#exorcist!albedo

[phobiaexists]

Exorcist chalk guy

[thaliafrais]

[hells-sirenqueen]

roleplayer name: Xixi

roleplayer pronouns: She/Her

muse name(s): @hells-sirenqueen:

Hazbin Lilith -Lilith Morningstar (og/ show canon) -Albedo as alt fc -Sinner Snake Queen Lilith ( Unholy Crusade verse) -Queen Lilith Aradat Demonica (Dark Lilith - Failed Cycle Lilith/ Vampire UC Verse) ------ @baphomet-slumber-queen Belphegor - fc Gaap (Umineko)

-Frequent side muse Bethany ( paralysis demon) - fc Demon form Catherine. --- @cannibalxroses Overlord Rosie (Hartfelt. Married in UC verse to @/radioiaci and has taken his last name.) ----- @fxiled-fxithful Angela Blanc/ Ash Landers -Versed in Black Butler / Obey Me! / Hellverse -Primary focus is the Unholy Crusade Event/Verse & Aus associated

--------- @forgottenxsoldier Marie Hellverse OC (Former) Exorcist Angel

preferred communication: Honestly? Discord. I jump from one blog to another frequently depending on the muse I am feeling. So discord is the way to go. If you would like my discord and we are mutuals, please feel free to ask for it.

experience: Oh boy. So far as writing online, I've been rping since 2012. Started on Facebook, then slowly moved onto here and then to Twitter and then discord. Lately I've been mostly on here and discord though.

preferred roleplay type: I'm a hopeless romantic. I mean, I draft poems and romantic shit all the time. There is a writing partner of mine, whom I have a server with. We leave each other IC poetry for our characters and honestly it gives me life. I actually wrote a fic with them this past summer with our characters leaving love letters for one another. It was super sweet. (It was for Lucian x Shauntal. You can find it here if you're interested in reading it. I wrote for Shauntal.) But I am usually found writing some sort of angst or flirty/romantic scene. I'm..not the best at fight scenes, but with the UC verse, I've had to step out of that comfort zone a lot. It can get OP and Godmodding very quickly. I honestly hate it. There are some exceptions though. Like, if I am actively talking to my writing partner about the fight and what would seem fair, I'm down with the fight. Overall though? I just really don't see much appeal to being aggressive in writing.

pet peeves & dealbreakers:Lack of communication between replies for threads. If there isn't an ideal goal or direction that a thread is meant to steer towards or enough ooc conversation to keep all parties involved for the thread, things can get messy or even cause a bit of a writer's block for other parties involved. I know I offer to change my replies often if it doesn't work out well for my partner, but I'm well aware that there are writers out there who won't. Just keeping an open mind and open line of communication out of character goes a long way. It irks me when I have to deal with those who aren't. Thankfully I haven't had to deal with that in this RPC, but I have had to deal with it before.

best time to write: Late in the evening. Usually around 9-11pm EST. I'm usually mobile but if I have a thread that is important enough to be concerned about, I will relocate to my laptop if needs be.

are you like your muse?: I'd like to think I see a little bit of myself in each of my muses.

I'm always prejudged without anyone getting a chance to know me like Lilith, I have a terrible love/hate relationship with sleep like Belphie and I can be snarky like Bethany. I do love to gossip like Rosie and I have a bestie I talk to every so often to share the tea with. ( Lookin' at you @alteregozowie) I can be a devout friend like Angela and at times, I tend to have a similar temper that Ash has. But most of the time I feel like Marie. A clueless person who has no idea what the hell is going on and feeling like an absolute airhead 85% of the time.

Tagged by : @hells-greatestdad

Tagging: @mages-pandoras-box, @radioiaci, @radi0activesmile, @primordialruin, @sirserpentine, and anyone else who wants to

[mania-sama]

if we have each other (then we'll both be fine)

If We Have Each Other - Alec Benjamin

➼ information ❧ Genshin Impact ❧ Pairing: Chongyun/Xingqiu ❧ Additional Character: Albedo ❧ Tags: hurt/comfort, drowning, getting together, character study, blood and injury ❧ Summary: Dragonspine was the only place Chongyun felt like he could truly think through his emotions, so he returned there in order to sort through his conflicting feelings towards his best friend. He didn’t expect to run across some trouble along the way. ❧ Word Count: 4,429 ❧ Cross-posted from Archive of Our Own ❧ Original post date: 21 September 2022

Heart be pure, evil be erased. Mind be purged, world be saved.

It was one of the few times Chongyun remembered the full line of the demon-expelling mantra he’d dedicated his life’s practice upon. The cold air of Dragonspine mixed well with his Cryo Vision, creating a naturally calm atmosphere that he could otherwise never truly experience. A normal person, one who had not been gazed upon by the gods with interest, would find being surrounded by one pure element rather uncomfortable. Be it any of the seven elements, with perhaps the exception of Hydro, only Vision bearers understood the pure bliss that came along with the total envelopment of their Archon-given gift.

The snap of the harsh wind and crunch of frozen snow underfoot was familiar yet unfamiliar at the same time. Liyue did not experience harsh weather conditions like Mondstadt did. Only once can Chongyun remember the fall of snow in the harbor, but that had been the first and last time he had seen it within his homeland. Cryo wasn’t as accessible as Hydro and Geo were in Liyue, so he had to travel out to Dragonspine to calm his mind in order to be able to sensibly approach the questions running rampant inside his head.

Chongyun had been to the snowy mountain once before. His best friend– a skip in his heart beat at the thought was quickly settled by the sheer cold seeping into his skin– sent him on a wild chase at the false lead of an evil spirit running rampant. In truth, there had been nothing but samachurls to rid the world of. Despite the fever he had run after climbing off of the mountain, likely due to the sudden changes in elevation and climate rather than anything to do with his yang energy, he had been wishing to return back. There was little in Liyue that could match the serenity he felt when fully enveloped in his own element for the first in a long time.

A snow-colored rabbit scampered off in the barren trees to his left, and Chongyun repeated the mantra to himself once more. It wasn’t that he was afraid of what lurked on the mountain since there was little that he couldn’t handle alone; he simply found comfort in the words. Mixed with the calmness he felt when the gales ruffled his loose-fitting shirt, he believed he could finally tackle the thoughts that had been plaguing his mind.

Owls that thrived in the cold climates called to one another, their voices amplified in the winds carrying them. Chongyun let the sound drill into his brain and pick out the first thought to come to mind. The image of the second heir to the Feiyun Commerce Guild– a Hydro Vision bearer– his best friend– was dropped into his hands by the owls. Subconsciously, he knew that was the main reason he made the journey to Dragonspine. Xingqiu had been doing the same things as he always did, but for some reason, something had changed in Chongyun. Something that he needed a clear head to challenge.

That didn’t make the thoughts any easier to breech. A part of him wanted to take the conflicting feelings and cover them with snow. Better yet, he should use his claymore to dig out a hole in the frozen ground and bury them deep within. It would certainly be much easier that way. However, ignoring problems was not the exorcist way. Doing such a deed would directly conflict with all of the lessons he’d been taught and the morals carefully ingrained in him since before he could talk.

He couldn’t feel his fingertips particularly where, and Chongyun determined that was where he would start. Xingqiu was the same boy he’d known for years, yet the past few months had caused a sudden change when the exorcist regarded his friend. The most noticeable development had been the pure anxiety he felt. It was peculiar when it would occur, though. Previously, Chongyun had only felt nervous when they ate together on account of his friend having the nasty habit of sneaking spices in the cold dishes made for the highly-sensitive boy.

The nervousness he felt now had less to do with the spice and more about the mundane aspects of eating out. What he was going to where and what Xingqiu would think about it, if he bored his friend with his talks of exorcism techniques, and whether or not the jokes he made were humorous enough to make sure that the laughter from Xingqiu’s lips were genuine.

The thought of laughter sparked a new train of thought, one that had to do with his anxiety but with a physical addition. When Chongyun heard his friend laugh, witnessed a bright smile, or even got to hear about another book that Xingqiu was invested in, his yang energy would act up. It was worrisome, for he would constantly have to replenish his popsicles after just one day of hanging out with his friend. And he dare not run out of popsicles, especially now with his heightened anxiety– the ordeal that would follow after would be too mortifying to bear.

That wasn’t even to mention what would occur when Xingqiu would touch him. A stinging sensation lingered in every place his friend dared to lay even a finger on. It could be something as simple as a brush of the shoulder, or something as big as tackling him to the ground for one reason or another. Anywhere that was grazed with Xingqiu’s touch would still be phantomly felt in the late hours when Chongyun tried to find sleep. It was an uncomfortable problem, yet he knew that it wasn’t a problem he wished would end.

Confusing: that was the only word that could be used to describe his muddled feelings. The rapid beating of his heart, his clammy hands, and the flushing of his neck and cheeks. There was the conflicting side of that aspect as well, which could be only characterized by a certain dejectedness. An inferior feeling, the notion that he didn’t belong and couldn’t match up to what Xingqiu wants in a friend. They were of different social classes, and though the heir didn’t ever mention it, Chongyun had taken notice.

Perhaps he wanted to impress Xingqiu. He hadn’t felt that need, though, in the many years that their long friendship had lasted. As far as he could tell, Xingqiu hadn’t changed his behavior in any way. He’d always been a bit cruel in a way that Chongyun enjoyed, had wonderful taste in clothing and literature, and had given the exorcist valuable questions to dwell on that would ultimately better himself as an exorcist.

There was only one other significant change in their relationship, but it had less to do with Chongyun and more so with Xingqiu’s home life. It was well-known in their little friend group the kind of household the young heir grew up and still resided in. More recently, the situation had gotten significantly worse. Though Xingqiu did his best to hide it, the emotional toll it had taken on him was clear to anyone that knew him well.

This led to the two hanging out more often. The anxieties doubled, and it made Chognyun feel awful when he knew how much worse his friend had it. The nerves seemed oddly attributed, and he’d tried to discard it for so long in order to focus on comforting his friend. Eventually, he decided enough was enough. If he couldn’t settle out his own problems that were practically impossible to ignore, then he wouldn’t be able to help his friend at all.

Xingqiu had carefully hidden his despondency when Chongyun told him he was leaving for Dragonspine for an undetermined amount of time, just long enough for him to sort through his own brain. However, being his friend for a decade, the exorcist was able to see through Xingqiu’s facade easily. It pained him at the time, and even now his stomach felt a little sour at the reminder. But he knew it was better for both of them if he found the root of his problems and plucked them like overgrown weeds.

The trail started to become steep, meaning Chongyun had to focus on his step a little more. He had to plant his feet down in the snow at just the right angle and with enough force so he wouldn’t go sliding back down the mountain. Ahead of him and to his right, he saw a pair of deer rubbing against each other. By the look of his antlers, the bigger one was a buck while the slightly smaller and paler one was the doe.

Chongyun stopped walking in fear of startling the skittish creatures, and the pause in action allowed him to give them his full attention to the animals. They were both considerably large when he compared them to the ones he’d seen in Liyue, but they were a lot lighter in color. That was likely due to their naturally-developed camouflage to match their surrounding terrain. If Chongyun wasn’t so perceptive, he could’ve easily missed them.

The pair bumped foreheads, the buck’s antlers encasing the doe’s ears. When the buck’s hoof stamped the ground, the doe turned to rub her cheek against his. This seemed to calm him down, and he moved to reciprocate the favor. The following position looked something like a hug, for the deers’ necks were wrapped around each other and their heads were resting on the other. Their hot air from their noses crystallized in the air around them, creating a mist effect. It captured the true nature of love.

Chongyun was left in a daze. The love of two animals were displayed before him, yet all he could picture in his mind was his best friend. It was then that the deepest parts of his subconscious were starting to come forward. His heart had understood long before his brain did. His hands shook and his eyes went dry, leaving him to come to slowly come to terms with the feelings he had been dealing with for months.

The deer moved suddenly, their heads snapping up to look beyond Chongyun. They pranced away immediately after, leaving the exorcist behind to face whatever had startled the poor creatures. Turning around, he found the object of their fright: a Cryo Abyss Mage.

It laughed deviously, a hand over its mouth and rolling in its bubble. The exorcist narrowed his eyes, forming a plan in his head. He had little protection on his body on account of abandoning his normal clothes– he had wanted to experience the mountain as he did before, with just a short-sleeved shirt and loose-fitting pants. Unfortunately, it would help little in protecting his skin from the harmful crystals of a mage.

Chongyun side-stepped as the mage cast a crystal to fall on his head, summoning his claymore in the process. In battles such as these, he wished he had been blessed with the element of Pyro, just for the sake of the Cryo shield being impossible to break with the Vision he actually possessed. None the matter, he would simply have to do it the hard way.

Except, he never got the chance. He stepped too far off the trail, too close to the Abyss Mage, and the snow broke under his feet. Chongyun knew not to stray from the trail, since the snow was liable to cover ice ravines and frozen rivers that would be incredibly difficult to get out of, even for someone with a Vision. If he had gotten stuck somewhere, he’d never hear the end of it from Xingqiu.

It all happened too fast. An exorcist was trained to react immediately and use whatever materials were at their disposal. Chongyun had spent years perfecting his reaction time, yet there would always be a situation where the world moved too fast for even the most adept exorcist in the world. Such was this case, where in one moment he was brandishing his claymore, and in the next he was enveloped in an underground river.

Chongyun knew how to swim. Swimming against the rushing turrets of the cold, cold water was not the biggest issue; it was the ice that blocked his way up. The Abyss Mage was directly above him, from what he could make out in the distorted reflection cast upon the ice. Its constant Cryo application from its shield hardened the ice. The exorcist was unable to break through, and the current fought against him too hard.

There was a certain panic from asphyxiation that couldn’t be matched by anything else. Choking, drowning, strangulation, or mere asthma: being deprived of oxygen was unlike any other feeling possible in Teyvat. The dark waters, where Chongyun could no longer see anything, kept him flowing down the frozen river.

He grasped at anything he possibly could: any roots underground, his resummoned claymore, or the fish passing by that he couldn’t actually see. The water made gripping anything impossible. His chest closed in on itself, and he couldn’t breathe. It was terrible, and all he could think about was how he told Xingqiu he wouldn’t be gone for too long in the mountain.

Dragonspine was dangerous. He was warned time and time again, but he had a Cryo Vision, and was a trained exorcist– he thought he could handle it. But the ice wouldn’t break away, and he couldn’t reach up to try and dig away at the snow above him, hiding his body from any living being on the mountain. He couldn’t breathe, and for the first time, it was too cold. The freezing water rushed into his brain from his ears and eventually from his open mouth as it became too difficult to not attempt to breathe.

He wasn’t sure when he lost sight, or when the water that was filling his lungs finally choked him out for good. All he knew was that he couldn’t feel anything anymore. All he knew was that it was getting incredibly hard to think of anything at all. The only thing he knew, for certain amongst all the other certainties of his inevitable death, was that his Vision was no longer illuminating the abyssal darkness.

—

A man walked through the mountain, a sketchbook tucked under his arm to protect it from the steadily falling snow. It was obvious that he was well-adapted to the climate, from the pace of his every breath to the calculated yet efficient way he walked.

He was mumbling to himself. The air crystallized around his mouth instantly, almost blinding him. Yet he wasn’t deterred by the constant cloud around his eyes. He continued to walk on.

The man stopped suddenly, and the forest became deadly silent. No birds chirped and no snow crunched underfoot. Even the wind stilled. Nothing appeared out of the ordinary, but his keen blue eyes were locked onto something in the distance. He took two hesitant steps forward, his gray and royal blue boots dragging in the snow, before taking off into a sprint.

In the middle of his slightly-panicked run, he managed to tuck his sketchbook into the back of his pants. In fact, the snow underneath his feet and the flakes falling in front of his face didn’t seem to hinder him in any way. It was as if he was running along a perfectly-paved road.

Eventually, he came upon the sight he had set his eyes upon. It was a hole in the ice where stones and dirt abruptly narrowed the river hidden underneath the layers of snow. Water bubbled out the top, but that wasn’t what had caught the man’s attention.

He bent down at the hole before reaching down past the arm and head of blue hair sticking out of the water. The man pulled the figure out of the river by his armpits. He heaved his way through the process, his Geo Vision pulsing from the energy he pulled from it.

Once he pulled the figure— a boy— out of the water, he checked the other’s pulse before pushing on his chest. Between the chest compressions, he used his sketchbook and Geo Vision to create gauze and other aid for the wounds all across the pale boy’s body.

It wasn’t until after he got the boy to cough up the majority of the water in his lungs that he saw the Vision that had washed ashore. The normal glow of ambition and life had faded away.

—

The minute Chongyun became aware of himself, a sharp pain thudded in his skull. He groaned, attempting to push himself off the bed he was on. It was harder than he’d liked to admit, also considering the fact that he had no idea where he was or how he’d gotten there.

He didn’t have a lot of time to take in his surroundings until he found a very familiar boy sitting in a chair beside his bed. The look on his face was one of pure neutrality, if not for the slight upturn of the corner of his lips.

The first two emotions Chongyun had felt since he’d woken up was confusion and pure panic. It was never good when Xingqiu got that look on his face. The exorcist knew he was about to get yelled at, yet he didn’t know why. He didn’t know what happened, how he got here, and why Xingqiu was so mad at him.

Then it started:

“How are you feeling?” Xingqiu asked. His voice was chipped and collected. Restrained and controlled. Chongyun could feel the sweat roll off of his face despite the chill in the room that he could now recognize as a sterilized infirmary.

“Uh… My head hurts…” he said. “I don’t even know what happened, so you can’t yell at me yet. Oh, did I eat something spicy?”

At this, the almost-polite smile on his face dropped completely. Xingqiu crossed one leg on top of the other and leaned forward, resting his chin on the palm of his hand. “You drowned, Chongyun. You almost— you almost died.”

It wasn’t as angry as Chongyun expected, but the choked sound that came from the back of his friend's throat was worse than any fury sent from the abyss. Xingqiu didn't look angry. He looked hurt.

Chongyun didn’t deal with other’s emotions very well. It made him freeze up when he was confronted with it, and he could only help in subtle ways when they weren’t so strong. But with the memories from his day in the mountain came flooding back, he remembered the deer. And he remembered the way the river closed in on his lungs and drifted his last thoughts.

He didn’t think, he just spoke like it was the end of the world. 

“I love you.”

The words surprised him like he wasn’t the one that said them and wholeheartedly believed them. For Xingqiu, it looked like it had a very different effect on him.

Tears started streaming down his face before he was able to get the beginning word out. Chongyun wasn’t sure what to make of it. If anything, he was scared, because he just told his best friend that he loved him and it was entirely true.

“No, you can’t say something like that. I know you love me,” Xingqiu said, “but not the way that I love you. You can’t just— you can’t go off and try to die and then break my heart into more pieces. You can’t keep doing this to me. Don’t leave me. Please, don’t leave me. I love you too much.”

Chongyun wasn’t sure what he’d done, but what he did know was that whatever he did had fully broken his friend. His words weren’t colorful and full of life as though he was cursed to only speak in rhymes. Instead, the heir was sobbing, his fingers furiously wiping at his eyes as he tried to keep eye contact with the exorcist.

But not the way I love you. He loved Xingqiu, more than could be described for a friend and even more than a crush. It had been festering for so long, but Chongyun had spent too long shoving away his own emotions to see that he’d put his best friend through the worst torture alive.

But perhaps it was a little relieving to know that his love wasn’t unrequited.

Chongyun leaned to the side and took a hold of Xingqiu’s thin wrists. His bony structure was descriptive to the true strength he wielded in his blade work. Anyone that looked at him would see him as unassuming, but the exorcist knew better. He knew Xingqiu better than anyone else alive.

A chill spread at Chongyun’s hip where his Vision rested. Xingqiu had once told him that his cold hands had a calming effect on him, so he used his power to amp up the coolness a little more. “I’m not going anywhere,” he soothed.

Xingqiu hiccuped through his sobs. His friend didn’t cry a lot, which made the sight of it then feel sacrilegious. “I’ve loved you for so long. I know you don’t…”

“Xingqiu, I love you. I love you the way you love me.” The stars of disbelief his best friend was giving Chongyun could've killed and buried him ten times over. “I’m not leaving you. I want to be with you,” he said, attempting an awkward smile that always got Xingqiu to reciprocate, even just a little.

“It’s been years. I caught feelings for you the moment I laid my eyes on you,” Xingqiu breathed out.

Chongyun moved his hands away from his friend’s wrists and to his face so he could wipe away the tears falling down his face. His headache raged on and he could still feel the phantom river water clogging his lungs, but the way Xingqiu leaned into his touch eased his pain.

Despite the puffiness of his eyes and the ugly sniffling noise he was emitting, Xingqiu was still the same boy he’s grown up with and for the first time in his life, Chongyun realized just how badly he needed this.

“I really want to kiss you,” he whispered, matching Xingqiu’s voice level. The nod from the heir was all the exorcist needed to close the gap between their lips.

There wasn’t any time to process the kiss, for it ended as soon as it started. The door to the infirmary room open, and the two boys pulled apart immediately. Though, the blush on Xingqiu’s cheeks indicated that the abrupt ending to the kiss was against his wants.

“Chongyun, I’m glad you are awake,” the man said in a monotone voice. “How are you feeling?”

His head was filled with hair the color of sunlight, and the colors and emblem on his clothes indicated an association with the Knights of Favonius in Mondstadt. Chongyun had been to Mondstadt, of course, but he couldn’t recall this person at all.

“My head hurts and my throat feels clogged, but uh… who are you, Sir? And where exactly am I?” Chongyun asked, although he already thought of the second question’s answer. It would be better to get them confirmed than left as mere assumptions. Plus his brain was frazzled, but not just from the headache.

The unknown Knight— presumably— didn’t get a chance to make himself known, for Xingqiu was already answering for him. “Do you remember Calx, my artist and friend from Mondstadt?” He asked, having majorly calmed down from his meltdown. “Well, turns out he’s Albedo, the Chief Alchemist and Investigation Captain for the Knights of Favonius! He sent me a letter of your whereabouts.”

That did explain the Favonius emblems and colors. Calx— or Albedo— smiled politely at him. “Albedo or Calx is fine. I found you bleeding out and drowned in a river in Dragonspine. I would give you a lesson in the dangers of the mountain, but Zenyu informed me that you’d done something similar before.”

“Ah,” Chongyun coughed, trying to hide the heat rising up his neck. “Yes. I was trying to track a demon and hid in a lake. I ran a fever afterwards, but all of that was intentional. This however… I was caught off-guard by an Abyss Mage. The ground gave away underneath me and the Mage froze the top of the river. I couldn’t escape.”

Warmth spread through Chongyun’s hand, and he glanced down to find Xingqiu’s fingers wrapped around his own. His palm pressed gently against the exorcist’s.

“Thank you for saving me, Sir Albedo, and for contacting Xingqiu,” he thanked. “How shall I repay your kindness?”

Albedo shook his head. “No need. It’s my duty as a member of the Ordo and as someone well-equipped in living in Dragonspine. I suggest wearing more than just a shirt and loose pants next time, though.”

At that advice, Xingqiu hit Chongyun’s arm. “You were suffering from a severe fever for four days on top of your unconscious ones!”

“I’m sorry, Xingqiu,” he apologized, and he meant it with his whole chest. There was a deep set regret for his actions, but not for the entire trip. If not for Dragonspine, he probably wouldn’t have realized his true feelings. If not for the accident, he would've had the courage to kiss his best friend. If not for Xingqiu, who was too distraught to think carefully through his words.

Not all of it was bad. What was bad, though, was the awkward cough from the alchemist that pulled the two boys out of their shared, deep stare.

“The healers will let you know when you can leave. I don’t have anything else to say, but if you need me, send for me. Good-bye, Zenyu and Chongyun,” he said rather uncomfortably before shuffling out of the door.

Silence was left in his wake as the exorcist processed the embarrassment he was just put through, though it was quickly replaced by the wonderful sound of Xingqiu’s laughter. It rang like sweet chimes in his ears.

“That was our cue. Where were we?” He didn’t give Chongyun any time to think before there were lips pressed against his own. 

The desperation was still prevelant in the way Xingqiu clung to his arms like he was still drowning underneath the ice, and the way there were shudders in his breath and sad sparks in his eyes. The exorcist’s near death wasn’t to be forgotten. But for now, he could relish in the feeling of Xingqiu’s love for a thousand lifetimes and more.

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can i ask why you don't like xingyun? /gen not a shipper myself but i'm just curious since a lot of chongyun lovers love that ship, i've never seen anyone NOT like it

rant warning by the way, I accidentally got more and more annoyed writing this 😬

im gonna be honest the number one reason is because i see it everywhere

the first effect of this is that content depicting xingqiu and chongyun in a nonromantic manner get tagged as xing/yun, which is annoying to me. you can draw 2 characters together in a nonromantic manner and you don't have to tag the ship guys. it's real it's called being friends. the second effect is that there's never any content with chongyun and Other Characters. people are so hung up on him and xingqiu that chongyun almost never exists without xingqiu. like you might notice i have a tag for chongyun and hu tao (mostly platonic) stuff except that there are only 7-8 posts tagged with that, because although the "exorcist and girl who can see ghosts" dynamic would be so cool, nobody seems to think abt that bc almost everything with chongyun includes xingqiu. this also goes for chongyun and xiangling (who canonically makes him his cooling popsicles) and like random other characters whom he Could interact with and be friends with (ayaka and him is a crack friendship i talked about once, and ofc chongyun and xiao). i hate it. xingqiu got his mr worldwide arc with venti and albedo please depict chongyun alone with other friends (it literally doesn't even have to be romantic). of course, this might just be a separate problem that I'm conflating with the ship, but it annoys me. i'm not focusing on xingqiu's side because although fan content for like idk him and yun jin? him and hu tao? albedo? is also super rare, at least that stuff exists in canon.

the second reason is because xingqiu's prankster attitude towards chongyun annoys me

yeah i love my little shit son but idk, it's just annoying when people make him feed chongyun spicy food, play pranks on him that cost chongyun Something (losing face, wasted time, frustration) idk. i guess i don't like that his condition isn't taken seriously. i don't think it's bad to have friends who pull your leg but at least not in a malicious way? like iirc he's implied to have triggered chongyun's yang energy overflows at least a couple times, and it's like . why. why is it played for jokes the kid literally passes out. "(He) needs more practice. Especially… with eating spicy food, haha." bro please do not !! don't trigger his condition just for kicks! xingqiu's other pranks also annoy me, given that i hate being tricked, so some of this might be projection or smth idk, but like idk you can give him good suggestions for where to demon hunt instead of making up shit and then going after him to make up for any costs. it's just annoying i think chongyun gets annoyed but then later forgives him, as friends are, but i cannot imagine them getting together like this. unless it's toxic idk . if they're friends i can give a pass to the pranks and stuff but in a romantic relationship i don't think i could see this kind of dynamic being a good one

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Hello! My name is Candy Hearts. I am 25 years old, with about 19 years of roleplay experience. I am a semi lit, lit andLazy lit(due to working a lot) , but I try to match my roleplay partner's reaction, as I will post an example on what I do so you guys can see what I type. ( ´~｀)

So I will remind everyone I am German/American and had moved from Germany to America when I was about 5 years old. So my Grammer and Spelling isn't super. Because learning American language takes a long time to get that language 100%! ╥﹏╥

Now I do roleplay! I will list all of the characters I can play from each anime which will be a big list, haha. I've been into anime for almost 20 years! ꉂ(ˊᗜˋ*)♡

I am very open to do, cc x cc, Oc x cc, and oc x oc, I am up for doubles! Just dm me and we can talk! <3

Roleplay Rules

Don't use any emojis unless you are talking to me outside of roleplay or it's like a text in the rp

Please no one liners (it honestly hard to go off by one liners)

Please don't control my character, because its not fun when someone does that

I WILL NOT ACCEPT ANY GROSS KINKS LIKE FECES AND SCAT! Other than that I welcome any and all kinks!

Animes | Muses I roleplay :

Helluva Boss/Hazbin : Bitzo, Stolas, Fizzarolli, Alastor, Alastoria(Female Alastor), Charlie, Angel Dust, Sir Pentious

Food wars : Megumi, Takumi, Isami, Isshiki, Shun, Akira, Alice, Nao, Mea, Tsukasa, Kikuchi

Jujutsu Kaisen : Gojo, Toge, Megumi(Possibly?), Miwa, Itadori(FYI my sukuna is not the best), Choso, Yuta

Demon Slayer : Mitsuri, Tanjiro, Inosuke, Akaze, Daki, Enmu, Giyu

Naruto : Kakashi, Naruto, Shikamaru, Kiba, Tobi, Gaara, Haku, Hinata, Asuma, Anko, Ketetsu,

Tokyo Revengers : Takamichi, Mikey, Nahoya, Souya, Naoto, Sanzu, Chifuyu, Kazutora, Sendo

Buddy Daddies : Kazuki and Kyrotaru

Genshin : Kinich(I main this guy), Lyney, Razor, Albedo, Furina, Al-Haitham, Venti, collei, Gorou, Layla, Ganyu, Hu Tao, Ga-Ming, Cyno, Itto, Navia, Tighnari, Kirara, Mika, Thoma, Haizou, Charlotte, Kazuha, Childe, Xianyun, Alrecchino, Nahida, Sethos, Ningguang,

Honkai: Star Rail : Rappa, Hanya, Misha, Dan Heng(both regular and his 5* form), Feixiao, FireFly, Fu Xuan, Gepard, Himeko, HuoHuo, Jiaoque, King Yuan, Kafka, Lingshu, Luocha, Robin, Sunday, Ruan Mei, Sparkle, Silver Wolf, Topaz, stelle/Caelus, Yanqing, Arlan, Asta, Guinaifen, Gallagher, Xueyi

Danganronpa : Junko, Kokichi, Nanami, Sonia, Mikan, Nagito, Ibuki, Shuichi, Hajime, Kazuichi, Rantaro,

That Time I Got Reincarnated As a Slime : Rimuru, Milim, Shuna, Shion,

Pokemon : (Ask what gen and I can probably do them! )

P. S there are many animes I like, I can even show them here!

DanDaDan, Jujutsu Kaisen, Demon Slayer, Tokyo Revengers, Black Clover, Buddy Daddies, Fire Force, Genshin Impact, My Hero, Yarichin Bitch Club, Naruto, Haikyuu, Kuroko No Basket, Devil is a part Timer, Classroom of the elite, Food wars, That time I got reincarnated as a Slime, Rising of the Shield Hero, Danganronpa, Death Parade, Free! , Tokyo Ghoul, Assassination Classroom, Avatar: Last Airbender, Durarara!!, Fruits Basket, Re;Zero, Fairy Tail, Spy x Family, Attack On Titan, Yu-gi-oh, Blue Exorcist, Seraph Of the End, Angels of Death, Stray dogs, Servamp, Wolf's Rain, many more to list.

My rp style example :

Astraea looked over to Hanma as she was in her bedroom, hearing the door open made her jolt because she isn't quite used to seeing Hanma, she had knitting kit out as she was making a blanket out of boredom, she gulps as she nodded softly, her pink hair was in downward piggy tails as she says softly

"Y-Yeah, I can do that. J-Just um- " She blushed softly as she was never used to dressing up and showing off her body like the way he likes it, she puts down her kit a bit

Second Example :

Rimauru blinked as he moves as he transform back into his human for as he smiles, he walks over to the Fairy Queen, he then bows softly to her and smiles "Hello~ I'm Rimauru Tempest! You must be Elvira. Pleasure to finally meet you. " he said softly as he smiles happily, knowing he can he a bit intimidating, he tried his best to have the softest vibe he can have.

"I hope you're travels weren't am issue, I know City of Tempest can be very rough since we're the furthest of all the nations here. " he said as he walks and moves showing her a place to sit, he looks at her as he can easily tell she was nervous but he didn't bring it up because she was being strong for her kingdom

I think that is it, DM if you want to roleplay! <3 will be happy to meet you soon~ Womp Womp~!

[mmriesoftvat]

Verses I had for Chongyun before I moved him here. bonus: characters who also fall under these verses + more.

YAKSHA: chongyun is actually binarius, the missing cryo yaksha. sealed away by rex lapis in a moment of terror when all the other yaksha were falling apart/dying. the seals in place kept binarius alive, his power dormant. but it removed all his memories of being a yaksha. thousands of years later, the seals are breaking, and chongyun, is remembering his life as a yaksha. and doesn't know if he's chongyun or binarius anymore, or some mix of both. bonus: illuminated form is a huli jing, or a nine tailed fox.

ADEPTUS: chongyun took the trials to become an adeptus, a feet that hadn't happened in a long long time. with his own abode underneath mt aocang, chongyun's able to become an arctic fox. this verse is a little character specific. adopted officially by lapidex's rex lapis.

FATUI: chongyun went poking their nose into trouble because they thought the fatui would have some mystical magical cure for their yang energy. chongyun fell down a rabbit hole of lies and conspiracy and became one of them himself. now he's a fatuus with a code name (caesor) and takes orders from the harbingers. angsty verse, because chongyun is so completely dead inside and has lost all hope.

ABYSS: you thought chongyun is human? guess again. chongyun is actually a reincarnated bathysmal vishap who wants to go home. liyue is not home, they don't actually know where home is, aside from a strong desire to go back to inazuma. there's also that weird, bizarre sensation that the abyss order has things right, why are we fighting them?

SUMERU: nothing crazy, but chongyun moved to sumeru to pester their favorite people. cyno, tighnari, and more! lighthearted shenanigans afoot, including mysterious prank billboard notices. who'd ever suspect the innocent looking claymore user with the popsicle?

POPSTAR: chongyun is a heavily famous solo cpop artist. while chongyun loves the stage, loves to dance and sing, they also love their downtime, which includes lots of snacks and naps. wild on the stage, quiet in person. also, chongyun loves to collab with other artists. inspired by chongyun's drummer skin.

YANG DRUNK: just when the yang energy takes control, and chongyun is more unhinged/wild. chongyun tends to be more blunt and wild, gives zero shits about anything. though doesn't attack his friends, he's still slightly more ruthless. and he does remember his episodes when he comes out of it later on. much remorse is to be had.

MODERN: chongyun is a popular ghost hunter youtuber/streamer. ghosts are real, and he enjoys the spooks and delivering them to eager fans.

KAMI VERSION: kaminari works at a library and loves his job. he's a huge bookworm, and has recently started his own online career where he reviews books. turns out, people love that.

HSR: part of the xianzhou Alliance, divination section, chongyun prefers to stay behind the scenes and play video games. They take their job seriously of course, and help out if/when needed.

KAMI VERSION: kami is a hacker who's just as good as silver wolf. he found himself leaning toward kafka's ideals and sees her as the closest thing to an ally there is. there aren't many other options for a puppet on the run, especially when he's got encryptic information inside of him. at least the members of the express crew aren't bad.

SCI FI: part of a mysterious group known as ‘the exorcists’, codename demonbane is exceptionally skilled at tracking ‘ghosts’ or anyone who tries to hack/cause mayhem online. chongyun is the best there is and everyone knows his codename, but no one knows him. he likes it that way. to be changed with plotting.

TWINS: any verse where there are twins. chongyun/jiyu, kami/ren, kami/uzumaki, etc. if they are twins aus, they will be tagged here.

OTHER VERSES:

KHAENRI'AH: albedo centric. takes place back in khaenri'ah days. can also include events and characters that also happened around that time period, give or take a couple hundred years.

[ikebo-simp]

~Wallets~

I know there are obvious rich boys, Childe, Ayato and Diluc to name a few, but what about Kaeya probably has money from being Ragnvindr (even if it was in the past) or Thoma? Who is one Ayato's most trusted friends?

I'm just going down the list and writing what I think about their financial situation, and if they can be your wallet

Warning: Long

Albedo is rich, canonically, half of it goes to charity and half goes to cleaning up Klee's messes, even if he took like 5% each time, he'd be rich enough to be your wallet

Alhaitham is also rich, he was rich as a scribe, he's even richer as Acting Grand Sage, he can be your wallet

Amber is comfortable, I like to think that the Knights pay their members well, especially those who have a vision and can easily take care of Hilichurls, not Childe level wallet, but if you wanted to eat meat often, she's got you

Itto.... doesn't have a job, combined with the rest of the Arataki gang, they survive, but um.... yeah... can't be your wallet

Baizhu ripped off the Fatui, yes, he can be your wallet

Barbara, if I remember correctly, is the daughter of the Pope, judging from the large cathedral and it's condition, they're kinda rich

Beidou's rich, she's a pirate! Can be your wallet

Bennett is not rich, but his dads are willing to help!

Candace, I don't know enough about Candace to make a proper judgment, but I figure she's richer than Itto and Bennett

Chongyun's family is full of famous Exorcists, I figure they're rich, can be your wallet

Collei's papa Tigh is probably well off and I think he gives her allowance, also I think Cyno drops off coin pouches for her, in the same area as Amber

Cyno is rich, he's literally the general Mahamatra, why wouldn't he be? Could be your wallet

Dehya is a famous mercenary and gets commissions often, giving her tons of mora, it says so in her story quest, can be your wallet

Diluc is Diluc, can be your wallet and more

Diona's a child and forcing this kid to be your wallet would be child abuse and child labor

Dori can be your wallet, just make sure you know what you're getting into

Eula is from a former noble family, I'm not sure if they have any money left, but even if they didn't, she works for the Knights of Favonious, they pay well

Faruzan could be? I think her bank interest would give her a good amount of extra money, but I don't know, probably financially fine but not able to be a wallet

Fischl either couldn't be your wallet, or so rich, Diluc's money seems small

Ganyu works for Ning, yes she is rich and can be your wallet

Gorou probably gets a decent amount of money? Idk but I would think that Koko gives him money after the war for his hard work, probably couldn't

Hu Tao can afford Zhongli, she can afford to be your wallet

Jean is possible from a noble clan? I'm not sure but her work as Acting Grand Master better be paid well, probably could be your wallet

Kazuha works on the Crux and his mama totally gives him allowance, can be your wallet

Kaeya probably gets paid well, could be your wallet

Ayaka can be your wallet, part of the Kamisatos

Ayato can be wallet, same as above

Kaveh cannot, he is in debt

Keqing can be your wallet, same reason as Ganyu

Klee is a child (2), probably has lots of inheritance money from Alice

Sara is the general of the Raiden Army, yes she can be your wallet

Kuki cannot sadly, she has to clean up after the Arataki gang and pay for bail

Layla probably could in the future after graduating, but I'm not sure now, probably couldn't?

Lisa probably could be your wallet, honestly? She also probably gets bribes from the Akademia to come back, extra funds

Mika is with most of the Knight, decently paid, not extremely so, but could splurge every once in a while

Mona would be rich if she stopped buying astrology stuff, couldn't be your wallet

Nahida probably could ask the citizens of Sumeru for something and they'll give it to her, yesn't?

Nilou could be rich, according to Dori, but like the theater in Sumeru, can't be your wallet, but is cute nonetheless

Ning makes other people rich, yes she can be your wallet

Noelle is well off, like the rest of the Knights

Qiqi is a child (3), but can ask her dad for money

Raiden can ask her vassels, can? be your wallet

Razor cannot, he lives in the woods, what is money

Rosaria probably gets paid by Varka to be a hit man, possibly could?

Kokomi funded like half the war right? Could be your wallet

Sayu's apart of the ninjas for Ayato right? So he better give her enough money, has potential to be your wallet

Shenhe also lives in the wilderness, what is money, could ask her nephew for money or do hard labor jobs, could be your wallet

Heizou is probably decently paid, especially after a important commission, could be your wallet

Sucrose better get paid well, if she doesn't, I'm going to rebel against Albedo, could be your wallet, might splurge on Science stuff

Childe is the og Wallet

Thoma is probably paid nicely by Ayato, and if he needs more, he could just ask, definitely can be your wallet

Aether and Lumine do lots of commissions, they have money to pamper you

Tighnari probably well paid, he probably gets paid for doing stuff in the bimarstan, can be a wallet

Venti is more likely to be in debt than anything else, cannot be your wallet

Wanderer can ask his mama for money, might have a secret stash of money during his time as a harbingers, could be your wallet

Xiangling runs a very famous inn, can be your wallet

Xiao has no money, he rarely interacts with the human world, why would he have money? Xiao can't be your wallet sorry

Xingqiu can afford books, he can afford you

Xinyan, when she hits it off in Liyue, can be your wallet

Yae is rich, definitely can be your wallet

Yanfei runs a law firm, also can be your wallet

Yaoyao is a child (4), also doesn't really know money

Yelan is like... the genderbent version of Childe, wallet

Yoimiya's really popular right? I think her firework shop does well enough that she's comfortable and can splurge every once in a while

Yunjin is also famous, I think she get paid fairly, so possibly could be your wallet

Zhongli physically cannot, as a Archon, maybe, but as a ex-archon? Absolutely not, he has not budgeting skills

A/N Took me too long

Thanks for Reading

[jazzstarrlight]

My Playable Characters Shipping List

So many characters in genshin impact, so taking screenshots of a wiki character list, I edited them together to make a shipping chart! You're welcome to use it how ever you want

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My Top 10 In Order:

1. Itto x Gorou -

The first Genshin Ship in my collection and still number one. Itto is always the first to fall in my ship and THE definition of golden retriever energy. When Gorou begins to notice his attention on him more often, he gets flustered and slowly falls for him back. Precious wholesome warriors, making a great team and greater lovers.

2. Cyno x Tighnari -

2nd place mostly cause of canon team-up and fanart. Also been debating on which one I'd be good at cosplaying if only I had the money (leaning toward Cyno.) Cyno is the first to fall and even while Tighnari cringes at his jokes, we all know he gives that clear "you're lucky I love you" face. I dream of a relationship like theirs.

3. Kaveh x Alhaitam -

Saw it once or twice on my Twitter feed until it turned into nothing but Kavetham and Cynari, and I eventually began to obsess. Alhaitham surprisingly falls first but can't express it properly, like a neurodivergent with alexithymia. Kaveh slowly shifts his thoughts of Alhaitham from "can't believe I put up with that guy"  to "can't believe I'm in love with that guy". I think the autistic introvert -&- depressed extrovert angle may make for some interestingly dramatic angst. Good angst is fun to write. Plus, I'm on the spectrum and I can confirm that reading emotions (even our own) is either hard or near impossible.

4. Ayaka x Lumine -

The traveler I went with in my game is Lumine and I fell for Ayaka hard when we hung out at a festival before Lumine is made an enemy of the shogunate. Clearly, in the game, Ayaka falls in love first; but I also made an OC named Yuna Ren who fell for Ayaka as a child. I know it's cringe but... It's Ayaka-chan! I can admit I'm a bit of a simp for her.

5. Bennett x Razor -

When I found out they were friends, it was cool, but I saw something more building. Razor falls first, though doesn't understand it. Bennett enjoys having a more permanent team member and grows closer every day. They're super cute little twinks.

6. Ningguang x Beidou -

Two boss girls both dom energy however with good communication it works. Also whenever I feel like I ship too many dudes, I look at hot-I mean-pretty girls with chemistry. (Honestly, I'm surprised with how many mlm ships I have.) Ningquang falls first and... I may have an idea for an erotica oneshot. Stay tuned.

7. Xiao x Aether -

Mainly cause of fanart and if Lumine has Ayaka, the twin bro deserves a lil something special too. Xiao falls first. I mean- c'mon. That guy shows up within a second of calling his name like a genie.

8. Albedo x Sucrose -

Such a sweet and gentle intelligent pair. Sucrose falls for Albedo, and I can see Sucrose being his personal art model. If it was possible, I'd most likely cosplay as albedo (since him and HatGuy are the closest things I find to canon enby's in the game and not much a fan of the wanderer except his skill.)

9. Kazuha x Heizou -

Heizou's voicelines about Kazuha are really intresting. He obviously falls first and makes complex plans to hang out with him. They look very cute together.

10. Zingqui x Chongyun -

Sometimes when 2 characters just stand side-to-side in canon and if you see enough fanart, that's enough to ship two characters. Xingqiu falls first for the exorcist. I also think the combos of blue between the two is pretty nice.

[fictionkinfessions]

Stealth humans

Okay most of them are humans but here we go

Noah (IOTS version) Nope, not at all. I literally look like a corspe 😭 (maybe because I am a ghost that looks like my corspe but shhh)

Okumura Rin (Blue exorcist) I managed to hide it, so, yeah, probably. But explaining the Tail, fangs and pointy ears in the real world? It would be strange to explain 😭.

Albedo (GI): I quite literally am an artificial human, I look human, act human (save for that weird marking)

Aira Windwhistler (Lego Elves): Yeah, I can explain the purple hair,pointy ears and markings as : Hair dye, surgery to get them that way and tattoos. So I would pass if someone asked me

Greystripe/Ravenpaw (Warrior cats): No. I'm a cat. Just no.

Lore (OCs): First of all, no. I have a black scalera, with glowing green star's for irises. White hair and Black hair. A TAIL, and a floating black Halo and crown. Hell no

Tighnari (GI): probably not. Especially if someone tells me "Take the furry stuff off" I wouldn't be able to.

Virgil (SS): while yes, I basically appear human, I'm the manifestation of someone's anxiety. But I can pass as human.

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[phobiaexists]

Something something draw exorcist Albedo design

Also maybe Subject Two and the Fellflower are spirits that are fused to his own soul and he’s kinda stuck with them and also occasionally gets possessed by them and shenanigans happen who knows

[cursedbylove]

The rules are simple ! Post ten characters you’d like to roleplay as, have role-played as and might bring back. Aside from that, please repost instead of reblogging !

CURRENTLY PLAYING

yuuta okkotsu (jujutsu kaisen)

shuutarou kurusu (mars red)

zhongli (genshin impact)

HAVE PLAYED (amongst others...)

elmer c. albatross (baccano)

graham specter (baccano)

monica campanella (baccano)

sanji (one piece)

trafalgar law (one piece)

sabo (one piece)

perona (one piece)

fairy king harlequin (seven deadly sins)

henry jekyll & hyde (fate)

haruka kokonose (kagepro)

shuuya kano (kagepro)

fushi (to your eternity)

saguru hakuba (dcmk)

yuuta gamon (occultic;nine)

shun moritsuka (occultic;nine)

this is turning into a game of me trying to remember my muses through the years

rintarou okabe (steins;gate)

kaito yashio (robotics;notes)

haruto kurosawa (coppelion)

takashi natsume (natsume's book of friends)

kanbara akihito (kyoukai no kanata)

twelve (zankyou no terror)

shouyou hinata (haikyuu)

tadashi yamaguchi (haikyuu)

keiji akaashi (haikyuu)

ren mihashi (oofuri)

mao (disgaea)

laharl (disgaea)

yosuke hanamura (persona 4)

shishiou (touken ranbu)

tsukasa suou (ensemble stars)

shu itsuki (ensemble stars)

arashi narukami (ensemble stars)

shinobu sengoku (ensemble stars)

nazuna nito (ensemble stars)

yuuta aoi (ensemble stars)

junichirou tanizaki (bungou stray dogs)

kenji miyazawa (bungou stray dogs)

help me

renzou shima (blue exorcist)

joe kido (digimon)

kazuma mikura (air gear)

seishuu handa (barakamon)

birthday (hamatora)

yuu otosaka (charlotte)

byakuya togami (dangan ronpa)

masayuki hori (gekkan shoujo nozaki-kun)

q-vier (kakumeiki valvrave)

leonardo watch (kekkai sensen)

zed o'brien (kekkai sensen)

william macbeth (kekkai sensen)

taichi yaegashi (kokoro connect)

izayoi sakamaki (mondaiji-tachi ga isekai kara kuru sou desu yo?)

kouichi aizawa (nabari no ou)

gau meguro (nabari no ou)

mugen (samurai champloo)

death the kid (soul eater)

ivan karelin (tiger & bunny)

natsuki usami (tsuritama)

shimogamo yasaburou (uchouten kazoku)

naruko shoukichi (yowamushi pedal)

hayato shinkai (yowamushi pedal)

akina hiizumi (yozakura quartet)

kotoha isone (yozakura quartet)

tadashi sataki (ana no mujina)

itona horibe (ansatsu kyoushitsu)

raku ichijou (nisekoi)

c-ta (shuuen no shiori)

noé archiviste (vanitas no carte)

elliot nightray (pandora hearts)

reim lunettes (pandora hearts)

lily baskerville (pandora hearts)

I'm probably still missing some i hate this

WANT TO PLAY

albedo (genshin impact)

loid forger (spy x family)

yakumo (nu:carnival)

MIGHT BRING BACK

natsume

fushi

akihito

probably more i get tempted all the time

[seraphicprinciples]

Sip & Talk

(Characters featured: Elzie, Israel, Francis, & Xavier)

(Characters Mentioned: Luci, Sadie, & Micheal)

“Elzie! Elzie shhh! Father Ronan may hear you…” Israel whispers to the demon with a giggle, putting his hand over Elzie’s laughing mouth. The two enjoying the evening just chatting and playing around in Israel’s room.

“Israel, remember how Luci had been trying to figure out why Sadie has been away from wrath for like hours at a time for no reason?” Elzie asks quickly, like the words flush out of his mouth like a water spout. Israel nods quickly with excitement as he take a sip of water from his cup on the wooden nightstand.

“Okay, okay, it turns out that he was going because he was meeting up with Micheal!” The demon exclaims with his tail moving rapidly with the energetic atmosphere of the room. Israel chokes on his water, coughing as he wipes his face and hisses in the pain of water coming out of his nose. Elzie yelps at his friend’s violent reaction before grabbing a tissue and laughing as he hands it to Israel.

“A-Are you okay?” Elzie laughs as the other boy takes the tissue and wipes his nose, blowing it out a few times.

“Yeah! Yeah! I just wasn’t expecting that! Hah!” Israel chimes, still laughing as he throws the tissue into the garbage across from where they are sitting on the soft maroon rug on the floor.

Xavier leans against the wall near Israel’s room, he could hear the boys laughing. He knows the demon is inside the room talking with Israel… though he cannot bring himself to go inside and cast away the demon.

He sighs, glancing down to the small book he had been reading on early alchemy… his eyes grazing over the words ‘Rubedo, Albedo’. The exorcist had stopped paying attention ages ago, opting to listening to the laugher of Israel, who had been an orphan abandoned on the steps of the monastery.

Xavier closes his book, glancing to the door of Israel’s room with a smile, his eyebrows furrowed slightly in bitterness. A slight guilt building in his soul with every sound from the room. He was the reason for Israel never having a friend. He was the one who yelled at Francis that it would be better for Israel to be homeschooled. He was the one that never wanted Israel to leave the monastery because of his possessions.

A shaky breath is drawn from the exorcist as he abruptly leaves to his room in a fit of guilt and anxiety. Xavier’s body slightly trembling as he throws his book onto his desk, and sits on his bed with his face in his hands.

Francis heard the sound of Xavier slamming his door, with a sigh he picks up a piping hot cup of coffee he had intended to make for himself… though it seems he would be giving it away.

As Xavier buries his head in mope & self-deprecation a light knock sounds on his door.

“Come in…” He murmurs, the door opening with Francis holding a cup of black coffee. Xavier glances up to the red-haired priest as the cup of coffee is sat is his open hands.

“Are you alright?” Francis asks with a gentle tone of voice, sitting beside Xavier and rubbing his shoulder with a small, comforting smile.

“Did I ruin Israel’s life?”

“Hm? Where is this coming from?”

“W-Well… I was the one who objected to him going to a normal school…” He pauses, glancing to the coffee, then to Francis. A sense of calm washes over him as he takes a moment and drinks the coffee. “I feel like I ruined his social life…” Xavier admits, leaning down and resting his head in the shorter Priest’s shoulder with a small sigh.

“I think you chose correctly… he had too many possessions when he was younger to have been able to go to school.” Francis reassures, ruffling the exorcist’s curly hair and scratching his scalp in a calming motion. “You had good reasons to make him stay here, and I understand them now…”

Francis gently plays and toys with Xavier’s hair and the neck of his habit as they sit in a comfortable silence.

“Francis…” Xavier addresses, barely above a whisper as he sips the coffee. “Thank you…” He nods, burying his face into Francis’s neck and humming in contentment.

“Of course Xavier…” Francis whispers, humming a smile as he glances down at the now comforted Exorcist who has his face buried in his neck.

[cryoexorcist]

Is Albedo biting his own lip? He's biting his own lip. A good sign, a FAVORABLE sign, for the exorcist. The alchemist ONLY bites his lip when he is extremely enticed, after all. " By all means . . . but, I beseech you not to simply nibble. I get . . . impatient, you see, and I would not wish to snatch this advantage you believe yourself to be in possession of so soon . . . "

THERE ARE SO MANY things Chongyun would like to do with Albedo right now. the way he's biting his lip, or the way he's still smoothly talking. Chongyun's resisting the urge to clutch their vision to cool off. They're not in danger of slipping over the edge, but they are definitely feeling warmer than normal.

"You're so..." the words trail off. Aggravating? Enticing? Attractive? He's definitely not the calm and collected alchemist he normally portrays himself as. Chongyun wants to see him come undone right now.

Brushing his lips over skin again, Chongyun decides to quit using worsd. Both of them are going to completely fail at talking sooner or later, so they might as well get right to what they both ACTUALLY want right now.

Chongyun sinks his teeth into Albedo's neck before pulling back to run their tongue across the bitemark. "Maybe I want to do more than just bite," Chongyun finally mutters, with a faint growl. "I want to see what other noises you can make."

[tenebriism]

gently tugs albedo's hair-

" You needn't be GENTLE, you know. " And here, he thought exorcists were STRONGER than this. Bolder, more DARING. Has he been wrong this entire time ?

[thespianinthebackcorner]

That explains why he's friends with and works with the people he is. Chongyun trains himself relentlessly to become a better exorcist. Xiangling will go anywhere, do anything, for the perfect recipe. Hu Tao may not look the part on the outside, but when her job calls, she's working down to the wire to make sure every funeral is perfect in all aspects. Even his illustrator, Albedo, is known to go to the length of skipping meals and/or sleep just to get something done on time. Xingqiu's naturally gravitated towards people similar to him, but as a result, thanks to his specific situation, less people notice.

If Hu Tao or Xiangling have worked through the night for their jobs, their family or coworkers will notice, and tell them to get some rest.

If Chongyun gets to the point of passing out during training, it'll be extremely obvious, since he's doing physical work. Someone will come looking for him, because they'll know he's been training.

If Albedo passed out doing research or even sketching, someone would know- he's a high ranking Knight of Favonius, so there's always someone who'll eventually figure it out- not to mention his responsibility to Klee, which would ensure someone coming and finding him before long so that she doesn't go home alone.

Xingqiu, though- he writes, and writes in secret. If he shows up one day tired, most people would just assume he'd stayed up late reading. Writing isn't that visible from the outside in, and for Xingqiu, who can't afford for his family to find out about his writing career, to say something would be shooting himself in the foot. So his struggles go unnoticed. Pair that up with his natural tendency to try and help people, and you end up with exactly what you said- him bending over backwards to help someone, with nobody asking if he's all right.

He's in a very similar situation to the Traveler- except after a while, the Traveler has begun to openly voice their dissatisfaction and be a little bit bitchy to get the message across, that they're not just an errand runner. Xingqiu, on the other hand, is quite shy and wouldn't even dream of doing such a thing- even if it would benefit him.

Xingqiu is a people pleaser.

And like all people pleasers, it's hurting him.

And nobody says a thing.

for such a universally loved ship among genshin players there is a criminal lack of angsty xingqiu content

or- in general, a criminal lack of just xingqiu content

and i get it, he’s a happy character; very outgoing and chivalrous and playful and what are those characteristics if not in regard to someone else?

but he’s also extremely reserved about his family life, a bookworm, a novelist, and overall someone who works himself into passing out in order to not let people down

and not only did this boy revive a dead swords style completely on his own, he’s also an extremely hardworker in general

and no one in-game or outside of this game seems to acknowledge that, no one even ask if he’s ok most of the time. Even during the Iradori Festival when he was randomly falling asleep. It’s always:

“Are you able to do this?” or “Will you be able to finish in time?”

Xingqiu is always the one caring for others, bending himself backwards to make them happy and yet no one ever steps forward to do the same

And yes, he’s a prankster; but he never does anything genuinely harmful or irreversible

what im getting at is; Xingqiu desperately needs to be held and told he’s doing a good job

edit: this could also feed into why Xingqiu doesn’t tell his friends that he’s Zhenyu bc his friends pay attention to Zhenyu

And if they know that Zhenyu is also Xingqiu then there’s that massive possibility that they’ll just gloss over his alter ego as well