#fine line albim inspiration

[lilacscentedwordvomit]

I knew you were the one for me in November

there was always and internal suspicion about why November felt blue.

but never a crisp navy or a enchanting Cerulean

or a Delicate light.

Its because its always a cold sapphire kept warm only by a coat of dust-

only then can i remember that overwhelming grief that travels with love

-and its not that sapphire is never beautiful-

so the fall we fell in love was yellow. it was a yellow so aurelent and precious it would make him mourn. And I could tell him why I was scared,

because now it doesn't work anymore.

every feeling had been trumped by undying devotion, hiding unspoken truths in details of love.

-and now I'm forced to remember the stinging clouded sapphire that prevents freedoms because there is no longer You. and I sit with it.

it causes a agony that leaves lacerations so deep in my heart that i refuse to even let anyone else see its damage, because it was with you that I had my best days.

I knew i loved you in November because you painted it golden.