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[gabbyhilaire]

How 9/11 Traumatized Me: Fighting Fear + Anxiety

How 9/11 Traumatized Me: Fighting Fear + Anxiety

9/11/01: Little 4th grade Gabby in elementary school … RUNNING down to my mom’s classroom in fear … witnessing suicide for the first time EVER on the news (“the jumpers”) … seeing the smoke in the distance …  watching all of my loved ones terrified. It’s etched in my memory. It bombards my thoughts at least once a month. I will never, and CAN NEVER forget.

It had an impact on all of us –…

[fearfullygorge]

How 9/11 Traumatized Me: Fighting Fear + Anxiety

How 9/11 Traumatized Me: Fighting Fear + Anxiety

9/11/01: Little 4th grade Gabby in elementary school … RUNNING down to my mom’s classroom in fear … witnessing suicide for the first time EVER on the news (“the jumpers”) … seeing the smoke in the distance …  watching all of my loved ones terrified. It’s etched in my memory. It bombards my thoughts at least once a month. I will never, and CAN NEVER forget.

It had an impact on all of us –…

[voightsgirl]

tag game (again)

Thanks for tagging me @juggeisbetts sorry it took me so long lol

1. If you could change your fate, would you? THIS FUCKS WITH MY BRAIN MAN I’VE STUDIED FATE IN LITERATURE AND IT CREEPS ME THE HELL OUT LIKE NO THE WHOLE POINT OF FATE IS THAT IT CAN’T BE CHANGED NO MATTER IF YOU KNOW ABOUT IT OR NOT OK

2. If you could change your nationality, what would you change it to? i don’t think i would? i like being english (especially so this past week) and i love my irish side too...i mean it’s pretty awkward being irish catholic-english but whatever i wouldn’t change it (although having said that if i could have some french grandparent/great-grandparent who passed down fluent french skills that would be rather nice)

3. How do you want people to view you? uhh, someone who’s kind but won’t take any shit? i mean i can dream right

4. How do you usually flirt? mostly i just don’t bc i have more important things to worry about like what’s gonna happen to linstead

5. Favorite song/artist? i am a die-hard taylor swift fan but i also love my john mayer and recently i’ve been reliving my pop punk days via spotify so there you go

6. Do you have a tumblr mutual you want to talk to? If so, Now is your chance to tell them XD idk i don’t think so? if we’re mutuals tho and we haven’t spoken then hmu ;)

7. Curves or straight line? straight lines

8. What is your dream vehicle and why? anything so long as it’s yellow bc sunshine

9. A game (or book) character you connect with and why? isla from isla and the happily ever after because we're both under a lot of school pressure and also when i first read it i was in tears because all her flaws are so much more clear than other characters and i see them all in myself

10.  Recommend a tv show or movie! if you follow me and you don’t watch the chicago shows (fire, pd, med, and justice) then idk what you’re doing, but you absolutely need to. also castle. and if you like that then lucifer.

11. Favorite book? okay well this is impossible, but i absolutely love the blind assassin by margaret atwood, although i wouldn’t say it’s my favourite bc there are way too many to choose...at the moment i’m reading chicago by brian doyle and the bell jar by sylvia plath and they’re both really good, so

12. If you could have unlimited super powers for a day, what would you do with them? fly. go to the mountains or the city and find a really tall place and just jump off it. and fly through nature

13. How do you drink your tea/coffee? WELL OUT COMES MY ULTRA BRITISH-IRISHNESS HERE OK so my tea has to be super strong, absolutely NO SUGAR (criminal), with the tiniest bit of milk in it (it should be dark brown) and we have an old irish joke about being able to stand the spoon up in the tea it’s that strong, and yeah, that’s pretty much it i really like american coffee, when i went over there at easter time i couldn’t get enough of it. also strong. no sugar, and a tiny bit of milk. pretty much the same as my tea. when i buy coffee, though, my order is a skinny flat white

(also funny story about tea and coffee, we went to boston while on our usa trip and we went to the boston tea party museum, you know where you go out onto the ships and they make you throw the fake tea overboard? yeah well me and my sister thought it would be hilarious to yell things like “we hate the brits” and “down with england” really loudly in our surrey-RP-hilairously-british accents. yeah we got some weird looks)

14. Tell/describe your most embarrassing moment using only three words? screaming, jonas, doorbell

...don’t ask

15. A random fact you know (and love)? that human saliva has a boiling point of 3x water!!! (yay)

16. The year is 2022. What does your life look like? well i’ll have just left uni, and hopefully be doing my tefl qualification or looking for a placement abroad to teach english

17. Favorite day of the week & why? friday bc school ends and me and all my friends go down to the gym and then go eat pizza at my house and watch htgawm when it’s on

18. Least favorite color? green

19. Favorite character(s)? HOW DOES ONE DECIDE well here we go erin lindsay, jay halstead, hank voight, brooke davis, haley james scott, julian baker, kate beckett, kevin ryan, alexis castle, harry potter, hermione granger, zelda fitzgerald, gabby dawson, emma swan, matt casey, sarah reese, ethan choi, laurel castillo, michaela pratt, annalise keating, frank delfino (yeah i went there shoot me), chloe decker, lucifer morningstar, mazikeen, and probably a million more i get very overly attached very quickly

20. Lavender, rose, or jasmine? jasmine all the way

I’m tagging @okey-dokey-donkey @whichtochoose @obesstion @ijustwantyoucaskett-always @warriorsaralance @runnin-on-sunshine @varietyofwords and if anyone else wants to then by all means!! also don’t feel obligated to do this if you don’t want to!!

[gabbyhilaire]

"He Was Our Jesus..."

“He Was Our Jesus…”

The life and legacy of Ermias Joseph Asghedom. Wow..

Since hearing the news of his assassination last Sunday, I’ve been in a daze. I know everybody worldwide feels the heaviness of this loss, but to be in LA when it happened? It’s a different type of heaviness that I don’t think will pass any time soon. The City of Angels is truly hurting…

His Celebration of Life at the Staples Centertook place…

[fearfullygorge]

"He Was Our Jesus..."

“He Was Our Jesus…”

The life and legacy of Ermias Joseph Asghedom. Wow..

Since hearing the news of his assassination last Sunday, I’ve been in a daze. I know everybody worldwide feels the heaviness of this loss, but to be in LA when it happened? It’s a different type of heaviness that I don’t think will pass any time soon. The City of Angels is truly hurting…

His Celebration of Life at the Staples Centertook place…

[fearfullygorge]

Striving for WHOLENESS: Spirit, Soul and Body

Striving for WHOLENESS: Spirit, Soul and Body

If you’ve been following my journey thus far via social media, YouTubeor my blog, you know I’ve been a bit out of the game for the past 2 years. My injuries have come to a point where I can’t do much physical activity. For somebody who has been physical and training since 4 years old, being bound from activity is STRESSFUL. BUT, it has forced me to focus on my emotional, mental and most…

[gabbyhilaire]

Uncomfortable Obedience - Let's Keep It Real

Uncomfortable Obedience – Let’s Keep It Real

As some of you may know, my husband and I were called out to Los Angeles right after we got married. A week after our wedding, we flew out to Burbank in obedience to God and left what was similar and comfortable behind us. While God has proven to us DAILY that this is His will (check out our Move On Faith 4-part-series on YouTube ) – it has still been so bitter being away from NYC.

This September…

[fearfullygorge]

Uncomfortable Obedience - Let's Keep It Real

Uncomfortable Obedience – Let’s Keep It Real

As some of you may know, my husband and I were called out to Los Angeles right after we got married. A week after our wedding, we flew out to Burbank in obedience to God and left what was similar and comfortable behind us. While God has proven to us DAILY that this is His will (check out our Move On Faith 4-part-series on YouTube ) – it has still been so bitter being away from NYC.

This September…

[gabbyhilaire]

Re-Learning My Godly Routine as a Wife

Re-Learning My Godly Routine as a Wife

Disclaimer: This article expresses my personal experience as a wife thus far, and by no means necessary is stated to be served as fact, but rather, opinion.

Last month, my husband and I celebrated our 1st Anniversary! This past year has been a journey, a gumbo of lessons, but mostly lots of fun! Our foundation of Christ has helped us to easily withstand minor issues we’ve faced. It’s amazing how…

[fearfullygorge]

Re-Learning My Godly Routine as a Wife

Re-Learning My Godly Routine as a Wife

Disclaimer: This article expresses my personal experience as a wife thus far, and by no means necessary is stated to be served as fact, but rather, opinion. Last month, my husband and I celebrated our 1st Anniversary! This past year has been a journey, a gumbo of lessons, but mostly lots of fun! Our foundation of Christ has helped us to easily withstand minor issues we’ve faced. It’s amazing how…

[gabbyhilaire]

I love Jesus, but can't stand church

I love Jesus, but can’t stand church

DISCLAIMER: This post is not about ALL churches, but a huge handful…

2017 is a year of transparency for me. This topic has been so prevalent in my heart and mind lately and I’ve felt the urge to share it. Not only cause I think it needs to be talked about, but also because I know for a fact that I’m not the only one who feels like this.

For some backstory: I didn’t really grow up in church like…

[fearfullygorge]

I love Jesus, but can't stand church

I love Jesus, but can’t stand church

DISCLAIMER: This post is not about ALL churches, but a huge handful… 2017 is a year of transparency for me. This topic has been so prevalent in my heart and mind lately and I’ve felt the urge to share it. Not only cause I think it needs to be talked about, but also because I know for a fact that I’m not the only one who feels like this. For some backstory: I didn’t really grow up in church like a…

[gabbyhilaire]

Advice To My Teenage Self - Fight For Your Art!

Advice To My Teenage Self – Fight For Your Art!

I’ve been in this constant mood of looking back at old pictures and videos of myself when I was a teenager. It’s a constant yearning to want to do things differently. I’ve honestly struggled with massive regret for the past few years, on various levels. It’s been heavily affecting me the past few days as I’ve had time to pause and think about a lot of stuff.

Before I move on, I do want to clarify…

[fearfullygorge]

Advice To My Teenage Self - Fight For Your Art!

Advice To My Teenage Self – Fight For Your Art!

I’ve been in this constant mood of looking back at old pictures and videos of myself when I was a teenager. It’s a constant yearning to want to do things differently. I’ve honestly struggled with massive regret for the past few years, on various levels. It’s been heavily affecting me the past few days as I’ve had time to pause and think about a lot of stuff. Before I move on, I do want to clarify…