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jrueships · 3 months

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something invokes the carnal rage in me when a grown man rages like a two-year old over a video game

#it makes me think of the mothers trying to act like theyre defusing an already blown up bomb and it's literally just #idk #it just gives me the ick im srry the moment i hear one 'me' entitled statement and it's not like #clearly burnt out 'i kinda know im being ironic' ventong #venting LMAO #and just genuine sorrow for urself #over a Digital Game #i just cant srry #maybe it's my youngest to an older brother who everyone gets the ages flipped around Not just from looks but actual Acting #syndrome #and of course context plays a part too like if u have a stressful af job and just wanted to rewind? understandable. id be pissed too #but mfers who just Sit there and continue to stink the whole room up is like. ok. get some air or smthin #i do Not fuck around with throwing or damaging expensive shit ESPECIALLY if u did not pay for it #idk im naturally good at video games i think only bcs i only had access to old one that were way above my age audience #so i had to develop a sense of patterning not just to have competition but to just play the game at all #but still i have gotten frustrated at games bcs everyone gets frustrated at smthing #but usually now. at my grown age. (even tho i Rarely ever game anymore bcs i cant rlly so anything not active in my mind #bcs of Guilt and Constant Dread of Judgement)#when i find myself getting frustrated it's bcs im purposefully either playing a harder level/mode/with better ppl so i can advance #and the advancing is just not happening #i acknowledge that and accept not every difficulty can be passed at one time or at all sometimes in my limited time/care so i just either #Shut it Off. or go back down to a pace i know can just be carefree #i DO have a thing where i Need to end on a win. which is not good bcs i do that with everythin (like sports) in order to justify me quittin #but if i have to get out of the rlly competitive lobby to get my dopamine then i will bcs this is meant to give u that #anyways it's just insane. ted complains abt superfocus while being superfocused himself on the concept of superfocus #the neverending story #DO anything not active** idk it's my fear of death maybe that i disease myself with everything needing a purpose when it comes to gain

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halfbit · 3 months

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fun guessing game you get to have with your family when you're mixed: was the shit they pulled racially motivated or not

#they brought home a job app for me for a hibachi place #i am pretty happy with doing my cleaning + art tho and i don't really want to do anything culinary or food service related #i'd rather just get more hours again cleaning :/ idk i'll think about it but i don't handle time-pressure well #cleaning is good for me because as long as i accomplish the tasks i am okay and i can do them in any order i want #anyway i have to be careful though because if i go too long without 'working enough' for their tastes they start taking furniture out of #my room lol #thankfully i finally was able to buy most of my own furniture though during my job so the only things they could take now are like #the tv bookcase and fan #i guess they could take the computer too but they gave that to me years ago so it would be kinda weird if they did #i am a grown ass man but i'm probably not gonna be free from this shit until i can finally move out #gahhh it is what it is #i'm gonna text my boss on monday and see if there's any open buildings i could take for at least another day of work #if not then i'll pick up something random i guess #but i honestly like having more time/energy to work on my art even though being home more sometimes sucks #i might try to do longer days to make up for it?#idk. lots to think about.

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cuyberpunk · 8 months

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even duolingo has given up on me

#vicki's shit #like i have 0 motivation to do anyhting #but i have shit to do in order to get grades and go to a decent college and have a good jobs so i can leave here and support myself.#i barely have anytime for myself and my “friends”#and it sucks #because i HAVE to get these grades #i have so many people counting on me #i dont really remember the last time i didn't have like someone counting on me to do something #like why me?#and i cant let them down #its just all so much #i barley hav anytime just sit and rest #my mind will not stop worrying that because im not doing anything im a failure and i don't have enough time!#we all have limited time and im wasting it here???#and its all craxy here since i llive in the same region to palestine and all the news is bad and everyone is sad and i'm not blaming anyone #but my heart is always beating to much and i hate it #does that make sense?#i just feel like a failure because i get tired easy but i cant feel like that because the entire ficking world is conting on me #i dont remmeber the last time i could just breathe without someone breathing down my back #like give me a break!!!#i sound so ungrateful wtf #im sorry #vick's shit

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mistress-light · 10 months

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Whelp, I am officially overworked since last week. Had a breakdown, couldn’t think, felt empty as hell. But, here I am getting there.

#mistress blabbling #a lot of shit happend but i am doing everything that i can #on doctors orders i have to stay home and not work at all #which is something i am still trying to come to terms with #and my boss is a sweetheart though but it’s not just from this job #i had so many jobs in a short time and everytime i had to proof my ass again and again #new people #and i am just completely drained #i just hated it so much having to leave a job because they get rid of you when they have a year that’s not going well for them #i haven’t slept so good in a long time #i just want a stable life is that too much to ask?#i’ll see what the future brings #one step and then another #so i am just gonna chill and i’ll see what 2024 is gonna bring me

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gibbearish · 10 months

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oh psa but if you're in an industry that checks IDs and the person in front of you is clearly trans, don't make comments about anything on that ID. for instance saying "OMG your middle name's Danielle? that's my name too!!!" to someone 5 feet tall with a full beard is perhaps not the best choice one could make if one didn't want to put a neon glowing sign above that person's head saying "THIS IS A TRANSGENDER" to everyone they're with

#it is p funny tho going out places with cis / nb-and-always-presented-as-agab friends and always getting singles out abt my #id in Some Way and them always being like ??? wtf that was so weird what was up with that #and i have to be the one to be like 'remember that my id has an f on it' and theyre like :0 ....... >:0!!!!#like fuckin. the time i got id'd at goddamn jack in the box????#she was like 'yeah we have to check it on all orders over $25' which had never happened before and has never happened since because #its fucking jack in the box so every stupid order is over $25 #for important context i was driving and bf in passenger seat was paying so id handed her his card and was way less passing than now #so once we left travis was like yo wtf that was so weird why on earth would they id someone at jack in the box?????#and im like well because i look like this and i handed her a credit card with the name travis on it and people making #up reasons to check trans-looking peoples ids to verify if theyre trans or not is unfortunately not an uncommon occurance #and he was completely floored that that was even a possibility #which like mood when i was doing bev steward literally the only thing i was thinking about on those ids was birthdays #course i was working at a theme park so we had ids from all over the country #and world but nonamericans had passports which are much more consistent than state ids #so id get handed someones id and just be like ugh ok where do they hide it on this one i have 50 people in line i dont have time for this #like why would i be wasting time casually perusing their gender marker yknow i have shit to do #so the fact that there are people who will feel the need to know that so bad that theyll do that is just wild to me and presumably him too #(working there was how we met and he ended up being bars lead then full water park sup after i left the job)#but yeah after he had his 'wait people actually do that?' realization he was just like '....well then good thing it was my card so we had to #give her my id so she'll never get to know for sure‚ get fucked' LMAO #ooh or when me and a friend went to trader joes and bought drinks cause i collect cool drink cans and when the cashier was checking #my id i made a joke to ny friend abt my picture looking like bobby hill and the cashier was like 'GASP dont say that about yourself youre #beautiful!!' which i believe i did have the beard by this point so it was a pretty obvious dig #and the picture super does look like bobby hill by the way like ill show yall if anyone's curious but literally no one irl has disagreed #except this one random woman lmao. but we get out and my friends like ????????? that was so weird #why did she say that????? and im like. well it has an f on it remember #and once again the :0 -> >:0 transformation #like it sucks having it happen but there is smth really funny abt watching friends so inclusive something like that never even #occured to them realize that thats a thing people will do and it just happened right in front of them #shoutout to my roommates friend tho who has worked at a sex shop and weed shop and changed my rewards account name for both to chosen name

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dirt-str1der · 1 year

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Do you consider any of the non protagonist yakuza girls well writen?

I think none of them had rights

#Thanks for the ask !#like you have to actively like girls to notice them theyre inconsequential #also who is this why are you sewing discorse in my inbox #i spelled discourse wrong. my mom ordered the dog trainers to train ollie right now because he is insane and hes eating soo many treats #not because hes a good boy but because they are tossing that shit at him #they were literally almost there with yasuko #i thought her story was so fucking interesting ...#like its really not a fault of the girls they are all pretty good characters in their own right #like we have a variety of them too. we had miss tatsu who was out there turning guys inside out but she randomly had to go get kidnapped in #order to complete kiryus training arc. like how funny would it be for the whole thing to be staged and miss tatsus like Lol good job kiryu #for passing my test. oh this guy ? yeah he did get the better of me but i kicked the shit out of him then roped him into my schemes. dont #you think practical application is more effective than training ? anyway theres nothing more i can teach you but you can come train whenevr #we didnt even get an in game appearance for yuko but apparently she was a massive troll but too cute to get into any real trouble #mirei was. . . i literally said ‘are you kidding me’ when they revealed what happened to her like seriously ? is this real ? they did #that ? like literally she should have been living it up in cahoots with katsuya and being so sexy and divorced forever. she should have #faked her death because every single parentsl figure haruka had leaves her. and god haruka like honest to god i love that she just ran off #like that i thought it was so kiryu of her to be an absent father. but also my friends have all brought up very good points which is that #haruka should NOT have gone back to morning glory like she should have stayed in ono michi with her loser girlfriend whos a boyfriend with #her new extended family and only go back every now and then to see her siblings honestly i hated that .... like girl spread your wings ..#choose where you want to roost stop going back !! just get out !!!!!! its literally okay to tell the rest of your family ‘i dont wanna wipe #your asses forever i love you guys but im out of here’. and god i .. as much as i loved y0 makoto should have left her shitassed husband #girl had a whole ass baby with him ... find someone better im sorry ..!!! like whatever i know that thst was the ‘best’ option for her and #she deserves financial stability and a rich doctor husband but she also deserves crazy sex with a girl with one eye #i think what yumi did was awesome but like. actually i have no complaints about yumi. wait no i do. kazama was a shitass for marrying her #off to that politician because he couldnt stand having a woman in his house. im now thinking of that unecessarily hot doctor from y0 wtf was #her deal. and god the unnecessarily hot cho-han lady from y5.. oh wait ako had rights. she fell in love with kiryu at first sight then got #over him which is literally the best thing a girl could do for herself. PLUS she throws molotovs and is generally awesome #i cant remember any other girl. oh yeah god reina. .. reina .... god milky though .... i think she was fantastic and i want her badly. and #yayoi fucking disappeared after a certain point in time and ran off to another city with her baby daddy and sugared him to open a bar #well its not canon but im certain thats what happened because she literally went radio silence like girl where are you ....

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greppelheks · 1 year

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I've got a busy week ahead with four days of work, a job interview, an appointment with my therapist, two days of celebrating my birthday, lots of packages to pick up (I'm getting my shit together) and lots of grocery shopping, baking and cooking for my birthday.

#personal #I've got a job interview at the library; I'm still not sure if I want to quit my current job (gotta make a pro cons list this week)#and I've got an appointment with my therapist to look into a new approach #I also really really want to go to the vegetable garden to work it's been forever #and I also need to do an online survey from my therapist to see if my symptoms have improved #I'm getting my shit together 'cause lots of my clothes aren't good anymore and I'm fixing a new wardrobe #and I've decided to stop living in this apartment temporarily but settle a bit more #'cause it's gonna be a few more years before I find something I can afford #and I might as well make it nice here which reminds me i need to order some stuff...#which also reminds me I got lots of cleaning and decluttering to do before my birthday visitors #I also need to fix my hair in some way and get a good outfit for my job interview (everything nice is oversized or ill fitting or scraggly)#and I need to order some more stuff

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regular-lord-reckoner · 2 years

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i am so happy i will be in colorado tomorrow instead of putting up with this awful ass warm weather georgia has so hatefully given us this week

#i’m finally doing that trip to the stanley hotel i was going to do like 2 years ago #i’m double boosted and had my flu shot #i’m wearing a mask everywhere #and given that i’m mostly going to be in a hotel room chilling with some ghosts #i think it’ll be okay #also i think it’s supposed to snow today in estes park so i am excited #only downside is i get back on my birthday on Monday and it’s going to be 80 degrees so :/#maybe i can bring cooler weather back with me #anyway i’ve been up since 6 am trying to get caught up on work #since i’m the only person at my job who has to be a week ahead on all my shit in order to take a week off #but i’m aaaaalmost done and then i can finally start enjoying my vacation!!#should probably pack my stuff at some point today too……#we’ll get there!!#for now a leetle break because if i do another chart right now i’m going to scream :3 #also i’m already clocked out for the day anyway but y’know #aaaanyway hope everyone has a good weekend coming up!!

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eri-blogs-life · 2 years

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i can’t even cry good right now cause my nose is all stuffed up so it’s hard to breath so i can’t just let myself go and bawl my eyes out

#my food order hasn't arrived yet and i'm low on fuckin... blood sugar or whatever #whenever i miss a meal i get sad #and i mean technically it's really just whenever anything deviates from my norm i get sad #and sometimes when things are going normally i get sad #depression's a bitch #i can't bring myself to call up the restaurant and ask about the status of my order #cause i'm too fucking depressed and anxious god damn it #i feel #very #very...#worthless #like for real what's even the point of me being around y'know?#shit job that is actively not good for humanity #shit physical and mental health #shit financial situation #got good friends but i don't feel like i can rely on them in times like this or any time ever #like i feel like if i'm not positive 100% of the time i'm around friends they're gonna leave me #my family sitch is .. okay but not amazing #love life's DOA #and now i'm sick on top of that with a sick that hasn't left me for like two fucking months #and the worst thing #THE WORST THING #is I KNOW all of that is a fucking lie #i know my fucking bad mental health depressed-ass brain is going to negative extremes #like yeah a bunch of shit is not so good right now but there's also presumably a lot of good stuff #but my brain absolutely will not latch on to any of that no matter what i think #no matter how i try #and knowing that i know that... and that depression isn't something you can just get over or cure or whatever #knowing that i'm gonna be stuck feeling like this for my whoel fucking life...#definitely makes me wish my life were not so fucking long

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asbestieos · 2 years

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actually no i work so hard bcos im perpetually paranoid of being fired 😭😭😭 i need to give my manager so many reasons why she NEEDS me

#battery acid suffering #i would be fine even if i lost this job #bc my parents r awesome #but im so neurotic #i bring my nuis to work and have an anxiety attack if my bar gets too many stickers and i panic attacka if the cafe fills up witn too many p #eople waiting for their drinks #and im a REALLY good worker im so fucking efficient at stacking drinks its no joke #so the ONLY times i get backed up is when a mistake happens thats out of my control #like someone took an order at the front register wrong (happens so fucking often) or someone placed their mobile order wrong #THATS when i get stressed out. because its NOT my fault but i WILL be blamed for it if i dont catch up #ugh im so annoyed sorry #recently my coworkers have been really bad about punching in orders correctly at front register and it fucks me up so bad at mobile bar #esp the newest shift lead #i swear she just doesnt fucking comprehend or ask them shit to make sure for their drinks!!!!!#and we need people to be thorough at register so when rushes happen we dont have to be backed tf up fixing messed up orders

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dragqueenpentheus · 2 years

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just swept and vacuumed and mopped and showered and !!!!!!

#i ordered pizza as a good job but #the satisfaction of dumping that dirty mop water was reward alone holy shit #and my floors look so NIIIICE #and smell so GOOOD #tomorrow is more cleaning. i think dishes and counters will be the main focus #but i'm fr so proud of myself for this one lads lol #irl #and i'm not cleaning under PRESSURE either which helps with the whole thing #like i can take my time and breaks and it's okay #it's just getting cleaned for me and mysh and the house herself 💕

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spikeyjo · 4 days

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also uh im kind of not thinking about it much because its insane. but if everything goes right (and i mean a considerable amount of things that probably wont go as planned) but if they DO... i will have a major surgery in like two weeks