#hmmm 🤔 i see why you're struggling

[white--moon]

Shiro scoffs, but concedes, "Of course I'd do the same thing. So would you."

The overhead light is shut off and it's immediately more cozy and more intimate. For some reason, it catches Shiro off guard, like maybe he wasn't expecting there to be any actual sleeping or getting comfortable. Just talking and pretending everything is fine and normal until they both pass out. Regardless, after a moment, he sinks down into the blankets a little bit. He's always appreciated being warm and cozy and comfortable. When Ichigo climbs into bed and rests close enough to maintain that contact, he tries not to overthink it. He lets himself relax into it instead, and just enjoys the familiar warmth while he can.

He glances over at Ichigo's reassurances and shrugs. "Yeah. I always do." We. As if any of his problems are Ichigo's anymore. He sighs a quiet breath and flops down flat on the mattress, careful not to spill the last little swallow in his glass. "I don't know. I thought so. Still do, I guess. I don't think he's involved in trying to kill me, anyway."

He turns his head to give Ichigo a more direct look, arching a brow. Is that a joke? "You think someone's gonna put a price on me and I'm gonna stay out of the fray?" He laughs, then ducks sheepishly and peeks over at Yuu. "Anyway, you know I like to get my hands dirty. There's no way I'm staying back. And your friends sound fun. You promised explosives." He sits up enough to finish off his drink, then lays back down and blindly reaches over Yuu to find the nightstand to deposit his glass onto.

He glances over at Yuu and grunts a quiet laugh, before disregarding him again. He shuts his phone screen off and sets his phone down, taking another sip of his drink half out of habit from it being in his hand. "That's what he gets for trying to keep up." The sex or the drinking, is up to Ichigo to decide. But maybe both.

He watches Ichigo climb into bed beside him. It aches, but it's also such a welcome and comfortable sight. He's got just enough alcohol in his system right now to be more comforted than distressed by the whole thing.

He snorts quietly, "I don't have private security and the more I think about it, the fewer people I got that I actually trust. So no. Just me." He shrugs, taking another drink. His glass is almost empty again. "I'm better than most anyway." There's a reason why Yhwach always sent him after people he didn't like. And if Shiro had finally met his match and got himself killed, well that probably would have just been a bonus. Which is a depressing reminder that no one really wants him around, except maybe his on again off again unlabeled partner that he left at home alone. Ouch.

He finishes off the rest of his drink in one swallow.

[hard-core-super-star]

It's funny that I have a few paragraphs talking to you, but when I want to write something I just barely get past the second line. I don't think I need to say that I don't mind and I even like these long answers since I was encouraging them from the beginning...😶

I'm thinking of a song- is this a song? If not, I think I'll look like an idiot too.

“i'm just too gay to obsess over a man the way I obsess over kate” HELP, THIS IS SO FUNNY??? LMFAO. I can literally add this at any time to anything in my life and that's exactly what I'll be doing!! It's research that could save the world from possible alien invasions, don't worry. I mean your mom was right (I guess? here where I live the game is not recommended for -18 so-), although the game is cool, it's not something people should have contact so young. as they are nowadays.

so you're going to send me to the lion's den and make me survive like this?? I'm not ready for it. I swear I try not to ask too many questions but my fingers just slip!! Jhdskwkka oh okay, if you mentioned Joker her attitudes might remind you a little of him....?

since this doesn't ruin my experience, you can tell me about this cliffhanger, right? 👀 okay, wait, so the cliffhanger was just something that would probably be a plot for the first eps or that would open to season 8, is that? wow this is disrespectful to them, did they already have season 8 written or something?

wait wait I remember someone called Zari, if I'm not wrong she had a situationship with someone on the team... isn't she the one with the animal powers? 🤔 you're selling batwoman in a very good way i- I'm very tempted. We need a petition for them to stop making the characters dirty, not even barry escaped! I was going to ask if you like Cisco since you didn't mention him, but I feel like the answer coming would be you're too gay to be obsessed with men, but this time with caitlin instead of kate 😶

now I don't know if it's a moment that you're not thinking about it, or you're not thinking about it kwhjwkwskk

– 🌟

i felt that in my soul. talking to you is so much easier than writing my fics, i can't tell if i should be happy or worried about that. you didn't have to say it but i very much appreciate the reminder.

😮 technically yes. okay, i’ll bite the bullet and risk looking like an idiot just in case. i think we might be on the same page though ‘cause i think there's only one thing this references and it’s…the song nineteen by tegan and sara. it's such a subtle and dumb thing but i have a major connection to the song and the number so at some point i just started saying 119% for no reason and then it…sort of stuck lmao.

akdkdsakaskd thank you, it was both a joke and the honest truth lmao hmmm, i guess that makes sense, carry on. yeah, i agree, i just find it funny that mortal kombat was a no but she had no issue with injustice which is basically just the DC version of mortal kombat 👀 your last comment has potential for a whole other conversation but i’ll just say that i agree and that it baffles me that there are 7 year olds out there who have better IPhone’s than me like why???

kind of but i promise it’s worth it!!! just know that if you do end up liking alice, it'll get painful quick 😶 it’s okay! it’s just that i can go on for hours and i don't want to ruin anything for you. i wouldn't say she reminds me that much of the Joker but the comparison is an easy one to make cause…Batman -> Batwoman, you know? she's a lot more complicated. in a good way of course.

i guess i can tell you but i’ll do it as vaguely as possible. basically, they struggle all of season 7 because they're stuck in the past [i can't remember the exact year rn, my bad] and once they finally fix the Waverider and are able to go home…they essentially get arrested by some sort of Time Police. it's frustrating ‘cause we see them struggle ALL season and once things are solved, this happens and then BOOM, the show’s canceled. so yeah, it was just supposed to be the start-point for Season 8 so no real harm done, it just sucks. i assume there was already a plan for Season 8 so if they would have known there wasn't going to be one, they could have wrapped off Season 7 in another way and given a real ending to the Legends. somehow, though, i feel like this ending fits them lmao.

close, zari’s the one with the wind totem, amaya’s the one with the spirit totem aka the animal powers. [and they also should have been girlfriends but that's another rant] djskakswjsjks lmao, you know me so well. i honestly do love cisco, even though they also messed up his character toward the end. him and caitlin ARE team flash, screw everyone else.

…yes? 🧐

[hb-writes]

For the fanfic writer end of year asks: 9, 21, 34 and 17 (although I think that's just impossible xD)

Hi there! Thank you for the asks. Hope you're well! 🙂

9. What's a scene you wrote this year that you're particularly proud of? I'm pretty proud of All the Wrong Things as a whole. It's so sad and it physically hurt me to write it. Here's a snippet.

“How are you?” Clara’s words came out as little more than a whisper, a shaky breath accompanying them as her eyes tried to stay on his.

“You know me. I’m alright."

John shrugged and the movement rattled the chains. Clara’s eyes broke from his and she studied the rest of him, her eyes still catching all the wrong things that upset her when he first walked in, only now with the clarity of detail – his unshaven face, the bruises and scrapes and dried blood, the tired eyes matching her own.

"You?” he asked, prompting her eyes back to his.

Clara shook her head, feeling a small spasm within her as she tried to hold it in, reaching up to cover her face with both hands as she felt a tear escape onto her cheek.

“It’s alright,” John said, his hand reaching out to pull her hands away from her face. Clara was just out of his reach though, his hands pulled to an abrupt halt by the chains with a small space still between them. He let his hands fall. “You gotta put it in the past. It’s done now."

Clara nodded at his words, wiping at her eyes as she looked to him. She knew it wasn’t quite so simple. She had already passed so many tears about what had happened and thought she should have been all cried out by now. If Clara was being honest though, she doubted she would ever truly put any of this in the past. She had a feeling it would be with her for the rest of her life, lurking in her mind, revealing itself at the most troublesome moments. But this visit wasn’t about that. It wasn’t about her, or at least Clara didn’t want this visit to be about that.

She wanted it to be about John, about making sure he was well enough, what with his tired eyes and the smile that wasn’t quite genuine.

"I’m scared,” she finally said, “for you. All of you. Are you sure you’re alright?”

John sighed, his shifting feet once again sending off a rattle of the chains. This was why he didn’t let Esme bring the kids to see him. He didn’t want them scared for him. Let them be scared of the dark or the mean teacher at school or old ghost stories. He didn’t need his kids scared for their father and he didn’t need his sister scared for him either.

“I’m doing fine, alright?” he said, lifting his arms as if to give her a proper look at him. “I’m all in one piece."

Clara’s eyes still focused on the wrong things though, and John snapped his fingers at her, a characteristic ‘Oi!’ popping out of the corner of his mouth before his sister’s eyes jerked to his.

And I Don't Want To Be Alone, too, which is also very sad and painful. It has Polly, Michael, Tommy, and more of big brother John taking care of our Clara when he should be concerned with himself.

21. Not a question, but a challenge! Say something nice about your writing! Do I have to? LOL. I do feel as though I've grown a lot as a writer, even if I'm finding writing harder these days. When I compare things I wrote last year to what I am able to produce now, I'm pretty proud of where we are.

34. What's the weirdest thing you researched for a fic? Hmmm. I'm honestly not sure on that one. I didn't research as much as I usually do as part of writing this year (maybe that's been part of my struggle🤔). I did go on a pretty deep dive into the Women's Suffrage Movement in the UK but that fic never ended up getting written.

17. If you could only write for one fandom next year, which would it be? Difficult, but I think I'd choose Peaky Blinders. Clara is my child (lol) and with the new season coming out (and an enthusiastic rewatch pending), I imagine I'll have quite a bit of plot floating around my brain.