#i actually feel a little less shitty tonight? like. wowwww maybe if i'd actually for real logged off for this past week

[shirogane-oushirou]

playing x, listening to all of my music on shuffle to see if i can "find poke!ren" in random lyrics, and so far all i have in his playlist is like. the go-to lighthearted and silly tracks for multiple vns and otome games HDHVDHDB. plus one arkn.ights song that i think will be the source of his tag name + a couple tv room tracks.

dude really and truly is Just Some Guy. even moreso than r!ren, who still has A Lot Of Things to work through...

i think our deal might be that he has to travel for work, if some big new discovery has been made in another region and his lab needs samples asap, so we foster a friendship through our holo casters / phones / whatever device i decide on. that way, things build up much slower and more naturally between us, so the emotions are less overpowering and explosive (obsessive) than the other rens.

and when he IS around, it's like. meet the family! ohh they love him, he's so funny and smart, let's have him over for dinner! we walk (read: i ride my horse bug LMAO) to a local lake with my art supplies, and we spend an afternoon drawing and talking about vns and games and music and art and poke.mon and local wild mushrooms vs regionwide variants vs cross-region variants, all while our poke.mon play together or watch over us... he might skitter off if he sees an interesting spore-producing pokemon in some bushes... just being a big ol' goof.

his work is much better here than in other verses; medicine and research seems to be a HEAVY focus in the pk.mn world, and what we see of it is generally very well-presented and helpful. there are some research facilities that are Less Than Stellar. cough. but those stand in contrast to all of the ones that are doing so much good.

like i cooooould consider a "this place is a [villain group] facility and some of the field study scientists don't know...? and when things implode due to some plucky teens lol, he's taken hostage and then is A Bit Fucked once he's out" plot... but i like the idea that this guy is allowed to have less trauma in one (1) AU brjbdjdbdh. at the VERY least i dont want this to be a villain arc au.

idk. maybe some song will come up that'll change all of this. we'll see!!