#how much are you willing to bet people are gonna unfollow me just cause i posted about deh

[sea-jello]

hi guys so i was watching clips of michael lee brown as evan right and i come across if i could tell her

the three pats have to mean something right?? like he knocks on wood hes obviously superstitious so i searched it up and this isnt exactly what he does and idk how reliable google is but

do you think?? this is what hes doing?? its a jewish superstition apparently

[heartmeadows]

Whenever I’m actually really active here and basically spam y’all I start to feel... I don’t actually know how to define what exactly I feel but I get this awful anxious paranoia going on where I start getting intrusive thoughts like “I bet everyone hates that I’m posting this much/this kind of content/writing personal posts/etc.” Like, I know it’s just my brain being ill and that I’m being illogical. Logical thinking is how I deal with my paranoia anyway. And I’m not just throwing around the word for fun, I literally have paranoia and delusional thinking as recurrent symptoms. But anyway, I wanted to open up about this ‘cause that also helps me deal with these symptoms and now I’m already starting to feel better. It’s just a simblr after all, and it’s also mine so I’m allowed to post what I want. I just get anxious sometimes for multiple reasons. One thing is that I don’t want to trigger anyone or make people feel bad somehow. I guess this stems from the fact that I still don’t know if I should put trigger warnings on my posts that might require them. I often forget about it because while I also have plenty of triggers I’m at a point where I can deal with them because I’m often faced with things that can be triggering to me since they can manifest in random and sudden ways. And I personally see it as my own responsibility to deal with my triggers because in my life outside of the internet there aren’t trigger warnings. I don’t know if that makes me sound harsh or something but it’s just how I see it. But at the same time I do not intentionally want to trigger others, obviously. So, I try my best to put trigger warnings, especially when it comes to my personal posts about my struggles. One thing that’s been bothering me about my simblr is the anon who asked me to put a pregnancy tw some time ago and for a while I did. But then I took a break and when I came back I forgot about it. Then I remembered again but realised that it’d probably just be better for anyone who is triggered by pregnancy to unfollow me. I’m conflicted about it anyway though. Like I said, I don’t want to intentionally trigger anyone. But I am for the most part a family simmer basically. There’s gonna be pregnant sims! And to be honest, I vicariously live through my sims having kids because I know it’s not gonna be possible for me to have a family and it’s something that still hurts me. So being able to have my wlw sims pregnant and have a family is something that makes me really happy. Anyway, I think I’ve rambled enough and gotten kind of off-topic. Last thing I want to say is that please just send me a message or DM me if there’s a specific trigger warning you want me to include. Even if it’s the pregnancy one. I’m still willing to put effort into remembering to include it in future posts if it’s necessary. I know this all sounds kinda contradictory but that’s because I’m conflicted about this. And most definitely overthinking things.

[silverandarsenic-hcs]

I have a few different asks(both Disney), but I’ll start with one. I thought of this cause there’s a chance of me going to Disneyland either this summer or maybe the fall or winter time. I’m so hyped and just feel like this big kid despite being 18. Anywho, the first question is what Disney character would the papas (including Nihil),Copia,&imperator be? Idk why but nihil gives me Mad Hatter vibes, but hey it’s up to you :) (I may just be saying that cause I love Alice in Wonderland)

.This is god tier i dont think we’ve done this yet but if we have i do not care i will do it again and youre getting more of them than you asked for. 

also i havent been to disney since i was 5 and i am very jealous and happy for you that you might be going soon!!! tell us how it is !!! (also wtf 18 is Not too old to be excited about going to disney i dont know anyone who wouldnt be excited for that) 

Nihil: I think its REALLY interesting that you picked mad hatter for Nihil. Like so much so that i dont even know where to begin in unpacking that and I would have Never thought of that on my own. But I fuck with it, and you bet your ass you’re right, so if you’d like to explain why you think so in a reblog i would LOVE nothing more than to hear it. 

Sister: I could go anywhere with this really. Do i give the lady a redemption arch from everything unsavory ive said before? do i keep her as shallow a character as she is in canon? decisions. However God Damn Obvious, she’s the red queen from alice in wonderland. A tyrant but for sexy reasons (i.e the love of Nihil). She runs the show and if you don’t know it in your mind, you know it in your heart. doesn’t like someone? beheads them. youre gonna tell me im wRoNG?

Papa I: Captain Hook from Peter Pan, but in his old age, he’s a little more Captain Feather Sword from The Wiggles. Angery man whos trying to kill the protagonist and whats that fucking ticking noise and being pissed off by an animal that follows him is all very Papa I.

Papa II: my sweet sweet man is The Beast from beauty and the beast. I know i already wrote that as a whole au thing but i really fuck with it. Everyone thinks hes an angry old fuck, and sometimes he is, but his heart has always been kind and he’s always willing to change for the better for those he loves. 

Papa III: Flynn Rider from Tangled. I was really close to choosing Gaston from the beauty and the beast but I was Wrong and this is why. Flynn has a lot of the qualities of Gaston (a little cocky, sometimes kind of a dick) but III has much more of heart than Gaston does and that’s easily shown in Flynn. We have good character development, sex appeal, a hint of arrogant confidence at surface level, but you know he’s loyal til the end and would do anything for the people he cares about. (ps im kinda glad they didn’t give gaston a single god damn inch of redemption arch) 

Cardinal Copia: If you didn’t IMMEDIATELY think Jafar you can unfollow like absolutely the only correct answer. I won’t explain this because I literally don’t have to like Jafar and Copia have the same fucking character plot.

Dewdrop, Cirrus, and Swiss: Respectively, Lock, Shock, and Barrel from Nightmare Before Christmas (Oogie’s boys) Trouble makers, general fuckery causes. I think they could do a lot of damage as a trio but they aren’t usually the head of the operation, which is why they’re together. Dewdrop doesn’t think enough, Swiss doesn’t have enough manpower for any of his plans, and Cirrus is a little too evil, for them all to work alone. (Honorable mentions: Stitich for Dew, Milo from Atlantis for Swiss, and 

Rain: Woody from Toy Story BC Love and somtimes a little bit of Chaos as a treat 

Aether: Sebastian from The Little Mermaid, also for obvious reasons. helpful (i wont use the word sidekick) to whoever he’s with, playful, god cant everyone just fucking do what theyre supposed to for ONCE energy 

Mountain: Baloo from The Jungle Book. Big boy. Hard Chiller. It’s free real estate

Cumulus: Mulan. BASMF. in control and that’s fucking that i will not be taking questions 

- Kat

[aloy-nora]

Personal rant ahead, I just need to write these thoughts out to free my mind feel free to read and respond or to ignore

I’m so excited to go back to L.A. after almost two months back in Germany. I do love my family but I’m glad I’ll get away from my negative father and his bad attitudes and mood and get back to my amazing friends who I miss like crazy.

But then I think about the fact that I’ll be back in my old apartment with my roommates who I’ve now realized make me feel like shit, robb all my motivation and positivity and there’s no way to escape them. I don’t have money to move right now, they’re not gonna move so... what now?

I’m german and all my roommates are Latinx. Two Venezuelans and one Colombian. They’re supposed to be my friends and boyfriend but when I think about how they treat me, I wouldn’t agree that that’s what they are. I can’t be myself in there. I can’t be a german person, being typically german, or just not being typically Latina. Whenever I do something they don’t do/know/understand, I’ll be notified. I’ll hear things like “You’re so german, you’re so white” “HOW do you not KNOW that/WHY would you DO that?” “Why are you always like this/Be more like this Latinx person”. And while I do realize that I AM white and I’m already privileged, it doesn’t help my anxious and self-hatred prone mind that’s trying to overcome all these things. I am how I am and it doesn’t help that they always point out how different I am to them. I don’t live in that apartment to become a part of their culture and habits, I live there because I enjoy their culture and habits and am in love with one of them.

Especially he, my boyfriend, is a big part of this problem. He keeps telling me I’m not happy enough. I’m not outgoing enough. I don’t dance enough. I don’t work hard enough. He told me once that I’m a “great housewife” but that he doesn’t need a housewife. I’m so much more than a housewife, and I AM happy, I AM relatively outgoing, I DO dance, I sometimes DO work hard and he constantly wants me to realize and act on it but then he tells me the opposite as a fact why our relationship doesn’t work? And while I agree with some of these things and am trying to work on them, I will never be as outgoing as him or his Latinx friends (by the way I know not all Latinx people are outgoing and happy etc but almost all that I’m friends with are and he compares me to those). I will never be as happy with life and as dancing obsessed, I will never be as open to everything and I will never be Latina. No matter how bad he wants it and pushes for it, I’m german and it’s always going to be that way.

And for my roommates, I just unfollowed them on all social media because literally just seeing their names changes my mood from anything to numerous bad feelings in the world. That makes 3 of my friends I have unfollowed on social media because they cause bad feelings in myself. Most of all, they make me feel self-conscious. I only have to see a picture of them, their name, or a video of them having fun somewhere, I’m immediately reminded of all the things that I’m not. Of all the things that I don’t have. Things that my boyfriend keeps telling me I should be or I should have.

It’s simple things.

One of them is beautiful, she’s a model and has thousands of Instagram followers and Facebook friends who all tell her how amazingly gorgeous and sexy she is.

One of them is greatly blessed, she plays many instruments, is a singer, is a great dancer, has a huge family full of love and support, has many friends who love her, is married and even though she and her husband are not in the greatest terms money wise, they get to do all these amazing things and go to visit many wonderful places.

One of them is this girls husband, because what she posts I will most likely also see in his feeds and I generally don’t like seeing pictures of the two together because I know the backstories and get caught in jealousy when I see how happy they are.

These three people all have their own things that I’m jealous of. And I know jealousy is not a good thing. And I don’t want to be jealous. And my boyfriend always reminds me that jealousy is not a good or productive feeling. Well guess what, you’re the reason WHY I’m jealous of all these people and their things.

I’m jealous of the model because she got a boob-job and everyone thinks she’s an absolute bomb. I’m jealous that she gets so much attention and praise just for the fact that she shows off her boobs and body. I’m jealous that he actually likes how it looks and that he thinks she’s physically perfect.

I would like to think that when you tell me I’m beautiful, you don’t mean “for the way you look”. You don’t mean “for the fact that you don’t work out.” You don’t mean “for the fact you don’t have an ass”. That you don’t mean “for the fact that you’re not xy”. I could get a boob job. I could get a butt lift. I could get a nose job. I could get pictures taken in lingerie at a lake and boy would people be double tapping on my pictures. But that’s not who I am. I’m starting to feel happy with the way I look, I’m realizing I can work on my non-existent butt and make it a bit more existing if I don’t like it, I’m dealing with my nose being a bit too big and my face not being flawless. I won’t be having any surgeries just to feel like I’m enough for you. You can’t tell me to be self-confident and to know that I’m beautiful the way god made me and in the same breath tell me a girl shoving her fake boobs in everyones face is the epitome of a sexy girl.

I’m jealous of the blessed girl because despite the fact that her relationship comes off (and I think is I live with them after all) much worse than mine with my boyfriend, she’s married. Despite the fact that they constantly fight over dirty dishes and she insults him and looses it every time they do, they’re still together. Posting kissing pictures and being overly cute on social media while we’ve been on and off for months despite us being best friends. Despite the fact that they always say how little money they have, they go to Disneyland, Six Flags, the Grand Canyon, Yosemite and who knows where else.

We could hop in the car and drive up to Yosemite for two days. We could hop in the car and drive anywhere for two days. We’d have a blast because we always do, we’d have a blast because we’re best friends, we’d have a blast because we’re a great couple, we’d have a blast because we’ve been wanting to do that all the one and a half years we’ve been together. But I’m willing to bet that if I asked you to do that, you’d tell me you don’t have a) time b) money c) literally anything else that could contribute to that. And while I’m always understanding and know that you need your money and time for family purposes (accepting that I’m seemingly not part of your family, and not even close to the word priority), I have to say that seeing that you’re up at Big Bear, that you’re planning a trip to Orlando, that you’re out clubbing almost every week, that you’re eating out almost twice a week, spending time and money for your friends but never for me, just hurts.

And now this has turned from roommate to boyfriend rant real quick. But oh well... I’m happy I got to spend this time at home I realized who I want, who I need and who I need to cut out of my life. I’ll be making some changes once I’m back.

This is my year, this year I come first.