#dude i forgot the tags i use bc its moslty luci typing this im gonna go ape

[our-inspire-verse]

Alastor fronting. Ye its nice to get to know our Vox (insys) lately.

More on a group of headmates/fictives of ours below the cut

He's calmed down so much and is a lot more pleasant to be around and feels generally less mentally ill (he says). Now he's all cheeky affectionate with me instead of being as sarcastic and dismissive. He's a sweetie. And he made fun of me for having a bit of feelings because I called people sappy. As if he hasn't been acting sappy all day, comparatively.

We were talking warmly about something, I cant remember now. It could have been about our partner system or even what we're having to eat. But he instinctively grabbed my hand affectionately and we touch like that now naturally rather than pushing through memories or feelings to just force ourselves to be vulnerable. It felt good and natural.

So of course Lucifer has to scoff and roll his eyes sarcastic like. I laid my ears back and smiled at him all "yeah i thought you wanted us to make up. Jealous?"

He laughed. He was so warm there, all of us are doing so well, that internal communication came through automatically and i could tell we all felt pretty well. "A bit. I did want this, and i do, I'm glad. Dont get me wrong but you know i like both of you. Of course NOW you guys make up, here in the crew like this. Just made me chuckle"

He's right. It does feel silly. All 3 of us are from different parts of our timeline. I'm probably from the earliest era, which is when season 1 happens ish. Vox and Luci both remember further ahead. So that means our personalities and motives and memories don't always align how they did when we were all in the previous dimension together. I've had minor breakdowns over the memories that them being near me in headspace has triggered. I think i found out why i had such weird vile feelings toward Lucifer when he arrived, while Luci had such fond pleasant ones at me. I blamed him, for a lot of things. For Vox. It wasn't really his fault, even not being able to see what happened, i know and can acknowledge that and i can sense him near me now. I know he can hear me say I don't blame him. I do love him. And though i did Like That in last life, its taking some patience on both parts to get there in this one. Both of us are okay with that.

And while me and our Vox never made up, never got back together, and i was the sad one and he complicated, we have this lifetime to catch up. Make up for the times i had to grieve him. Whatever happened, if it happens in our source the way it did for him, at least i know he's around this time. I dont have to hold on without him again.

As for our partner system, how WONDERFUL to have a Vox paralleled to my timeline, perfect for me as opposed to my dimension. This is the timeline we all make it work. Simple and happy ❤️. Me and my Vox, our Vox and their Alastair. All 4 of us just resting and making it work. How could it get more lovely and wonderful

Lucifer contribution: the only way it could is making applemedia. Is it radiostatic²? Not to bring up exes but how fucking funny is that. All the doubles. Im gonna look in the portal for Val and yall can't stop me it would be the ONLY THING funnier other than them getting a me. I think that would be hysterical

As Al again.. i think he shouldn't have Rights. We need to get him back out of this crew. What the fuck