#holding hands w you anon as fun fact autistics we’re vital to the ecosystem 🥺🥰

[daisychainsandbowties]

As a certified fun fact autistic, I truly love the way you write Beatrice as a fun fact autistic.

Like, reading a character who is so clearly loved by others for this, but also, is also recognized as interesting and worth listening to?? It’s kind of freeing in a sense, to be able to read about a character surrounded by so much love for something that I’m kind of ashamed of at times.

🥺🥺 i’ve always written beatrice as autistic (the kingdom, the power, and the glory are yours my beloved) but i guess mostly just by handing her bits of my autism (and also handing her spiders whenever possible) so the fun fact part is dear to me. i love the idea of beatrice being so so fascinated by the world, hoarding knowledge because she can’t have touch, can’t hold onto anything. not shannon not mary not lilith

not ava

she had all those years of making herself impossibly good, sharp as a knife so she could give herself the grace of existing (imperfect, wrapped around her queerness like a pin in a grenade, like piano wire around a throat) so it feels right to have her come to love what she is by kissing ava, loving her, but also in other ways. hungry for the world and again and always the refrain of “i love you, eat.” forbidden fruit

bea learning what she wants, forming her own odd orbits instead of falling into lines of perfect curvature. spouting facts about mercury as medicine and how languages kiss in midair and the history of gunpowder storage.

she already knows about torque, about architecture and three dozen prayers in more languages than she can actually speak. she knows the physics of violence and the letters of paul to the corinthians. she knows these things because they are useful, but i think there’s something about her learning stupid facts when the war is all said, all done.

the choice in that waste, to hold something no one cares about close to her chest and have ava’s hand slip against the shape of hers and hear her say “show me what you have. i want to see it.” i want to see you