#gonna word vomit rn

[roses-n-rads]

huhlh

[sfsolstice]

I'm having wicked dreams Of leaving Tennessee Oh, Santa Monica I swear it's calling me

[pinkspiraling]

i got dinner with the friend i’m moving out with and i feel so inspired. she always makes me feel inspired as fuck to make my life the way i want it. i’ve decided to start the “side hustle” that i’ve been thinking about for like a month because i realized that’s the only path i can see right now that makes sense. if the world isn’t going to offer me a way to survive i’ll find my own fucking way dude no matter what other people think. this is my life and i don’t wanna be miserable at a 9-6 job where i make practically nothing. i wanna take ownership of my life and make shit happen. i’m so tired of waiting around and feeling like life is only beating me down again and again. fuck life and fuck what people expect of me, i will do what i want to do and what will actually get me to a good place. i’m gonna stay in school and aim for an established career but for now….imma be showing my ass online idc lmaoooo

[goldenhypen]

i cannot even comprehend what just happened someone help me i didn’t realize i was crying until the video was over but omg it was a whole mv omg i’m so proud of him i’m in loveee w his voice omg at the very first moment i already had goosebumps over my whole body also him saying “i don’t think im okay” broke my heart in ways i didn’t know it could. ik it’s just a song but him singing it like that made it feel so real. him singing this whole song broke my heart. he better actually be okay cuz if not i will personally fly over to whoever or whatever is preventing him from happiness and take matters into my own hands 😠 k but omg jake is smth else man he’s had sm potential from the v beginning and these days he’s finally rlly shining and it makes me so happy to see omg ok this cover has given me sm to think about yall pls stream it. stream it for jake. he’s worked so hard. ugh this was actually a masterpiece. tell me he’s okay tho 😭 WAIT ALSO JAKE HIGH NOTES i almost forgot to say- that was insane pls when do we ever get jake high notes???? heavenly. hea👏🏻ven👏🏻ly👏🏻 he was insane for this. truly insane. i didn’t even know it was possible to fall even deeper in love w this man but he proved me wrong yet again. so proud of him for this.

[borom1r]

hm. for all my joking sometimes it really does hit that like yeah autism is in fact a disability affecting my fucking brain. but we stay silly!!!!

[which-star]

you know I don't really like Asian rep being flattened into kpop/anime/thai bl drama/the like, and I know a majority of it is outsourcing because it's cheaper to get already established IP instead of making your own, but the sheer amount of it is so. not annoying, but- I guess overwhelming? It's like people forget their critical thinking because -- in the case of a lot of these foreign media -- you're not just getting a specific kind of Asian rep, but you're also getting certain intersections with same-sex romances (which is easy to latch onto because it's a different culture and people can treat it as a fantasy world- there might be some orientalism there mayhaps). I feel like in the search for "new diverse media," people forget to look inwards at works by the Asian diaspora (possibly even being made in their own country!!) because of how big the Asian content market from across the world is. Haha, it's almost like the people of color in western countries don't have a voice and their stories don't count because the countries overseas (where those people of color belong, obviously) have shiny things like BL and K-Pop to fetishize/orientalize.

I'm not saying that Asian diaspora made content is not popular, because it is. The success of so many of those stories recently is evident by that. I'm just saying that when you zoom out and flatten all the forms of Asian rep we get, the majority is produced by people in Asia and not the diaspora. Which inherently means a difference in content and cultural norms, and having one be a bigger preference than the other in the eyes of the general public of the west carries implications.

[aquatic-batt]

this is definitely gonna come out as word vomit but bear with me I’m trying to organize my thoughts via writing LNEKFJF

I have like two separate ideas for my version of Vanny that I want to try to combine? one is more motive-focused and the other is more action-focused if that makes sense

I’m thinking that maybe she’s been interested in Fazbear Entertainment for a very long time, specifically the animatronics, and wants to be part of the tech team. that’s why she became a beta tester—as a sort of stepping stone to get her up in the ranks to actually work with the animatronics. however, when she was trying to get any position related to the animatronics, she instead got placed as a security guard. she’s relatively pissed off about this but not enough to do anything about it. at first. William began contacting her during beta testing and can sense her frustration and starts feeding into her anger, attempting to make her feel like the company is out to get her and is treating her very unfairly by denying her the positions she wants. this makes her more and more vengeful and angry, feeling as though she has a right to work how she wants and that they just don’t like her. William tries to convince her that if she can bring him to life somehow, he can help her.

this is where the second idea comes in mind—Vanny has to BUILD him a body, Frankenstein-style. this is why she starts killing kids, to try and build William as realistic of a body as possible for him in order to revive him and have him help her get what she wants. this kind of explains why his suit in game has organic parts despite the fact that the original Springtrap suit with his body inside is destroyed. GR Bonnie’s suit would basically work as a shell for the rest of the body parts to be placed in to help keep it al together. Vanny kinda becomes a mad scientist/doctor/whatever. this is where I’m partially torn bc to fit this I think it would be a fun idea if she was very interested in like. human anatomy and really fucked up experiments.

yeah so I’m having this debate about whether she should be someone studying technology which leads into the whole “I want this position and will do anything to get it” route OR she’s studying to be a doctor which leads into her interest in fucked up experiments and knowledge of human anatomy

[cloudbrooksblog]

my misinformation journey (lmao)

When i was like 11 or 12, I was watching a movie with my sisters. I'd recently watched a Cinema Sins video on the movie. I parroted things that were said in the video.

My sister pointed this out. She said, "you got that from a Cinema Sins video, didn't you?"

I was intensely embarrassed, so much that I still think about it. Of course, I'm 17, so it was relatively recent, and also parroting other people word for word is cringe, but it's also because I attempted to deny it. And later on, I couldn't figure out why it was wrong. If I saw the flaw after he pointed it out, why is it bad to make the same comment? I can see that he was right, even if I hadn't watched the movie on my own before that. Even if I hadn't double-checked, he presented the evidence to me.

I was evaluating my actions in a flawed way. Obviously, there's something annoying about someone pointing out petty flaws in something you're just trying to enjoy. In the Helluva Boss fandom, I've learned that. But it's also flawed in a way that's extremely important once you bring it to a more serious context.

Near the start of this year (2023) I was in an online discussion, in the comments of a Youtube community post. There was a meme about Hamilton (the musical), and I recalled my sister saying the creator of the musical (Lin-Manuel Miranda) was white. I parroted this without double-checking. If you'll see my profile picture, this was insane of me. I left the situation only halfway learning the lesson, but at least I didn't argue with people calling out my bullshit that time, and at least I apologised. I'm saying this as a personal acknowledgement of my growth since 12 years old, but compared to the bare minimum there's no silver lining. It's a flaw of mine that still needs work to this day. Speaking of which...

Talking out of your ass/bluffing is a thing that's easy to spot in others, especially if you disagree with them or are more knowledgeable about the subject than they are. I said that while talking out of my ass. I have one singular example of this from a podcast I recently watched where Fredrik Knudsen (documentarian) went onto the Official Podcast and fact-checked one of the hosts, who was being extremely judgemental, speaking about subjects that Fredrik knows tons about, and also was being extremely disrespectful to Fredrik the entire time via interrupting him. He also used the word "schizophrenic" as an insult. Remember that.

It was easy to spot then, but that's because it was an extreme example with a (hyperbolically) fact-checking expert present. I can't think of other examples off the top of my head, and I'm not going to check. I think a better framing would be to point at that situation as one single example of this flaw being fatal, rather than using it to generalise, unless I plan on checking. I'm trying to get better at it, but this post isn't just a personal benchmark, I promise.

I watched a video about AI by a relatively small Youtube creator named Jimmy McGee today. I absorbed the information without really thinking about it. I already mostly agreed with him, and what I didn't agree with him about I was simply neutral on and/or uninformed about. In the comments of a video called "The Dream of the Internet", there's someone using the word "schizophrenic" as an insult; an awkward synonym for the word "batshit". I also recently saw it being used as an insult by the previously mentioned podcaster, and overheard it being used as one while out in public. This is more frequent use than I'm used to witnessing. I wanted to make a post about it. I connected it to the way Andrew Tate and Sneako have undeniably made an impact in our culture already-- According to the viral video of teenage Sneako fans, and some vague anecdotes about Tate fans being numerous and loud. There's nothing wrong with believing individual anecdotes, but there's something wrong with basing a portion of your worldview on them, in my opinion.

The fear of mind control-- of algorithms designed to keep you glued to your screen-- is brought out in me by these anecdotes. It was almost certainly created by them, I reckon. I connected these fears and anecdotes with some final parts of McGee's AI video, and suddenly there's a fully-formed opinion: "Casual ableism is becoming more common because ableist people are getting popular online-- all because of the algorithms that want you glued to their sites".

It's an unnuanced, reactionary opinion. I'm glad I caught myself. This flaw of mine is something I started thinking about vaguely after the Hamilton thing, because I TRUSTED my sister, and I was CERTAIN she told me that, but it was also put at the forefront of my mind after seeing the podcast episode where a host got continuously spotted talking out of his ass in a way that's extremely easy for anyone to do, especially myself. Even though I'm against cringe culture, extremely left-leaning, etc, I still talk out of my ass like Alex Jones does. I steadily work on it, slowly, and now that there was an example where I caught myself BEFORE posting, I thought I'd make a post analysing myself. Thank you to anyone who read this. Pls don't roast me too hard about it LOL

[straykats]

hi guys i shouldnt be active rn but i have so much to say on (queer) diasporic writings and also specifically on vietnamese diasporic writings, though i recognise that i am mad biased in that regard. i just really want to do a deep dive into the discourses surrounding diasporic writings 🤩🤩🤩

on a different note, i love yous and hope u all feel loved and i hooe u havent missed any major life updates/the chance to congratulate someone/be happy with and for them, or the chabce to say bye to anyone (i really hope i havent missed the latter)

[mnty-bubblegmyum]

I wanna kiss the scars on polina

[29121996]

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[keirawantstocry]

wasnt feeling great and was reminded of an old music video i was obsessed with and im fucking telling you guys. this fucking thing changed the way i thought about life when i was a young teen.

im sat in my room rn supposed to be sleeping just bawling my eyes out. i love this video. it hurts but its so damn good

[pinkspiraling]

drinking is reallyyyy fun until i get the spins every single night and morning. then it’s not so fun and i tell myself i’ll stop. and then nighttime comes around and i give up again

[pieseas]

no more tumblr confessions. i need to invest in the journals i have that are just collecting dust.

& if you ☀️ opened this stop lurking ! and acknowledge

[thegempage]

am i like. seriously having an anxiety attack right now

[sugawhaaa]

ATEEZ REACTION🥧

🍨Creampie first time 🍨

Warnings::SMUT

genre:: creampie (obviously) all of them are missionary :) praise, cursing, squirting (san) oral (san, Wooyoung) overstimulating (Seonghwa, San)

Pairing:: ateez x fem!reader

Ateez headcanons masterlist:: here

A/N:: MY UTERUS IS IN SO MUCH PAIN RN IM LITERALLY CONVUSLING FROM THE WAIST DOWN WHILE TRYING NOT TO VOMIT but yk it's okay bc I always get cramps a week before, during and after my period 🥰 but on a serious note should I see a doctor or...am I just a woman

Taglist:: @haarrrys

🌸Hongjoong🌸

-Argue with me all you want but this man is possessive as hell over you so when you first told him he could cum inside he lost his shit.

-"R-Really?" He would look at you stunned for a moment before smiling. "Okay get naked right now,"

-he'd drag out the sex for so long making sure you both get the best climax of your entire lives. He wants this to be so special.

-when he first gets fully inside you without a condom you can see the lust just fill his eyes.

-he would try to hold off cumming to get you as excited as he can and when he finally gets that one last thrust in, his mind just blanks out.

"Baby I'm gonna cum soon," Hongjoong says softly as he rubs one of your nipples with his thumb. His other hand is holding his body up, his hand right next to your head. "I can't wait to fill you up," he moans softly. "Your gonna be all mine," he says with a little voice crack as he finally thrusts one last time before his cock starts twitching.

Hongjoongs eyes go wide as his mouth hangs open in a perfect O, gasping for air softly. He's never felt your bare pussy clenching around him while he cums. Each layer of your pussy hugging him as he fills you up.

On your end, his cum comes in waves. The first wave was unimaginable. It didn't feel real that's how good it was. The second one felt so warm as it kept going up and up your body. The final wave was almost too much to bear. You felt so full. The fullest you've ever been.

Hongjoong slowly pulls out and watches his cum drip from your pussy. He can't even speak he's that stunned. You lay there, feeling his cum travel up your body. He catches some of the cum dripping out and puts it back into your pussy.

🌸seonghwa🌸

-second guesses reality

-"Are you sure? What if I get pregnant?" He'd be so worried that something might go wrong but you assure him it's safe

-when he first pushes inside you he goes wild. He bites his lips and looks up with a desperate expression, cursing under his breath

-once he gets into it though he can't stop. At all.

-"I'm gonna fill you up right to the top and you're going to take it all."

-He wouldn't just creampie you once, it would be multiple times.

-He'd always try to cum at the same time as you, making your entire body convulse

Seonghwa gently thrusts into you from behind while on top of you. His body is pressed right against your back, his mouth right next to your ear. He whispers all kinds of dirty words as his hips slap against your ass. "That's it, you're gonna take all of my cum," he hisses, his thrusts slowly increasing in speed. His hands gently hold your hands next to your face, buried in the pillow.

Your hair is a knotted mess on the bed from his relentless thrusts and hair tugs. You feel your body being pushed further into the bed as the mattress scoots up closer to the headboard. Your soft muffled moans make Seonghwa grin micheviously. "You're already so full, aren't you? Listen to it," he chuckles as each pound of his cock moves the cum inside you. The squelching and sloshing echoes in the room. "Your such a good girl~"

🌸Yunho🌸

-taken aback by the sudden confidence

-"Alright sure, I guess,"

-on the inside, he's really really excited. Not in like a turned-on way but in a "is this the next step of our relationship!?" Way

-makes it super sexual and does all kinds of little things he knows you love

-would play quiet sensual music in the background and make the lights dim

-bro is definitely eating you out afterwards

"That's a good girl, let go for me," Yunho rubs his thumb over your bottom lip with a smile, his hips following the rhythm of the song playing in the background. His touch was gentle but seductive. "No one's here, it's just me and you. Let it all out baby," he speaks in a soothing voice that makes your body heat up.

You felt yourself submitting to his words, your orgasm creeping closer as you fell into the whirlwind of lust Yunho had been building for you. He grins as he feels you tightening. "Is my baby gonna cum? Let me hear those pretty sounds while you cum," he says in a slightly more possessive and commanding tone. You whimper softly and a rush of satisfaction rolls over Yunho.

This riles him up and his hips fall out of tune with the song, pounding into you faster and harder. You shake and squirm beneath him, your whimpers slurring into moans and you finally feel the long-awaited peak you had been reaching for. Not only did you reach it, but so did Yunho. With one final victorious thrust, he bursts inside you, his cum spurting out into your pretty pocket.

"Good girl, good pretty girl," Yunho praises as he fills you up watching your eyes roll back in pleasure. He caresses the side of your cheek as your body has one final twitch of pleasure. He then pulls out before lowering his head between your legs, softly licking up your mixed pleasure.

🌸Yeosang🌸

-taken aback, like a lot

-"Are you sure? What if something goes wrong?" Another concerned baby >.<

-once he gets inside though, everything changes.

-he would genuinely need a minute to process this unreal feeling. He would rub his hands all over your body while adjusting

-I know no one will agree with me but this man has a slight breeding kink. Not excalty the fact of getting you pregnant but more of just filling you up and claiming you

-loves the way you hug him tightly

-fucking loves the texture of your walls and will roll his hips around to feel every grain of your pussy

Yeosang holds the back of your head gently pushing your forehead against his as he lowers a bit more of his body weight onto you. As he holds your head he entangles his fingers into your messy hair. The sound of his hips slapping against yours echo in the room and you don't even care that there will be bruises there tomorrow. "You're so gorgeous," Yeosang brings his head down to your neck, nuzzling into you as his thrusts become faster.

You arch your back up into him, wrapping your arms around his body as you feel climax fast approaching. You claw at his back, leaving red marks from your nails and Yeosang grins at the stings running down his back. He runs his tongue over your neck before kissing it softly. Yeosang feels your walls gripping onto him as your whimpers become more pathetic.

"I'm gonna cum," you cry out and Yeosang can't hold back his smile. His uses his free hand to gently play with your nipple as his thrusts increase in pace.

"Me too baby, you're doing so good," he speaks in a low soft tone before feeling hot spurts of cum flood your pussy. This alone spurs on your orgasm, your body shaking beneath Yeosang as you moan loudly. Whimpers that sound like cries follow after and Yeosang sighs heavily before wrapping his arms around you. Pulling you closer to him even though you thought it was impossible to be closer.

🌸San🌸

-low key hesitant at first

-he would treat it like normal sex, doing the foreplay you always like, talking to you the same until you start begging for him to be inside you

-as soon as he hears your first plea for him to fill you up he fucking snaps brooo

-this is one of the rare cases San would be rougher than usual

-holds your hand while he cums <3

-he wouldn't stop after both of you came, he would keep going until you explode 💀

-after he's finished he would love the sight of it, seeing your mixed cum slowly dripping down your slit would make his heart flutter

San was basically pushing you into the mattress at this point, all feeling in your legs was gone but he wasn't done, not until you saw stars. He then reaches out to your hand and holds it softly. His grasp was firm but not enough to cause discomfort or pain. You felt his cock twitch before feeling warmth envelop you from the inside out.

Even after your double ground-breaking climaxes, he didn't stop. His thrusts just as hard as ever. Your eyes widen at the feeling. You were so sensitive from your orgasm but San was still buried inside you, hitting your A-Spot every time. Your moans became gasps for air as you felt another climax approaching. This one was different somehow and before you knew it you squirted all down San's thighs, soaking the bed.

San pulls out, accepting the fact that you must be physically drained from all of these orgasms. You lunge forward and wrap your arms around him, laughing softly from the pure bliss. San can't hold back his smile as you laugh. "How was that baby?" He asked softly as he rested you back down on the bed. You lay there breathless and San takes that as a sign that it was good.

He brings his head down between your legs and gently licks up all the access cum that had dripped out during your convulsions.

🌸Mingi🌸

-oddly excited

-"Are you sure? You promise?" Turns to "fuck I've been wanting make you mine for so long"

-he would try to keep it peaceful and intimate but he wouldn't be able to hold himself back

-similar to Yeosang he would need a minute to process your warmth and tightness. Just sitting there basking in the feeling

-another hand holder

-this may sound weird but he wants to see his cum literally dripping out of you onto the floor so if you're okay with it he would encourage you to go on your feet to witness the erotic scene his pictured

"You're so perfect. So fucking perfect," Mingi hisses under his breath as he ruts into you. He abruptly grabs your hips and thrusts into you with reckless abandon, turning your pussy to mush. Your body tightens, fists clenched, jaw latched shut, eyes squinting shut, legs shaking before everything finally comes undone. Your body relaxes and with one or two deep thrusts Mingi unloads inside you.

Mouth hung in a perfect little 0 as he cums. He felt so warm, the coziest you'd ever been. Not to mention he had a lot of cum, just wave after wave filling you up. When he finally emptied he gently lifted you up with ease. He stood next to you as you looked down at your feet and he was right. The sight of his cum dripping down the inner side of your thighs and dripping out onto the floor was oddly erotic.

Mingi rubs your back softly before whispering in your ear. "All mine,"

🌸Wooyoung🌸

-genuinely nervous

-"are you sure? I mean like what if something goes wrong or what if you don't like...it?"

-he'll be hesitant at first but just do something like run your hand over the bulge in his pants and he'll instantly change his mind

-more possessive than you initially thought

-afterward, he'd use little kitten licks to clean you up, no cum can go to waste.

-wants to be as close as possible to you when he cums

-when he does cum though, he needs to watch your facial expressions. It's not a want it's a need.

You and Wooyoung had your limbs tangled up in a lustful mess. One of your legs was over his shoulder, basically wrapped around his neck, your tongues twisting around each other's, one of his hands groping you while the other held yours. You were a desperate mess for him and you were not afraid to admit it. Wooyoung notices your body tightening and tensing, a hint at your impending orgasm. He pulled back from the kiss, looking directly into your eyes.

"That's it, baby, you're doing so good," Wooyoung says before continuing to kiss all down your face to your chest. Your legs suddenly wrap around him and you grab the back of his head.

"Wooyoung!" You cry out as your orgasm crashes over you in waves. Another layer of waves is added but not your own. Wooyoungs cum filled you up in waves, his cock pulsing as he emptied out his passionate lust. Wooyoung pulls out and gently begins to lick up your arousal from between your legs. Gentle little licks. You lay there panting in a pool of pleasure.

🌸Jungho🌸

-surprisingly chill about it

-"Okay, sure. As long as you're certain,"

-he's all Mr. Cool guy until he slides inside you and feels every grain of your texture pussy hugging him

-constant words of praise and worship slip from his lips as he fucks you

-the thought of filling you up and making you his own just drives him crazy.

"You're so tight," Jongho whispers as he pounds into you. "Such a pretty pussy, all for me," he says before kissing your neck, his hips never faltering. You whimper with a nod as your hands subconsciously rise to his hair, gently gripping it to ground yourself. He peppers kisses all over your upper body waiting to feel you approaching your high and soon enough, you do.

"Jongho, I'm gonna cum," you whimper and Jongho can't hold back his smile. His thrusts become erratic and deep, never relenting. Your body arches up into his as you cry out his name in pleasure. He smirks as he thrusts one last time before emptying himself inside you. He leans back as he watches your body twitch and squirm beneath him. "So full," you whimper softly as you feel wave after wave of cum filling you up.

"That's right. So full of my cum," he grins before pulling out, watching the trail of cum drip from your slit and down his tip. "Now you're all mine,"