#eh it’s hard to see all the disturbing imagery but it’s there

[wormholy]

Opening, withdrawal, dream, nightmare, consciousness unfastening, unbecoming

[redvelvetseats]

mother! Film Review

Directed by Darren Aronofsky 

Starring Jennifer Lawrence, Javier Bardem, Michelle Pfeiffer, Ed Harris

Cinematography by Matthew Libatique

Watching mother! was on my movie to-do list for a while but I put it off because 

1. I forgot about it 

2. When it first came out, I saw stuff about how people walked out of the theater or booed at it when it ended. That intrigued me but also made me want to skip watching it. 

But the thing that made me really want to watch the movie was the movie posters. The art was done really well and didn’t look like your typical poster. 

Going into it, I actually had no idea what the movie was about. I knew Jennifer Lawrence and Javier Bardem played a couple and that’s about it. 

Off the bat, I could tell that there was a ton of symbolism. I couldn’t quite put my finger on what it was about right away, but throughout the movie I knew a lot of it was religious. There was a lot of disrespect shown towards characters who were trying to be respectful, which made me think of society as a whole and maybe the movie was trying to show us how we tend to treat others. There was also some symbolism involving blood and the wooden floor but I really have no idea what that was about. And then there was a bunch of shit at the end of the movie that just made me go “what the fuuuuuuuuuuuuudge is happening”. There was a lot of violent imagery and disturbing moments. 

The characters were interesting. None of them had proper names, so I’m going to just call them by the actor’s real names. Jennifer Lawrence and Javier Bardem had barely any chemistry and it was frustrating to watch their scenes because the whole time I was just wondering why they were cast together in the first place. Michelle Pfeiffer and Ed Harris were fucking weird, but I have to say that MP did a great job at being awful lol. Kristen Wiig and Domhnall Gleeson made some appearances as weird ass characters too. But honestly it was the background characters and extras that made me want to pull my hair out. They had such awful awful behavior that it made me not want to watch. There was also a lot of violence towards the end that made me cringe and want to look away.

Apart from the characters, I really enjoyed the film. I thought the cinematography was wonderful, with a lot of balance between dark and light elements. The wardrobe intensified that aspect of the film too, with JL wearing lighter, flowy pieces and JB wearing crisper, duller pieces. There were moments where the film was shot with a first person POV and you rarely see that, so hats off to Aronofsky. 

ALTHOUGH, there were moments where I felt like Aronofksy was trying too hard to make the film edgy and alternative. It felt like some dude who was in film school and liked to mansplain cult movies made this film. It was because the script felt bare compared to the photography of the film. The interactions between the main characters seemed cold and disingenuous. 

SPOILERS

Now, after I finished the movie, I immediately went into researching the film and what it was about. Turns out, the film was ALL religious symbolism. JB is some form of God, JL is mother earth, MP and EH are Adam and Eve, and the home they’re in is supposed to symbolize the Garden of Eden. THAT MAKES EVERYTHING MAKE SENSE LMAO. Knowing what everything is suppose to represent makes me appreciate Aronofsky’s direction and creativity a lot more. The only thing I still ponder is if JL and JB were cast because they didn’t seem like the obvious couple choice and they had no chemistry or because the casting directors actually thought they had chemistry and it was a great pairing. Hopefully it’s the former. So I recommend watching the movie, but only after knowing the symbolism and what it represents. Otherwise it might not be as enjoyable to watch. 

Overall, I give the movie a B. The direction, cinematography, and symbolism are great. The atrociousness of the characters is purposeful, so it makes me dislike it less. The reason I give it a B and not an A is because the film still has a pretentious air to it and even though there’s so much going on and there’s a meaning behind every single thing, the film feels empty and incomplete for some reason. But maybe that’s the point? Again, pretentious and I don’t like that. 

[softestvirgil]

The Discovery of Fusion, Part 2

Part One

Summary:

Roman and Virgil find out what creativity looks like when they are together

Genre: Fusion

Rating: PG

Pairing(s): None

Warnings: Mentions of disturbing imagery with no descriptions

Let me know if there’s any more I should add!

It had been several months since the sides first discovered that they could fuse, and since the incident with Patton, Virgil was very hesitant to try it again. He would claim he wanted to, but whenever the time came that one of them wanted to try it, he always had an excuse as to why it wasn't the right time. The other sides all eventually grew tired of this and just decided to give him some space, as to not pressure him if he wasn't ready. Today he and Roman were not getting along whatsoever. "How could you tell him to do that?!" Virgil yelled at the fanciful side, to which he scoffed in response. "How was I supposed to know it would turn out that way, Lydia Deetz?" Virgil rolled his eyes. "I just can't believe you embarrassed us-him like that..." "Ugh... Logan! Patton! Anyone who can end this!" Thomas called out frustrated and the two aforementioned sides rose up in their respective spots. "What seems to be the issue, Thomas?" Logan asked quizzically. "Well..." Thomas began and Virgil took over. "He was on a date-" Roman jumped in. "That was going well all thanks to me!-" Virgil sneered at him and continued. "-But then someone decided to come on way too strong and-" "It scared him off..." Thomas finished dejectedly. "Aw well mistakes happen, and there is plenty of fish in the sea!" Patton exclaimed to which Logan nodded in agreement. "Yes and as the kids say..." Logan began before pulling out a vocab card. "Thank you, next." Roman applauded. "That's a good one, Logan." "I know, guys it's just... I really liked him." Thomas stated melancholically.

Virgil sighed. "Well next time, ignore him..." "I am the romantic side, Anxiety. How would ignoring me and listening to you do anything but cause a disaster?" Roman interrogated sassily. "Well for starters if he was listening to me he wouldn't have worn that..." Virgil responded and Thomas looked down at his shirt, then left the frame to retrieve a sweater that was sitting on his couch, and finally, put it on. "Maybe he has a point..." Thomas thought. "No! He's Anxiety! If you listened to him about this we would have stayed home and not even gone on the date in the first place! Thomas do you even hear yourself?!" Roman shouted. "Well... I hear you... and you are part of me so... yes?" Thomas replied, rather casually despite being yelled at seconds before. "None of this senseless bickering is getting us anywhere," Logan stated, then pointed at Virgil and Roman. "You two... cut it out," "But he-" "But I-" "I have an idea!" Interrupted Patton. "You guys should fuse!" He said, with a glint of excitement in his hazel eyes. "I don't-" Virgil began but was cut off by Patton once again. "I know you're scared because of how it went the first time, but what if this helps you guys figure out how to see from each other's point of view better? That's what the rest of us do and we barely fight anymore," "That last part is debatable, but Patton's not wrong," Logan stated. "All I'm saying is it couldn't hurt to try." Patton finished and looked at Virgil hopefully. "Only if you want to," Reminded Thomas, but he too had that same excitement in his face that Morality had. "What if I... I don't wanna..." Virgil trailed off and looked down at the floor for a moment in contemplation.

"Don't want to what?" Roman asked and Virgil's head snapped up. "I don't want to hurt you, okay?" He blurted and Roman smiled softly in response. "Ah, I'm sure it will... be fine, Virge," Roman reassured calmingly, and the anxious side met his gaze. "You sure?" Virgil asked, with both fear and admiration evident in his features. Roman smirked. "I am not! However, that is why we must do this! For how can we know things without doing the required research?" "So true," Added Logan proudly. "So, shall we?" Roman offered, and Virgil moved from his spot, into Roman's. "It's uh, been a while so how do we..." Virgil began but then Roman guided his hands to where they needed to be and proceeded to lead them in a gentle waltz. However since Virgil had two left feet, he kept tripping over Roman and that eventually caused the two sides to fall into a pile on the floor. After a moment of shock, they both began laughing heartily. Then they finally fused. The fusion continued laughing for a moment, and then they slowly stood up. "Woah... did it work?" They asked, then looked down at themselves. They were wearing Roman's usual clothes but the white was turned black and all the red was purple, there were also multiple patches of purple plaid scattered around it as there was on Virgil's hoodie. "Oh, em gee it did!" They exclaimed. "Oh boy," Logan chided with a worrisome expression. "Well, how do you feel?" Patton asked excitedly. "I feel, exceptional." They said and struck a pose. Their voice was deep, like Virgil's but had an overwhelmingly feminine tinge to it. "Well, you should! Rogil!" Patton remarked and was met with judgment from Logic. "What? I like giving the fusions names!" Patton defended himself.

Rogil's imagination was, intense to say the least. Each idea they imagined was more twisted and macabre than the last. At the same time, though, Virgil loved the feeling of being able to be creative, even if his influence was causing a Tim Burton-like effect on Roman.

Virgil once again did not want to stop. He felt Roman tugging, and he simply was not ready. He fought as hard as he could but it was no use.

In a flash, Rogil disappeared, with Virgil and Roman once again tumbling on to the floor in a pile. "Are you guys okay? Why'd you stop?" Patton asked worriedly. Virgil stood up. "I don't know..." "I un-fused us," Roman admitted guiltily. Patton quirked an eyebrow. "Why?" Roman sighed. "Well I was trying to imagine ideas, how I usually do, but they were all so... messy," "Messy in what way?" Wondered Logan. "Like..." Roman began. "...in a scary way," Virgil finished and looked away pensively. "Well that's not... good," Said Thomas. Patton was startled for a moment. "Oh! Thomas, I forgot you were here!" Thomas looked at Patton with bewilderment. "You are... literally part of me how did you... nevermind," He said and directed his attention to Virgil and Roman "Did it help at all in allowing you to see from each other's point of view?" "For me it did... at least I think so," Roman said and Virgil looked over at him. "Really?" "Well, when Patton said it was a lot before... that was eh, a bit of an understatement," Roman said and Virgil scoffed. "See? This is why I don't fuse! Right here!" Virgil yelled but then Roman spoke again. "You didn't let me finish, it is a lot... however, you shouldn't have to carry it all on your own, yet you do... and that is very... brave of you," Virgil sighed. "It's my job," "Well maybe if you'd allow us all to fuse with you more, we can learn how to make your fusions more stable and try to help carry some of the burdens for you," Patton said. "Maybe you're right... it still feels scary though especially after all of... that," Virgil remembered. "But it might feel less scary if you get used to it, like riding a bike!" Exclaimed Patton. "Yeah... I guess," Virgil said with a chuckle. Logan thought for a moment before speaking. "You do not have to engage in these fusion experiments if you do not wish to though, Anxiety. We can always try to solve these issues through other means. The brain works in very mysterious ways, ways of which many neuroscientists still don't understand. I am sure we can find other solutions rather than combining simply to see from each other's point of view. Perhaps, rather than that, we try to explain where we are coming from in a more in-depth way, and try to figuratively step into each other's shoes," "Wow, very good point, Logan," Said Thomas. "It's interesting how this is about you yet we all keep forgetting you're here," Roman said with a laugh. "Yeah, why is that?" Thomas wondered. "Well... you usually talk more, like way more... like... too much," Virgil pointed out. "Okay thanks guys, I've had enough for today!" Announced Thomas. "We're done? Cool," Virgil said before sinking out. "Wait- we weren't finished, ugh... another day perhaps!" Yelled Logan before he too sank out. "Hi," Patton said with a smile. 

Thomas smiled back. "Hi, are you gonna go or?"

"Oh! Yeah," Patton remembered and quickly sunk out.

Then, Thomas curled up on the couch and slept until two pm the next day. Figuring yourself out, took a lot of energy, apparently. 

[dingdongrumba]

Thoughts on Your Turn to Die ch. 2 pt. 1

Wow ok

TL;DR nvm i dont like people dying please someone save these babbies. Also wtf is going on in this place seriously

Alright so wow, Kai’s little backstory there was a surprise, I liked the actual role he was revealed to have in the killing game, especially once you find the laptop again and get the full picture of the emails, I knew he wasn’t a bad guy and it was nice to have that confirmed, if it only made his death a little more tragic. As for Sara’s hallucinations over Joe, hooo boi that is some creepy ass imagery, I think this part had more disturbing pictures than the last two, and Joe was definitely part of the reason. I’m still so sad about him dying :( it pains me to see that creepy, red smiling sprite of his.

The new floor was... interesting, its main schtick being the death attractions was interesting even if I feel like some minigames landed better than others, I think I only died once with the arm wrestling minigame because I’m playing online and it lagged a little bit, but I managed to clear it on my second run. The whole trading token system was... weird, to be honest? The main thing I wanted was to get Sou’s personal information but I didn’t get any of his tokens and I have a feeling that isn’t even possible. Still, I managed to get a bunch of tokens and I bought all 3 of the victim videos, they didn’t seem relevant at all but it’s interesting as some kind of back lore for the game, I wonder if we’ll find out more about the people that didn’t make it past their first trial, some of their designs looked very interesting, especially if you take into account their “occupations” that were written on the papers you find later.

Sou... lmao okay, he’s starting to really get on my fucking nerves now, it was obvious his whole “oh I lost my memory” thing was BS and I saw it a mile away, I also don’t appreciate this manipulation he’s doing over Kanna, and now Q-Taro too it seems. What he did with the phone and Kanna was really really shitty, just for that I’m getting really frustrated at him but I mostly don’t understand why he’s doing all of this, why is he trying to antagonize the rest so hard, I’m not sure what his motivations are. Is he trying to survive? Is he trying to uncover the truth behind the game????? Something else?? Eh, it’ll probably be explained that his actions fall in a much more grey area, but for now he’s a dick lol

On the topic of Q-Taro, it’s interesting that the game is trying to make me dislike him or something, since he gave Sou the laptop and then didn’t try to sacrifice himself for Gin, but to be honest I don’t blame him at all, I think he might just be really weak but that doesn’t make him unlikeable to me. I AM worried about the Gin thing though, I don’t think Gin is going to hold his indecision against him...? But I feel like somebody will, and I really don’t think it’s fair to judge him over that, so I’m concerned about his life for the main game.

Lol another thing i saw coming a mile away was the Reko thing, sadly, I knew it from the moment we got out of the Attraction Room, they’d been talking too much about dolls and AIs up to that point and the glove thing was too suspicious, I immediately knew she wasn’t the real Reko so I wish that could’ve been hidden a little bit better, idk if that was just me though. Having the doll feel like an actual human being was nice though, and I’m glad Nao went in at the end there and pushed her off the edge instead of me, is2g Sara has way too much on her shoulders.

Nao. Was. So. Good. this chapter. I really loved her moment with the Mishima AI at the beginning and I thought that was incredibly brave and strong of hers, she’s becoming a really loveable character for all this growth she’s going through and that’s great but I also feel like she might die soon askdjifgritg

WHY DID ALICE HAVE TO DIE AAAAAAAAAA I’M SO MAD ABOUT THIS!!! I liked him from the start even if he was a little bit of a jerk, I thought his arc with Reko was sweet and I’m so MAD that Reko was interchanged with the doll before Alice had a chance to speak to her about the bongos, that was another thing that made me realize that Reko was fake. I felt so bad for Alice and I’m glad he got a little bit more closure there at the end BUT IT DOESN’T MAKE ME ANY LESS MAD, I WANTED TO FIND OUT MORE ABOUT HIM DAMMIT

Oh, Keiji continues to be a little cryptid bitch but I don’t blame him for that, I don’t think he’s a bad guy anymore but obviously he *is* hiding something, his little “leave it to your friendly policeman” line is growing so much on me though, god I love him please don’t let him be a shady asshole I can’t bear much more of this.

Seems like the sage/sacrifice/keymaster thing is gonna keep going, which is interesting cause I thought it’d be a one time thing, oh welp, looks like we’ll have 2 more dead people by the end of this chapter :’) this game kills off characters really quickly jfc

[lia-nikiforov]

Winter 2017 Anime watchlist

Lmao this was supposed to go up last week but it takes me forever to write these things up orz.

Anyway, we’re 1/3 of the way into this barren Winter season, and thus my watchlist has shrunk significantly. I think I’m currently watching what, 10 shows? vs 23-ish last season? Anyway we’ve had a couple neat surprises this season, but it’s mostly the sequels that are keeping everything interesting. Also there’s quality hatewatch material which I hadn’t had in a while.

Because I fucked up, this time I’m going from best to worst rather than the usual opposite

Top Priority

Showa Genroku Rakugo Shinju: Futatabi Sukeroku-hen

To no one’s surprise, Rakugo maintains it’s tightly written character drama in top form. The direction is still unusually creative and masterful, especially considering this is a DEEN anime, production team deserves every kudo. If season one was a tragedy, season 2 is gearing up for a story of salvation. Every week I go in completely prepared to suffer and am repeatedly surprised by how happy I feel at the end of each episode.  Scenes like Yakumo consoling a sleeping Konatsu with her father’s rakugo or his performing an old play in Sukeroku’s style for Yotaro are as heart-wrenching as they’re heartwarming. S1 was a strong contender for anime of the year 2016 (and for me it was a toss up between that and YOI) and season 2 seems ready to pick on that and go for a second run.

High-Priority

Ao no Exorcist: Kyoto saga

Honestly this one had my full devotion guaranteed when they decided to commit to those thick af Kansai accents. I am also very pleased with the budget this is getting, it looks reeeaaally nice. Kato’s designs have translated to animation greatly (not that this was a surprise since they did that pretty well on the first series too). The plot seems to be moving rather fast so I wonder if they won’t suffer to fill in the full cour (although this arc is quite long) but for the time being I’m excited to get the Kyoto otaku in me continually catered to.

Yowamushi Pedal: Next Generation

I was a Little dubious about how well they’d manage the transition of Makishima’s departure, and while killing him off was rather abrupt to the point I’d even say the guy was fridged for the sake of Onoda’s development, they did a rather good job in setting Teshima as the new role model for the 1st years (who is also very dreamy). I also laughed my ass off with how gigantic they made Ashikiba who is a rather delightful addition to the cast. Kudos to you show, you’ve got me excited in a new season even without my favorite character.

Little Witch Academia

It’s hard to find something to say about this show other than it’s energetic, lively and fun to a fault and that Sucy is still Best Girl. It’s very easy to tell how passionate the folks at TRIGGER are about this project and I’m glad they didn’t give up and continued to work on it even if it was poorly received by Japanese audiences. The show reminds me a bit of The Worst Witch, which I used to love in my early teens so there’s also that.

Kuzu no Honkai

This is such a fascinatingly disturbing show to watch. Like watching a trainwreck I guess, except that it’s not a trainwreck in the sense of Hand Shakers, but in you’re just watching all these horrible people destroy each other and self-destruct emotionally and it’s really interesting. I’m particularly invested in Hanabi’s internal struggle and self-deprecation. Could complete dispose of Moca (whose choice of nickname makes my skin crawl) but otherwise I’m constantly at the edge of my seat waiting for the next developments. I also continue to be rather fond of the vagina imagery in the ending, and I appreciate that there’s actually a show that treats female sexuality in a layered, human way, for purposes beyond otaku titillation.

All Out!! 

This show continues to grow on me with its unique approach to team dynamics. The fact that rugby teams are so big gives us an interesting opportunity of seeing many characters take the spotlight at different times, and this show’s cast continues to be funny and extremely likable to the point that even if Gion has had to sit out most of the games, and even if there isn’t as much focus on Sekizan as I’d like, they’re still engaging and fun. There have also been genuinely emotional peaks, notoriously when that one guy quite the team and it crushed Sekizan’s heart. Also kudos for how even in-show Sekizan’s amazing hair is considered cray-cray

Classicaloid

Honestly this second cour just keeps getting better? I don’t know how they did it but they managed to make me not care about whether we’ll ever get some semblance of plot or explanations, I could watch the Beethoven, Mozart, Schubert, Chopin and Liszt doing nonsense stuff show all year round. Whoever wrote the Fish!Schubert episode should get an Oscar and a Nobel Prize

Here we make a drastic leap between things I’m loving and things I’m just eh-watching

ACCA 13-ku Kansatsu-ka

Aaaahhh what should I do about you, show. Ep 1 was okay, ep 2 was great, ep 3 was kind of nothing. There’s obviously way more than meets the eye in this allegedly peaceful country and once that starts to unfold the show will start gaining momentum, hopefully, but as it is I think it suffers greatly from how inscrutable the main character is. I have no idea of Jean’s motivations beyond his love of cigarettes (and I feel they’re overdoing it, unless they plan to make the tabacco thing a  crucial part of the plot later on, they’re hammering the whole ‘tobacco is rare and this guy is weird for smoking’ thing way too hard) so we’re at this weird position of not really knowing where we’re going. I’m intrigued enough to keep watching, but I certainly hope we get some form of interesting developments sooner rather than later.

Gundam Iron-Blooded Orphans

The writing continues to be notoriously better while the story gets more and more tragic and I still don’t know how to feel about it. Seeing bad guys cheating their way to victory always upsets me a lot, and seeing people die meaninglessly only adds insult to injury. I’m in too deep to drop it at this point, but I honestly can’t forgive how they didn’t even give us that final revenge moment against the Kujan kid. Also every time Atra brings up her dream life of being part of a polyamorous marriage with Mikazuki creeps me the fuck out because obviously Mikazuki doesn’t have the emotional maturity to engage in any such relationship

Onihei

I’m very uncertain about what to do with this show. First episode was promising, with murky direction, but interesting setting. Episode two was mostly unimpressive, the final twist was rather predictable and the moral outcome wasn’t particularly satisfying. And then episode three put me to sleep. My first impression was that the dyamics between Heizo and his thief-turned-snitch subordinate would be the core of the show, but the latter seems to have been mostly sidelined in favor of focusing on the coolness of Heizo. Which isn’t a problem per say, but the execution just isn’t working and they’re completely wasting the Edo setting, with the cases turning out quite generic. I don’t know, ep 4 is already out so I guess I’ll check that out and decide from there (watched episode 4 already, fell asleep again which I guess is as good a sign as any that this isn’t working for me,but I’m too lazy to move it to the bottom. Dropped)

Hate-watching

Hand Shakers

Why is this pile of steaming garbage over the mediocre (and gross) show? Well, this one’s gross too, but exceedingly terrible is always better for ironic entertainment than plain boring stuff. At least Hand Shakers keeps me engrossed with its terribleness. Honest to good, even if I hardly remember what the previous episode was about, I’m always looking forward to the next one, I enjoy the terribleness too much.

Also, this is a little insignificant, but this is the first time I see any reference to the Japanese immigrants in Brazil (th, which was kind of a big thing back in the 1930s, in any anime I’ve ever watched, and since I had to look up into that for my thesis, it felt kinda nice to see it and understand why Brazil of all countries.

Super Lovers 2

This is so boring. Even when they try to address the issues I had with the previous season (mainly questioning the nature of Haru and Ren’s relationship), they always do it half-assedly. No drama, no tension, no resolution and certainly no semblance of any plot progression and it’s becoming increasingly tedious. The introduction of the new host guy could add at least some drama to the plot, but I’m not holding my breath. The dog continues to be cute

I dropped Marginal #4 since episode 2 and I can’t quite remember what it was about other than there was a long sequence of one of the guys desperately looking for his “lucky undies” and I’m too old for this level of juvenile “lol undies” humor. Turns out “not putting me to sleep” wasn’t that strong an asset after all.

Anyway really dead season but the scarce good stuff is really quite good, and the truly terrible stuff is so terrible it’s hilarious so overall the season doesn’t feel as terrible as it could. 

[marcosoropoet]

EXECUTION SQUAD GIGGLES  ~  Marcos Oro

Seeds of fire and light, crackling logs, quasars, confusions of candy-colored raindrops and black moss fingernails make it something fiery in your eyes unknown in this world most heightened, sentient candle light haze november fuschia century.alone in this world — one sentient circuit. Feather on skin, droplets of rain flashing wet glowing amber blinkers. Glasses ping in the sea-tang background of a hallucinatory black shadow puppet eyelash. Radio: ...day and night I sit at home and I cry, (1234), wonderin' maybe if this is all just a lie...babybaby I — ((( grit silt undergroundcomix city street laces tied tight, rainstorm soundtrack ))) ...well, maybe u know if u had been around some: as some would say, and then stand around, looking down we are stretching out into two outward directions on the outskirts of night city deluge regression looking down onto the vision path of the distant glittering vine city that makes one or two cry tonight. solo bassiest sitar floated out from the open window, curtains flapping softly in time. you & i process time differently today. i here, u there. without the filmic boundary of universe knife-edge time, timelessness evolves into the new desired seasonal color, the new magazine cover rolled up to hit a rat — meandering mass malfunction tremor gaping swallows. vacuum. blackhole. microcosm. more rapid imagery. helicopter. red propeller hard-flung repetitive sound, blue siren screeching fast, flying fists, siezure of vehicle & chocolate-yes time machine — I went to the show instead of sitting around, Joe The Kug kicked out an alright rocknroll show that was alright sonic loud retro rocked on over and over, around and around, whistled spilt a bucket of harmonica, amplified the blues guitar warped bent heavy s o u n d: up here on the fourth floor the wind is awhippin' up & ahollerin loud rain and deep fresh thunder matrix outburst: crowd. Black and white storm drain gush, widens e x p a n s i o n x perfect disaster movie (((still))) behind frosted glass — the sky clouds mountains luminous, suffused planetary trickery — space opera e x p a n s i o n z — you spent an ominous delusional deep eye-unravel, a walk through the clear stilled cut stone gazebo of timely caricatures. Of cut stone time. No time behind bars. Handling blurred black polka dot conveyor vertigo screams; official institutional business paranoia office politics are veering out to you, girl / girl / girl girlyouknowthat busdriver he KRAY-ZEEgirl? he just say: "i'm a po' boy hmmm lost run up into the wind a while fly up hmmm to the moon fixin' to go anywhere's I pleases, sistah yezhmmm...mmm" nawnawnaw don'tcomewiththat it takeone to know one blasé blasé He is actually fuckinG de-fucking-ranged ominous delusional deep eye-unravel, i am a very practiced, precise, dark sycophant; thus having left many with a deep amazement, and such an addiction to the elaborations of my highly esteeming fizzing fervor over such sloppy sorry dupe fucks; No! Well just retract renege whatever the fuck! day or time, but mostly distracted, celebratory and important in the q u a n t u m i l l u s i o n of filmic derivatives in elitist lingo, craving for some peripheral excitement tonight. some feral excitement. Choppers swoop down low with a searing spotlight blasting white rays of simple pure technology propeller hums loud yes, i think "being hard on yourself" is a staged fake-out very quietly not making too much noise. too much white noise. too much scratch selfhelpbook many please yes 451...451...451 the siren shuffled its screech around the rusty tectonics of the foggy rainy city. M: Can't you see? I can't think straight with your graphics splattered all over the kitchen, I'm sorry but they are too wild and stark, I — M: — well myself for a long time now. I ((( uh ))) actualize myself in the artistic endeavor program you see. "I" feel more genuinely human. Having the same thoughts come clear to me, as well. This delicate skill is rather enhancing, I find. Distracting oneself from the quantum illusion, you are an illusion, so I will display all of my pieces in the livingroom instead of the chocolate crunch time machine. I am a very technique-heavy practiced, precise, dark sycophant; thus having left many with amazement, and an addiction to the perfect "interviewee", "media-ready", "mindless"... yeah so the rock show's on then? we gonna do the Nutley gig eh? yeah next week right? ok straight off somethingweirdiswrongwith the phone. no no problem. no problem...no es problemático. The Artist as Servant to the Taskmaster: Art or, "Up in Here" - location finder of the psyche. AS SEEN ON TV. you are talking to yourself constantly, and everyone else as well is speeding up, this is too telling of the Pomegranate Program bank...uh real parchment documents...written up legal cases, dark crates of bristling oily tarantulas, these comments/moments.repeating fruit reds ...would you like the egg soft boiled? The spy motions with his long 24K pinky nail. Dry constraining skills, of bad mother persona place bitch's shelter, don't gimme no mama. Noir : That's place-fight risk forged ahead very practiced, celebratory and enjoy "quicksand" sure. Sure, the neon prickly cactus place (zone) is quiet "media-ready" and I of course just flipped out! No more clowns and vagrants on TV. Get it? — ...these comments are under smoky lasered scrutiny in the tricked-out surveillance clown center of the sociopathic sheltered elite urban mutation basement sector composite. Do not find me there please tonight no. Not ever! Cigar touting clowns, in formal barbed wire attire, and fiberglass Bow-Ties. Entire walls and windows covered in aluminum foil glaring eye of metallic skin; a searing metallic light, that is seen as it pours out smoke from whole gaps and cracks; from afar the prolonged vibrato of one syllable — A distant gaurantee of otherwordly nano-visions. donuts dunked in a coffee pool. Sauntering in, vivid pristine holograms of nocturnal mutagen beasts lumbering, climbing down to sleep in their warm centered world something is very odd and ((( off ))) the sky clouds mountains luminous, suffused the old lake with warm light: i'm a po' boy hmmm-hmmm lost run into the wind a while fly up hmmmyezmmm to the moon the immediate earth artificial gelatin intelligence resists rendering my Möbius Loophole, is contiguous manic nihilism perpetrating plagiarism. Time loophole escapee loot party gone way wrong, man. The turmoil of the money-craving zombie industry brand, with its truly myriad iterations, a million jealous flashbulb moneyshots of dry-ice frozen three dimensional strobes pulsating on grinding grin trashcan collage alley moneyshot font/color graffiti to boot grind down to grey ash, silt slides off of the cracking inset lines around the zombie's gluey opening eye. Who wants a birthday cake to be a conceptual unraveling inversion of rampant unrelenting candleflames? Flashing a quartz stilleto badge, running through artficial fiery ebbing mobs of protesting automatons. Yanking out drawers filled with heavy coins, and throwing slinging them all over pillow fight showering flecked thick coins (cracked a window with a corner of the flung drawer)...jagged glass made our room now seem much more serious, unfinished. Distracting, disturbing. No blood though... This is the very same earth of eyes blurring out of the picture into vivid blades of green country grass under brown cattle sinew, focus bright white razor-sharp clouds entitled gradually to the false artifice of data vicinity night — The quintessence of mile-down mountain valley drop is catching quick down my attention Running on auto pilot as projection of sparkling dust motes, in bright beams of day: no no I've ate already officer — did you know I'll read them, yeah, red passing laden glare of a red light beam splash head on into the please remember that I never lied crosshair eyes of execution squad giggles.

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More on Killing Stalking

Finished reading up through chapter 10.  Thoughts under the cut.  Kind of review-y?  I’ve got a few different lenses I’m looking at it through.

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So, I legitimately have no idea what the goal of this story is.  Is it supposed to be horrific and disturbing, or is supposed to be porn for a lot of extreme, fantasy-only kinks?  Possibly both??  I am genuinely not sure.  It’s presented with so much sexual imagery, both in framing and panel composition, as well as visual metaphors, that I find it difficult to believe it isn’t supposed to be SOME kind of erotic.  But it could also be that Koogi is trying to juxtapose ‘familiar’ erotic imagery with gruesome actions in order to make it come across as all the more disturbing.  No idea.  I’m curious to know whether she’s a guro fan or not.

Either way, not sure I’ll continue reading it.  The sad part is, whatever the intent may be, it’s not really achieving it for me.  If it’s supposed to be sexy, eh, sorry bruh, I’m kinky, but non-con ain’t my thing.  Even if I KNEW that its intent was first and foremost to be extreme “forbidden kink”-fuel, and I could just read it as that, I’d only be able to find it as a bit of an interesting insight into some extreme kinks I don’t share.  And while I feel there’s a certain value to that (I’ve read full-on guro works for the same reason), that’s all the more I would get out of it.  No real titillation.  And like I said, I don’t know if that’s the intent of it, anyway. 

Conversely, if it’s supposed to be horrific, then I suppose I can’t argue that it’s accomplishing that, but it’s not doing so in a way that I find to be especially compelling.  Sangwoo is a very standard, by-the-book, sociopath character who values Bum as a thing that makes him feel good.  Likewise, Bum is a pretty standard all-around victim (of life, of himself, of Sangwoo), struggling to cope with a cracking psyche amidst a million aspects of trauma.  Neither one of them offer anything particularly new or interesting, either from a pure psychological standpoint, or just as characters (and thus far, Sangwoo is downright dull), so I’m finding it hard to feel all that engaged by what’s happening with them.  With that being the case, reading it makes me feel similar to how I have when watching torture porn films like Hostel: Kind of...mildly disturbed by what’s going on?, but mostly just witnessing shock-value imagery in a loose story with characters that I don’t really care all that much about.

So, whatever the intent of it, Killing Stalking’s not really grabbing me all that much.  However, the art is solid, and I acknowledge that it’s (I think??) an early-career work.  I think that Koogi has some good potential as a storyteller, and I’ll be interested to see what else she comes up with down the road.