#i can't even properly articulate thoughts it's all just !!!!!!!!!!! in my head lol

[brainfullofbees]

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[upn-the-sky]

Give me God of War!! (Ares OOAK, Part 3)

What's going on here? IT'S FINAL

Part 1 - Head | Part 2 - Armor

Million years ago, somewhere near the New Year Eve, when my ooak Ares's armor was complete, I was like: "naaaaaaaaah, accessories will be easy to make". It was a huge underestimation of the situation, as it can be seen now.

I actually had no particular reasons to do it, I mean, his sword would be enough to feed my appetites, but I was like 'I am already decided to make his weapon anyway, why not to replicate attributes of his spider personality from his bossfight with Kratos??'

It was the time when I still had a smile on my face, because at that moment it were problems for the 'future me', and at the first week of January I was very excited about the new challenge. Let's see what we had here under the cut!

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Sword

I decided to start with the thing, which don't need to repeat the same process 6 times

Everything looks pretty understandable, if you decomposite such a simple weapon as a sword. You need to make a handle, you need to make a blade. Intricate design of the handle is required! But the blade sat me on a couch and made me think.

The first thing that you see, when you look at the 3D model, his sword is hecking huge. Like it is half of Ares's own height or maybe a little more and he should not just be able to hold it in his hand, but to stand with it. Doll specifics. You just can't make things heavy. (And I don't really use doll-stands for shelf storaging. I mean if your doll have her own legs, it should stand properly on them by herself.. maybe it is not very clever, who knows..)

Secondly, the blade is actually formed from a fire which flows from all four dog's mouths. If it is a fire, it should be slightly transparent, but have an orange color. And have a wavy relief.. But still be a physical blade. While I thought what material should I use, I made a handle. Ares, you are a dog person, we got it (I guess Cerberus is not safe from pets and playing with fireball every time Ares visits his uncle in the underworld)

After two failing attempts to make sword's blade from the hot glue and epoxy resin I decided to scare plastic with scissors. Actually it turned out very nice. Then I needed to save transparency of the plastic after coloring and make a flamy relief. And glue everything together, sticking fire flows to the dog's mouths. Like this!

It was faster then I thought. ___________

Spider legs

Okay, things became complicated here. First of all, I had a very important question for proforma.

Ares has only 6 insect legs. Is he a spider.... 🕷 or is he a scorpion? 🦂

Spoiler-not-spoiler, he is a spider 🕷 if you thought about it too. Because if we compare his beast anatomy with spider anatomy, we will see that Ares's human legs are the 'missing' 4th pair of "walking legs" (total: 8). And his arms are the palps (which spiders uses for stuffing mouth with food. Or doing palpation, lol).

Secondly, I was a naive summer child, I was like "I will do them in a couple of weeks. I even made a workpieces in one day! And a draft mount for them, which is going to be somehow installed on his back. I need just one or two weeks to finish everything, right??"

AFTER A 2 MONTHS of frustration I admitted to myself that I don't like.. everything about my first view of the finished piece. Put our naivety aside. There were critical points I thought:

Legs need more points of articulation.

They should have relief and blade-like fire tips. We will stay close to the concept art, but god dammit no more dog heads, I see them at the lower pair of legs, but we ignore they are here. It is just too much of dogs, we have plenty enough already.

Ares should be able to stand by himself with them. It means legs should be light-weighted despite their size, and they should be firm at the same time. And there is 6 of them, which means even a small weight will be x6 times multiplied.

We need to attach them to the back normally in the aggregate with the already existing armor and horizontal installing, maybe using an additional slings. Also we need to show how his spider legs distorted and broke his armor between his shoulder blades.

Modification should be removable, cause I want Ares 2 ways, in his own persona look and in his spidersona look.

This plan showed that there was actually a LOT of work to do.. And I decided, eh, let's make legs again with the new concept of articulation.. and a new back piece. Then we'll figure out where to go next..

A MONTH LATER, being very frustrated again, I suddenly found a perfect workpieces for the tips of the spider legs, group up and made an effort!! Sometimes in customizing you just need to find a right piece of plastic to push the project further.

Legs (before and after), back piece and intermediate assembly:

Quickly (before I lose a grip again!) increasing a thickness to the legs, creating a reliefs, and always remembering that I need to leave it as light as possible. Actually my brain creacked at this moment, gladly I could feel how close I am to the finish!

One more assembly before painting. By the way, each leg had an individual relief, like an individual fingerprint on each finger. Just a small detail, which i like a lot.

And it is fine! Two painted back pieces of armor, "normal" and "spider". Love, how wavy 'metal' looks, like his back under the armor was destroyed too. (His face had really painful expression when he grew them before the fight with Kratos. And there was blood on them)

And a final assemble! Turn on his music theme "Duel with Ares" and MEET HIM in his "beast form"

Oh, you forgot your sword, baby. Here you are. Are you happy now?

It is really difficult to make a good photos of him in action. For the more free posing he clearly need a stand, but, well, for the first time I have a lot of good photos.

It is ironic that making these accessories really needed a couple of weeks in total, but ate more months than a whole armor. And I am very proud that I finally finished this customizing progect. With all of my love to old GOW games I want to say that Ares is gorgeous, he deserves million art and fanfics, he taught me how to love character again, he...

He is not happy. Why? What do you mean I forgot the main "accessory"? We have NECA Kratos at home!, isn't it enough?...

....he said it is defenetely not enough, agressively clicking with chitin. Look at him, he feels so lonely without his perfect warrior... Looks like Skeletor will return with Kratos next time! %) because somehow Kratos IS already here, I mean his head and body... Was it my cruel plan from the beginning??

God help me Stay tuned, people

[phoenix-before-the-flame]

PHOENIX OMG I am shaking your hand so vigorously that laxus is so cool I didn't think ur art could get any cooler but holy shit the details??the shading???? God the glowing scars bring me so much joy idek why,,,Like hand to heart I am so genuinely blown away by this (even though bald laxus is kinda cursed lol XD) I am holding this gently in my hands and incorporating this into my headcanons for laxus immediately 👍🏼

Also that's such an awesome take on his scar like!!! not only is this objectively cooler than having just one scar on his face it would also probably have been a telltale sign that there's more to him than just being a lightning mage. I also love that this would give us more insight to the actual logistics of magic in this world like showing that mages would actually struggle with learning how to wield their magic and hence scarring like that wouldn't be uncommon to see and reasonable to justify,,,just makes magic feel more real storywise yknow! Anyways that's all for now I have so many more thoughts on this that I can't articulate properly bcuz I'm still freaking out but this was hands down the best thing to wake up to thank you so much for taking the time to answer my ask and in so much detail too <33 (once again I remember why you're my favourite fairy tail artist/blog lol) have a good day!! - scar anon

Aw its no trouble at all man, really! I've been plannin on doing up the Laxus scar concept for a while now to help me down the line for my rewrite so you just gave me the opportunity to draw it earlier than planned 😅

And i take any opportunity i can get to add a lil logistics to the magic system. My goal for it isn't to make it make 100% sense ( even though i appreciate a touch of realism in fantasy every once in a while) but for it to have some weight in universe yknow? The magic's sorta surface level spread in a way to me and loosely connected to the world and its characters. Like it's such a major component but not really ingrained in a lot of things and i really like to explore that whenever im just yknow, rotating fairy tail in my head lol.

But as always man, thanks for your kindness and support! Your a real sweetheart scar anon and i appreciate it!

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silent ways they've said 'i love you': relinquish the crown edition (part 1)

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before either of you ever said it, there were always the little things you did that delivered the message your words could not quite articulate yet

holding hands

(before marriage) In the mornings, when you see each other on the way to the dining hall to break your fast, Loki always offers his hand to you and you always graciously take it. If he's feeling particularly brave that day he laces his fingers through yours.

(before marriage) When you would walk the streets of Asgard, Loki holds on to your hand tightly so that even if you walk through crowded streets you do not lose each other in the throngs of people. He tries not to make it too evident, but his hold on you gets slightly tighter when you walk near the brothels and one of the more grown women recognize him from his younger years. If he notices them looking at you with a hatred in their eyes he covertly conjures up a dagger with his free hand ready to defend you if they get too close.

(after marriage) When you walked the streets of Asgard, and you would pass the brothels, if one of the more grown women glare at him or you, your grip on his hand doesn't tighten, but rather you visibly brandish a dagger with your other hand, silently daring them to say or do something to provoke you and your husband.

(after marriage) You two definitely hold each other's hand underneath the dining table and it is definitely because when you would do it so visibly you get an annoyed groan from Thor going "Even your mother and I weren't this sickeningly sweet toward one another", to which you would respond, "Sounds to me like that's a you problem" and then kiss your husband's hand just to annoy him even more

helping put on/take off jewelry

(before marriage) In 'a trinket', Loki fastened the choker around your neck.

(before marriage) After 'too precious to sacrifice' and before 'intrusive thoughts', before you fell asleep on Loki's bed, he made sure to remove the necklace from you so that you wouldn't have trouble breathing through the night.

(after marriage) Whenever Loki would fasten your jewelry around your neck, he would glide his fingertips down the length of your neck, and across your collarbones, never failing to make you shiver. This graduated into placing a kiss on your neck when you were starting to show that you were falling in love with him.

being distracted by thoughts about them

(before marriage) [drabble alert…placement is after 'midgardian amusements'] You couldn't take your mind off of Astrid's lascivious smirk after you'd given her your blessing to attempt courting Loki. You knew that truthfully she didn't need your blessing, but you couldn't help but make her feel as if you were merely allowing her to do so. What was she doing now? Had she already approached him? Would he say yes? The thoughts had consumed your conscious mind so much that you weren't able to deflect Fandral's next attack and instead felt the tip of his weapon strike your cheek. "You seem out of sorts today, Your Highness," he teased. "Apologies, Fandral. Seems I have a lot on my mind."

(before and after marriage) Whenever Loki would have a trip to any other realm, he often found himself absentmindedly walking the sceneries and picturing how you would look among them, dragging his hand to follow you as if you didn't know that he would follow you to the edge of the universe if you'd asked.

A/N: Welcome to a new thing I'm trying for little scenarios I have in my head for these chaotic lovebirds that just aren't enough for a full outtake. This could contain a sentence or two, or it could contain a drabble just like that last section.

Also I'm sick this week (I'm on my period sick, not I'm dying sick) so my brain's foggy and can't write properly quite yet, so this is all I have to offer lol

Taglist:

Everything: @lokisgoodgirl @lokischambermaid @imalovernotahater @mygfloki @lucylaufeyson3 @thomase1 @springdandelixn @fictive-sl0th @mochie85 @laliceee @xorpsbane @gigglingtigger @silverfire475 @cabingrlandrandomcrap @vickie5446 @salempoe @lokixryss @sinsandguilt @lokidbadguy @alexakeyloveloki @glitterylokislut @arch-venus25 @freefrommars @littlemortals @cakesandtom @girl-of-multi-fandoms @mischief2sarawr @thedistractedagglomeration @five-miles-over @goblingirlsarah @peaches1958 @huntress-artemiss @lilibet261 @iobsessoverfictionalmen @holymultiplefandomsbatman @lovingchoices14 @avoliax @devilsadvocactus @purplegrrl27 @lokiprompts @sititran @imherefortomhiddleston

relinquish the crown: @kalinaselennespeaks @severuslovebot @kats72 @baffledbymybrilliance

[foxymoxynoona]

Hi, me again 😶

I appreciate the lengthy answer you gave my ask. (I obviously can't read the tone through text, but you didn't seem as annoyed as i thought you might be(?) so that's a lowkey win for me actually explaining why i sent the first ask(?) Lol)

Also yeah, no, i wasn't 'cockblocked'. Amended isn't a fic i go to for that kind of instant gratification :) Out of all four, it was the only one i actually wanted to read at first (only followed by TL, but not soon after) And it wasn't for the sex, I read the tags.

With that out of the way,

I tried thoroughly answering your answer (lol) but I kept running in circles and not being able to properly articulate what I'm thinking, so I'm just going to write a shorter version :)

I think it does eventually come down to what you said about Amended being intended more for readers who personally relate than for those who don't.

While I've obviously had certain negative life experiences, i doubt they can be seen as traumatic. Or if they can, they're nowhere near Isabella's level. I suppose i've also had different coping mechanisms than her so that's probably another one of the reasons I didn't think all of her reactions were justified. It's all a question of whether it made sense to me or not. Did jk's behavior look faultless to me? No. But I could understand jk's p.o.v more than hers, even if he was wrong in some of his assumptions and didn't voice them calmly. Sometimes I wish they could read each other's minds..

I did, however, understand the analogies you made and they did give me a better understanding of why she acts the way she does.

Honestly I was surprised there even was another sex scene in this chapter. Thought they'd talk about it properly before attempting again. But noPe :) I'm rather apprehensive about the date and how Jungkook's.. "plans" are going to go, considering everything..

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I do appreciate you truthfully picturing the process of her overcoming parts of her past trauma and learning that it's okay to trust someone again. It's just quite difficult to grasp the depth and gravity of her trauma from an.. "outsider" 's perspective 😅

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Hello again 👀!

First, I do want to apologize that my joke about being cockblocked sounds like it landed poorly. I had not read your initial comment as being very serious (since it just said you were annoyed with Isabella) so I responded in what I understand the tone to be. I'm sorry I misunderstood that initial ask!

Second of all, I'm not annoyed! I find and hope all these discussions are actually useful for anyone reading. Mental health is a big, huge aspect of life that I just feel like is so poorly represented or discussed. I have had serious anxiety all my life (without even knowing it! I thought that's just how everyone's brain worked!) but when I had my first major depressive episode, I remember after I was out of it being like: holy shit. I did not understand what depression was before this! Even now, it's hard for me to fully recall how utterly potato I was because it seems impossible that I was that way but I was! Our brains map the world and our place in it, and it can be challenging to get into the head of someone whose brain functions very differently than our own. So that's all to say, I think talking about these things is valuable to broaden our own understanding of ourselves and the people around us who navigate the world differently than we may.

One thing I think is worth pointing out in this story too that hasn't actually come up tonight: JK in this story also has trauma. And he also went through a period of deep pain that caused him to isolate himself and hurt the people around him badly. And his traumas still influence how he behaves. Isabella is his first "real" relationship. Remember how hurt Miranda was when he committed to her without committing to her?? And then didn't tell her he'd fucking gotten MARRIED? We just are seeing JK further along in his healing journey because he has been in a safe, loving, supportive place for far longer than Isabella has, and he always had family love and support, even at his worst (in high school when he really hurt Isabella). Isabella didn't have that. She has been alone and is now having to learn how to function without being in survival mode all the time. It may be worth everyone remembering that this isn't a story where JK stumbled into what is definitely a relationship with someone only starting to process intense trauma. He went into this eyes wide open, and with his own experience helping him understand the fear, and the loneliness. He's not actually a saint, he's just been through something similar and he understands (at least a little) and he loves her.

As for coping mechanisms, that's another good point: they're different for everyone and just like love languages, we can most easily understand behavior similar to our own. I love learning more about the way people work, and I hope my stories can help readers learn more beyond their own experiences or patterns as well, like how to recognize other love languages or coping or defense mechanisms.

Jimin actually called JK out on one of his this chapter: "you'll have sex with her before you love her because you're confident about sex." Is it worth thinking how different this story might be if Jungkook had been honest with Isabella at any point in their relationship about the love and guilt and regret he has from how he treated her when they were younger? Maybe not, but maybe!

And finally, as for sex: I had actually expected a lot of people to be upset about them having sex before they'd resolved more, haha. Because it's totally fair to theorize they jumped the gun getting physical! But they did it! Because they're horny for each other! It was a big step forward though before they were really ready to talk about some of the Big Feelings that might come up for either of them. They are a couple that tends to take a big leap and then scramble to figure out wtf they just did

Anyway, hope all this gives some more food for thought!

[cheesybadgers]

Ahhhhhh I think this comment just killed me (in the best possible way) 😭😭❤️❤️

I will respond fully below the cut, but I will say now thank you SO MUCH for taking the time to read and reply so thoroughly, it's massively, massively appreciated 😘

I have decided I need to write my comments while I read the fic otherwise I make it to the end and my brain is just mush from these two men being so cute together and I cannot properly articulate how wonderful this is

I'm SO HAPPY you're on board with these two 🥺 They have been turning my brain to mush for so long and it's wonderful to see someone else experience All The Feelings over them too 😭

Not you putting the stealing whatever moments they can get trope (is it even a trope? i´m calling it a trope). Them having to be content with hearing the other's voice through the radio or being in the same room but surrounded with other people. My babies deserve a world in where they can love each other

Javier's reaction to the kid pointing the gun at him? genius, you wrote that scene so well!

I think it must be a trope?! I tend to not really consciously use tropes, they just sort of...happen lol, but yeah, given the stress and intensity of their jobs and the era it was set in, I didn't think they'd be getting much quality time together unfortunately ☹️

Horacio was as still as a mill pond; his arms frozen by his side; unused to this kind of contact in such an exposed setting. He didn’t try to shrug Javier away though; instead allowing him to take what he needed, but not able to fully reciprocate either.

“We can’t do this here. Someone might see us,” Horacio warned in a low whisper.

EXCUSE ME?! EXCUSE MEEEEEE DO YOU WANT ME TO CRY? This is so beautifully written and so painful and so perfect, there's so much contained in those paragraphs, so many emotions, so much fear, so much love 😭

Ohh I'm so happy you picked out this scene, as that was one of my favourite parts to write ❤️ I think I just figured Horacio was a lot more stoic and less touchy-feely than Javier, especially at work and where they could be found out 🥺

A thread of tension was running through his body from head to toe, winding so tightly around him, he knew it was in danger of snapping or breaking him at any moment. He just needed to hold on a bit longer.

And on top of everything you also have the best way of describing emotions?! I really struggle with writing emotions myself so I'm using this as a masterclass

Whaaaaat? Oh my god, that's such an insanely high compliment, I don't even know what to say except thank you 😭😭❤️

Of how much he needed him in whatever way he was allowed to have him.

And now I´m crying again. The feeling of loving someone so much you'll take them in whatever way they let you even if it's not enough or if it's not good for you, oh it hurts

Oof yeah, I think with this being so early in their relationship, it's not really clear to either party what they are to each other or where it's going, they just know they can't keep away from each other, even when it's probably not a wise idea 😩

A familiar word was in danger of escaping Horacio’s lips as he came, but he held it in by the skin of his teeth. A word that had echoed around his head every day since they had arrived back from Tolú, every day they had been kept apart by circumstances beyond their control. A word he probably had no real right to think, let alone speak out loud, but feared one day he would, because the urge was too visceral not to. Mine.

Bee's brain is currently unavailable, there are no thoughts just this paragraph

Ahh I'd almost forgotten about this part, so thank you for the reminder and I'm glad you liked it 🥰 But ughhh yeah...these boys are in deep already, even if they don't want to vocalise it 👀

AND THEN YOU DARE GIVE US EMOTIONS AND THE KID CONVERSATION AFTER THAT?!!! This is perfect. I love this fic so much

As you might have gathered already, I'm such a sucker for scenes involving these two in a room just...talking and smoking lol, so I had to have them talk about the incident on the rooftops, because I think Horacio knew Javier was withholding something, but he needed the emotional and physical release of sex before he was prepared to talk about it ❤️

Honestly, you have blown my mind with your comments on this fic, and I've still got several more to respond to, so thank you so much!!! You have genuinely made my week 💕

Narcos Fic: Old Habits Die Hard (Chap. 3)

Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8, Chapter 9, Chapter 10, Chapter 11, Chapter 12, Chapter 13, Chapter 14, Chapter 15

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Pairing: Javier Peña x Horacio Carrillo

Words: 4,345

Summary: Set loosely during You Will Cry Tears Of Blood (season 1, ep 7), Javier and Horacio attempt to deal with the aftermath of their mission in Tolú, whilst Escobar’s violence escalates and both men are caught in the middle of it. As the stakes get higher, so do their feelings and cravings for each other.

Warnings: 18+ ONLY. Canon-typical violence and the discussions thereof, guns, anal sex, unprotected sex, anal fingering, cockwarming, power dynamics, swearing, angst, smoking.

Notes: I had hoped to get this out sooner, but I kept getting distracted, oops. Thanks again to anyone who has interacted with previous chapters on AO3 or Tumblr. Your lovely comments have made me smile, especially as this fic is probably the most I’ve challenged myself with my writing so far ❤️ I will try to work on chapter 4 as soon as possible!

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