#guess why im attached to the muse xd

[bojackhorsemanobviously]

ma: your hot? It's 86 out are you a wuss? me: acutally its 84 and i need the air on having the window open didnt do shit

[papers4me]

Fruits Basket Manga Review ch (76 & 77)

So, I decided to read the manga mainly in search for a more natural balanced female presentation than the idealistic, shallower, savior depiction of tohru in the anime.

I’m intentionally skipping all the chapters of her as a (mother figure) in yuki’s life & won’t read them or even visit them for comparison with the anime. I love yuki’s growth story & the unique depiction of his platonic relationship with tohru, but if his mother-tohru phase was a drink, then the anime has force fed it to me till it came from my nose! So, for yuki, I’ll be reading his growth past-his mother confession.

I’ve consulted my lovely manga readers friends & thy recommended starting from ch 90 since the content in that chapter was completely cut! but some recommended checking kyoto chapters first since they contain a nice glimpse of the author’s style & artistic vision. Kyoto ep in the anime isn’t focused on “mom-tohru” so, i like the idea! I’ll jump to ch 90 right after ch 77.

- Subtle growth of a woman ( Clash of visions & presentation between the manga’s “ Loosing the wallet with mom’s photo vs the anime’s fractured photo frame):

I really love the underlined connotation of tohru loosing her “mom” unknowingly! In the anime, this scene played without any reference to kyoko & tohru’s attachment to her. We saw tohru the teenage girl confused as she experience romantic love for the first time. Nothing more than that. But the manga says “ Main female MC is way deeper than a (mom-figure) or a (girl in love), In this panel, tohru chases after kyo & unknowingly looses her famous wallet containing her mom’s picture. Here’s what this subtly indicates:

 Normally, tohru would notice right away that her wallet is missing, here she never even notice until kyo suggest they hang out together. Subtly indicating that tohru is moving further & further from her phase of “ an afraid, grieving, abandoned child clinging to her mom”.

Normally, tohru would panic, say “ mom is missing” & everyone around her goes into search mode to make tohru at ease (hiro’s ep). Here once she notices, she says “ my wallet is missing” & kyo relaxed & laughingly gives her her wallet back. While he goes to bring the wallet, tohru instead of thinking “ oh nearly lost mom!” is musing over the fact that “it’s strange that kyo can make me happy or sad with one word only”. Subtly indicating that tohru is replacing her mom with kyo as part of growing up from the child she was to the woman she will be.

Tohru calling kyo “mysterious”, subtly explains that tohru is in the uncertain phase of understanding her feelings as a woman & hence, pave the path for upcoming trauma exploration & psychological depth.

The entire scene in the manga is depicted to convey different layers: romance, upcoming growth, & unexplored traumatic issues of abandonment, grief, & human weakness. “ Accepting human Weakness & change” IS the manga’s vision.

In the anime, the fractured picture worked simply becuz no issues of any traumatic experiences with tohru were ever hinted. Nothing abt tohru being a young woman moving away from a traumatic childhood was ever implied beside the weakly sharply cut & forgotten few scenes of her mysteriously going “ im okay” while remembering her dad’s shrine. Was there ever anything abt replacing her mom with kyo? Nope!. Was there anything abt tohru reluctance of loving kyo? Nope! to fix that, let’s shock the audience with empty photo frame! It’ll make the viewers confused & if we play the climax right & give tohru a tearjerker speech confronting akito, all is good. It worked in the anime as it served the purpose it was created for: shock value & drama. ppl bought it. But in the long run, it cemented tohru as the “savior angel” never the “ weak human”. But not many will have issues with that. Having yuki with his impressive story of growth & kyo with his shocking story of pain is enough to distract from the rest. The director must think: What does the audience want?

a woman who’d save the prince with her motherly care?“ Done!”.

a woman who’d love the monster? “ Done !”. 

a woman who has her own deep story? no one will miss that~ skip!

-Yuki’s next stage of growth: Friends:

I like how smoother the scene played here. Yes, yuki thinks back to his gratitude to tohru, but it plays subtly & more emphasis is on his friendship with kakeru. No added scene of him waving back to tohru after kakeru which brought the focus back to mom-tohru again. No. Here is way less shoved in your throat. Yuki says how he felt in the moment, moved on to the next stage, thought abt his life & choives, moved on to school. Clear lines that makes yuki more dynamic & way less “ living in his head” character.

Side Notes:

The manga’s art is pretty but expressive! I was afraid it’ll have that weird eyes bigger than the moon & too much sparkles & bubbles like the usual old shojo manga art!

Yuki is way more expressive than the anime & less pretty & sparkly! I welcome this with flowers & songs! lol.

Tohru has “low” pigtails instead of the child-like high pigtails! YES! it is crazy that this trivial change adds so much to tohru’s presentation to the viewers’ eyes. In real life no big deal but in an artistic medium such choices send subliminal messages to viewers minds, that’s why artists spend a lot of time choosing their characters default appearance. It means a lot for the character’s overall path & sends messages. High child-like pigtails: make her look like innocent & naive child since viewers usually associate such hair do with children & toddlers. Low pigtails: are cute girly style that we associate with teenagers & young adult women, it’s practical & cute.

Kyo’s looks as youthful & handsome as the anime but less angry, annoyed & more versatile in his expression! It always bothered me that the anime just go with kyo’s default frowned face, hands in pocket looks unless he should express a key emotion. Also, kyo without an undershirt in his uniform! interesting change from the anime.

I missed kyo’s two buddies! T_T. Why they weren’t in the anime’s finale.. could’ve at least put them in the underwhelming graduation ceremony ~

I really appreciate that yuki’s fanclub are one page, less annoying.

That awkward moment when a manga panel drawn by one person can depict a crowded city more than an anime with a huge team. Like the anime didn’t even need to zoom out for a huge wide shot that showcase its weakness in depicting a crowded city. If you can’t draw that, just zoom in to lessen the effect of emptiness. kyoto isn't a deserted area especially not during a school trip!

The teachers checking on the sneaking vs sleeping students scene is a welcoming sight! XDDD

Hana met kakeru before? saw him & tohru together? weird!!

Kakeru is more focused on tohru here.

I really love the photos taken for everybody. It indicates real good time! Hana eating, yuki around girls, arisa annoyed, kyo teased with playing card: did the play “rich man poor man” again? XD

I’m starting to love yuki more in the manga than the anime!

Kyo having short inner thought abt not being able to tell tohru a girl confessed to him & deciding to say “ none of ur business” is doing wonders to the scene!!! it makes him less mean to tohru & more balanced character. I mean I guessed so in the anime, but what could've prevented making the VA say this short line of inner thought?! Yuki’s VA says essays & essays in nearly every ep abt nearly every character?!.

I liked the way kyo held tohru’s hands when he turned to her, the way he held her hand in the anime is a bit weird. lol. Also, in this scene, tender gentle kyo is so well-done both in the anime & manga. The manga wins for the zoom in & focus on emotions, tho.

Next is chapter 90!

[peachblossomsofair]

When JM is away, and JK comes to play...

So... we all know what happened. (If you don’t, then simply check my other posts from today.)

My inbox was oddly quiet for almost an hour after it happened. Hence I asked what my readers thought and felt 💙💛. Below are what I have received:

Those that speak the plain truth:

Anonymous said: Your inbox is quiet prob cus JK just mass killed all KM, JM & Jk stans.

Anonymous said: Oh, and all haters also found dead in a ditch somewhere I guess.

Anonymous said: My first comment after jungkook's spam: I ask jikook to breath, not to TAKE MY BREATH AWAY

Those who are very calm:

Anonymous said: I don't know why everyone was shocked like this all looks jungkook to me :D

Anonymous said: Was it just me who knew? As soon as I saw the first set of pics jk posted I knew there would be a video of jimin he would post next. There is no way he can resist showing his bias and has to go one extra step to prove that.

Anonymous said: Jk in a subtle way showed that they are together 24/7. I won't complain tho ✊

Those who don’t know what hit us:

Anonymous said:Jungkook. Cat. Sun. Moon. I’m being delulu, right?

Anonymous said: I only know that jk came like an earthquake today. It was unpredictable, fast and strong. KM left me speechless, shook and the whole time twitter was sending notifications and people were tweeting about this phenomenon deep inside me a voice was talking to me "let's get it". It was jungkook. In that precise moment i knew. They're coming for our assess and I'm thrilled.

Anonymous said: IM STILL SCREAMING!!! WHEN I GOT THE NOTIF FOR THE FIRST TWEET I WAS LIKE SKAKSJSJ HE BREATHES!! THEN I PRAISED HIM AND THEN THE TWEETS KEPT COMING & MY BRAIN SHUT OFF COMPLETELY I WAS KEYBOARD SMASHING LEFT & RIGHT & THE HE STOPPED FOR A COUPLE OF MINUTES & TWEETED 3 VIDEOS, NOT JUST ANY VIDEOS BUT JIMIN VIDEOS AND I LOST IT THE TABLES REALLY DID TURN

Those who felt it’d happen, before it happened:

honeybyeol said:This is kind of funny. Last night I dreamt that Jungkook did a vlive on his own. Everybody was freaking out that he finally came on to social media. Then when I woke up my Twitter notifications were going off and it was Jungkook was spamming Twitter with Jimin. Pretty neat haha

Those who know what to expect after:

Anonymous said: What. Is. Happening. Why are we getting spammed by JK. Waiting for the hets to explain this away with IU.

[and anon is correct. I got flooded by theories concerning IU]

Those who complain about being full (but still don’t mind being fed more):

Anonymous said: HOW ARE THEY NOT TIRED OF STICKING TO EACH OTHER? This is a question I will never stop asking. They don't even take small breaks like while walking at the airport or in the plane? The best representation of this was when they were checking in yesterday in Malta and the entire group was doing something while km were a bit far away playing together, in their own world. I would go mad no matter how much I love my bf.

Those who went through a journey:

Anonymous said: Okay so let me start with... AHDNDIXNSJEOLXHSIENCHSMBXUDNSJ. Okay now that I got that out of my system. Idk what this feeling is but a lot of TKers went to my account on both twt and tumblr to talk about how hey were winning when t/k posted selcas about being in the same room (hunting that they shared a room) then the videos came back and my inbox was suddenly so silent. It kinda feels like karma bit back? I was laughing so much but yeah XD

Those who are just plain happy:

Anonymous said: hi🍑🌸😊I was out of the house for 1.5 hour helping my grandma and when I was back home and checked twitter out I was like: "who t h are you and what did you do to our Kookie?!" JK got really wild with spamming us. Now I think that Kookie is precious cute bunny, incredibly talented and caring. We all know Jimin is not with a very good terms with Twitter rn yet we have JK to deliver these gems. I have no dubts he posted it not for us only, but for JM to make him smile and laugh in first place🙂

i-am-jikook-trash said: I think I just saw heaven honestly, JK (who bare posts on Twitter mind you) suddenly posting 3 videos (all about JM) and GCP (which is beautiful btw) left me in a very shock state. I don't think I've even recovered yet

Anonymous said: Since kookie is my bias, I was freaking out when I saw everything he posted. The selcas made me swoon, but the videos are what really got me. It's so nice to see jimin and kookie spending so much time together, and in good spirits when in each other's company. They really are attached at the hip and despite what anyone says, jimin is kookie's muse.

Anonymous said:Jungkook is that type of bf who loves recording and making fun of his partner (in a cute, good way). I loved the videos, I couldn't stop smiling

Anonymous said:JK would do anything to make JM laugh and adores dorky JM so much. And I adore seeing this JM through his lense! Three times!!! The last cryptic tweet was just the cherry on top. What has he been up to today?

And me 🍑🌸? It was: “wow, such beautiful views” to “WOW, HOBI!!!!” to “hmm, that hair colour looks nice on JK” to “JIMINIE CUTE” to “is JK drunk?” to “...” to “!!!” to “LOLOLOLOLOLOL” to:

#what has he been eating in Malta?

#can we feed Bunny that from now on?

[sokennyjenner]

I felt like I needed to say something since many people I love are leaving... I’m sorry for anyone who felt bad about what happened last night... and all the ones who struggled before that.

I do feel that it could be handled easier if someone had messaged the person ooc but then again I’m only saying so cause I got a strike myself cause some people I thought could had come to me bc I gave them the confidence to do so didn’t come to me first... like I know every person is different anyways and not gonna really say what happened last night was blowned out of proportion and I’m not blaming anyone for what happened to me in the past either cause I guess now they know how I felt bc i tried to be as clear as i could on private... it made me struggle with my muse? yeah and it still does...

I’ve also dealt with catfish, someone trash talking about me cause they wanted my ship partner and hated that he was my friends and not theirs. THAT when the person kept calling herself my friends. I had someone godmod me so badly I got to the point I had to drop my character bc everyone else hated him. AND im not meaning to say any of this to hurt anyone... idk I just had to take the chance to get that out of my chest cause I’ve been here for almost five years (or is it four?) idk I only know I joined just a few months after it opened so I think except Tini no one has been here longer than me...

I’m staying for the plots, for my character who i love to death but also cause I’ve been an admin myself, it’s not a real job guys... and it’s SO damn hard. Being an active admin consumes so much time you end up losing your muse... it sucks so I can’t really blame any of them for how they handle things?? Like as a rper I used to get really hurt with stuff but I learnt to let go easy (sucks? yeah very much.) I wish I could have one person here to call my real friend but being honest... idk if after so long I can say that... do I suck? Yes I do, english isn’t my first language so I’m probably not the best writer... and i talk a lot so i always feel annoying... and you can easily notice that cause i made a whole post talking about a lot of stuff when i am not leaving....

And I will stop it here bc i get emotional, once again I’m not feeling cause I learnt the hard way that this place isn’t a family for the people here... it is for the place itself... and i learnt it cause all those who called themselfs my friends ditched me, ignored me, or just never messaged me if i wasn’t the first to contact them. But I always understood everyone cause I’m a latina and the spanish rp community is different, we get closer to people, we call them our best friends. Actually my one best friend in the whole world is someone online who i’d be lost without. My partner, the person who talks to me in the daily, someone that never makes me feel annoying. Coming up to me to gossip stuff from the rp or asking for a plot (specially the one person who asked for a plot and then just vanished on me to pick someone new) is not being friends.

EVEN WITH THAT SAID, bc i needed it out of my chest, I will certainly miss all the ones leaving today just bc unlike most of you guys I DO get attached to people, online, irl, everywhere, it’s part of who i am and idfc if someone decides to judge me for that.

That being said I will end this post with what i initially wanted to write, for all the ones leaving and the ones who like me are staying, my IM’s on this account will always be open (even though i’m not sure if people im not following can mssg me bc for the weird blogs that kept messaging me i had to delete it) and I also have my personal blog in case someone ever needs me or just someone to talk to here the link and if you need my twitter or my number (this one just if we were friends tbh bc i dont like giving my number out to strangers) or if you have d*scord just message me and i will give it to you or we can find another way to keep in contact.

So long, farewell to the ones that are leaving, I will miss writing with you all <3

Oh and Sam, if you read this... i will forever love you, okay? like i used to make long ass posts on all the people i could call my friends on here and honestly through the years you are the only one I REALLY felt i could count with at any time. Not really anyones fault, maybe just cause i didnt feel comfortable around them or maybe not but still, i will miss you and if this makes me lose you i will forever miss you anyways and your keegan will always have a special place in my heart ok??

For the ones staying, dudes, take what happened as a lesson that even if it can be scary (i deal with anxiety too and im VERY insecure... reaching out to people or the admins in their accounts if you feel like it, is a better way to handle things... I feel like most people here are no killers, some are nicers, others are a little bit more distant but I feel like barely no one means wrong.

Just one IM can solve things easier, make someone undestand how you are feeling. I am the kind of oblivious person so at least with me do it, i wont bite you. Just be polite though xD 

And well, sorry i suck with words cause im to straight and sometimes a coldhearted bitch but I love you all, the ones staying, the admins, the ones leaving. Myself bc why not love myself (jkjk)