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watchingwisteria · 9 months

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the world is beautiful and i am so so happy

#hopecore #things get better. they get so much better with therapy and effort and healing #january used to be the worst time for me. but my outlook has been so stable and positive #i am very happy as i realize that

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hinamie · 25 days

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spiraling

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk art #megumi fushiguro #fushiguro megumi #gojo satoru #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #the minute i realized how tg coded the composition n colours were i decided to turn it up to 11 #i was racking my brain trying 2 figure out how to get the layered tissue paper look tht i talked abt ishida's cover art having #cycled through all my usual layer modes n nothing ws Quite right #until wouldnt u know it . divide n subtract!!!!! i NEVER use divide or subtract bc theyre impossible #but fr this??? its like they were made for it oh my god #it makes the greys look translucent n all my textures pop in a way that makes them appear splotchy n Bruised #which ws the whole point thts the Look god i am so PLEASED #when the layer modes tht notoriously get No love finally find their niche <33 peace and love <333 #filing this away fr later i am going 2 have a lot of fun with this new information i think #im very happy w how the colours look n i dont think anything else wld have kept the right Mood #but i am always so >:/ when i have to use a palette tht forces me into giving megumi blue eyes #had to set aside th green eyed megu agenda fr the Aesthetic unfortunately #anyway i knew from the minute i saw it that i wanted to do smth involving the opening panel of 268 #bc that panel is S tier #i figured tht if nothing came 2 me i wld just redraw it as-is bc it's alr so good but as i ws sketching i was like #u know what u havent done in a while? art tht looks like u r going Insane #art tht makes ur family ask whether everything is ok #so i once again tucked megumi's knees up 2 his chest and apologized insincerely to him fr making the third megumi angst piece in a row #:)

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lilybug-02 · 10 months

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Wow. That could not have turned out worse.

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--Full Series--

This comic will be on Holiday Hiatus this December and January! While on a cliffhanger? What a scam! >:/

#Chara finally realizes something is wrong....very wrong #And you get to see little Chara for all of 2 drawings. wow. You guys are so spoiled uwu #Asriel and Chara bbfs #finally out of that darn tootin' Darkworld! WE'VE BEEN THERE FOR 2 YEARS!!!#LORE TIME LORE TIME. I know Chara is very vague about it but player-human relationships are very personal.#it can be hard to talk about them if you've been possessed yourself. especially with some stigmas around it #chara just wanted a glass of water. why you gotta do this to em #I am so so so happy to get here #the full excitement has faded since I first thought up this scene but It's still one hell of an accomplishment #YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA how many times I reworked this and how many rough drafts I've thrown out the window because of it.#tbh. I may post the 10+ rough pages that will never see the light of day #Im glad I didnt go through with that scrapped plot bc It was too many unneeded pages. I've learned to start condensing in a better way #I am also planning on showing off my Patreon soon :) so I'll be posting complete scrapped story lines over there #deltarune chara timeline #deltarune #utdr #deltarune chara timeline comic #art #my art #bread #chara #asriel #saloon darkworld #darkworld #deltarune au #college chara #college asriel

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 11 months

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"See you tomorrow"

MDZS Disco Elysium AU part 4 [prev parts]

#better drawn mdzs #MDZS Disco Elysium AU #mdzs au #Lan wangji #wei wuxian #yiling laozu #Happy Belated Halloween!#digital art #Thank you all for your patience as I drove myself into a madness only known by those lost at seas alone.#I put a lot of time into this one! It's not perfect but I am very happy with it + I am so happy to put down the tablet pen.#Digital art has some nice features but I'm sticking with traditional! I need a month to recover from the 2+ weeks of torture.#Okay lets talk about the AU and the comic now #Disco elysium has some of the best existential-horror-dream sequences I have ever seen.#The dialogue here is heavily inspired by The Final Dream - A scene I'd love to talk about more were it not so heavy with spoilers.#My AU is a lot more complex than a simple character swap but I really felt like LWJ + YLLZ fit this scene.#The final dream is about being unable to move on from a lost love. From something You made holy. From something You ruined.#It is about realizing that no matter how smart you are or what you offer or how you try to change -#You will never be able to turn back time. You will never ever be able to fix what is broken. That you also have been broken for a long time #You are a fuck-up who worships the nail covered ground of someone who did not want to be holy. And even though it hurts-#You cannot let this nightmare go. The pain keeps the love close. It is worse to forget. You promised to remember.#WWX died thinking LWJ disliked him. LWJ lost someone he thought was revolted by his love.

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fatedroses · 12 days

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Two former military elites taking merc jobs perform absolutely hellish battle tactics together.

#ffxiv #digital art #zenos yae galvus #estinien wyrmblood #adventurer zenos #I will always adore this duo conceptually #because like- socially theyre that aragorn-geralt brooding in a corner of a tavern meme #but in combat they are absolutely terrifying #the azure dragoon and the super soldier legatus are here to fuck up a poachers day #aka zenos is about to crossmap someone's airship cause he knows estinien cant make himself jump that far #why have him try to jump when he can just Olympic-level javelin toss this man #also guys #my dudes #all this time I've been working on adven!zenos being a tank #I... have realized I just write him like a warrior who isnt carrying a weapon- sturdy unkillableness and countering and all #I am only a little bit of a dumbass but orogeny just seems to live in my head rent free #it also gave me the terrifying concept of- after spending time with the scions and after the ultimatum-#of him trying to learn more about dynamis- and zenos being zenos starts learning eventually how to harness it #local calm apathetic man can berserk on command because he's a lot angrier/more expressive inwardly than most people expect #depending on how I look into it- it might be how he fuels most of his shinryu transformations but I'll have to work on it more #but ANYWAYS #I love the thought of these two hunting and working together #and estinien being tossed being turned into a tactic #especially with proper form #this is something ive wanted to draw for a very long time and im very happy I actually have the skill to do so now

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marblerose-rue · 11 months

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click for better quality!

requests from twitter ^_^

adderfang, goosefeather, dawnpelt

crowfeather, heathertail, frostpaw, sandynose

#my art #adderfang #goosefeather #crowfeather #frostpaw #sandynose #heathertail #dawnpelt #warriors #warrior cats #waca #wc art #STRUGGLED TO POST THIS ON TWITTER LMFAO said id only do six and then i realized i accidentally skipped over someones request and i did two #cats per one person which i didnt want to do but then i didnt want to not post one of the cats . whole thing but everyone got at least one #request BAHAHA #and then i kept posting and deleting to mess with the line up and bleghhhhhhhh #been almost a month since ive drawn non lps warrior cats and it feels like its been so long since ive done casual art #which is what this was AHBKSDHFBD . college is going fine for anyone curious. doing very well in one of my classes which makes me really #happy and the professor and i joke about how hard i am on myself and how im my own worst critic and at the end of the day the things i do #are AT THE VERY LEAST decent lmao #anyway i turn 20 this weekend which is very weird . but im just glad i have a weekend birthday HAHA #ANYWAY hope you guys are doing well <:-D #I ALSO WANNA POINT OUT HOW EXCITED I GOT WHEN I REALIZED THAT ADDER AND DAWN ARE RELATED #adderfang > leopardfoot > tigerstar > tawnypelt > dawnpelt #LIKE THATS HER GREAT GREAT GRANDPA #anyway im going to bed its almost midnight [but thank god i dont have class til the afternoon]

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bajablastable · 10 months

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im sorry i just felt bad i didnt include jakurai a few days ago

#hypmic #hypnosis mic #doppo kannonzaka #hifumi izanami #jakurai jinguji #he would just be happy to be invited. i think.#sim asked for hifumi to >:3 basically. she sent a ref image. his aura scared me.#theres other things i want to draw but i love jakurai a lot so i felt very bad.#the way the ears move slower than in the original. WELLLL.#timing is hard okay.#JUST REALIZED HIFUMI'S OTHER EAR SHOULD BE DOWN. WELL.#i am nothing if not stupid.

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keepthetension · 8 months

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this was made especially for those of us who cut ties with our shitty families, huh

i cried so much this whole episode. i know that i can't be in that house and be who i am at the same time, but the guilt and shame never really go away. i love that this episode said, wholeheartedly: fuck what society says, you should be wherever allows you to be happiest

anyway! you always hear that family estrangement is rare in asian communities, but i did it! and you can do it, too! dump your shitty family! i believe in you~

#tsukuritai onna to tabetai onna #it's incredible like i don't think i fully realized how ashamed i feel until this episode had me ugly crying into my blankie #especially because the abuse was invisible and people say: oh everyone's family says harsh things! it's because they care! they love you!#and no matter how hard you try to explain the magnitude of what was done to you people still shrug and say but they're *family*#not that there was ZERO physical abuse but like. that's just How It Is in the community i grew up in so it's not a Reason reason #and that's all aside from all that's expected of me as the child of an asian family (that i am simply doing none of)#FUCK i guess i just compartmentalized all of this so securely i didn't think it could bleed out anymore #thanks tsukutabe. i guess?#this show is RELENTLESSLY coming for me this season too like explicitly stated asexual rep? a treat for me personally!#idk i never expected an asian drama to be so clear about this especially because kasuga's abuse was invisible too #and the idea of not sacrificing yourself for your parents is COUNTER to what you're supposed to do #i am just VERY EMOTIONAL right now #i love kasuga so much and it was rough to see her going through it but i am SO HAPPY that she's accepted and loved

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year

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2009 Singapore Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso

#my eyes are just lazer focused on where his race suit is unzipped 🫠 he looks sooooo good in these #i wish theyd bring back this style of post race presser bcs my god imy heart skips a beat every time drivers make eye contact w the camera #i think the last race i watched where nando was on the podium was literally fucking canada 23 #so i am very very please and happy and delighted to see him finally again #BUT I AM SHRIEKING AT THE FACT THAT HE DEDICATED HIS PODIUM TO FLAVIO AT HOME #FLAVIO WHO IS AT HOME BECAUSE HE WAS LITERALLY JUST PERMANENTLY BANNED FROM F1 #AND HE DOES THIS PRACTICALLY ON THE ANNIVERSARY OF CRASHGATE WHICH WAS JUST PENALIZED A WK AGOO #NANNDDOOOOOOO WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS???? MENACE BEHAVIOR!!!!!!!! WAR CRIMINAL!!!!!!!#not included here but he was late to the cooldown room even tho he was the first one to get to parc ferme #and i realized its because he went to get a coke hahaha #i guess thats his drink of choice when dehydrated bcs thats what he was drinking at malaysia 2005 when it was also humid/hot #also i prefer the blue/yellow renault livery obv but i think the yellow/orange one is underrated #renaults liveries and color palletes from this era imo are just very clean and nice looking and work very well together #fernando alonso #fa14 #formula 1 #f1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #2009 singapore gp #season: 2009

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lucascsinclairs · 1 year

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Wait how did I not notice before that in the moment in the finale where Max finally escapes into her memories of the Snow Ball, she's standing right in front of The Piano. You know, the "I bet if we hit these suckers in the right combo we might just open a door to his secret lair!", "You're such a dork", "I've really missed that.//Missed what?//Your laugh." piano! That piano!

#i really don't know how i didnt notice that before!#am i the only one just realizing it?#it's such a small detail #but that whole scene is about her escaping to a happy memory #and how integral lucas is to that memory #having that scene happen in the very same spot where she genuinely laughed for the first time in ages #it just means a lot to me okay #lumax #luxas sinclair #max mayfield

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mercymaker · 2 months

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re: gatekeeping

i've seen this argument come up again and again across multiple blogs and i feel like it's doing such a disservice to the creative community of this fandom and is worth speaking about (especially considering that some people expressed their reluctance to create in response to the recent events)

and i just wanted to say that YES. no one owns specific scenes. YES. people are allowed to gif the same characters. hell, as far as i've seen this community is incredibly creative and generous, sharing their mods and reshade presets and scenic locations.

to me PERSONALLY, the line is crossed when there's no transparency. when it's a repeated behavior. when there's no respect or regard to your fellow creators or their wishes.

i want to be very clear that this was all brought up in regards to a VERY specific case. a very nuanced case with a lot of context and i don't think it should be used to view the community as a whole.

outside of it and on the bigger scale, this community is full of incredibly skilled and creative individuals. helpful individuals. ones that WANT to inspire and encourage others to create. that share and help and give tips. that support each other. that put a new, exciting spin on 'the same old' game with its limited scenes.

and while, surely, everyone is entitled to their own opinion, i feel like there have been some really thick brushstrokes applied when talking about the bg3 fandom creatives as a whole. and it just doesn't sit right with me.

#life #like.. i understand. no one's happy in this situation and people now feel anxious #and that was never ever my intention #i try to help when i can i made a whole community trying to bring creative people together #but i also believe it was the right thing to do to bring this issue up #so at the very least people can know and make their own conclusions at the end of the day #because yes.. while i personally tend to follow a certain 'code' when it comes to crediting inspiration #and maybe hold myself and others up to a higher standard #i am also realizing that not everyone shares the same sentiment #and i understand that #but i also wish to clarify some of the things being thrown around

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lacomandante · 7 months

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Sharpe helping Antonia to walk along the path to Tio Ramon's house. Her hand is so small in his, her feet unsteady, but she is so determined and he is so, so proud of her, his baby girl.

#;my art #sharpe #richard sharpe #antonia sharpe #(i rarely post my art bc i am VERY shy but. i had to do this)#(i doodled this back in october but was possessed to do something with it bc i love them SO much)#(its not perfect but i wanted to have fun and antonia is just SO important to him...everything he loves in the world)#(ramon and teresa are sitting on the porch drinking lemonade and watching sharpe and antonia go up and down the path)#(and Antonia looks up at her papa with so much love and joy in her eyes and Sharpe is almost bowled over by it)#(a family!!! at last a family!! and they are all happy and sharpe gets to raise her bc i said so)#(i have like two other sharpe and antonia pieces almost done too i didnt realize how many i had)

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frummpets · 1 year

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congrats on 100 comics, @poorly-drawn-mdzs !!!! 🎉🎉🎉

ur comics bring me so much joy, and ur design takes on the mdzs cast are an absolute delight <33 the biggest heart eyes at how much care u put into each panel, and i am being so real rn when i say that every comic update makes my day :DD

#poorly drawn mdzs #happy 100!!!#fer & little apple #look at em go!!#i just realized that the size ratio between little apple and fer are wonky but thats ok uHu #ive never successfully drawn anything equine before so i am very satisfied with how little apple came out #forgive me horse people if ive made a crucial anatomy/horse gear mistake #mdzs #little apple #frummpets art #my art #tomato patch #gratitude

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longelk · 8 months

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❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

grimora and kaycee voted most dateable chars among their respective polls! and honorable mention to the mycologists who were only three votes behind kaycee!!

#various other comments i have:#1. very funny how amanda has 8 in total but was ahead of luke the first day of the polls #2. very funny how some people didnt realize a poll was inscryption related and voted anyway (i support this)#3. had no idea bonelord was this popular! i felt they are often an undetected character. good for you guys #i WILL try to give drawings for the winners. probably not necessarily Spicy but i have an idea #just give me a few weeks i am burnt out😭🙏#and i kinda wanna give something to the mycologists bc i alwaaaays draw kaycee they can have a little salami #speaking of drawings i will post the pairing reqs shortly! :3 #OH and a very thank you to the people voting kaycee specifically because of my art LOL im happy i made an impact🫡

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fatedroses · 25 days

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When you're the emperor of an entire nation and undoubtably have countless very important things to do...

...but you instead drive over to your friend's estate deep in the mountains to surprise him, just to be a normal person for a little while.

(Aka he's hiding out so he can nap in the arboretum for a couple days.)

#ffxiv #sketch #emet selch #solus zos galvus #oc #atticus van simularus #tsukiko and amako are there too just very... very tiny #poor atticus not realizing he's essentially getting affectionally garlean head bonked -by a god-#has to put up with the magical ascian bullshittery emet is capable of- not limited to this old man suddenly getting random bursts of energy #I will always love the concept of emet accidently getting way too into character or attached and it biting him on the ass #old evil not-wizard visits his longest living henchman #discovers henchman now has a pair of twins that he considers his children #has to go through the emotional whiplash of 'hehe i am a godfather now -> wtf am I even thinking'#tsukiko also gets to have the heart attack a year later that the old man she's been nonchalantly talking to is the god damn -emperor-#to her for a very long time he was just the weird old man that would nap under their willow tree all day aka “mr.galvus”#I always write and draw emet and atticus' dynamic together so happy but damn does their story make me so sad #regent basically has to beg atticus not to look into who emet-selch was because he knows it would basically destroy him #and like how I write him and emet- regent also accidently got way too attached to someone who was initially just a stepping stone

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cordeliawhohung · 6 hours

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cordelia where are you please don’t abandon ur children! (in all seriousness i hope ur okay i know you take hiatuses when people start getting rude and ungrateful about these amazing works you put out!) sending love💌

hi hello yes i am somewhat alive sorry. it was actually some irl stuff that put me out. trying my best to take breaks and all but y'all know how it is. hope you all have been well <3

#core responds #personal #i'm about to rant in these tags like it's my diary so if you read past this point it's your own fault okay #working some fuck shifts at work because someone quit #mother's husband got life flighted out of state so i've been playing messenger with my brother's dad because my mom is terrible-#-at communicating #and he's a kid so it's like... someone's gotta take care of him lmao #and after one of my other brothers got put in the hospital/taken by fucking ambulance due to svt #our family is very on edge rn #mom's freaking out because her husband's cancer is back #(you're a trauma level 1 hospital and it takes two fucking radiologists to figure this out i could see that shit with my eyes closed)#and i'm over here feeling guilty because i... couldn't care less if he died lmao #but i want my mom to be happy and if he dies that'd fuck her over probably #had a pretty decent size cyst rupture at work yesterday and am still in pain from that today #have honestly been having bad pain days the last few days in general #i've come to the brutal realization that i've been dissociating hard core the last few weeks #like all my days ever feel like is me just watching myself work and live #if you can even call that living #like i try to have conversations or speak and it just feels so ugh #nothing comes out right #i try to do things and it doesn't come out right #i've been quietly struggling for the better part of a month #emotional regulation is NOT here at all for me. and i'm trying so hard not to let it get the best of me #or let it get the best of the people i love and care about #i've lowkey been abusing otc pills to sleep because i can't survive/work on 3 hours sleep #and even that hardly seems to help #i can't eat #i try to. i get the hunger pains and i try and eat and then can hardly get half of it down #the only things i've done the last few days are work; sit and stare at nothing; sleep; repeat #my paranoia is getting unbearable

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