#had this in mind for a while but didnt want to post bc internet safety

[dawsonscreekwasalwaysbad]

bojack: and it ends with a three? talk about an anticlimax! what kind of phone number ends with a three?

me:

[olymphianblood]

no yeah ive been thinking about this post and being soft about them for a while bc of the tour that i need to add this on a separate post and not on the tags. i need to go on this other tangent abt the steve rescue vid

like. phil doing quarantine content quite literally saved my mental health during that time, and this video was so so comforting and So good (especially with the dan cameos, at the time i thought he was quieter bc he wanted the focus to go to phil and not them as a duo, but then he barely appeared again and i was like oh ! so he doesnt want to be on the internet atm... okay, i can respect that, hope he gives sign of life tho! and to know phil wanted dan to be present even if a lil bit is so ;_;) and for me i think this cemented to my mind just how really, really kind and caring phil is.

to me, the way people treat animals (specially smaller ones) says a lot abt who they are, in the case that if the animal isnt bothering anyone, and you have the power to leave them be or harm them, if you just leave them be i can see you have control over yourself to not cause further harm or stress in vulnerable creatures, to not act upon this power imbalance.

and phil once showed us in an old video that he wrote in a paper as a kid that he wanted to be a veterinarian, and then years later told a tale where he fainted when he was working at a vet clinic and they started the surgery on a dog, causing his boss to say he could never be a veterinarian. and look, maybe he can't be a qualified professional, but that doesnt mean he should stop caring about animals and their health!

so, watching his steve journey was a delight. we were quarantined, he and dan found solace and companionship on a creature that visited them on the porch, for the guaranteed food AND safety! (because phil wanted the place to be a source of comfort for him), he saw that he was struggling with something, and while most people would feel bad and powerless to do anything to help, specially bc we arent familiar with pigeon care, phil made sure he WANTED steve to be okay, to the point he didnt want to stress steve so much he gets scared and never comes back again because he got traumatized. he wanted to care and respect this wild animals boundary bc he loved seeing him and his pigeon wife eating comfortably on their porch!!!!!!!!!!! he really loved these lil guys!!!!!!!!

and god. imagine being dan at that moment. you know youre loved by this guy, you know how kind and caring he is. youve known it for years, you had time to soak it all and let it settle on your bones. its the most familiar and constant thing in your life. you see him show the same kind and genuine care for a vulnerable animal that its considered gross by the majority of people. you see him do his best to save him, actually phone calling people about it. going outside on a global pandemic to bring him to a vet. getting so happy when he hears good news about steve. getting scared that, in trying to help the lil guy without stressing it, the bird inevitably gets scared and never comes back. getting relived when it thats not the case. and then watching the pigeons happily eating seed again, for days, just like the beginning. you care about the creatures too, and you were happy to help film things and getting it safely to the vet with phil. but you see the extend of his care, his empathy, his love for life and animals and how theyre feeling. my god if he didnt fall for phil again in that moment and were again so so thankful to be on this universe to find this man and cherish everything about him, i can safely say i certainly would.

being loved by phil is a privilege i wish i could bask in everyday and dan is such a lucky motherfucker, i envy him to this day. seriously. oh to be the love of phils life. theyre really really really gonna fall in love with each other everyday on this tour because phil is just phil and dan loves him and dans the love of phil life and theyre gonna be so happy seeing us and caring for us and us caring for them. agh.

rescuing steve the pigeon is a phil comfort video and one of the top pieces of hiatus content that shit was so serious if you weren’t there you could never understand how earth shattering it was to see dan filming in the elevator and actually talking and laughing behind the camera and filming phil on the sofa in their lounge like omggggggg him filming phil sitting outside talking to the vet and walking the streets of london and his laugh when steve comes back all healed is so dear to me like you just know in that quarantine they spent hours watching steve and scraggy and the other birds on their balcony just going “aw that’s us :)”

[somnilogical]

they will never be as strong or as fast as i can be

copy/pasted from a convo:

<<somni: ive been exploiting being able to talk about everything vs miri/cfar cant do what i do bc if they did they would talk about how they are evil. it would all chain back.

somni: omg i can just post this to my blog because i can talk about my meta-strategy and it confers pretty much no relative advantage to miri/cfar. because 1 most of them have disassembled their agency so its like talking in front someone who works at the dmv about taking over the world and the ones that have any agency (basically just anna salamon) have to work with and coordinate via brokenness the masses that have and 2 feels secure in the way that saying ill use my soul as my weapon feels secure, like the power of this technique doesnt depend much on people not knowing im using it.>>

truth is entangled and lies contagious. justice is entangled and injustice contagious. in order to sustain their facade, miri/cfar had to chain back to lie about the principles of decision theory itself. lie about the organization structure of cfar, lie about miri's fundraiser. and so much more.

any series of reasoned claims they make will chain back to stuff thats false or injustice, because they seek to maintain a region of untruth and injustice.

so yeah, miri/cfar basically cant talk in public except in staid formalities infinitely pouring the same entropy of "these people are psychotic" "these people are infohazards" "do not read what they write" "stay the course" "everything is under control, do not panic" "i know my associates at miri/cfar, they are good people" "if you talk with these people you may become a rapist". but not actually able to manifest dynamic compute. to explain themselves they built their own personal room 101, filled with miri/cfar affiliates and formed a united front of gaslighting. deluks (author of that one rationalist blog where they worked to read and summarize all the others) talks about the kind of compute miri/cfar manifested:

<<deluks: I also updated a lot based on Bay Area safety discussion

idk if I have ever been in such a hostile environment for anyone trying to discuss making thigns safer

If you wanted to discuss how Anna et all were innocent people would happily chat with you

If you tried to discuss ideas for making things safer either you got silence

or people would be insanely hostle if you plausibly slipped up at all

or even seemed like you might have been not careful enough in how you phrased things

extremely careful -> no engagement at all//even slightly less care -> get dogpilled>>

they have picked up the optimization style of of cops, as alice maz described them:

<<the role of the cop is to defend society against the members of society. police officers are trivially cops. firefighters and paramedics, despite similar aesthetic trappings, are emphatically not. bureaucrats and prosecutors are cops, as are the worst judges, though the best are not. schoolteachers and therapists are almost always cops; this is a great crime, as they present themselves to the young and the vulnerable as their friends, only to turn on them should they violate one of their profession's many taboos. soldiers and parents need not be cops, but the former may be used as such, and the latter seem frighteningly eager to enlist. the cop is the enemy of passion and the enemy of freedom, never forget this>>

i can travel lots of places and regenerate truth and justice.

i can go to a trans support group in the bay and show them logs of what elle said and did and they can recognize the pattern of minority oppression, transmisogyny.

i can talk with uninvolved decision-theorists about why paying out to oneshot blackmail with subjunctive dependence because "In game theory, paying out to blackmail is bad, because it creates an incentive for more future blackmail." is wrong. and why exploiting your subjunctive dependence as a udt agent to not pay out is right. they cant.

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miri/cfar have to centrally coordinate on lies or they start crashing into each other. independently generating falsehoods in isolation makes them point in all directions.

independently generating and working off of truths allows everything to point in the same direction without needing to communicate. i can write this post and then idk maybe someone im algorithmically colluding with on this writes another post and they dont come out all distorted and skew with each other. this caches out in what looks from the outside as an uncanny ability to start dynamically colluding with people and output distinct strains of philosophy based on shared precepts.

interference with yourself looks like kelsey piper trying to claim that emma and somni are starting some sort of rape cult and anna and miri/cfar trying to claim we are naive victims of ziz's cult and ▘▕▜▋ claiming emma and somni are mindhacking ziz to make her bully them and jade nameless claiming im doing this to get a job at cfar and ...

since they make up their fake coordination points independently they smash into each other. if they want to coordinate over lots of people they then have to work out which of these they want to coordinate around in a sort of market of falsehoods. and have to arrange for it to not contradict any information anything people know. but they dont know all the information everyone knows, and they wont know it even after combing through lots of blogs and reading lots of discord chats.

when they try coordinating on falsehoods like this, its hard to get a coalition together in an environment where what people know is rapidly changing because a bunch of anarchist bloggers keep posting things in a bunch of places on a non-centrally controlled schedule determined by what seems like a good idea at the time to independent agents. and having lots of conversations with so many different people in private and public they cant keep track of them all.

if they try pretending to be dumb and forming a unified gaslighting front in one area. then people will exploit the fact that this is the internet and not the evolutionary environment, take logs and post them somewhere else where everyone didnt collude to be dumb in this particular way. so while their monkey brains get a rush of endorphins from being able to successfully coordinate local humans, what feels like an entire tribe, against the blasphemer, actually they just used their adult intelligence to defeat in front of a bunch of people who dont share their political commitments but who can reason about what is true and what is just.

(of course there are many truths this doesnt work on because of large inferential distance, shared mammalian biases it takes an unusual mind to step over, and shared incentives. but the defense of most regions of injustice and untruth when you ask questions have to keep chaining to more and more absurd things until you are defending causal decision theory or start claiming 'anna salamon, the president of cfar, is not involved in cfar's hiring'. which depend on a social context committed to defending everything that protects miri/cfar and people who dont have the same conclusion-that-must-not-happen can see that its dumb.)

if miri/cfar had committed themselves to the path of expanding agency, maybe i wouldnt be posting my thoughts and meta-process on the public internet. (in the counterfactual where they committed to this path, its likely that i wouldnt be protesting. because it seems actually-hard to stay on the path and remain evil.) but as it stands, i expect this information to differentially help anarchists and do about as much good for statists as explaining updateless decision theory to someone at cfar. its just this inert structure in their brains, they cant do anything strategic with it. they intentionally shut down their ability to take ideas seriously and drive out anyone left who can, calling them crazy.

what they can do is "oh here is a list of people to target" and "see if they said anything incriminating". ive seen their attempts to coordinate enter the attractors of 'authoritarianism' (duncans dragon army, kingsleys "repent and submit to [AUTHORITY FIGURE]") and 'lets all lie in the same direction and disable general cognition to update out of this! the important part is social agreement and that everyone allows social reality to have the final veto on their beliefs. i myself do this so you know im super safe and this is super fair.' (anna and kelsey). this sort of weak coordination based on breaking people can be easily subverted by anything real.

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if you are actually right, you can exploit useful properties of being right and let that be your asymmetric weapon. such that all that challenge you know they will know its steel. and then people who compute the outcome and expect to lose, dont fight in the first place.

if my chosen weapon were actually the size of my muscles and imposing figure compared to anna salamon as miri/cfar people "believed" (exploiting the already extant anti-transfem psychic suppression field as one of their few functioning coordination points. probably not as functional now after what i have written.), then when i fought people it would create a warp field such that then people with smaller muscles wont fight in the first place, but id be deluged by people with larger muscles. i dont want to create a warp field that summons people with lots of muscles.

if i exploit properties of my souls, of truth and justice. then i have an arsenal of techniques that are stronger if i actually want to save everyone, if im actually right, if im acting for justice. because they exploit useful differential properties of each. and the warp field in higher density summons ... people who care about saving the world, truth, and justice. in other words, a high density of potential allies.

by default i want to exploit "the difference is that im right" not "the difference is that i have larger muscles". i want differential power to push away those who are wrong and unjust and attract those who are right and just into a kind of warp hull.

there are other reasons as well.