#frustrating bc i don't know how to SPEAK!

[ritsukaaoyagi]

i like how ritsuka ends up “acquiescing” to soubi’s need for orders + action (of course we don’t see the actual result of this compromise due to seimei) instead of continuing to resist the way soubi functions… i think it says a lot that this happens after they’ve gone through a good deal of relationship development during goura as a lot was kinda hashed out between them in one way or another………. ritsuka tends to be pretty moralizing esp when it comes to soubi (ritsuka is obv "accepting" of him but you know what i mean… he contains multitudes) and so his decision to give soubi orders “if that’s what he needs” is very nice development… in my opinion… esp since he is affirming his intention to stay by soubi's side. also obligatory ritsuka’s life sucks statement IDC...

also it all reminds me of this certain characterization i would read on livejournal of soubi as like. his whole dilemma being he just needs to find an ethical outlet for his masochism which evidently isn't really true considering the kiss in the dark thing + the little that soubi has said about himself irt masochism and orders. but lately i do like this idea a lot HAHAHA i don't have the vocabulary to expand on it but taking this character that lives his life in such an unpalatable way but "allowing" him to live that way if that is what he "needs"... and the question of ethics... yum I DON'T KNOW... FUN.

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

[crownedwille]

Are there still Crown Prince!Wilhelm stans out there despite S3 turning it into the number one problem? Please report, we need to unite and no, that doesn't mean that I don't support Wille's mental health and happiness and that I love the monarchy, some people out there must get it

[houkagokappa]

Bless Mokumokuren for outright stating that the genre tags for Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu have never changed, i.e. the official site never dropped the "BL" tag from the series as it got more popular to reach a wider audience. It's been a persistent rumor in the fandom, and one I'm afraid will start circulating again once the anime starts airing.

If you mainly follow English language sources, please remember that whatever tags different anime and manga sites, databases, aggregators etc., either add or leave out don't always reflect the author's intent and the official sources, and should NOT be used to argue for what genre or demographic a certain work belongs to. It can just be random people claiming whatever they want based on their own interpretations and I've seen plenty of errors and real time changes to them based on new chapter developments, that might help catch the attention of some people, but don't suddenly change the genre of the work itself.

Not having BL as a genre tag also doesn't mean that a work can't include any boys loving. The queer themes have always been present in HGSN, and if you're up to date with the manga, they've been outright stated. Having queer characters or a queer story line doesn't automatically mean that a work is BL or yuri, and not including those tags doesn't mean that it's just "baiting". This gets brought up so much I think Mokumokuren's gotten tired of it, because the other day they clearly spelled it out for everyone, assuring that the story is queer, although it's not tagged as BL or focused on romance.

Here's what they shared on their Bluesky account:

The genre tag and advertising direction on the official website have never changed since the beginning of serialization. From the beginning, it has been consistently promoted as a "coming-of-age horror" within the official reach. (It's also true that the official reach is very limited…) Whatever the genre tag is, and even if this story isn't a romance, as the author, I guarantee that it is a queer story. There seems to be a persistent false rumor going around that "the author suddenly removed the BL tag from the official website by the 3rd volume," but the truth is that there was never an official BL tag from the beginning. (This is not to deny any queerness.)

And further back:

My opinion that the genre of The Summer Hikaru Died is something that the readers are free to think about on their own remains unchanged, but I view it as a story that sympathizes with those who have been left out of stories about love and sex, so I describe it as "coming-of-age horror." I think the key is the fear of not being “normal” and not having a place to belong, which is common for all kinds of people regardless of their attributes. I think it's fine for queer stories that aren't romances to exist. That's why I've been careful not to position it as a love story from the start.

Let's stop obsessing over tags and allow queer stories to exist and thrive, even when they lack a clear romantic plot or subplot and are more subdued.

[dennisboobs]

my favourite thing about the always sunny podcast is listening to rcg all say something extremely neurodivergent and then agree amongst themselves and convince themselves its completely normal

[agueforts]

me vs eternal grudges abt d20 captions

[batemanofficial]

hello upper middle class northern usamerican tumblr user. i want to play a game. you will notice that you are in a super america convenience store in rural kentucky - you have three minutes to purchase a snack and drink of your choice and make normal small talk with the cashier. however, if you use the word "cryptid" or generally make reference to appalachia and its inhabitants as "wild", uncivilized, or lacking restraint around alcoholic beverages during your time here, i will personally tie you to the chassis of a four wheeler and tip it into the river. live or die. make your choice

[shima-draws]

I had a conversation with my mom about commissions--she’s of the opinion that you shouldn’t have to wait super long to get what you paid for. I’m the opposite; I think artists should be able to take as long as they need to finish a commission, and I’m totally cool with waiting for months even for them to get back to me. Surprisingly enough I’m very patient when it comes to commissioning other people lol. Maybe I just think that way bc I’m an artist myself so I totally get the struggle. (And I also take time with my comms too.) My mom is not an artist so she doesn’t really grasp the amount of time and effort it takes, so she expects results immediately. Which like. I get that too? I dunno. What do you all think? Are you the kind of patient person who’s totally chill with an artist taking months to finish your commission? Or do you want it to be done within a reasonable amount of time, like 2-3 weeks?

[heartshattering]

/// more anxious rambling hah :')

Mom wants to move to the country where my cousins live but like... wtf would we even do there...? My dad doesn't speak the language at all and he's retiring from work in a few months, and a lot of the apartments only have old stairs and are not wheelchair-friendly so my mom would have difficulty getting around. I don't really have an interest in going, but my mom is making me watch TV shows on it when I wanted to go write my grad application... but I guess if she thinks we aren't even going to be living here anymore then me applying to be a grad student here is just pointless lol. But I feel like this is going to be a random passing phase for my mom, like it's just really hard for me to imagine us moving all the way there, I already know my dad would struggle 'cause of the language like I said, but more than that it's like what's gonna happen, I'm just gonna go be a shut-in in a different continent? 🥴

[fairysylveon]

rubbing my temples a little thinking about tim takes

[angelsdean]

wikipedia IS an adhd girlie's best friend slash enemy tho bc it's soooo fun clicking links and bouncing from one topic to the next (tangentially related) topic like that's literally literallllllly how my brain works<3 i literally play the wikipedia game in my mind every second of every day. i HAVE to make associations and little references abt everything. like my sister will say something and then i'll say something random and seemingly unrelated but no, if u follow the associations and also know the same media or whatever you'll get the reference and it's sometimes a game between us like Will You Get the Reference and also How Can We Connect These Random Topics. anyways, i don't understand how other people don't think in like interconnected references and citations and idea hopping from one topic to the next. literally everything is connected

[hightowres]

nice to see you back but i'm curious why you haven't been posting about taylor? are you still a swfitie?

i'm not really that invested in taylor right now, i still listen to her music sometimes but i wouldn't say i'm an active fan. just a personal thing though, like i just don't particularly care abt her atm

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Looking at "strategies" for how to handle rude people at work and they're all "be calm even when they yell at you :) apologize to them ☺️"

[desmondsdestiny]

to this day people still say the stupidest shit ever about connor. like I swear they played the game on mute and w their eyes closed. absolutely zero critical thinking on why this character is like that and why they made these choices. also? not every assassin has to be charming and witty, it would actually just get very tiring, and I'm very glad they never pulled that with connor. he still remains one of the best and I'll die on this hill.

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

rotates legends zone dymanics in my mind

[thelastspeecher]

spent like a whole half hour just calling pharmacies to see if they have my ADHD meds in stock and boy howdy am I glad I managed to call one right after they received a shipment of it bc this shit is, as they say, bananas