my thoughts on ‘The taking of Dispach 9-1-1′
this was SUCH a good episode from start to finish! *pulls out a slide show* Now i’ll show you breaking down every. single. scene-
jk lmao...unless?
spoilers below the cut!
lord. have. mercy.
these hoes are givin me major heist vibes
tiffany bby ur the driver but for me to acknowledge you as such you better be Letty Ortiz good hun
wow these thugs are a lot my organized than i first thought like i know they was carryin guns but i aint know they was packin this much like damn
Oceans 8 who?
so i wanna know where they just...got a cop car???
OH HELL NAH Y’ALL BEST NOT MESS WITH TERRY
I MEAN ANA MAY BE HIS SISTER
AND SHE MAY BE MAKIN MOVES ON EDDIE
BUT IN THIS HOUSE WE LOVE TERRY FLORES SO YOU GET YOUR GUN AWAY FROM SUNSHINE BBY
it’s kinda funny rewatching this scene when you know what’s about to go down
like i’m cacklin like ‘oh shooooot dramaaaa’
but i’m also like ‘SOMEONE GRAB JOSH AND RUN’
“temporary maintenance, happens all the time” cool cool cool
i’m not freakin out you’re freakin out
josh and maddie are like friend goals i love their dynamic like yoooo
hi yes could you please get that gun away from terry’s head i would really appreciate it.
OMG SECURITY DUDE NOOOO
wow ur like the only line of defense in the dispatch center and they just kicked ur ass
is this where our tax dollars are goin??
fly high josh’s mug, fly high
that absolute look of fear on his face tho, still breaks my heart
josh russo defense squad post up homies
“i love you, howie” nope nope nope didn’t like it the second time either
when that gun went off
LET ME TELL YOU
i just,,,waited for the blood to start comin out of terry
thank god it wasn’t him
good scene lmaooo 9-1-1 writers i hate you all lmao lmao
“bees are the least of your troubles here, sweetheart” I HATE YOU DUDE
someone call mama grant please
“we’ve got dispatch” i do not like this ma’am i’d like to speak to the manager
“you’ll shoot us” man shut the hell up-
“no, we’ll shoot the person next you you” this dude is insane
lookin like mr.clean’s evil cousin LMAOOOOO
“you only do something like this so you can do something...worse”
um whAT-
“you’re being paranoid, she’s fine” CHIMNEY NO NO NO
i don’t think i’ve ever thrown this much popcorn at my tv in my life
as chimney said “don’t do it man” just picture a 5′5 lightskinned girl tripping over her blanket while yelling “DO IT CHIM, DO IT!” and you’ll have me
“sorry, we are experiencing a high call volume” BITCH MORE LIKE A HIGH CRIME VOLUME SOMEBODY GET MAMA GRANT DAMNIT-
*screams* BUUUUUUUUCK
HI BBY
ooh nice shirt, i guess pink isn’t the only color that suits ya
he looks good in all the colors
whole damn snaaaaack
not to be an idiot on main but seriously, who watches the watchmen?
“i miss like an earthquake or something?” lmao chim is a whole vibe
“wait....why are you calling 9-1-1, is everything ok?” paired with that cute adorable concerned face he made is making me cry ok we don’t deserve buck T-T
“she’s at the call center, what could happen?” AT LOT ACTUALLY
OH THANK YOU JESUS IT’S ATHENA FUCKIN FINALLY
*cries* mama grant you won’t believe the day i’ve had
“he’s my husband” LMAOOOOO WHAT
whoa tiffany we’ve already had our fair share of mail bombs here that bet’ not be what i think it is
THE PACKAGE IS VIBRATING AND BLINKING TAKE COVER-
ohhhhhhhhhh
it’s just takin out the security systems lmao
“technical difficulties” BITCH MORE LIKE CRIMINAL DIFFICULTIES
“i bet this woman really thinks you’re...worthwhile.” JOSH BBY DON’T LISTEN TO A WORD HE SAYS EVERYONE LOVES YOU
ahaha thanks i did not need those flashbacks it hurt enough the first time
“a woman called about an omelet, i dispatched an officer”
“to the restaurant?”
“not exactly”
???
“i tried calling josh, but no answer” aww josh and buck are friendssssss :)
JOSH HAS BEEN ADOPTED BY THE FIREFAM PASS IT ON
:0
JOSH YOU GENIUS
YOU SMART SMART CINNAMON ROLL
MAMA GRANT IT’S TIME TO MAKE SOME MOVES
“nO NO CHIMNEY DON’T HANG UP!” i shouldn’t have laughed so hard
oh great he’s hastily grabbing his jacket. he’s about to do something rash and irresponsible
....someone call eddie.
that’s some good heist music right there
the bad guys look stressed....good.
“you’re here so i can keep an eye on you and make sure you don’t do anything foolish” BUT YOU LEFT BUCK
OK BUCK I LOVE YOU BBY
BUT YOU HAVE THIS HABIT OF TURNIN INTO SPECIAL AGENT 007 REAL FAST WHEN YOUR FRIENDS ARE IN TROUBLE MAN
LIKE
HE’S THE ‘EVERYONE BEFORE ME’ MEMBER OF THE FIREFAM
mama grant i ain’t questionin your authority or nun but like???
WHY WOULD YOU NOT KEEP AN EYE ON BUCK TOO?
HE’S THE MOST LIKELY CANDIDATE TO DO SOMETHIN STUPID
thats some reckless drivin there buckaroo
buck who were you tryna fool tho
athena only knows one golden retriever dude in this city who drives a grey and black jeep
“ok now, don’t be mad” LMAOOOOOOOO
HANDS DOWN ONE OF MY FAVE SCENES
HE KNEW HIS MOM WAS PISSED TOO LMAOOOO
athena’s look is sending meeeeee 😂😂
omg my god😭😂
“hey buck”
“...hey chim”
athena has some dumbass kids yo
the best part is, she knows it
the way mr. clean broke his neck when dude said ‘police cruiser’ LMAOOOO
“and if it’s not normal?”
“we’ll find out”
*blasts boss bitch*
i love the way buck is kinda concerned for his mom tho
and athena’s just like ‘it’s no sweat sweetie i do this every day’
“shoot her”
BITCH I HOPE THE FUCK YOU DO
YOU’LL BE A DEAD SON OF A BITCH
I’LL TELL YOU THAT
“shoot her, now”
try her bitch, see what happens to yo ass.
the 118
the call center
the entire fandom
we will collectively end you
“we got a report of a code 77″
THANK GOD THAT GOT ATHENA OUT OF THERE
what is a code 77 you say?
“ambush, proceed with caution”
well it sure nuff aint indecent exposure
*boss bitch keeps playing cause that was super smart for her to give out a code 77*
“maddie is smart, she can take care of herself until help gets there”
HELL YEA SHE CAN
SHE KICKED DOUG’S ASS SHE’LL KICK YOURS TOO
“they’re not gonna wanna leave behind a room full of witnesses”
i’m-i’m fine, i swear-
“killing people, your solution to every problem”
excuse me? do i hear morals??
they’re really fighting each other
they some grade a stupid right there
there’s no way they are pullin this off
terry
terry what are you doing
TERRY
RUN TERRY RUN GO GO GO
OH SHIT
JOSHHHHHHHH
i thought they were gonna shoot terry
BUT JOSH CAME THROUGH IN THE CLUTCH
wowwwwww dispatch is a lot more badass than i thought
these dudes are hard core
OH
OH JOSH NO BBY
THAT LOOKS LIKE IT HURT
aii square tf up mr. clean we don’t hit josh here and you gon have to pay for that one
the way everyone is just quietly sobbing tho
it saddens me
“I need another thirty minutes”
i’m really enjoying watching this dude’s plan crumble around him
swat posted up aii i see yall
“we’ll try to get eyes in a damn windowless room”
well when you put it that way it sounds like this is hopeless
“i’m sorry i thought you were crazy”
“i’m sorry i wasn’t”
wow i don’t think i was supposed to laugh at that
and chim bein concerned for maddie is literally one if the best things ever y’all.
completely unrelated note, anybody else see bad boys for life?
“yeah i’m ok, my ears are just ringing a little” with the TEARS and the SNIFFLES and him SMILING THROUGH THE PAIN JOSH IS TOO PURE FOR THIS
“why do you think we asked for so many RA units?” BITCH I KNOW YOU FUCKIN LYIN
for those of y’all that ain’t kno, RA units are rescue ambulance units
way to reassure people, lady
it’s like she said ‘everyone might be lightly shot by the time this is all over’
“so you are worried. it makes sense, cause all your friends keep dissappearing are they even in the same building?” WITH THAT LOOK OF STRAIGHT SPITE DAMN MADDIE BUCKLEY, DAMNNN
we stan the BAMF BUCKLEYS
“oh my god, LINDA??” lo key thought this was real for a second
“latex! is there latex in your gloves?” greg come on man you planned a heist you can’t be this stupid
SURPRISE! LINDA IS ALLERGIC TO BEES
ENJOY YOUR EPINEPHRINE ASSHOLE
OH
OH WOW
WOW DISPATCH
Y’ALL JUST-
WOW
EVERYONES GOT GUNS AND EVERYTHING OH MY GODDDDD
GIVE IT UP FOR DISPATCH
you know it’s really funny, cause tiffany ain’t nowhere to be found
“next one goes in your head” OOOOOOOOOOOH SHE’S A BOSS ASS BITCH BROOO YESSSSSSS
(i know, two different songs, but ya gotta admit, it applies)
“you don’t get to die”
i just-
hands down, most powerful line in the whole episode.
it’s an odd form of vengeance, saving the man that attacked you multiple times from the release of death
that’s what it would’ve been tho
a release
he would’ve died, and he wouldn’t of had to pay for any of his actions
but instead, josh saved his sorry ass
so he gets to pay for this in the land of the living
the best revenge, actually
and, josh saved a life
he’s worthwhile
“i’m not goin back” well i knew mr. clean was gonna die from the beginning sooooooo
“we’ve got dispatch” and it’s finally over
i’m kinda bummed that we didn’t get to see SEAL!buck or the rest of the firefam but we got BAMF!dispatch and that was enough lmao
kudos to those off duty dispatches as well, like y’all just walked past the dead body and moved on from the whole hostage situation to do your already stressful job
CHIM’S FACE WHEN HE SEES MADDIE I AM SOBBING
THEY SAID MADNEY RIGHTS Y’ALL😭😭😭
this hug is everythinggggg
lo key buck watching from afar breaks my heart ahaha
“she already has everything she needs”
....this is tea for another day, but...
buck, you do know people need you as much as you need them, right?
....right?
still not over that hug tho
ayeeee wassup bobby!
how was the camping trip i was extremely against?
oooooh i love the crime recaps!
i may or may not have been like buck in the bank episode when he said ‘i’m some confused, can you start over’
...ahem....
“wait....you didn’t round her up too?”
ok listen....
while i don’t condone stealing and and the extreme amount of violence they used,
i do condone outsmarting men that think less of you because you are a woman
you are a boss tiffany, and i’m actually kind of sad you got caught
“tiffany was the real mastermind” can i just.....
*BLASTS BOSS BITCH FROM THE ROOFTOPS CAUSE WOMEN OWNED THIS EPISODE! THEY WERE SO DAMN BADASS*
thanks 9-1-1 writers for that, btw.
gotta admit, as much as they rip out our hearts and stomp on em, they know what they are doin
jake you shady shady bitch
ngl tho both plans were solid
maybe if it was done completely by women it would’ve worked :)
“looks like your trip’s been delayed...by about 5 to 15 years” athena you got the best lines yo
jake f’ed up the other plan too lmaoo
like i said, if it was all women, they would’ve pulled this off
and they end it with madney
gosh i loved this episode
So! These were my thoughts on 3x14! Let me know what you think, and hit up my ask box if you want me to post my thoughts on another episode! Later taters!
Oh yeah, if you liked this you can find my thoughts on ‘Pinned’ here!
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13 Reasons Why (Daveed x Reader)
Sooooooo this took me literally forever to write, but I’m happy with the way it turned out!! Lil shoutout to Becca ( @angeilca-s ) helping me with some of the reasons ;) feedback would be lovely, and enjoy!
Warnings: ANGST, swearing, it gets a little heated at one part but other than that I think it’s all good?
Words: 5447 (dang this took forever)
One - Constantly distracted
You mindlessly scraped the food around on your plate, your eyes glancing from the food up to your boyfriend, who obviously had something much more important than your three year anniversary on his phone.
“Babe, can you please put that away?” you hinted, glancing down at his phone when he looked up at you.
“Oh, yeah, mhm,” he nodded, sliding it into his back pocket and looking at you. That’s one of the many things that killed you, was the way he looked at you. No matter what you looked like, what you were doing, it didn’t matter. His chocolatey brown eyes bore into you like you put the stars in the sky and made the earth spin on its axis. You sighed and continued eating.
“Babygirl,” he strung out, letting the word slide right off his lips like music to your ears.
“Yes?” you responded, once again giving him your attention.
“I love you, I promise. So much,” he grinned, reaching over to take your hand. He rubbed his thumb across the back of your hand, something that you had always found calming.
“I love you too,” you replied, smiling back. It was a truly genuine smile. You couldn’t be more in love with the man sitting across from you.
Two - Coming home late
“I’m home,” you called out into your shared apartment. Daveed normally got home before you every day, so you weren’t expecting anything different. But when all you were welcomed with was emptiness and silence, you were a bit thrown off.
“D? You here?” you called again, only to be met with silence. You huffed, setting your things down and making a cup of tea. You had a stressful day at work, and all you wanted to do was cuddle and sleep. Kicking your heels off, you headed upstairs to change into some more comfortable clothes.
Once you had settled down onto the couch, fuzzy blanket and tv remote in hand, you flipped on Netflix, putting on old episodes of Gossip Girl. It ended up being more just background noise, as you fell asleep halfway through the second episode.
You were never a very heavy sleeper, which explained how you got woken up by the door closing, even though Daveed tried his hardest to be as quiet as possible. You sat up, rubbing the sleep from your eyes and stretching out a bit.
“D? That you?” you mumbled.
“Of course babygirl, now go back to sleep. I’ll be right here when you wake up,” he cooed, kissing your forehead and letting you curl up into his side. You were happiest in that position, feeling safe and warm. A smile spread across your face, only to be reciprocated by Daveed. He truly did love you, and he was trying his best to show that.
Three - Increased effort in appearance
Stumbling into the bathroom one morning, you found Daveed shaving. This was definitely something that happened often, but he was being quite particular this morning. The lines were smooth, the prickly hairs rubbing against your cheek as he kissed you good morning.
“Good morning my love, how did you sleep?” he asked, walking out of the bathroom and over to the ironing board, which was oddly out of place in the spare bedroom. You had put it in there a few months ago when you decided that it wasn’t used enough, and it had never been taken out since.
“Fine, what’s that for?” you questioned, nodding your head towards the board which had a light blue button-up laying across it.
“Oh, I’ve got a big meeting today with some producers. Gotta look the part,” he shrugged ever so slightly, slipping the shirt on. Tucking it in, he grabbed his phone and stuck it in his pocket before walking back over to you and pressing a passionate kiss to your lips.
“I love you babygirl, I’ll be home before dinner tonight,” he gave you a warm smile, which you couldn’t help but return.
“I can’t wait until then,” you called after him as he walked out the door, he waved back at you, before hopping into his car and driving down the street.
The house felt cold, almost, without Daveed here with you. It was a Saturday, which you had off, so he agreed to not work Saturdays either. Why he didn’t tell you about this meeting beforehand threw you off, but not as much as why he was putting in so much of an effort to look nice. You weren’t complaining, he obviously looked very handsome, but you couldn’t shake the feeling that something was up. Shrugging it off, you continued on with your day, the thought still nagging at the back of your mind.
Four - Change in music
Music flooded your ears as you walked into the kitchen, catching sight of your boyfriend making dinner. It was a wonderful thing to see, him acting like the spoon was a microphone, dancing around. When he noticed you watching him, he pulled you into it, twirling you around, earning a giggle from you. You couldn’t help but smile as he sang all of the words to you, staring into your eyes with his own. It was a song you didn’t recognize, but you still loved it nonetheless.
“Is this country?” you asked curiously, considering he never liked country music.
“Mhm,” he nodded, twirling you around once more. You cocked your head to the side and stared at him.
“Why are you listening to country? I thought you didn’t like it,” you questioned. He shrugged.
“I can’t like new music?” he said defensively, although he didn’t mean it that way. You went rigid, pulling away from him.
“Sorry for asking a goddamn question,” you muttered, slipping past him and into the living room.
“Wait, Y/N, I’ll change it. I’m sorry,” he pulled your arm, dragging you back into the kitchen. A small smile played at his lips, which you couldn’t help but return.
“I think you might like this song, can I play it?” he asked, not waiting for an answer before scrolling to find it on his phone.
Got a girl from the south side, got braids in her hair
First time I seen her walk by, man I ‘bout fell off my chair
Daveed serenaded you with the music, grabbing your arms and making you dance with him.
Had to get her number, it took me like six weeks
Now me and her go way back like Cadillac seats
He spun you to him and wrapped his arms around you, swaying back and forth along with the music.
Body like a back road, drivin’ with my eyes closed
I know every curve like the back of my hand
Doin’ 15 in a 30, I ain’t in no hurry
I’mma take it slow just as fast as I can
You laughed, watching Daveed get so into the song. Watching with adoration in your eyes, you pulled out your phone and recorded a video on snapchat.
“Y/N, delete thaaaat,” he dragged out the last word. You shook your head.
“I’m afraid I can’t do that,” you smiled, watching him pout and roll his eyes before pulling you into a kiss.
Five - Simultaneous cancellations
Y/BF/N: Sorry, I got called into work and I can’t make it to dinner tonight! So sorry, raincheck? xo
“Ugh, Y/BF/N cancelled. Again,” you sighed, rolling your eyes.
“I just want us to be able to go out with friends once in awhile, but she always cancels,” you crossed your arms, getting pissed that once again, she did this.
“It’s fine, we can just go out. I’ll call Oak and let him know we’re rescheduling,” he replied, kissing your cheek, before going to call Oak.
You finished getting ready, in a slightly better mood than before. Once you and Daveed were both ready, you got in his car and headed to a random restaurant across town.
You enjoyed spending time with just the two of you, however you were still irked that your best friend would just cancel on you again.
Suddenly, Daveed’s phone rang, bringing you out of your thoughts.
“I’m sorry babe, I’ve gotta take this,” he said, squeezing your hand before excusing himself from the table. You absentmindedly played with your food, waiting for him to return. After a few minutes, he rushed back inside.
“Hey, I’m so sorry, but something came up with the recordings, you know how they had to be submitted by last Friday, right?” You nodded.
“Well one of the tracks is missing. Just, like, up and disappeared. So we need to go back in and record it now if we want it to be on the album,” he continued, pulling on his jacket.
“I’m getting a ride from the guys, they’re on their way now. You good to meet me at home later?” he asked, glancing up from his wallet where he was pulling out two twenties to pay for dinner.
“Yeah, go get that taken care of,” you smiled, letting him know it was okay.
“Okay, great. I’ll see you later,” he kissed you once, forcefully, yet passionately, before running out the door.
“I love you!” you called after him, but he was already out the door.
Six - Newfound defensiveness and secretiveness
“Hey babe, how was work today?” you asked your boyfriend as he entered the living room, only to find you sprawled out across the couch.
“Fine,” he replied curtly. You squinted your eyes slightly and cocked your head, not sure why the short reply. You shrugged it off, figuring it was nothing major.
“That’s it? Just fine? Normally you can go on and on about your day, Will did this, John did-”
“Okay? And that’s every other day. Today it was just fine. Anything wrong with that?” he snapped, his jaw tensed and his shoulders back.
“No, just asking,” you went back to watching Supernatural, wondering why he was being so defensive all of a sudden. You heard a sigh from behind you, before a pair of hands rested on your shoulders. Daveed started rubbing them, and you let your head roll back.
“I’m sorry, it’s just a little more than I thought it would be. Nothing too bad though,” he replied, but you still felt that sense of cold.
You sighed, getting a little fed up.
“You good?” wondered Daveed out loud, noticing your tense position.
“Mhm,” you nodded, although it wasn’t too convincing. He raised an eyebrow.
“What’s on your mind? There’s gotta be something,” he pushed, sitting up a little straighter.
“What has gotten into you lately? You’ve been… different. Weird. I don’t know,” you sighed, running a hand through your hair.
“I’ve been busy with work. You already know this,” he grumbled. You could practically feel the tension in the air surrounding the two of you.
“No, I don’t. What’s got you so much busier than usual? Your last album didn’t require this much overtime, so what’s going on? The staying out later, always being on your phone, leaving when we’re spending time together… What’s more important than to you than our relationship?” your voice cracked at the end, tears welling up in your eyes. Daveed’s face faltered, and you could see the hurt evident in his big brown eyes.
That hurt was quickly replaced with rage.
“Since when do you feel the need to know my every move? What’s next? A tracker in my phone? Huh?” he stood up, waving his hands around as he yelled.
“Maybe if you just told me and didn’t lie I wouldn’t be asking questions!”
“Well maybe I can have my own life without someone knowing every single thing,” he spat, turning around and walking out of the room. You shook your head, tears falling freely down your face.
“Fuck you!” you yelled after him.
When you got no response, you sank to the ground, pulling your knees to your chest.
Why?
Seven - Anxious when together
“I’m just saying, they should have a drive thru at movie theaters so you can just go buy the popcorn,” you laughed, arguing about random nonsense with Daveed on your way home from the mall.
“Okay, whatever you say,” he rolled his eyes playfully, earning a soft punch in the arm from you.
“So what are we doing now?” you asked, glancing out towards the horizon where the sun was setting.
“Oh, uh, I don’t know. Whatever you wanna do,” he shrugged.
“Okay… How about we just go walk along the beach? We haven’t done that in so long,” you suggested, only to get a shrug and a slight nod in response.
“Or not,” you added after being replied with silence. Daveed shook his left leg at a constant pace, waiting for the light to turn green. You turned to the side to look at him, studying his beautiful face for a few moments.
He seemed more tired than he usually did, his eyes not as bright with bags underneath. He was holding your hand, but it almost seemed like he wasn’t really holding it, just letting it lay there.
“Babe? Are you okay?” you pulled him out of his thoughts after the light had been green for a few seconds. He snapped out of it, looking around before proceeding through the intersection. He nodded in response to your question.
“Yeah, I’m just worried about the album. What if the fans don’t like it? What if it totally fails?” he worried, pulling his hand away from yours to run it through his hair. You put your hand on his leg, rubbing it comfortingly, only to have him tense up underneath your touch. You slowly pulled your hand away.
“They’ll love it, they always do. You sure that’s it?” you questioned once more, and he gulped and nodded, almost too quickly. You didn’t say anything else, just stared out at the road, waiting for him to say something.
He didn’t say anything that night until before you went to bed. He muttered goodnight, trudging up the stairs and into your bedroom, leaving you alone on the couch in the living room.
Eight - Encouraging spending time with others
“So because I have to go to another meeting today, I was thinking maybe you could go out for a girls’ day with Pippa and Jasmine. You’re always talking about how much you miss them, so you should go have fun,” Daveed rambled on, the sun shining brightly through the windows on a Saturday morning. You snorted, holding back a laugh.
“Since when do you suggest girls’ days?” you asked, chuckling to yourself.
“Since I think you deserve to have fun. You can spend time with people other than me ya know,” he said, pressing a kiss to your forehead.
“I’m aware. I’m just curious as to why you feel this way all of a sudden,” you wondered.
“Because I have a meeting, and it’s not good for you to spend all this time inside. Get outside! Go have fun, please. You deserve to be happy,” he made sure he had everything before grabbing the car keys and opening the door.
“Okay, okay. I guess I’ll go,” you laughed, a sound that was music to Daveed’s ears. He smiled at you before shutting the door and leaving you to go about your day.
Nine - Emotional distancing
Soft sobs echoed their way through your apartment, meeting your ears as you entered the room.
“D? Babe? What’s wrong?” you called, setting your things down and racing off to find him. You searched everywhere, the living room, kitchen, bedroom, when finally you opened the bathroom door to find Daveed with his hands resting on the counter, his head lowered. Tears were running off of his face, and it was very evident that something was wrong.
“Babe, what’s wrong? You know you can tell me,” you repeated, pulling him into a hug. He pushed you away, eyes glancing in your direction as you stumbled back.
“Wh-what, is everything okay?” you composed yourself, trying to keep it together for Daveed’s sake.
“Yes. Please leave,” he told you, his voice rough from crying.
“I’m not leaving until you tell me what’s wrong,” you countered, crossing your arms since he wouldn’t let you comfort him.
“Leave. Now,” he said through gritted teeth. You did as you were told, figuring he just needed some space before explaining the situation to you.
But as the days, soon weeks, passed, you began to grow nervous. He was still shutting you out, offering no explanation as to what had happened.
You were hanging out with Jasmine at her and Anthony’s apartment one day, gossiping and laughing, just like it used to be.
“So how are you and Daveed?” asked Jasmine.
“No kids anytime soon, right? I don’t really wanna have to babysit,” Anthony added, wrinkling his nose. You rolled your eyes at the childish gesture before turning back to Jasmine.
“Actually, he’s been a little distant lately. He won’t tell me what’s going on,” you leaned back against the couch, stirring your drink with the little straw inside.
“Well you know everything that’s going on with his mom, right?” she asked, your eyes widening.
“No? What? Why wouldn’t he tell me? What’s going on?” you bombarded her with questions, standing up and pacing around the room, one of Daveed’s little quirks that you had picked up on over the years.
“Y/N, his mom’s sick. They don’t know what caused it, but she’s been in the hospital for over a month,” Anthony said, pulling you into a hug along with Jasmine. You let your tears out, clutching onto Anthony’s shirt like you would never touch anything again.
“Why wouldn’t he tell me?” you sobbed, thinking about all of the wonderful times you had with her. You two got along extremely well, having the same views on many different political topics as well as on everyday things. You had spend many holidays helping her cook, clean, and making sure everything was perfect.
“I don’t know, why don’t you ask him again? Don’t bring it up directly, just make sure everything is okay,” Jasmine said, rubbing your back. Anthony nodded in agreement, and you pulled them both into a tight hug, muttering thank yous to both of them.
“Everything’s still okay, right?” you asked Daveed later that night, sitting next to him in bed. He nodded, pulling you into his arms.
“That’s good, how’s your mom doing?” As soon as the words left your lips, Daveed tensed up.
“Who told you?” he stammered, narrowing his eyes.
“Jasmine and Anthony. Although, if you didn’t keep secrets from me, I wouldn’t have had to find out from them or bring it up like this to you,” you ranted, keeping your voice level as to not turn this into a full-blown argument.
“Did you ever think that maybe I can deal with my own problems? I don’t need to burden other people with them, like some people do. Like you,” he scoffed, getting up to walk downstairs.
“Oh, I burden other people? If anything, you’re burdening me with the worry of never knowing what’s going on, or if you’re okay, or if you need anything,” you spat, standing up as well.
“I’m sick of this. I’m sick of you,” he pointed his finger, letting it hit your chest, before grabbing a pillow and walking out of the room.
“Where are you going?” you called after him, walking to the edge of the door.
“I’m sleeping downstairs, I don’t need to be questioned for every move I make,” he remarked, before walking away.
You were left standing in the doorway, not knowing what to think or do, you slowly made your way back to the bed, where you laid down on your back and stared at the ceiling, trying to figure out where everything went wrong.
Ten - Stops doing special things
Your hips grinded against Daveed’s, a moan escaping his lips. You took this opportunity to slip your tongue in his mouth, fighting for dominance. You eventually let him win, but mainly because he squeezed your ass, causing a squeal to escape your throat, allowing him to take over with his tongue. He pressed wet, open-mouthed kisses across your jawline, down your neck and to your collarbone.
“Daveed,” you whined, wriggling in his grip.
“What babygirl?” he asked, bringing a hand up to your breast and squeezing, causing you to moan his name breathily.
“I-I need you,” you choked out, getting up and wasting no time in pulling him into the bedroom. As soon as the door was shut behind you, you quickly pulled off your shirt before attaching your lips to his, your hands roaming down his back and across his toned chest and stomach.
Moving your mouths in sync, you both managed to get over to the bed, Daveed lying down first, with you straddling his hips. You didn’t let your lips part at all, with the exception of the short gasps of breath you both desperately needed. You allowed your hands to roam his body, from his abs, to his abundance of curls, to his hips. As his hands roamed around you, his fingertips felt like they left fire across your skin, sending sparks flying with every touch. You fumbled with his belt buckle, pulling it open before pulling his jeans down to his ankles, where he kicked them off. He did the same with your shorts, wasting no time bringing a hand inside your underwear.
“Daveed,” your breath hitched in your throat when he slipped a finger inside of you, toying with you ever so slowly.
“Hm? What was that?” he questioned, his cocky demeanor taking over.
“Please fuck me, like right now,” you practically begged him, but he only stopped. He pulled his pants back on, mumbling things under his breath to himself.
“Wha-what was that?” you stuttered, slightly shocked that he just stopped. Normally he was all into this kind of stuff, so why was tonight any different?
“I just, I, uh, I’m not in the mood,” he said sheepishly, but you could see right through it.
“Bullshit, Daveed,” you accused, gathering your clothes and slipping them on as you walked out of the room.
“What? What’s so wrong with that?” he asked, getting defensive.
“What’s wrong is the fact that you’re lying to me, and I can see right through it,” you spat, yanking the door open and slamming it in his face, leaving him dumbfounded right in your entryway.
Eleven - Doesn’t answer certain phone calls
Things had been going smoothly with Daveed for the most part. Sure, you’d had your fair share of fights over the past few months, but it wasn't anything out of the ordinary.
You both were finally off together for once, and you decided to take advantage of it and get dressed up and go out to dinner and a movie. It couldn't be more cliche, but you loved it nonetheless. As you twirled around your room, you and Daveed both getting ready, you sang along with the music blasting from Spotify on his phone. Your music taste varied greatly, from rapping clipping. songs to singing along with Moana.
However, you were in the middle of a verse in Wriggle (which Daveed found insanely attractive when you rapped and moved your hips with the beat) when you were so rudely interrupted by the music stopping and his phone ringing.
He walked over to see who it was, and once he saw the screen his eyes widened and he hurriedly ended the call.
“Who was it babe?” you asked, wrapping your arms around him from behind. He turned around in your embrace, hugging you back.
“No one important. Let's just finish getting ready,” he gave you a smile, his eyes twinkling when he looked at you. You still melted a little when he looked at you like that, but it wasn't something you expected to go away anytime soon.
Not long after, his phone rang again.
“Really? It must be important if they're calling you again. Go on, answer it,” you waved your hand towards his phone that was lying on the bed.
“It's nothing, really. Don't worry about it,” he pecked your lips, continuing to get ready.
“Who was it anyways? I know that if I called someone twice if they didn't answer, it would be for an important reason,” you pressed, not because you were nosy, just because you were generally curious.
“No one. Drop it,” hissed Daveed, defensiveness once again taking over his demeanor.
“I won’t drop it until you tell me who it is,” you argued, crossing your arms and standing in front of him.
“Since when do you need to know my every move? God, every waking moment I spend with you, all you do is cling onto my side like a child! I can’t ever get any space to myself! I might as well introduce you as ‘Hi, I’m Daveed Diggs, and this is my 6 year old daughter, Y/N’” he spat, raising his voice ever so slightly. His words dripped with venom, but it was something you were used to by now.
“I’m childish! Maybe I wouldn’t be like that if you just paid attention to me for once! All of your effort is put into your work. I might as well just be a maid, living here, cleaning up after you, taking care of you. It’s like I work in a goddamn nursing home with a 35 year old man! I do everything for you!” you screamed, letting all hell break loose as the words flew out of your mouth and hit Daveed straight across the face.
As you finished, you were breathing heavily, and Daveed stood on the side of the room with an apologetic look on his face. Tears were threatening to spill over, and you knew he saw that too.
He cautiously stepped towards you, watching your eyes. You shook your head and backed away from him.
“I can’t…” your voice broke, as you slowly stepped back, before turning around and rushing out of the room.
Twelve - Blackouts
Your situation with Daveed hadn’t gotten any better over the course of the past few weeks. You tried, but you couldn’t have a one-sided effort. You were planning on talking to him about it once he got home from work, but he wasn’t back at 4, like he normally was.
You played it off, thinking he was just running behind, finishing up some new verses or recording another part differently.
An hour passed, and you paced around the kitchen, worrying about all of the places he could be. You figured he had just gone out for drinks with the guys and not told you, that’s happened before.
Another 2 hours passed, and still no texts, no phone calls, no physically there Daveed. You were starting to think something bad had happened. What if he got in a car crash? What if he was thinking about the awful things you said to him and he got in an accident? Your pacing became quicker, the glass you were holding in your hand shaking.
You tried to take your mind off of things by watching some sappy movie, but it only made you feel worse about the whole situation. You tried to go to sleep, but you just tossed and turned, unable to fall asleep for more than a few minutes. Finally, at around 3:30am, you got up to get some water. You rubbed your eyes, walking into the kitchen and grabbing a glass.
Once it was filled, you turned around to take a drink only to be met by Daveed standing in the doorway. The glass slipped from your hand and shattered across the floor, but you couldn’t take your eyes off of him. Jumping over the glass, you ran over him and hugged him as tightly as you could. You wrapped your legs around his waist and buried your face in his neck, breathing in his scent.
“I was so worried, I thought something happened, I didn’t know where-” you rambled, only to be cut off.
“I’m sorry, I was out. My phone died,” he stated plainly.
“That’s it? You were out? That’s all I get?” you asked. He shrugged.
“No big deal,” he said, starting over to clean up the pieces of broken glass.
“No big deal? Daveed I thought you were dead in a ditch somewhere,” you croaked, looking at him with sad eyes.
“I’m here now, aren’t I? I’m fine, don’t worry,” he kissed your forehead before continuing.
“I’m going to bed,” you said vaguely, trudging up the stairs.
“G’night,” he called after you, but the door was already shut.
Thirteen
Coming home from work was one of the few things you looked forward to. All you wanted to do was curl up in some sweats and fuzzy socks and watch Gossip Girl while eating ice cream.
Starting up the stairs to your front door, you were surprised to find it already unlocked. Upon opening it, you didn’t notice anything out of the ordinary, meaning Daveed must already be home. This didn’t happen often, he had been working later a lot of the time lately.
“Daveed?” you called out into the house.
“Coming,” he called back, stumbling down the stairs in a pair of sweats and no shirt. You raised an eyebrow at him, prompting him to look down at himself.
“Oh, uh, surprise?” he said, but it came out more like a question.
“I’m sorry, I’m not really in the mood,” you sighed, heading towards the stairs.
“Wait!” Daveed grabbed your arm and pulled you back, taking you by surprise.
“What? Need help with something?” you chuckled, glancing down.
“What? God, no, how about we stay down here for a little bit?” he said, giving you one of his mile-wide grins.
“We can right after I change out of these clothes,” you said, wiggling out of Daveed’s grip and starting towards the stairs. You noticed a burgundy scarf lying on the bottom step. Picking it up, you turned to Daveed.
“What’s this?” you asked, knowing you didn’t own anything like it.
“It’s, uh, it’s a little gift to say I’m sorry,” he quickly thought, although you didn’t buy it.
“Then why does it smell like floral perfume? You know I don’t wear that,” you countered, taking a step towards him. He seemed to shrink back, shuffling backwards.
“I, uh, it was my mom’s! Yeah,” his voice turned up and the end, raising more suspicion.
“Oh, okay, well I’m just gonna go change…” you trailed off, shaking off the weird feeling and jumping the steps two at a time.
“Y/N wait,” he called after you again, but it was too late.
All it took was 3 seconds.
One to turn around.
One to open the door.
And one more to be met with a girl lying in your shared bed.
Not just any girl either, but your best friend.
You felt the tears drip down your face and onto your shirt before you even noticed you were crying. Briskly wiping the tears away, you whipped around to face Daveed.
“You,” the word broke you, it all becoming too real.
There was always a nagging thought in the back of your head that he would find someone better. Someone skinnier, someone smarter, someone prettier. He always pushed that off with a ‘I love you and only you, I always will’.
You never thought that the person he replaced you with would be your best friend.
It felt as if there was a ton of bricks dropped on your chest, like you were underwater trying so desperately to reach the surface only to have the air slip farther and farther away.
You were shaking, your lungs feeling like they were on fire. You sharply took in a breath, shaking your head at Daveed.
“I give you everything. I do everything for you, and this is what I get in return?” you ask helplessly.
“Look, Y/N, I know you’re upset but-”
“But what? What could you possibly have to say?”
“I still love you,” he croaked, his voice breaking.
“If you loved me, you wouldn’t have broken me,” you countered, shaking your head.
You stumbled backwards towards the door, rushing to get outside as fast as you could. You still couldn’t breathe, tears blurring your vision. You slammed the door, sliding down the front side of it until you were sitting, head in your hands, shaking and sobbing. He broke you.
Three years managed to get thrown away in three seconds, all because of thirteen reasons.
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