#everyone grieves in their own way
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i wonder if ketterdam knows that all their lives hinge on kaz dying either before or at the exact same time as all his friends.
#everyone grieves in their own way#and kaz's way of grieving is razing everything to the ground#. ooc#death cw
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My wife (deceased)
My wife, if you will
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The parents on the QSMP are so silly, I think they mistook "grieving" for "griefing"
#qsmp#qsmp fitmc#qsmp badboyhalo#qsmp philza#griefing#everyone copes in their own ways#lava casting#grief#grieving
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sorry to log on n rant but i need to rant
#tbd.#ooc.#cw complaining#ignore the tags if u dont want to see how my life is going shdfhsf#so im doing my masters yeah#and im like. 75% thru#shouldve been done last month#but bc of the year ive had my uni adviser was rlly nice and sorted a way to extend my student status for another year#to get my dissertation done#like i did my 4 essays n now its just dissertation time#n i was supposed to start it now n get booked in with my mentor n stuff but i cant fucking log into the website#bc u need a MFA#and the MFA app my uni uses wont acknowledge me bc i have a different phone bc my phone broke#and a different number bc my phone contract got cut off#so idk what to do lol i cant log in and do anything#ive rang the IT desk for help 59w9er3424234 times#and everytime i get thru to the actual line n im taken off hold .. they hang up on me#idk if its a system error or my phone bc its a shit old one#but i cant do anything#and my universal credit claim got closed#non uk oomfs its a benefits system#n they help u with money to pay bills whether ur looking for work or unfit to work which is what my doctor said i am bc#my mental health and physical health combines to make me a super loser#n he thinks i might try to K word myself if i take too much on at once after eveerything#like i cant even sit and grieve my dad that died not even 6 months ago yet because i have to much shit to fucking do#like i cant afford to liven now#i cant pay my bills. they keep bouncing and coming back worse#i have debt collectors coming @ me#i am stuck in catch 22 man like not even my support workers can help me rn#and im very lucky that i own my own home bc of my car accident when i was 15 lol but everyone is just telling me to sell it
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Contemplating the concept of "potential" when it comes to intelligence and realizing how heartbreaking Logan's "Dreams come true, that's news to me" line in the Crofters Musical.
#screaming into the void#definitely not okay today lads#i'm finding myself grieving my intelligence and contemplating if it was ever there to begin with#when i was younger i excelled in science so everyone assumed that i was a gifted kid despite my very obvious struggles in math and spelling#i was told over and over if i could just apply myself to other subjects the way i did with science#then i would do better in those subjects and reach my full potential#my identity was hung on my intelligence for me by the adults in my life none of them even considering a learning disability#now as an adult it all feels meaningless#especially having been forced into going to college where it was made very quickly and abundantly clear that I wasn't actually gifted#i was just average#that was absolutely devastating to me and it's a thing i struggle with and i want to be angry about it but i dont know how to be#i was told over and over in childhood that i could be anything when i grew up that i could do anything if i just put my mind to it#then recieved little to no actual educational support for any of it especially when i discovered writing#and i dont know if i was never as smart as i was told i was or never even had the potential i was told i had#or if i just didnt have enough support#i dont believe in myself anymore and i dont think i was ever actually believed in by the adults in my life either#i think they would have supported me better if they had#or maybe they just didnt know how to#my dad has wondered and questioned me about where my drive ans passion went and i dont have the heart to tell him that#it evaporated when he told me i wouldn't be successful as a writer when he told me that i would only be successful by going to college#when he constantly questioned everything i did and made me doubt myself over and over again#i dont know how to combat this feeling of worthlessness that comes from feeling lied to about my intelligence as a kid#i dont know how to comfort myself in the face of realizing i probably didnt have all then potential i was promised i had#and even if i did at one point have it i lacked the support necessary to nuture and grow it#how does one grieve being promised the world only to find out that was never truly an option?#how does one become comfortable with learning and growing again when it's been made to feel unsafe#and a threat to their frail sense of identity?#how does one find peace and contentment in an ordinary life when they were promised so much more?#not just promised so much more but expected to be so much more and now feel the weight of expectation on them?#i feel like i was promised the world and told that it would be easy to conquer and when it wasnt it was due to my own fault and failings
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i Need to draw more clemviminnie shit but how am i supposed to do that when minnie only exists alongside them for 2 episodes then dies
#its why i alive her for some post s4 stuff just so i have more to work with 😔#but i dont Love doing that....she sealed her fate..she was lost in the sauce...#but theres so much there..............#the way minnie was concerned for vi while betrayed!vi and clem were fighting in the cell she def still had feelings...#they still wouldve been dating if she was never taken like......#ITS SO MESSY I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#like while i Do think there was some tension in their relationship somewhere bc that line in the woods didnt come from nowhere#no matter how changed she was by the delta that sentiment had to come from somewhere. maybe she could just never say it#but idk if they wouldve broken up over it and there was no reason for violets feelings to change either. she just grieved her 'death'#vi says the real minnie is gone and that she'll do what she has to to keep everyone else safe but like....#theres no way shes not still conflicted on some level like you can see it on the boat she cant leave her. esp since she kinda blames hersel#minnie being clems dark reflection but clem is minnies reflection just as much (obvs) the tension is palpable between them#clem being the part of herself that she killed when she killed sophie...the symbolism of killing your own twin...#and how much does clem remind her of sophie too like whos clem Really mirroring here#THERES SO MUCH MEAT THAT IM CHEWING ON THIS IS A GRAND MEAL#and i cant fucking do anything about it 😭 seriously how do i work within these constraints#there isnt even a 2 week jump like there is in ep2 theres no unaccounted for time in eps 3 and 4 ITS KILLING ME#i bet in a betrayed!vi route minnie was glad to see her when they made it to the boat. and vi feeling betrayed by clem was a perfect target#totally susceptible. minnie gets in her head that its safer to give in instead of fighting back... and now theyre together again...#vi betrayed by clem falling right back into minnies arms OOF girl get away she is Fucked Up..theyre both fucked up 😭 clem u broke her#betrayed!vis reaction to hearing minnies confession about sophie..girl must have been so emotionally fucked in that cell#mmm toxic yuri mmmmm :)#god clemvi really has it all..............................................#why would i need anything else...when clemvi is here#twdg#it speaks#still cant believe my fave girlie really got it all :)
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The Joker is Wild is an episode that really doesnt work where it is in the show
the idea that BJ is set off by like. jealous rage or whatever over Hawkeye comparing him to Trapper just doesnt work so late in the show when there's been 0 indication that BJ is jealous about Trapper at all. it feels like it comes out of nowhere, just a half-assed sort of reason given to set him off
ive mentioned this before here and I know its a hot take within this fandom but the supposed Trapper Complex just doesnt exist. in the 8 seasons that BJ is present in the show, I can think of three times Trapper's name comes up around him
Period of Adjustment, where he brings up that he feels like he hates Trapper. should be noted that BJ here is at about the lowest point we see him at, he's in complete despair, and he's also blind drunk. he also specifically brings up that he feels this way because Trapper has gone home- it has nothing to do with Hawkeye
Depressing News, Hawkeye refers to BJ as being the 'same size, same shape' as Trapper, and BJ's reaction can be construed as being not exactly pleased about it. I think this reads more as him just not being happy about literally being called Trapper's replacement, not him being jealous
then, of course, The Joker is Wild
because of this it really just doesnt make sense for BJ to suddenly have this jealousy in The Joker is Wild, not this late in the show. it would've honestly worked so much better if this episode happened back in season 4, because then you could've made that jealousy believable with BJ still establishing himself in camp and Hawkeye still dealing with Trapper's departure. but as it is, set in season 11, it really just doesnt work. its such a He Would Not Fucking Say That episode
#mash#bj hunnicutt#its one of those episodes I want to rewrite cause I think it had all the potential to be a very very good episode#like I said I would've set it in season 4#and I would've made it clear that Hawkeye has been comparing BJ to Trapper a lot#and in some not-so-nice ways where he's said Trapper was better at X Trapper's way with Y was better etc#(not done maliciously of course he's grieving his best friend leaving but it still stings)#and BJ finally has enough when the prank thing comes up and Hawkeye is going on about how great it was when it was him and Trapper#so he decides to get back at Hawkeye with a series of escalating pranks#there wouldnt be a bet element here he wouldnt rope anybody else in on it#he's still new he's still establishing himself and this is him just desperately trying to be seen as his own person#not just Trapper's replacement#and finally he goes too far and it blows up in his face somehow#maybe Hawkeye gets hurt#and everyone's rightfully pissed off with BJ about it! he's been mean he's been acting out what the hell is wrong with him?#and BJ feels fucking horrible about it and explains himself and how he's just so sick of feeling like#all anyone sees him as is Trapper's replacement#at this point implying Hawkeye's not the only one who's done the comparing and everyone can reflect on that a bit#BJ then avoids Hawkeye for a few days because he feels so awful about what happened#until Hawkeye hunts him down and forces the conversation to happen#BJ apologizes profusely and says he was being stupid and Hawkeye's like yeah you were being stupid#but he also admits he was stupid to not see what constantly comparing BJ to Trapper was doing#and apologizes for making him feel like he was just a replacement and not his friend#have a real heart to heart about it!! BJ character depth episode!!#it could've been so interesting the potential was there just not in season 11#a plot line like that just didnt have a place anymore#and im mad about it 40 years later#invents time travel so I can write MASH episodes#anyways.#can you tell I think about this a lot
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Idk maybe it’s just me but if someone i love who im very close to, whether it be family or friend, has a serious illness or injury, im not going to set up a tripod and decide on a way to pose and look sad so i can put some text over it about how sad i am alongside a sad trending song and post it on TikTok to get likes
#like I get that everyone grieves in their own way#making one post to explain why you might not be active is fine#maybe even making a tribute video or post about someone your audience knew is different too#but maybe like? don’t turn it into content
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Yasha and a Job Quest NPC that tickles your fancy!
(Not technically a Job Quest NPC, but a Class Quest one...)
Yasha and Mylla go back to the days when Yasha first learned swordplay. Yasha was fascinated with the gladitorial entertainment of Ul'dah and so desperately wanted to join them at a relatively young age. Luckily she had another young girl that had joined just a few years prior to spar with.
Mylla and Yasha had a fierce rivalry for the next decade, both rising in rank and skill in the guild. There was at least a unrequited crush from Yasha during these years, but Mylla really only had eyes for Aldis. They stayed rather good friends however, nearly as close as actual sisters.
Following Mylla's father's death, and Mylla's promotion to First Sword, Yasha and her started to drift. Yasha focused more on her own career, and Mylla had her hands full in running the guild. The burdens of adulthood has weighed heavily on these two fighters, but as the years have moved on they have rekindled their friendship. Yasha helps mentor new blades occasionally, while Mylla gets a willing ear to gossip about the happenings of Ul'dah to.
#the gardenia#ty for the ask! <3#@raynshyu#It was really fierce rivalry#and then the accident with the First Sword and everything#Everyone grieves in their own way and it broke their friendship just a little.#But it is mended now!#For the most part. :3
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#i carried a printout of this around with me in my bag as a teenager bc i was a big dork#to be clear it was the pumpkins of whom i was such a fan and not billy specifically#besides being a terribly obnoxious cringelord going through a christian phase he was also terrifically up his own ass about his bad poetry#and he was always being a dick about/to people who use drugs which is a very bad look imo so i was not exactly a billy fan#so i don't know why this stupid thing was so important to me#i think i was grieving the fact that all my favorite bands broke up before i was old enough to see them live but who knows#tbh i think teenage reasoning is mostly a mystery to everyone. no one can explain their thought process from age 15.#even current 15 year olds seem to be pretty clueless and generally at the mercy of their own brains#when i think of being 15 i recall a lot of chaos and confusion and a vague but constant rage toward everything in general#but picses iscariot does rock. those songs hold up and so does gish. just sayin.#this has been a boring post about some shit i liked too much as a teenager that i bet you wish you'd just ignored at this point#follow for more boring content about my personal life likely to make you reevaluate the ways in which you spend your time#pastlife#smashing pumpkins
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It usually doesn't take much to shoo him off; he's still afraid of her after all these years and her sister isn't here to hide behind.
She doesn't know why he bothers coming. They've never had anything in common and her hospitality is poor. But he comes, like clockwork, every week and sits across the table from her fidgeting with his mug of oversteeped tea and looking at anything but her.
Except if she looks away, and then, his eyes burn. They're pretty, amber-fire-gold. Sometimes brown. Pity about the face, though that's her fault. Magic blowback when they were six. He had avoided her ever since, and hidden behind her sister when he couldn't.
And then her sister was gone.
"It's time for you to get going, don't you think?" The silken tone is practiced, for just these sort of occasions. It's not like he's ever going to actually drink the tea. He probably thinks that it's poisoned.
Perhaps she should poison it, just to make a point.
He's not moving. In fact he's stiff in a stubborn sort of way, like he thinks he's going to stay. She'll soon fix that.
"I said-" she lights her palm aflame "- it's time for you to go."
#my writing#writing#writing prompts#writing prompt#spilled words#ramblebrambleamble#magic#part of a messy story already over in my head#he never made any real friends for himself and relied on the sister's social graces#and pov chara was always constantly compared to her sister and found lacking and is extremely bitter about it#now the sister is dead#he has latched on to pov chara because better the devil you know than the devil you don't and he's too timid to go out and make his own#friends and surely pov chara is lonely and grieving too? she doesn't have any friends because everyone preferred her sister#and she's made herself too prickly to approach in response to too many people trying to use her acquaintance to make that of her sister#he will earnestly insist to anyone who cares enough to ask that she's not that bad really even though she genuinely threatens#to set him on fire and would absolutely follow through if he didn't take it seriously#because predictable anger is better to him than someone who is nicer but will tease him in ways that feel cruel to him without warning#he's used to her though. he can deal.#or that's what he tells himself#he skedaddles when she sets her hand alight#he makes it out of this interaction physically intact#and goes back next week because he doesn't have any other reason to leave the house really
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I'm so bad at dealing with pain and suffering and grief and I literally don't know when I'm supposed to have that figured out
#not even just my own. just being around it in general makes me want to crawl out of my skin#I never feel so useless or have less to say than when I'm confronted with someone grieving or in pain#I wish I knew what to do. I wish I could be helpful. but I feel like I'm being hunted for sport and I need to run#how do I overcome that?? I feel like I'm in the way and everyone around me can feel how much I'd rather be anywhere else
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Okay, so if I were creative or funny or could draw, I would love to ship two totally random characters. Like two extras you see in the background for just a few seconds.
And I would start a comic about them. How they first meet, fall in love over time. And all the important bits would be where the ineffable husbands had a fight or break up. Like they have their first kiss/saying "I love you" at the bandstand.
They would talk about going to travel together and in the background Crowley is asking Aziraphale to go to Alpha Centauri.
They move in together and in the background is the Bentley with the plants and Crowley sleeping in it. They decide to get married after some years together while you can see the aftermath of the ineffable divorce in the background.
I would really love to do that. Sadly I'm neither creative nor funny and I can not draw.
#good omens#good omens spoilers#the nameless ship#Look at me using perspective.#I will not call it art#or funny#I don't even know what this is#This took me 2 hours#I just used up my entire creativity for this shitpost#This is so dumb#Why am I proud of this#Everyone grieves their own way I guess
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this doesn't even have to do with the holidays really but i don't think people realize what kind of supreme loneliness trans people can experience, especially trans people trapped in isolated rural areas. i didn't even fully grasp it myself until i thought of myself as trans, not just nonbinary, despite my many trans friends. suddenly news headlines and articles and comments from coworkers don't just feel horrible because they're directed at people i care about, but now furthermore so severely something that's hard to put into words. over time, without really noticing, i've begun to experience a deeper kind of existential fatigue than i was used to due to so many other parts of life as we know it. as the new year approaches, it feels all too easy to despair at how many of our trans brothers and sisters and siblings won't be facing 2023 with us, and how hard it is still to face it ourselves. at this point survival alone is rebellion and the fire of that is one of the things getting me through this winter, and i can only hope the same can be said for others, but please don't forget to check in on your trans friends and family this time of year. whether or not the holidays are celebrated, many are still with or think of family and community and find themselves too often alone. if you're one of them, i can only say i see you, and i think of you often. we are not alone even when we're most alone, there are so many of us reaching out in our hearts and minds to lift each other up, those still here with us now and those who came and went far before us. we will find our people and we will feel at home, and most of all we are worth the struggle and more to keep putting one foot in front of the other until the sun rises on a new year, and the next one, and the one after that. remember that we are divine and we divinely love and we are divinely loved. remember that we belong here just as much as anyone else, not by any condition but being here in the first place. you are here, we are still here, and we always will be, and that's something worth celebrating if nothing else as this year comes to a close and a new one opens, and at every moment you remember it.
#trans tag#just having. such a hard day at work for some reason#yesterday i was torn up over not being w my mom this christmas so to feel so grieved suddenly over this is putting my whole day off kilter#but not in a way i don't want to appreciate#and the grief kept welling up in waves just over how many we've lost and how many are afraid they'll be next#when we just want to Be Here like everyone else#alongside it came an overwhelming love and my own loneliness wasn't just a weight but a frustration#that i know others feel the same and that i can't be with them now#i know we're juat words on a screen to each other but this is all i can do! sometimes! so i will hit post#and love as many of you as hard as i can for as long as i can and hope even one of you can feel it#you are so so loved because i say so! and because you are loved by so many in your life and also This stranger on the internet#you are so loved and i believe in us i refuse not to#survival is rebellion and fuck it if nothing else can keep me going at my lowest fucking spite will be enough#ok to rb#but if only my trans mutuals see it this is for YOU and i am holding ur hand so tightly this week and new years and beyond <3 like buzz#lightyear :)#j.txt
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One of those ‘non-x fans; pick something that happens in the show’ but it’s about Color Show and the options are 'pick which of these writing choices pissed you off the most’
#Hayley Speaks#The poor racism allegory with the White Fang and making the white cat girl the mouthpiece for it?#(Yes I know Monty is a man of color who was trying to write about his own experiences. But he still dropped the ball on it.)#Could it be the ableism surrounding the man who's half-prosthetics and the implications they tried to push about him becoming-#-less human as a result of losing another limb?#Could it be the ableism about the previous pushed further by making the robotic girl human and pushing this as a good thing-#-because now she's no longer robotic and burdened by...I don't know; not being flesh?#I didn't watch that season I just fucking hated what they did with Penny?#Could it be that they killed her once; brought her back and then did all that; and THEN KILLED HER AGAIN???#Could it be the hypocritical lessons on trust and how apparently the main characters are allowed to keep secrets-#-but it's BAD when everyone else does?#Even if that secret is literally 'hey the big bad cannot be killed' which would be VERY IMPORTANT to tell the guy they're working alongside-#-because his WHOLE PLAN hinges on the knowledge that she CAN BE KILLED???#Could it be everything with Pyrrha??#Could it be that in the recent season they had the main character kill herself from depression and the narrative frames this as a good thing#Like 'Oh you've been grieving about the choices you've been making and are extremely depressed-'#'But actually you're perfect the way you are and don't need to change anything about yourself?'#...Oh yeah the whole 'the main characters never learn anything because the narrative frames ALL their choices as the right ones.' thing.#That's annoying too#Could it be the mistreatment of the LGBTQ+ staff on the show that came to light; only for the remaining staff to canonize-#-a wlw ship they'd been teasing for TEN YEARS#And then started pushing merch for them less than an hour after the episode dropped??#Could it be that I can't even say the name of the show here because the fans are rabid to even the most MILD of criticism about it??#Dear God I hate this show
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god, if i were jackie’s parents i would move on just so i could never see my dead daughter’s loser high school boyfriend ever again
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