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Repost cuz I realized I hate the original colors
#going back in time to smack myself#i don't know why i thought the original colors were good#anyways hey guys#he's just a little guy#c!tommy fanart#tommyinnit fanart#mcyt fanart#dust art
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get yourself a cat who will smack you impatiently, then once you pick her up she sprawls on your back to groom herself, and five minutes later gets up to Sneeze 3x in your freshly washed hair
#this cat i swear to fucking god. shes so Funny#she literally. sometimes when shes impatient she'll do the stretchy reachy thing#but this time she just. reared up and smacked me with both paws. and claws#then she had the AUDACITY to sit there looking at me like i personally spayed her#until i picked her up. then she did the above#like GIRL#i had to put my pizza away while hunched tf over#she has too much personality. like put some Back#(kidding. shes perfect (a menace))#absolutely unprompted#and then she immediately did something Else that was hysterical#i put the pizza away i refilled my water#then i was gonna go back to my room and she was sitting there looking at me with a Very displeased expression#very clearly being like 'am i invited into your room. youve kicked me out twice today. am i Allowed. huh.'#so i passive aggressively stuck my arm out a la ~After You Your Esteemed Highness~#and she. she IMMEDIATELY leapt up and galloped to my room#WHO GAVE HER THE RIGHT-#swear to fuck a wizard turned her into a cat. she's too Human#which i would fully believe if i hadn't taken her from her mother myself as a teeny kitten#Wow That Sounds Fucking Mean lmfao#but god damn. tonight she has quite the Attitude#on another note i just had to kill a spider on my freshly washed rug. which i washed last night bc i had to kill a Different spider on it#i think i scrubbed the Residue out well enough#either way im not going through the ordeal of rug washing again#i need a different one. i still Really want a cowhide rug. ill settle for fake ikea wool for now
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Y’all is Hollow Knight hard or do I just suck because oh my god??
#not gonna inflict my ramblings onto someone else’s post so just making a text post for myself#but oh my god#what the fuck?#maybe I’m not a hardcore metroidvania fan but I like them well enough#do I suck that badly at games now?? am I old to the point that my hands can’t do this shit????#did I just somehow fuck myself at some point???#because wow this feels kind of sadistic????#and not even in the fun kind of way?????#like I think I’d rather submit myself to fear and hunger again rather than continue where I am now in hk#idk maybe I’m missing something#but I just got wall jump and was so happy until I fell down to where you can challenge those mantis dudes#got myself out of there but then as I was exploring northwest I keep dying and reviving from the fucking bouncy balls over water#and the normal mantis mobs are also kicking my ass?#and dont even get me started on the weird tentacley nuclear bomb mushroom things those are just bullshit#AND THEN AS I WAS HAVING A GOOD TIME EXPLORING HEADING TOWARDS A SAVE BENCH I GET DROPPED INTO DEEPNEST??????#WHAT KIND OF JUMPSCARE BULLSHIT??????????#AND THE FUCKING COCKROACHES THAT NEVER SEEM TO STOP SPAWNING KILL ME#and then I see how fucking far back I’ve been dropped in the corner of fungal wastes#and I try jumping through the fucking bouncy balls again#and I die and lose my money#I can’t fucking do this shit anymore y’all holy fucking shit#the number of times I’ve died and restarted from that fucking fungal wastes bench I am so sick of it 💀#legit I think this is the first time I’ve rage quit a game#it’s been a while since a game’s actually made me this angry I want to fucking throw something 😂#the willpower and self control I needed to not chuck my pro controller across the room…#if I didn’t have neighbors and a unit below me I’d be throwing shit for sure though#but instead I must smack pillows against my mattress in a rage 😂#I think I hate the ‘go back to where you died to get back your money’ punishment system… like legit I actually really really hate it.#I do think the game is fun and I know I’ll probably quickly gain the money… but it feels like the game’s telling me I fucking suck lmao#suffice to say I will not be playing any more hollow knight for the foreseeable future 💀
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It's amazing how quickly you can make someone turn on your company by making a stupid and insulting move
Force me to go through the front door and scan my card when I have backdoor business that never needed a card before (what? ...I was going to somehow... sneak in and... purchase things with a borrowed card? ...which I totally can't do from the front door after scanning it?)
Or like... twitterify your layout right after your users give you a bunch of money just cause they like you, and then refuse to walk it back
...or all the other things companies do that just kinda piss people off and then they refuse to acknowledge maybe it sucks and is stupid cause "hey, the customers didn't leave"... yeah... yet
#legit; as small as it is it gives me a hint at the direction things will head and that costco will get more and more anti consumer#and I'm in minutes going from an 'I love costco; it's how I afford to eat; go get a cheap pizza'#to 'you know costco is kinda frustrating and annoying and I don't trust their ceo... I'm not sure if it's worth your time and money'#like look back and; tumblr search willing; you'll find posts of me singing costco's praises; literal free advertising#cause while it's not right for everyone; man is it so much cheaper than places like walmart#but... I legit don't know if I can recommend it anymore#for one thing; when I signed up I just spotted the members desk; walked in the backdoor up to the desk; and gave them money#now... what? you gotta ask permission? I feel like there's a chilling effect on wanting to join... at least for my socially anxious ass#and again; I just whiff this as like when games companies add DRM that breaks the game... for people who actually pay for it#they're making me suffer a pain in the ass for no reason cause someone might not be giving them money#and now that person never will give them money... and frankly... if they don't pay the membership but spend $500 how much did you lose?#but like I said; I feel it in the air; that costco will start doing more and more anti consumer stuff#...do I think it's a good idea to join up when they're gonna slowly start turning this corner?#I mentioned that quote by the founder about killing them if they raise the price of the hotdog#but... the fact the founder felt the need to say that to begin with told me something#kinda gotten the impression that the ceo is greedy as hell and wants to drain the consumer (so... a normal ceo)#and this just smacks of netflix/disney#oh... did you hear about disney killing someone with a food allergy despite being told about it multiple times like when the dish arrived?#and now disney is trying to forced arbitrate cause they had a disney+ trial in 2019#you hear about that one? cause that's a real news story; I'll find you an article if you don't believe it#anyway; this smacks of cracking down on password sharing to make up for hypothetical lost revenue#and let me tell you... if I could switch to pirating my groceries I would; I would download eggs#so this doesn't change costco fundamentally; but it does make it feel more hostile and like it doesn't trust me#it makes things feel more adversarial instead of like a partnership where they get me good prices on good things and I give money#and I just wouldn't be surprised if they start doing more things I don't like#things that make things worse... things like raising prices to increase their profit#...makes me want to... work on figuring out how to make everything myself since no company is trustworthy#they'll all turn on you in the end; the moment the wrong person takes charge they'll start to metastasis#towards the cancer of infinite profits#not saying don't go to costco... I'm saying don't get attached if you do; I think they're ready to do what every company does these days
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They were natural enemies—like the snake and the mongoose, or like people with misophonia and people who chew gum with their mouth open.
#I was stuck on a tour for work with a lady from another company who was chewing gum loudly in just somehow THE WETTEST WAY IMAGINABLE#I think it had to do with the lipstick she was wearing and like#a lot of people who chew gum with their mouth open just keep their lips parted the whole time#but this lady. every time she chewed her lips would part so STICKILY and WETLY and then smack back together again#I found myself wishing she would go to hell when she dies
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Shout out to other queer people who had gay awakenings as kids but didn't know what gay was and your parents were conservative so all you had were some stereotypes on tv to show you what gay was years later.
I thought I was straight until my mid twenties because I thought it was normal for straight people to have very detailed reoccurring dreams and fantasies of kissing women. 💀💀
(also had a lot of dreams that would explain me questioning my gender in recent years that I never talked to with other people lol)
(I knew what gay was and learned that bisexuals existed by high school but my stupid ass had been surrounded by bigoted talks of the Gays all of my teenager life that I was ignorant as hell about stuff)
I also never got romantically interested in people as a kid and teenager because I was more focused on other stuff and found out years later I'm demiromantic.
#context i was born in the early 90s so that didn't help#in not seeing more gay people on tv i mean#man the stupid shit i said in high school i still SCREAM ABOUT IT AAGGH#if i could go back in time i would smack myself in the head
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twice this month we've been in the car when some other car decides they either do not see my mom's car or do not have to obey proper driving rules and almost run right into us and. I love car rides. I love being in the car. I love riding around and looking at stuff. but every time we get into the car now I am so uncomfortable and tense and very scared and it is not cool
#my body will not unclench. wahoo#it's not like the first time this has ever happened but that one two weeks ago was like. wayyyyyyyy too fucking close.#I MEAN I DON'T THINK WE WOULD'VE. UH. BEEN INJURED. CAR WOULD'VE BEEN SMACKED INTO THOUGH. CAUSE THAT GUY DIDN'T YIELD AT A MERGER#and then today this car in the other lane kept swerving back and forth#which was. why would you do that. very scary bc you dont know where they're going next.#JUST KEEPS HAPPENING KINDA FREQUENTLY LATELY AND I DON'T LIKE IT#and like. my instinct in these situations is GASP AND FREEZE i have no reaction instinct but also I'm in the passenger seat.#but that's. a reason i will not drive like idk if i will acquire that reaction ability to not just Freeze#and try to make myself as small as possible.#and then i feel guilty that i don't drive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that my mom has to do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel really bad!!!!!!!!!#and I'm like. scrutinizing every single car that drives by like ARE YOU GONNA BE DUMB. ARE YOU GONNA TRY AND HIT US.#AND I CANNOT STOP BEING TENSE.#YEAH YEAH I KNOW WHAT IT IS.
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truly my last relationship taught me so much. it also instilled in me some things i’m still unlearning. like, how most people won’t get mad if you accidentally fall asleep without saying goodnight (and not replying to messages, because i’m literally asleep), or freak out if you stop replying for like five minutes. like, i couldn’t do anything i enjoyed bc she’d be like ‘um, what fuck are you doing? why aren’t you answering me?!!!’ like relax, i’m literally just showering. it was truly a case of sitting still unless i wanted to upset her. and then i STILL somehow upset her and i never really knew why. but, hey, that relationship ended a long time ago, i should be fine now, right? 😐
#it’s literally been like five years and i still wake up sometimes like ‘oh god i didn’t say goodnight! oh god i didn’t reply back to that#person’s message!’ when said person doesn’t care one bit#it’s just cause that relationship was so crazy that it made ME crazy and i’m beginning to realise that yeah i still carry some shit from it#literally that relationship is the entire reason i’ve been single all this time and why i’m trying to be emotionally mature etc#bc that relationship ending gave me a smack around the head that said something needs to change’#bc the way i was before is the reason i was in that relationship and in that situation in the first place#and that relationship ending and trauma and shit separate from that made me get really romance repulsed for a while#still am sometimes tbh#pretty much permanently in a state of ‘yeah i need look after myself’ for the last five years#and idk when that would open up to me being in a new relationship#idk i really just need to not rush anything with anyone and just take things slow and see where they go#have fun in the meantime#bc my past few relationships have been really intense#especially the last one as i said#and i fully don’t have the time or energy for anything hardcore currently#so if there’s anyone at some point they must be prepared to wait for em and court me like we’re victorian lovers#you must wait three years untill we kiss for the first time bc i truly don’t know the timeframe for when i’d wanna do anything i’ll be#honest imaooooo#but yeah romance is a complicated subject for me#i’m literally a hopeless romantic but the thought of romance lately truly just makes me feel gross#like in theory yeah i wanna kiss someone but in actual practice i’m like get away from me!#idk i’m on the road to bulilding healthy relationships#romantic especially bc i really can’t go back to how i used to be#sorry to disappoint anyone imaoooo#but nah anyways people who want to get close to me and be my friend has to be cool with my boundaries i set up#and sometimes forget about even tho they’re my own boundaries bc i’m silly like that#could do casual stuff but i really don’t think i’m the type for that imao#and even that sets off the same alarms in my head so idk 🤷🏻♀️#gwen rambles#gwenposting
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Hm I want to say nice things about you today too >:0
You are genuinely so fun to talk to, I was a bit scared to interact with you at first and tbh I don’t actually know what broke the ice originally?? But like you’re so easygoing that I warmed up to you really fast which is kinda a feat of it own
I’m pretty sure I knew you from dailymumbo first and when you followed me I was like ‘weasel???? 👀’. Your arts so fun and expressive, you’ve got a really distinct style that I can recognize even if it’s for something I know nothing about. Your choice of color is So tasty and I want to eat the art you render fr. (your designs are also so adorable and fun too, still obsessed with conure grian)
and ye you turned me into a real mumbo appreciator too so thanks for that :)
you’ve also helped me come out of my shell a bit more too which is really cool okay I run away now
*me reading this with a growing smile and the gruesome sounds of markiplier playing callisto protocol in my ear* AJSHKDF
ROOOO IM GONNA *PUNCHING AND KICKING THE AIR IN FRONT OF YOU* THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOUUUUU i also dont remember what got us talking but i do remember seeing your art page reblogging some of my stuff and getting excited and then it took a while after that to discover your main actually liking it paha XD i have absolutely shit memory but i am really super grateful to have such an easy n fun time talkin with you :D and little tag messages are so fun w you akjdhsf ESPECIALLY SINCE I REALLY LOVE YOUR ART I WAS KINDA SCARED OF YOU TO BEGIN WITH I SAW YOU AS A REALLY COOL INTIMIDATING ARTIST ASDHJKF turns out we have a lot of interests in common meaning youre just as lame as me 😈😈😈😈 mwahahahah
i really love your use of dark and bold colors, it makes your style super unique i think and it's something i really struggle with XD so i use the .. lighter brighter colors X) and then your absolutely superb animals and dragons and things and all your designs youre literally so cool please akdhjsfhsfa BUT AGAIN THANK YOU A MILLION TIMES. ROO IM. *CONTINUES SHADOWBOXING IN FRONT OF YOU OUT OF DIFFICULTY TAKING COMPLIMENTS* RARARGHGHG
#SOCIALLY ANXIOUS BITCHES UNITE 🤝🤝🤝🤝🤝#irl i come off as incredibly cold i think#bc i? like dont make any moves to talk first usually?#and like if it's in class time to work i will become very focused and put headphones in yea. just like not approachable at all#but by nature i cannot stop myself from cracking jokes sometimes and thats what usually gets people to like. approach me.?#and im glad that at least online i dont come off as cold is what im trying to get at X)? i think?#so im grateful for anyone and everyone i get to talk to online but im even more excited to have helped you get out of your shell too :D#MAN. BIG SAPPY HOURS#i used to do this thing before covid in highschool id go to shake peoples hands#or like friends right so it's fine it's all for a joke anyway#but then instead of shaking their hand i'd smack it really hard and hold on tight and reel them in quick to a one arm hug#and then if i knew them better id smack them on the back adskhf SO THATS WHAT IM DOING TO YOU RN#IM GOING FOR A HANDSHAKE REEL IN BACK SMACK HAHAHA#no i dont know how to hug 😇#weasel speaks#asks!
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How's everyone day going? I just ticked so hard, one of my eyes shut itself for 10 minutes and I couldn't reopen it. Also my hand tensed really hard and it hurt so I wacked it and it went back to normal so it seems to have worked.
#i gen thought i had a stroke on my right side but no#facial tics#fsr i hear myself or others stutter and my eyes go fuckin crazy#that or my head throws itself back lol the amount of times i've smacked my head into a wall by accident#i'm convinced its the reason i've got a weird shaped head#i jest but its really painful to smash your head against a wall involuntarily it's why i don't sit with my back to the wall if i feel weird#what's some other tics i have uhh#my breathing goes all weird?#like it just hitches randomly at some points and my stomach lurches forwards and spasms#my eyes roll into the back of my head so i have constant eyestrain now#ngl i wish i also had more obvious tics like vocal tics coz it'd be a lot easier to explain why my face looks all fucked up when i tic#lol this is just a post for me to talk ab my tics#why? coz i want to
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While today is a bad brain day & I’m probably not getting a daily drawing done as planned, I’m pretty damn proud of myself for at least doodling something little (or big) every day so far this year. Most showed how rusty I am with the whole process, ESPECIALLY with traditional pen & paper drawing, but hell- I’m trying and it’s more than I’ve been able to wrestle myself into doing for a very long time.
I’ll take this small win & fight for it tooth & claw.
#🎃 cryptid sighting#Rolling this post up like a newspaper to smack the grief back in it’s fuckin’ place#It’s been a rough couple days but I’m trying to be nice to myself because my subconscious sure isn’t#Anxiety also has been going ballistic because of some more health scares in my immediate circle of family & friends (ugh MORE?! :( Enough)#So time to take a breath & recognize my dumb brain loves to be a lying asshole#Tea & a proper dinner & watching something that makes me happy (probably Killer Klowns) & hopefully get to bed earlier#I’m hoping to do a month-long art challenge very soon to put myself out there again (& maybe- GASP -socialize more) so the doodles-#- have been much needed practice! :)#But I think a break is warranted
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Forgot why I don’t comment on shit on tiktok and left a comment on a video of someone putting out free to use (with shares or tips enjoyed but not required) tattoo designs to help get word out about their tattoo design commissions to help fund their HRT therapy. Multiple comments had already been replied to about the creator specifying that the tattoos In the video series were free for commercial use. I made a comment, to let the artist know that I would be using one of the designs with a slight change in one singular detail, to connect it to something personal to me. I also shared the video. (As well as proceeding to commission a specific design from the artist, not that anyone but them and I knew that.) I was utterly delighted (sarcasm) to come back to notifications from teenagers lecturing me about stealing artwork. Love the reminder that when I was a teenager I too gave unsolicited and uninformed orders to adults without looking for context clues on a situation. Sucks that I had to delete that comment and block a bunch of kids, but I’m not dealing with the bullshit and I’m certainly not going to be arguing with them. It never worked when adults tried to correct me, I’m not gonna try something I know doesn’t work. Instead I continue the time-honored tradition in my life of blocking and making my internet experience as frustration-free as possible.
#like I know my comment was probably at the top seeing as I’d been a recent one#but damn was I that rude to adults when I was their ages? probably which sucks#god I got into arguments with the parents of a kid whose house party I went to. if I could go back in time and smack myself lmao#.me#txt
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anyone ever slip into a whole other persona that enjoys hanging out with a certain group of people bc situations have forced you into it and then you take a breather and go back to the people you actually like and it's absolute hell slipping back into that persona to go back to the first group of people and you kind of hate yourself for it but it's the only way you'll survive bc you can't isolate yourself for 3 years so you're making do but talking to your real friends reminds you how good it could be if only you could be around them all the time
#thia is about uni btw#i have an entire personality that somewhat fits in at uni and makes the correct jokes and laughs at the right time and says the right thing#and i shove *me* so far down and dont think about what i actually need to thrive#and then i came home these past weeks and i met my friends from home and school and had interesting covos with that#them*#that didnt just centre around tv shows amd celebrities#like actual menaingful convos and intellectual topics and fun jokes that made me so happy#and now i have to go back to a bunch of shallow people who only care about some billionaires wedding and whis dating who#and its all so shallow and worthless i could cry#and i ruined my own future#if id worked harder at a levels i wouldnt be stuck here and id be having the same experiences my friends are#instead i stuck myself in the ass end of nowhere and now i have to work doubly hard to get anywhere in life#and it sucks bc i was smacked in the face with a reminder of what exactly im missing#i am. so tired#so unhappy with my lot in life#and im packing to go back to uni bc my flight is tomorrow and im just sitting on my bed and crying
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I, think I know what I'm doing as far as pronouns? I think? Like the words themselves I don't have a clue but I think I may have a chart to use for each grammatical gender down? And have a vague idea of how I'm going to make it work?
Like, I think what I'm going to do is rather than have totally unique words for everything I'm going to have a one syllable 'part' for each little section (so like '2nd person singular object formal' includes a 'ma' or something while 'non-person subject plural' is 'le' or some shit) and then a one syllable denoter of the actual grammatical gender in use (so say medical professions are all 'ker' and farmers are 'la'). Then I can just combine them as I go (2nd person singular object formal for medical fuckers would be 'kerma' or some shit). Plus some 'general' pronouns for things like the 1st person and 2nd person casual pronouns, that aren't divided by grammatical gender.
Would make things easier both to put together for me and to learn and remember in-universe. Plus it would make sense to have some standardization in there, given the language is a constructed on in-universe. Would it make sense to not have serious deviation given how long it's been since it was constructed? No, but cut me some fucking slack I'm one amateur in over my head.
So, I, I think I may be on the path to being able to give you guys pronouns for fuckers, or at least use them in sentences.
#the quest for imperial erinaen#i am trying to stick to what i already have canon but i'm sorry i'm having to simplify it just for myself#for the sake of my own life#not by much mind you i've got like 15? different 'person' sections#(as in 1st person 2nd person etc)#plus seven different categories to work with for each#i mean not all of them are used by everything and some shit overlaps but still#got like 43? different 'parts' i need to figure out just to have my baseline#what did i say way back when-#fuckers assume since erinaens didn't come with war they needed to spend their energy on *something*-#-and they decided it was going to be the universe's worst pronoun system#smack me the next time i decide i'm going to throw a stupid concept out there under the basis that i'll never actually have to deal with it#'this is how erinaen pronouns work' i said back when i didn't know what conglanging *was*#and where am i now#suffering#i'm a fucking idiot and worse a stubborn one
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OUGH
#budgeting. terrifying#gonna go back in time n smack myself for not choosing a field of work that guarantees good money. or at least insurance
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Oh my god i hate money
#why do i make like zero dollars per paycheck#also i wanna buy a 3ds but theyre so expensive T_T#i wanna go back in time and SMACK myself for selling it for like $20
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