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I came out to my dad as bisexual at 14 and I was PANICKED because I had a crush on a guy in my Boy Scout troop and thought I was Going To Hell Forever and he was so kind and understanding of my distress, but he had NO idea what bisexuality was. He just said āyeah but you like girls too? This is normal. Everyone is like this.ā And I love my dad and trust him with my life to this day and the idea that the concept of bisexuality had not occurred to him had not occurred to me so I put it off.
By 16 though I had a crush on like THREE boys. Three entire boys in my Boy Scout troop. I felt like my sin was slowly advancing, until like an untreated cancer it had become metastatic. I remember bawling my Lāil limp-wristed sissy eyes out in his big rumbly truck on the way home from a scout meeting and him telling me that it was OK, that he still loved me if I was gay, but that he knew I wasnāt gay because I still had crushes on women and that meant I was straight. I didnāt quite know how to explain that those felt *~*different*~* and that I felt like I was losing a fight to evil inside me but I again felt comforted by his reassurances and his genuine fatherly love.
At 18 I was like āhey Iām realizing all my friends are going on missions. I donāt wanna do that. Idk how to say that and I donāt have a āgood enoughā reason to not wanna go.ā So I just put it off. Again, my parents were extremely supportive of the information I gave them (I blamed it on perpetually forgetting to start the paperwork.) and one day my mom texted me that she had done the paperwork for me! And that all I needed was to get a physical! So I did that (it was awkward af tbh, my hernia check was done by a trainee doctor and she spent like 3 minutes fishing around my inguinal canals before her attending rescued me) and was sent to Mexico City where I learned that in addition to dipshit himbos with strong hands and scruffy guys with artistic hearts I was REALLY into chubby Latin men with strong personalities who bullied me a little when I lived in Mexico.
I remember my first companion got annoyed with me during an argument and said we were just gonna wrestle and whoever won the wrestling match won the argument (I stg I am dead serious this happened.) I was likeā¦SWEATING when he tore off his tie and threw his white button-down shirt onto the ground (I won btw, donāt ask me how).
I remember one of my companions with this really intense, almost manic energy telling me that he was gonna make sure I was safe in a new area I didnāt know very well. He cooked breakfast for me and weād go shopping together on P-Days and in the mornings before breakfast heād jog around and do pull-ups with his shirt off and Iād do anything but look at him because my face would break out in a sweat so intense heād think I was crying and come over to see if I was OK and somehow make it worse. He let me play D&D with myself in the evenings even though it was against mission rules because he knew how lonely and stressed I was.
I remember one of my companions was a big chubby man with a loud voice and a great sense of humor. He was kind and direct when addressing conflicts with me, and always bragged about how he knew the secrets of womenās minds and it felt like he really did since it almost always boiled down to āTreat Them Like People and Love Them a Lot. Donāt Stop Being A Person For Them. Also Eat Them Out Sloppy Style.ā Our P-Day activities sometimes felt like dates, and it seemed like he was more attentive to my emotional state than I was since he was always the first to suggest we slow down our Divinely Mandated, God-Ordained, Super Sacred Work and Wonder to get a snack or check out a Pawn Shop (I love Pawn Shops).
I remember another companion who asked me to bully him every time he did something against his goal of losing weight. It was like he gave me Carte Blanche to take out my crush on him by being a nuisance and I LOVED that. I remember having a breakdown one day after weād spent the afternoon frantically cleaning our disgusting-barely-habitable mission house to make it look less vile that it was (not our fault imo?) and I started bawling and he pulled me into a hug and he smelled good and he told me he knew it wasnāt just the house and that I was mad at him for being a Huge Dickhead for about a week (true) and that he would work on it. (Heās also a huge chaser but thatās a separate thing.)
I remember one of my companions waking up early (and our schedule is already built for sleep deprivation) to make me a ābirthday cakeā from knock-off Nutella and bread. He used matches for candles and woke me up, lit the ācandles,ā pulled them out, then smashed it in my face and took a bunch of pictures while I was still madrugada and disoriented as fuck. He had the same sense of humor as one of my HS crushes and I could push his buttons pretty easily which was so fun.
I came home from my mission and started back at BYU where I became actively and aggressively suicidal. I had a stalker the year I moved up there and my dadās solution to that was to get me a gun. I know he wouldnāt have bought me a gun if he could have read my mind, but I had a loaded pistol under my bed during a trifecta faith/sexuality/gender crisis and that was not helpful. I remember that the day I decided to kill myself I figured Iād call the BYU CAPS and see if I could get into therapy because it felt like what I was āsupposed to doā so I could check my suicide boxes. My therapist was the guy whoād helped me pick a major the year before and was this drop-dead gorgeous Hawaiian man who cried when I told him how Iād been feeling.
A few weeks into therapy I met another stunning man with soft eyes and a scruffy illegal-at-BYU beard he kept pushing his luck with. He was funny, kind, patient, married, and wouldnāt give me the time of day if he knew I was crushing on him. We were in my history of psych class, which was inarguably the worst psych class I have ever had, and we studied together for every assignment and test and I realized that my feelings for him and for all the men Iād already mentioned were in direct conflict with my faith and relationship with God. My already agonizing spiritual conflict became even more wretched and as a result of this plus some other tightly-packed experiences with Mormonisms bullshit, I left the church.
After leaving the church I decided to move back to AZ and transfer to ASU. My mom helped me get a dog since I think it had started to dawn on my family that my mental health was barely getting me through the day, and she knew that we both loved dogs. Madi made my last year at BYU livable while I got my shit together and transferred. In that last year, I went on a date with quite possibly the only semi-openly-out trans person on BYU campus. It was not a great date imo, I was not doing well, but the person I spoke with was fun and fascinating and talked to me about Gender Dysphoria and it really cemented my need to go. To leave and never come back to that fucking school.
I started at ASU a month after my last semester at BYU and within a very short time frame it felt like I was coming back together, like a puzzle magically putting itself together in an environment that wasnāt slowly draining that puzzleās will to live.
On the 4th of July, the year I started at ASU, I saw a transition timeline photo of a gorgeous happy beautiful happy radiant happy woman and her former Mormon missionary self and I realized the light that was on in her eyes was the light that was off in mine. I looked into transitioning for 3 days, sleeping about 10 hours total during that time. I started talking to other trans people on Reddit (one of whom is now my beautiful fiancĆ©e @cintailed) and after about a month of making preparations to be disowned and kicked out, something I was not sure would happen but was ready to go through to Turn On The Lights, I came out to my family and it was amazing. I started HRT a month after that. I secretly dated some dorky guys for about a year while I applied to grad schools. I got into a great grad school for me and my needs. I got FFS. I did my trainings and classes. Me and my fiancĆ©e moved in together after some LDR shenanigans. Weāve lived together now for 4 years of basically marital bliss. We have a cat named Grandmother Esmeralda Weatherwax who bites the hell out of my feet about three times a day. My bi-cycle continues to be part of my life but now itās not as scary. Baby gays in my life have started to look to me for advice. Idk how this all happened so fast. When the years, months, weeks, days, and hours seems to crawl by so slowly now they are rushing past me so fast itās almost bewildering. Whereas before I felt like I was living on borrowed time, past my āexpiration date,ā now it feels like I can Fucking Breathe. Iām training myself to slow down now and it feels worth it to Live In The Moment.
Idk why I wrote this. Idk why these thoughts only seem to come up on Sundays when Iām supposed to be writing my dissertation. Idk why Iām crying rn or why I feel so happy. Iām gonna post this shit then get on with my dissertation I guess. Read more Terry Pratchett and give yourselves the time you need. Get a pet. Talk to someone. Re-examine the events that brought you here. Be gayer. Love yāall š
#tgirl swag#worm#mormon#lds church#church of jesus christ of latter day saints#boy scouts#Mormon mission#Mormon missionary#elder#the book of mormon#bisexual#transgender#trans stuff#trans pride#lgbt pride#bi pride#mental health#BYU#pets#my cat#cat#dumb cat#granny weatherwax#terry pratchett
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Not half bad for a 36 year old right?
#happy bithday to me#trans#transgender#trans pride#transisbeautiful#mtf#transgirl#girlslikeus#mtf hrt#maletofemale#transformation#trans women#trans woman#elder trans#transsexual#actually trans#this is what trans looks like#trans community#trans feminine#trans experience#trans fem#trans goddess#trans is beautiful#trans is hot#trans is sexy#trans is so hot#trans positivity#trans women are beautiful#trans people#trans princess
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YONDERLAND (2013 - 2016) | 02x08 "Careful What You Wish For"
#yonderland#scribe elder ho tan#lord elder pressley#chief elder choop#the elders#larry rickard#jim howick#mat baynton#six idiots#them there#yonderlandedit#larryrickardedit#*careful what you wish for (02x08)#filmtvedit#lgbtsource#userligaya#HAPPY PRIDE TO MY WIFE <3#i miss her so much
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happy pride to all of mother's children
#my art#tesblr#the elder scrolls#dark brotherhood#lucien lachance#ungolim#j'ghasta#alval uvani#tes oblivion#oblivion#gay meth#pride month#pride 2024
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happy pride to them
#the book of mormon#tbom#tbom musical#book of mormon#elder mckinley#elder price#mcpriceley#PRIDE MONTH#šØāā¤ļøāšāšØ
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I was very strongly compelled to make this immediately
#art#meme#gaming fanart#the elder scrolls#elder scrolls#tes#elder scrolls skyrim#tes v skyrim#tes 5#skyrim#dark brotherhood#night mother#pride month#listener#sunakhai-jo
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its the last day of pride month so there are my tes ocs - ervas and suul - and their pride flags š
#tes#the elder scrolls#tesblr#dunmer oc#dunmer#nerevarine oc#oc: ervas selvayn#oc: suul giladrehn#tes oc#pride month#sirnik art#my art
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Happy pride month everyone
#happy pride grandpa#call him an elder queer#hellsing#alucard#shitpost#leather pride#i'd like to bring to everyone's attention that Alucard has the decency to give himself a pussy (or at least tuck) when he wears his gimpsuit#no seriously there's no bulge in that thing#anyway#good for him#ignore the blood and drool
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Identifying as.
This is Rachel Dolezal, who legally changed her name to Nkechi Amare Diallo. Dolezal is a white woman who identifies as black and insists that she is transracial. Growing up, her religious white parents adopted four black babies, claiming that they "saved them from being aborted", and routinely delivered strict punishments to their kids including Dolezal. Dolezal does not seem to have a good relationship with her parents and, based on interviews, wanted to distance herself from them and distance herself from rural white culture.
"I've never questioned being a girl or woman, for example, but whiteness has always felt foreign to me, for as long as I can remember. I didn't choose to feel this way or be this way, I just am. What other choice is there than to be exactly who we are?"
She apparently "passed as black" for several years before her parents came out and said that she was white and is identifying as a black woman, and she was asked in a TV interview if she was African American and responded with "I don't understand the question". She taught Africana Studies at Eastern Washington University. She crafted a fake story in growing up as black and has argued that she experiences race-based related hate crimes. She darkens her skin and gets perms and started using hair products she observed her adopted black sibling to use. She lied about her father being black and lied that her black adopted brother was her son.
I hope that as details of Dolezal's story are read about, we are able to understand that tanning white skin does not make someone a black person, that blackface is wrong and racist. I hope we recognize that what makes someone black isn't a collection of racial stereotypes, isn't based on feeling a kinship with black people more than with white people, and that being black isn't based on not feeling a connection with white culture. I hope we understand that a black person cannot identify out of racial oppression, and that a white person cannot identify out of white privilege.
Jewel Shuping, age 38 now, was born healthy but dreamed of being blind since age 13. She stated her mother would tell stories about finding her walking down dark hallways at age 3, and mentioned that by age 6 the thought of being blind comforted her. When she was a teenager, Shuping bought a white cane and learned to read braille, becoming fluent in it by age 20.
She claims to have asked a psychologist to pour bleach in her eyes so she could fulfill her lifelong dream of being blind, and that the psychologist "understood her" and agreed to do so after giving her numbing eye drops to help with the pain (which was not ultimately helpful). She deliberately waited to seek medical attention so doctors were unable to save her eyesight. Gradually, over the course of six months, she became blind.
What Shuping has is considered a real mental health condition called Body Integrity Identity Disorder (BIID), a rare condition in which people who are born without disabilities believe with conviction that the should be disabled. There is another name for this in political activist circles, termed "transableism".
"I went blind on purpose, but I don't feel it was a choice."
Several other people with BIID are pretending to be paralyzed to use wheelchairs, with many not being driven to the point of causing harm to themselves to become disabled but instead living full lives faking being disabled.
I hope that as details of the stories of people pretending to be disabled are read about, we are able to understand that feeling like oneself should be disabled is an incredibly serious mental health condition and does not really mean that a person is "disabled inside". I hope we recognize that identifying as disabled does not make someone disabled, and that feeling a kinship with disabled people or a comfort in the thought of being disabled does not mean a person truly is or should become disabled. I hope we understand how people with mental health disorders claiming to be disabled can place further strain on resources and accommodations provided to disabled people. I hope we understand that inflicting pain, disfigurement, or physical altercations on healthy people to "help them physically match how they feel" is an inhumane way to treat a mental health condition.
Paul Wolscht, who changed his name to Stefonknee Wolscht, was married to a woman for over 20 years and fathered 7 children before deciding to live life identifying as a six year old little girl. Living as a six year old little girl allows Wolscht to escape depression and suicidal thoughts because Wolscht gets to now play - even when in jail in solitary confinement for nine days for an undisclosed reason.
āIf Iām six-years-old, I donāt have to think about adult stuff.ā
Wolscht still drives and drinks coffee, but does so feeling and identifying as a six year old.
Emile Ratelband, age 69, petitioned the courts to allow him to change his age to 20 years younger because he "does not feel" 69 years old. Ratelband has argued that he did not feel comfortable with his date of birth, that age 69 did not accurately reflect his mental state, and that at age 69 he experiences limits.
āWhen Iām 69, I am limited. If Iām 49, then I can buy a new house, drive a different car,ā he said. āI can take up more work. When Iām on Tinder and it says Iām 69, I donāt get an answer. When Iām 49, with the face I have, I will be in a luxurious position.ā
Ratelband even asserted that doctors have told him he has the body of a man 20 years younger, and he said that he was willing to renounce his right to a pension. He argues that if people are able to legally change their sex on documents, there is no reason why he should not be able to change his age.
I hope that as we read these stories of people identifying as a different age, we are able to understand that feeling like you are 20 years younger or 40 years younger does not really make you that age. I hope that we understand that even though identifying as a different age might help avoid suicidal thoughts, being discriminated against on dating apps, or denied resources, it does not really change biologically what is. I hope we understand that there are also broader societal and legal consequences to being able to legally change one's age. That an adult might identify as a certain age to trick kids into trusting them so they can sexually abuse them, and/or that allowing an adult to legally consider themselves a different age would make it easier for adult predators to gain legal access to kids in environments in which they would normally be socially and legally discouraged from being in.
#trans#trans identity#transgender#trans pride#trans people#LGBTQ#lgbtq community#gender#transage#transabled#transracial#racism#ageism#sexism#ableism#disability rights#gay rights#LGB#women's rights#elder rights#mental health
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My friendās kid asked if I would drive my car with them for their Queer Youth Assemble group in our cityās Labor Day parade. We decorated my car with Pride flags and slogans the kids created. The kids marched and gave out candy (Skittles) and heart-shaped Pride stickers, while I drove the car (a lot of clutch-work when youāre driving a manual transmission, but hey, I am a butch).
The kids got a good reception from the community. In all, a great day! So proud of those kids! š„¹
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Me watching Elder Predator in repose while heās sprawled out on his furs beside me and I decide to check to see if heās feigning slumber (he appears knocked out)
Me: āI love youā¦ā
Elder Predator: ā¦ā¦
Me: āIām pregnantā¦ā
Elder Predator: ā¦ā¦
Me: āYouāre terrible in bedā¦ā
Elder Predator: ā¦ā¦
Me: āYou canāt hunt for shitā¦ā
Elder Predator: ā¦ā¦
Me: āYour trophy rack is way too small andāā
Elder Predator:
#OH YOU HEARD THAT#BIG GUY I WAS JOKING PLEASE HAVE MERCY#I play too much you know that sir#that is an immense insult not just to his manhood but his pride as a warrior#his trophy rack is ginormous and impressive and heās about to make an addition to it shortly#you never insult a yautjaās trophy rack#Iāll just gaslight him and tell him he was dreaming obviously#I would never say such things#avp elder#yautja
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Can you electrify me? ā”ļø
Also new hair.. Back to my scene days šš¤
Let me know if you like it or not!
#electric chair#thiftstore#ā”ļø#emo scene#scene girl#elder emo#trans#transgender#trans pride#transisbeautiful#mtf#transgirl#girlslikeus#mtf hrt#maletofemale#transformation#trans emo#trans women are beautiful#trans woman#trans women#trans women are women#trans women are amazing#trans women are valid#transexual#this is what trans looks like#trans experience#trans fem#trans community#mtf trans#actually mtf
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Gayblade Earrings [Teen to Elder/Children]
Earrings inspired from Sora and Riku Reality Shift, Nightmare's End and Mirage Split from dream world The World that Never was for The Sims 4.
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#sims 4 cc#ts4cc#sims4cc#ts4 cc#type: earrings#frame: unisex#age: teen to elder#age: children#theme: videogame#game pack: base compatible#The Sims 4 x Kingdom Hearts#Soriku#gayblade#VanS4CC#Van-YangYin#always free cc#special for all Soriku lovers (me included š)#and yeah on pride month you all know why
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7 Sins Legacy - generation 4 (pride)
A little Hector appreciation post with screenshots that I like but that didn't fit in any of the other posts. For some reason I've grown so afwully attached to this little guy. I feel like he is an old soul.
#he already had one age down treat because I didn't want him to be an elder yet#the sims 4#ts4#sims 4#the sims#sims#simblr#ts4 legacy#sims 4 legacy#ts4 gameplay#sims 4 gameplay#7sinslegacy#gen4 pride#supriya#rohan#yasmine#gulshan#ravi#hector#7sl extras
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Expecting Jiang Cheng to do more about the abuse Wei Wuxian went through is low-key kinda skewed and messed up considering that;
A.) JC was a kid himself. And;
B.) JC was also the victim of abuse. He was scared of his mother. Even then he still spoke out in abject horror when she was forced to punish WWX in front of the Wen. Funny how JC antis willingly ignore that.
Blaming a CHILD for another child's abuse is victim blaming. No one is to blame other than the abuser themselves. Which, if you remember, JC was also a victim of. Mental and emotional abuse is also harmful and damaging just like physical abuse.
#canon jiang cheng#novel wei wuxian#canon wei wuxian#wei wuxian#novel jc#novel wwx#novel jiang cheng#jiang cheng#wei ying#canon jc#jiang cheng positive#jiang wanyin#mo dao zu shi#mxtx mdzs#mdzs#the untamed#the grandmaster of demonic cultivation#mxtx#mxtx characters#jiang cheng meta#jiang cheng discourse#yunmeng bros#yunmeng shuangjie#twin prides of yunmeng#both are precious to me#dont blame either of them for what they had to endure in their youth#the fault lies solely on their elders
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