#hellsite diaries

[fergitmenaught]

i cackle when i remember that something like 95% of this hellsite is people who've been around for 3+ years which means an alarmingly small 5-some% are new users, and i can tell you even that statistic is fucked because i started using tumblr in 2012, left, then came back and made a new blog. i'm technically part of that 5%, and how many other "new users" do u think are fellow returnees after fleeing from the porn ban or some other inane waste of time bullshit staff pulled back in the day.

[an-adhd-infested-nerd]

I love you people who are unapologetically fans of niche, obscure or old things

To every artist, writer, or blogger out here making art, stories and posts about the books I loved in middle school, the shows I loved as a child, the random bands I like, obscure video games, old camp bad movies, and anything else niche, weird and obscure I love you. Wether you’re writing fanfiction, making art, headcannons, AUs, or just shitposting I’m kissing you lovingly on the forehead and listening to you intensely

[fromthedeskofcripslock]

TLDR: Please, reblog. It not only helps artists and creatives, it helps ensure the continuation of the user-controlled, non-algorithmic dashboard feed feature.

So, there is a recent post going around about how the poll feature really highlights the view/engagement/reblog disparity. And the OP makes a great point that on OTHER platforms, even 1/4 engagement per view would be extraordinarily high.

What that leaves out, though, and something I don’t see talked about as much in the reblog/like discussions, is that those other platforms rely completely on algorithms. Our beloved, only-show-what-others-reblog dashboard (arguably the best feature of this site) is reliant on reblogs to remain a viable feature. If people only like/vote on posts, “my dash is dead” phenomenon will increase and eventually result in no more Tumblr, only-show-what-others-reblog dash (you already see this in the increasing amount of “suggested”/algorithmic options on mobile).

So please, please, if you care about this last bastion of sequential feeds (and, of course(!) want to support artists, REBLOG POSTS.

[thisweekinfandomhistory]

Do you want an extra hour in the ball pit? This week, for the first time, V and Emily are joined by a VERY SPECIAL GUEST, @thelaurenshippen of the podcast @dashboarddiaries! They discuss the convention to end all conventions, the first (and only) DashCon. From its birth on the blue hellsite to its death in a Chicagoland hotel, DashCon was truly a lesson for the ages that just because sometimes fandom can pull off amazing and inspirational feats, sometimes it… cannot. Lauren brings her expertise in all things Tumblr to TWIFH with humor and grace. Did you go to DashCon? WOULD you go to a DashCon?

This Week In Fandom History is a fandom-centric podcast that tells you… what happened this week in fandom history!

[mxanigel]

What I got when I searched for concentration GIFs (I'm highly amused because I love this story but it also is NOT what I was thinking about)

[phagodyke]

what the fuck is all this. can we please just get a functional tagging system on this website it would literally have the same effect at creating a "dedicated community space" lmao

[peachsayshi]

getting a little personal for a sec

(I know I have mentioned this before…) 2022 really took a toll on my mental & physical health - dealing with depression is a bit weird, and I formed a lot of unhealthy habits in that time period specifically. I’m so glad I invested in getting therapy (hopefully I can afford it again in the future) but it’s been a work in progress!

I had set goals for myself this year but the journey getting to the results has been up and down (unlearning these habits is tough! lol).

One of my goals was to lose some of the weight that I had put as a result of being depressed. I really neglected my health (like not sleeping, not moving my body, not eating well etc.) & I’ve been pretty self conscious about it, especially since most of my clothes don’t really fit me anymore 🥹 I’ve always been fairly petite, and it’s been a journey loving this version of myself.

Don’t get me wrong - I’m a firm believer that all bodies are beautiful, and I know that gaining weight isn’t anything to feel bad about or ashamed of, but sometimes my nasty, ugly thoughts try to tell me otherwise

I have an overachieving / perfectionist mindset with stuff like this, and usually when I don’t hit goals it really brings me down. But I’m letting go of the reigns and allowing myself to take it day by day. I’m just proud that I’m trying, and pushing forward! I’m working towards getting to where I would like to be mentally, emotionally and physically but I’m taking the slow journey there. Just as long as I know that I am feeling good, I know it’s a win for me!

These are the things that I am celebrating from the year so far: being more conscious about eating proper meals, getting better sleep, working through my triggers so I don’t spiral, setting boundaries (this was a big one!), laughing way more, and the wonderful people who make it all better 🥹🧡

ps: regarding weight loss - I’m not talking about losing weight to “get skinny” or for any aesthetic purposes. I’m really sensitive to this topic so please don’t make harsh comments regarding that! I would just like to get back to my average weight 💕

[ninoochat]

i dont care about most of these but why cant you give me a draft and queue button why i gotta take all these steps UGH

[landwriter]

dear diary,

today I discovered the archive feature on tumblr is not actually where you may choose to put old posts out to pasture, but actually a much better way of searching through your post history than scrolling a lot

[diabunnies]

u can rlly tell how a person is based on how they perceive the itoshis' relationship. like this has been simmering in my head for the longest time now bc ive been trying to find exactly why i agree w sae so much despite having been in rin's position time n time again.

bllk manga spoilers under the cut!

ok so i gotta scribble this rq lest i lose my train of thought hence why there are zero manga panels attached. most of this basically refers to the u20 arc anyway so if u've read that i hope that u get what i mean ! a lot of this is rambling n very common shit but whatever!!!

we know that rin has p much worked his ass off for a good decade to get to the level that sae is on. that's his entire appeal: hopeful younger brother who tries so hard to be like the best person he has in his life. n so when sae comes back from spain all cold n stone-like, spewing shit abt how he doesn't wanna be the #1 striker anymore, rin saw his entire life fracture into unrecognisable pieces. but he still hopes! he still thinks that he can get sae to pick up his dream again, get sae to turn back into the kid he was before spain. even after losing that 1v1 when sae came back, rin never fully left behind the possibility that sae could just take back his words; the u20 match was one of - if not The last - opportunity for rin to prove to sae that he can still afford to dream that dream. to play soccer together, be number 1 n number 2 in the world. i mean the look on his face when sae spoke to him after the match looked like that of a child who retained such naiveness, like he was 7 again and not 16 fucked over by everyone. but the world he was slowly rebuilding shattered again when sae spat out isagi's name n not his, n u can see how much of an impact this had on rin ever since then (in the rare instances he shows up).

he's become more selfish, thought more for himself than anyone else (if this was even possible), gained even more of an ego. for once this ego is his n no one else's. it's not tied to some dream he had with his brother, it is his and that's why i think pxg matches will probably show rin at such a heightened state that his evolution from u20 will tower over everyone else's (bar isagi bc bro is blanketed by mc privileges). think abt it, sae improved so much during his time in spain bc he learnt to detach himself from everyone. he learnt to fall and grow by himself. rin was still tethered to him until their confrontation after the match. it wasn't until then that rin can also fall and grow by himself, for himself.

yea sae may be cruel but what he did, at least how i see it, was necessary bc rin would never grow to be the player he wants to be if he keeps tying himself to the idea that he needs his brother's approval. no, it's apparent that rin needed sae's cruelty to grow as a player. it's time for lil emo guy to own his dream as his n not some shared fantasy with sae. n idk fs if sae is cruel to him for this very reason but i am glad bc it got rin off his moping pity party ass. blue lock needs u to become the worst person imaginable before becoming the best, that is ego's entire mantra (as we are all v familiar w). sae was the last piece in rin's puzzle to become the best he's always wanted to be. n for that i do not and cannot look at him as a "horrible" person. everyone in this manga sucks in one way or another, that's what happens when too many people try to be the best! hurt people hurt people! sae and rin being the loudest example of this does not necessarily make one of them horrible.

yea it sucks n it hurts to read but it is one of my favourite relationships in media ever bc it is realistic. i believe that one of the hardest lessons u gotta learn is knowing when to detach urself from ppl and/or dreams that will limit from becoming the person you've wanted to be. to be able to listen to hurtful things from ppl u've always loved n turn them into reasons to become the best u've ever been even if it means leaving them behind. i love it (◞‸◟；)

[emily84]

the news coming out of gaza these few couple of days are making it fucking hard to even function properly as a person. the little girl and the two paramedics sent out to save her, massacred with the rest of her family.

i've mostly been silly on here, memeing about sanremo and other harmless stuff and trying to keep my sanity, and i will continue to do so, but, once again.

we need to continue demanding a ceasefire, to advocate for palestinian rights, their right to life, this war needs to stop, our governments' complicity needs to be held accountable - this is not humanly sustainable, our collective ability to just block out what's happening and accept that somehow "it is what it is" is weighing us down even more as we go down in history as enablers to yet another massacre.

[worlds-4th-best-dad]

YOMOTSU MASTURBATION FIC SPEEDRUNN

Here !!

Penis and vagina versions available 🫶

Oh, thank you for the surprise!

[fionarara]

m o c h i n u t + h a n d r e v e a l -` ´-

[dragonboots]

FINISHED CHAPTER 1 OF ROLESLAYING WITH ROMAN

Started it today cause i thought, like, why not? Dude this cool as fuck

Starting episode 4 now.

[deesi-academia]

this is not a blog. this is a journal of all my feelings that have somehow been summarized into pictures and texts.

[plenilune]

after nearly fifteen years on tumblr I finally have a life-ruining amount of notifications on a post and it’s, crucially, a post I made eight years ago that’s escaped containment a few times since but never to this level.

lighting a cigarette, turning to stare grimly out the window at the dashboard devastated by notes. tumblr, I say gruffly, tumblr never changes.