#hey remember when a different solo artist

[lornrocks]

My deep, dirty secret, is I think a certain solo artist who used to be in a group has made good work but is also…just fine. All the people insisting they are the greatest artist of all time and no one can compete are allowed to have their opinions but damn dude, they’re complaining this artist (who has like 32 Grammy wins?) didn’t win a certain award today and I’m like. Okay, they have 32 Grammys. Who gives a shit.

[staplersalad]

I did it all backwards.

I listened to "Now and Then" a couple of days after it was released because I saw the channel "The Beatles" posted it- hey isn't this that old famous band? I vaguely remember back when those "guess the logo" games were all the rage, an illustration of the abbey road album cover was shown for The Beatles on a "guess the artist" version.

I was so blown away by the song, it was beautiful. I listened to it for days. I read about john's death because a lot of the comments talked about him. I'd definitely read about his death in the past because reading the wikipedia article gave me deja vu, but it must have been just another drop in the ocean of content I consumed.

2 months passed, I listened to the song sometimes, discovering new scenes in the music video because I never actually sat down to watch it, I'd just play it in the background. I remember reading a comment about how John said that Ringo wasn't even the best drummer in the Beatles- what a dick! anyway who's Ringo? [john never said that btw, one of many false Beatles stories]

In February, somewhere between the 22nd and 26th- I had the brilliant idea of going to their yt channel and looking at their other songs. I came across the music video for "Only Sleeping", god what a great song! And after finding out about Em's painstaking work- what an incredible piece of art! I'd listen to the song for days, this time with my eyes glued to the music video in mesmerization.

Then it's all a blur. I first listened to all their popular songs on the channel, then the less popular ones [relatively obviously], then each album, each song, each interview, suddenly my pinterest was flooded with their pictures, I fell in love with each of them: John, Paul, George and Ringo. I was fascinated with John and Paul's dynamic. I was fascinated with the group. I suddenly sympathized with all the One Direction and BTS fans. I'd never felt this way for an artist before.

The funny thing is, the Beatles being so big meant that their music probably reached your ears before you even knew them. I remember recognizing "Blackbird" from "Boss Baby" and "Beautiful Boy" [john solo] from "Mr. Peabody and Sherman". I remember singing "and I will sing a lullaby" in the same tune as "Golden Slumbers" when I was younger.

I remember hearing "Yesterday" for the first time, my lips parted in recognition, some part of my brain recognized this as a famous song. It was like if someone played you an extremely famous classical piece, you wouldn't know know it but you'd recognize that it was famous. I was absolutely floored by Paul's work.

Then I'd re-read about john's death, this time it felt so different. I'd almost forgotten about it all really. I'd watch the get back documentary, I'd read more about events from 1970 to 1980, I'd get into their solo work, I'd fall in love with even more music, I'd read about their families. I'd learn to adore them but not put them on a pedestal because they were imperfect human beings [perfect musicians however].

Now john and george's death hit twice as hard. John's death angered me tremendously. I'd look at paul and ringo's recent interviews and pictures, finding it crazy how all this media I'd consumed at lightning speed all happened decades before I was even born. I'd learnt of 4 people, grew infatuated with them, learnt of their flaws, the fights, the breakup, the love, the friendship, the music and mourned their death- all in weeks. And I still have so much to listen, watch and read-it's brilliant really.

I remember listening to "Now and Then" much later, I'd avoided the song like the plague. I remember my eyes welling up, taking in john's voice, the lyrics, the four of them on my screen jumping ages. Just a couple of weeks changed the entire meaning and love I had for a song I just happened to stumble upon.

[issdisgrace]

SUPRISE

WARNINGS: None

I feel my nerves ise as the usos music hits and I walk out with them. 

“Coming to the ring accompanied by award-winning special effects artist Y/n L/n, the Usos.” The announcer rambles off. The crowd cheers as we make our way down the ramp into the ring. Mics are quickly handed out. 

“I know you guys were expecting for me and Jimmy to come out and cut the promo for our upcoming match. But tonight is different.”

“Very different.” Jimmy adds.

“Yes. Tonight’s special. You see, on top of being a special effects artist this tattooed and pierced grizzly bear is the man that’s captured our younger brother’s heart and tonight he’s going to finally propose to him and officially become a part of the family.”

“I know, finally, after all these years. It’s been too long in the making.” I silently laugh at Jimmy. It’s true it’s been a long time in the making. 

“Agree 100% and right now we got Sami bringing him out here.” The big monitor changes to a view of a camera backstage. Sami walks into the locker room happily with the blindfold in hand.

“Uce, I got a surprise for you.”

“I hate surprises.”

“You like this one, I promise. Just put this blindfold on.” Sami says holding the blind fold out to him. Solo looks at it, then backs up at Sami, contemplating it.

“Come on Uce.”

“Fine.” He grumbles, putting the blindfold on. 

“Alright, I just gonna lead you a way to your surprise.”

“This better not be a trap.”

“I wouldn’t do that to you, Uce.” And it’s true from what I’ve seen and heard Sami’s real nice. We watch the monitor as Sami guides him through backstage, almost running him in to a couple of things, but ultimately it’s Sami that runs into Roman. 

“Hey Roman.”

“Why is Solo blind folded?”

“I got to take him to his surprise.”

“Mmm I’ll help. Don’t need you battering up my number 2 on the way.” Roman then helps Sami guide Solo out to the ring without almost running into everything. They guide Solo up the steps of the ring and help him in. They guide him to the middle of the ring and I get down on one knee and pull out the ring. Jimmy hands me his microphone as Jey hands his to Sami.

“You can take off the blindfold, Uce.” Solo reaches back and unties it. It falling to the ground completely upon seeming me down on one knee. I see his eyes visibly soften and my heart begins to warm.

“Solo Sikoa, you have made me the happiest man in the world. You’ve been with me through thick and thin. You supported me and stood up for me. I remember the day I met you like it was yesterday. It was the first day of 9th grade. I was sitting at the back of the class. Everyone was too scared to approach me because of the piercing and dark clothes. But not you. You came up to me and introduced yourself with such confidence. I appreciated that. And then you sat with me at lunch when no else would and asked me what I liked. You didn’t shy away from me just because I enjoyed the macabre. You embraced it. You embraced me.

I remember the first time you stuck your neck out for me. I remember the first fight you got into because someone was talking shit about me. I remember cleaning your bloody knuckles like how I did to mine so many times. I remember taking you home and your mom freaking out about you getting into a fight. I remember the talk your father gave me on the way out. Telling me to stay away from you because I was in trouble. And to be fair, I was and still am trouble. I remember how you disregarded your parents and still hung out with me despite everything.

I remember feeling so lucky. I still do feel lucky that I have you. You have been my rock for day one. And I remember the first time I asked you out. I remember the drive-in the movie theater we went to and what movie was playing. And I remember what we both got at that dinner we went to after. I remember kissing you for the first time that night. I remember the fireworks that went off in my stomach that still manage to be just as potent now as they were then. I remember the first time you introduced me as your boyfriend and how your mother practically fainted. I also remember your father telling me to get my shit together and figure out what I was going to do after we graduated and if I didn’t, I wouldn’t be allowed to see you. I’m glad he did that because that was part of the reason I decided to pursue special effects. I also was madly in love with you and couldn’t think of life without you and I still feel that way. So I buckled down and started to pursue special effects. I wanted to prove myself to you and your family. I wanted them to see that I would take care of you. That I was the man for you. And all my hard worked payed off and I remember getting my first job as an assistant to Greg Nicotero. I remember how proud you were of me. And I remember how excited you were when I landed my first job as a lead special effects artist. 

I remember so many things. And I’ll continue to remember these memories and more until I’m old and grey. And I hope I can remember this moment for years to come. So Joseph Yokozuna Fatu, will you continue you to make me the happiest man and marry me?” He just nods, wiping his tears away with his right hand. I place the microphone down and I grab his left hand and slide the ring on to it. The crowd goes crazy as I stand up and kiss him. I smile into the kiss as the others set off confetti poppers. Pulling away, I look down at him, wiping away the excess tears.

“I love you with all my being.” I say.

“I love you too.”

[kanmom51]

Yaaaaaaas peeps

Seven is coming...

Ehm... and there are going to be 2 versions of this one too... an tame one and an explicit one. Red lights here we come...

And guess what?

We have a 14 July release at 13:00 KST.

Gotta like those JK coincidences.

I love the use of words in the description: "invigorating" as in getting the blood pumping and juices running, because it's so damn hot?

I'm super excited, can't wait to see what JK has installed for us.

That said, I feel the need to address a couple of things that have been making the rounds in JKK blogs.

Yes, stupid y/n anons and their shit asks all being smug and confident about absolutely nothing they actually know. And I wouldn't entertain this shit, but I do want to make a couple of points here and this is a great opportunity to do so.

Let's start with the rumour, yes, it's a rumour and not confirmed even if in their asks they say it is, that the song is about sex. I mean, I could make the assumption that having 2 versions of it could mean that.

Although explicit can mean use of swear words, you do know that? But let's run with it being explicit as in all about sex. 7 days a week of invigorating, blood boiling (in a good way), juices running, sex having. Let's just say it's about that.

Does that mean it's straight sex? Cause I can assure you that our y/n anons have definitley not gotten their hands on the lyrics, have not seen them or read them or heard the song. So, let's scratch that assumption, why don't we?

I would actually like to teach the anons a lesson in life, maybe something they don't know yet, perhaps due to ignorance and immaturity, but hey, here's a little wittle secret... queer people, you know, gay, lesbian, bi, etc., they do have sex, with each other (yeah not each other each other, you know what I mean, lol), A LOT, all the time, sometimes, gasp, 7 days a week.

Mind blowing, right?

So I guess we established that a song about sex does not necessarily mean a song about straight sex.

Moving on.

2 translations. From both we learn that this IS NOT a song that JK wrote. This is a song he was given to record, a song he listened to, liked and decided to do.

This is super important. Because this is what makes the difference between a song being personal, having a personal meaning, something he wrote and created, and we know that JK writes about his personal experiences, and a song that is not personal, a nice song he liked and wanted to record. Not that unsimilar to many of his covers or songs he likes to sing when he's doing karaoke.

And perhaps this is also why it's being released as a single and maybe not part of his solo album? Although it could be on the album, but I kind of feel that for a first solo album, he would want to do more personal. Maybe that's also why he told us the album is not done and this is something totally separate. Who knows. What we do know though, is that this was not a song he wrote.

Anyway, this is important, because this song will be JK as a performer more so than a creator, if you get where I'm going here. The song is not a personal creation or envision of himself in real life. It's him singing, as an artist, a song that someone else wrote. People sometimes forget that as artists not everything you sing about or act or write is personal or about yourself or your life or your experiences. We know, from JK, that when he writes he does take from his own life experiences, his writing is very personal, but in this case this isn't a song he wrote, and I know I'm repeating myself here, but this is very important to understand and remember.

Ok, moving on to the MV and the claims, again rumour based, of Sohee being in it.

Let's establish a couple of baselines here shall we?

First of all anons did not see the MV so they have zero clue who's in it and what it's about. Every word they spew with regards to that MV is one big hot y/n assumption based on unsubstantiated rumours.

Second, as mentioned, we don't know who is in this and what it's about.

Now let's play around a little, make this a fun guessing game of what ifs and so whats, lol.

What if Sohee is in the MV? Ok, what if? I think the anons need to go look up who Hun Sohee is and what's been the talk surrounding her (cough queer cough) before rejoicing that she might be in JK's MV.

Btw, clear example of a very possibly queer actress acting in straight rolls. And if you want to go the other side of this, flip the coin and assume she's straight, well you will get a straight actress who has acted in a queer movie. Either way works for me to prove the point.

What if the song is about sex? I guess we kind of discussed this before, didn't we?

Now let's add the two together.

What if the song is about sex and Hun Sohee is in it? To that I will add a question to the anon/s that most definitley have not seen the MV as of yet and will be happily (or maybe not too happily) be watching it with us on the 14th of July 2023, Silver day, at 13:00 KST: What if the MV is filled with sex, all kind of sex, straight sex, queer sex, upside down or inside out sex, (whatever your fancy as long as you are a consenting adult)? What if JK is singing about sex and the MV is about sex, a whole lot of it, with a whole lot of it going around him, and not all of it is straight? You know, just like Troye Sivan's MVs. That would be a very interesting what if. Can't wait to hear their answer to that one.

Oh, and here's the kicker what if.

What if it's none of the above?

What if all of this is a load of bull rumours and Sohee has nothing to do with the MV (she was in LA for a fashion event), and there is no sexual content in the MV, and it's all about the listener using their own imagination? What if?

I guess we will ALL just have to wait and see.

I will tell you this though. Whatever Koo does, I trust him. Y/ns will always assume what they want to. I don't believe that he will intentionally play into it. This man is not straight. Period. He is a smart young man, who has been telling us for years now who he is as a person, and he will not backtrack on that just to fulfill the y/ns dreams about him because that's what the company might want. So whatever he does might get their juices running (let's be honest, not might, more like will), but it will be done in a way that allows for interpretation. This is of course an opinion and nothing more, but hopefully one that will prove itself right.

[louisisalarrie]

Hi! Let me start by saying that I am a follower of your blog because I enjoy your take on things. Not because I hate follow you like some people seem to do. With that said, I’m very excited you get to meet Louis on Sunday! How fun for you! But I have an honest question. Not one to argue with you or even question you. But something I’ve wrestled with myself. Since you know all of the lies we’ve been fed about F being his son, and you see the gaslighting that goes on regularly from Louis to his fans. Most recently, the infamous chicken parm tweet, how do you separate that as a fan of his? How do you get so excited to meet him without wanting to look him in the face and say please stop lying. Maybe it’s just me. I’m just having a hard time with him continuing to lie to us and scold us and then out of the other side of his mouth he says he has the most freedom he’s ever had. That just tells me he choosing to lie and use F for his gain. His gain means money and fans. I don’t know… again, not trying to judge you. Just trying to understand and figure out where my brain is. I hope you have a wonderful time at the show!

Hey anon! Thank you for the kind words. It’s perfectly normal to feel this way, and a lot of us have these moments as well! So don’t stress x

I think what’s important here overall is to remember that record labels, managers, everyone involved in Louis’ team make money from Louis’ fame and publicity too. It’s certainly not just louis, and a huuuuuge chunk of it goes towards them, particularly if he’s signed to a Global Deal which I imagine he would be. Remember how in one direction they were worked to the absolute bone? Barely having a break, nonstop touring, recording every second they could (a good example is that one scene from This Is Us where zayn was asleep for 10 minutes before he was woken up to record more vocals) and they were just kids. They signed a contract without a personal lawyer due to X Factor rules, were taken advantage of, and used as a money making machine for S*co and his bunch of monkeys. But I’m sure you’re already very aware of this, so let’s fast forward to 13 years down the track with this in mind…

Louis was roped into a wild stunt contract, also known as bbg, with a half assed promise of more freedom for him, a potential end result of him and harry coming out, and probably a bunch of other promises and opportunities thrown his way if he signed off on it. He received solo PR while still being in a band, meaning he had a bit of a safety blanket if the band broke up and wouldn’t immediately disappear from the public eye (like Liam did). And you know what? BBG was probably meant to go for a much shorter time than it has. I imagine the proposed stunt, and the alterations it’s had over the years, look pretty bloody different. But without going into too much detail on that stunt specifically, Louis is incredibly smart in the way he communicates with us. He does juuuuust enough to meet his contractual obligations. He knows what he can get away with. He knows his fandom is majority larries. He knows what we talk about and what we say.

The consequences if he didn’t sign this contract? Probably pretty dire, if I’m honest. When you have one of the biggest labels in the world (the other two are WME & Universal) throwing you a bone, it’s pretty hard to turn it down. These 3 labels (also known as The Big 3 in the industry) have a monopoly over the music industry and can make or break someone pretty damn quick. So I imagine he would’ve signed to cover his own ass and not lose his whole career, because he’s been manipulated into that. The music industry can be evil and brutal and it’s all about money. All about PR.

Particularly in this day and age where we are oversaturated with celebrities, media, etc., it’s hard to stand out from the crowd. The Big 3 are good at what they do, and that’s why they are The Big 3. They know how to do PR, they know how to write contracts and get artists to sign off on them, they know how to dangle carrots and make deals that benefit themselves greatly (oftentimes more than the artist). So being in louis’ position, it was more like he was coerced into it, if that makes sense?

Sorry, im tired from work and rambling now, but have you heard the phrase “separate the art from the artist”? It’s an interesting take that some people agree with, so they can enjoy that artist’s music while ignoring their faults/bad choices/problematic behaviour, because the music is what’s important. I don’t necessarily agree with that take, and I’m not gonna go down a rabbit hole on it, but I do think some fans do this with louis. And that helps them still enjoy the music, without getting involved in bbg or any other stunts, ya know? It helps to just think about the cutie happy wholesome louis that we know and love, and not his PR image. And that is absolutely fair enough, I just can’t do that because I know too much and I’ve been here for too long and I WILL see this through hahahah.

Okay now to actually answer your question, about me personally, of course I would want to tell him to leave his contract and get a better deal and come out with Harry and trust that his fans will still love him and he’ll still have a career, but that’s not possible. It’s not possible because I’d get throat punched by security, but it’s also not possible because that’s not realistic. He knows what we all say, and what we think of larry. He understands our frustration and can literally see it online every day. His hands are tied, until they’re not. And we can’t do anything about that. So it’s just about appreciating him and his music because we can’t control anything else.

So, just remember that he’s beautiful and sweet and caring, watch some old one direction videos/larry deep dives, and take a breath because we know him, and he’s not this asshole that his image has radically become.

[mollydastoertchen]

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[bugflies00]

remember at some point last year when everyone started animating that vaguely uncanny clip of tommy holding the red solo cup in the august 2021 hotel stream and going "hey you're finally awake" and everyone would title the animation tommyinnit.exe and your entire youtube feed was just different artists doing it

[jinhogae]

Hey! b.a.p anon here. Thank you so much for replying to my ask. @suuho recommended your blog to me after I asked him this question, and I can see why he did that. Your reply was concise but quite informative.

I wanted to know more about b.a.p because I recently re-watched a couple of Peak Time, and that reignited my Jongup obsession. Last year when I watched PT, I didn't think of looking him up. Thankfully, this time I did. But, finding information on Google about someone is different from seeing them through the eyes of a fan who knows/has known them for a long time. So, thank you once again for replying to my ask 💚

Speaking of my Jongup obsession, he seems to me to be a very soft-spoken and introverted person who transforms into an untouchable, unbeatable idol on stage. Can you tell me a bit more about him, what he is like as an idol and a person (i mean, how you see him as a fan)?

i am soooo glad my ask could help a little! it's been a while since i've gotten to sit down and really talk about b.a.p so that just made my day lmao and i am so happy it was informative! tbh i can totally recommend just putting on their albums on your streaming service of choice and seeing if you'll enjoy them and jongup's solo stuff is great too as it is, so you are definitely not lacking for quality there either.

also big mood to seeing him on peak time! i remember my brother watching the show and he was like, hold on, moon jongup just walked into the room ??? and then to see sunggyu and gikwang both lose it over him because they've known him for ages and he's also just that performer was very amusing and just super sweet too. like, yeah, you better lose your shit when he's on stage! and to me he's always been this way. of course, he had to grow into his stage persona but he is a beast of a performer. the way he can embody that sensual level of performance so readily and sooo well these days is a testament to his growth as an artist! i remember someone joking recently that no one took break-up song performances as seriously as b.a.p (or infinite) and that person was right ..... jongup graduated from those mv sets with a degree in drama and serving cunt and honed his craft ever since.

and i like that this is his stage persona while off stage he really is a bit quieter, but also just warm and charming, and very funny and supportive around his fellow b.a.p members. i feel like he's always been understating himself a little and gets a bit bash when people hype him up, but he's getting better at talking about his aspirations and the effort he puts into his work. but, yeah, sometimes he's too humble for my liking off stage like live up to that talent! and he just seems like a well-rounded guy off stage as well, in the fandom he's always been known as the performer and that is what carried over and i think he is finally really settling into the role that was given to him a decade ago. he is growing into himself! he is becoming a more realised person. like b.a.p debuted incredible young (jongup was 17! zelo was 16!) and these men are all just settling into their personalities as adults more and more. and you can tell that with jongup gaining more confidence as who he is, which is great! to me that is the best thing, that i see him being a more realised performer and a more realised person, instead of the persona they put on him and any of the other member when they debuted.

[collectionofsinglefathers]

HEY. I NEED HELP.

I’ve been trying to remember a song for so long and I CANT FIND IT. I can’t remember the artist, when it was released, I can’t even remember any lyrics, though I know what the song is about. It’s an indie song (possibly indie folk? But don’t hold me to that, I’m not very good with more niche sub genres), and I do know that the latest it could’ve been released was 2014, but was most likely released before that. The song is about two brothers, one more responsible who worries and helps bail the more reckless and irresponsible one out of trouble and takes care of him. It’s possible that the song is called Gold, or is on an EP or album with Gold in the title, but it’s also entirely possible that Gold isn’t in the title but is in the title of a different song by the same artist. I know it’s a song with a male vocalist, but I’m not sure if it’s a band/group or a solo artist. If anyone has ANY idea what song this could be, please PLEASE help me out! It’s been actual weeks and I’ve tried EVERYTHING I CAN THINK OF.

[vorrentis]

M Reader x Jeongyeon - Apology Accepted

Jeongyeon is a solo artist in this one.

WORDS: 8949

ENJOY!!!

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Sunlight washed across the bedroom and eventually, your eyelids opened.

You exhaled deeply into the pillow, feeling the warm dampness of your breath pushed back onto his face, and then you moaned, half-asleep as you stretched and rolled onto your back.

You expected to feel or hear a voice, one that had once lived in your fantasies, then your dreams, and then for the past year; your reality.

But once you'd turned over, to overlook the other side of the bed as Jeongyeon wasn't there.

"...Again?"

You checked your phone to see if anything...nothing.

A small smile crept up on your face thinking maybe she's in the living room.

Sitting up and putting on a random shirt, you left to the living room as you looked around Jeongyeon's apartment.

"Jeong? Jeong?"

You called out, but nothing.

VIBRATE VIBRATE

Your phone alerted you as you took it out and saw a message...a message that made you sigh.

Left to JYP for a bit for an emergency meeting. I'll see when I can make it back okay.

'Are you joking?!'

You took a deep breath and texted back

No worries, take your time

"It had to today too then." You said to no one.

Today was a special day.

Today was supposed to be their day alone.

You shook your head.

"It's just a meeting, it probably won't take that long anyway." You said to yourself as you fill your mind with happy thoughts and went to make breakfast for yourself.

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10:21 AM

Jeong, you doing okay?

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No response.

"Maybe the meeting extended."

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12:44 PM

Jeong...please answer

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No response.

"Damn it..."

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2:12 PM

Jeong! Where are you?!

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No response.

"Okay, don’t panic...m-maybe she’s caught up in work...yeah, work...."

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5:28 PM

Jeong please answer

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No response.

You threw the phone on the sofa and groaned in frustration.

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7:38 pm

It's already late and Jeongyeon is still not back from JYP.

As you glanced at the clock above the table, you looked down at the, now most likely, cold dinner you have prepared for her and you.

You made a variety of her favorite dishes and planned a lovely inside date with movies and lots of cuddling.

Here you were, sitting on the couch in one of your sweaters blankly staring at your phone, hoping for some kind of sign that she has remembered and is just running late.

But there is nothing.

Not a single word.

Recently she has been very busy composing new songs for her and working on her newest album.

You couldn't blame her on it, it's her job after all and you have nothing to do with it.

Right at the start of your relationship, you have promised yourself not to interfere with her career, and as much as you hate the lack of time you both have together at some points throughout the year, at least she was happy.

In return, that made up for it.

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But it's been like this recently too.

A bit too much in your opinion.

Eventually, she was out more than she was at home.

It was like this the past couple of months or so.

She's been leaving more often than usual and not saying a word to you when she returns either.

Normally it's a 'hey', eating and then she falls asleep.

You never really had to complain about it, since it's work for her, but you couldn't help, but be a tad bit...frustrated.

Especially today.

But you never showed it in front of her.

You took it, but it was getting to you as the night came closer. You figured waiting it out, but this took, but this took the cake.

It seemed like she didn't even arrive home nor called or returned your texts the whole day.

Glancing at the time once again, you decided that if Jeongyeon is not going to come to you, you'll go to her.

And with that, you quickly took your car keys and rushed out of her apartment.

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You made your way to JYP as you tried to come up with different ways to approach this to Jeongyeon about today.

Was it going to be civil?

Or something bad?

However it's going to go, it was safe to assume that she has forgotten about today, but you'll keep yourself in check.

After managing to park the car in the now mostly empty car park after showing your guest badge to the gate, you glanced around and saw...her car.

'What the hell.'

You shook your head as you entered the building.

The first thing you noticed was the receptionists at the front desk. She looked up and smiled at you.

"Hi (YN). You're here late." The receptionist told you.

"Yeah, uh, have you seen Jeongyeon?" You asked her.

"I saw her enter in the morning, but I didn't see her leave the place. I don't know exactly where she's been though. You finding her?" She asked as you nodded.

"Yeah, I'm a bit worried. I'm going to go looking for her...thanks Rin." You said as she bowed slightly to you.

After that, you went inside the halls of JYP and went around to look for Jeongyeon.

You went towards the sound booths...nothing.

You went to the dance studios...nothing.

"Hmm...where else...oh yeah."

You went out of the elevator and down the corridor until you came across the door with a cafeteria sign above it.

After stepping inside, you can see a group of people sitting on a table, clearly having a good time as they were eating and drinking.

You looked closer to see the members of Twice...and on the right side of the table was Jeongyeon.

You sighed...figured as much.

Since her exit on Sixteen, Jeongyeon trained herself to become better than she was back then.

It took an incredible amount of training, but it paid off when JYP signed her under his label.

She wasn't very popular as the other groups, but she was trying her hardest to succeed as well.

She and Twice also hung out a lot too since she came here since they had a starting friendship and it only grew from there.

You didn't know how to do this now.

Should you go ahead and talk to her still...or till she gets home.

You figured the latter was the best choice and you were about to leave when-

"(YN)?"

You turned to see all the girls looking at you as you waved.

Jeongyeon then came over to you with a surprised look.

"(YN)? What are you doing here, it's late, and you shouldn't be here." She said to you as you looked shocked.

'I shouldn't be here?!'

"I could say the same thing about you, I was worried, it was getting late and you weren't answering your phone and-"

"(YN) relax. I was busy with Twice." She said pointing at the group.

"Busy? Jeong, you were gone since nine in the morning." You were agitated but kept it down as Jeongyeon rolled her eyes.

"Well I had to attend a meeting as I said...then they showed up and I rehearsed some songs and then I hanged with the girls and-"

"Hold up...y-you hanged with them? So you could have come home then…" You were defeated.

"Of course. We were discussing something large in a project we have. I’m not supposed to tell you but…" Jeongyeon couldn’t hold her smile, “we discussed me integrating into Twice. Them and I. Isn't that exciting?!"

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"That’s why you stayed...all day." You mumbled as your heart started to break.

You should be happy...you should be...but today was not the one day to be happy about the news.

"Well JYP called me and them and we discussed our plans, had a celebration and we danced and sang some of their songs and-"

"But why for the whole day?"

"Well it was only for a couple of hours, but we had a lot of fun about it and then we just hanged out and lost track of time." She said so nonchalantly.

You were getting upset.

"...But...but what about today Jeong?"

"Again with today? What the heck is today (YN)?"

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She then looked shocked, as you seemed to look a bit angry as your face turned to glare at her.

"What's today?!...what's today?! Are you kidding me?! Jeongyeon I waited for you all day! No call, no text! Nothing!" You had enough and decided to lash out with a fierce tone.

Jeongyeon rose her hands and lowered them to calm you down.

"Okay I'm sorry (YN), I was distracted, but you said no worries in the morning." She pointed at you as you scoff.

"In the morning yeah for the meeting. I didn't know you were going with Twice and especially for the entire damn day! You made a promise that you wouldn’t let work interfere with OUR time right?!"

Jeongyeon then glared back.

"So? Doesn't mean you can't tell me how or what my day goes? They are my friends too (YN). I'm sorry for making you worry, but I'll make it up tomorrow." Jeongyeon crossed her arms.

Your insides were boiling.

Their hectic lives started to put a strain on you.

Jeongyeon, however, didn't seem to care.

They now call less and speak less when they are not at home.

You still loved Jeongyeon with all your heart but she was not making it easy for her.

You tried to make an effort to see her but it was beginning to become clear to you that Jeongyeon was not doing the same; in fact, it was like he was pushing you further apart.

Especially today for god's sake...TODAY!

And you were hoping Jeongyeon would be with you all day long with a lovely romantic day...but now with this surprise tour that she has sprung, you saw your future with Jeongyeon become a distant dream.

"Sure...just like all the other times right Jeong?"

"(YN)-"

"It wasn't just today Jeong...it's been like this for a while now along with our relationship." You pointed out as Jeongyeon stood there, "It's just I didn't expect you to be so distant."

Jeongyeon looked appalled.

"Distant? (YN) I do try to spend my time between you and work. I'm sorry if work gets piled up for me." At this point, Jeongyeon was trying to keep herself in check, but it was failing.

"Piled up? Jeong you do nothing, but sing and dance!"

Jeongyeon was steaming now.

"Sing and dance?! (YN) don't be stupid, it's much more to that!" She pointed out as you realized what you said.

"A-alright alright I'm sorry...but really Jeong-"

"You know ever since you moved in with me, you’ve been acting clingy when I am not around, but especially nowadays and I'm sick of this attitude that you are having."

You blinked a couple of times.

"Attitude!? You serious Jeong? I miss my girlfriend! I miss the woman who I would do anything for! I miss the Jeongyeon that I love! What happened to that Jeongyeon?"

Jeongyeon was shaking her head in disbelief.

"That Jeong-oh my god (YN) could you stop whining! Sure, I spend some time away, but this is my home too. JYPE is my work too!"

"Well, I'm sorry! I thought we could be at your home and we could finally talk and spend time together. We barely spent even two days alone together straight this month and I miss you. I miss waking up next to you and I miss being able to talk to you." You poured your thoughts to her as she shook her head.

"I get it (YN), I understand that we're dating, but you don't have to be this adherent to me knowing that then!"

"I'm not-"

"Then can you stop being annoyed about it?! It's just one day (YN),” Jeongyeon huffed and turned on the spot, “I'm done with this okay. I'll see you tomorrow." She said walking to her group who was staring at you both.

"Tomorrow?! Jeong?! What the hell?!"

She didn't turn around as you huffed some air and marched to her.

You grabbed her shoulder as she turned her body and stared at you.

"What the he-"

"Jeongyeon...do you even know what today was?!" You asked cutting her off.

"Why does it mat-"

"Just answer me."

"Friday? Fuck I don't know (YN)." Your eyes dropped to the ground.  "What the hell is so important about today?! Huh (YN)?!"

“...forget it, I guess it wasn’t important to you after all.”

You shook your head as you turned around.

"(YN)?! (YN)!" You heard your name as you walked out the door.

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TIMESKIP

23 Minutes Later

Jeongyeon entered her apartment about twenty minutes after your little spat.

She was nothing, but frustrated and angry about their little encounter and she wanted to finish it off.

"(YN)? (YN) you around?" She called out, but nothing.

She looked in every room, but you weren't there.

Jeongyeon then went to call you on her phone.

She saw your numerous messages and calls and she did blame herself for that back at JYP to try to apologize, but you weren't answering then either.

"We're sorry the number-"

"Great..." She muttered. "Get's mad when I'm not here, but when he's gone...whatever."

She then went to the kitchen after trying to contact you.

She opened the fridge to get a bottle of water...when she spotted a brown box in the corner in front of the water bottles.

With a sigh, she picked up the box and instantly felt it is a bit heavy.

It was something inside as she placed it on the counter.

It didn't have a label, just two strings holding it close.

She undid the strings and opened the box.

She gasped...

It was a cake.

A black cake with white frosting on the top and around the cake.

A white frosting heart was also marked on the top.

Her eyes ever so slowly widened...

Her breath started to have paused...

Her body started to shake...

For it wasn't the cake that made her gasp...but what's written on it.

Jeongyeon shook her head as she took a step back and thought.

"...N-no...no n-it can't...it's hasn't been a yea-...oh my god...Jeongyeon you stupid dumbass..."

She quickly picked her phone up and went towards her contacts.

She quickly scrolled to her lover's name and furiously tapped it as she held it to her face.

Jeongyeon heard the ringing as her body was shaking in full guilt and shame.

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"We're sorry-

Jeongyeon hanged up and tried again.

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"We're sorry-

Jeongyeon hanged up and tried once more.

"Please please (YN) please answer, god how stupid I was." She muttered at no one as her emotions were getting to her.

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"We're sorry-

Jeongyeon hanged up and tried a third time.

SLAM

She slammed her hand on the table.

"Please!"

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"We're sorry-

Jeongyeon hanged up and once more.

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Ten times...

Ten times Jeongyeon called you.

Four times in Jeongyeon started to panic.

Six times in Jeongyeon started to hate herself.

Eight times in Jeongyeon stated to cry.

Ten times afterward, she gave up and went to find you on her own.

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ONE WEEK LATER

Jeongyeon plopped down onto her bed with a sigh of sorrow.

It's been a long week, between her practice and some events with fans and finding you.

Jeongyeon spends the entire week finding you in her spare time, little to no sleep, but she didn't care.

She tried everywhere that you could have possibly gone to or wherever she has told you.

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You're not together anymore.

You're not hers she thought.

Jeongyeon bites her tongue at the thought.

It's been nearly a week and she's still striving to find you.

A week since their argument.

How could she forget?

The one day...the one milestone that's very important in any relationship.

Their anniversary.

No wonder (YN) was so fed up with her...she was spending the day with her friends than with her boyfriend.

Not only that day, but the month as well leading up to it.

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If only she could turn back the time.

How can she be angry at the one she loved.

At the one that made her happy for the year?

At the one who managed to keep her grounded with the hectic life she lived.

At the one who took care of her and assisted her in her career with encouragement and kind words.

She felt so incredibly stupid at the whole argument, but (YN) was right. She was so busy with her idol career that it completely took over her life with (YN).

The thought makes the ache in her chest worse, so she opened up her photos instead, sifting through the album of you together that she refused to delete.

One in particular makes her stop swiping.

She was kissing your cheek, arm tight around your neck, and you had on the huge grin that makes the world that much brighter.

She sincerely hoped that you were still smiling like that, even if she wasn't the reason behind it anymore.

Jeongyeon then takes a look around the room.

She gets up to look through your possessions.

You didn't need much when you were here with her. Pretty much clothing and a few items here and there.

Most of your clothes were still neatly folded in her drawers or hanged in the co-closet you two had, the rest of your stuff was on her desk or in the living room.

She gently touched the fabric of your clothing as she just thought of you...

It seems a little obsessive to have kept your belongings after you'd gone, but there was no way she was going to do anything with them...she kept them for having the chance that you might return...actually you did need to return.

Besides your phone, you pretty much left everything you had here with her.

As she stroked a (favorite color) shirt, she felt the softness of it as it went in between her fingers. Jeongyeon then took off her shirt as she pulled your shirt out of its hanger and changed into it, feeling the fabric overcoming her body as she inhaled whatever traces of your fragrance was left.

She then looked over to the desk where you mostly worked on your writing.

Besides the laptop, there were a few pictures lying about, some of your belongings, and some books neatly arranged.

Jeongyeon had already looked through your laptop hoping for some sign or location, but it wasn't much help...

When you moved in, you had kept a journal to yourself, and curiosity got the best of her.

So she had left it at that and hasn't looked through it for privacy reasons.

But this was different in that her heart was longing for you.

Maybe she could find something of you in your writing?

Jeongyeon carefully lifts the smaller book into her lap and removes the two bands holding it together.

She slowly opens it and opens the first page.

Her lips parted, inhaling sharply at the familiar handwriting.

She read through until halfway and nothing was coming up. Just about certain days on how they went...until something caught her eye.

I can't believe I met Jeongyeon.

The Yoo Jeongyeon.

Damn, it's like a dream or something and then we just went out after meeting at a coffee shop.

Today was one of the best days I've had in a very long time, and I have her to thank for that. I hope we have countless more dates in the future like this. She looked stunning as well.

The date in the top right corner shows a little more than a year ago.

'Our first date' She thought

Did you write this after you got home that day?

Questions were being thrown left and right inside her brain, but Jeongyeon immediately sets it aside and gets to the next few pages until she spots her own name again.

Jeongyeon and I went on another date...I was actually worried since it was a while since we met up, but we met up again and I had again the time of my life.

There aren't enough words to describe how much that one date meant to me.

Jeongyeon felt bad...that was a week's worth of training back at JYP...even back then she was occupied. It went on to how the date went and Jeongyeon just skimmed it as she went on to another page.

How you managed to hide these right under her nose is nothing short of incredible...then again, she's never here.

Another page and Jeongyeon winced at the words.

Well, it's been three nights since she left on her tour, and although she calls every night I can't help but miss her.

I miss her obnoxious laugh and our warm moments.

I miss the adorable twinkle in her eyes that comes from smiling so big.

I miss her touch.

I miss her hand in mine, her body against mine.

I miss those loud snores next to me in our bed.

I miss your kisses.

I miss everything.

I really do.

Jeongyeon couldn't stop herself.

Her whole body's shaking now, tears surfacing uncontrollably.

She continues on.

While I do miss her, she seems to be having the time of her life judging from her smile and laughter with the audience

I can't let my emotions ruin in the way of it all

Seeing her happy and achieving her dreams are worth it

Jeongyeon tears through the rest of the book in minutes, reading each passage about her.

Each and every page seemed to be about her and your time.

She reached the last page with writing so quickly that for a while she sat staring at it, hesitantly reading it.

One year.

One year with the love of my life

I can't fathom my life without her now, it's crazy to think about the impact she had on my life. It's crazy that we're about to have our one-year anniversary dinner tomorrow! Tonight!

It's only been a year since we both started to date and I probably sound crazy but I'm so deep in love with her.

I've fallen hard for her hard, and I hope that she feels just as strongly as well. I'll find the courage to tell her soon, but for now, I can only write how I feel. I'll do whatever it takes to keep you happy, always.

Here's hoping that they'll be many more after this.

Maybe I'm insane in writing this, but I know she's the one!

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A few teardrops fall onto the ink.

"I do too, (YN). I feel what you feel too..."

Her voice is broken, but she needed to say it out loud, needed to make it tangible. She loved you with all of her beings, and this book only reinforced that fact.

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Last week was such a mistake.

She shouldn't have ever let you alone.

She couldn't help but cry again as the drops smear the page.

"(YN)...please come back..."

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KNOCK KNOCK

She instantly turned her head.

Was that the door?

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

"I'm coming! I'm coming!" She yelled out as she ran towards the front door.

She looked through the peephole...and her whole body froze.

She immediately opened the door, her body rigid upon sight of the unannounced guest.

"Jeongyeon." You said in a boring matter.

Jeongyeon felt her heart drop a bit after using her full name in a stale tone.

"(YN)?! W-where have you been?!" She asked desperately.

"...A friend of mine." You said softly.

"A fri-...never mind. (YN) What happened that night, listen, I'm sorry I forgot...honestly." Jeongyeon said to you.

"Yeah…" You shrugged at her as Jeongyeon wasn’t going to lose this.

"I'm sorry we fought that day too. C-can we just talk about it?" Jeongyeon asks, looking expectantly at you.

"..."

"Please?"

"...I understand that work means a lot to you Jeongyeon, I get it. And I was in the wrong too...your career and tours are coming and I did promise that I didn't care about any of that. But every time I see on a screen Jeongyeong...I can't help, but to think that I want you right next to me."

"..." Jeongyeon didn't say anything as she knew what you were feeling as she just read that moment ago.

"The both of us just sitting, talking, drinking, eating, watching, cuddling, and many more things I want us to do." Jeongyeon felt nothing, but pain. "But…I thought about us the whole week and...and I don't know Jeongyeon. I don’t know anymore,” Jeongyeon felt her heart tore, “I just don't know if we can continue with our relat-"

"NO!"

You jumped as she jumped into your body and held you with such intensity.

"No! No please don’t say that! I've never regretted something so much in my life than saying what I was saying to you back in JYP and now what I've done to you. Please, (YN). You have to believe me!" She spoke in your shoulder, looking at the blank wall behind you. "Yes, I'm a dumbass for what I said and forgotten but will you please, please hear me o-out?"

Jeongyeon's voice cracks, and you couldn't keep up the tough guy act anymore.

You hugged back and Jeongyeon appreciated the fact that you did, but she pulled away, still in the hug.

Her throat clogs up as the tears in her eyes were gathering up.

"(YN), I get it, I get how much you were missing me, god it pained me to not see you when I woke up…not even a week and I couldn’t do any regular duties when you weren’t here. I was just lost without you. I know it's selfish of me and I really hurt you but you're the first person I want to talk to whenever I do anything and-...I’m sorry." Jeongyeon sniffles in front of you and she finally caught her breath. "I'm sorry that work got the better of me...and I was trying to get the better of it, but not thinking about you in the process…"

She cupped your face and stared into your eyes.

"Please don't say that we can’t…I promise I will sit down with you and talk about this again…I can’t have you gone (YN)...I can’t…." She spoke, voice shaky, and you sighed once more, eyes trained on you as you looked down.

"...you say that Jeongyeon, but that’s what we did and look at us…I don't know Jeongyeon. I don't know if we can..." You communicated sadly, looking away from her eyes.

She squeezed your cheeks harder.

"No don’t say that! (YN), I'm so sorry. Please, sweetie, look at me," Jeongyeon said softly.

“...”

"Please..." You heard her once again; this time felt more anguish, more hurt, and softer as it rang in your ears.

You mentally sighed and you eyed her.

Tears were flowing down her face and you couldn’t help but conjure yours too.

"You are the perfect man for me. You are kind, considerate, amazing, open-minded, and your feelings for me are real. You aren't two-faced or fake. I can look at you without any fear of betrayal. I can come to you whenever and wherever and talk about whatever with you and you're there to take it all." She was pouring out her emotions to you. "I know that you love me and I know that I've hurt you. But, I'll find time now for us...I really will. Please forgive me...and please come back..."

Never in your life had any woman ever said something like that to you.

You loved her and now she was declaring in no uncertain terms that she loved your right back. You felt like she had betrayed you.

How could you trust her again?

Trust may be given once, but after that, it has to be earned, didn't it?

Could you give her your trust twice?

More significant than any other consideration, she was begging you not to break her heart. That really told you all you needed to know.

When the woman you love asks you something like that, you give her a second chance.

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"...okay,"

You could see her facial expression soften.

You watched the hope return to her eyes as she slowly smiled at you with her tears still on her face, too choked up to say anything clearly.

"Just don't forget next year please." You asked of her.

You didn't get a reply back as she hugged you in a vice grip, placing her head in your chest as she shook her head.

"I won't. I won't." Jeongyeon was now sobbing in your shirt as you just hugged back.

Did you intend to go back with her?

Honestly...you were split on it, you couldn't lie.

I mean the whole year wasn't a total bust. The times that she was actually free were the time of your life with her too, but if this issue were to be a continuous problem...then again no relationship is perfect.

"Alright. don’t cry okay Jeong. I'm sorry too Jeongyeon...I was acting like a child and upset with the lack of us-"

"No (YN), it was all me." She leaned back. "I know it seems like I've been ditching you, but know (YN) that my feelings for you are always the same...I love you...I really do love you (YN)."

She leaned in tentatively for a kiss and you couldn’t help but return it as she brought you into her living room and shut the door with her foot.

The kiss was tender at first and then grew more passionate.

She opened her mouth and you pressed your tongue between her lips.

She stroked your tongue with hers.

It was a battle of dominance as she then broke the kiss, breathing heavily with passion.

She was breathing heavily as were you as you she realized that this was what you were missing...it felt so good to kiss you.

She sighed sadly as she realized now too what you were going through for the past month.

"Jeong?" You said her name in a soft tone that Jeongyeon felt music to her ears after hearing it from you.

She stroked your cheeks lovingly as she removed them from you.

"(YN), please let me show you how sorry I am and how much I love you." She said.

You saw her eyes as they were filled with...

"Jeong?"

But you were cut off breath as she removed her shirt, revealing her pure lace white bra to you.

Your mouth widened slightly.

"No...I want to. It was a milestone for us (YN)...you were ready for the whole day and I just ruined it...I want to do this. As an apology and to make up for every lost time I made us lose in the process."

She then lowered her shorts as she was now in her white panties as well.

She then grabbed your face once more as she closed her eyes in bliss as she kissed the man she had fallen so deeply in love with while placing her delicate hands on your face to stroke your cheeks.

You two continued to kiss until breaking for air and Jeongyeon took your hands into hers and led you down the hall until they came to your room and ushered you inside before closing the door.

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You and Jeongyeon embraced once again with Jeongyeon pulling your face close to hers while you wrapped your arms around her small waist and your lips met once again while both of your eyes shut in bliss from your lips meeting once again.

As the two of them kissed and made out, you leaned in closer to Jeongyeon and her ample breasts squished against your strong chest Jeongyeon shivered and she could feel her nipples begin to harden.

As her breasts pressed against your chest and her hands glided across your muscular back, both lovers’ moans filled the room as your tongues licked into each other's mouths.

You and Jeongyeon slobbered and tasted each other's tongues and your hands began skimming up Jeongyeon's side while her hands continued feeling up your backside until they broke the kiss and Jeongyeon began helping you remove your clothing off of you until they fell to the floor.

Jeongyeon immediately spotted your erect cock and knew you wanted this too.

Kissing Jeongyeon again, they moved to Jeongyeon's bed and she sat in your bare lap facing you as you began groping her breasts through her bra.

You nuzzled the tender nape of Jeongyeon's neck until your nuzzling became teasing licks that made Jeongyeon moan with delight while her eyes fell onto your growth.

Your hands came to the bottom of Jeongyeon's top and you undid the clip on the top, loosening it and it fell off of her exposing her ample breasts of your girlfriend to you.

She set her bra to the side and kissed you once again while you palmed Jeongyeon's chest and began to fondle the pliable orbs.

Jeongyeon moaned from your gentle caresses while she licked your tongue and the softness of her breasts in your hands caused your manhood to twitch before she reached out and took ahold of it.

She was fascinated by the intense heat she felt radiating off your now swollen length before she began stroking you and you felt your fingers grip her nipples as the rest of them continued groping her ample flesh.

Thanks to your tonguing and squeezing of her tits, Jeongyeon soon felt her loins burning with desire for you as you continued to tease her and soon your pre-cum began running down Jeongyeon's fingers.

They soon rearranged themselves to where Jeongyeon was out of your lap where you could still play with her chest and she was able to stroke your cock.

Freeing her tits, you slowly licked them in circular motions causing her moans to escalate to lustful volumes that were music to your ears and she held your head against her breasts.

You kissed her nearest orb before opening your mouth and planting your jaws on her tits.

Jeongyeon mewled as you gently gnawed at her breast and you noticed her legs quaking in arousal and smirked.

You took one hand off her breast and slid it down her abdomen into her bottom, which by now was soaked from how aroused she had become, and you began tracing your fingers onto her folds.

Removing your hand, you marveled at how much of her wetness was gathered on your fingers and you moved back before taking your mouth of Jeongyeon's breast.

She watched as you slid off her underwear leaving her as bare as you were and Jeongyeon's blush deepened at being exposed like this.

With that thought in mind, you moved back to face her entrance before carefully spreading her folds.

Your tongue infiltrated her pussy and began slithering against her inner caverns and Jeongyeon moaned in ecstasy, her cries spurring you on and urging you to continue.

Your finger's wagged and wriggled on her clit as you wagged your tongue around inside of her and tasted her orgasmic fluids, savoring the taste of her as you did.

Your tongue ventured deep into Jeongyeon's caverns and slobbered on her aroused innards.

Jeongyeon couldn't believe what was happening to her.

She had never felt pure euphoric pleasure like this before, especially with all the other times you both had and an uncharacteristic lusty smile appeared on her face as a result.

Consumed by the pleasure coursing through her body like fire and wanting more, Jeongyeon gripped her breasts and began rubbing them against one another while you licked into her wetness.

Jeongyeon's eyes glistened with lust as she felt her clit and folds being teased by your magic fingers while your tongue wormed and swayed inside of her walls, causing her legs to cringe in pleasure from your teasing.

Your hands slid under Jeongyeon's rear end and lifted her lower body off the bed while she freed her chest to grip your (color) hair.

She kept her fingers buried in your hair and held your head to her womanhood as you licked her pussy and managed to keep her lower body off the bed.

Your manhood throbbed as you licked into her warmth and her eyes squeezed shut as her moans reached an uncharacteristically lewd level.

You removed your tongue and entered your index fingers into her tightness before you began to thrust them into her and you were amazed by how tight she felt.

You soon ceased your thrusting to begin licking her folds once again and Jeongyeon lustfully smiled at the effect all of your teasings was having on her and her lust-riddled grin only grew as she felt herself nearing her release.

The blond-haired woman's eyes glistened with lust as your tongue continued to work its magic on her caverns while your fingers groped at her ass.

You moaned while slobbering and tasting her inner walls until she gave a final howl of pleasure as her orgasmic fluids burst out of her wetness and onto your tongue.

You eagerly licked up her release and gently set her down once you were finished.

She panted and looked up at you with eyes full of desire as her eyes fell on your literally throbbing manhood.

She licked her lips and began crawling forward in anticipation.

"Jeong?" You asked, seeing the hungry look in her eyes before she gripped your erection.

Jeongyeon focused on your swollen pride and began pulling on your hardness.

With your cock already being highly aroused and Jeongyeon's light touch, you started moaning lowly and she smiled at this as her instincts told her that she was doing the right thing as she stroked your erection.

Following another hunch, she moved in closer to lick at the center of it while wrapping her fingers around it and placing her thumb underneath the head of it.

Jeongyeon pressed against the spot while pumping and stroking it.

She licked your shaft while palming your testicles with her free hand and bounced them about in her hands.

You moaned as Jeongyeon's tongue slid across your manhood and she toyed with your testicles before she slowly blew on your erection.

You groaned as her cool breath hit your wet throbbing manhood and Jeongyeon smiled at your reaction as she began licking the sides of your shaft.

Soon an idea clicked into her head as she pulled back and stood on her knees and squeezed her breasts together on your manhood. You shivered in pleasure as Jeongyeon rubbed and kneaded her large mounds on your hilt.

She began swirling her tongue around the head of your hardness and licked your emerging foreskin as she stroked her breasts together on your cock.

This motivated you to begin thrusting your hardness into Jeongyeon's tits and she held her jiggling breasts on your pride before planting your mouth on the tip.

You moaned as she massaged your throbbing cock with her ample orbs while sucking on your length.

She moaned as she pumped her mouth on you as you drove your cock into it.

She licked your erection and kept her breasts constricted around your cock and she felt your cock twitch signaling that you were close to the end of your rope.

Jeongyeon sensed this and took her mouth off of you and slowly blew on your erection and stirred her tongue on your cock before returning to sucking you off while stroking you with her tits.

Her timing proved to be perfect as you groaned one final time and your cum splattered on the inside of Jeongyeon's mouth, to the point that her eyes widened at how much of it there was.

Despite this, she managed to get it all down without any trouble thanks to all of the times she'd spent with you.

Both parties breathed heavily from what they'd just experienced and as they looked into each other's eyes, they could tell that they both wanted more.

Both having the same thing in mind, Jeongyeon lay back on the bed and held out her hand to you in an inviting manner.

You crouched down and planted your hands on either side of her while your cock was in front of her pussy.

Jeongyeon sweated nervously at what was about to happen and you rested your forehead against hers and gazed deeply into her eyes.

Gazing into your eyes and seeing the caring and reassuring look you'd always had for her was enough to calm her nerves like always.

Now knowing that Jeongyeon was okay, you slowly eased your cock into her folds.

Once you were fully within Jeongyeon, she smiled at you and nuzzled you as a signal to thrust into her while she began bucking and shaking her hips.

She caressed your cheeks as you rammed into her hot walls and you caressed her breasts with your thumbs brushing onto her tits.

You and Jeongyeon rested your foreheads against one another and your eyes gazed into her as you shot your manhood into her core while you squeezed and played with her quaking breasts and her walls of flesh ground your thrusts as she worked her hips against yours.

Jeongyeon virtually screamed with pleasure and her eyes watered as tears of ecstasy formed in her eyes and she wrapped her arms around your neck with her legs wrapping around your waist allowing you to pound deeper into her tight caverns.

Your cock shot into her wetness and pounded against her innards with great force.

Jeongyeon moaned and held onto you as you thrashed inside of her walls while your palms continued squeezing and fondling her heaving breasts as sweat drizzled down your forehead.

Your sweat mixed with Jeongyeon's and you felt her nails beginning to dig into your back while her toes curled, and her eyes started to roll back from her deep state of ecstasy.

The look of pure ecstasy on Jeongyeon's face turned you on more than you were expecting, and you kissed her once again and you started licking tongues with her once again as you pounded and thrashed your manhood into her core.

Your tongues licked and rubbed against one another and your fingers massaged the beautiful idol's mounds.

A muffled squeal came from Jeongyeon as you began squeezing and pulling and tweaking her bobbing tits.

Sweat rained off the pair onto the bed and Jeongyeon placed her hands on your face and began caressing your cheeks affectionately as your cock lunged forward into her tightening insides and you released her breasts to frame her face and deepen your kiss.

They caressed one another while your eyes shut from the pleasure, and you moaned into the kiss as your cock throbbed inside of her tightening walls.

Her breasts flattened against your muscular chest and she stroked your cheeks as you rammed into her core while your tongues clashed in a lustful duet of passion with your tongue coming out on top.

Jeongyeon ground your cock as it shot forward into her walls and you moaned as she became tighter on your expanding growth.

Her blush grew in size and your lips stayed together as your hips continued to grind in tune with hers and you raged into her grinding tightness and it twitched within her pussy.

You thundered into her warmth and both lovers moaned into your shared kiss until a louder squeal was heard from Jeongyeon as her walls finally coiled around your cock.

Your semen splashed into her womb and flooded her insides while half of it poured onto the bed.

Her eyes opened once again, and they shimmered with lust as her juices blended with your seed while flowing from her entrance.

Their kiss came to an end just as your orgasm did and they heavily panted as Jeongyeon removed your hardness and rested against you for the time being.

"You're the best (YN)..." Jeongyeon breathlessly said and you chucked at her.

"Only for you Jeong...only for you..." You bragged and Jeongyeon just grinned.

"Well then...I hope you're not done just yet are you?" Jeongyeon challenged you and you chuckled again before placing Jeongyeon on her front and she balanced herself on all fours before you placed your hands on her rear cheeks and returned your erection to her tunnels.

Jeongyeon shivered in joy from this before you began shooting your length into her moist tunnels while her breasts swung forward.

The sound of flesh colliding against one another sounded throughout the room as Jeongyeon's rear smacked into your crotch and she tightly held onto the sheets.

Sweat rained down both lover's bodies as you slammed your manhood into her core and her eyes continued to glow with lust.

You moaned at Jeongyeon's increasing tightness before you placed your chest over her back and cupped her jiggling breasts and began caressing her ample chest while never slowing your pace for a second.

She turned her head to you and pressed her lips against yours and both sets of eyes gazed lustfully into each other as you pummeled your cock forward into her warmth and it rubbed against her walls.

You rubbed your tongue against hers and both opened your mouths and slid your tongues into each other's mouths while you licked the roof of her mouth.

Meanwhile, she licked the underside of your tongue and both moaned into the kiss as you caressed and squeezed her breasts together and buried your fingers within her jiggling orbs while excessively groping them.

Jeongyeon blushed wildly and her mind became blank with pleasure once again as she fell onto her front and you decided to grip her waist instead.

Her eyes closed tightly as her breasts bobbed against the bed while you shot your hips forward and slammed your manhood into her core.

Jeongyeon's lusty smile returned to her face as her lover jerked your cock into her wetness and your impacts reached deeply into her core.

You, being sweat-drenched, had enough energy as you thundered into Jeongyeon's pussy while you closed your eyes with a smile of deep ecstasy on your face as another orgasm approached and this kept your excitement as high as could be.

You groaned as your balls tightened along with her walls on your manhood and Jeongyeon continued to moan.

At last, her innards coiled around your erection and both her juices and your semen sprayed out of her before pouring onto her bed.

Without removing your still-hard cock, you pulled Jeongyeon into your lap and turned her around to face you to where she was now straddling your cock.

You placed your hands back on her breasts and she placed her hands on your shoulders to steady herself and without any hesitation, you began pummeling into her wetness while she shook her hips on top of you and ground you while you caressed and squeezed her mounds as they jiggled and bobbed over you.

Jeongyeon leaned her head down and kissed you once again while keeping her hands steady on your shoulders.

Her eyes reunited with blue eyes and your tongue reacquainted itself with Jeongyeon's while she thrust down onto your manhood.

They let out muffled moans as your hilt flew into her innards with a lust-fueled barrage of thrusts and her walls ground your thrusts.

Your cock slammed and banged into Jeongyeon's womb while she wiggled her hips together on you.

Her ass smacked against your lap as you shot your cock up into her warmth and she mewled from this.

Your manhood crashed into her core as you toyed with her breasts and excessively groped her chest.

Despite how much sweat the sex with you was causing her to work up, Jeongyeon felt just fine as her energy guided her in the sex as she continued sending her warmth down your erection and the two of them were so wrapped up in pleasure that the outside world seemed like nothing to them.

Your tongues danced in a lustful duel as you twirled your thumbs around her tits as they swayed over you.

Jeongyeon moaned as she rode her lover's manhood and you thundered your length into her caverns.

Your fingers massaged and groped her breasts as they bounced and flew forward before your seed erupted from your cock and filled her womb completely.

You both groaned at the filling and feeling and both just collapsed, with her on you and you on the bed.

“Wow…that was…incredible…” You muttered as Jeongyeon started to chuckle.

“Hehe, so incredible…that I can go for one more~” She allured as you grinned.

The next moment Jeongyeon lay on her side on the bed and motioned for you to come closer.

Not needing to be told twice, you laid behind Jeongyeon on your side setting the two of them up in a spoons position and she arched her leg into the air. You moved closer until his crotch was near hers and you slid yourself into her, feeling her insides once more.

You moaned at the pleasant feeling of her warm and tight innards enveloping your cock while Jeongyeon moaned from how big you were inside of her and from the temporary pain of her walls being stretched.

Jeongyeon moaned loudly and her body rocked back and forth as you started pummeling your erect cock into her warm core and your hand snaked underneath her side to palm her breasts and began to toy with the mounds.

The idol kept her long, slender leg arched high in the air, and you held it up with your right arm as your cock crashed into her walls and Jeongyeon felt it slamming deeply into her pussy.

You huskily growled as you mercilessly thrust your cock into Jeongyeon's pussy and her moist walls ground you in return for your thrusts.

You rubbed Jeongyeon's jiggling breasts as they heaved from the power of your thrusts and your fingers massaged the sizeable orbs. Jeongyeon had to admit, you really knew how to pleasure her, your raw instincts were enough to drive her insane with lust.

“Ohhh~! (YN)! Ah I’m gonna cum again!”

Jeongyeon loudly moaned and her eyes turned white with ecstasy as your cock jetted inside of her warmth and she whimpered as you toyed with her breasts and every time you did so, she became tighter around you.

She looked back as your crotch collided against hers and she looked into your eyes that were darkened with lust as you crushed your lips to hers in a lust-fueled kiss.

Your eyes contacted as they kissed and wildly rubbed their tongues in a lust-fueled battle for dominance.

Jeongyeon's right hand reached back and began to lovingly trail her fingers underneath your chin. Her warmth grew tighter on your cock while grinding it as your hardness shot into Jeongyeon's warm innards and you squeezed her breast lustfully causing her to moan into the kiss.

Sweat dripped down both lovers' bodies and the lewd sound of flesh smacking against flesh filled the room as you continued to drive your vein-covered cock into your lover's warmth. With her free left hand, Jeongyeon placed her hand on your hand to help you toy with her breast as her other mound jiggled freely about.

“Oh fuck (YN)! I’m gonna-”

“Mph! MPH!”

Finally, you and Jeongyeon separated lips as they came to moan together as her innards coiled on your cock and your vein-covered cock spasmed and filled her up with your cum.

Her face lit up in a lewd expression of absolute pleasure as you filled her up to the brim and the lustful smile remained on her face as their fluids oozed out of her warmth.

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Both laid there as they huffed and puffed, but Jeongyeon wasted no time as she took you into another kiss again as you gladly returned it.

She pulled back and saw your smile as she felt it make her completely whole again.

"That was the most amazing thing I have ever felt in my life (YN)..." Jeongyeon said breathlessly.

“...Me too...I promise to never leave you so suddenly again Jeong," you stated to her as she smiled too.

"And I promise each day to make time for you...no matter what." She conveyed to you as you nodded as well.

"I'm sorry Jeong." She shook her head.

"I'm sorry too (YN), let’s just move on from this okay...I just want to forget about it." She asked of you with you nodding.

"Of course."

Jeongyeon curled herself and brought her body into yours as she hugged you to the best she could.

“Thank you…I love you (YN).”

“And I you Jeong, I love you too.”

And both laid there till their bodies signaled them for rest and soon, both of you were napping in each other’s wakes.

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And that's that!

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[thetaekookcloset]

hey,

I like your very sane answers and maybe you have a better answer why Taehyung solo projects are not getting mentioned by bighit/hype. beside ITSFS where they actively get profit. I dont see the company showing support. am i overthinking ?

And a similar ask from an anon:

Hey, do you think the company treats tae unfairly comapred to others, idk if you've talked about it before but with all the gurumi drama, a lot of people have been saying that the company doesn't care for tae and that they aren't promoting any of his solo work. I honestly also feel like the company doesn't support him as much but I also don't really agree with everything everyone has been saying, I think they had way better conctracts the second time around and we also don't really know what goes on behind the scenes so I don't wanna immediately say that hybe hates taehyung and wants him to fail. I mean not that I stan a company, that's kinda ridiculous, all of the bts memebers could easily leave and probably even start their own record label, they are certainly rich enough and would succeed. Idk, what do you think?

I’ve been seeing a lot of thoughts like this around different social media over the last couple of days, and I don’t really know how to respond to it because I feel like we don’t really know much about it.  If Taehyung is getting less solo promo, couldn’t it be because he doesn’t want it?  Maybe he wants to be on his own and not followed around by cameras for everything, we really don’t know.

But also, like rumar said above, HYBE is doing promo for their own stuff, and I don’t really see that that’s definitely different from what they do for the other members.  Did they do much, if any, promotion for Hobi’s work with W Magazine?  If not, why would we expect them to do that for Tae’s Vogue shoot?  Why would we expect them to do anything for work outside their own purview?  Personally, I wouldn’t.

BTS are under them as artists at an agency, essentially, or even really a record label (it basically serves as both for them).  If they’re doing work and attending events outside the purview of HYBE, why would HYBE be all over it with their own cameras and whatnot?  That wouldn’t make sense. 

Taehyung’s appearance at the Celine show, for example, was something he did with Celine.  In the capacity of his agency, I’m sure HYBE was involved in helping to get it organized and getting him to where he needed to be and everything, but they probably weren’t there filming, you know?  And it’s also not the kind of thing that they would need to do promo for, because it’s not their thing.  The Vogue shoot is the same -- that’s Vogue’s thing, so it’s Vogue who would be expected to do promo.

I know HYBE did a BB for Jin going to that premier recently, but that’s the only one, right?  And hasn’t Jin been to more than one?  Maybe it just worked out for them to film for that particular event for whatever reason, or maybe they were more involved in making that happen, but again, we don’t know.

Ultimately, Taehyung’s success is HYBE’s success, just like BTS’s success is HYBE’s success.  For that reason alone, I don’t think it makes sense to think that the company would intentionally sabotage Tae or any other member.  It’s a company, the motives behind it are to make money, and the members succeeding in their endeavors is the way to do that.

I think a lot of people fall into thinking that their faves aren’t being treated right or aren’t being promoted as well as the others, but remember just a few months ago, everyone was talking about how Hobi wasn’t being promoted enough.  Now it’s Tae, and I assume it’s because he has a lot of his own things going on, but I don’t really know why we would expect HYBE to address all of those activities when they aren’t really HYBE activities.

HYBE does promo for their stuff, other companies do promo for their own stuff.  It’s just that they happen to want to hire Tae to do it -- probably because he’s his own promo.

[issaxcharlie]

Spectacular!

Pairing: Alive! Luke Patterson x Fem Reader

Summary: Inspired by Nickelodeon’s Spectacular! Luke Patterson needs the money for his bands demo, and miraculously, that same night he gets an offer to fix his problem. The catch? Rockstar boy has to join his school’s show choir and put up with their fearless Female Lead Singer. (don’t come here searching for accuracy remember it’s inspired by a movie)

Note: I had a lot of fun with this one, hope you like it! Oh and it’s a little long so keep it in mind +8k👀💜

Say this is not her scene would be to fall short, but she has to make sacrifices to find greatness. The first thing she notices when she walks into the little club, is that it's packed. The people look excited and somewhat desperate and she doesn't blame them. The pamphlet marked they were supposed to start at 8:00 p.m. and it's already 8:40. She makes her way carefully until she finds a perfect place in the middle of the room.

The musicians take the stage visibly anxious, especially Alex who cannot stop moving his hands trying to probably calm himself down. Reggie and the rhythm guitarist take their positions. They look at each other one last time before beginning to play the enveloping sound of the pop-rock song. The bass line sounds insane and she hasn't heard Alex play drums in years, he’s exceptional. They could both play without their singer all night and she wouldn't mind.

The space in the center of the stage that belongs to who she came to see today, completely empty. The bassist seems about to take the first verse when Sunset Curve lead guitarist and vocalist Luke Patterson appears on stage.

She has seen him multiple times in the hallways laughing with her childhood best friend, Alex Mercer and her lab partner, Reggie Peters, but she has never spoken directly to him. Still, it's hard not to notice how handsome he is and how much of a charismatic personality he has.

“I'm living my life just the way I like, they say I get a little too loud. Try to push me in a box, over analyze. But I'm never gunna turn it down”

His voice is enchanting and mesmerizing, a sound that immediately reminds her of the best rockers in history and his movements and energy are electrifying. In seconds the entire audience is jumping and dancing to the beat.

“They say never and I say right now!” Y/N analyzes him excitedly. The passion with which he sings and plays his guitar reminds her of when she is on stage, although the two of them dedicate themselves to totally different things, their love for music is the same. She definitely has a lot of work to do to polish him and make him the perfect performer she needs, but if there's anyone who can accomplish the impossible, it's her.

“No one's gonna stop me tonight! Thank you, we are Sunset Curve, tell your friends!” The presentation ends and Sunset Curve leaves the stage. The girl moves quickly to catch up with them at the back of the club, but when she finally arrives, screams can be heard from two of the members of the band.

“I know you don’t like me, Bobby. But trying to sabotage the show by giving me the wrong time is just the most stupidest thing you've ever done!” The guitarist looks furious, his muscles are really tense and Y/N can't help staring at his biceps way more than she probably should.

"This fight of egos between the two of you has to stop, we can no longer continue to be in the middle." The bassist cries out, tired of all the bickering.

“You no longer have to, Reggie. It’s time to decide. The lousy rocker or me. Remember that the money for the demo is mine before choosing... I'm not sure Patterson's lyrics can compete without the money to record them.”

The guitarist looks down at the ground, a mixture of anger and sadness on his face. Alex and Reggie turn to see each other for a second and then position themselves on either side of Luke, no sign of doubt on their faces.

“We’ll find a way without you. Let’s see If you find one without us.” Reggie declared with a little smirk. Bobby grabs his stuff and gets into his truck without looking back, completely furious.

"Some things Bobby was angry about are true and you have to improve them. You are not a solo artist, you are part of a band." Alex points to Luke as soon as the truck is out of sight, but before he can respond the blonde intercepts the girl at the door.

“Y/N?” The three of them turn to see her, Reggie smiles at her while Luke looks pissed off.

“Hey guys, I came to talk to Luke.” Luke frowns in surprise while the other two gape for a few seconds.

"Really?” Y/N turns with a murderous face towards her friend, who puts his hands in his pockets and begins to walk. “...Okay. Meanwhile Reg and I are going to figure out how to get the drums in Luke's car."

"If you come for an autograph please be quick, I don't feel like socializing." The guitarist declares to the wind, not wanting to pay attention to the stranger who approaches him in the middle of the alley, no matter how cute she looks.

“I’m not a fan.” She confesses in a firm voice, trying to measure the situation.

"Oh, then I'll go. See you later beautiful." He's about to leave when her voice stops him.

“Patterson, come back here!” There's something about her tone that makes Luke suddenly interested. He turns to see her carefully, her chin is up, her shoulders back. Her lips are press together and her eyes look determined and he can't help but admit that the confidence she projects is really doing something to him.

“2 minutes, firecracker.”

“I’m Y/N Y/L.” Faced with no comment from the guitarist, she decides to continue. “I need a male lead singer for my group and I think you might be the perfect fit, after I'm done with you, of course."

He’s unable to believe what he hears. “A band? I think you know pretty well I'm already in one.”

“It’s not a band, it’s a group. THE group If I can say so myself. Spectacular!” She affirms with the first smile he sees her that night, and he can't believe it is possible that she can look even more beautiful.

"Don't you think you're exaggerating a bit with the spectacular thing? At least tell me the name or what kind of band is." She rolls her eyes and he chuckles in response, thinking it was adorable and hot at the same time.

“I already told you, Spectacular! It’s a show choir.”

“Is this a joke? Did Bobby sent you?”

“No and no. I know it’s not really your style, but I’m telling you I can make it work. I heard a bit of the conversation you had with the band, the prize of Nationals is 10,000 dollars. I'm willing to give you half for the demo, if we win, obviously. And I can assure you we will if you accept and do absolutely everything I say.”

“Firecracker, are you trying to tell me that all I have to do to raise the money is put on some stupid cowboy or tiger-print outfit and humiliate myself in front of an entire audience with my best jazz hands? Wow, sounds like a dream!” Maybe he got a bit too sarcastic, but meh, as pretty as she is, she's still a stranger.

“My name is Y/N, and I'm not appreciating your tone of voice.” By this moment the girl seems tired of the musician, who feels the frustration in her and tries to be more gentle.

“I- I’m sorry. Thanks for the offer, but I don't feel as desperate yet as to end my reputation in that way. I hope you find what you are looking for, but that’s just not me. I'm just a guitarist.” She nods, entwining her arms against her chest. He admires her for a few more seconds and turns to his car, where his friends are already waiting for him to help with the drums.

Before getting behind the wheel he turns to her one last time, but she is nowhere to be seen.

Fights between Luke and Bobby weren't new to the band. The big-headed attitude of both collided practically all the time and things had been getting worse in recent months with the more overconfident attitude of the guitarist, but they never imagined that they would end up in this situation.

The days go by and the boys are running out of time. They have to deliver the demo to the Orpheum offices in two months so that they can be taken into account for the great concert they will hold at the end of the year presenting the best new talents in the city. All they've heard from Bobby is that he's trying to build his own band but without much success. Still, he doesn’t fold his hands and continues to try on his own.

The three remaining members of Sunset Curve are in Alex's room lying on the floor with their instruments around trying to think of solutions, when Y/N's voice coming from outside refreshes the blonde's memory. “What did Y/N want to talk to you the other day?”

“Who?” Luke narrows his eyes in confusion.

“Y/N? The captain of the school’s show choir? She went to talk to you after Bobby left the band. Small, fire in her eyes, a lot of attitude.”

“OH, Firecracker! So that group is our school's choir? that's even worse. She tried to recruit me, even offered me the money for the demo if we win the competition in which they will participate.”

“What? She wants you in Spectacular? What did you said?” Alex heard that his friend's ex-boyfriend broke up with her and joined last year's national champions, but he never imagined that she would try to replace him with someone like Luke. Luke is distracted by a melody and doesn’t answer his friend's question.

"Why does your mom always leave her music on when she leaves to work?" The music is definitely not his style, they are always usually pop songs or even songs from musicals, but the singer's voice is one of the most beautiful he has ever heard so it never bothers him.

“It’s not her music, is Y/N.” Alex responds, wondering what the young woman is up to since she is never usually home at this hour.

“Who?” Alex's eyes widen, not able to believe his friend.

“Really? I already told you!” The guitarist tilts his head and shrugs. “Firecracker?”

“What does firecracker have to do with this?” Alex opens his balcony curtains and the silhouette of a young woman singing and dancing through her transparent pink ones comes to their visions.

“She’s so good bro, I thought it was a record too.” Reggie looks at her with a big smile as Alex rolls his eyes at Luke.

As soon as he sees her, the musician is in a trance, admiring the grace and energy with which she moves, wanting with all his might to remove the pink curtain that does not allow him to see her properly.

The song ends and a well-known melody begins to play with prominent bass and drums. “Guys, shut up! I’m trying to hear her sing.”

“It’s not us, man.” Reggie answers almost screaming with how loud the girl’s music is.

“What do you-” Luke turns around and sees his friends with their hands raised, the cables finally connecting in his brain. "She is listening our song?"

"Not just listening, she's also destroying your career, her vocals are amazing." The black-haired boy adds, smirking and running to connect his bass.

Luke excitedly opens the balcony window and sings the pre-chorus as loud as he can to get the singer's attention. “Call me in the morning to apologize, every little lie gives me butterflies.” She immediately turns around and smiles at the guitarist's cocky smile. She opens the curtain and the window and her sunset curve t-shirt is the first thing the band notices.

“Something in the way you're looking through my eyes, don't know if I'm gonna make it out alive.” Luke sings seductively towards her, each word fully dedicated to the woman in front of him.

Reggie accompanies them with his bass while Alex looks at his friends incredulously, an "Are you fucking kidding me." Comes out of the blonde almost like a whisper when he identifies the shirt that the girl wears as his.

Both sing the chorus together and the chemistry is unquestionable. Alex had never thought of this two together because at first glance they seem completely different, but thinking about it a little more deeply they couldn't be more similar. They are both passionate, headstrong, live for the stage, and are ridiculously talented and confident.

“Fight so dirty, but you love so sweet. Talk so pretty, but your heart got teeth. Late night devil, put your hands on me. And never, never, never ever let go.”

The performance between the duo is playful, driving, sexy and intense and Alex and Reggie can't help but feel like they're interrupting a private moment. As soon as the song ends, the girl moves closer to the window, blows them a kiss and closes it.

"Where did that woman come from?" Luke whispers as he tries to catch his breath. Nobody had enchanted him so much just by singing, well, nobody had enchanted him, period. But she’s definitely something.

“She has been my neighbor since we were 6 years old, we used to be best friends but we both drifted apart when we entered high school. She’s amazing, the best performer in the city.” Alex informs him and then Reggie adds his own piece of valuable information. “She’s my lab partner. Fun, smart, beautiful, the whole deal. A true gem.”

“Answering your question, I said no to her offer. But I guess the group of someone this rad can't be that bad. And we really need the money." The drummer purses his lips and nods. His friend definitely took the hook.

"Honestly, I always wanted to audition, I guess the three of us could try in, to support you obviously."

“Of course man, she sounded desperate when she asked, and if the shirt and song is any indication she is definitely a huge Sunset Curve fan. She tried to fool me by saying she wasn't a groupie, as if that was possible after seeing us perform.”

His friends leave the house and Alex plays on the drums the secret signal he had with the girl when they were younger, a minute later the girl appears in her window with an amusing smile, dressed in her classic blue pajamas.

“Really?” The drummer chuckled and his friend’s smile grows even bigger, a little laugh leaving her lips. “The shirt was a nice touch. A little much, but that idiot must have fallen for it completely. I want it back by the way.”

“You can see right through me. You know the invitation is open, right? I would love nothing more than to have you there.” He has known her his whole life, and realized early on that she was just trying to get his friend's attention to reconsider her offer by raising his ego, and he honestly doesn't mind. It's about time Luke met someone of his caliber. Perhaps her influence could do him good.

“I- thank you. I guess we’ll see. See you tomorrow.” She blows him a kiss and closes the window. Tomorrow sure is going to be an interesting day, Sunset Curve joins Spectacular.

Having to face Spectacular! And telling them they still don't have a male lead singer who can compete against Damian was not easy. Her options are running out and she honestly doesn't know what to do to save them.

Damian on stage is the best, it pains her to admit that she has never seen anyone like him. At first she thought she could continue without him, but it’s becoming increasingly obvious that he is just impossible to replace.

Everyone continues to practice the routine, clearly discouraged after her bad news and it honestly breaks her heart. She knows how much the group means to everyone for different and personal reasons and she can't let them lose this. So whatever she has to do, she’ll do it so they can have the leader they deserve.

“I thought the children in the choir would have more energy, this is just sad, firecracker.” She hides her wide smile before turning to the owner of the voice, who is entering the auditorium with his best friends. Money really talks, otherwise she can't explain what would make him appear here.

“Dude, can you please play nice? This is important!” Reggie looks flustered and scolds Luke probably louder than he planned. The guitarist just ignores him and winks shamelessly at her. Seems her little plan from yesterday was successful, now she just has to play the situation in her favor.

“Mercer, Peters... Patterson. Can we help you with something?” The performer shows a perfect poker face, Spectacular continues to practice but they can't help but turn their attention to the rock band.

“I came to accept your proposal, but only If we can include Reggie and Alex in the deal. I guess as long as I’m in whatever I ask shouldn't be a problem." He crosses his arms and gives her a confident smile.

“I could actually do with a few more members, specially as talented as Reg and Alex. As for you, you've already turned down my offer Lucas, but if for some reason you don't graduate this year, make sure you audition the next one. Now, let’s start boys." Y/N moves within inches of Luke to gently close his open mouth with her index finger, and gives him a small wink before turning and taking the other two musicians each on each arm and pulling them closer to where the group is still practicing.

“Y/N, you can’t be serious.” The skilled singer continues to ignore him as she explains to her new members something Luke can't quite hear.

The musician frustrates and walks until he is directly in front of her. “Y/N” He groans.

“I'm not firecracker anymore? That is just sad.” Luke looks upset, but she's determined to not let him have what he wants after what he said at the club, so if he wants the money that bad he's going to have to prove it.

“I’m going to explain you something quickly so you can go and stop wasting my time. I’ve seen your band play, I know how good these two are at singing, which means I don't need you anymore, nor do I have to put up with your rockstar wannabee attitude. I need someone that I can connect with and have the chemistry that leaves everyone forgetting how to breathe, and after yesterday, I just don't think that's you.” Right now she is grateful to be such a good actress because yesterday's act melted her legs, even though they were separated by the balconies. This man is unreal, totally unfair.

"I do, I wouldn't be surprised if they kissed at any moment." The bassist whispers as Alex looks at him with an incredulous face, he just slowly shakes his head from side to side and continues to see the leader of their band and their new leader in a starting contest, is kind of an amusing sight since Luke is definitely not used to having to face someone like him.

“It’s like you said, you are just a guitarist. Thinking you could handle something like this was ridiculous of me. Now, if you'll excuse me, I have a group to direct."

Y/N hopes she hasn't pushed the rockstar too much, but remains firm in her tactics and turns to the others to continue with the rehearsal. She signals them to put the most similar song to the Sunset Curve sound that she can remember at the moment to make Alex and Reggie feel more calm and to see if she finishes catching Luke’s interest, who still doesn’t move from where he is with his eyes fixed on her, which she takes as as a good sign.

The moment the song start, both sunset curve members smile, and Luke's voice is heard from behind. “So you're the girl, I heard the rumor.” He sounds powerful and captivating and immediately sets everyone's eyes on him. She doesn’t give him the luxury of turning to see him, but he is not going to give up and in a quick and agile movement he turns her by the hand.

“Why don't you break my heart, make it hurt so bad. Come on give it your best, nothing less, I insist, I want it just like that.” The girl should have thought more about her choice before asking for a song like this. Every word that comes out of the musician's mouth is addressed directly to her with an intensity in his eyes and movements that should be illegal.

She tries to get out of his way but he makes it pretty clear that he's not singing to prove himself to the group, he's doing it to prove something to her. Specifically, to prove her wrong.

“Stare me down, intimidate me. Oh baby please you'll never break me.” He comes dangerously close to her, basically inches apart, his eyes fixed on her lips and smiling flirtatiously as he sings, his eyes glinting mischievously.

She enters the song so as not to make him feel like she’s defeated and starts dancing with him to the rhythm, their movements matching effortlessly as they move across the stage.

She pulls herself back as far as she can, but Luke surprises everyone by doing a body roll on the floor, his arms looking more gorgeous than ever in that sleeveless shirt as they take the full weight of his body without any problem, his eyes never losing contact with hers. All the girls start to do small screams while Y/N's cheeks turn red at her thoughts. He slides on his knees towards her and gets up as he puts his foot on her to make her lose balance and catch her right at the end of the song.

“Why don’t you break my heart.” They've been in a trance since the song started and it's like it's just the two of them in the auditorium. Their lips are almost touching, neither willing to give up eye contact or move from their current position, until the applause and shouts of excitement bring them back to reality.

“I have chemistry with everybody that I sing with, firecracker.” He whispers to her lips before shifting the girl's full weight to his right arm to raise his left one to her face and carefully close her mouth with his finger, winking with a cocky smile before lifting her up.

Immediately everyone begins to advocate for him with all kinds of arguments that ranged from how sensual he was to how much of a presence he had on stage. Her best friend’s comment is the one that catches his attention the most. "You have even more chemistry with him than Damian, I didn't think it was possible." That definitely sounds interesting.

Y/N pretends to listen to her teammates before saying Luke can enter the group. The truth is that she knew from the first moment she saw him perform with Sunset Curve that he was a star, but this facet without the guitar and irradiating passion from his pores was something that left her speechless.

Still, she knew all the work that would go into preparing the band and it really was exhausting. For them to understand that they couldn't just sing like they do at the club, that there are rules to follow, dance steps they have to learn, facial expressions they have to master, notes they have to hit perfectly, wasn’t easy but they succeeded.

Along the way, she regained her bond with Alexander, her friendship with Reggie grew stronger, and each day she felt closer to Luke. She has been practicing a duet with him for weeks now, and the chemistry that they have set to burn the stage more than once. It was hard for her to ignore how the guitarist's hands feel on her thighs as he lifts her or the way he wraps himself around her, breathing softly down her neck or brushing his lips teasingly over her cheekbone. Both are very physical to show affection so small contacts such as hugs or caresses, as well as small kisses on the cheek or hand were very recurrent. They had also gone out multiple times alone and with their friends, from the cinema, the park, to see them play, to small parties at home, to midnight talks.

Reggie was the one who had her alone the most because they were lab partners, but no matter how hard the bassist tried to get information from the girl, he never succeeded. The truth is that not even she knows what is happening with the guitarist, she is for the first time in her life letting herself be carried away and enjoying the moment, and she’s loving it.

Luke and Alex are in detention after the brown haired boy made a mess in the classroom by putting together a little concert with the help of the blonde, and as they die of boredom, his mind can’t help to go to her for the 14th time of the day. "How did she end up in the show choir?"

Alex is blank for a few seconds but analyzes the question and realizes who they are talking about. “Spectacular used to be the most important show choir in the country, led by her mother, may she rest in peace. Y/N always wanted to be a part of it and when she lost her, it became a goal. She suffered a lot to get to the perfect star we see today, especially because her father is rarely there since he works outside the country. She has practically had to face alone auditions, injuries, she had to learn to sew, comb her hair and put on makeup for the show, sing for hours her solos with no one to encourage her, without mention that the current director could not care less about the group and practically leaves all the work to her. That’s why she’s so be fearless, she kind of has to."

“I didn’t know.” The sight of Y/N as happy as ever with his mother when he took her home for lunch the week before appears in his memory. She looked radiant as she ate his mother's famous stew and listened to stories of little Luke as he gently stroked her thigh while songwriting with his other hand. When was the last time she got to experience something as homelike as that? Luke probably doesn’t want to know.

Alex's sad voice brings him back to the conversation.“I was supposed to be there, you know? At first I was. We were going to audition for Spectacular together, but that summer I met you and Sunset Curve was born, and I didn’t have the time anymore so I abandoned her. I knew how important it was for her to have me there, and I didn't even go to her audition. And do you know how many times she has reproached me? Not even one.”

Luke knows that Alex would never hurt her on purpose and that the situation was probably much more complicated than he expresses it, so he reassures him and lets him know that she loves him and is proud that he took his own path. As soon as the blonde calms down, he begins to tell him multiple stories about when he and the girl were kids, the songwriter takes out his journal and begins to add lyrics to the song he has been working on, more inspired than ever.

“You are falling so deeply for her, man. I’m happy for you both.” His friend comments to him while reading the verses written on the paper. He totally is.

“Bowling, nice. I'm going to finish you off, Patterson.”

“As sexy as your confidence sounds, I'm not going to let you win.”

“I'm pretty sure you've never gone bowling.” Alex adds with furrowed eyebrows.

“Your point is, Mercer?” She wrinkles her nose and sticks out her tongue. Reggie chuckles amused.

"How can you be so sure that you are going to win?"

“Oh, my dear cute blonde. I’m good at everything.” She makes a slight remark on everything with her eyes fixed on the guitarist, who chokes while blushing.

She smiles cheekily at him and confidently steps into the room, Sunset Curve behind as Alex and Reggie tease Luke for being completely whipped.

Happiness doesn't last long when the first thing they see inside is Damian Miller along with a couple of his new teammates. The moment their eyes meet, Y/N seems to melt, but not in the good way.

Her firm and perfect posture now all bent as she embraces herself with her arms and tries with the strength that has left to hold her gaze at the person who took everything from her without much more than an empty sorry.

When she feels the guitarist at her side again, she unconsciously stretches her hand to intertwine her fingers with him, who tilts his head to see their hands together and then to see her face.

She is not doing it to make Damian jealous, but to feel supported. And when Luke realizes it, he can't help not feeling angry at the boy in from of them. In the month that he has been with her, he has never seen her doubt, fear, or believe anything less than that she is unstoppable. And today for the first time ever he sees her intimidaded, and the fact that it's because of a jerk like this makes it even worse.

He rubbs her hand to make her feel less anxious and when she turns to meet his eyes, he brings his index finger to her chin and winks at her, hoping she gets the message. She seems to do it because she immediately smiles playfully and begins to look more relaxed.

The guitarist is aware that Damian was his firecracker's first boyfriend, and he also knows how much he betrayed her love and trust. No matter how strong the woman is, her reaction is completely normal and valid, and that she has the confidence to be vulnerable and let him be there for her means a lot to him.

“Princess.” Damian whispers as he moves closer to her, his eyes fixed on Y/N and Luke's clasped hands.

“I’m not your princess, Y/L is just fine. Listen, Damian. I could pretend this is not uncomfortable and boring but, I don't want to. So yeah, excuse us.”

She pulls the hand that joins her to Luke to make him walk and Alex and Reggie follow behind them, looking at her ex boyfriend with little smiles of pride. Alex knows how much Damian turned off Y/N’s spark and seeing her put him in his place makes him feel so proud.

"So someone is going to teach me bowling or what?"

“I’ll do it baby, but another day. Today we came here with a different purpose.” Luke points to the large Rock the World machine located in a comfortable corner space.

“Of course, is always about music with you, eh Patterson?” She smirks, getting a little closer to him.

“Pretty much, but I can tell that attracts you, Y/L.” He wrinkles his nose, his lips parting slightly.

“Hell yeah it does.” he smirks, not at all expecting her to admit it so openly but he definitely should have seen it coming.

“Good thing I’m into dominant firecrackers then.”

“Could you stop flirting for a second and start playing? I have plans to destroy Alex and your daily session of sexual tension is not going to ruin it.”

Both smile at Reggie while Y/N takes the games microphone and Luke the guitar. The song that Y/N chooses is She’s so gone by Naomi Scott, and it goes without saying that the boys have never played it in their lives but they love a challenge.

The mastery with which the girl interprets the song makes a good number of people come to see the round, including her ex-boyfriend and his new friends.

“Here I am, this is me, and I'm stronger than you ever thought I'd be. Are you shocked? Are you mad? That you're missing out on who I really am.”

The singer sings the verse directly towards Damian, as his friends start pointing out and teasing him. Reggie goes over to tell Luke he thought he would join her, but the guitarist only replies, "I want to see her shine."

She gets carried away with the music and draws Luke to her, jumping and twirling to the beat of the music. The guitarist hyping her up every single second og the song. At the end the night was incredible, the four of them spent it singing, dancing and even bowling, which Y/N ended up dominating from the second round.

Luke thought that there would be no better time than that night to show her what he had been working on, so after saying goodbye to her he went to Alex’s where he had left his journal.

Before he can say goodbye to the blond, screams are heard from the house next door. “I wasn't trying to embarrass you, Damian!”

“No? So what were you doing shaking your hips against the rock boy?”

“I don't have to explain anything to you, but I think it's pretty obvious why I wanted to be against that body, have you seen it?” She says it playfully with her eyes fixed on the guitarist, who is walking with the blonde to her door, her eyes glinting wickedly in the dark. He chuckles, knowing it's the girl's way of reassure him and she smiles as she sees his expressions relax.

“Everything alright, firecracker?” Luke does not stand in front of her like a brave prince, he stops a meter from both of them and asks before intervening, and that makes her heart melt. Because he wants to hear her first, he trusts that she can take care of it and has the confidence to tell him if she needs help, which is also completely valid. And it's something she has to work on, know that there are also times when it's okay to trust someone. That you don't always have to carry the weight alone.

“Go away, punk. My girl and I are in the middle of something.” The three of them start laughing at the ex-boyfriend's intimidation attempt, who seems to get angrier with every laugh that comes out of their mouths.

“I’m fine baby, but you guys could show him the way out? I’m tired of his bullshit.” She asks the boy with a cute smile, and he would disintegrate over the nickname if her horrible ex-boyfriend and her best friend weren't there.

"Don't touch me, I’ll go. Right now the numbers are not working in my favor so we will fix this where it really matters, on stage. Let's see if this attempt at a singer can save you from total humiliation, because let's be honest Y/N, you are nothing without me."

The faces of both members of Sunset Curve begin to tense, Luke's fists completely white from how much he's clenching them. For her part, the singer, who is already used to that type of comments from her ex-boyfriend, only tells him "yes, yes, you're right. It was a pleasure Dami, never come back." while pushing him to the other side to make him go away.

The nickname comes off her tongue in the most natural way in the world, she doesn't even seem to notice it and Luke feels some annoyance hearing it. As if someone had hit him in the stomach. But immediately the discomfort goes away when the girl turns to them again with a big smile and runs to hug them excitedly.

“Thanks for coming to check me out, guys. Things can sometimes get out of control with him.”

"We will always be there for you when you need us, okay? I actually went into Alex's house to get something I wanted to show you but it's late, I’ll come back tomorrow." The blonde turns from his friend to the other, a tired smile appears on his lips as he passes Luke his journal to place his arm on his childhood friend and lean on her.

"No, don't go please. Damian was pretty mad and... I don't want to be alone." She can be very dramatic at times but the fear in her voice sounds sincere, and remembering the scream that brought them outside in the first place Alex imagines how scared she really was before seeing them show up and his heart clenches at the thought.

“O- Okay, sure.” He sounds nervous but the excitement is evident in the way his left leg keeps moving, just like when he's on stage.

“I do have to go in, you already know mom. Will you be alright with just Luke?” He already knows the answer from the girl's radiant gaze but it doesn't hurt to confirm. She hugs him tightly with her arms around his neck and whispers a "Yes, I love you but go away already." which makes the drummer laugh out loud while high-fiving his other friend goodbye.

The third wheel enters his house and finally they are alone. She smiles and takes him by the hand to enter the house. Luke takes a moment to admire it, everything is in place but there are several instruments throughout the living room. A keyboard on the couch, a guitar next to the TV, even a tambourine on the table.

"May l?" He walks over to the guitar and turns to see the girl nodding and pointing up the stairs for him to follow. Her room is quite similar to her style, white is the predominant color but there are many details in pink and gold, as well as multiple yellow lights giving a romantic tone to the room at midnight.

“Do you want to show me now?” she asks eagearly, with joined hands, closed eyes and pursed lips.

“Y- yeah... of course.” He sits on the rug and puts the guitar aside, then puts his notebook between his legs and when he finds the sheet he is looking for, he carefully tears it off. The girl looks at him adoringly, the happiness of having him with her making her heart beat louder in her chest. She sits across from him making sure to brush his legs and waits for him to speak.

“Here.” He looks nervous, his cheeks totally flushed as he avoids eye contact for the first time since they met.

Y/N takes the sheet in his hands and a huge warm smile appears on her face when he sees the guitarist's terrible lyrics. BRIGHT written and highlighted several times in the title.

“It’s for you.” Luke whispers while bringing his face closer to hers, making her shiver.

“You wrote me a song?” She doesn't know what to say. Since her mom, no one had done anything so beautiful, considerate, and selfless for her. Something so vulnerable and full of love.

“Don’t be mad, but Alex told me a little about how you ended up in show choir, your friendship with him, your mom.” He turns to see her looking for her reaction, she just nods to tell him it’s okay to continue. “A sweet story about a little girl with the voice of an angel who loved to sing love songs. And you know what was in my head all that night? That even though I've never written one, I would write millions of love songs for you.”

Some tears fall from the girl's face, she carefully places the lyrics on the guitar and throws herself on the guitarist, who falls in surprise against the carpet, making sure to grab her by the waist so that she falls safely on his chest. She rests her arms on either side of his head and brings her lips against Luke's, brushing them gently.

Luke doesn't move a muscle, not wanting to do something to make her uncomfortable, when he suddenly hears her talk. “And what about teeth? I mean is not the sweetest love story ever told but-”

The boy chuckles, Y/N's curious eyes a few inches away. “Alex wrote that one after his first breakup, Reggie and I did the melody.”

“Good. Guess we’ll have to start making some experiences to help you write all that songs.” At that moment she finally pushes her lips against his, both in a moment of euphoria at the taste of each other. She presses her body against him and he bites lightly with his teeth on her lower lip to shove his tongue against her mouth in response. Her little hands pulling his hair hard as his hands go down her butt. Both of them enjoying what they had been dreaming of for so long.

When the two finally separate they fall in a comfortable silence, she starts to admire his facial features, delicately running her fingers through his nose, his mouth, his cheekbones, until he interrumpts her. “I knew you want me from the beginning, I could see the lust in your eyes. Everything about the choir was a complex plan to get me under you.” Luke affirms with his best poker face, and sees clearly how her eyes fill with light while a pure laugh escapes from her now swollen lips.

“And as always, I achieved the goal. The hot local rockstar is sleeping on my bed tonight.” No matter how hard he tries, he can never catch her off guard and he always ends up being the one blushing. She kisses him softly before getting up and taking the song lyrics back. “Luke, do you mind if I sing a bit of the song?”

“Of course not, it's yours. I will accompany you with the guitar, from the pre-choir?”

She nods and begins to sing the words he wrote for her. “Life is a risk but I will take it, close my eyes and jump. Together I think that we can make it, come on, let's run.”

She is reading the choir as she sings and the urge to cry reappears. He's basically telling her that she no longer has to go on living life alone, that she can lean on him, she can trust him to fight by her side. That it can be us instead of I.

“And rise through the night, you and I, we will fight to shine together. Bright forever.”

As soon as they finish singing Luke puts the guitar aside and goes over to wipe the tears from the girl's face. “I know that at first glance it doesn't seem like a love song, but..."

“But it is. It’s perfect, thank you Luke.” She didn't know that someone other than her could make her feel so special, but he proved her wrong, again.

The night before was like a dream. Y/N sleeping with his shirt while he wrapped her completely in his arms, singing softly in her ear and leaving little kisses on her neck every few verses until she fell asleep. At this point there is no way to deny how completely in love he is with her.

“Man, we need to talk.” His blonde friend wakes him up from his daydream and starts pulling him down the hall to an empty table in the cafeteria, where Reggie is already waiting for them.

They both sit down and Alex takes a deep breath as he plays with his fingers, trying to form coherent sentences with the words in his head. “Bobby called last night.” Luke's gaze instantly shifted to disgust, while Reggie looks quite shocked.

“So? What did he want?” Luke whispers, trying to sound disinterested.

“He sent some of our videos to an important person at Destiny Management and they are interested in the band. He said that if we comply with certain requests he will give the money for us to record the demo this Friday so that it’s ready for the appointment."

“And I guess you told him we don't need him or his money. What did he answer you? He cried?" the guitarist asks with an amused face, but his friends just look at each other.

“Don't you think we should think more about it? What happens if we don't win nationals? We’ll have lost something as sure as Bobby's deal for nothing."

“She’s my friend and I love her but I have to agree, Luke. As difficult as it is, our priority has to be Sunset Curve, not Spectacular"

“But-”

“They are right, Luke.” All three look at the girl, as pale as If they had seen a ghost. “Spectacular is my dream, And I know I'd do anything for it. It would be unfair of me to get angry because you’re fighting for yours. Don't hesitate, if anyone can find a way out of this it's me.”

“But, the duet...”

“I’ll just have to be the melody and the words. I’ll be fine, and honestly I'm so proud of you guys, I know you will be rock legends one day.” All three feel guilty but don't know what to say or do to make it right. She goes over to hug the drummer and the bassist who take her in their arms with all their strength, a “I’m so sorry” from the blonde accompanied by an “I know” from the girl can be heard. Then she stands in front of the guitarist and kisses his lips intensely, but breaking away painfully fast. The guys leave lovers alone for a moment of privacy.

“I believe in you, baby. You are destined to be a star, forget everything else, even me. Take the moment and knock them off their feet.” She kisses him lightly on the lips and walks a few steps back. “This month was the happiest of my life in a long time, thank you. Guess I’ll see you guys around.”

“Why do you sound like you are saying goodbye? And a horrible one? I thought you were good at everything.” Luke walks over to her again and places his hands on her cheeks, rubbing them gently. His voice is shaky and his eyes are glassy, she snorts at his sudden taunt, a little smile covered with the tears.

“Once everyone gets back to their own business, do you think you'll still have time for me? Alex is my damn neighbor, and we couldn't keep in touch.” And Luke gets it. She is used to being alone, to people not being permanent in her life. Neither her parents, nor her best friend, nor her boyfriend, nor anyone else has stayed. So this time to protect herself she decided that he too was going to leave, that it would be foolish to think that he of all possible people would stay.

“I‘m not letting you go baby, you're the only one I would let to boss me around.” The girl laughs when she remembers the millions of times she had to correct him and how he always ended up making her blush in some way, especially when they danced. She can't remember telling him but dancing with him has been the most special thing she has ever experienced. She danced with Damian for years and it never felt like the first time Luke put her long, strong hands on her waist and pulled her close to him. She can only hope to feel that way again one day.

“You are my one and only, firecracker. We’ll find a way, neither of us is a quitter.”

They say that actions are worth a thousand words, and Luke had definitely missed his first chance to show Y/N that he was serious about them by not getting in time to wish her good luck before she left with the group to the city of the competition, a few hours from there. He couldn't help but feel more miserable when he returned to the studio and found a small yellow sheet in his journal.

“You got this, rockstar. I have so much faith in you, so go make me proud. And I don’t want you feeling guilty, okay? I always want to see you shine, baby, no matter what. Your firecracker, Y/N.” Luke laughs softly, dazzled by her attempt to be sweet. If she trusts him so much, why doesn't he return the favor? She assured him they could win and when she says something, she follows through.

Why ruin his life with all of Bobby's ridiculous demands while ditching his girl in the process when he can go sing with her and do band things their way, without selling their soul to the devil. He sits on the couch thinking about what to say to the boys when they both rush in and pick him up, one from his feet and the other from his arms.

“What the hell are you two planning this time?” Luke sounds annoyed but does nothing to stop them from moving him, they throw him into the back of the car and he hits his head, getting him to kick them before they close the door.

"I'm not going to let her down again, I can’t."

"Yeah, and surely we can win, the number is spectacular... do you understand what I did there?”

Alex rolls his eyes and Luke smiles. They drive at full speed to Luke’s for him to take all his things and when he returns to the car, stands thoughtfully by the window.

“What are you doing?!” Alex is not having it, looks like a vein is going to burst from stress any second now.

“Do you think we’ll make it?” Questioned the guitarist, clearly nervous.

“If you stop asking stupid as fuck questions and get in the car, maybe.” Luke pouts but listens and finishes loading everything in the trunk.

The road is full of music to try to calm all the nerves, there was also plenty of time to rehearse the number over and over again, Luke analyzing in his mind every move he had to make, from time to time his bossy girl correcting him in his head. The only difficult thing was probably changing into the costumes, especially for Alex.

They arrive directly to register and the band turns pale when they hear the powerful and breathtaking voice of the singer who is playing her solo right now, a heavenly version of 'Never enough’. By the time they are ready to go, the main number has already started, the imposing woman in the very center of the stage with one of the boys of the group, who although does not have the voice of the guitarist, is making a good effort. Damian is on the other side, staring at her with a superiority smirk and Luke can't help but want to punch him.

“I never realized how anyone could make everything so right, I was so sad, you brought me back.” Alex quickly indicates to him how to enter the stage from the back, and Luke prepares to jump in time for the chorus, taking care of not being seen as he climbs the platform. The song is an old pop-rock song from the 80s, specifically chosen to make the guitarist's voice shine. He and his firecracker sat listening to music for hours until they finally found it, the girl's eyes shining with excitement as she imagined all she could do with the potential of the melody.

“You give me something to believe in, after all that we've been through.” He appears on the platform just in time, the lights and smoke coming out right in his grand entrance. Y/N turns immediately upon hearing her voice and he dances his way towards her.

“The love you give, it all comes back to you. You give me something to believe in, you can see the real me. And here with you is where I'm meant to be.” both singing together the remainder of the chorus and dancing to the beat. The biggest smile he has seen in his girl since he met her on her beautiful face. With that he feels satisfied with his decision, whatever happens, win or lose, it was worth it.

“And here we are together side by side, and nothing seems impossible tonight.” the duet between them is electrifying as always, he puts his hands on her thighs and lifts her with ease, both of them moving and enjoying themselves as if they were the only ones in the place. The dance ends as the first time they danced in the auditorium when he showed her that he was the right option, he holds her with one arm, their lips inches from touching but holding the magnetism back for a few more seconds until finally leave the stage.

As soon as they are backstage Y/N throws herself at Luke, wrapping her legs around his hips and devouring his lips with hers. “Someone missed me.” Luke whispers catching his breath.

"I can't believe you guys did this for me." Expressed the girl as she turns to see her other two friends, still wrapped around Luke who has her tightly held with his huge arms around her butt.

“We trust you as much as you trust us. We know that you will win, you worked like nobody for this moment.” Affirmed the blonde, giving her a small kiss on the forehead.

“I feel like I won already.” And she did. She won the trophy, the money for the demo, friends, and a ridiculously gorgeous rockstar who drove her crazy in more ways than one. All this years working hard were finally worth it... and Damian throwing a tantrum in the middle of the stage felt good too, not gonna lie.

“When are you going to ask me to be your boyfriend? As much as I love you more than anything, a man has to have some pride, you know? We've been together for like 5 months and I'm getting desperate.” They are both lying together on the girl's bed, their legs intertwined as he makes little circles with his fingers on his girl's stomach.

She raises her head resting her hand on his bare chest, her thoughts impossible to read. What are you talking about? I'm waiting for you to ask me!” He chuckles, prepared to tease her. “Bu-”she interrumpts him, pushing the hand that is resting on him to sit down. “Ba-”

“Wait a second, Lucas!” He bites his lip, he never liked being called by his name but for some reason it sounds incredibly sensual when she says it. “Yeah, baby?”

“D- did you say you love me?”

“I did, and I do. Everybody knows you've got me trapped in your claws.” He jokes to make her laugh, and he succeeds.

“I love you too, so much.”

“I know baby.” He winks teasingly at her. “Returning to the topic, you are the most bossy and confident person I have ever met, and you want to tell me that you were waiting for me to take the first step? Doesn’t sound like my firecracker. You literally pretended to be a sunset curve super fan to get my attention.”

"I totally did, I was awesome, first thing next day you were at the auditorium.” She says proud while Luke rolls his eyes with a smile. “But if it makes you feel better, I'm 100% a fan now, and...You are completely right, for once.”

She takes a deep breath, intertwining her fingers with his. “Lucas Patterson, I want you, if we're being honest, probably from the first time I saw you at that Sunset Curve gig we met at. You are annoying, cocky, passionate, and I love you with all my heart. Be my boyfriend... please.”

“There it is, that’s my girlfriend.” His eyes full of lust after hearing that she wanted him from the first night, he draws her closer to him to push his lips against hers, his girlfriend's tongue quickly dancing with his.

"Oh my god, we already talked about this, close the damn window, I don't want to hear it!” The blonde cries from his balcony, the couple can't help but laugh before joining their lips again.

Thank you for reading ✨

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[1ddotdhq]

Sun 31 Jan ‘21 

Happy Walls Dayyy!!!!!! Today was the first anniversary of our #1 fave debut album of 2020, and we all celebrated, Louis included! Last but best thing first: WE GOT A DEMO!! Louis ended the day by publishing a dreamy clip of a demo of the title song ‘Walls’. His clear voice croons over beautiful sliding electric guitars and background reverberance- if that’s his FIRST draft then he is, as we knew, a GENIUS! AND, the King Himself came on twitter to interact with his “loyal” (his words) subjects (that’s us!). He popped up at first to say that his tour, when it comes around, will be “fucking unbelievable...this is our day!”, and talked about his favorite part of the last year (“the two shows I played”), what he noticed most when performing solo the first times (“the space on stage” ughhhh all the tears), what he was looking forward to after COVID (“everything”) and getting through these times- “remember that everything is going to be better when normality sets back in.” He also explained that while he was gonna put out merch today, he “didn’t want to market the day”, but rather make it “a celebration just for us”. But, uh, the merch will be coming eventually! He then replied that there were “too many greedy fuckers out there” who try turn celebratory events into a “cash grab” (to quote the fan), and harries then got mad at that because THEY were like this must be about Harry (lol uhhhh) and assumed he was shading him and Jeff rather than, I don’t know, his OWN FORMER LABEL?? Cool cool cool, but it’s still Harry’s moth on Spotify, so cope. He told us that his proudest moment on the album was recording the strings for the Walls the Single, that he wouldn’t have approached the process differently because he’s still really proud of the album, that he was most looking forward to us hearing KMM or Walls, that Doncaster is his fav place (to no one’s surprise lmao), and, asked what song he likes to rock out to off HIS ALBUM was like oh hey have I got a rec for you: “Maybe Tomorrow” by the Stereophonics. It goes, “think I'll walk me outside and buy a rainbow smile, but be free” and “maybe tomorrow I’ll find my way home” (huh is there something happening tomorrow that could be linked to... OH. Right. Huh. Well all that is just a coincidence I’m sure, it’s not like Louis ever said he likes to rec songs because he wants us to read into the lyrics or anything... oh wait.)    

LTHQ did a insta quiz over on their stories (I only got two questions wrong!) and they did the promised virtual listening party and tweeted along to each song and retweeted fans’ reactions (and all the usernames, larries everywhere, we SEE YOU). Friends of Louis joined in the celebration- Only The Poets, Ashton Irwin of 5SoS fame, Helene Hornyck (“all the love,” she said!), Isaac Anderson and more, and All On The Board made one of their lovely Frankenstein poems which mashing up a bunch of LT1 songs, but in keeping with the theme of the day (and COVID I GUESS) did it as fanart rather than the usual in person board. And all of that was the BORING part of the day, can you BELIEVE?? The FUN part was the Walls Fanart that was chosen to be the new Spotify cards on the official Walls album. As in, they are up right now if you want to go check them out, but I’m gonna tell you straight up: they’re half Harry tats! The Defenseless card, especially, as it is just straight up fanart of Harry’s moth tattoo, especially fun when he had JUST got us talking about its Papillion origin with his finsta! The artist had been worried that Louis would be mad at them for submitting ‘Larry art’, and was overjoyed to learn that, uh... apparently, he was NOT. That was not all! The ‘Too Young’ art card is H’s rose tattoo, ‘Habit’ and ‘Fearless’ were both different variations of H’s anatomical heart tat (the ‘Habit’ one even included the word kind :{) ), and the We Made It rainbow wheel did, in fact, make it to Spotify, just like we thought! “Perfect Now” was Louis standing under a rainbow spotlight—they made that one black and white for spotify but the artist shared the original version. Harries were beside themselves, and tagged Jeff (Azoff), Ben Winston, and Gemma Styles (what?), demanding that they make Louis take the art down because it was clearly Harry art, which 1.) how much more blatant can you be if even ANTIS are noticing and 2.) what sort of control do they think Jeff, Ben, and Gemma have over Louis seeing as, uh, none of them currently work for him??? Weird, are they thinking there might be some kind of link... between Harry and his team and Louis... tell me more antis, truly, I’m fascinated!

One would think that’s more than enough for one day but WAIT THERE’S MORE Zayn is in EXCELLENT quirky Zayn form having fun with his own merch—he posted a gremlin (from the old RL Stine movie ‘Gremlins’) in a NIL beanie captioned “one size fits all humanoid shaped heads” late last night, haaaaa. Yes, I agree! The red stitching really makes the gremlin’s red eyes pop, and his fangs have never looked this good! And the question arose, is Harry’s finsta actually just his side account for following nothing but gay meme accounts? Evidence—the discovery of a second follow, of the openlygayanimals account-- would suggest yes! Well that’s valid, imagine having to not only navigate the internet AS HARRY but also without funny memes of your choice, that’s no life to lead. And Niall complained on twitter that people didn’t understand his sense of humor because SARCASM! He also tweeted about golf, which I’m sure was cool for people who understand it.

[shinwhoohoo]

Omg if that happens I’ll be right there crying with you!!! 😭🙏 Ngl, I lowkey watched yesterday’s VLIVE hoping for a Baro cameo (even tho i knew deep down that it’s just wishful thinking at this time).

Re: their contracts - if anything, I’m hoping that their 2018 experience has allowed them to be a little bit more open with their communication, and that the 3 are now more actively talking about their contract/future/what they wanna do when it’s up, so they can avoid anyone feeling blindsided. In D+ I kind of got the feeling that esp. at that point, this open-ness was/is something they want to value… kind of? Maybe? When Shinwoo was saying from then on it has to be their collective decision, the three of them no matter what..

I don’t really follow any other k-pop groups (or agencies) aside from B1A4, so I’d love to hear a bit more about why you think RBW hasn’t been doing right by their artists?

And speaking of agencies and what they do for their artists—I got some B1A4 albums recently and I’ve noticed in a lot of these shoots (and even in the ad campaigns they did), Gongchan photographs REALLY well!! Maybe he just didn’t/doesn’t want to (or it’s just not WM/RBW’s focus), but I think modeling might be a missed calling of his?!! (I literally went from not being to tell him and Jinyoung apart to thinking hey Channie should be a model lol)

Well, if it were to be anyone Baro would be the more likely 😆 so here's to hoping it will happen sometime this decade lmaoo

Definitely, I think they’re at a point where anything they’d do, it would be together. I guess it’s more if they’d stay under WM Ent. (RBW) or venture elsewhere. Which speaking of, I spoke a bit about my issues and concerns (and some overall messiness) regarding RBW entertainment here and here and here lol (there’s also some more info in the replies you can take a read of-- overall RBW just seems... questionable in their business antics). 

UGH yes Gongchan is so handsome omg... underrated visual king that we all secretly have as our number 1, our BANA fanclub president, our extra, sassy, Leo maknae lol. But yeah, I’ve said this about Gongchan from time to time over the years, he just never seemed like the type to be too interested in really doing too many solo projects, happy with just doing a guest appearance here or there. This radio guest hosting that he has going right now is actually one of the longer gigs he’s kept up (other than like the two web dramas he’s done in the past 11 years lol. Otherwise, he just did some very short stints with usually video-game related shows). So I think he just wasn’t too interested? But he would make a very good model, I agree. There’s a reason I have my ‘carved from marble’ tag 😉 😉

But omg at your last point haha I remember a lot of people used to think they looked alike when they were still rookies!! 😁 It’s one of those things where once you can tell the difference, you wonder why you thought that but tbh, there’s still the occasional picture I’ll see of Jinyoung where I’ll think he kinda looks like Gongchan. (Never the other way around though lol). There’s also been from time to time where I’ll see a pic of Jinyoung and Sandeul and think they look similar. All depends on the angle I guess!

[calpalirwin]

Better Now

Summary: Putting yourself back out there after a heartbreak is never easy, but you and Ashton are learning that it’s worth it.

A/N: Big thanks to @jessalyn-jpeg​ for listening to me cry over Taylor Acorn songs while I figured out how to combine her latest releases into 1 fic.

Word Count: 2.6k

And away, and away we go!

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Aside from the composition book that lay open on the coffee table, the recording room was empty. Face contorting in curious confusion, Ashton picked it up, thinking one of his bandmates had left it behind. But as he caught a glance at the words sprawled across the lined pages in black inked handwriting he didn’t recognize he knew he should have closed it. Songwriting was a very personal thing, and he would hate for anyone to find his own songbook lying around and read the contents. But the words jumped out at him, and he found himself taking a seat, still holding the notebook open in his hands.

“And no one comes to save you, you learn to save yourself. The world, it just keeps going on while you’re going through hell. No, it’s not all that it’s cut out to be. ‘Cuz you can’t hide behind the silver screen. Love ain’t like the movies.”

“Jesus…” he whispered to himself.

“Excuse me?” a female voice asked from the doorway, and Ashton jumped, snapping the notebook shut.

“Uh…” he stuttered, staring at the woman with her hair messily thrown up, dressed casually in jeans and a tank top, a tired but wild look in her bright eyes. “Hi. Can I help you?”

She adjusted the guitar case strap on her shoulder. “Uh, I hope so? A notebook? Standard composition notebook. Black and white colored. Probably impossible to distinguish from any other black and white standard composition notebook. I know, super helpful description. You haven’t happened to see one lying around here, have you?”

“Like this?” Ashton asked, flashing the notebook in his hand.

“It would look exactly like that!” she brightened. Then, her smile faltered. “But that one’s probably yours, isn’t it?”

“Uh, actually no. It was on the coffee table when I came in. I, uh, thought it might be one of my bandmates, but it’s not their handwriting.”

“Oh, so you read it?” she asked. No anger or embarrassment. Just clarifying a fact.

Ashton rubbed at the back of his neck. “Sorry… I didn’t read a lot. Just enough to realize the handwriting was different.” He held out the notebook to her for her to take. “It’s uh, good by the way. Whatever you’re working on. Relatable.”

“Thanks,” she said, taking the notebook from him and flipping through the pages to confirm that it was in fact hers. “I really need to keep better track of my shit… Thanks for finding it.”

“Yeah, ‘course. And sorry again for reading bits of it.”

She waved a hand at his apology. “Oh, it’s fine. My fault for leaving it lying around. Sorry you can relate to it.”

Ashton shrugged. “Heartbreak: part of the standard human experience. Some of your lyrics actually remind me of a song my band put out once years ago. At the time I considered myself lucky to not be able to relate to it. But seeing yours… which is far more poetic than anything four teenage boys could come up with… I’m glad for songs like that. Makes you feel a little less alone in the drowning.”

“Yeah, I’m hoping this helps me at least start to tread water again. How long ago was the heartbreak for you?” she asked, then shook her head. “Sorry, you don’t have to answer that. I should probably be going anyway. Let you get back to your shit, and go off to deal with mine.”

Ashton chuckled. “Nah, it’s fine. It’s been about four months for me. So still recent enough to sting like a bitch.”

She smiled and laughed a bit at his words, but there was a sadness to both. “Two and a half months for me. So just enough to actually drag myself out of my bedroom.”

“And down to a studio where some jackass reads your most personal feelings. Awesome…”

There was a bit more realness to her laugh this time around. “Honestly, not a problem. It’s meant for people to hear, you know?”

“I suppose that’s true. I’m Ashton, by the way.”

“Y/N.”

“Good luck with the song, Y/N. Feel better soon, yeah?”

“Thanks. You too.” She turned to head out of the room, before pausing and turning back around. “What was that song? The one your band made that you couldn’t relate to at the time?”

Ashton’s cheeks turned pink. “Oh. You don’t wanna hear that one, trust me. Cringey teenage attempt at being emo punk.”

“Damn… Emo punk is my favorite.”

Against his better judgement, Ashton pulled his phone out of his pocket. “Alright,” he gave in, pulling up the song. “But you’re not allowed to make fun of me. Like I said, this was years ago.”

Y/N held out her pinky finger. “No judgement, swear.”

Ashton linked his own pinky with hers, and hit play. For the next three and a half minutes he watched her carefully as she stood there with her eyes closed, nodding her head along with the beat. On one hand, he was glad her eyes were closed because it meant that she couldn’t see him watching her, or see his embarrassment. But on the other hand it meant that he had no clue what she was thinking. He hit pause before it could replay again. “Like I said, some of your lyrics have a similar feeling,” he said with a shrug.

She opened her eyes as she nodded. “Yeah, I see what you mean. About thinking you’re getting the fairytale movie ending one second, and the next the ending is anything but happily ever after. Was one of those solos you?”

He shook his head. “Nah. I’m the drummer. So-”

“Lots of back up,” she interrupted with a knowing nod. “Is it because you don’t sing at all? Or just out of convenience?”

“Mostly convenience. In our earlier days we used to split up singing pretty evenly. And then we all got more comfortable in our roles. But I still sing from time to time in more than a back up way.”

“That’s cool. And I bet it makes recording stuff and everything so much easier. I have to do a lot of borrowing or outsourcing to get all the sounds I want.”

“Not in a band, huh?”

“Nope. Just your regular solo artist.”

“That’s gotta get lonely.”

“It can be. But it also means making things in my vision, and not having to compromise on that.”

“Well, if you ever need someone to lay down some drum tracks, or just some company so you’re not drowning alone, I’m here most of the time.”

She nodded, understanding what he wasn’t saying about an intrinsic need to stay out of the house as much as humanly possible. Away from the memories that haunted every aspect of being awake. “Thanks, Ashton,” she said, once again turning to leave, but found herself turning back towards him, another question on her lips. “Do you mind if I ask you something personal?”

“Go for it.”

“What’s the hardest part of breaking up? Of trying to move on, and feel like yourself again?”

“Honestly? Waking up, and seeing that empty side of the bed. Hits you like a freight train all over again. That kind of overwhelming sense of dread that you’re never gonna feel normal again.”

“But then you get up, and try anyway, hoping that today it hurts just a little bit less than it did yesterday.”

“But it doesn’t, and you start to lose hope that the pain will ever stop.”

“That’s the hardest part.”

“The fuckin’ worst. But hey. It can’t suck forever. Or, that’s what I keep telling myself anyway. That’s what finally gets me out of bed.”

“And hey! Maybe I'll get a hit song out of it in the process, too.” She feigned a smile, flashing her notebook.

“Oh, that’ll be a hit, no question about it.”

“Thanks. For uh… well everything, I guess. See you around, Ashton.”

“Good luck, Y/N.”

~~~

Y/N eventually did get the courage to ask Ashton for both his company and musical help, on a day when she found it harder than normal to get up out of bed.

She trudged her way into the studio, spotting him watching a coffee pot in the common living area. “Oh, hey,” he smiled warmly as she pulled open the fridge. “Making a fresh pot if you want any.”

She shook her head, grabbing a water bottle and taking a few sips from it. “Can I get your help today?” she asked in a low whisper, hoping to hide the wobble in her tone.

“Yeah, of course. Everything alright?”

She shook her head again, then wordlessly left for her recording room.

“So, what’s up?” Ashton asked when he found her a few moments later, cup of coffee in hand.

“You’re not allowed to judge me for any vulnerability today.”

“Wouldn’t dream of it.”

“Good. Because this verse is gonna be really hard for me to record.”

He nodded, taking a seat while she set up behind a microphone. A soft guitar track started playing, and when she took a breath, Ashton prepared himself for lyrics of her most recent break up. So when her soft voice started singing, “ ‘Cuz after my dad died, even though she never let us see her cry, my mom was broken inside, ‘cause she just lost her best friend. Why don’t they prepare you for that? When the picture perfect life you had goes black,” to say he was shocked was a bit of an understatement.

There was a click of the track, and the guitar stopped, the headphones settling around her neck. “I’m sorry about your dad,” he spoke up softly. “I- that’s gotta be rough.”

“Most of the time it’s a dull ache. A small hum I can ignore if I don’t focus on it. But there’s a few days where the pain is all fresh, like I’m learning the news again for the first time. A shock to the system.”

“I like the juxtaposition of it all. Most of the time when people think of love gone wrong, or ending before we’re ready, it’s the break up. Because the alternative… it’s…”

“Unfathomable.”

“Yeah. It’s a pain that I can’t imagine, that’s for sure.”

“Lucky you.”

He chuckled slightly. “Nah. Not in the way you think. My own experience is fucked, but in the other direction. He left and never gave a shit.”

“That’s rough.”

“It was, yeah. I guess the small benefit is that I was too young to remember him leaving. So for me, he’s always been gone. Haven’t ever known anything different.”

“See, I’m grateful that I at least have my memories of my dad. Even if he’s been gone longer than I had him. But it’s like a double-edged sword. The memories bring some peace. But it also fuckin’ sucks that they’ll never be anything more than that. That I don’t get new ones.”

“Well, I dunno if talking about him helps you at all. But if you want to, you can.”

“You don’t mind? I don’t wanna bore you, or make you jealous.”

He patted the empty spot on the couch next to him. “C’mon, you asked for my help. Let me help.”

She gave a small laugh before moving to sit next to him. “Remember, you’re not allowed to judge me for being vulnerable.”

“Wouldn’t dream of it.”

He listened as stories of her childhood fell from her lips. He offered her up the box of tissues on the coffee table when her words got choked, and would gently prompt her into continuing when she stopped to apologize. He provided her with stories of his own childhood when her own stories grew too painful to share, confiding in her the way she was confiding in him. And when the sun started to cast long shadows across the room, maybe not a lot of work had been done when it came to her song, but Ashton had helped her nonetheless, and both of them felt a little lighter than they had been in a while.

~~~

Help in the form of company was given with much less hesitance after that, with Y/N and Ashton seeking each other out with regularity. Some days would be spent with the two barely exchanging a word as they played out various melodies, or wrote new lyrics. Other days were filled with endless chatter as they shared ideas they had, and provided ideas on how to overcome any blocks in creativity, or just swapped more stories. And other days still, he would help her work on her song.

When Y/N finally finished her song, Ashton was the first person she thought of to share it with, dragging him excitedly into the room with her. “Jesus, this is the happiest I think I’ve ever seen you,” he teased with a giggle.

“Do you wanna hear the song or not?” she asked.

“It’s done?”

“It’s done!”

“Well, hit play! C’mon!”

For three and a half minutes they stood in the middle of the recording room while her song blasted from the speakers. 

“Well?” she asked expectantly when silence overtook them once more. Then, more quizzically, “Why are you staring at me like that?”

He had an amazed smile on his face, dimples cratering his cheeks, and a soft shine in his eyes. “Staring at you like what?” he asked in response.

“Like you wanna… I dunno… kiss me or something…”

His tongue darted out to wet his lips. Then the soft look was melting away into confusion. “Cuz sometimes I think I want to.”

“And other times?”

“I talk myself down because I’m not sure what I want, or what I feel. We’re both still getting over people who caused us a lot of damage. And I don’t always feel like I’m ready to think about starting a relationship with someone new. But I also know that I’m never going to be ready until I actually start doing it. And I really like the friendship we’ve built the past couple of months. I feel more like me when I’m around you. Like, not only am I no longer drowning, I can actually feel the bottom. But I don’t know if those feelings come from being around someone who can relate to what I’m going through right now, like some weird trauma bond. Or if it’s real “I like you’ feelings. And it’s not fair to you for me to not know.”

She nodded, both understanding what he was saying, and what he wasn’t saying. “What if I kiss you instead?”

“Please, don’t.”

“Because you’re scared we’ll hurt each other? Ash, if we don’t at least try, then we’re never gonna know what’s real and what’s not.”

“It’s partially that. But also… If we end up kissing… I’m not going to want to stop.”

“Then you better not be a lousy kisser.”

~~~

7 Months Later

Ashton got a small flash of deja vu as he saw the black and white composition book lying open, the beginnings of a song scribbled across one of the pages. “Just another hopeless broken heart cliche. And all my fairytale ambitions, I just watched them wash away.”

“Y/N?” he called out, curious to learn where this song was going, and also where his girlfriend could be hiding. “Babe?”

“But it’s too late for sorry baby, even if you’ve changed. I’m not letting myself break down, count me out. Oh, I’m better now,” her voice sang softly as it came down the hallway with her, a black pen twirling between her fingers. She paused as she spotted him standing there with her notebook, a smile lighting up her face. “Hey, you.”

“Hey,” he matched her smile, handing her the notebook and pressing a kiss to her head. “That’s nice. Whatever you were just singing. What inspired this one?”

“Just reflecting a bit on this past year,” she told him, as she quickly wrote what she’d been singing in the notebook before the lyrics left her head.

“Feeling a lot better these days, huh?”

“Better than I’ve ever been.”

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The End of Julie and the Phantoms - A [very long] Theory

The core of this theory was inspired by many posts that I have seen saying that Julie’s “everything was a dream” shirt may have insinuated that nothing happening on the show is actually reality. I brought my series finale pitch to my dear friend @willexx who then helped me develop this headcanon into something I cried about during lunch. 

It starts out pretty heavy, but there are some little light things here and there because it’s what the himbos would have wanted.

We start here:

In the last episode, the boys are ready too cross over. It’s an emotional moment for everyone, they’re crying, Julie is sobbing, and we as an audience have definitely seen better days. With one last “we love you, Julie,” a flash of light overtakes the garage space, blinding our screens. 

The scene flashes to Julie lying in bed, waking up from her ringing alarm. 

She is visibly confused, clearly wondering how she got to bed when the last thing that she remembers is the boys’ painful departure. When she reaches for her phone to turn off her alarm -- it’s a school day -- she quickly notices the date:

It’s the same day in 2020 that she met the boys, that she was going to clean out her mom’s garage, and that she had to perform to keep her spot in the music program. 

So, none of it was real?

Not exactly. 

The experience was a sort of dream-like saga that was designed for her to be able to grieve on her own, and rediscover her voice in her own way. But just as the panic sets in that it was a complete figment of her imagination, the feeling of cold metal on her left hand becomes too hard to ignore: One of Luke’s rings. 

Reggie’s leather jacket is hanging in her closet.

Alex’s fanny pack is slung across the back of a chair. 

But when she runs downstairs, clad in her dinosaur slippers, rushing to the garage to see if the guys were there -- they aren’t. They have crossed over. 

As she moves through the day, she’s a new Julie, but everything else is the same. Instead of a baseball cap and low ponytail, Julie throws on her black jeans and Reggie’s leather and lets her hair run wild. She’s displaying a confidence that Flynn hasn’t seen in a long time, that seemed to have hit Julie overnight. 

Julie sings Wake Up in music, and keeps her spot in the program. She doesn’t oogle Nick in the halls and she tells Carrie off when there’s an attempt at an insult made. 

Real or not, the boys helped her. They did their job. 

When she gets home, and Ray irks her about cleaning the garage or selling the house, she is quick to insist that she doesn’t want to move and that if he needs her for the rest of the night, she’ll be in her mother’s studio.

There aren’t any instruments except for the piano, and the space has the original layer of dust that it had before her and the guys started using the space again. Julie feels empty. But she reminds herself that the ring on her finger is real, extremely real, so she retraces her steps that she had taken in the first episode and tracks down the Sunset Curve demo CD, puts it in the stereo, and plays it. 

Nothing happens. Or, at least -- nothing that she could see.

The camera pans up as Julie is hard at work to organize the garage, and we see the boys in the chairs on the ceiling, watching over her fondly. 

~This is where @willexx started to throw in some epic ideas~

The boys are real, and they have crossed over, which renders Julie unable to see them. However, in her reset reality without them, no one remembers Julie and the Phantoms or the fact that the boys existed in the first place. The boys, while she can’t see them, visit her and try to make contact with her as much as they can, even though their times with her are limited since they are supposed to be on the other side.

She’ll feel a ghost of a touch on her hand or her hair, and know that Luke is there. When she’s in the car and the radio is on a country station, she knows that it’s Reggie. In a journal for school, a small “okay” will be written in the corner of a page, and it is Alex. These little notes keep her going, and she’ll just sigh and say “my boys,” and leave everyone around her confused. 

Sometimes, when she wakes up in the morning, the demo tape can be heard playing in the garage. Somehow she’ll get filled with hope that if she runs into the garage, the boys will be there rocking out without her like she used to scold them for left and right -- but no one is there. Ray comments that the stereo is broken and Julie has no choice but to nod along. 

One day she finds Luke’s songbook that had been buried in the plastic garbage bags of the boys’ belongings. She still brings Unsaid Emily to his parents, and she cries herself to sleep that night. 

When Julie blows up as a solo artist, she actually records Unsaid Emily, and she records Bright, and all of the other songs that her and Luke wrote together. Luke Patterson is in the writing credits for many of the songs, where Trevor never bothered to list him, and a part of Luke is at piece. 

On the two year anniversary of Rose’s passing, Julie finds Luke’s “angst flannel.” Ray asks where she got it; she tells him a thrift store. But it feels warm, like all of the guys are there, hugging her. 

Another morning, she could swear that Luke and Reggie are strumming out Flying Solo on level one volume, and once again finds herself darting to the garage with no good excuse except to keep her hopes up. They, unsurprisingly, aren’t there -- but a note is, that says “you’re a star, Jules. We love you.”

The handwriting is messy. She knows it’s from Luke, who probably fought the boys to even write the note because he just wanted to talk to her even though they need to move on and his handwriting is awful. The note gets tucked into the pocket of the flannel, and when she needs to be reminded that she’ll be okay, she pulls it out of the pocket and holds it tight. 

Before every show, she reads the note, and mumbles a little prayer to them wherever they are -- even if no one else believes they are real. 

When Luke’s flannel starts to lose it’s original sweet scent of Emily and Mitch’s house, Julie spends an hour crying on the floor of her bathroom. A faded orange beanie appears in her room the next day. 

Little notes from Luke appear here and there, but never from any of the guys. In the shadows where she can’t see them, Alex tells Luke that in order for both themselves and Julie to move on, Luke needs to stop leaving her notes -- so most of the ones that Julie finds are even more messy than usual, like Luke was trying to write them without the guys noticing. 

During one of their forbidden conversations, Julie says to Luke: “hey, I never told you this before... But I’m so glad you’re here. I don’t know what I would do without knowing that you guys were still around. I think I would have lost my mind, and would have been convinced that I went crazy.”

Luke could have ran to Alex, repeated Julie’s tearful words, and given the drummer a fat “I told you so.” But he doesn’t. Julie’s validation is the only validation that he needs. 

Whenever her and Carlos and Ray make an extra seat at their dinner table for Rose, Julie imagines, deep in her mind, that it is for Reggie too. Reggie deserved a seat at their table; deserved to be a part of their family. A family that would have loved him.  And when a fork falls off of the table, Julie knows he’s there. One day, Julie asks Ray how he would have felt about having another son. He responds confused, and Julie gets tears in her eyes, and neither of them bring it up again.

When Julie and Flynn go to Pride together, Julie wears Alex’s fanny pack even though she hadn’t gotten any signs from him since they had all moved on. He still doesn’t reach out afterwards, too overwhelmed by her gesture to think of a way to properly extend his gratitude and love for the girl who is keeping his spirit alive -- but Luke lets her know that he was grateful. 

Luke still visits Julie like he visits Emily and Mitch. And on Luke’s birthday every year, Julie goes to a little bakery after school and buys herself a cupcake; sneaking downstairs in the middle of the night to light a candle and sing happy birthday. When she lights the candle, the candle gets blown out. Every year after that first year, she gets candles that you have to turn on and off so that Luke can’t ruin the moment. 

(He ends up throwing the fake candle on the ground out of retaliation.)

Julie is so emotionally stable for the most part that the complete change is a shock to Ray. He tries to ask her what happened, but she always acts like nothing happened and then hides in her room for hours. Sometimes, she makes random little comments out of the blew and Ray has many conversations with Victoria on whether or not he should have Julie seeing Dr. Turner again. 

At her first solo concert, Julie walks into the dressing room to find “Stand Tall” written three times, in three different handwriting styles, in red, pink, and blue. The message in blue is the messiest by far, and is followed up with a heart. 

The name of Julie’s first album is Phantoms.