#his smile in the first one im 💘💞💗💖💓💕💘

[pedrithink]

delicate ✩ jude bellingham

about: the massive hate you are getting on internet and the way jude stood by you, supporting you.

couple: jude bellingham x reader! singer

request: hey babyyyy! what do u think about a jude x reader (maybe olivia rodrigo fc) ?? xxx love u

face claim: olivia rodrigo

NOW: Jude’s Bellingham talks ‘Real Madrid’, His first World Cup’s impressions & His favorite Y/N’s songs.

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user1 he’s so perfect 🥹 yn and him seemed like soulmates

user2 I REMEMBERED WHEN YN POINTED AT JUDE DURING GORGEOUS AND HE TOOK A PHOTO AND SHE WAS ALL GIGGLY

user3 yn once said “you’re so gorgeous, it actually hurts” and “they say home is where the heart is, but that's not where mine lives. you know I love a london boy.”

user4 @user3 im yn

user5 imagine being jude bellingham and having yn write her best love songs and best title tracks about you a DREAM

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ynusername vampire song and video out now 🧛🏼. writing this song helped me sort through lots of feelings of regret, anger, and heartache. it's one of my favorite songs on the album and it felt very cathartic to finish. im so happy it's in your hands now and I hope it helps u deal with any bloodsuckers in your lite. all my thanks 4ever 🫶🏻

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judebellingham proud of you, vampie 🧛🏼🩸🥹🫶🏻

ynusername @judebellingham love u babs

user1 vampire is one of the best songs ever

user2 another song about another ex 🥱🙄

user3 @user2 literally let people write out their feelings or WHATEVER they want. obviously yall can only attack women for this tho...

user4 people calling yn boring or overrated for writing songs about her ex does not sit right w me …. like let her write about whatever she wants?? she’s 20??? all singers have songs about their ex’s???? stfu

user5 @user4 SPEAK. ON. IT

user6 "yn makes too much songs ab her ex" "all she write is break up songs, she’s so obsessed"

ok then stop listening to her songs 🤷🏻‍♀️

user7 whaaaaat 😭 why are there so many people mad that yn wrote some songs about her ex. meanwhile, there are men who only write songs about fucking hoes and using drugs and yet they still get praised for it 🥱

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judebellingham date night with vampie to celebrate all of her achievements, proud of u ❤️‍🩹

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ynusername 🧛🏻‍♀️🩸❤️‍🩹🧛🏼

user8 JUDE CALLING YN VAMPIE >>>>

user9 i hope i find someone who supports me the way jude supports yn

user10 ill always be soft for these two. its amazing how jude supports yn in any way he can and yn never forgets to save jude a seat. fucking POWER COUPLE!!!

user11 @user10 i just love them

user12 lets talk about the fact that at the 2020 grammys she didn’t feel like there was someone to celebrate with and now she has one and he helps her and supports her and take her on dates when she achieves more and more in her singing career 🥹

user13 yn and jude be like: happiest relationship of my life, so let’s go cheer for my breakup songs together 💕💞💓💗💖💘

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ynusername delicate is out now 🫧 surprise song for y’all, hope u like it 🫶🏻

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user14 delicate video really speaks to me. yn let go of the world's expectations of how she should act, smile and behave. once she did that, she was able to find who she was looking for. i’m shaking and crying, so so proud of our baby!!!!

user15 @user14 it’s already my favorite music video of her!!!! i love the lyrics 2

user16 these pics were taking by jude i’m CRYING and the lyrics… I JUST LOVE HIM EVEN MORE

user17 @user16 yeah 🥹 i’m so happy that she found someone that makes her feel like that

user18 delicate is one of the most beautiful songs yn has ever written, it’s so GENUINE.

[lunaetiicsaystuff]

DAYLIGHT

part 1 , part 2

lando norris x fem!oc

( yes, its gonna be a series and yes, i guess this is my comeback on tumblr)

summary: Adaezela Samu and Lando Norris have called each other their best friends for as long as they can both remember, until one of them decides to deal with the raising tension between them.

landonorris

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crazy girl broke in and stole food from f1 driver Lando Norris, please send help

adaezelasamu at least shes not martha level of crazy, you should be grateful

⤷landonorris im very much happy with this crazy girl

alex_albon weird, it also happened to me but the crazy girl was different 🤔

⤷landonorris then it must be a common thing, better lock the doors guys

⤷lilymhe ahahaha you are so funny

⤷adaezelasamu come here wifey, I'll defend us both 👩🏾‍❤️‍💋‍👩🏻

⤷lilymhe my hero 💗💖💘💓💕💖💓

lilymhe wow send her my address i want her to break in my house too

⤷adaezelasamu OMW

⤷landonorris lily stop stealing MY best friend 😐😐

user1 its the way alex was talking about lily, his gf, and lando just went "it happens to all of us ig 🙂" as if adaezela was his gf lmaoo

user2 SHE LOOKS SO GOOD HOW

user3 she has such pretty smile omg 🥹

carlossainz55 what did you cook ada

⤷adaezelasamu some appetizers and then a pasta cacio and pepe, of course everything was great as usual

⤷carlossainz55 you will have to prepare us something one day

⤷landonorris nope she only cooks for me and herself actually 😁😁

⤷adaezelasamu not true, stop lying 😁😁😁

⤷landonorris you just broke my heart 😁😁😁😁

⤷adaezelasamu i dont care 😁😁😁😁😁

⤷carlossainz55 you two are so dumb i swear

georgerussell63 carmen says hi!

⤷adaezelasamu tell her i say that I miss her!!!! 💞💞💞💞💞💞

⤷landonorris why are you all so affectionate with my ady 😕😕

⤷georgerussell63 jealous much?

⤷landonorris yes she was my best friend first

⤷adaezelasamu lando, there is plenty of me to share between carmen, lily and you

⤷landonorris no comment

user4 shes very pretty, how long have then been together?

⤷user5 never, they are TECHNICALLY childhood best friends but everyone can see they basically in love with each others

⤷user4 oh

user6 the way lando is jealous of how much attention the others are giving to her lmfao 😭😭

⤷user7 its the way he's always saying MY best friend, MY ady , man is whipped

user8 lando could you please win the next grand prix? thank you 🧡🧡🧡🧡

user9 i missed seeing adaezela

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somebody tell this man to let me go home PLEASE

landonorris NOOOO

landonorris LET ME BOTHER YOU FOREVERRRR

user1 oh to be adaezela, complaining about lando norris wanting to be with you 24/7

⤷user2 FR like pass him to me if you dont want him 😭😭

user3 mama y papa

landonorris she doesn't want to leave anymore 🤪🤪

⤷adaezelasamu you literally gaslighted me because you were sCaReD or wtv

⤷landonorris YOU DONT KNOW WHAT SHE COULD DO

⤷adaezelasamu POLICE OFFICERS ARE LITERALLY OUTSIDE OF MY HOUSE TO PREVENT HER FROM DOING WEIRD SHIT??

⤷landonorris yeah but what if 😕

⤷adaezelasamu there you go, making me feel bad again

⤷landonorris 😕😕😕😕😕😕😕

⤷adaezelasamu FINE ill sleep here

⤷user4 honestly what the fuck is fuck is happening?? like police officers outside of Adaezela'a house? lando being scared for her??

lilymhe babe call me plsss🙂

⤷adaezelasamu yes ma'am 🫡

user5 what kind of life are these two living like wtf 😭😭

carlossainz55 what is happening

⤷landonorris ill call you carlos dw

⤷user6 so not even lily or carlos knows what's going on??

charles_leclerc how is he even sleeping there

⤷landonorris talent

⤷adaezelasamu hes just weird charles dont ask questions

⤷user7 PLSSSS ADAEZELA 😭😭

user8 couple goals honestly

⤷user9 exactly, i want what these bitches have 😭

user10 what is happening??? I hope both of them are ok cause wtf

⤷adaezelasamu guys dont worry, both me and lando are fine! we just had an encounter with a crazy fan

[idyllic-affections]

HI MAHAL this may seem a bit sudden but im feeling very affectionate today and needed to find someone to SMOTHER WITH LOVE AND THE FIRST PERSON WHO CAME TO MIND WAS YOU <3 so i js wanted to say……

I LOVE U SO SO SO MUCHHH!!!!!!!! 🫶🫶🫶 WAHHHH i appreciate u so very much and even tho weve only been moots for four months iT FEELS LIKE ITS BEEN SO MUCH LONGERRRHRHRH!! tysm for listening to what i wanted to say to you and for putting up with all of my bs LMFAO IM SO GLAD THAT I MET UUUUU 💕💓💝💝💖💕💝💓💞💘💕 talking with u always brings me so much joy RAHHHH 😭😭 I LOVE EACH AND EVERY INTERACTION OF OURS EVEN IF ITS FOR A BRIEF MOMENT AND IT ALWAYS PUTS A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE WHENEVER I LOOK BACK!!!! you’re very funny sweet caring and friendly AND I JS WANNA HUG U AND CLING ONTO U VERY TIGHTLY i dont plan on letting go anytime soon hehe :3 hope ure okay w that <3333 i dont want our friendship to enddd!!!! 🫶💖💘💓💕😭😭🫶💝💘💕💗💗💓💞💘🫶🫶 OH OH AND IM SOSOSO PROUD OF U!!!! URE DOING ABSOLUTELY AMAZINGGGG AND U MATTER A HELL OF A LOT TO ME MWAH MWAH‼️‼️‼️

if addi has a million fans, im one of them. if addi has one fan, im that fan. if addi has zero fans, im no longer alive HEHE 🫶

LILIIIII SOBS..... NOT ME BEING THE FIRST PERSON TOC OME TO MIND????? I LOVE YOU TOO WTF /P there's NO way we've only been moots for four moths, it feels like it's been way longer than that pleasee.... i am convinced i've known you for more than 16 weeks. that is such a short amount of time!!!

hsjnskdskhsjksh for me it has NEVERRR been "putting up with you"!!!!! i love talking to you and listening to the things you want to say!!!!! my response time may be slow sometimes but it never has anything to do with you <333 it is just the neurodivergent brain i think. words are not always easy!

i do my best to be very kind because i think there is not enough kindness in the world lately! so i always want to remind people that kindness does still exist. if i, as a trans and chronically ill liberal person living in the modern usa, cannot beat the darkness myself, then at the very least, i can be a light that helps other people through it. you know!!! spreading kindness where it is needed!!!!

of course, you are welcome and encouraged to stay in my life for as long as you would like to <33 BUT THANK YOU..... i am also very proud of you!!!! you are wonderful and lovely and you're doing great!!!!!

[ssickabit]

Dunno if you’re a caratstay like me but…. Just IMAGINE a bangchan x seungcheol threesome🥵🥵 ugh my two fav leaders EVER! also my biases from their respective groups!🥰 bangchan and coups BEST LEADERS!!! >.< 🥺😖😢💕💓💗💖💘💞💕💘💖💗💖

but goodness that’d be SO intense. im usually a soft stan but sometimes all I want is for two sexy, masculine, muscular, virile men like them to RAVISH my fragile holes and devour the hell out of me until i reach transcendental states and I can’t walk the next day 🥺 and then they carry me around like a bride and tell me that im such a good girl to them 🥺

imagine that bangchan is your sweet, wholesome husband. and single dad!seungcheol as his lovely best friend. seungcheol has always had a lowkey crush on you since chan introduced you to him. and he was a little sad that channie found u first. but he always remained happy for the two of you even after marriage. he never wants to start drama, come across as creepy, or interfere with anyone’s happiness. one day, seungcheol finally has the guts to tell him this and bangchan smiles, appreciating his honesty. the conversation goes on for a while. eventually, it turns rated r and that’s when bangchan has a lightbulb moment - a threesome!!!!

once you come home after a long day of shopping with ur besties (and using chan’s credit card to buy everything😉), he talks to you about the visit seungcheol made earlier that day and everything that went down. he asks about the possibility of a threesome. hearing such raunchy words exit his mouth gives u the goosebumps. you respect seungcheol and would trust him to have safe, loving sex with u and chan. and u are completely down for it…

cheol visits your guys’ house every few days and takes things slowly. chan and cheol want to make sure that you’re safe and don’t get hurt 🥺 massaging your body with almond oil and kissing you all over…and then experimenting with fingering, toys, and oral on you, and eventually getting rougher as time goes by 🤭

you love the feeling of two hot dilfs treating you like a princess and tell you that you’re such an amazing, obedient little angel for being able to take two cocks at the same time 🥰 cheol in your mouth and chan in your pussy. two wholesome dilfs who transform into ravenous beasts whenever they’re in bed with you….always wearing pretty pink lingerie that makes you seem innocent…yet not so innocent…..you’re a delectable little sweetheart to them. they’d worship your body like a goddess and revere you like there’s no tomorrow…

and sometimes they say things like “i guess our princess can’t decide whose cock she likes better. what a sweet little cockslut” or “our cute angel has become such a nymphomaniac for her two daddies huh?”

constantly inundating you with intense orgasms and pleasure from all directions 🥰 and WHEW just the sight of the three of their sweaty naked sexy bodies makes me so .... 🥵

And then the aftercare😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫them turning all soft and nurturing again😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫telling u that you did so well and then massaging ur body and taking care of u the next day cuz they KNOW you’re gonna be sore

I am actually a caratstay and I am very much devastated by this ask because BESTIE???

*clears throat* I think we reached the point where me, a fellow writer, can’t even write any single thoughts because this is just TOO MUCH (/pos). So here’s some of my thoughts you might wanna read because I am just full of ~horny thoughts~ where Bangchan gives you some time alone to explore yourself with Seungcheol (without intention of crossing the boundaries) :

Bangchan is mostly a soft dom, that’s very true, but when it comes to Seungcheol A means A and B means B. Bangchan still gives you the space to be a brat and just taming you in the softest way possible, but Seungcheol? Do it as he says or you won’t get what you want. Pretty strict with his rules which is also agreed by you and full of your consent of course. This makes you thrilled in some way *evil laugh*

Touching you with delicacy is what Bangchan always does but with Seungcheol he will shove your head on the bed, back’s arching to him as he is thrusting his hip from the back. Even if the pace is kinda rough, Seungcheol is still considering the gentleness in his moves (yeah talk about that to the bruises in your hips lololol)

Lots dirty talk and degrading is what Seungcheol loves. This is quite the opposite of Bangchan—which he is just really love praising—and he likes it when you talk back, it makes something inside of him very excited. “Yeah? Look now who’s aching for my cock” “you dirty slut, say it. Say my name” while exactly pounding into without mercy.

Sometimes he is just making Chan’s ego in the edge of the downfall because look at him. Very cocky and shit. “Look, Chan, look at how pathetic she is” and a lot of smirks when he watches you and Chan fucking each other.

He is kind of hesitant about aftercare at first because this is out of his capabilities right? But his leader self is saying the otherwise. He will give you water and let you pee, then he will run you a bath. He brushes your hair of course! He won’t leave any marks on you besides the one at your hips because of his hands—he does that to respect Bangchan. Or, the marks on your neck because of his fingers when he is fucking your throat with his cock. Or on your buttcheeks because he can’t help but spank you. But he will be glad to see how you marked his body *wink*

[tojisun]

Hiii could you please do a Sukuna x Gojo x Toji fluff? The plot will be up to you but please make it fluff i had too much angst for today TwT And please only make them love reader only and they're like just sharing her XD Anyways thats itt, thank youuu

HII! im so sorry it took so long, but ahhh i hope you’ll like this! <333 i enjoyed writing this fr!

fic exists in a ‘no curse/curse user’ au!

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i. The meetup 

Satoru checked himself in the mirror, brushing at his white fringe before shooting his reflection a smile. Muffled laughter peels off behind him, but Satoru ignores his bastard of a best friend to keep on studying himself. So what if he wants to show off to your other boyfriends to let them know that he is the best of them? Frankly, Satoru thinks that that’s a perfectly normal reaction, considering that he was the last one to date you.

“Ya think the other men just gon’ let a twink outdo them?” Suguru asks, legs propped up on Satoru’s headboard, looking at him with bored eyes as he chews on his packet of Hello Panda. How he can do that while laying upside down is beyond Satoru.

He rolls his eyes at Suguru. “You think any pretty boys are twinks, Sugu.” He flashes him a grin. “Which means you think that I am a pretty boy.”

Suguru scrunches his nose before chucking a biscuit at him. Satoru manages to catch it with his mouth, anyway. “Pretty annoying, is what you are.”

“Fuck you, Sugu. Fuck you.”

“No thanks.”

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His jaw drops at the sight of two achingly familiar men. Similarly, the others let out a drawn out groan upon seeing him which, rude, but also understandable.

“Y’ve got to be kiddin’ me,” Toji murmurs, crossing beefy arms and glaring sharp emerald eyes at Satoru. You poke at Toji’s bicep in response, quietly tutting, but Toji just huffs like a brat.

“Sh’ve known at this point,” Sukuna, who gained more tattoos within the one-year duration that Satoru has not seen him, grouches. He juts out a thumb, pointing at Toji. “At least you’re not like him, I guess.” He shoots a cheeky grin your way, and you giggle, far more amused with the situation. 

Satoru almost lovingly sighs and melts at the sound of it.

Toji rolls his eyes at the remark as he wraps an arm around your shoulder, pulling you flushed to his side. This time, Satoru laughs out loud, giddy and incredulous at the same time. 

“Holy shit,” he says, wiping away the phantom tear of laughter from his eyes. “Who knew, huh? Baby’s got a type and we can’t really blame her.” He winks at you as he says this, before laughing loudly again when you flipped him off.

“Fuck you,” you say, pouting. 

“Please do,” he replies, revelling at the way you quickly flushed, before ducking away to hide behind Toji’s bigger frame.

Fuck. That’s actually so cute.

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ii.The Groupchat (“BAN SATORU PERMANENTLY”)

(beloved = y/n ; child support = toji ; emolord = sukuna ; disney princess = satoru)

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Beloved (6:22 AM)

who invented mornings

and why m i not wKing up cuddled to any one kf u

Child Support (6:27 AM)

im omw

Beloved (6:30 AM)

!!!!!!

💗💗💞💕💕💓💖💖💗💗💞💗💞💗💞

Disney Princess (7:41 AM)

@god when will it be my turn :(

emolord (7:46 AM)

Read ✓

Disney Princess (7:47 AM)

i fucking hate you sm 

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Child Support (12:09 PM)

whose car we using to go to shokos party?

Disney Princess (12:10 PM)

suguru the bastard busted mine so i cant really offer

emolord (12:10 PM)

“suguru” sure

Disney Princess (12:11 PM)

theres no photographic evidence of the ,,, incident so yea me n the homies are blaming suguru

Child Support (12:12 PM)

no one needs photographic evidence for us to know you’re a shit driver

Beloved (12:12 PM)

^ 

i love you toru but the first time u drove me around, i had to buy tylenol from the gas station 

Disney Princess (12:14 PM)

i love you too baby 🥹💘💘

Child Support (12:14 PM)

he really just ignored everything else from that message

emolord (12:15 PM)

he has selective reading too lmfaoo 💀 

Beloved (12:16 PM)

SHEJWJDJ CRYINGF

ok but @Child Support we can use my car <33

Disney Princess (12:17 PM)

i call shotgun!

Child Support (12:18 PM)

dont you live the closest to shoko?

we literally would pick you up last

Disney Princess (12:19 PM)

idc

i ☝️ call 📞 shotgun 🔫

Beloved (12:19 PM)

toru omfg 😭💗

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Disney Princess (3:01 AM)

im really so fucking hot

why cant yall get on my level

emolord (3:03 AM)

attached.img

Beloved (3:03 AM)

JESUS CRHISF SUKUNA

IM PISSINF MY PANTS HELP

Disney Princess (3:04 AM)

🍹😋.

Beloved (3:04 AM)

😟.

| Child Support banned Disney Princess for 24 hours |

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iii. The Carnival Date

A new round of excited squealing erupts from your throat as Sukuna wins you another plushie. The worker grumbles but effectively shuts up at seeing three mutual glares directed at him, your boyfriends’ menacing looks sewing his lips shut as he silently hands you the jumbo sized unicorn plush. 

You squeeze the plush to your chest, peering up at your boyfriends through your lashes with a wide smile. They smile back, their hands full of plush toys that they all won for you from the other tents, happy to spoil you.

“Thank you so, so much!” You say, giving them another cheerful smile.

Sukuna ruffles your hair as Toji passes you your cup of strawberry soda. You hum in delight, sipping softly, and you are so sure that Satoru just cooed but when you turn to him, his expression is schooled back into his usual small smile so you just narrow your eyes at him in suspicion.

“Anythin’ else you want to play, love?” Sukuna asks, pulling you to his chest and resting his chin on the crown of your head. 

You hum, biting your straw as you glance around the packed carnival to look for what else to do. You all had ridden the exciting rides a while back, although, surprisingly, Sukuna refused some of them.

(“I’m too good for those,” he said and you pretended that you cannot see the way he is tightly gripping your jacket in fear. 

“Okay, baby,” you told him, pulling him down to press a kiss on his cheek. “See you in a few minutes.”

He nodded, eyes crinkling as he smiled. “Have fun f’r me, yeah?”

“Yeah,” you whispered, feeling weak to the knees at the pure adoration in his eyes.)

But the lineups are all long now, and you don’t have any more energy to wait. You pout.

Toji chuckles at seeing it. 

“C’mon baby, let’s look around. Who knows, maybe there are more tents we can play in.” He steps forward to tuck a lock of your hair behind your ear before cupping your cheek delicately. “Bet I can win more against these assholes.”

“Excuse me?” Satoru gasps beside you.

“You’re the asshole,” Sukuna adds, reaching out to flick Toji’s forehead. Toji smacks Sukuna’s shoulder in retaliation.

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iv. Gentle Sunsets 

— “I love you,” Toji says as he softly sits you on the marble countertops and steps in between your legs. You smile just as tenderly, pulling him close. He comes easily, melting into your embrace, and burrowing his face on the crook of your neck. 

— “I love you,” Sukuna whispers as he pulls you on his lap, sliding his warm palms underneath your shirt and rubbing from the base of your neck to the small of your back lightly. You hum, nuzzling at his jaw, relaxed and putty. 

— “I love you,” Satoru utters as he leads you to the bed where he tucks you two under the duvet cover, his legs tangling with yours. He lays your head on his arm, breath hitching when you snuggle closer. 

— “I love you,” you sing, standing up on your tippy toes to press kisses from his cheeks to his nose, chuckling when it makes his nose scrunch. Your smile grows when he kisses you just as much. 

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[parasolids]

💕💞💓💗💖💘💝

TGHERES SO MANY LOL TY

💕 - what fictional duo do you and your partner/best friend act like?

i, uh, don’t know that i have either of those lol

💞 - are loving someone and being in love with someone different?

….i mean, yeah? there’s more than one type of love. i love my mom. i’m not In Love With my mom

💓 - do you gesture when you talk?

yes but in the weirdest way possible lol. its like drawing/sculpting in air so i can see what im thinking

💗 - do you blush easily?

apparently yes, it’s more noticeable than i thought too

💖 - how do you show affection?

i think a lot of people think i mostly show affection via hugs and yes i only hug people i like but also a lot of it is just… i really like hugs. a lot. 

i’d say i mostly show affection by being like Lets hang out lol and like…. if im asking you a ton of questions or not saying a lot it means i like hearing you talk

💘 - do you get crushes easily?

not really? i can’t actually tell whether i get crushes at all or not

💝 - what’s the best gift you’ve received?

couple summers ago i was in india and we went to visit the village my mom was from. one distant cousin got hold of the fact that i like bears and bought me this ENORMOUS pink teddy bear. like half my size. keep in mind, this was in a rural area in a third world country, i don’t know how far out of her way she had to go to find that thing. so probably that, but it’s twofold.

we had to leave it behind because we’d driven down there and our car was already completely packed with our luggage - barely any room to move, even. it simply would not fit in the car. the bear itself wasn’t even my style that much but the fact that someone would care that much was like.... i really didn’t want to leave it behind. but, y’know, what else can you do? my mom promised she’d make it up to me by getting me another teddy bear of my choosing.

i was gonna wait til we got back to the us and ask for a bewear or one of those tiny head bears because i love those things to death, but a few days later we were in a mall in mumbai and i was a mess: wearing ugly uncomfortable clothing, dead tired, phone dying, feeling like a stranger in my skin. super antsy. needed to fidget. couldn’t, we were in public. we were with another family with a 9 year old daughter so i took her to the toy store bc she wanted to go, and i saw pikachu and i also wanted to go lol. 

anyways we’re casually browsing and i just see this... PERFECT teddy bear. soft and round, tan brown fur, a winter scarf, mischievous smile, weird dimple. it’s love at first sight. 

i tell my mom this is the bear i want and she tries to get it for me but the kid’s mom insists on getting it for me instead. i name him kuma and he is the cutest little thing ive ever seen. i spend the rest of the day clutching him like a child, squeezing him and petting his fur when my skin starts to feel uncomfortable again. i don’t care if it’s weird it’s exactly what i needed.

i still sleep with that bear and he’s a symbol of love to me but also he’s just soft and round and fluffy and a weird little critter. love him to death.