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tayloralisonswift · 10 months

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the nightmare of once working as a barista (especially where i did, because they literally trained me to taste the differences in roasts) is that i can tell when coffee is stale and i cannot drink it. god they made me so pretentious

#guess what I’m having this morning #stale coffee

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fakeoutbf · 4 months

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five stages of grief but it’s five stages of social anxiety

#walk with me #this morning i got a bouquet delivered to me at work randomly out of nowhere #the note basically said that i could count of the person even if for just some words of advice or a gesture that could make me laugh or mad #count on the person**#i immediately knew it’s from one of my coworkers and ngl i have a very charged?? relationship with them #in the sense that it’s very intense and we can be laughing joking and teasing or we can be really angry and pissed with each other #it can have very extreme emotions even if we just chill most of the time #idk why i think this whole year i’ve been leaning on them more?? and we started texting more often too #so we’ve been more properly friends lately #and for one i was SO EMBARRASSED for getting flowers bc my coworkers tease the shit out of everyone myself included and i’m not used to #gestures like that so obviously they were on my ass all day about it #and everyone asked about them and it’s EMBARRASSING to get that much attention #(me: i wanna be a singer / also me: can’t stand to be the center of attention)#anyway the person that sent them avoided me yesterday out of nowhere??? idk if they thought i was mad bc i didn’t reply to their texts all #weekend but i literally never reply to anyone and pms was a bitch and i just wanted to be alone #so they didn’t talk to me on monday i was mostly just working listening to music bc i was still emotional whatever #and today i did talk to my other coworkers bc it’s the day when my favorite coworker comes in and i talk to them a lot so i engaged more #and they were still ignoring me and then the flowers came in and we didn’t say a single word to each other today we just texted #they told me they sent them and that ‘they forgot’ what they sent and that it was just meant to be a nice gesture #and that bc they wanted to ‘surprise’ me and make me feel better bc i said i was sad at one point?? idek #i literally just want to tell them I HAD PMS ITS FINE I FEEL SUICIDAL ALL THE TIME and move on #bc now i’m second guessing everything they’re saying bc i thought we were friends and there’s no reason why friends can’t send each other #flowers or whatever but they’ve been avoiding me and then they keep answering my texts really weirdly and i always misinterpret flirting bc #i’m never outright romantic with anyone?? plus we’re FRIENDS i should have no reason to think that’s changed #but they’re being so weird and why get me FLOWERS??? idk get me a chocolate or a coffee i don’t NEED flowers #and then i said it was random to give me flowers out of nowhere and they’re like no it’s serious bro what’s serious??????#your feelings towards me?? or just your will to cheer me up???#if they don’t reply straight up in their next texts i’m gonna flat out say but it was a platonic gesture right???#so yeah i’m overthink getting flowers bc what’s the social code for that and what is one supposed to do when they get flowers from a friend #delivered to their joint workplace where everyone can see them and think they’re from a partner or something

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possiblyfunny · 22 days

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I forgot how to make posts, but don’t worry guys, I’m still alive-

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Heyyy! I finally drew Leaf! (Plus a slight Aster redesign-) This took way too long, and I apologize for the delay and the overall messiness. She had been sitting in my drawing program as a sketch for two months 😅 but with the Flashbacks up starting in Missing Numbers, I finally got the will to finish it!

Leaf Aoyama belongs to @creatively-cosmic. They have a blog called @themissingnumbers, which you should check out, like—right now.

[Sketch + Extras below the cut!]

Here’s the cover of the book, if you wanted that- (I know it’s crap but I’m tired)

[And for those who are curious, some notes about the art:

-The book is Aster’s. He’s read the book cover to cover well over 25 times. It’s his favorite book on flowers, but he’s more than happy to lend it to someone who wants to learn about flora.

-The content of the art (because there was intended to be a background that got scrapped-) is that Aster was showing Leaf around his secret garden deep in the woods, guiding her so that she wouldn’t get lost and showing her the different flowers and such. (That’s why she has the book-)

-You know how in some video games, you can press a button and whatever special companion you have will show up to give you a hint? (Ex: Navi, Fi, Rotom, Olivia, etc) That’s what Aster is doing right now. Whenever Leaf had a question—he had the answers.

-And if you’re wondering—Yes. Aster did make her a flower crown afterwards. And Yes, he thinks she looks very beautiful with flowers in her hair.]

#Again not my greatest work but here she is :)#I really didn’t mean for this to take so long but life hit me with a 3-piece chicken combo with a biscuit and no drink #I have been DEAD on my feet 😅#Again please excuse the messiness #It was supposed to have a really nice background but I couldn’t get myself to finish it #I’ve been chipping away at it since early July little by little whenever I had the energy #But with How It Feels To Disappear starting I got the will to finally finish it at 3 in the morning-#Was hoping to post it before everything went bad in the flashbacks but what can ya do?#Leaf was actually really fun to color for some reason :) so that was neat #Anyway- Aster is getting a redesign! (Probably anyway)#It’s not a huge redesign- just adding in some details that fit his character and changing the flowers #Funny detail- Aster’s very first design (in my head mind you) had yellow flowers #but when I drew him for the first time he ended up with purple flowers #(plus the yellow flowers tie into his LORE-)#I’m workshopping him right now so let me know what you think about this Legacy version of Aster #ALSO!: AU NAMEDROP- (it’s on the book)#I have plans to draw the faces of my AU at some point so look out for that I guess-#Anyway! I hope I did the homegirl Leaf justice! (Rare Leaf W for the win!)#Missing Numbers #Leaf Aoyama #My Art

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sailor-aviator · 5 months

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I’ve gotten more done since I took this last night, but progress report on the new project!! There’s like seven shades of red there already with more to come lol

#Liz creates #Liz’s personal tag #can you guess what I’m making?#also may or may not have dropped $66 at the craft store this morning #I got two new craft books and a crochet kit!#but I also lost my embroidery scissors last night somehow???#one second they were on the couch and the next they were gone???#and those suckers are like $12 alone at Joann’s #like fuck me #anyway

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muffingnf · 3 months

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we had a very sudden and shocking death of a resident at work yesterday evening and i’ve been thinking about how so many people say they wouldn’t want their loved ones to be in a home because they worry the staff wouldn’t care or their loved ones wouldn’t be looked after properly.

this lady was so loved that the admin at work had to ring everyone up who wasn’t on the morning shift to let them know before they got to work. when i got there for the afternoon shift there were people in bits. when her family came this evening both staff and the other residents were genuinely in tears. trust me people care and they care a lot

#tw death #personal #like i’m actually devastated #and it feels weird because part of me feels like i dont have a right to be super upset #because i’m not her family #and i didnt know her super long #but i did know her for almost my whole time working there and i saw her 5 days a week every week #she was a friend to me #she had been poorly the last few days but she’d been poorly before and bounced back #no one expected to lose her #and i think whats making it difficult is that every other resident i’ve experienced pass away #has been end of life or almost end of life #so i expected it and made peace with it #but i was literally talking to her and making jokes with her in the morning and then 8 hours later i get told she passed #fawk sorry this is long and personal but #maybe typing it all out will be beneficial #she was 94 and you never wouldve guessed looking at her and she was nicest kindest funniest lady ever it was a pleasure looking after her

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totopopopo · 3 months

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genuinely not quite sure why i am so deeply uncomfortable when it comes to telling ppl abt my personal/romantic life. like i want them to know but i also don’t like admitting to anyone out loud that i have emotions, feelings, and/or relations resembling anything beyond superficial interest. i mean jesus. how cringe. they should just intuit it all psychically or something so they can know without me ever having to bring it up myself

#like i’ve always been like this i didn’t tell my parents that i was dating my hs girlfriend for months #not bc i was scared of what they would say. i knew they’d take it fine. they knew i was gay and they knew i was close friends w her #but the thought of having to confess to my parents that i had romantic feelings for someone. and that she had romantic feelings for me.#that thought? EXCRUCIATING. MORTIFYING.#i was fine with them knowing it theoretically #but i just could not bring myself to admit to them face to face. UNPROMPTED. that i was dating somebody.#i ended up texting them as CASUALLY AS POSSIBLE in the family gc a like 12 in the morning #like hey btw just a heads up me and [girl] are dating okay bye #like lmaaooo they probably don’t even REMEMBER this now but i vividly remember drafting that text at the time like jesusss chriiiiiissstttt #but that was also true for my best friend i didn’t tell HER i was dating my gf for a while TOO and i don’t think i actually told any of our #friends just let them learn via osmosis and that was great that was ideal #i just don’t feel comfortable talking about myself to other people at all like in person #obviously writing it all out is fine like i’m sharing this on my blog bc again I don’t mind people knowing stuff #i just don’t like having a one on one conversation with anybody about any facet of my identity feelings personhood at all #and again i don’t know why that’s true. it’s kinda funny. it’s also something i’m gonna have to just suck up and take like sorry kid #welcome to the mortifying ordeal of being known #¯\_(ツ)_/¯#anyways lmao i was just thinking about that again bc. well for obvious reasons but also because it happened during pride month LMAO #and looking up pride events near me this evening reminded me of that specifically #man #i guess i haven’t changed at all since i was 16 lol #better taste in people now though i think #cest la vie and all that

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corpium · 4 months

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Took a DnD alignment quiz and got true neutral and my brother was like “huh. I thought you’d be chaotic good,” and I’m like “sure, to YOU, but basically everyone else can go fuck themselves,” and really, I think that demonstrates how accurate the test is.

#I think a lot of people who test as Good TM are liars lol #or naive #which also maybe proves the accuracy of the test #but I seriously I got this from a bunch of gamers who tested as Good #and I think the ability to save scum in games gives people false ideas of what they’re capable of #like all this discourse about the emperor and him not letting himself be mercy-killed #as if he should have laid down and died and these people think they would have in his place #nah #self-preservation is such a base instinct people forget #I don’t think you really know yourself until you’ve been in dire circumstances #and well honestly I’m glad a lot of people haven’t #but I think people will surprise themselves in the moment by how selfish they can be #maybe that’s why I judge myself so much lol #but I guess I’m proud of myself too bc while I may not sacrifice myself for a cause #I stood between my father and my brother far too often at the risk of my own safety #and between my ex and his kid #they were worth it #but the rest of the world?#that’s asking a lot I’m not willing to give #especially since I don’t live in high fantasy lmao #morning rambles #I’ve been thinking a lot about morality recently #no wonder I got obsessed w bg3 recently #its themes line up with my recent ruminations so well

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thebirdmanhewatches · 1 year

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Image description a mostly monotone grey brown comic the comic goes: “I found my old camp” jeff looks at a shack surrounded by greenery “but there was a man inside” jeff looks into the shack door at Tim sitting cross legged on the floor, a close up of Tim’s face from the side profile staring at Jeff “and when he looked at me I got the sense that he’d lost everything to that thing” jeff standing in the door frame backlit “and if I ever stopped running” jeff looking to the side at the operator which is emanating static and goes beyond the panel “I would too” end image description

I spread my Jeff the killer no top surgery no binder tank top agenda

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janiedean · 6 months

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i would beg my brain chemistry to magically realign itself on a sensed wavelength before I end up begging for meds i don’t think it’s too much to ask is it /s

#personal for ts #ngl i get why therapist would rather not but god i just cried for twenty minutes #because i couldn’t find the thing you use to put water in the iron #and i looked at the living room desk which is a complete mess and burst out in tears #i’m late answering EVERYTHING I can’t bring myself to get out of bed at the right time in the morning #I need to finish commissions and I can’t do three sentences #and ofc 90% of the relatives think that i either need to calm down and NO NEED TO STRESS or think i have no reason to be stressed anyway #i’m so fucking tired #and like i know that i’m shit at getting over things quick and i just got worse with age #idek what i’m getting at #and i feel ridiculous bc ik what kicked me into the spiral #and i need to get the fuck over it because there is no way i’m getting any closure on that front #i KNOW that #but my brain doesn’t i guess #we’re back at i am this picture and i don’t like ir while staring at stannis baratheon aren’t we #sigh #anyway sorry for the debbiedownering s2g im answering everyone soon

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rosicheeks · 26 days

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how is the sale going?

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#awful #genuinely don’t know if it was even worth it #I guess we shall see once my dad counts up what we made in total #but it can’t be that much tbh #I blame the fact that it was Labor Day weekend and the last weekend for my state fair #so feel like people are busy and not gonna go to a stupid garage sale 🤦🏽‍♀️#I didn’t know it was the last weekend of the state fair otherwise I would have been like ‘ehhh let’s do next weekends’#whatever whatever #i didn’t get any sleep last night #I accidentally snapped on my family a few times #I was not doing ok this morning #like at all #doing a little better now?#just kinda upset the sale was such a bust #I knew it wasn’t going to be huge but was hoping maybe one or two mom or grandmas would come through and buy a bunch of baby clothes/toys #but nah #most people came through and was like ‘sorry we don’t have any kids or grandkids’ and then they would leave #bah humbug #I’m exhausted #now I have to clean downstairs even though I’ve been nonstop going for the past few days #I just want to lay down and pass out 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️#doesn’t help that I hate weekends #don’t remember the last ‘good’ weekend I had #my meds don’t seem to be doing shit #and I feel like a jumbled jambled mess #hopefully the day will turn around a little bit #need to get energy to shower and wash the grossness of the last week off tbh #thanks for asking though #how’s your weekend going? 🫶#ask

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explode-this · 15 days

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#unfuckingbelievable #fellas #is it enough to take the day off from work to spend time with your spouse on your anniversary #and then not even bother saying ‘happy anniversary’ because it’s y’know OBVIOUS why you took the day off?#forget a card or flowers or anything else for that matter #because those didn’t happen either #but not even saying a perfunctory *happy anniversary* because it’s *obvious*?#i guess that can be the new standard for birthdays too! why not?#and for the record that ‘spending time’ was fucking up an autistic woman’s morning routine #and then staying face planted in a phone before spending an hour in choice paralysis not knowing what tv show to watch #over two decades lads #and we don’t say ‘happy anniversary’ because we both know the date and it’s OBVIOUS #un. fucking. believable.#i do not even know how to express the hurt right now #like i had my expectations so low you only have to step over them #and yet #i feel like a real fucking asshole just venting about this #but even my shitty dad got my mother a card every year on their anniversary #and this one supposedly likes me #in an aroace kind of way #does being aromantic preclude a person from saying ‘I’m glad i married you’?#it doesn’t have to be said with flowers but it could at least be said #i am begging for clear communication and all i got was a bunch of ‘well it’s obvious innit’#over two decades #and i make pie every week #and this is what i get #💔

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scribbleshrimp · 1 year

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hey i just wanted to thank you for escam. i know youre like done with uploading it but you were one of the only things keeping me on there for a while. which i guess im also thanking you for stopping

Glad you liked it! It makes me really really happy that it had a positive impact on a few people. I kinda cringe looking back at it, it was full of spelling mistakes and inconsistencies and really odd narrative choices (holyyy shit the fig tree motif that was supposed to be a core thing was poorly brought up and feels so out of place reading back) but it was my first attempt of actually writing character dialogue and an overarching story. TikTok is EVILL I can’t believe how shitty I felt about myself due to a few comments saying it was mediocre like yeah duh it was my first attempt writing something that wasn’t an essay for school! Of course it wasn’t perfect!!! Why is it a crime to not have professional level work for a hobby. That app is super cruel to beginners, the “art lore” stuff there that’s just bullying kids for being bad at anatomy is super malicious. But despite that scrambling to post videos during lunch in the middle of a noisy cafeteria while also prepping for a math test is memories I cherish lol. It’s kind of annoying that I think the thing I’ll be most remembered for are my characters that I developed as an edgy teenager since I’m not really planning on sharing more of my stories publicly but it makes me super thrilled that people found value in it. Okay okay sorry I’m rambling I just get excited when people willingly read my work. It makes me feel like a 5th grader discussing my warrior cat ocs during recess again. I’m glad you deleted TikTok that place rots the mind and soul.

#I’m done with Escam and that whole era of my life was one where I wasn’t really happy #but that doesn’t stop me from happpily daydreaming Mallory animatics I’ll never draw while listening to music #I have a complicated relationship with the people who live in my head #they still talk constantly and it’s super loud and annoying. I occasionally still wrote out what they are saying #or else they don’t leave my brain alone!!!#right now they are debating the ethics of art preservation. Efron has very strong opinions on it #mallory even stronger #anywayssssss thanks for leaving this lovely anon it made my night #or uhhhh my morning I guess #good lord it’s 3am and I have plans at 7am #this ask was a sign from the universe to sleep probably

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spw-art · 2 months

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my mind is being consumed by the lilycovers. they’re all so . gently exploding them in my mind I’m not coherent rn

#lilycoving #I guess I’ll start tagging that! reminder for me to retag in the morning #RAGH #glad to say that Bow Vera is now officially a Lilycover again #I mean she’s always been in the background but now she’s BACK!#for REAL #I’m forgetting what I’m saying right after I type it and I’m on mobile so it just disappears #whatever #I have one billion thoughts

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senzasord · 2 months

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