#furtive phan

[citrinelester]

flying dinosaur??

Dan Lost His Voice So We're Playing Charades

Day 14/24

[phanfictioncatalogue]

Historical (1920′s-1950′s) Masterlist

Links Last Checked: June 2nd, 2022

Aria In The Snow (ao3) - Eavans

Summary: If you asked most people of Daniel J. Howell’s lot in life, they’d tell you it was pretty good. A small career writing for a fashionable magazine, the heir to one of New York’s most prestigious hotels, the convenience of youth and an ailing millionaire father… what more could an 18-year-old ask for?

So when a night at the symphony turns into the start of a whole new double life in the city’s queer underworld, the heir to New York’s most fashionable hotel will have to learn what is what when you’re dating a cabaret singer, and who is who when that singer becomes a troubled star.

So it’s nothing but fate to blame when things start to fall apart. The catch? It’s the last half

Back Seat Bingo (ao3) - existingcourage

Summary: Phil, a young television and radio personality lands Dan, an upcoming producer as a co-worker. Friendship is inevitable, but what happens when life, love, and fear gets in the way? A 1950’s Phan AU.

Class of 1953 (ao3) - shutup_turd

Summary: It’s the year 1950, and Phil is making a fresh start during his first term at the University of Oxford. He’s found genuine friends, he’s doing well in his studies, and he can finally be his authentic self…although there’s still something missing.

One evening he stumbles upon a group of actors rehearsing Shakespeare in a sumptuous candlelit chapel, but it’s not the scenary catching Phil’s eye. Instead, it’s a charming man with curly hair whose eyes seem to burn even brighter than the candles.

cobbled paths and grey skies (ao3) - watergator

Summary: phil meets a handsome stranger at the market.

Dance for me? (ao3) - the_toadlet

Summary: Murder, intrigue, and a dashingly charming police officer- all Dan needs.

The scene is set- a series of murders in 1922, an undercover officer who’s discovering that he may not be as straight as he thought, a gorgeous young drag queen, and a budding romance between furtive glances over shoulders. Detective Phil Lester is sent to bust a drag ball, but instead is drawn into the eyes of Daniel Howell. He makes an impulsive choice, and begs the young man to help him- the murders are stacking up, and Phil needs a partner.

Dan, of course, agrees. How could anyone resist the deep blue eyes of someone that swept you off your feet?

Hold The Night (ao3) - vvelna

Summary: It’s late 1940, and Dan and Phil are living in London during the Blitz.

Let Me Love You (ao3) - yikesola

Summary: Dan opens his bedroom door and sees a little white square of notebook paper lying on his pillow. He reads Phil’s scrawled handwriting, “Sorry to miss you Danny, I’m stopping by Franklins before class. Meet me for a malt shake tonight, usual time?” An au fic about postcards and milkshakes.

Stars (ao3) - brookwrites

Summary: Dan grew up in a normal 1930s London family with his parents and little brother. everything was completely and utterly normal… until the bombs started dropping. When Dan was fifteen his father went off to war, and when he was sixteen he and his brother Hayden were sent off to a foster family in rural England. he looked up at the stars and couldn’t help but wonder how something that beautiful could exist in such a broken world. just when he thought things would never get better, Dan met Phil, and he became the shining star of his life. but when Phil turned eighteen and went off to war, Dan couldn’t help but wonder when, if ever, the stars would twinkle the same way again.

The Next Night - nebulous-frog

Summary: Germany in 1937 was a hard place for anyone “different”. Dan just wanted to live his life, fall in love, and die surrounded by family, but his particular community was too “different”. Dan found himself hiding, wishing for a better world, maybe even finding it in the eyes of an unlikely savior.

The Roles We Play - adorkablephil

Summary: Dan Howell and Phil Lester work together as voice actors for BBC radio dramas in the late 1930s, but slowly begin to develop “inappropriate” feelings for each other.

While Our Blood’s Still Young (ao3) - celestialfics (orphan_account)

Summary: In the midst of 1950s America, Phil works at a malt shop that Dan frequents after school. Inevitably as their relationship progresses, the two boys face unrelenting adversity in a world that does not yet see all love as equal.

Who’s Taking You Home Tonight? (ao3) - whatkindoffanfics

Summary: October, 1944. While World War II rages on, Dan Howell finds himself thrown into the secretive world of Bletchley Park, a headquarters for intercepting and breaking the codes of encrypted German messages.

[if-you-fan-a-fire]

“Fraternal closeness in prison was also evident in the feelings of sadness and guilt inmates experienced upon liberation. When Phan Van Hum learned of his imminent release from Kham Lon, he reported that teary-eyed cellmates “laughed, cried and hugged me tightly around the waist and shoulders.” Tran Huy Lieu recounted a similar scene, during which an abrupt announcement of upcoming amnesties generated an emotional whirlwind in his dormitory: “The sudden revelation induced feelings of pain, embarrassment, and shame. We parted with tears in our eyes.”

Needless to say, intense homosocial sentiments in prison could evolve into homosexual relations. While there is evidence that prisoners had sex and formed unions with one another in the single-sex communal environment of colonial prisons, observers disagree about the nature and frequency of such practices. As communist writings tend to suppress representations of sexuality in general, the absence of homosexuality from postcolonial northern Vietnamese prison memoirs reflects long-term patterns of censorship and self-censorship. It is also possible that homosexuality does not figure in communist prison memoirs because ascetic and homophobic norms within Vietnamese communist and early nationalist culture discouraged its practice. Indeed, the most candid account of homosexuality in an Indochinese prison, Tran Van Que’s memoir Con-Lon Quan-Dao Truoc ngay 9–3–1945 (The Poulo Condore Archipelago before March 9, 1945), insists that it did not occur among political prisoners.

Whereas few ex-convicts acknowledged the presence of homosexuality in their memoirs, French observers found it wherever they looked. According to Dr. Louis Lorion:

Pederasty is widespread in Cochin China, but it rarely falls under judicial purview. . . . It is above all practiced by Annamites and Chinese; the latter, more vigorous and audacious, seem to play the active role. It is in markets, opium dens, gambling houses, and theaters that this shameful industry is practiced and where one would meet those searching for this genre of debauchery. One also observes pederasty in all agglomerations where individuals of the same sex live communally, such as barracks where populations of workers, coolies, guards, and servants swarm together, and in the penitentiaries, notably Poulo Condore.

Lorion’s comments are echoed in official reports that allude suggestively to the fact that communal architecture encouraged “promiscuity” among inmates. On Poulo Condore, the famous gentleman bandit Thomas Phuoc told Demariaux that he preferred solitary confinement to the “promiscuous obscenity” of the communal dormitories. Another of Demariaux’s informants forthrightly reported that prisoners routinely traded gay sex for opium or cash.

In the writings of prisoners themselves, furtive allusions to homosexual desire most frequently appear in accounts of prison theater. For example, Thu Con Lon (Letters from Poulo Condore), a collection of missives written from prison by Nguyen Duc Chinh and published in 1937, contains a provocative passage linking homoerotic desire in prison to plays in which female roles were performed by young male prisoners in drag:

In the play performed this Tet, there was a brothel and the young girls who work there hug their “guests” and dance with them. If I had known before that Tho was to play a prostitute, I would have volunteered immediately to take the part of the libertine youth [cong tu]. That way, I could have hugged the one to whom everyone’s been writing letters this year—the one about whom we often joke: “If there was a flower garden in the prison, I would risk several days of punishment in the hole to pluck a flower and present it to her.”

The suggestion of homoerotic yearning is implicit in the passage. While “Tho” can occasionally be a woman’s name, it is much more commonly used for men. Moreover, there is no evidence from other accounts that female prisoners were allowed to participate in theatrical productions with male prisoners. Also, women convicts were no longer sent to Con Dao after 1910.

A remarkably similar episode appears in Tran Huy Lieu’s “Tinh Trong Nguc Toi” (Love in the Dark Prison), a posthumously published prison memoir originally written in 1950, which describes Lieu’s loneliness and unrequited longings while incarcerated on Poulo Condore during the early 1930s. In one passage, Lieu admits to a temporary attraction for “brother T,” a fellow prisoner who had performed a female role in a play staged within the ward; 

After viewing the play performed during Tet in Bagne II, Isent a letter over ten pages long to brother T, who, on that day, had played the role of a female courtesan. As the prison regime suppressed family sentiments and petty bourgeois romantic sentiments, we were often forced to seek other outlets.

It is instructive that “Tinh Trong Nguc Toi” was only published in 1991, after the cultural liberalization that accompanied the Communist Party’s Renovation Policy in 1986. This contrasts with roughly a dozen other prison memoirs written by Lieu, all of which were published during the 1950s and 1960s. It is tempting to conclude that the decision to put off the publication of “Tinh Trong Nguc Toi” derived from its candid allusion to homosexual impulses among political prisoners, during a period in which the Party was promoting a distinctly sexless image of the “new socialist man.”

The only first-person account to address the presence of homosexuality in Indochinese prisons directly is Tran Van Que’s hybrid memoir/history Con-Lon Quan-Dao Truoc ngay 9–3–1945. Que devotes considerable attention to the em nuoi, an ambiguous term that may be translated as “adopted younger brother,” “adopted younger sister,” or “adopted beloved,” depending on the meaning attributed to the intimate personal pronoun em:

Because members of the weaker sex were absent on Poulo Condore, the common prisoners were plagued by the problem of “em nuoi.” Far from their wives and children for long periods, gang leaders [anh chi] and caplans at different work camps needed a way to share love with others and to chase away their boredom. As a result, they provided protection, money, and clothes for pretty young prisoners known as “em nuoi.”

Que’s account suggests that homosexual relations were integrated into the colonial prison’s formal and subcultural social hierarchies. It is significant that the inmates who “kept” em nuoi—caplans and anh chis—were situated at the apex of the prison’s twin pecking orders. According to Que, control over em nuoi could provoke conflicts between rival members of the prisoner elite. “Sometime before 1940,” he wrote, “competition over an em nuoi led one prisoner to kill his love rival [tinh dich]. Before he was guillotined, the murderer begged to see his em nuoi one last time before he died.” Que’s account implies that just as anh chis struggled to control em uts and caplans competed over patronage networks, so too powerful members of the prisoner elite vied with one another for the affections of the most desirable em nuois.”

- Peter Zinoman, The Colonial Bastille: A History of Imprisonment in Vietnam, 1862–1940. Berkeley and Los Angeles: University of California Press, 2001. pp. 126-129.

[itsmyusualphannie]

you had me at hydrangea

Chapter 5/6 - a peony for your thoughts

“I want him to see the flowers in my eyes and hear the songs in my hands.” ― Francesca Lia Block, Dangerous Angels

a phan flower shop/video editor au

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For the past four days, Phil had let himself entertain the thought of never going back to the flower shop. He toyed with the idea of moving all the way out of London, which might help his humiliation, and wished he was still in that stage of his life where he just ran away from every conflict. He resented his years-old resolve to stick with his problems until they were sorted. Because God, Sunday night had been horrible. It had gone so well until Dan had to leave. Phil never had, not in his worst scenarios where Dan found out that Phil was interested in him, thought that it would have gone like that.

He didn’t want to think about what had happened. He’d tortured himself enough replaying it over and over in his head.

And now it was Thursday again. Phil couldn’t even imagine bringing his laptop into the shop to set up in the corner and pretend everything was normal, but he hadn’t been lying when he’d told Dan that he wanted to be friends. Phil had never really thought that Dan might reciprocate his affections, even though he’d secretly wanted it and hated himself for it. He could never bring himself to get in between a couple, especially when Dan and Louise were so clearly happy together. Because of their brief conversations during Phil’s visits, though, Phil was convinced that he and Dan could be great friends. They really did have a lot in common, and Dan had even said that they could still be friends.

It was Cornelia’s birthday in a few days. Phil wouldn’t even have to make up a reason to visit the shop. This time, he told himself sternly, he would be fast about it. He wouldn’t linger and stare pathetically after Dan, not after Dan had told Phil that he knew what he was doing. He wouldn’t make an excuse to lurk in the corner and work on his computer. Phil could definitely go in, make small talk, and then leave. Maybe Dan hadn’t changed his mind about staying friends. Maybe he wouldn’t be creeped out by Phil’s presence.

Maybe.

“Am I being pathetic?” Phil asked the lava lamp beside his bed. It blobbed at him unsympathetically. 

“Thanks,” he said. “You’re so helpful.” He yanked the blankets further up under his nose, feeling very pathetic indeed. It was an hour past noon. He definitely needed to get out of bed. As if the traffic itself agreed, a loud horn blared outside, its obnoxious sound making it all the way into Phil’s flat. Phil considered just going back to sleep. But no, his sleep schedule would be more messed up than it already was, and simply not showing up at the flower shop like he usually did would definitely go under the ‘hiding from problems’ category.

“Why?” Phil questioned the room at large. Unhelpfully, nothing answered him. Phil heaved a tremendous sigh and hauled himself from the bed, almost tripping over his duvet as he flailed an arm for his glasses. He shoved the frames onto his nose and made his way to the dresser to half-heartedly get dressed.

Thirty minutes later, he stood in front of the closed door to his flat, staring at it intensely while he tried to work up the courage to open it. It wasn’t that hard. He just had to turn the knob and pull it open.

The door looked very apathetic to his dilemma.

“Why is everything being mean to me?” Phil complained. Maybe it was just the mood he was in, but it felt like literally everything in his flat was judging him. Particularly the coffeemaker, which had spat half of its boiling contents at him earlier. He’d barely managed to dodge the mess.

Of course, nothing replied to him. Phil might have felt a little crazy for talking to inanimate objects, but what was new?

“Okay,” Phil encouraged himself. “You can do this.” He wondered if talking to himself counted as being crazy. He’d read somewhere that it only mattered if he replied to himself, but he hadn’t quite reached that stage yet, so he figured he was safe. He reached out slowly, grasping the doorknob, and it turned easily in his grasp. Once he’d gotten it open, it was a lot easier to slip all the way into the hallway and shut it behind him. He locked it and sighed.

Then he trudged down the hall toward the stairs.

It took him about five minutes longer than usual to get to the shop with the way he was almost dragging his feet. He wasn’t looking forward to any sort of conflict. The entire way, he ran through his mind the many ways he could act wholly nonchalant and not stare at Dan at all.

“Hello,” Phil offered, as soon as he’d pushed open the door to the shop, which he considered an excellent start to pretending to be okay. He noticed the soft music that drifted to him, a stark contrast to the usual quiet that inhabited the store, and glanced around with a pleasant surprise. “Oh! You got music!”

“Yes!” a cheery voice answered him. “I finally got a replacement speaker. Doesn’t it sound so much better now?”

That...was not Dan. Phil blinked at Louise, who was grinning behind the counter, and he winced internally. He wondered if Dan had told her what happened the other night. “Hi, Louise,” Phil said, then winced again at his dull tone.

Louise didn’t seem to mind. “Hello, Phil,” she said, leaning on the counter and beaming at him. Phil noticed the papers shifting under her elbows. Dan was still here, then. “How can I help you?” she offered.

“Oh, um.” Phil let his gaze float around the shop, his mind drifting with it. “I’m looking for flowers.”

She waited a long moment, then prodded, “Yes, that’s what we sell.”

Phil ferociously willed away the flush he could feel burning at his cheeks. “Er, yes, I need...some flowers for a birthday. Something pink.”

“Pink!” she said. “Well, we have plenty of those. Birthday...hmm.” She slipped out from behind the counter and trotted over to him, navigating around the various bins in the middle of the floor. She had a twinkle in her eye. “So who’s the lucky person?”

Oh god, Phil thought. She was trying to find out if he was dating anyone. Dan had definitely told her about what had happened. He couldn’t just lie to her, but he had to convince her that he wasn’t trying to steal away her boyfriend. Not that Dan could be taken. He wasn’t a possession or anything.

“Sister!” Phil blurted, trying to keep his thoughts from wandering. “I mean, sister-in-law. Sort of. Her birthday is in a few days. I also got her something else, but I thought flowers should go with it, too.”

“That’s a lovely idea.” Louise was still smiling, somehow even wider.

Phil wondered frantically how he could subtly let her know that he wasn’t really interested in Dan, he just...maybe...thought Dan looked very lovely. He couldn’t think of anything that wouldn’t be incredibly obvious. “Um. What flowers would you recommend?”

She immediately snagged a bouquet from a tub hanging on the wall. “Pink roses,” she suggested. “They’re wonderful for sisters and birthdays.”

“That sounds good,” Phil hastily approved. The flowers did look beautiful, and he knew Cornelia would like them. His gaze, without his permission, slipped past her and fell on the empty counter. He wondered where Dan was.

“Brilliant!” she said. Her long lashes brushed her cheeks as she blinked at Phil. “Is that all for you?”

He hesitated, glancing at the open door to the back of the shop. “Yes, that’s all.”

Louise returned to the counter and began ringing up his purchase. Phil followed her but remained on his side. He reached out to poke at the little bobblehead by the till, regretting everything. Dan was probably avoiding him. 

A moment later, as if summoned by Phil’s thoughts, there was a shuffling from the back, and then Dan appeared. There were deep bags under his eyes, and his hair was a limp mess. Phil thought he looked beautiful but immediately berated himself for it.

“Hi,” Phil said, hoping desperately for some clue about what Dan was thinking. “Um. How are you?”

“Fine,” said Dan. His tone was short. He didn’t ask how Phil was doing.

“Dan,” Louise said. She sounded gentle, and her hands had paused their movements over the till’s keys. “Are you going now?”

Dan made his way over to her and began gathering the scattered papers on the counter, clearly avoiding Phil’s gaze. “Yeah.”

Phil handed his credit card to Louise and cast furtive glances at Dan, who had shoved the papers into a bag that hung on his shoulder. Dan slipped past Louise, muttering a farewell, and started for the door. Phil felt a sudden urgency. He didn’t know why, but he had to talk to Dan. He wanted to apologize again, or maybe ask Dan if he was angry about how Phil felt for him. Hurrying after Dan, he abandoned Louise at the counter and barely catching Dan by the door.

“Dan!” he said, reaching out to snag Dan’s arm but thought better of it and yanked his hand back. He wanted to know where Dan was going, but also didn’t want to ask. He didn’t want to know if Dan was just leaving to get away from him. “Dan, are...are you okay?”

“I said I’m fine,” Dan said. He hadn’t turned to face Phil, but he had stopped.

Phil hesitated. “Is it because I…” Phil didn’t know how to say it, and he didn’t really want to bring up the incident. “I’m sorry,” he offered, pathetically.

Now, Dan turned to face him. His eyes were shuttered and weary, mouth in a thin line. The dimples were long gone. “Not everything is about you, Phil.”

It stung, and Phil took an involuntary step back, hurt. Not the words, which were indubitably right, but the way Dan had said them.

“I’ll text you,” Dan added, expression cool. It was a mocking echo of Phil’s parting, unfulfilled words on Sunday night. Then Dan turned and left. Overhead, Matt Bellamy sang softly to the flowers.

Phil just watched Dan leave. He felt hot with shame and cold at the dismissiveness all at once. The door whispered shut, and Dan vanished out of sight within seconds. Phil heard Louise’s voice.

“I’ve got you all bagged up,” she called. She sounded horribly sympathetic.

Phil wanted to leave and never come back. Instead, he turned and went back to the counter, accepting the birthday card and the wrapped flowers from Louise. The little Luigi bobblehead nodded at him consolingly. “Thanks,” Phil said quietly. He moved to leave, but Louise reached across the counter and rested a hand on his wrist.

“Phil,” she said, expression soft.

Phil wished he could shake her hand off; instead, he stilled and looked at her. He didn’t want her pity, but he didn’t dislike her. She was a lovely person, and Phil thought he would’ve gotten along with her a lot better if he wasn’t always wary of revealing his feelings for Dan.

“Don’t feel bad,” she said warmly. “He’s just tired. He’s got a lot on his mind, you know.”

Phil didn’t know. “Okay,” was all he said.

Louise clearly wasn’t satisfied with that. She leaned across the counter, her long curls falling forward and brushing against Phil’s hand. “He’s just busy and stressed,” she insisted. “He’s not really upset with you.”

“I’m not angry with him or anything,” Phil told her. He wasn’t sure why it was so important to him that she knew this. “It’s fine, I don’t blame him.” Of course he didn’t blame Dan if he was upset. Phil didn’t know how he would react if he was in a relationship and found out that one of his customers liked him.

“All right,” Louise said, but she didn’t move away. Instead, she lowered her voice, as if there was anyone there to overhear them. “Look, I know he’s just going to wait for eternity, and I don’t mean to pressure you or anything, but you should totally ask him out.”

Matt Bellamy’s crooning dulcet voice over the speakers almost drowned her out, and at first, Phil couldn’t quite understand what she’d just said. “Sorry?” he said.

She winked at him. “I’m not saying he likes you or anything, I’m just saying there’s an excellent chance he’ll say yes.”

Phil felt dizzy, all of a sudden. He couldn’t quite wrap his mind around what she was saying. “Sorry?” he said again. “Are you...what?” His ears buzzed with static.

“What?” she said, now looking just as confused as Phil felt.

“Aren’t you- ” Phil gestured helplessly. “You know. You’re both dating.”

Louise stared at him, blankly. “Um…” she said, then repeated, “What?”

Phil felt lost. “You and Dan,” he tried, then stopped. He blinked widely.

“We’re...dating?” Louise asked. Her brows were wrinkled. “No?” She said it more as a question than a statement. “Um...no. Why would you…? Oh. Oh, no.” Her face was melting into a look of comprehension, and then she dropped her face into her hands. Her shoulders began to shake.

Phil watched her helplessly. He still wasn’t quite sure what was going on or how he’d elicited such a reaction. He didn’t know if she was laughing or crying.

“Oh my god,” Louise said into her hands. Her voice was muffled. “Oh my...god. Wow.” She lifted her head, and her forehead was scrunched. She was giggling quietly, helplessly. “Phil,” she said. “Um. No. I’m definitely not dating Dan. He’s, uh...he’s all yours.”

“Oh,” said Phil, not sure what else to say. His brain was refusing to comprehend what she was saying, especially when she was still laughing like that.

Louise reached out and patted Phil’s hand, very sympathetically. “Phil,” she said. She had managed to catch her breath but was clearly still hopelessly amused. “Oh, Phil. No offense, but you’re both utter idiots.”

Phil couldn’t help but be offended. “We’re idiots?”

“Phil.” She leaned forward meaningfully. “I’m not dating Dan. Okay? Feel free to ask him out. Literally anytime now.”

“Oh,” said Phil, again, and then, “Oh!”

Louise nodded, her lips pursed with the effort not to laugh even more.

“But.” Phil looked down at the bouquet in his hands, then around the shop. He didn’t know what to do with himself. “But you - I saw you. You kissed him.” On the cheek, but that counted, right? And she regularly called him by endearing names like ‘darling.’

“We’re affectionate friends. Friends.”

Phil’s mind spun. It couldn’t settle on one thought. Dan wasn’t with Louise...Dan might like Phil...Dan probably hated him. The Luigi bobblehead nodded at him again, and this time Phil imagined that it was laughing at him, commiserating with his idiocy.

Louise patted his hand again, sensing his chaotic thoughts. “Listen,” she said. “Dan’s going to be here again tomorrow. We’ve got to prepare for a large party order on Saturday, so he’ll be working with me. Maybe you could...stop by.” She raised an eyebrow pointedly.

Phil knew it was hopeless to even try and make sense of what had just happened until he got back to his flat and drank another cup of coffee. “Okay.”

“Okay,” she repeated. Her eyes were small with mirth. Hozier started singing to them both over the speaker.

Phil turned to go, feeling abruptly weightless, but then he spun back to her. “Um,” he said. “What’s Dan’s favourite flower?”

Louise pointed at a rack of flowers.

“Thanks,” said Phil. His own voice sounded strange to him, high and breathless. “Okay. Bye.”

“Bye!” said Louise, beginning to giggle again. She waved, but Phil didn’t see it as he stumbled through the front door.

So. That had just happened.

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rule: answer the 30 questions and tag 30 followers that you would like to know better 

NICKNAME: simoney GENDER: female STAR SIGN: sagittarius HEIGHT: a li’ shorter than frank iero  TIME: 7:26am BIRTHDAY: 27th of nov ! FAVORITE BANDS: bts, nothing but thieves, highly suspect & mcr FAVORITE SOLO ARTIST(S): troye sivan and ed sheeran SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD: pied piper by bts  LAST MOVIE I WATCHED: spirited away ♡ LAST SHOW I WATCHED: dance academy lmao WHEN DID I CREATE MY BLOG: no clue it was years ago WHAT DO I POST: um aesthetic with some art & bands thrown in (pretty much whatever i am feeling tbh)  LAST THING I GOOGLED: bts bts bts DO YOU HAVE OTHER BLOGS: nope DO YOU GET ASKS: sometimes WHY DID YOU CHOOSE THIS BLOG NAME: i thought it sounded cool & funny  FOLLOWING: roughly 500 FOLLOWERS: close to 1500 !!! FAVORITE COLORS: it always changes but right now it’s baby pink AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: 8-10 cause’ i am always sleepy LUCKY NUMBER: 12 INSTRUMENTS: both acoustic and electric guitar WHAT AM I WEARING: a robe lol (should probably get ready for school HOW MANY BLANKETS I SLEEP WITH: one at the moment because it is now spring !!! DREAM JOB: not sure yet DREAM TRIP: europe & japan !!!  FAVORITE FOOD: tacos ! NATIONALITY: from australia but greek & portuguese   FAVORITE SONG NOW: particles by nothing but thieves   

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tag

I was tagged by the wonderful and amazing @k-is-not-amused, who i like a lot, so let’s do this

Have you ever tag

Have you ever..

1)said “i love you” to anyone? Yes

2)Waited all night for a phone call? I don’t think so no.

3)Stayed out literally all night? nah i’m not that cool.

4)Snuck out? Not really, i’ve sneaked to to 4 am snacks, but i havn’t really had a reason to go out without anyone knowing.

5)Smoked a cigarette? Not an entire cigarette, but a few drags yes.

6)Slept in a bed with a person of the same sex? yup to all those sleepovers yo!

7)Stolen money from a friend? Nah, why should i?

8)Been on an airplane? yaas

9)Slept all day? Not literally all day, but a good part of the day.

10)Missed someone so much it hurt? Kinda? not really, i don’t know.

11)Fallen asleep during school? No, been close to though. 

12)Been lonely? When havn’t i?

13)Cheated at a game? I guess so.

14)Gotten lost?

Not all those who wander are lost. but i sure am. 

15)Been in a car accident? No 16)Had detention? Nope.

17)Given money to a homeless person? Actually no, and now i feel bad...

18)Been so happy you cried? Nah i don’t cry that often, and not from happiness. 

19)Regretted loving someone? All the time.

20)Got in trouble with the law? Um,,no?

21)Have you ever had a secret admirer? Don’t think so who would like me?

22)Been scuba diving? No, kinda wish i had, but i would have been terrified the whole time so maybe not.

23)Broken a bone? No, have had my pinky out of socket though.

24)Been told you have an accent? Yup, that got pointed out a lot when i went to boarding school. 

I tag: @justyouraveragefangirl-67 , @existentialcatwhiskers , @furtive-phan . And anyone else who feels up for it.

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PHP Security Best method used by SSPE-P

Anchoring web applications from a wide range of fashioned assaulting endeavors is a definitive obligation of a web engineer. You should fabricate your web applications defensive enough to have no security issues or escape clauses, subsequently killing the likelihood of any malevolent assault says star secure programmer expert-php. By and large, the engineers must assume the liability and invest each conceivable push to recognize the vulnerabilities and propose arrangements, if any to address the issues winning in the applications. You can learn possible security liability by studying SSPE-P course. You can also test your skill, giving SSPE-P exam.

PHP is a prominent dialect for web advancement. It is popular to the point that sometimes organizations do run few abundance programs in which they welcome distinctive security specialists to break down their application from the center and propose basic PHP security best practices for it. Get SSPE-P certification to become security specialists of php programming.

PHP is the most reprimanded scripting dialect with regards to security. A noteworthy piece of engineers and QA specialists think PHP has no hearty strategies to anchor applications. The decision has some ground too in light of the fact that PHP is the most established and generally utilized dialect for web application advancement. Be that as it may, for quite a while since PHP 5.6, SSPE-P haven't seen any significant reports with respect to security and subsequently the dialect faces some security issues.

What This PHP Security Tutorial Contains?

I've been taking a shot at PHP security and execution issues for quite a while, being very dynamic in the SSPE-P certified people group getting some information about the tips and traps they are utilizing in their live tasks. Accordingly, the primary point of this PHP security instructional exercise is to make you mindful about the prescribed procedures for security in PHP web applications. I will characterize the accompanying issues and specifying conceivable answers for them.

Refresh PHP Regularly

Cross site scripting (XSS)

SQL Injection Attacks

Cross site ask for falsification XSRF/CSRF

Session Hijacking

Conceal Files from the Browser

Safely Upload Files

Utilize SSL Certificates For HTTPs

Send PHP Apps on Clouds

Note: kindly don't consider it as a total cheat sheet. There must be better ways and more novel arrangements designers would apply on the their applications to make it flawlessly anchored. You can learn more about security in php programming at star certification by learning SSPE-P course.

Refresh PHP Regularly

At the present time, the most steady and most recent rendition of PHP accessible is PHP 7.2.8. I suggest that you should refresh your PHP application to this new one. In the event that you are as yet utilizing PHP 5.6 then you will have a great deal of belittlings while overhauling PHP applications. You will likewise need to refresh your code and change some useful rationales like secret key hashing and so on. There are likewise a few instruments accessible to check the belittling of your code and help you in moving those. I have recorded a few instruments underneath:

PHP 7 Compatibility Checker

PHP 7 MAR

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On the off chance that you are utilizing PHP Storm then you can utilize PHP 7 Compatibility Inspection, that will demonstrate to you which code will cause you issues.

Cross-site scripting (XSS)

Cross web page scripting is a kind of pernicious web assault in which an outside content is infused into the site's code or yield. The aggressor can send tainted code to the end client while program can not distinguish it as a confided in content. This assault happens for the most part on the spots where client can enter and submit information. The assault can get to treats, sessions and other delicate data about the program. See if you possess skill to become a programmer securing cross site scripting by giving SSPE-P exam.

Cross site ask for fraud XSRF/CSRF

The CSRF assault is very unique to XSS assaults. In CSRF assault, the end client can perform undesirable activities on the verified sites and can exchange pernicious orders to the site to execute any unwanted activity. CSRF can't read the demand information and for the most part focuses on the state changing solicitation by sending any connection or adjusted information in HTML labels. It can constrain the client to perform state changing solicitations like exchanging reserves, changing their email addresses and so on.

Session Hijacking

Session commandeering is a specific kind of malevolent web assault in which the assailant furtively takes the session ID of the client. That session ID is sent to the server where the related $_SESSION cluster approves its stockpiling in the stack and concedes access to the application. Session commandeering is conceivable through a XSS assault or when somebody accesses the envelope on a server where the session information is put away. You can become expert in securing session hijacking by getting SSPE-P certification.

Conceal Files from the Browser

In the event that you have utilized miniaturized scale systems of PHP, at that point you more likely than not seen the particular catalog structure which guarantees the situation of documents appropriately. Systems permit to have diverse records like controllers, models, arrangement file(.yaml) and so on in that index, however more often than not program doesn't process every one of the documents, yet they are accessible to find in the program. To determine this issue, you should not put your records in the root index but rather in an open envelope with the goal that they are not available all the time in program.

Utilize SSL Certificates For HTTPS

All the cutting edge programs like Google Chrome, Opera, Firefox and others, prescribe to utilize HTTPS convention for web applications. HTTPs gives an anchored and encoded getting to channel for untrusted locales. You should incorporate HTTPS by introducing SSL testament into your site. It likewise fortifies your web applications against XSS assaults and keeps the programmers to peruse transported information utilizing codes. Cloudways gives free SSL authentications on a single tick which are legitimate for 90 days and you can undoubtedly deny or reestablish them with a tick. You can take after the aides for setting-up SSL Certificates in your PHP, WordPress, Magento and Drupal applications.

Convey PHP Apps on Clouds

Facilitating is the last and central advance for any web application, as you generally make the venture on nearby servers and send them on live servers which offer either shared, cloud or committed facilitating. I generally prescribe to utilize cloud facilitating like DigitalOcean, Linode, AWS. They are quick, sheltered and secure for any sort of site and application. They generally give anchored layer to anticipate DDOS, Brute power and phishing assaults which are exceedingly adverse for web applications.

To send your PHP venture on cloud servers, you should have great Linux aptitudes to make ground-breaking web stacks like LAMP or LEMP, which frequently costs you time and spending plan for Linux experts. Rather, Cloudways oversaw PHP and MySQL facilitating stage gives you the easy method to send servers with Thunderstack inside couple of snaps on the previously mentioned cloud suppliers. The Thunder stack causes your PHP application to be totally anchored from different malignant assaults and assurances upgraded execution.

Wrapping Up!

Indeed, The PHP security best practices is an extremely huge subject. Designers from around the globe have a tendency to create diverse utilize cases to anchor web applications. While numerous organizations run distinctive abundance projects to discover security provisos and vulnerabilities in their applications and along these lines compensate those security specialists who bring up basic escape clauses in the applications. In this article, I have secured essential PHP security issues, to enable you to see how to anchor your PHP ventures from various pernicious assaults. See more security content at star certification webpage who is providing SSPE-P certification.

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