonna get sleep. i might not even wake up in time. and then i work for 8 hours.#aaaaaaaa #why cant they just close the store. for a DAY #so we can work the NORMAL HOURS

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silvr-skreen · 2 months

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dandy: why is he so round?

astro: *screaming and biting his hands*