#hed be so easily corruptable lol

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RE danganronpa not having the best writing I was talking to a friend the other day about v3 about how it sucks that they set up Kaede to be the protagonist but then killed her off because while yes, Shuichi is a very good protagonist and he’s the only one that really gets interesting character development, Kaede could have so easily been an insanely interesting protagonist if she got to live because she has plenty of room to grow since she’s very clearly scared shitless and is deeply insecure about her ability to motivate and lead the group, but she smiles through it and lies about her feelings so much that the player doesn’t even know about her creating an elaborate murder scheme. And I realized that the way to keep her as a protagonist is for there to be a way that the first trial ends and someone else is found to be the killer (for example it could be Tsumugi if she weren’t the mastermind, or maybe someone else was in the library and killed Rantaro) and they get executed and thats that. Then at the end of the chapter we get a scene where Kaede is alone in her room and sighs in relief as it’s revealed that she hatched an elaborate plan to kill the mastermind but she wasn’t found guilty, either because she wasn’t the actual killer or because she was being protected by the mastermind. And so we the player have to proceed with the new knowledge that Kaede not only wanted to kill someone, she actually went through with a whole plan to kill someone and we didn’t even know about it and neither did any of the characters. And Kaede is on edge because on one hand she has to live with the fact that she was perfectly okay becoming a killer and that she failed to kill the mastermind so the game is going to continue and someone else was unlucky and got executed instead of her,but on the other hand she’s relieved that she wasn’t the one who died and that she was given another chance to find the true mastermind and no one has to know what she did. And as the game progresses it gets more and more stressful for her because she tries to keep up the positive energy but she’s living with this massive secret and she can’t let anyone find out about what she did and she finds herself still wanting to kill the mastermind so we the player don’t know how much we can trust Kaede anymore since she’s lying to everyone including us and she can very well kill again if she wants to

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Dying to know more about the details between Dana and Winston if you've got 'em. :0 Poor lil' guys...

OHHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN.

I have this silly plot going on in my head where Winston gets saved and given help to get himself together and happier. Though his glitching and stutter cant be fixed, and hes ultimately wounded by the situation he was in- hes a lot happier and finding peace with it all in his own way. (Hes still convinced the company needs him and all he needs is to 'talk to' his 'bosses' and theyll have been worried and let him right back in. Hes in denial... just a tad)

But if he ever met Dana... there would be... so much contention. I dont think either of them would dislike each other at all.

But I think Winston would be devestated learning he got replaced so easily, by someone who looks so much like him. Someone who didnt go through what he has and is more put together and well built and successful. And I think Dana would feel horribly guilty and a little sick to realise 1. that she replaced someone in such unfortunate circumstances and 2. that the same could end up to themselves if something were to happen.

Both of them kinda reflecting on how... corrupt things can be.

I HAVE MORE about Danas origins being a skelecog who was built by a company seperate from the big one but abandoned, half built with only her radio head solidly made- after the company went bust. She was found and became a radio star after 'charme-ing' (lol) her way to the position. And after she was hired by Cogs.Inc he was under the impression that they 'saved' him and hed never be left behind to rot again. (All taken from the fact her canonical dislikes includes 'confined spaces') I just think that giving her a parallel to Winston; Dana was originally left in the dark and then 'saved' by the company, as compared to Winston who was built for it and was later abandoned would be super interesting to explore.

THOUGH I DONT WANNA MAKE IT TOO DARK OF COURSE. I just love exploring characters like this :3 I have like mental analysis' and headcanons for so many characters i should really make a document SHDGHSDG

THANKS FOR ASKIN!

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i reached taglimit. readmore contains ^that

yeah anyway point is no one is free from sin etc etc. and if jesus was real hed be a punk ass bitch bc he apparently refuses to smite these guys on the spot

the whole damn thing was infuriating. the part in the book that talks about sex was, as far as i can tell, like, a chapter. if that much, but everyone was up there comparing it to human trafficking, to grooming, to sexual assualt

like the sheer flippancy with which that was thrown around-- well if this library sees fit to have this in their collection, its obivous theryre trying to groom children because it was on display!!!

(it was not, and even if it was, the display is closest to our paperbacks and audiobooks, by like 20 feet if not more. our teen section is behind even our paperbacks, alllll the way in the back corner. our childrens section is in the very front of the library. even farther away from our display. a child would have to go way out of their way to even think about reading one of these books)

an adult watching their child or teen would have say in what they read, in the sense that we do not allow anyone under 18 to get a card. a parent has responsibility. if they dont like what their kid is reading, then thats their fucking issue, not ours.

^im aware that that has its own pitfalls, and would indeed make it hard for a gay teen to read freely if they have homophobic parents. i didnt say it was always a good thing. its just the policy we have.

tangent over. i had to stand there watching people go up there and air their grievances. some guy pretending to cry as he quoted the bible about how fags are corrupting the kids. an old man yelling about how theyre giving babies mastectomies (lol?) a woman who saw fit to let us know that she had a trans daughter and she thought our director should be fired for having this book in the collection some guy who for some reason went on a tangent about how, like, they/them pronouns arent real, which like, idk man. like-- like...? otay pick a struggle

and all of this is just to say that...even though its easy to joke about, its easy to call these ppl ignorant assholes who talk a big game while not understanding anything about ANYTHING its also like. scary lol. bc i guess theyve won in some regard

like our director is leaving at the end of this month. and i cant say i blame her. i was mad and hurt w how she reacted...in retrospect i guess i was mad at the administration in general. not just our director, but the board, and how easily they capitulated to taking the display down two years in a row. i have no idea if the board asked her to, or if shes stepping down willingly. its not my business but i guess i wouldnt be surprised.

and well. frankly, its scary. the board had someone lined up who had zero experience, someone who would make sure we got less fag books, who would make SURE we dont have another pride display. idk if theyll be a director or a board member, but it isnt pretty either way.

the fact of the matter is that under her our library has expanded into tons of extra community outreach. networking w the senior center, the heritage museum, building a food pantry and stocking it, giving out lunches and dinners to kids, providing a place for homeless people to stay without getting fucking hassled. its...a lot, that i dont know will be kept under new leadership yknow

and some of us are talking about leaving, and...well, that sucks too. it really does, because were generally open minded folk, sans the libertarian and the one who is apparently the son of the far right lady who...mentioned him telling her all about how we ran things here in her speech so. lol.

i dont know. i guess the point is that its scary. and i think ive put too much of myself into that stupid fucking library because ive been mourning it i guess. mourning what were gonna lose, what it may turn into. i dont know. something. all over a passage about gay sex in a book yknow.

and ppl are getting real brave about their transphobia and their fearmongering. you give them an inch theyll take a mile yknow. and once this blows over and theyve disrupted and uprooted this fucking community center theyll move on, because they never gave a shit about the library or any of our books or anyone who works here or even the kids they claim to protect. theyre empty, empty people fueled by righteous anger over the boogeyman of the week and the queers just happen to be an easy target.

bitching abt my job again

tags contain frank mentions of transphobia and homophobia

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Talking about the songs on some of my muses spotify playlist because Im obssessed with music(and also musicals) lol

Sorry its kinda long lol

Snare

Playlist link

The good in me, by Jon Bellion- the music/style itself doesnt fit his aesthetic very well, but the lyrics certainly fit him. Heres some lyrics I especially think fit:

My foundation rumbles and all my morals crumble

Try to survive, keep my spirit alive, but like a knife in the woods yea you hunt down the good in me

Its my own fault, but you had this planned

A Cautionary Tale, from the Mean Girls Musical- mean girls is 100% Snares aesthetic, both the musical and the movie(I need to rewatch that sometime). It fits him also because the lyrics match and the song centres around a cautionary tale which is like, Snares whole thing. Heres some of the lyrics I think fit the best:

Just admit that sometimes mean is what you are, mean is easier then nice

And the mean can take you far, maybe this will make you think twice

This is a cautionary tale, about corruption and betrayal

You cant buy integrity, at the mall its not for sale

Cut Your Bangs by Girlpool- it. Just fits ok. And the lyrics definitely fit too. Also the aesthetic matches too. Lyrics that fit:

Your teeth are nashing louder then you monologue

When you lie to me its in the small stuff

The maggots round your heart make themselves at home

Safety First by Left at London- I love the song and also. Like all the lyrics fit. The song kind of fits his aesthetic, but not exactly. Just some of the lyrics that fit:

I give out my heart just for it to break

I fell in love its a beginners mistake

I dont love you anymore yet I dont know if I can love again

But I haven’t felt that way in so long

But honestly my faith in love has faltered, and now all I have is regrets and gratitude

I should be patient, I should be kind, but I dont have energy anymore

I shouldnt envy, I shouldnt boast, but I dont have energy anymore

Drillhorn

Playlist link

Okay he only has two songs, but the explanations might be a bit lengthy

One thing, from 35 Questions- The vibe of the song and what its about is very fitting, cause Drillhorn 100% focuses on other more minor problems to avoid dealing with bigger ones, and also takes on more then he can handle and doesnt want to ask for help cause he thinks he can do it on his own and doesnt want to seem dependent or weak. Hed also obsess over small problems cause he has a desire to fix everything, even if it doesnt need fixed or just makes things worse. Id list lyrics that fit but literally the entire song, (minus a few lyrics at the end sung by the.. girl I dont remember her characters name)

Exeunt, by The Oh Hellos- its a funky little cute song that fits his aesthetic alot, and the lyrics fit too! I dont really know what the song is about too much, but it fits nonetheless. Heres some of the fitting lyrics:

Now, I am not the fool I was when I was younger

Batter down my door when you find me defenseless

I will not abide all your raging and reaving

Crocodile eyes, I have seen how you hunger

Hmm, looking at the lyrics this is what I take from it for Drillhorn: He isnt easily manipulated, and stands his ground when it comes to something he feels strongly about or if he just needs to stand up for himself in general.