#i can think of literally 3 fictional characters with OCD and 1 of those i don't think was ever actually confirmed so i may be wrong

[nostalgia-tblr]

To an extent this is just Mental Illness TMI in fic form, but maybe someone here will be interested anyway? (Neighbour's TV is on far too loud, was thus unable to focus on any of the things I was supposed to be writing, this happened instead for some reason.)

A short ficlet about Ms Hudson's OCD and Sherlock lending a hand (literally) to get her out of a bit of an "episode" as they probably don't call that sort of thing any more.

(Pls mind the tags and notes, I don't want to set anyone's brain off on a spiral with this thing.)

Title: inventing order where there should be none (AO3) Fandom: Elementary Rating: General Audiences Characters: Ms Hudson & Sherlock Wordcount: ~770 Additional Tags: Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, Male-Female Friendship, Mental Health Issues, Intrusive Thoughts Summary: “The human mind plays tricks,” says Sherlock, moving towards her, “some of which are truly fascinating to contemplate, but some of which,” he reaches her side at the kitchen counter and stares down at the array of maddening spices, “are unspeakably cruel.”

[libertyreads]

Underhyped Books--

These are some of the books on my shelves that I think are under-hyped on the Book-ternet as some people call it. I think a lot of these standalones or series are under represented in the book community online. (Going from top to bottom, left to right.)

1. The Inheritance Games by Jennifer Lynn Barnes-- Maybe I’m biased because this is one of my favorite authors. I discovered her a year or two ago and have become obsessed. The latest series of hers is going to be an all time favorite for me. Or at least the first one was. This book came out this past fall so I know that’s probably part of the reason for the under representation. But, for the love of all things spooky and puzzle-y, read this damn book.

2. House of Salt and Sorrows by Erin A. Craig-- This is a 12 dancing princesses retelling that has some turns no one expects. It has a gothic/horror/mystery/thriller element in a creepy mansion. What’s not to love? It’s so perfect for the fall. I have seen a couple of people talk about this one, but it’s not getting the love it truly deserves.

3. The One by John Marrs-- I only read this one this past month so maybe I’m the person who’s late to the party here. But I just need people to read this and love it as much as I do. I was literally gasping out loud and saying things like, “No. No, they wouldn’t do that. Oh. My. God. They did that.” Thankfully there is a Netflix adaptation coming out on March 12th.

4. In the Hall with the Knife by Diana Peterfreund-- This one got me hooked so fast. I blame the 1000 times I watched Clue (1985 with Tim Curry) as a kid. This is a take on Clue that involves a boarding school in an isolated Maine town. It’s probably the fact that this is so easy to read and is probably on the middle end of the YA age range that keeps this from being so popular. But I cannot tell you how much I loved this book when I read it this past fall. It’s the perfect late fall/early winter read.

5. Sky in the Deep by Adrienne Young-- A YA Viking Fantasy story about two rival tribes. The way it felt like this book dropped you into this world and you didn’t come up for air until the book was over? Amazing. I think I’ve only heard about it in passing which is a damn shame.

6. The Queen’s Rising by Rebecca Ross-- This was one of those books that sat on my shelf for years before I found the time for it and afterward regretted not reading it sooner. This is a YA Fantasy that includes a fallen kingdom that is overtaken and must find the strength to stand up to their oppressors. It’s only a duology so this series was so quick for me to read.

7.  Old Magic by Marianne Curley-- A backlist Fantasy novel from 2000. This is probably the oldest book on this list and so the nostalgia is a big factor here. But this is about a girl going back in time to prevent an evil wizard from putting a curse on her friend’s family bloodline. This does a good job of pulling the reader into the setting as well.

8. Fable by Adrienne Young-- This is a more recent release so I understand that a lot of people may not have gotten around to it yet, but I wish they would. I need someone to talk to about this book. This is a YA Fantasy novel about a girl who gets dropped on a deserted island after her mother is killed in a storm on the sea. Her only goal for the next four years is to find a way off the island and back to her father who is the biggest trader in the Narrows. The setting is great, very pirate-y, and a classic found family trope. As a whole, I just think Adrienne Young is a really underrated writer.

9. Turtles All the Way Down by John Green-- Being a fan of John Green’s has been a bit of a roller coaster ride as he got more and more popular only to plummet as people started picking his work apart. But I think this book is him being truly vulnerable as writer. He suffers from OCD similar to the OCD the main character suffers in this novel. And as someone who has been diagnosed with OCD I found this to be pretty haunting to read. I know that this book isn’t a beloved John Green book and I think that’s a real shame.

10. Written in Red by Anne Bishop-- This series is a bit weird for me since this isn’t my usual genre. This is an Adult Urban Fantasy about a blood seer who runs away from the institution she’s been kept in and finds her way to the local group of mythological creatures who hold a lot of power influence over the local government. There are werewolves, shifters, vampires...etc. who take up a huge section of this city and there are a ton of politics throughout the series. But the thing that I loved the most about it is that every story has a section that is so slice of life before the big action happens and those moments were so warm and cozy. The big action at the end of the novels all work to bring the main characters closer. There’s a romance between the human seer and the alpha werewolf which I didn’t expect to enjoy as much as I did. Also, I read most of this series while I was stuck in bed sick with covid so I think the distraction added another level of fondness from me.

11. Rebel of the Sands by Alwyn Hamilton-- Where. Are. My. YA. Fantasy. People. AT?! Why is no one talking about this series?! This a YA Desert Fantasy with some amazing characters and a rebellion hiding out in the desert from the people in power. Found family tropes. Magic. Mystery. Stop sleeping on this series already! My only real complaint is that I wish I had the original cover because that one is so beautiful.

12. Ace of Shades by Amanda Foody-- I originally got the first book in this series in a subscription box but held off reading it because I hadn’t heard of this series before then. But it’s one of those series that you wish you had read as soon as you had gotten it. This is a YA Fantasy novel set in a fictional town that looks/feels like a combination of 1920s-ish New York and Las Vegas. The Shadow Game series is about a girl going to the big city to find her adoptive mother who’s gone missing while there for work. But she’s spent her whole life learning how to be a proper lady and in the City of Sin anything can happen. The magic system here is so, so well done. It’s something I haven’t seen before or since which is refreshing when the main thing you read is Fantasy.

[m-y-fandoms]

1 Thing I Love & 1 Thing I Hate About EVERY Danganronpa Character Part 1

Part 2

SPOILERS FOR ALL THREE MAIN GAMES

I’d love to hear our opinions as well in the comments or my inbox or DM’s! If you try this trend with DR characters, tag me!

Sayaka Maizono

♡ Her passion for her career and friends.

✘ The way she tries to screw over Makoto when the game had just begun. Like wait and see what happens before screwing over such a great guy? Leon didn’t deserve it either.

Leon Kuwata

♡ His voice actor (English), and how real and human his execution was in that we all would be so scared and irrational. It was just so iconic and sad as it’s our first introduction to the death in this series and we all think: “shit, this is real... they are really killing these kids.” I didn’t think it would be that brutal, just seeing his body limp at the end with the haunting music.

✘ His design is disgusting. I hate how he looks.

Chihiro Fujisaki

♡ So innocent, so kind, so intelligent

✘ Shouldn’t have been killed for such a stupid reason, also they did Mondo dirty with that motive for killing as well. Just a mess. As for the actual character, Chihiro cries right off the bat when you do your introductions and that was kind of annoying to me personally.

Mondo Oowada

♡ He has a lot of respect, understanding and emotions for someone I thought would be a hard-ass douche biker.

✘ The worst motive to kill ever in a game where you know you’re getting executed if you’re found out. Like you’d be extra careful and that’s his reason to kill? Lazy writing.

Celestia Ludenberg

♡ Bad bitch energy and her goth lolita design.

✘ Manipulation and double murder. Bad bitch energy only goes so far. Confidence is different then selfishness. Also, of all the chapter 3 triple murders... the worst motive to kill.

Kiyotaka Ishimaru

♡ Emotions: secure in his masculinity, able to cry, show emotions, and apologize when he’s wrong. He’s funny and likable.

✘ The Ishimondo white hair thing was stupid. Taka was fine on his own.

Hifumi Yamada

♡ Writing takes talent, fan fiction as much as any other style or genre. Also the talent of his voice actor (who also voices Kiibo/K1-B0).

✘ Literally everything else about him.

Sakura Oogami

♡ I love everything about her. I love her wisdom, loyalty, design, voice etc. Just step on me, mother.

✘ Why the hell would she ever agree to be a spy even if it meant the end of her dojo? I just don’t think she would do that rationally because she isn’t selfish. The others would suffer for her spying. She remedies this with redemption in her letter in chapter 4 but still she should’ve said no off the bat. Everyone had something to lose. The dojo wasn’t worth spying for monokuma. Also I just don’t think she would commit suicide. She can’t help the remaining students survive and redeem herself truly if she’s dead.

Kyoko Kirigiri

♡ Bad bitch energy, calm and collected when I could never be.

✘ Especially in future arc of the anime, damn can you show some emotion please? Through your words and expressions not just your actions. Sure she was willing to “die” for Makoto but like I just want more emotion from her sometimes, even in THH.

Makoto Naegi

♡ So pure. I Love Bryce Papenbrook. Makoto reminds me of Sora and I love his design.

✘ In THH I didn’t mind his innocence but in the Danganronpa 3 future arc anime, when people started straight up abusing him and accusing him, he needed to grow a little backbone.

Byakuya Togami

♡ Love my dad, king shit, also love how over the progression of the games and animes he becomes a little more kind to his friends.

✘ Why the fuck did he mess with Chihiro’s body? Just so cruel and disrespectful.

Yasuhiro Hagakure

♡ Funny magic man. Sexy voice.

✘ Please. Please Hiro use your brain just once. Why do we have to prove Kyoko isn’t a ghost?!

Toko Fukawa

♡ Character development in UDG and I love Genocider.

✘ Putting down herself and others constantly gets old in THH.

Aoi Asahina

♡ Love her voice actress and her personality

✘ We really just gonna get everyone killed in chapter 4 huh? Surely you know they don’t all deserve that.

Junko Enoshima

♡ A very memorable villain with great hair and design.

✘ I just can’t stand her. I hate her so much.

Mukuro Ikusaba

♡ Her mercenary background is super cool as a concept.

✘ Too bad it wasn’t explored nearly enough.

Hajime Hinata

♡ Seeing the protagonist be a little less naive, innocent and positive than Makoto was a refreshing change, although I loved Makoto. I liked Hajime’s cynicism and expressions that sometimes just screamed “this shit again, huh?”

✘ I enjoy the way Izuru looks but I hate him as a character. He is sexy to look at but Hajime is just a better character overall

Teruteru Hanamura

♡ His love for his family and mother especially is so cute and heart breaking if you know the full story.

✘ He needs to know when to dial it back and quit with the perversions. And no it’s not just how he looks, Miu needs to chill at times, too.

Twogami

♡ I feel like he genuinely cares about his friends, just hides it well

✘ His death felt like a cop out and poorly written. It just didn’t sit right with me. Also his design is disgusting to me, his outfit and such.

Mahiru Koizumi

♡ Loyal to her close friends.

✘ I just have no interest in her as a character and I find her boring.

Peko Pekoyama

♡ Loyalty. Loyalty is something I value very highly in every form of relationship. Peko is also very hot.

✘ Come on girl... I know how you were raised but you should’ve known Fuyuhiko didn’t think of you as just a tool and you two should’ve expressed your true feelings long ago. Like even in secret. How do you live like this? Also I feel like killing Mahiru could’ve been avoided with a calm talk.

Ibuki Mioda

♡ Cute design, positive vibes.

✘ Cringe sometimes in the way she talks.

Hiyoko Saionji

♡ Beautiful character design and some very good insults and snarky remarks at times.

✘ Just irredeemably mean and annoying. Even when you do her free time events she is just so annoying.

Mikan Tsumiki

♡ I like her design as well as her hair, expressions, sprites and clothing.

✘ I hate her. I just hate her whether she’s in her true psycho form or timid stuttering form. She’s just annoying in my opinion.

Nekomaru Nidai

♡ So supportive, can hold my drink at a party. Respects everyone and wants the best for them.

✘ Bro Mechamaru was a stupid plot point. I just couldn’t stand looking at him and couldn’t take it seriously. Still sad when he died though.

Chiaki Nanami

♡ From chapter 5 of sdr2 on she is impossible not to love if you didn’t already. Just the selflessness, the sadness of the reveal and execution, how she returns to help Hajime at the end???? I love her. I love her hair design, color palette, her personality, everything.

✘ I’m bitter and miserable about her being the only class member to actually die (the despair arc anime) also her falling asleep at random times is kind of odd and she doesn’t seem to be like that later on in the game??? Like it seemed like a cheap joke but not actually who she is? Hard for me to explain.

Gundham Tanaka

♡ King shit, couldn’t praise him enough. He’s sexy, loves animals, and is funny as hell sometimes. His voice actor is a saint and a cool dude and I named my guinea pigs after the Dark Devas (yes I know they are hamsters in the games.)

✘ Come on dude. I get that being from Hell and magic and having evil powers is your shtick, but we all know that you and Nekomaru sacrificed yourselves so the others wouldn’t starve. We know you care about your classmates. There comes a time when it’s time to let personas and facades fade and be true to your heart. I just feel like him denying he cared at the end hurt. We all know he cared. I didn’t like how he was haughty until the end. He deserved better. I love him.

Nagito Komaeda

♡ I love him so much. So cunning and intelligent, always a step ahead. And he’s big sexy.

✘ Him killing himself in chapter 5 hurt me so bad I was like in denial for days. Also hate how Bryce Papenbrook gives him a raspy stoner psycho voice in the game then a light airy higher-pitched voice in the despair arc anime. It just bothers me. I love his voice still but the inconsistency just hurts my OCD

Sonia Nevermind

♡ I love that she’s so interested in her passions and love her feelings for Gundham

✘ Her outfit and bow are atrocious. Also why didn’t she start liking and talking to Gundham sooner on? Their romance bloomed late and it would’ve made for a better chapter 4 ending if they were a bit closer.

Kazuichi Souda

♡ Cool design and outfit, love his voice (also voices Kaito in V3) and his backstory is relatable at times. He’s also very human in that he’s scared a lot of the time or insecure or blames others in panicked situations. It’s not always a good thing but it’s human and realistic.

✘ Gosh he can be so annoying. Sometimes flirting or whining too much is well... too much.

Akane Owari

♡ Strong-willed and definitely someone I would be friends with

✘ What the hell is her outfit? Gymnasts and athletes don’t wear that shit. Stop objectifying her when it doesn’t even make the product or plot better. Like there’s absolutely no point to making her dress that way. I was a gymnast for 15 years. Even those who do parkour (which Akane seems to do more often than actual gymnastics in the anime and game) don’t wear what she wears. Also she’s underrated.

Fuyuhiko Kuzuryuu

♡ I love him. He’s the DR character I’m most like out of all the games and anime. Tenko is a close second. I think he’s adorable, love his character arc, development, redemption, and love his voice.

✘ In the anime/despair arc, Fuyuhiko is not done justice. He doesn’t get enough lines, has a different voice actor, just doesn’t give off the same vibes.

Izuru Kamakura

♡ Sexy man long hair good.

✘ Boring character. I wish he were just Hajime.

Kaede Akamatsu

♡ Loyalty and leadership are such attractive qualities in her. Also she faced her death with such class and dignity and I respect her because I could never.

✘ Some of the voice lines Erika does for her are just weird and cringe. Just random moans or grunts... I don’t know it’s like when Ann Takamaki from Persona 5 (also voiced by Erika) makes suggestive noises as well. Just grinds my gears. Also hate her outfit down to the hair pins.

Shuichi Saihara

♡ I love his nasally voice. I love his design and he’s so adorable. I love how emotional and compassionate he can be. He ties with Makoto for favorite protag of mine.

✘ That sprite where he sniffs his hand. And his ugly ass hat.

Rantarou Amami

♡ Sexy man, sexy voice, sexy piercings

✘ Ugly outfit, and wasted potential

Ryoma Hoshi

♡ I respect him and feel bad for his outlook on life and for how poorly he views himself. I love his little hat as well and he’s the first “different styled” character (Hifumi, Bandai, Teruteru) that I liked the design of.

✘ I hate when he says “got a long ways to go,” it’s overused and annoying, and wish he gave himself more credit. Also hate that when you first meet him he warns you that he’s killed people and is dangerous to be around. Come on buddy, you know you wouldn’t hurt your friends. Stop pushing them away.

Kirumi Tojo

♡ Competence, well rounded, skillful

✘ Boring as hell. I wouldn’t waste one free time event on her.

Angie Yonaga

♡ Dark skin, super cute, love her talent as an artist myself.

✘ Gives religious people a bad name and is super manipulative which I hate.

Tenko Chabashira

♡ I relate to her and feel bad when she’s misunderstood. She’s a good person deep down. Also love her sprites.

✘ There’s more cunning, funny and clever ways to write her digs at men.

Korekiyo Shunguuji

♡ I’m in love with this man. Long hair, voice, mystery, mask, intelligence, passion, talent.

✘ He definitely was a victim of abuse and a lot of people refuse to see that and just hate him. Team Danganronpa should’ve given him a redemption arc where he realized his sister abused him and changed.

Gonta Gokuhara

♡ I love his design except for his suit. Also he’s so cute and naive. I cried for his trail.

✘ No need talk like caveman. Better way to do this.

Kokichi Ouma

♡ Like Nagito, I value his intelligence and crazy cunning.

✘ Shouldn't have died. Also shouldn’t have manipulated Gonta. That was just cruel.

Miu Iruma

♡ She has her hilarious moments and her death surprised me and was sad.

✘ Sometimes she lacks basic empathy, i.e. calling Tenko “Tencrotch” when she just fucking died.

Maki Harukawa

♡ Amazing character development. Didn’t see her surviving until the end at the start. Also her love and passion for Kaito.

✘ “Do you wanna die?” gets old.

Kaito Momota

♡ Just the overall best bro you could ever have.

✘ Has some toxic masculinity issues and anger issues.

K1-B0

♡ Pretty much everything about him. His design, his attitude and personality, especially how amazing and cool he is chapter 5 onward, his execution made me so sad. He’s so innocent and funny without trying.

✘ When you do his free time events he’s very arrogant and just talks about himself a lot... it seems odd and not similar to the Kiibo we see throughout the game.

Himiko Yumeno

♡ Super cute design, love her voice and “Nyeh...” and her sprites. Her character development is great as well.

✘ Why did they take so long to make her important and likable?

Tsumugi Shirogane

♡ An excellent and well hidden reveal

✘ I hate her. So annoying, from the voice to the references and her personality.

[nepenthendline]

Mental Health Headcannons - Tsukishima, Kageyama, Ushijima, Tendou & Bokuto

All these are from my knowledge and based off of each character’s actions haikyuu, this is all my opinion so feel free to discuss other thoughts! I’m happy to talk about each more in depth if anyone would like it :) this is just me projecting my own problems on fictional characters

You can also message me if you wanna talk about these too!!

This is going to be long

TW: Mental health, learning difficulties, eating disorders, self-harm

Tsukishima - Depression, Anxiety & OCD

Tbh someone else (I’ve been trying to find their username to tag them but I can’t find it, they’re called something like theguessmonta but idk) has amazing posts about Tsukishima and his mental health which I totally agree with all of it so some of this is going to be pretty similar

I think his mental health problems started when he was quite young, around the time when the Akiteru drama happened so he’s been dealing with these for a while

Having depression can often make a person seem very disinterested/sarcastic/negative as a way of pushing back emotions and self-protection which explains a lot of the way Tsukishima acts towards some people (I have a whole post on how he isn’t just some asshole)

His anxiety stems from a place of terrible self-esteem and self-image, it’s clear to see he has a bad sense of self-worth when he talks about how people are obviously a lot better than him, he’s just there to ‘stop trouble happening’

Tsukki suffers from panic attacks quite regularly (especially when he was a bit younger) but he tends to shut himself off then they happen, he doesn’t want anyone else to see him like that

His anxiety and overthinking is often why he keeps his headphones on him at all times, listening to music helps drown out the sounds around him and those in his head

His OCD got worse over time - first it was things like turning the light switch on and off repeatedly until it felt right, or tapping on his desk before he went to bed, but as his anxiety and self-esteem got worse it developed into him needing himself to be perfect

This included only eating a certain amount of calories a day (no where near the amount he should be eating) or getting a very specific grade on an exam, where even one number over or under set him into a panic

Things got to their worst for Tsukki around the age of 13 - this is where he was much too underweight and self-harming on his hips (so no one else could see)

Probably also thought about suicide a couple times around this point

He has tried a couple different types of anti-depressants in the past, however none have seemed to help

He likes a lot of time alone - he gets too overwhelmed dealing with other people

The only person besides his family and Yamaguchi that knows about his OCD is Kageyama - they both noticed each others odd, repetitive habits until Kageyama asked him about it one day, while they don’t get along too well, they feel some comfort in each other understanding their actions

Kageyama - Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

wow what a smooth segue 

this boy is like a walking definition of ASD - coming from a person with ASD

Kageyama was diagnosed with Type 1/High-functioning Autism when he was very young (probably around 3-5 years old)

He struggles with social interaction, knowing what to say to people and most importantly, how to say it, e.g. when he smiles people often think he looks angry

Kageyama has never had many, if any, friends before Karasuno, as he has often struggled with conversation and speaking in an inappropriate tone that may make some people uncomfortable or even scared

He isn’t very good when it comes to remembering academic studies but if it relates to his fixations (volleyball) he is extremely intelligent - this is seen clearly when Daichi shows their team hand gestures and Kageyama says he remembered them in a day

Kageyama uses masking a lot - it’s a technique people with ASD tend to do which involves copying other peoples actions in order to understand social situations, he does this many times in the anime/manga such as his awkward BBQ song dance, or high-fives

He visited a social worker once a week while he was little until he started middle school, resulting in his behaviours getting worse

Towards the end of his first year at Karasuno he went back to therapies regularly and has anger-management training in order to help him express himself in a manageable way - he probably won’t admit it but it helps a lot (key note is that having anger-management training often does not have anything to do with anger, simply just managing emotions in general but it often a great type of therapy for those with ASD although he is a bit of an angry boi sometimes)

ASD comes with repetitive, almost OCD-like tendencies - two examples include filing his nails every single day and having a very specific routine before going to bed that consists of drinking milk, putting on pjs, laying in bed and throwing + catching a ball, brushing his teeth and going to bed on his left side - if he doesn’t do these things at the right times/in the right order, he gets extremely anxious and agitated

It is important to remember people with ASD tend to also have another mental health issue, such as anxiety or depression

Ushijima - Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

autism buds with kageyama

I kid thats probably a bad idea

Ushijima was also diagnosed with Type 1/High-Functioning Autism when he was 5

Unfortunately due to the stigma around Autism, his family (besides his father) were not very accepting of this and he was put into therapy at a young age

While this was actually helpful for him, his family insisted his therapies should ‘cure’ him and were dismissive of the many times a doctor told them that ASD is not a curable disorder

Outside of therapy he does not receive much support from his family, except his father who got him a pair of noise-cancelling headphones he used to wear until he 8 whenever they went out together - he was only allowed to wear them if it was just him and his father, the rest of his family thought it made it too obvious there was ‘something wrong with the child’

Extending on this, Ushijima was very sensitive to sensory input as a child, and while he still is, it has become easier to manager as he has gotten older

His ASD is most prevalent in his lack of understand ways of communication, such as sarcasm or jokes, and tends to take things very literally 

@simp4satori and I came to the conclusion that if you were to call him daddy during sex, or ask him to ‘punish you’ the poor boy would have NO CLUE - would probably call your dad and tell him you needed to speak to him, or say you can’t watch anime for a week lol 

He is extremely direct when he talks, to the point where it comes across rude or hurtful but he doesn’t realise this until someone mentions it

Tendou probably helps him rephrase things from time-to-time in order for him to get his point across

He gets very anxious when faced with things he doesn’t know about or understand (this is mentioned by Tendou in the manga), this can include people, going to new places or trying new foods

It is important to remember people with ASD tend to also have another mental health issue, such as anxiety or depression

Tendou - Depression and Anxiety (also a highly sensitive person - that’s not a mental health disorder or illness but it does affect him)

Tendou’s mental health suffered from a young age due to bullying in school

This caused a lot of low self-esteem and low mood, and he was later on diagnosed with depression and anxiety

Only his family, Ushijima and his coach know about this, and even then, only his family know any details

No one would really expect Tendou to deal with such mental health issues as he always keeps a bubbly, happy persona around others - he doesn’t want people to think he is weak or cowardly

It is also hard for others to see and he is someone with high-highs and low-lows, so when he is happy or excited his emotions are quite extreme

Tendou’s anxiety relates a lot to his image, mainly his appearance and the way he acts, but he is also a general over thinker

He doesn’t have panic attacks as often as Tsukishima does, however they do happen occasionally when things just get too much

He often thinks that people are staring at him, or talking about him whenever he goes out, and he tends to hid this by seeming overly cocky or sardonic

When his depression hits, he tends to just feel sad or hopeless instead of numb, which tends to trigger his anxiety too

Tendou used to self-harm often around his hips/thighs however he hasn’t done so since the end of his first year of high-school 

Probably makes a lot of dark ‘jokes’, especially around suicide and people semi are like ‘...dude...you ok?’ and he’s just like ‘hahaha yeah im fine what’

He doesn’t like alone time too much as he tends to get trapped in his own thoughts

As expected of the guess monster, he is extremely good at reading and understanding people, which is how he finds it easier to help and communicate with Ushijima

Bokuto - ADHD

A lot of people at Fukurodani think Bokuto is just stupid, however he actually has ADHD

He was diagnosed a lot later than the rest at 12 years old

Bokuto tends to struggle with his studies as his attention-span is very low and can get distracted easily - either by things in the classroom or his own thoughts

He’s very forgetful, often forgetting his lunch at home or forgetting to do/bring in his homework, and this goes into volleyball too where he forgets how to do certain moves

Taking exams are the worst for Bokuto, he hates having to be still and quiet for such a long time and is very sensitive to little sounds or movements that distract his attention - you’ll often find his bouncing his leg or fiddling with his pen

He tends to butt into conversations or interrupt people when they are talking, he just gets a bit too enthusiastic to share his thoughts

He has extreme mood-swings too which we see often in the anime, especially when he is stressed or someone mentions his behaviours

Is very reckless - Akaashi has probably had to stop him from leaning too far out the window and almost falling to look something

The whole Fukurodani volleyball team are aware of his ADHD and do their best to help him and make him feel comfortable or accepted

They are the only people allowed to call him stupid - they will fight anyone else

I think there are more characters with mental health illnesses or disorders, such and Yamaguchi, Yachi, Kenma and Asahi having anxiety so I might write more at some point!

[fantasy-frog]

2020 Facts

Thanks to @fibrochemist for the tag!  ❤️

1. Do you make your bed?

lol no. I am a Certified Mess(tm)

2. What’s your favorite number?

favorite number is 6. there’s just been a weird amount of 6′s in my life. important dates, family members’ birthdays, my birthday, etc. second favorite number is 3, for same reason. Everything in my life comes in 6′s or 3′s. Sometimes 4′s if things are gettin spicy. (I have diagnosed OCD, brain gets real focused on number patterns sometimes)

3. What’s your job?

don’t have one, just goin to school. Gotta manage my energy really carefully between my responsibilities and working on myself and mental health. don’t think I could handle a job rn and do school at the pace I would like. 

4. If you could, would you go back to school?

I’m in school rn, but once I’m done and have made some sort of stable life and income for myself, than yeah, sure. like learning new things

5. Can you parallel park?

yup, not too shabbily 

6. A job you had which would surprise people?

haven’t had a job yet

7. Do you think aliens are real?

absolutely, just likely no-where near us. I also feel the ones that are currently living likely are just unicellular organisms. I think it’s possible intelligent life-forms other than us existed at some point, but maybe just not rn

8. Can you drive a manual car?

nope, never have before

9. What’s your guilty pleasure?

modern-character-dumped-into-fictional-universe fanfictions. god i love those.

10. Tattoos?

none, tho I’ve pondered some. likely never will get any cause of how permanent it is

11. Favorite color?

red. second is gold 

12. Things people do that drive you crazy?

being an asshole. not having empathy. sometimes I just wanna slap a bitch. complete callousness really confuses and frustrates me

13. Any phobias?

oh my goood you fucking bet. I have OCD and post traumatic stress, you bet I have phobias lmao. most of them are OCD and over-stimulation related. 

14. Favorite childhood sport?

Dance. Was a dancer (ballet, jazz, contemporary) for 7-9 years. was a huge passion of mine

15. Do you talk to yourself?

absolutely. all the time. like literally all the time. I be makin a sandwhich and improvising a song about bread. I hope this is normal

16. What movie do you adore?

uuuuuh none really. not a huge movie fan. would rather experience a story through reading/video games

17. Do you like doing puzzles?

nope. OCD brain hates puzzles

18. Favorite kind of music?

alternative (think Florence and The Machine) 

19. Tea or coffee?

TEA

20. The first thing you remember you wanted to be when you grew up?

archaeologist. wanted to be one for years until 4th grade when I started writing 

I tag @missamerah, @im4egghead, @waterwhisp-rivergoblin, @eggspert, @cl0udb3rry, and anybody else who would like to  🥰

[jasntodds]

hmm im sorry but i gotta disagree with you on the mob au/violent person thing. yeah it's fiction but it can still be harmful tho?? let's say an author decides to write a novel about a pedophile and glorifies it. yes it's fiction but the way it's written is still harmful. obv you can write every au you want but at some point we gotta ask ourselves, why are we as women attracted to a violent!mob!tom? why do we wanna write abusive relationships? (1/2)

why do we feel the need to write abusive relationships with our faves? we have been conditioned to like violent men when that's not the reality. no person likes being abused. so why do we insist on writing our faves like that? i'm not telling anybody to not write mob aus but maybe just think about why we like it so much. (2/2)

The pedophile thing is on a completely different level which is why I didn’t approach it. Anyone in the right state of mind knows that shit is fucked up.

Why do you ASSUME every AU/Mob story is about abusive relationships though? Like I’ve read mob AUs and none of them have turned into abusive relationships. None. So why do you assume that just because it’s a mob AU or just because it’s an AU with violence it’s abusive? They don’t go hand-in-hand. And did you ever think that maybe people just like to explore the darker side of writing? Everyone in the right state of mind knows murder is wrong but Stephen King exists. And makes a living off writing people killing other people. Everyone in the right state of mind knows torture is wrong but one of the most successful film franchises is literally about torture. Saw. Or dude, people like to write about the shit they relate to. So, if someone DOES write about an abusive relationship, maybe it’s because they’ve been there and they’re writing to cope and MAYBE, by the end, their main character leaves because abusive relationships aren’t healthy. (btw this is all said assuming they put in the right warnings for the fic). People can write about what they want and writing about an abusive relationship and then, by the end, overcoming that? I don’t see an issue. Same goes with mental illness and assault. IF the warnings are there, I don’t see the issue. I’m literally writing an assault. Why? Because it happened to me and it’s a way of coping. I’ve written about abusive parents. Why? Because my dad is abusive. I’ve written about depression, OCD, and anxiety. Why? Because all 3 affect me on a daily basis. The warnings are there. It’s a way to cope and there’s really nothing wrong with it. Everything can be seen as “glamorizing” or “romanticizing” something depending on who the reader is because everyone has a different idea of what those things are. As long as the writer’s intent isn’t glamorize or romanticize said things, then okay. Cool, they got their warnings, they’re writing for them. All is good. You say you’re not saying people shouldn’t write an AU but like the anon said, it made them feel bad. Making people feel bad for writing something that is literally harmless (again, assuming they have the right warnings), isn’t right and is almost guilting people into not writing what they want. It’s fiction. It’s a faceclaim. A nameclaim. A character. Change a few details, and bam, you’ve got a first rough draft of a novel that could be published. Sometimes, it’s really not that deep, dude.

[chaotic-leo-energy]

A 100 Follower Special!: 100 Things About Me!

**Gets depressing a bit** My name is Chloe. 1. I am a Leo. 2. I was born July 27, 2000. 3. That means I'm 16 (as of now). 4. I am an ENTP. 5. I'm in 11th grade. 6. I live in Central Pennsylvania. 7. I was born in Albany, New York. 8. I moved to Pennsylvania when I was 9. 9. I won first place in a poetry contest in my school and third place in the state. 10. I describe myself as obnoxious and loud. So do other people, to be honest. 11. I LOVE MEMES. DANK MAYMAYS. 12. My favorite bands are Breaking Benjamin, Panic! At The Disco, and My Chemical Romance. 13. My lucky number is 13. 14. My favorite song in the whole world is Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls. 15. My favorite movie is Dead Poets Society.  16. I want a tattoo of a simple infinity sign on my wrist. 16. I also want a tattoo of the words "Love Always, Charlie." from The Perks of Being a Wallflower on the side of my right arm. 18. I tend to talk fast. 19. My favorite character in the Marvel Universe is Bucky Barnes (obviously) 20. I love Vaporwave. 21. I think Harry Potter is the best fandom. 22. My favorite quote: "But whatever realm of reality we seek out, we find it woven of fictions." 23. My favorite actor is Jonathan Rhys Meyers (August Rush). 24. Sugar We're Going Down would be on the soundtrack of my life. 25. I'd rather try something myself than be taught. 26. My longest relationship was a month. 27. My first kiss was at a rollerskating rink. 28. I have pretty bad anxiety. 29. And depression. 30. I like to make jokes about my depression and anxiety to hide it from others. And myself. 31. I am a huge extrovert. Because as a kid I was socially anxious, I got rid of it by putting myself out there, continuously.  32. The first alternative rock song I listened to was on a BMX game, it was called Face Down by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. 33. My favorite Panic! At The Disco song is Northern Downpour . 34. My favorite song by My Chemical Romance is Demolition Lovers. 35. My favorite song by Breaking Benjamin is Into The Nothing. 36. I say now, that I will NEVER try drugs. 37. I'm 5'9" 39. I am ridiculously in love with Bucky Barnes. 39. I love putting on make up. To the point where I feel that I'm not myself without eyeliner . 40. I have short hair, but I'm growing it long. 41. My parents once found Destiel fanfic I was reading and they think I'm into gay porn.  42. I've been to 7 mental hospitals. 43. I've learned that it's okay to be unhappy, as long as you don't give up on hope. 44. I want to edit and publish books for a living. 45. I plan on self publishing my own poems, and calling the book, "The Philosophical Sorrows", hence my username. 46. I feel everyday that I will never be successful. 47. I have Chronophobia, the fear and anxiety of time moving. I feel that life is going too fast and I'll never catch up.. 48. I go through periods of time where I'm down and people who are close to me can tell because I'm over the top happy (to hide it) or I'm super silent (when I have no energy to hide it). 49. I've only had one best friend.  50. I have reactive attachment disorder, where I can't form healthy relationships with my family or friends, meaning I push them away. 51. As a child, I was a terrible liar . 52. My best day ever was in a residential (a more free mental hospital, to explain it simply) it was St. Patty's day and we spent the entire afternoon picking four leaf clovers, and listening to Green Day Radio on Pandora. I was 13. 53. My most profound day was in a residential (again), I found my faith in God. My best friend (my only best friend) convinced me to go to the church on the campus, I was feeling down that day. But when I went, I learned that God put me on this Earth for a reason.  54. My best friend, Marissa got discharged from that residential before I did. Two years later, I saw her again, this time in a mental hospital, and the song that was playing when she got discharged was Let Her Go by Passenger. That was the last time I ever saw her (read to the next number). 55. The saddest day of my life: Once I left the mental hospital, I went to another residential for 11 months, then to a group home-like place for 2 weeks because my parents didn't like it. They brought me home and two months later I got my phone back. I found Marissa on Facebook and messaged her. Her mom messaged me and said she committed suicide 3 months ago. I cried for the longest time, listening to Let Her Go on repeat. 56. Everyday I think that I should've been there, I should've worked harder to get out of those places.  57. I'm sorry that I'm a failure to my parents. I constantly am told that I'm immature and that I don't make them happy. 58. It's been almost 3 years since I've been harmful towards myself. 59. I try everyday to "Fake it til' I make it." 60. Therapy hasn't worked for me. 61. I have chocolate brown eyes. 62. I'm a Gryffindor. 63. I'm Irish and German. 64. I'm adopted. 65. I went through 11 foster homes before I got adopted. 66. I have mild mild OCD. 67. I think Italian food is the best food. 68. I'm an adopted Italian. 69. When I sit down, I say I have Italian rolls (my stomach). 70. I don't know if I want to live to when I'm old. 71. My favorite adult cartoon show is Rick and Morty. 72. My favorite TV show is Supernatural. 73. I'm a Sam girl. 74. My favorite Marvel movies are the Captain America series. 75. My favorite episode of Supernatural is Season 6, Episode 20, The Man Who Would Be King. 76. My favorite Supernatural character is Castiel. 77. My favorite Rick and Morty episode is Season 2, Episode 8 is Interdimensional Cable TV 2. 78. I talk a lot. 79. I have a lot to say about so many things. 80. I'm an independent-right, but I respect people's opinions as long as you're not impeding on me. 81. Use your facts. 82. I wanted to be a Mass Communication Specialist in the US Navy, but I can't with my mental status. 83. I'm in love with the Linkin Park memes. 84. So now I can't listen to Crawling or In The End by them. 85. I literally hate Black Veil Brides. 86. I hate people who pretend they're transgender or gay/lesbian. It's NOT the new "in" thing to be transgender or gay/lesbian, be who you are. 87. I'm a dog person. 88. I've written 21 poems and counting. 89. I'm very scatter brained (can you tell by the list?) 90. I have an unhealthy obsession with the 🅱 emoji. 91. My good friend, Neo, has a funny YouTube channel and I might appear on a video. His channel is NiNiBoiTV, check him out. 92. I say "Boi" a lot to my friends. 93. I get to know people to late. 94. I procrastinate with everything except school work. 95. My favorite color is Indigo. 96. I want a llama and I want to name him Poncho. 97. It's hard for me to write when I'm feeling down. 98. My favorite class I've ever taken in high school so far was a World History class in tenth grade. 99. I want to pull a senior prank next year and hang up embarrassing pictures of teachers. Or fill the entire school with memes. 100. I look forward to the rest of my life. Thank you for reading if you did, and I hope to get to know all of you as well. Sorry I got deep there. Remember, if you need someone to talk to who won't judge, I am here.  I love you all and THANK YOU FOR THE 100 FOLLOWERS.