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Helloooo my Tumblr friends@!! If youhavent noticed, I am back for my bi-yearly hyperfixation :P this time it's dragonball z , namely Vegeta lmao
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been doing some internal questioning that boils down to âis it the auADHD or i am plural in some way???â
and iâm. not sure if i want to know the answer. at least not yet.
#ensiger#possibly plural#this post is brought to you by a monoconscious culture post that hit a lot harder than i thought it would#'wait how long have i been me. when did i stop being the other guy'#also a lot of the Dragonheart Collective's essay points in Dissociation. & internal thought voice.#the only point in Identity disturbances that really hit was -#Feeling like you weren't born in that body & that you simply appeared one day inside of it.#like. i sometimes feel like ''I'' is more than one internally.#like i'm One Person in the way a cartoon character can be animated/storyboarded by multiple artists.#does that make sense as like?? a plural thing???#or is that just the depersonalization & bees in my brain??#also that like. the 'current me' stepped into my body & 'replaced' whoever used to be here. i have (most) of my memories & shit but just.#i'm not totally sure if this is a 'i have grown and changed since i was a child' or 'i'm a different person in every sense of the word.'#i kind of stewed on this questioning a couple years(?) ago when i was first learning about multiplicity. but nothing ever really came of it#bc digging further into it didn't feel useful. all the stuff i was reading didn't feel like it was lining up with what's going on in here#i've recently been doing some reading on monoconscious & median systems but.#i don't want to act on anything until i Know. or at least until i Know More.#also i'm about 90% sure my kintypes are not headmates/alters/etc. they feel like / similar to my gender & not. ''extra Me's'' so to speak
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Come over here and let me whisper in your ear
What I want to do to you
I want to tell you what the hell you should be doing now
(Come follow me)
Donât come any closer
I just want you to be my fantasy
- Fantasy by I Will Never Be The Same featuring Maks_SF
#i am absolutely writing smut to this bc it fucks in all the right ways lol#when the song speaks to both sides of the switch and has an amazing beat? it goes immediately into my favs forever list#music#otp: dragonheart
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Dragonheart started this way! The setting came first, revolving around a protagonist whoâs now a secondary main, and I recycled for my new plot.
Memo to everybody :
Never be afraid to recycle an idea you had for a WIP you abandoned. Sometimes the idea needs a different set of characters or a different setting.
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WIP: Dragonheart
In the fantasy world of Smyrin, an unfit tyrant has claimed the throne of Graesille, the kingdom of Men. King Darian and Queen Illivia are dead, and their infant son Prince Avenor has vanished. In the absence of an heir, the kingâs steward Ragrath Hearkenstone has claimed power and waged war on the rest of the world.
Twenty years in, much of the world has been crushed, with only the elves of Briestenna still meaningfully holding out against the onslaught. Only the northernmost continent in the world has been spared, and it is here that Carden Stel, a human adoptee of the peace-loving Isenborn, has been brought up without fear or worry.
Cardenâs happy years come to an abrupt end, however, when he stumbled upon an amulet hidden in the frozen wilds. He had inadvertently claimed the amulet, only to find it had claimed him back â and shoved him down a path he never would have chosen.
Finding the amulet has brought a horde of enemies down on Carden who will stop at nothing to take it from him â his only chance is to move fast, stay ahead, and hunt down four artifacts of great power, all united by the power of the amulet. With the artifacts in hand, he may be able to take Ragrath head-on and end the war that has plagued Smyrin for twenty years; if he survives the journey. With a handful of champions selected from the resulting nations, Carden embarks on the most dangerous journey of his life â with a frightening battle for the throne looming ahead of him.
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I don't know about you guys but i really miss seeing "high fantasy" dragons in media, high fantasy dragons are like Smaug (The Hobbit), Draco (DragonHeart), Saphira (Eragon) and Spyro (Spyro the Dragon games franchise) for example, they have their own free will and cannot be controlled, they are highly intelligent and capable of speaking and even writing or drawing. It seems the version of dragons that has taken over is the animalistic and realistic version, that are basically huge dogs that can breath fire, bring back intellectual dragons that like to make riddles to fool intruders, bring back grumpy dragons that live isolated from everyone but they are actually lonely and in need of a friend, bring back the loyal and brave dragons that are willing to sacrifice themselves to save the ones they love, dragons that will talk to you about the mysteries of the world and the universe, JUST BRING BACK HIGH FANTASY DRAGONS GODDAMIT
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On the wind of morning; Dragonheart ch.1
Pairing: OT7 dragon!BTS x knightess!reader
Genre: dragon rider AU, high fantasy, soulmate adjacent, slight enemies to lovers (if you squint), angst, fluff and humour, eventual smut
Chapter summary: The capital is as unwelcoming as ever, father as disappointed as one can be and the new unit dynamics are challenging, but you finally meet your dragon.
Word count: 22.1k
Warnings: some bad family dynamics, toxic father shenanigans, some displays of slavery, talks of slavery, there's a pov switch near the end so watch out for that, otherwise not much
Series masterlist | Next part | Lore | Dictionary
A/N: here comes the first chapter!! i hope it meets the expectations and you enjoy yourself while reading! don't be shy, tell me what you think and how you like it! <3 PS: the words that are underlined are linked to chapter notes with explanations and a dictionary ;) they're a little messy atm but i'm trying to find a way to make it easier
I disliked the royal castle. It was a dark hulking mass of stone that blocked out all the sunlight and drained all warmth from everything and everyone inside. It casted a massive shadow over its surroundings, and you were never free of the feelings of oppressiveness as soon as you were in its vicinity.
The moment you stepped in, you shivered and with every passing second youâd be colder and bitterer, sitting in a dark hallway feeling your fingers slowly freeze while the silence crushed you from all sides. The atmosphere was always sombre and tinged with the sour note of fear, you could see it in the way no one dared to speak, no one felt like smiling and all the servants were walking briskly with their heads down.
I disliked the castle, and I hated staying in it.
While of course, it was sitting on a big black rock by one of the rockiest and coldest shores in the empire, and the weather often reflected that with harsh winds and heavy rains; but the worst were the occupants, who managed to be colder and more inhospitable than the heavens themselves. They were the ones who made the structure so unwelcoming, who made you feel uncomfortable and who enjoyed belittling others until no one laughed unless it was at someone elseâs expense. It was a hard world of ruthlessness and survival, but it was us who made all the beasts and the prey.
I disliked the castle, but I hated the people within even more.
You could almost taste all the blood and suffering soaked into these thick stone walls, the centuries of atrocities that took place inside looming over you and constricting your lungs, making you fight for every breath of stale joyless air.
But with my father being needed here so often, I couldnât escape it no matter how much I wanted that. And now finally earning my acceptance between the elite ranks, I would be spending even more time here, would have to come to terms with moving onto the castle grounds, into the secluded barracks away in the farther corner of the royal training grounds.
I had grown up far away from the capital city. When I was born, it was still at the old house in the north, where there were just as many plains and meadows as there were mountains, and the summers were pleasant and warm and winters freezing and cruel.
Those were our lands and our estate, gifted to my great great-grandfather for his achievements in battles against the northern invasion, as he was considered a well respected general close to the emperor â and thatâs where our family legacy began. We have always been a military family, but since then the Kang generals have always stayed as close to the royal family as possible, climbing the ranks and sticking their claws in deep.
And as fief lords, our patriarchs have never been particularly benevolent either, which might be a reason for why they got along with the nobles so well. The cruelty and coldness ran in their veins, just like all the powerful men that shared between each other the same arrogance and feelings of superiority, supporting each other in their worldviews and their own dominance.
It all was very embarrassing to witness â the pride of old men strutting around like peacocks and preening under each otherâs compliments of their evildoing.
And my father was one of them.
He was one of the three generals closest to the throne, one of the right-hand men and a monster, much like the man with the crown himself. I scoffed at the image of him in my head â the pompous ass that thought he was infallible and carried himself like he was god, ruled his fief and his family with a cruel unforgiving hand and expected infallible loyalty and subservience of his children.
All of the men that were currently sitting in the room next to me, holding a meeting and discussing war, they were all cut from the same cloth. Power hungry, back-stabbing. And they wouldnât hesitate to devour each other alive if the opportunity rose no matter how much they pretended to be allies.
Footsteps down the hall drew my attention and I looked up from my miserable little corner by the massive dark double door to see a small group of knights walk in. They crossed the hall in several quick strides and soon were knocking on the door by my left, giving me the opportunity to observe them for a moment.
They were the kingsguard, the white tiger insignia embroidered on their black and white uniforms giving their position away. It wasnât that unusual seeing big clumps of the soldiers running around the castle, as the emperor was extremely paranoid about his safety, but these men seemed to be escorting someone else.
In the middle of the group there stood a beautiful tall man, elegant and lean with long silvery white hair. He didnât even have to turn towards me for me to know he was a dragon, but when he did and I saw those cold steely eyes with vertical slit pupils, centuries of wisdom and pain reflecting through them, I knew for sure he was one of the sovereignâs own.
I nodded at him solemnly in sympathy, offering him at least a little decency, but the dragon just regarded me expressionlessly before turning forward again and waiting for the order to step in. I turned back to lean into my chair to give him peace, and only listened to the creak and shuffle of the opening door and the thunder of iron clad feet. Then the door slammed shut again and I was once more left alone in the hall.
This time it didnât take long though, only a few minutes later the door opened once more, and this time stayed opened. With a long deep breath, I stood up and made my way in. I saw other young hopefuls slowly trickle in, filling in the counsel room and finding their way to their benefactorâs sides.
While the counsel is in a meeting, no one else is allowed inside, but after they are dismissed, usually there is some socialising and many of these men take the opportunity to flaunt their children or disciples. Itâs all very boring and humiliating for the younglings involved, being paraded like a piece of meat or a trained monkey, but it was all to give these men face â the only thing they really cared about. Especially when it came to their children.
âY/N, stop with the dilly-dallying!â a thunderous voice sounded from my right. It was the kind that demanded respect and attention, and the man knew very well how to use his aura to intimidate and break people into obedience. After all, confidence was half of the trick, I thought bitterly.
Taking a second to right my uniform, I steeled myself and turned, coming face to face with my father. His face was in that grimace that Iâve already come to know meant he was very close to getting angry because he thought my behaviour to be humiliating to him. I fought the scoff off of my face and walked over with confident strides.
My brother was already standing by our fatherâs side, face an unreadable mask and back as straight as a rod, only his eyes shooting subtle warnings my way. Great, that meant that the general was already in a bad mood from the meeting, and I was bound to lose no matter what I did.
As soon as I made it over to them, a hand clasped onto my shoulder in an iron grip and wrangled me to fatherâs side, as his face melted into an aggressively polite grimace, his smile turning almost shark-like.
âGentlemen, I believe you havenât been introduced to my daughter officially yet,â he started towards three men of similar age as my father, âshe has just entered the Academy.�� I sighed internally at the way their smiles turned sharp, sensing the weak spot in my fatherâs impeccable armour.
You see, I was somewhat of a disappointment to him. Well, Iâve been for a really long time, but back then it was a private affair. Now he had to face the ridicule in public, as I was a little bit of a late bloomer.
âOh?â one of the men perked up, mean smile playing on his lips as he looked me over with condescension, âCongratulations, General Kang. What unit is she with?â Sensing the game the man was playing, I felt my fatherâs grip tighten until it was painful, constricting the movement of my wrist.
I winced, hoping I was able to keep the hurt expression off of my face, but nobody was really watching me anyway. Everyone was focused on the general, waiting with bated breath for his answer. The sounds of chatter from the room around us flowed freely around the tense atmosphere of our little corner, making the silence sound even louder.
Then he turned to me, stormy dark eyes signalling me that this was my battle to win. I forced my face into a similar polite smile, feeling kind of rusty at pandering to men I didnât care about and hoping people couldnât see how much I despised being here.
âI am with the Qinglong unit,â the answer finally fell out of my lips, my voice slightly weak and scratchy after sitting in silence for such a long time and I cleared my throat, embarrassed. The several sets of eyes jumped to me for a second, before redirecting to my father again.
âAh, the dragon riders,â a different man stated, and I couldnât tell from his voice whether he was impressed or not, which very obviously ruffled my fatherâs feathers. This was one of the few things he could boast about when it came to me, heâll be damned if others didnât recognise that.
âYes, she will be attending a banquet very soon,â he supplied quickly, grip still strong on my arm and keeping me in place when I started nervously fidgeting. I looked to my brother, but he stood there without a single care for the conversation, eyes trained somewhere else in the room. Before I could follow his gaze, I was pulled back.
âWell, that is incredible,â the first man spoke again, the smirk still plastered on his face, âYou must be so proud, youâll surely award your daughter well with her 22nd birthday coming this year.â There were some snickers around and I knew we were in for something. This here was the killing point.
As many young people in this empire, I entered the military with my 16th birthday, which was the earliest one could start training at a base. While for me it was inevitable with the nature of our family, many other people chose to join just for the basic reason of needing food and shelter and soldiering was one of the easiest and surest ways to earn a stable keep for yourself and your family, so the input of fresh blood into the system was never-ending. The empire fought many wars and never had enough of willing knights, so entering the military was also very enthusiastically encouraged, leaving behind generations of mourning parents and social problems.
And yes, there were many opportunities for a knight to rise in ranks without ever stepping foot off of their mother base, they could climb quite high between the regional officials. But only a few dozens ever made it to the true top â and the only way there was through the Academy, situated in the capital and each year accepting only a handful of lucky knights.
There were several elite units, amongst which were the kingsguard and dragon riders, or the shadows as they were known â spies. Those who made it into this room were only the ones that went through there.
And the earliest age you could enlist into the Academy was 22. My brother was 27, therefore heâs been training there for 5 years now, which gained him quite the recognition in these circles (enough to allow him to listen in to these council meetings to learn). He of course made in on the first try, which was enough to not absolutely embarrass our father. Something, I wasnât able to achieve.
The Qinglong unit, or as it was colloquially known as the horns, was one of the more elite and exclusive ones, harder to enter and harder to stay, just like shadows were, but that wasnât something our father was interested in hearing.
And I failed in enlisting. Twice. I was now slightly over 24 years old, still young and still fully capable of making a name for myself, but not good enough to make my father proud to be associated with me.
As the highest standing general and one of the closest men to the emperor himself, he couldnât afford to have children that didnât succeed in everything on their first try. And of course, once the other elites caught the wind of this, it became a constant point of mockery for him. The only flaw in this manâs otherwise perfect life.
Which is why he was currently shooting daggers in my directions, the hateful stare burning into the side of my face as the question of my age was brought up. Once again, he made it clear that this was my mess to clean up, so I took a deep breath and turned back to the three men.
âWell⌠I uh- I have actually been training at the mother base for two additional years,â I stuttered out, trying to ignore my fatherâs embarrassed angry face. It was the nicest way to say that I wasnât accepted two years in a row, but it still stung his pride, especially when the others started smirking.
One of them soon after launched into a story of how his daughter was actually accepted while she was still 20 years old, because they just had to make an exception for her, which then prompted all the others to share their own stories of success and talent coming from their protĂŠgĂŠes. It was absolutely disgusting, and I felt my father fuming next to me the whole time, in my mind begging the men to stop as I will have to face the consequences of his anger once home.
The jealousy and envy ran so thick that even the slightest sight of imperfection was shamelessly mocked and inspected over and over again, as everyone latched on the one thing they could feel better at than a general that climbed far higher than they could ever hope for. Thatâs why my fatherâs embarrassed anger burned even more â I knew he blamed me for this behaviour, since if I hadnât failed, he wouldnât have to face these things â heâd stay at the top, untouchable.
I silently swallowed, no longer daring to speak, knowing it would make the aftermath of my official introduction into high society less heavy.
The rest of the afternoon was painful and dragged on as I was forced to stay by my fatherâs side and listen to the mindless chatter and the occasional bragging about my brother. The general ignored me after the initial conversation and tried his best to pretend I wasnât there, immediately derailing any enquiries that were raised about me and changing the topic before anyone could find the opportunity to make him admit my shortcomings again.
It didnât particularly hurt, and it wasnât especially punishing; I was used to such reception from the man, but it was painfully awkward and I wasnât allowed to leave.
Instead I focused on catching glimpses of the silver haired dragon and the man whose side he similarly wasnât allowed to leave. In contrast to his companion, he was clad all in gold, his robes heavily embroidered with leaves and other floral motifs, hands clasped elegantly in front of his stomach as he conversed with the crowd that was formed around him. His hair burned with a golden glow, but that might have been partly due to the crown sitting high on his head, adorned with blood red rubies. He was young, just two or three years older than my brother, freshly appointed but just as cruel (if not more) as his recently deceased father. You could see it in the lines of his face, in the cold glint in his eyes, the arrogance written into his every gesture and the permanent slip of a smirk.
Just from seeing him I knew he wasnât a person worth knowing. How lovely that he was the one that sat on our throne.
The dragon by his side looked on with a practiced vacant glaze over his eyes, corners of his mouth weighted down by shadows only he knew of and carried in his heart and soul. My eyes slipped to his neck where a tattoo sat. It was in a spot that would always be visible, no matter how hard you tried, it was too high up to cover by clothing comfortably, forever showcasing who you were. A branding, a mark of slavery â a black chain wrapped around the neck. Every dragon bore it, some were even born with it. It was what bound them to the royal family and enforced their loyalty, what made them nothing more than unwilling puppets.
The man shifted and I quickly averted my eyes, not wanting him to see me looking at his mark. It was incredibly sensitive for dragons, and it brought them great shame when people ogled it, knowing this was what took away their freedom and bound them unconditionally to an uncaring master.
My heart bled for him, and it brought feelings of uneasiness about my own banquet that was about to take place in a few days. There I would choose my own dragon to bond with and start my formal training, but the queasiness about putting similar shackles on another being never quite ceased to bother me, no matter how much I knew my heart. I could treat the dragon as nice as possible; it wouldnât erase the fact that formally we were a master and a slave.
Snippets of memories of my childhood resurfaced to my mind â a brown-haired man with warm eyes and a blinding smile, little slips of magic that endlessly fascinated me and all the lessons Iâd learnt with him. The first dragon I ever knew. The kindest teacher I ever knew. The moments of warmth, love and laughter in the meadows and the forests up in the north.
A hand clasping my shoulder jolted me from my daydreaming and I flinched, a gasp leaving my mouth as I turned to the source of my sudden panic â coming face to face with my brother.
âCome, sister,â he said with voice neutral and a stone mask, the perfect picture of a promising young captain, âWeâve begun moving to the dining hall for dinner. Youâre not paying attention again.â
I couldnât even find it in me to be irritated by his slight jab, so I simply tightly pursed my lips shut and gave him a curt nod. He wrestled me into position so that he was leading me on his arm, trying to prevent any more delays and potentially adding to the long list of reasons why our fatherâs day was going as badly as it was. Bonus points for flashing our strong camaraderie to the lords.
âDonât push him anymore, todayâs been hard for him,â the young knight whispered lightly as we joined others slowly moving through the castle corridors. That had me ruffled a little, but I swallowed any remarks and nodded. Some days you truly did need to choose your battles and today was such day. And deep down I knew my brother was trying to look out for me in his own way, but that didnât make it sting any less whenever he chided me in favour of our father.
âYes, brother,â came my faux demure reply before I sealed my lips shut once more. That earned me a side-eye from the dark-haired man, who knew I was the furthest one could be from a quiet obedient lady, but chose not to call me out on the obvious piss-taking. He only sighed, shoulders sagging lightly, no doubt grateful I at least agreed with him so readily.
Thereâs been some dramatic scenes in my past as I reached my ârebellious phaseâ as father put it, but quickly that fire died within me when I realised it made everything only worse. As I grew, I chose silence as the survival method â causing scenes, screaming matches and throwing tantrums only served to humiliate us both; and perhaps I did have a little piece of my father in me â I also cared about my face.
Once I entered the base, it reflected on me badly amongst peers and instructors, giving me the reputation of a spoiled little brat. No matter the emotional turmoil I had been going through at that time, I knew it was time for a change of tactic â I needed respect to survive in the military and I would get it. Not for my father, but for myself.
Upon entering the room, I looked up and immediately found the eyes of the man himself trained on me, some new vague warning reflecting in them trying to keep me quiet and not causing any problems.
I sighed and resigned myself for the worst evening in recent history.
The reflection in my mirror stared back at me as I tried to push my clothes around to look as presentable as they could, the uniform still a little foreign to me. It was black silk cheollik with silver embroidery and it was tied at the side into an elegant bow. As tradition dictated, my father had given me a gift for the successful entry into Academy and it now adorned my waist â a deep red intricately woven string with a prosperity knot and grey jade pearls at the end â they jingled lightly at every nervous shift of my body.
This was the ceremonial uniform, as I still havenât gotten my unitâs specific one â not until I bonded with a dragon â and it was brand new, it still smelt unworn and fit strangely over me, still adapting to my physique.
I would keep this one, but wear it rarely â usually there werenât many instances when people wouldnât take the chance to flaunt their unit, especially if they were at the top of the food chain, but I liked it. It was simple and elegant, and while the Qinglong also wore a similar one, it wasnât embroidered and had azure details, and I found it a little too eye-catching.
Giving myself another look, I ended up sighing deeply, hands smoothing over the cold silk for the thousandth time in a last attempt to make it look a little more natural, thoughts finding their way towards the image of my mother. My sweet mother, who if she was here would tell me everything would be alright, that it looked perfect and I would do well. I imagined the feel of her gentle hands in my hair and on my shoulders, letting the memories of her soft voice soothe me.
The train of thought pierced my heart with pain that always manifested itself when I fell down this rabbit hole, my eyes naturally sliding towards the table which held all of her kind-hearted words in the form of letters sheâs send over the years I havenât seen her. But as always, everything I ever felt left a little aftertaste of rage towards my father, so I quickly abandoned this line of thought as well. Syphoning all the emotions out of me, I turned back into my numbed self that always surfaced around the family home.
Picking up the ceremonial dagger I finally set out, swiftly moving through the house in hopes of not bumping into the man himself. What rotten luck I had, as always.
The moment I stepped foot into the inner yard, there he was, sitting on the terrace by his study, sipping tea and watching me with his critical eyes. I could feel them sliding over me, making sure everything was in place. I said nothing, steadily returning his gaze while I wordlessly worked on the dagger strap, fashioning it under the red string.
âRemember what I told you last week, Y/N,â the general spoke, his face impassive even though there was fire underneath it all, and I could feel it all too well, âYou are to make good impressions. I expect you to excel in this unit. Your brother is already being considered for corporal, do not stain this for him. Your unit has higher ranks too. One of them better be of my blood.â
I kept my mouth shut, just bowing to him in lieu of answer, but I was sure he could see the cocktail of anger and resentment brewing in my eyes. Choosing not to address that, he waved me off as if I was waiting for his permission to leave. Without a second glance I bowed again and promptly walked out the main gate.
If tonight went well, this was potentially one of the last times I walked out this specific house â our residence while we stayed in the capital city of Wuyun, close to the castle and royal grounds with the Academy in tow. If tonight went well, soon Iâd find myself in the barracks, and I dreaded that day.
Unfortunately, family legacy tended to follow us all, no matter where we went and what we did. Children often went in their parentsâ footsteps, making the Academy the breeding ground of resentment and generation long slights and fights. And there was a lot accumulated against the Kangs.
Back when my brother first joined, before he turned into the man he is today â while he still talked to me, he told me how disliked he was for the simple association. No matter what he did, he couldnât escape his fatherâs shadow. I was next.
I would be able to walk over the distance from our house towards the main entrance of the castle blind-folded, and it passed quicker than I was ready for, suddenly finding myself standing at the foot of the entrance hall. Just at the end was the entryway towards the throne room, where the emperor accepted hearings, and I made sure to avoid it at the off chance that the man was present there currently.
It took me little time to arrive at the Eastern Grand Hall, but I found that most have already gathered there. It was a flurry of black and blue robes with the occasional splash of colour from other present lords, the hum of chatter and clinking of cutlery on metal plates that were typically used for military events, as if we were a bunch of animals that couldnât be trusted with porcelain. I couldnât spot anyone else wearing the plain Academy robes and I had no idea how many were accepted this year, so I slowly inserted myself into the frenzy hoping to blend in.
Turns out, itâs hard to do that when everyone either knows youâre the newbie or even realises which family you belong to, and I was getting a lot of looks as I leisurely walked along the table laid out with foods and drinks pretending not to notice. Some were mocking, some were apprehensive, and some were calculative, either way I had no interest in socialising.
It felt like ages have passed while I quietly ate by the end of the main table, gaze trained on a painting on the opposite wall, high above everybodyâs head, but it wasnât even time to officially begin the banquet yet. I was already feeling tired by all this, hoping this would be over with quickly so I could leave.
âI see that youâre getting some attention as well,â a cheery voice from my left shook me out of my reverie as I traced the golden lines of the knight portraiture for the thousandth time, and I turned somewhat dramatically, eyes open wide.
A woman stood there, it was hard to gauge her age, but she wore the same black and silver uniform, signalling she was also a first-year. Her pretty face was split by a friendly smile, eyes crinkling at the corners and her chestnut brown hair was shoved into a messy bun, clearly without a care for propriety. Her joy was quite disarming and before I even realised what I was doing, I was shaking her outstretched hand, still in shock. Her grip was strong, hands sure and decisive.
âIm Hwa-young, nice to meet you,â she said confidently, and I gaped at her slightly. Im was a disgraced surname, and no one who still had the curse of bearing it said it out loud anymore for fear of being recognised as a part of the Im clan after its fall and near annihilation. Whispers about treason and Godâs punishment still followed those who survived, and many of the family disappeared from the public, hoping to escape the burden.
âI know, in the flesh,â Hwa-young continued with good spirits, obviously used to peopleâs reactions, âhe was my uncle, before you ask.â I saw a flash of annoyance in her, something maybe like disappointment crossing her face as she began to withdraw her hand. In a split-second decision I grabbed it again, just as hard as she did before.
âKang Y/N,â I gave her my name, making sure to look into her eyes, âand I wasnât about to ask.â Hwa-young beamed at me, relief seeping into her as she sidled over to me almost as if weâve known each other for years.
âGood to know I wonât be suffering here alone,â she remarked with a conspiratorial lilt, âI was afraid Iâd be the only outcast in this unit.â I scoffed at her words, bringing a biscuit to my lips to mask my amusement from the others who were watching us with rapt interest.
âI never disappoint when it comes to disappointment,â there was something bitter creeping into my voice, tainting the joke with a smudge of reality, but Hwa-young was a good sport. She laughed lightly, head tilting back, looking so care-free it was helping me wind down.
Just as my shoulders begun to untense, a gong sounded through the Hall, tearing me away from the budding conversation. We both jolted and looked towards the head of the table where a greying man stood, his stance proud and strong. Light stubble decorated his wearied face, but it didnât hide the handsomeness of an experienced warrior. I could feel the authority and respect radiating off of him, as everyone in the room turned to give him their undivided attention without needing a single word.
âWelcome novices,â he said simply, his voice was a little rough, but it held stead-fast and strong, booming through the silent hall, âto your first mating banquet. May your hunt be successful.â Clearly a man of few words, he quickly raised his glass and drank it in one go, a thunderous clap tearing through the space before the hungry faces turned to those who were the main interest of the evening.
I quickly scanned through the room, almost breaking my neck with how much I strained to see everywhere, hoping to catch a glimpse of other first-years. There was a young man standing alone by one of the entrances, and another group of two guardedly conversing closer to the head of the table, where the silver-haired man sat now completely uninterested in anything except for his food. To his right sat a dragoness, watching him with amusement and playing with her bright red hair, lips moving in what seemed to be teasing manner.
I watched their interaction for a moment longer, before Hwa-young turned my attention back to her, hand lightly grabbing onto my forearm as the woman leaned in closer to whisper: âThe dragons have arrived.â
Snapping my head back towards the crowd, truly I could see newcomers â men and women with strong stances and shackles around their necks, faces either very carefully neutral or openly scowling at being paraded so openly. They mingled through the crowd, not really entertaining any looks or conversations.
âHow many of us do you think there is?â I asked her, no longer being able to see the three students I discovered before. Hwa-young hummed, but ultimately shrugged her shoulders â I could feel the motion of them against my side more than I saw her.
âWe should probably split up,â she whispered in the end, leaning away once more and slowly taking a step back, sending a cheeky smile my way, âSee you around, fellow outcast.â With that she disappeared into the crowd so quickly I was actually concerned for several seconds before snapping out of it.
Left alone again, I had no other choice but to face the most challenging part of this event â socialising with my peers. All around me, people were conversing freely, some dragons even joining in their circles (most probably with their own bondeds) and the mood started rising again; though I could see some still watching me like vultures, curious who Iâd choose to talk to.
For the moment, the most suitable strategy seemed to step back and observe, so I quickly manoeuvred myself through the throngs of people until I was leaning against a back wall. Right across me, across the whole hall, was the high-table where people tended to congregate more.
A flash of black and silver uniform alerted me to a novice that was conversing with a group of older students, but I couldnât recognise whether it was one of the few I saw before or not. Slumping against the cold stone, I started searching through the crowds for someone that would be easy to approach.
I had no idea how much time I spent standing there, but at some point I started feeling the soreness and pain in my legs and feet crying for me to sit down. Shuffling slowly by the wall to the side towards chairs, my plan was suddenly thwarted by two men who made short of the distance with quick long strides, situating themselves into the corner.
Lucky bastards, the lot of them.
I stayed where I was, sighing tiredly and still undecided, when their conversation started up again.
âI hate that they call it a mating banquet,â the bigger of the two grumbled with a pout, âthatâs clearly not what this is.â His head was shrouded in a very messy black bob haircut and small dark horns were protruding from his forehead, standing proudly with some strands tangled up around them and sticking out in weird angles. I held back a chuckle, bringing a glass with some sweet drink Iâd managed to grab from the table to my lips quickly.
The other man sat more angled towards me and when he looked up, I had the best view in the entire room at his otherworldly beautiful face. I couldnât hold back the gasp when I laid my eyes on him, the elegance and beauty he was exuding was truly almost too much for a mere mortal to handle. At first it seemed like his face actually glimmered, a slight shimmering catching my eyes constantly, before I realised his cheekbones and temples were covered in silvery blue scales. They blended into his skin perfectly and I found myself fighting a blush without him even having to look my way, that kind of effect he had on his surroundings.
Time to get it together, I told myself, slowly shuffling away and reprimanding myself internally for being a weirdo. And then he spoke.
âBonding banquet doesnât have such a ring to it, I suppose,â a melodic voice piped up, fading into a slight giggle at the end, âThough, something tells me if you were to show them what mating looks like, they wouldnât be very entertained.â The horned dragon grumbled some more, clearly over this whole thing already.
âI wish Yoongi hyung came,â his voice sounded really pouty and whiney, making me silently snicker to myself again, âI bet he would have found a way to leave already. Or heâd terrify people enough to leave us alone.â At least we clearly were in the same boat, cheers to that.
Before I realised what was happening, because I was not so discreetly watching the two interact with a slight smile on my face like a dummy, there were quick heavy footsteps heading my way. I quickly snapped out of it as soon as I clocked that the person was aiming at me, and cursed under my breath when I saw Lord Kim with his fake predatory grin.
âThe Kang youngling, what a surprise to see you here finally,â the man spoke loudly enough to have everyone in our vicinity snapping their heads to him and pushing all the attention to me. I pressed myself harder into the wall, the polite smile somewhat malfunctioning when he barrelled all the way into my personal space.
âBaron Kim, to what do I owe the pleasure?â came out through gritted teeth, the man clearly not understanding the meaning of boundaries. With every step away I took, he came closer, leaving us in an awkward shuffling match.
âWell, of course I have to welcome General Kangâs daughter to our unit, he wouldnât want it any other way," the elderly man said sleazily, a disgusting grin plastered on his ugly mug. I had to fight not to laugh at his words â our unit? Heâs never been a part of Qinglong, but he always wished for it â so instead he bought his way in. As a benefactor he was always invited and properly talked up with sweet, honeyed words, he even managed to wheedle a dragon out of them (though from what I understand, he didnât ride as he was afraid of hights). I could only imagine what that poor man went through with this lowlife as his master.
âIâm sure my father would be happy to know Iâm in such good hands,â I punched out of myself, the lie almost causing me physical pain. With most people who tried to gain the Kangsâ favour, it was hard to tell whether they really admired my father so much they turned insane or whether they secretly hated him and hated that they had to simper up to him; and that much could be said about Lord Kim as well.
Who knows where that old manâs loyalty lied and what his goals were, but the truth was that my father despised him and thought him to be an idiot.
While he started poetically voicing his well wishes and praises of the unit, I had a goal. Just a few metres away from me was an arch with glass doors open wide. As the second part of this event would take place outside, the garden there was already prepared and all I had to do was slip out and disappear quietly.
But between me and the open door sat the two dragons I had been listening to earlier, both of which had shut up now and watched my plight with varying degrees of interest and amusement, much like many others around us. When I glanced at the door again and happened to see the dark-haired dragon badly covering a cheeky smirk, clearly laughing at my expense, my eyes narrowed at him in faux anger.
The man had whole three seconds to realise I had seen him and take in my expression, before I side-stepped with the brightest smile I could muster and gestured towards the duo. Both of them froze like I just caught them stealing my grandmaâs jewellery, wide eyes regarding me.
âWell, I was just about to come speak with these gentlemen, would you mind introducing me?â the overly sugary tone of my voice made the dragonâs eyes narrow at me in turn and when Lord Kim wasnât watching I turned to him with a shit-eating grin. Truly, the baron was a curse that had to be shared, who was I to deny them the pleasure of his company?
The old man was clearly surprised with me jumping into his monologuing, eyes hopping between the three of us with his mouth hanging open slightly before he recovered and put on another polite smile.
âBut of course!â he took it in stride, immediately sliding to the horned dragonâs side and clapping him on the shoulder lightly, which made the young man straighten. The obvious strength of his muscles and the wideness of his shoulders stood out even more like that, and it looked almost comical next to the stuttering Lord. He looked mildly afraid, but soldiered on, like a cursed auctioneer.
âOnly the best for the generalâs daughter, I see,â the flattery slipped out of his mouth with practiced ease before he once again gestured to the two young men, âthese are two of the members of the Bangtan thunder.â Now it was my turn to freeze as those words poured over me.
Everything screeched to a halt and my eyes involuntarily jumped to the dragons who looked significantly more smug, sending cheeky teasing grins my way at having the rug pulled from under me like that. I could only imagine what kind of shock displayed on my face, but they seemed to be thoroughly enjoying it.
After the emperorâs personal thunder of dragons, which wasnât a true thunder due to the fact that he was the one who collected them instead of them bonding naturally, Bangtan was the second most known. Theyâve been mated for as long as anyone currently alive (and many generations before that) could remember and hosted seven of some of the most powerful dragons known to be currently existing. And while theyâve had riders before, everyone was aware that the sovereign himself didnât like to see when people bonded them due to their strength and unbreakable pack loyalty.
Thus some of the dragons from the thunder were known as their own entities, based on their powers and achievements, turning into a sort of living legends that walked among humans but could rarely be seen or touched. Really, I should have known the second one of them mentioned Yoongi, but I didnât even realise that was the name uttered.
Everybody who was interested in dragons knew of these seven, even if the chances of seeing them were low.
âThis one here is Jungkook,â Lord Kim continued completely unperturbed, clapping the bigger dragon on his back again, although much more hesitantly, and then he pointed at the ethereally beautiful man, âand that one is Jimin.â
The blush was back under the intense scrutiny of the silver-scaled man, and all I could think of while I put the face to the name was that it made perfect sense. Of course he was someone this unreal, with all the stories about his charms and seductions that were being told by people who encountered the thunder.
He seemed to be satisfied with flustering me, a small smile setting onto his lips in victory.
Now that I thought about it, it was true that people naturally avoided these two, and there was a circle of empty space around the armchairs as even now people hesitated to move closer and join in the conversation. Everyone seemed to be aware of their identity.
I mentally face-palmed myself. I was supposed to be a knight, perception was supposed to be one of my strong suits.
âCome on boys,â Lord Kim drawled out again, âGreet the young Kang.â Silence followed, stretching between us awkwardly while the elderly man became more wooden with each second passing, red setting into his face in embarrassment and indignation at being ignored so blatantly. Then, both of them nodded slightly.
I bowed to them fully, bending at the waist in a (hopefully) perfect 90 degrees angle, hands clasped in front of my chest in a gesture of respect.
âIt is an honour to meet you, sir Jimin and sir Jungkook,â itâs obvious my politeness shocked them, as the moment I come back up their eyes are wide and staring at me. Lord Kim started grumbling something about ungrateful dragons, feeling ashamed at such a lukewarm welcome from the boys, and the moment he wasnât looking, I flashed them a teasing smirk.
Thankfully Lord Kim got interrupted once again in the middle of his tearful tirade and with many apologies he rushed off, the relief visible as his shoulders sagged the moment he wasnât anywhere near the Bangtan dragons.
The three of us watched him for a moment before our eyes redirected back to each other, a strange but not unpleasant atmosphere hanging over us. Before I could start feeling the silence turn awkward, Jiminâs eyes narrowed at me, but there was still a slight upwards curl to his lips.
âNow, that wasnât very nice,â he drawled out in his melodic hypnotic voice, eyes dark and stormy. I flushed from head to toe, thoughts stuttering, still not used to being perceived by someone like him, and it still served to amuse him greatly as he leaned back into the armchair.
Jungkook over at his chair watched me with a mischievous expression, his big dark eyes making him seem so innocent if it wasnât for the cheeky curl to his lips. I realised there were several piercings all over his face and ears, strangely fitting his persona quite well, and as he squirmed in his seat, I could see tattoos peeking out of his robeâs sleeves. His tongue peeked out a little as he smirked at me, preparing to speak as well.
âYou were laughing at me,â I beat him to it, batting my eyelashes in faux sweetness, âOf course I had to repay you for that.â The two dragons scoffed, making themselves more comfortable and I could see the exact moment the apprehension bled out of them, and I wasnât deemed a threat anymore.
âWell, welcome to the unit newling,â Jungkook said, and it hit me that even though he looked very young for a dragon, he was still most likely hundreds of years old, and I choked a little on the smart retort. The man must have realised thatâs what happened, because he was smirking up a storm like a little shit.
To my surprise, I also found myself relaxing in their presence, the ease with which we interacted never really came to me this readily. I was mostly stiff and nervous and dancing around topics and words in fear of offending or giving people excuses to spread rumours and mock my father. Not that I particularly cared about his image, but because I knew I would be the one to reap the consequences if something uncouth started making its way through the high society. I didnât feel such pressure with these two, who watched me with curious but frank eyes.
âThat is most definitely a nicer welcome than Lord Kim,â I muttered absent-mindedly, half-way lost in thought, wracking my brain for the last time I talked with someone with this much elation. Jimin giggled at that, drawing my attention back to him with a little bit of a leftover fluster from before.
âDonât worry, everyone in this room shares that opinion,â he said leisurely, laid back in his chair elegantly, âHe tends to annoy everyone he speaks to. Especially our kin.â Jungkook nodded at that, something dark and solemn creeping into his eyes.
âHe doesnât know the meaning of manners,â the horned dragon supplied darkly, face hard and unfriendly as he caught sight of the older human man again. I nodded in sympathy, knowing very well how the man could get.
âLord Kim is one of those people who never leave you alone once they realise they can benefit from you,â I added to the conversation, moving a little closer to the armchairs so that I could lower my voice and make sure none of the nosey onlookers caught onto our conversation. The man might be generally disliked, but I still wouldnât be taking any chances while gossiping like this.
âHeâs been trying to get into my fatherâs favour for years, but he absolutely despises him,â I shared with them, the open secret not really something that had to be kept hush even though no one normally said it out loud, âFather thinks heâs a right dunce.â
The boys grinned. âWell, heâs right about that. Iâve known the man for decades and he hasnât changed a single bit,â Jimin added his two cents, once again reminding me that I was speaking to nigh immortal beings that have been around for far longer than I was able to comprehend, âHeâs a snake. A rat.â I hummed and nodded again, the conversation dying down after that.
I looked through the room from my new vantage point, finally far enough to observe as no one really wanted to approach the corner with the two Bangtan dragons.
Unfortunately, it wasnât just about them being powerful and dangerous, but the emperorâs habit to control who rode them in fear of losing his power over them generally scared people away from interacting. Therefore, the only ones that were bonded to them were either recruited by the ruler himself or found themselves under his intense scrutiny. Because of that, riders tended to stray away from the Bangtan thunder, too afraid to bring unto themselves the sovereignâs ire.
My eyes were caught on a flash of black and silver, messy bun now somehow even more messed up as Hwa-young cheerfully conversed with another woman. The power was radiating off of her powerful stance and proud straight shoulders, dark charcoal hair falling freely over them and sometimes giving off dark green flashes when the light reflected off of them just right. Their stance was relaxed, and it seemed that their chat was going well and amicably.
âYour friend is conversing with Yong,â Jimin intercepted my shameless staring, and I realised both of the dragons were watching me raptly, âShe is a righteous dragoness. A good one, strong and brave, even though a little hard-headed.â Jungkook snickered at that, hiding his smile behind his hand as the dragoness threw the subtlest little amused look their way, and I realised she must have heard them all across the room with her enhanced senses.
âThe old ones always are,â the tattooed man added with a teasing lilt to his voice and both dragons watched giggling as the one called Yong discreetly flipped them off while pretending to dust off her shoulder. Hwa-young at this point seemed to catch on, I saw her confused face as she turned around and immediately brightened up the moment she noticed me, waving her hand enthusiastically. I returned it, just as amused as my companions.
âAre you not interested in âthe huntâ?â Jimin asked me suddenly, something bitter creeping into his expression as he signalled air quotes around the word. I gazed at him for a few quiet moments, taking in the abrupt tenseness in his posture.
âI was trying to observe and find someone easy to approach,â I answered truthfully, âbut then Lord Kim found me. I never got around to walking up to someone.â All three of us focused back onto the place swarming with people, the boys now amusing themselves by pointing out dragons that werenât talking to anyone and had âgood potentialâ.
âAre you trying to get rid of me right now?â I asked laughing, jumping into Jungkookâs long monologue about a young fire dragon standing alone in a corner few metres away from us. He halted in the middle of a word, giving me a cheeky glance and I already started recognising the mischievous glint in his smile.
âWell, I wouldnât want to keep you from finding your dragon,â he drawled out in a playful manner, looking like he was two seconds away from batting his eyelashes at me, âand since you didnât officially declare your intent to try a bond with us, I assume you must be wanting to be on your way to meet another one.â That took all the wind from my sails, the witty retort dying on my tongue as the dragons both looked at me with mischievous eyes.
âI honestly didnât know that was an option,â came out a little scratchy and quiet, immediately making my cheeks burst into flames as the two dragons regarded me with teasing eyes.
âWell, thereâs only one way to find out,â Jungkook proclaimed cheerily and stood up abruptly. Suddenly he was towering good two heads over me, his wide sturdy shoulders almost casting a shadow over my form. I gulped, seeing him now in his full glory, it suddenly made sense as to why people thought him to be intimidating. Even though he seemed to be a little goof.
Jungkook then did something that shocked not only me and Jimin, but also everyone standing around keeping an eye on the interaction â he offered me his hand, free of gloves that dragons always wore. Stunned speechless I eyed the outstretched appendage for a few tense moments, out of the corner of my eye noting Jiminâs mouth hanging open, face wearing an expression of such open surprise it was almost comical. There were some gasps and whisperings from behind us, Jungkookâs gaze ever so often jumping over my shoulder and levelling someone with a glare.
The reason for such reaction was a quite simple one â this plain action was the whole purpose of this banquet. Well, at least partly.
I for once wasnât expecting to get a handshake this easily, usually dragons guarded themselves and needed a lot more persuading before they even considered taking such a step with the potential riders, but here we were â Jungkookâs hand awkwardly hanging in the air between us as he grew exponentially more nervous with every second I didnât take it.
The easiest way to describe the link between a dragon and its rider would be to call it a magical bond, one very similar to that of mated pairs and thunders. Bonds like these linked the two beings together closer than most humans could imagine. It was very important to cultivate the bond and grow it strong, to intertwine the two hearts and support the care and trust that needed to exist between the two, otherwise even strong bonds could easily deteriorate or the connection wouldnât reach its full potential.
It also allowed the human part of the bond to benefit from the dragonâs magic (while vast majority of humans werenât magic, we were pretty compatible with it if borrowed) â it enhanced the riderâs senses and strength, established a mind link and enabled telepathic communication, which was sorely needed while on dragonback (believe it or not, it was hard to talk to someone while flying at high velocity sitting on their back).
And a bond like this, like any other, required a certain compatibility. Dragons, as the higher level magical beings of the two, were mostly the ones who felt the potential someone carried to successfully establish a bond, but the easiest way to find out was physical contact. Once you touched, the potential would most definitely be felt (according to what I heard, it felt a little like an electric hum passing through the place of contact) â or not, based on the situation.
Thatâs why they usually wore their hands covered, to avoid accidental connections and half-way there bonds.
A dragon could have several potential bondeds, it wasnât exclusive until one was chosen to take the next step, but once this compatibility was discovered, it was crucial to try and learn the person to aid in the process of decision making. It was slightly similar to the process of courting.
Due to these reasons, it was quite rare for a dragon to offer someone the opportunity to touch them â and find out whether they were potentially compatible.
This banquet, even though it was called the mating banquet (as the boys pointed out it should be more of a bonding banquet as mating happened exclusively between couples and thunders), this banquet was more of a getting to meet your options kind of deal. Rarely someone offered you their hand after only a few exchanged sentences.
Thus, the stunned silence stretched between the three of us and an expectant kind of hunger reflected in eyes of those around us. Had I been more in the headspace to take notice of my surroundings, Iâd have realised the hum of conversation somewhat lulled as people noted the situation and kept one eye on us while they pretended to keep the chatter up.
Jimin sat frozen in his chair, his face mortified, as if Jungkook committed some cardinal faux-pas (which he probably did to be honest, dragon etiquette was a little bit different than the human one), and I would almost take offence to it if I wasnât completely stupefied myself.
The cheeky dragon in question though seemed completely unperturbed, even as nervousness started tugging at his handsome smile, but he valiantly tried to withstand it, keeping the hand hanging and his face a picture of mischief.
And I found that I quite liked the total disregard of rules he presented.
Finally gathering my bearings, I felt my own face stretch into a sassy grin and without a moment more of hesitation I grabbed his hand and squeezed it firmly in a sure handshake. And the rumours were in fact true, though the extent was sorely understated â our energies merging in a single burst of raw potential felt like a shock of electricity running from the tips of my fingers all the way up to my shoulder, the aftershocks buzzing through me like I got hit by lightning.
I gasped, a little too loud, and instinctively went to rip my hand away from the grip, but Jungkook didnât let me. His eyes were trained on me, subtly glowing with a dark purple haze, grin turning a little sharper. But it didnât put me on edge, quite the opposite â it felt like I won something.
Then our hands let go and the spell was broken, the remnants of a shimmering haze setting into my mind and bones. I could still feel the phantom tingles in my fingers, and they flexed almost subconsciously, trying to chase away the foreign sensation.
âWow,â came a quiet breathless exclamation from Jimin, the smaller man still sitting in his place but now looking at our hands with wonder and disbelief, âthat was strong.â The flush immediately flooded my cheeks once more (truly, it was starting to be embarrassing, Iâd never been like this around anyone, though it could have something to do with the fact that I generally liked dragons a little more than I did humans) and I took a tiny step back, fighting my lungs to expand and take in more breath, my whole body feeling like I had to manually haul it back into working order.
Though one look at my now potential bonded showed me that he was similarly blushing, cheeks a healthy pink colour, lips pursed in a shy smile and eyes watching me full of emotion that was entirely too fragile and tender.
Before I could blurt out something that could potentially either embarrass or straight hurt the man, Jimin immediately jumped in, probably sensing his mateâs emotional state.
âSorry about that,â he told me, gently looking over his lover, âBonds of this strength can sometimes put us into a strange mindset. Heâll be back to himself in a few moments.â The silvery dragonâs mouth opened and closed a few times, the man deliberating whether he should speak more or not, but ultimately he only gave me a tight smile and started manhandling Jungkook back into the chair.
I felt that there was something crucial that wasnât shared to me, but if Jimin thought it too personal to say, I didnât want to push him. I myself still felt the little bursts of our energies merging, the aura around my hand suddenly feeling cold and empty, as if it was missing a significant piece.
Leave it to me to be the one person that even has a clingy aura. I glared at the offending appendage as if scolding it, quickly folding both my arms behind my back and trying to make is as natural as possible. Even my hair felt singed with the potential bond manifesting, and I swore I could smell something burnt, only hoping it either wasnât something visible or my mind was just playing tricks on me.
âIâve never felt anything like that before,â a hushed whisper made it to me and I was torn away from my own musings, attention now back to the two men who seemed to be locked in a very private exchange, both leaned towards each other and whispering so that nothing but a hum could be heard.
Realising the words werenât meant for me, I cleared my throat and took another step back, the singed hand quickly thrown in the direction of the buffet table in a last hail mary attempt to find an appropriate escape. âI am going toâŚâ I started, voice still a little breathless, âI want something to drink, would you also like something?â
I could see on Jiminâs face before he even opened his mouth to speak that he was going to decline, but Jungkook quickly jumped in, his volume rising a little more than he was anticipating.
âIâll have water!â the horned dragon seemed a little embarrassed by the outburst too, but when Jimin stared at him incredulously he seemed quite unapologetic. I nodded slowly, taking another step, then nodded again like the words just registered in my mind.
âSure.â With that I woodenly walked over to the main table that dominated the Grand Hall.
I felt the looks, some curious, some envious and some outright raging, but I ignored them all. This, for now, still meant nothing. Even though the power of it shocked us both (all three if counted Jimin), it meant nothing. I was still one of many that could vie for the young dragonâs attention.
The thought left a bad aftertaste in my mouth, a strange uncomfortable feeling setting in my stomach at the prospect of someone else trying to be Jungkookâs bonded, and I quickly pushed those feelings away, grumbling to myself.
I thought I knew what to expect, but no one told me a bond felt like this. No one warned me it would mess with my head and with my mind, send my heart racing when I faced the image of losing the chance to bring this to a successful end. I only knew the man for barely an hour, for fuckâs sake! He didnât even express an intention to pursue this!
I slowly begun to understand why it was generally more accepted to wait to know the person a little bit more, if this was how the link manifested.
Giving myself a metaphorical slap I swiftly wrangled the reigns safely back into my logical sideâs hands and fully focused on finding a cup and water.
I more felt than saw a presence at my right, someone sidling up to me closer than necessary with how much space this table took up. Still a little emotionally charged, when I turned to confront this person, I was already irritated.
What greeted me was a sleazy smile on a middle-aged face, a greying stubble and a mop of dark slowly silvering hair. The man was human, that much was obvious, and there was a woman with a judgemental look on her face hanging off of his arm, most probably his wife. I gave them both a once-over, trying to take in as many details as possible to clue me in to the manâs identity, but he would no doubt introduce himself.
My eyes promptly caught on an insignia with a burning rising sun, meaning he was one of the councilmen â he must have been very well acquainted with my family, though his name continued to escape me. I sighed, shoulders slumping and then I forced on a polite smile.
âTo what do I owe the pleasure?â despite the words, my voice didnât speak of pleasure nor joy, instead the annoyance bled in quite heavily, almost to a point of being rude. The duo didnât seem phased, the manâs smile maybe even brightening at my words and the womanâs face still in the same grimace as before.
âI donât think weâve been formally introduced yet,â he started immediately, ignoring my words and tone completely, âPlease, call me Lord Lee.â He offered me his hand and I had a very brief but a very intense flashback to Jungkookâs, before I shook it off and very reluctantly took it.
âAre you perhaps the Duke of Western territories?â I enquired, forcing my attention back to the table to show him I wasnât interested in him and his words, trying to sound as bored as possible.
A chuckle came from him, the woman still completely silent, before he shuffled even closer.
âThe one and only,â there was a showman lilt to his intonation, and I felt a wave of distaste towards this man so strong I almost visibly shuddered. He thought he was so charismatic, the poor sod. I only hummed, hands now moving onto one of the few untouched platters of small desserts and quickly plating some.
A moment of silence, then more shuffling â this time thankfully not closer to me as that would entail him brushing my side, though I wasnât entirely sure he wouldnât do that even in the middle of a room full of armed knights.
âI just felt that congratulations were in order,â he said finally, a lot more bite to his words now that Iâve managed to offend him, âWe all saw you with that dragon.â My hands paused minutely before resuming their actions. The disrespectful address to Jungkook didnât escape me neither.
âI donât know what youâre talking about, Lord Lee,â I answered sweetly, âIt was just an introduction. It can still go in a very different direction. Nothing is set in stone. Yet.â
It seemed that the man didnât come over to suck my fatherâs dick as my sass was very much not appreciated by him and I could see his face turn into an unfriendly scowl.
âWell, of course that the Kang family cannot disappoint by not aiming straight at Bangtan,â the hostility in his stance suddenly doubled as he spit this out, forcing me to take a step back from the unfiltered fury, âOnly the best for the generalâs daughter.â He was mocking me, but the anger made it hard to decipher it as anything else than pure envy.
I tried to keep my face neutral, even as my own anger and resentment resurfaced. Father made many enemies, and thanks to his attitude we as his children often caught the brunt of resentful disgruntled councilmen and their offspring trying to cope with their bruised egos by punishing us instead of the untouchable man.
And we were expected to just go with it, lest our behaviour reflects badly on him.
I stared at the duke for a moment longer, trying to look as unimpressed as humanly possible, until the fire died down within him a little and he started shuffling on his spot. âLord Lee,â I started, channelling the disappointed teacher energy that my father often had whenever we displeased him, âas I said, and you should know this, anyone can come up to them and strike up a connection. I might not be the only person this year compatible to them.â
The man pursed his lips and didnât speak any further, though the unspoken rebuttal hung in the air between us. And I knew that the words stuck in his throat were true, but he couldnât say them for they were too daring.
Anyone couldnât, I did because the emperor approved of my father. I would be allowed near Bangtan thanks to my fatherâs position.
I raised my eyebrow at the suddenly silent man, challenging him to speak his mind, but he knew if he said those words, it would be speaking out against the crown just as much as against my father. And that could cost him his life.
âLetâs hope the most suitable person wins this race, then,â he settled on finally, and without even looking for my reaction he turned on his heel and walked away, dragging the still quiet woman with him. I scoffed loudly, not bothering to hide it as everyone saw our interaction anyway, and finally was able to leave the table.
People moved out of my way cautiously as I walked through the room, trying to pretend that they werenât paying attention to me and still making sure to clear the spot as soon as I neared them like I had some terrible contagious disease. It was quite ridiculous, and it left a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach.
My feet carried me across the room without any clear goal in my mind, not quite ready to return to the two dragons, especially since everyone saw the scene now. Them two no doubt also heard it with their strong hearing, and it would be too awkward to speak to them now.
The moment I spotted a slender figure talking to a green-haired dragon, I immediately swerved to go talk to them for a moment, hoping to escape the situation for a moment longer.
Somewhat clumsily crashing into their conversation, balancing two glasses and a plate of sweets, that most definitely got their attention, Hwa-young turning to grin at me while the dragoness kept her face a carefully sculpted mask of aloof interest.
âCake?â I blurted out abruptly, raising the plate between us like an offering, instantly feeling the heat in my cheeks in embarrassment.
âOh my god, please,â my schoolmate groaned in joy, hand already reaching for one of the small chocolate treats. The dragoness, Yong as I learnt, was watching us, face impassive, but I could see a glint of something soft in her eyes when her gaze fell onto the cheerful petite woman currently stuffing her face next to us.
Even though I met Hwa-young maybe an hour ago, I was glad Yong seemed to be interested in the young womanâs well-being.
But then her eyes suddenly jumped back to me, boring deep into my soul.
âBangtan are honourable dragons,â she said finally, her voice a little lower than I anticipated, but smooth as velvet, âThey strive for good, maybe more than most.â Her words brought a little smile to my face, reminiscent of the earlier conversation that went basically along the same lines.
My eyes flitted over to the corner where the two men sat hoping to catch their reaction to her words, only to find it empty and the dragons nowhere to be found. I frowned instinctively, hands tightening over the glass of water that Jungkook asked for with heart squeezing, but quickly tampered those thoughts down.
The connection must have been really messing with my head.
I ended up trailing after Hwa-young and her dragoness after that, like a lost puppy, until the greying man stood up once more and announced it was time to move outside. With a deep heaving sigh I abandoned the glass and plates and steeled myself for the true pinnacle of the afternoon.
Hwa-young, once she noticed my uneasiness, gave me an empathetic smile, hand patting me a few times on my shoulder, before she confidently walked up to the glass door and out to the patio, followed by Yong with her curious eyes trained on the knightess.
While the first part of the banquet was mostly for introductions and fraternising, the second part moved outside â thatâs why the perfect weather was needed for the day of the event and the court seers and astronomers worked hard to pick an auspicious date to ensure that.
Now the attention from the dragons, a novelty to some and a delicious masquerade to others, the spotlight would shift purely on the novices as we were to partake in several âfriendlyâ competitions to show off our skills.
It was all also a part of the bond creating process, as the show was mostly for the dragons to see their prospective riders and help them choose whoâd they like to approach â basically a talent show under the guise of some silly little sportsmanship.
It was also the part I was, surprisingly, even more nervous about than the talking.
When I got outside, most people were already sitting around on the prepared benches, leisurely chatting with the poise only the bored and the filthy rich could have. Five people were already standing in the designated area, fiddling with bows and quivers full of arrows. Quickly, I made my way towards Hwa-young, grabbing my own weapons on the way.
So there was six of us this year. I tried to steal glances at the others to see if maybe I recognised someone, but all of their faces were escaping me. I might have seen them somewhere, but I couldnât put any names to them, nor their factions or alliances or families.
One man stood all the way in the other corner by himself, air of pompousness and arrogance so thick around him I could sense it all across the field. It bled into every single one of his movements, into the expression on his pale elegant face, even into the way he flicked his long straight black hair out of his face.
Two others stood a little away from him, closer to each other but not interacting in any way. Their faces were carefully sculpted cold expressionless masks as they held the bows in their hands ready for the contest, not talking, not looking out into crowd, nothing.
The last man stood the closest to us, all by himself but with his shoulders relaxed and a positive aura surrounding him. His hands were casually drumming a rhythm into the wood of the bow, foot tapping happily into the dense dirt compacted by thousands upon thousands of armoured shoes walking over it every day. When he noticed me looking his way, he suddenly brightened and gave me a happy smile.
That was enough to shock me into turning back to my own bow and I ignored the cheery man, not that he seemed very offended by that. Instead he immediately changed targets to Hwa-young standing next to me and the two fell into a hushed conversation after a few smiles exchanged.
The bow in my hand was worn, it wouldnât be impossible to use it, but it was obvious they were some old weapons taken from some forgotten unloved storage. The royal palace insisted that we would use the militaryâs tools to ensure fairness, but I truly wasnât expecting them to pull out bows that were probably older than half the men standing around the edges of the training area. And there were dragons present.
Speaking of which, on my next cursory look over the gathered crowd I was able to spot the two Bangtan boys (men?) standing on one side a little bit away from everyone else, eyes already trained on me.
In a split second I noticed and realised three things â Jiminâs hair was actually a really deep dark blue, he was looking at me with a much unfriendlier look than before and Jungkook sent me a shit-eating grin before waving cheekily. I scoffed, kind of amused by his attitude, but also significantly weirded out by the change in vibe in his companion.
While yes, it was very unusual to be dishing out handshakes left right front and centre, but I just kind of assumed Jungkook was one of those who didnât really care about propriety all too much. He had a vibe of a man that loved to see the world burn, and I had to deeply respect that. His whole aura screamed of youth and mischief, so I chalked up his unusual behaviour up to that. But it seemed that Jimin wasnât exactly impressed with him, as he eyed me with mistrust like I brainwashed his mate into bonding with me.
Loud clinking brought my attention away from those two and my eyes slowly drifted back to the greying man and who I presumed was his dragoness. That was another mystery to me â it was obvious he was in some sort of position of power, but Iâve never met him nor seen him before â I knew he wasnât in charge of the unit, and he wasnât even between the teachers that we met during the trials â and I went through them a few times, as we previously established.
He stood up, the same detached expression on his face, and cleared his throat. âLet the games begin,â he proclaimed simply, âWe will start with a shooting competition.â Then he shuffled a little under all that attention before sitting back down. I hid my smile behind my palm while watching his bonded laugh at him. You had to love the way he didnât want to be here as much as everyone else.
The mirth quickly drained out of me though when I realised with our positioning I would end up going first. I cursed under my breath, my hands growing clammy and shaking, desperately gripping the bow and attempting to look as collected as possible. If we at least started with sword fighting, but we had to jump straight into shooting.
This was exactly what I was afraid of, the mounting shame of what was about to come already drowning me and pulling me under the sea of emotions, leaving me helplessly gasping for air. My lungs painfully constricted, but I got into position nonetheless.
There was a reason for why I struggled to enter this unit in particular, even when I was hell-bent on joining the horns. Growing up with a general for a father, I had been trained from small age â I knew how to properly hold a sword before I learned to use the toilet on my own, but my father was a master of heavy weaponry. He was known for his massive bagua-dao swords, occasionally reaching for scimitars or sabres â not too much for his marksmanship. He was still an incredibly efficient archer, but he preferred not to be stuck with a bow and arrows where there could be blood spilt.
Therefore I somewhat gravitated towards those weapons as well â and well, I wasnât as sufficient with long-range attacks. Iâd always achieve a âjust close enoughâ, but I rarely hit the mark precisely. But on dragonback, you had no choice but to aid your troops with ranged attacks.
As one of the trainers back during my first trial put it â âA dragon rider that canât shoot a bow and arrow is like a whore without a pussyâ. Truly, what a charming man.
Iâd improved a lot, enough to manage to weasel my way into the elite unit, but still my shooting wasnât perfect. And when you wore a name like Kang, that was a social suicide.
My ears all out of nowhere picked up how the crowd quieted, through the roaring blood and the anxious thoughts, and I realised they all hungrily anticipated my performance. Taking a few stabilising breaths, I tried to reinforce my hands and stop their shaking.
Through the bundle of nerves lodged into my throat and the stones slowly setting into my stomach, I fought to empty myself â my heart, my head â to bring about that one-track focus to the centre of the target that stood off to the distance.
Time slowed down, my heart pumped wildly and my head spun and I let go. The arrow elegantly swished through the air, faster than many were able to see, and embedded itself deep into the straw target, just shy of the red circle dominating it.
Even anticipating those results, my heart still sank knowing that everyone saw. Murmurs rose and the pit of humiliation threatened to swallow me. I hated how I was already berating myself for not doing better, how I was already fearing what would my father say once I got home, how I was too scared to turn around and face their mocking eyes and sneers.
I hated the castle, and I knew that I was on the precipice of getting devoured whole by it.
With shaky sweaty hands I stood there and watched all the other novices hit perfect mark, the waves of polite ovations reaching my ears through the cotton of my inner turmoil.
The second round came, all the eyes turned to me again, and I knew the moment I released the bowstring that the nerves won over me, barrelled through my psyche and I was lost to the chant of insecurities going through my head.
The arrow hit a little to the left of the first one, a tiny bit further from the centre than before.
The weight on my shoulders was pulling them down and I was tenser, more uncomfortable, but I kept my composure. It was crucial that I showed no weakness now, that would be inviting even more trouble. I felt bile rising through my pharynx but swallowed it down and instead forced myself to stand tall with head held high.
I didnât gather the courage to turn around until the last arrow was released.
I let myself be ushered towards a different area prepared for us while the target practice was moved around and prepared for the final spectacle of the afternoon. In the meanwhile, we were to fight with swords. That was more of a stable ground for me.
Perfectly there was just the right amount of us to compete in twos and I was already hoping that I wouldnât end up with the snotty kid from the end of the line lest I might try to kill him for sure. Trying to avoid any polite chatter between us and also pointedly not look towards the crowd, I started perusing the weapons offered, thinking of what the best strategy would be to take.
A shortsword was a classic, but nothing too impressive. A longsword a similar case. Though if I had to choose, Iâd preferred the two-handed longsword, I had a tendency to get a little too swingy with one-handed weapons. There was a scimitar, which was a solid option even though more suited for horseback â but once again, Iâd prefer two-handed weapons.
All the way at the end of the prepared rack (it didnât escape my attention there was only one for all of us) sat a dadao and bagua-dao right next to each other, glinting in the sun like cruel smiles. As far as I was aware, no one here would actually reach for those â they werenât standard weapons people were taught to operate.
They were there for me. For family legacy.
That was enough for me to make my choice.
While the others just made it over to the rack and started paying it more attention, I grabbed the plain longsword and moved towards the area fenced off for a duel. I sensed the confused, surprised and mocking gazes rolling off of my back, but I didnât let their disappointment muddle my already arguably shitty day any more.
I wasnât here to give them a show. I was here to bond with a dragon.
When everyone had chosen their weapons (I was right, no one went for the dao swords), we all stood there for a moment, too nervous to actually say anything. The arrogant prick was acting like we were all beneath him, but the rest of us eyed the others apprehensively, trying to gauge with who weâd like to end up in a duel.
The puppy boy was now hanging about Hwa-young, the two of them seemed to make fast friends, and honestly, I understood that. I was also drawn into her aura quite quickly, though my current stress prevented me from relaxing around anyone at the moment.
Taking notice of the weapons others chose, I started realising that something didnât add up. There was only one of each, and it would be impossible to have a proper duel if one person has a longsword and the other a scimitar. It wasnât that unusual for the battlefield, but in duelling it wasnât done.
Looking around, there was another rack of weapons on the other side of the fenced area â where we wouldnât be able to go at the moment due to the fences. It all started clicking in my mind just as Lord Kim of all people stepped up on a little platform and gestured to get the attention of the slowly quieting crowd.
âAs was tradition for the second discipline,â he started pompously, chest puffed up and face painted with a sleazy smile, âthe novices would duel each other. This year we chose to make a little change for the entertainment of those watching.â I could see a few of us looking confused or slightly uncomfortable, and my own heart tightened for a moment.
Lord Kim gestured somewhere behind him and six people walked up to the rack of weapons on the other side. Three men and three women, all looking coldly towards the baron, standing side by side and anxiously awaiting the order to grab their weapons. It wasnât that hard to deduce they were all dragons.
Silence fell over us while the crowd clapped happily, the vile joy reflected in their gazes, while we exchanged worried glances. Hwa-youngâs face was drawn into a tight serious expression, a stark difference to how she was just a few minutes ago, while the guy by her side shuffled from foot to foot wordlessly.
The only one that didnât seem to be bothered by the revelation was the smug bastard who stood a little away from us, serenely holding a sabre in his hand and looking straight at a man with flaming red spiky hair, who steadily ignored his attention.
How curious.
I watched as Kim gave the order with a flick of his wrist and the selected six moved with a purpose straight to their chosen weapons. The redhead without hesitation reached for the sabre, eyes glued to the ground and trying to blend in as much as possible, not stand out at all.
I felt a simmer of rage bubble up inside my chest and turned to stare daggers at the newbie only to see that he was already looking at me with a stupid smirk on his face.
So he already knew. He must have been close to someone high up in the unit then â that would make things difficult.
Swearing to myself to find out who was his patron, I made my distaste known on my face all for him to see and then turned back to our chosen opponents, searching for the one with a longsword. Eyes jumping from one to other, I finally found the weapon in the hands of a tall dragoness, her curly ginger hair falling down her back all the way to her tailbone. She as well was already watching me, but her eyes were unreadable, her lips a thin straight line.
The baronâs chuckle had our tense eyes drawing back to him. He stood there, with an awful sharp grin on his face, arms thrown out in a grand gesture, gaze jumping around our faces.
âWell, let the second discipline begin,â Lord Kim announced, âHappy fighting!â He laughed loudly, gestures dramatic and over the top, and then leisurely made his way back to sit next to⌠Duke Lee. What was it⌠birds of a feather?
I scoffed at the two men sitting there and acting like old chaps, all chummy and cozy next to each other. Baron Kim was really getting better at dick sucking, look at him, making his way all the way to the duke. Talent had to be recognised.
âYoung mistress Kang!â the exclamation of my name startled me into stumbling to turn around, suddenly aware that everyone was looking at me. The dragoness was standing in the middle of the fighting arena, sword hanging from her hands limply. There was a touch of annoyance displayed on her face, but it was obvious she was trying to tamper it down as to not get into trouble.
I flushed lightly but diligently moved into the arena without any more stalling. Of course Iâd go first again, we were probably going to keep the order from the first discipline. My nerves were skyrocketing, and I held the sword in my clammy hands.
Fighting in a duel against a same-aged human wasnât something that brought too much stress to me, it was actually the one discipline of the three I was very confident in and looked forward to. General Kang never went easy on anyone, including his small children even during the first years of our training and I knew I could probably take on half the people from the military and be fine.
Duelling against a centuries old dragon with so much more strength and sharper senses though, that was a completely different story. Defeating a dragon, even in a sword fight, was virtually impossible. It took a lot of training, mostly with specific dragons, and most people resorted to underhanded tactics to gain an upper hand.
So the desired effect of this duel was most likely to present well with tactics, endurance and skill, not to actually aim to win. It was hard entering a ring knowing you will lose the fight, hard to muster up the courage to the absolute most to win when you know itâs a done deal from before you even stepped in, but this, like many other things, was mostly about appearances.
With a sigh I took my position and gestured to my opponent that I was ready. She did the same immediately and in a second a whistle sounded through the air, letting us know the match had started.
Nobody made a move at first, both of us holding our stance and slowly circling the arena, gauging the other and calculating the best approach.
I admittedly wasnât the type to jump in headfirst into offensive, it usually took me a while to attack. Sometimes it was to psych the other out, sometimes I just wanted to see what they would do first and adapt to their strategy accordingly. But she seemed to be doing the same thing, so for a few long moments silence enveloped the crowd as they watched us with bated breaths.
I held the sword in a front guard, tip pointing right at her neck, and I just had a split second to register the tightening of her hands on the grip before she was suddenly lunging forward with a straight strike, aiming for my abdomen.
The habit kicked in and I cockstepped to the side, sword immediately flying in a circle guard to parry her attack before I retreated again. There was determination in her face, and she didnât seem to be terribly appalled by my stance, so I counted that as a win.
This went on for a long while, one of us suddenly lunging forward in an attack to surprise the other, then parry, counter-attack and then retreat, circling around the edges of the arena. I couldnât hear anything from outside those fences, I had no idea if people were entertained or not, if they watched or not, if they even said anything at all. All my attention was poured into the form of my opponent, watching her every single move.
Longsword was about agility, being quick on your feet and keeping your contender appropriately far to be able to land a hit but not close enough for them to land it back, and I used my small stature and quickness to my advantage a lot when fighting, but even though I was able to stand my ground, I felt the disparity in our strengths.
She was taking it easy on me, I was aware of that. I knew that I wouldnât be able to parry that easily against a blow with full dragon power behind it, and while she was able to keep her composure, I already felt my body faltering. There was sweat streaming down my face, I felt it soaking through the uniform and making my grip sloppy. My legs were starting to get tired, and I stumbled a few times while side-stepping away from her attacks.
Her movements stayed effortless and fluid, her sword steady and sharp. I started to slip up.
As our patience ran out, the number of attacks increased and finally we were giving the audience what it wanted â an offensive after an offensive, barely giving the other time to counter. She must have tested my strength, because suddenly her blows became much more heavy-handed â she aimed to end this match soon.
She almost overpowered me with a diagonal cut, and my ankle twisted as I turned. Pain burst through me, face turning into a grimace. Her face reflected sure victory, sword already aiming for abdominal horizontal cut.
Last minute I turned my sword into downward guard, turned around it and swung for her right side. There was a split second of surprise on her features, the edge just a hair away from her clothes when she managed to jump away, and I gambled.
Turning my legs into a stable stance I lunged forward, ignoring the throbbing in my ankle. The dull tip aimed straight at the side of her lower abdomen, sword flying through the air. The element of surprise did a lot for me, but she managed to evade.
I cursed, sweat slipping into my eyes and making it hard to see. I didnât even have the moment to wipe it away. The dragoness disappeared from my field of vision, and I fought my own body to turn quickly, but it wasnât enough.
When I turned, sword already in position to take upwards diagonal cut at her, there was a tip aimed at my neck. I felt it prick the skin when I stumbled with the momentum, eyes trained on her hands on the handle.
Everything froze for a few seconds, few long seconds during which I only heard my own heaving breath and the roaring hum of blood in my veins. The heat started catching up with me and I shivered under the sudden wave of hotness over my whole body.
Then a thunder of clapping broke through the trance, and I looked up to see her eyes. They werenât as cold anymore, but I wouldnât dare to guess what she was feeling. She gave me a curt nod and stepped away, swiftly lowering her sword. Almost involuntarily I let go of my own and my glove went with it, hands too wet to stick to them.
I was still trying to catch my breath, the heavy intakes jerking my whole body and all I wished to do was to tear this stupid uniform off and jump into a cold creek, but I was suddenly grabbed by Lord Kim who materialised on stage and dragged me closer to the expectant crowd.
On instinct I started bowing, dragoness in tow even though there wasnât even an ounce of the usual winnerâs joy in her being, and then we were both sent away.
I stumbled over to our side again, wondering if I could maybe be suffering from heatstroke, when two small but very strong hands pulled me into a hug. Hwa-young squealed right into my ear, but I was too sluggish to actually recoil from the sound.
Before I even fully clocked in the situation, she was already pulling away with a huge grin, hand now patting me on the shoulder.
âThat was amazing!â she exclaimed, visibly vibrating in excitement, âIt felt like nobody was breathing for the entire time you two fought, the tension was insane!â A single syllable laugh fell out of my tired mouth, a somewhat slanted smile pulling at my lips, before I gestured back inside.
âI need water,â was all that came out of me, very eloquently might I add, and then I steered my shaky knees in the right direction and walked off. With every step I retained a little bit of my previous strength, my body finally acclimatising and slowly pumping the brakes on the excitement and pain.
As I was stepping in, the strangely happy guy from before was just stepping into the ring with his shortsword firmly clutched in his hands and a face full of determination.
Thankfully, no one bothered me while I was inside replenishing my strength, and I re-emerged a few minutes later in a much better shape. The fact that there was one more discipline left already drained me in advance. If I could at least take one layer off, that would make it much better, but it would be improper.
I must have been inside for longer than I thought, because it seemed that two matches have happened in the meantime, with the third now already in motion. The only ones still waiting for theirs was Hwa-young and the peacock with a sabre, both standing next to each other but ostentatiously ignoring the other.
Sitting down in the shade, I watched on. During Hwa-youngâs turn I appreciated her form a lot. She was a great fighter, and it was obvious she put her absolute best into the match. Her opponent seemed to be a measured laid-back fighter, and he balanced her energetic offensive very well. When she lost, it was after a good fight and she went down honourably. The dragon even accepted her offered handshake (gloves on, of course, to prevent any skin-to-skin contact and accidentally establish a potential bond) and then they both moved to their respective sides.
The last man stepped in, flaming red hair reflecting the sun and making him almost shine in the middle of the summer garden. Peacock walked up to him and immediately took his stance. Once the whistle was blowed, he flew into an attack within split second, and the match from then on was a wild mess of heavy offensive.
While the dragon seemed to be surprised, like the others he didnât have much trouble standing his ground and matched the energy given well. As much as I disliked people who valued offensive over anything and expected to win fights just by endlessly swinging their swords around without rhyme or reason, the display of power between the two fighters was quite fascinating to watch.
Their forms were beautiful, and their sabres met with loud clinks, almost hard enough to see sparks flying about. It was a wild flurry of movement, of red and silver flashes and fast footwork that would be hard on even experienced knights.
And that was exactly what got him in the end. The peacock was extremely confident in the first few minutes of the match, but as it dragged on, the dragon refusing to concede and dealing back just as much power, the toll it was taking on the human to keep up started to be visible.
I watched his legs increasingly more stumble and react slower to the attacks and for a brief moment I wondered whether I looked the same when I started losing the fight.
But then he suddenly threw himself at the redhead, sword pushing his to the side and body slamming into him full force. There were a few gasps around in the audience as confusion set in. Aside the fact that this was a sword duel, he definitely couldnât win against him in a fistfight. And once they got this close, the dragon could really knock him out with a single blow. It was pure insanity.
And I could see the redheaded man preparing to do just that, hand dropping his sabre and body twisting in preparation to take a full swing, when the bastard shot his hand out and grasped around the dragonâs neck.
I was on my feet faster than I could comprehend doing that, dread making my heart stop beating and my stomach to drop all the way down to the ground. His hand was bare, he must have shucked the glove off somewhere during the lunge.
The poor dragon froze under the touch, body going into panic. He tried to twist out of his grasp, and I saw the hand visibly squeeze the flesh tattooed with shackles.
âKneel!â the humanâs booming voice carried over the shocked crowd without a problem, loud enough to even scare off some birds off of the nearby trees.
The redhead locked into place, eyes glazing over and shame seeping out of the very pores of his skin. Then he slowly kneeled, mechanically like he was fighting against his body every step of the way. Once he was on the ground his head hung low, whether it be in humiliation or obedience, and it was a terrible heart-wrenching sight.
The boy let go and then victoriously turned to the audience, smug grin wide on his face, leaving the dragon sitting in the dirt. Then there was an abrupt wave of cheering and clapping, a thunderous sound that swept through the whole garden and Lord Kim was running towards the arena, screaming praises for the only one of us who managed to defeat their dragon.
Shock, disgust and dread kept me frozen in my place, heart squeezing painfully in my chest and lungs constricted. I felt like I was going to be sick, like all that was going to come out of me would be black poisonous sludge from the display we bore witness to.
I couldnât tear my eyes away from the lone being shamefully kneeled there, unable to stand up until another command came. A wave of emotions swept through me â rage, compassion, pain â and tears almost sprung into my eyes, but I quickly blinked them away.
When my eyes swept through the crowd, there wasnât enough horror in people for this to have taken place. Most were sitting around, pleased and happy and talking about the champion. The dragons looked uncomfortable, eyes avoidant and their postures tense. Hard and frozen.
I saw Hwa-young, her face serious and troubled, lips a thin line as she stared at the man who was happily conversing with a bunch of good-for-nothing lords.
It was hard to compute he did something like that. And even harder to compute that it was allowed, in a friendly duel, against a dragon that wasnât even his bonded.
Even though people liked to pretend that dragons were here all on the accord of their own free will, pretend like they werenât forced and enslaved, pretend like they wouldnât get punished if they didnât go along with their whims, the shackles still remained a stark reminder of their status.
And while the only person who could directly command them was the emperor, or the dragonâs bonded, anyone could really force the dragon into obedience by grabbing their neck. The shackle was a âmark of magicâ (among others) â it showcased the place where the dragon was touched with a curse.
And this curse forced them into obedience to humankind. They couldnât fight against a human and wish him serious harm, they couldnât go against the emperor or anyone in the position of power, and they couldnât not obey direct commands coming to them. The magic in their blood enforced their behaviour and there was nothing they could do about it.
So if you wanted to command a dragon and have him be coerced into listening to you, all you had to do was grab their neck where their shackle was, thus activating the curse.
That redhead wouldnât be able to stand up until he was similarly commanded to do so, because he couldnât break the order to kneel. It was absolutely disgusting and barbaric.
The conversation really seemed to have moved on, no one paying attention to him. Peacock left with Lord Kim, along with some other novices. Hwa-young and puppy boy stood frozen by the fence for a moment before they guiltily avoided their eyes and moved towards the fray of festivities too. Not that I could blame them.
I didnât know anything about his background, but Hwa-young certainly couldnât make a scene about a dragon given the precarious situation she was in.
At least one thing my stupid fucking surname was good for. Sometimes I could get away with being untouchable (sans the consequences my father would give when I got home, but that was a private affair â what they donât know⌠canât hurt me).
Not being able to take it anymore, I steeled myself and made my way towards the arena displaying much more confidence than I actually felt. Presentation was key, I endlessly told myself, in a voice that suspiciously sounded like my father. Subtly checking my surroundings, it seemed that no one was really paying attention to me yet. Which was good, but it would change quickly.
When I got to him, his shoulders were slumped, head still down and refusing to look up. The dragon probably assumed Iâd come to mock him, and it broke my heart a little. Once more looking around to make sure nobody cared what I was doing, I kneeled in front him too.
I heard his little gasp of surprise, but he didnât move in the slightest.
People considered it to be humiliating to kneel in front of a slave, which is why he probably didnât see often people drop down to his level instead of commanding him to look up. I cleared my throat somewhat awkwardly.
âPardon the intrusion,â I mumbled softly, making sure he was the only one who heard me, âDonât panic, Iâm going to touch your neck in a moment, okay?â For a few silent moments I waited for him to nod, and he finally realised that as well when no touch came after my words.
After his confirmation I brough my hand to his shackle gently, trying to be as unintrusive as possible, but no matter how much I tried this would always be a violation of them. I felt the magic come alive under my fingertips, thrumming violently through my blood. It was an ugly kind of magic and it made me sick when it filled my being with its aura.
Swallowing the noise of protest at the sensation, I didnât want to stress him more, I quickly said: âYou can stand, and youâre free of commands.â I saw his shoulders relaxing, and he shivered lightly. I quickly tore my hand away from his skin and stood up again, knees protesting at the swift movement.
I offered him my hand, but he ignored it as he himself stood up. His knees must have been in even worse shape after sitting on the rough ground like that, but he carried himself gracefully, shame persistently seeping in at the edges. When our eyes met, he curtly nodded my way and then swiftly walked off, leaving the gathering behind him.
I couldnât blame him.
A good half an hour went by before I heard Lord Kimâs voice exclaim: âOh no! Where did our dragon disappear to?â By then I had already moved closer to the shooting range and watched servants bring out and prepare the six horses that would be involved in the next discipline.
There were some general gasps, people looking around with disappointment painting their faces, but no one spoke out against me. No one looked at me, or even cared that I still sat by the side, leading me to assume that my actions havenât been noticed, thankfully.
As the commotion slowly quietened, I willed my heart to calm down, body sagging lightly against the stone bench.
While I was looking forward to the last discipline, horseback shooting at moving targets, the atmosphere hung heavy over us after the last match, and it was hard to have any enjoyment from anything taking place. Peacock of course was in great spirits and the two expressionless guys that havenât said a single word as far as I was concerned didnât seem to care at all, but we the remaining three all showed different signs of uneasiness, the good mood sapped out of us in the blink of an eye.
We stood in a hushed group, still processing everything, while the others were already claiming horses and preparing their bows.
âI was kind of expecting it and it still caught me off guard that heâd just⌠go there,â finally Hwa-young broke the silence, looking at me solemnly. I gave her a confused look, tilting my head slightly.
âWhat do you mean âexpecting itâ?â the question fell out my lips and it drew the attention of the boy.
âThe blond one tried to reach for the neck, but got quickly overpowered,â he jumped in to explain, âI thought it was more like a tactic to scare her or psych her out, at the moment it didnât look like heâd really go for it.â His gaze was pointing to one of those silent two, a tall blond with cold blue eyes.
âOh!â he suddenly exclaimed, hand flying to me in an offered handshake, âI forgot to introduce myself! Iâm Choi Siwoo, of the southeast clan.â I only hesitated for a split second before I took it, attempting a small smile even with my heart still heavy.
I was kind of already beginning to like Hwa, her story and attitude made me trust in her good side a little more, and this guy seemed to be just a ball of sunshine. She evidently got along with him and for the moment Iâve decided to tentatively trust her judgement.
God knows Iâd need as many allies on my side as possible and I trusted that Hwa-young of all people wouldnât have a problem with me based on my clan. Plus both of them most probably had the same opinion as me about the violating display peacock put on.
It was quite sad, but once you found people who actually believed dragons to be real beings with real rights, youâd better hand onto them and not let them go. I myself was painfully aware of how meagre the numbers of those were.
Siwooâs face brightened with a toothy grin, hand briefly squeezing mine before he pulled back. There was a little bit of relief on his face and I wondered whether he was worried Iâd reject his friendship offer. He and Hwa exchanged a short happy look, she nodded a little, and then turned to beam at me. A little snicker escaped my lips at their shenanigans, but I didnât stick around to see their faces split with wide smiles.
Instead I finally started making my way towards one of the still available horses, choosing a white one with black and brown spots, absentmindedly picking up the bow and quiver with arrows. Once we were all on horseback and ready, Lord Kim once again climbed up to a little platform and with a few pompous words blew the whistle.
I was miles away in my mind, just going with the flow of the horseâs movement. Iâve always loved horses since little, and anytime I found myself on one I usually relaxed very quickly, which combined with my troubled heart and mind had me escaping away from this awful little banquet, my mind carrying me to the green pastures and meadows of our fief.
Thus I ended up missing my first shot, just breezing past the target without even pulling out my bow. A quick shout of my name later I was confusedly looking around only to see Hwa-youngâs worried face. She gestured to her bow and I immediately realised I must have not even seen where I was supposed to be shooting.
The discipline went on, and after a few circle arounds I even managed to hit a bullseye, more or less on accident. The crowd gave me some polite applause, but I found myself as shocked as half the people sitting there on that garden.
By the time they finally called us back, I was already prepared to disappear home the next second I could. I was over all this, mentally and physically drained and I hated the audience watching our every move, my skin crawling with every curious or hateful glance.
Of course, we were meant to be socialising more, but I planned to slink off the moment people stopped paying attention to me. Having led the horse back to the stables, I was back in the crowd, slowly making my way inside to grab some more refreshments. I ignored the hum of murmurs around me, mocking my score or whispering about my father.
When someone threw a glare at me, I returned it with a polite smile, the tiredness pulling the attitude back onto the surface. Today had quite enough of diplomatic and courteous encounters, now I was done.
Making it over to the almost empty buffet table, a scowl was already pulling down at my lips, making me look even more unfriendly than usual. When somebodyâs presence suddenly made itself known behind me, I was ready to snark at them until they left. They couldnât even let me eat in peace.
For a few moments I continued to ignore the person, even though I knew they were messing around with something on the table, hoping they werenât here for me after all, but all those hopes got shattered the moment they walked up straight to me and tapped my shoulder.
I started turning around, a smart retort already about to slip off of my tongue when I came face to face with a broad chest and shoulders, tattoos peeking from his tunic and pierced lips, and it promptly withered and died in my throat. He had tattoos there as well? How did I miss that?
Lightly flustered I quickly snapped my head up, searching for the dragonâs eyes. Jungkook was grinning at me from up above, gaze sparkling just like before. I stumbled a step or two back, putting some more space between us to make the height gap less blaringly obvious. He snickered at me, but stayed put, leisurely leaning with his hip on the table.
âLooked like you were booking it, so I wanted to catch you before you disappear,â the dragon explained with a knowing smile, âjust to set some things straight.â A soft questioning noise left my mouth, a mixture of anxiety and confusion hitting me. Sudden fear that heâd come here to let me down gently gripped me and I desperately tried to temper it down, not even recognising myself and the strange behaviour Iâd been exhibiting since I accepted his handshake.
Jungkook seemed blissfully oblivious though and kept cooly leaning on the table, completely relaxed in his stance and expression. My calculative gaze slid from his head to his toes, trying to gauge what heâd feel the need to tell me this urgently. Preparing myself for the worst, I invited him to speak with a gesture of my arm.
âI want to reserve your noon three days from now,â the dragon told me, body language still quite laid-back, lulling me into believing that maybe this wasnât bad news after all, âA personal training, after that weâll talk.â
Even though I tried to keep my expression in check, I couldnât eliminate the chance that he heard my heart happily jump in my chest and skip a few beats. The expression on his face was earnest when I lost to myself and checked it just to be sure, but I also noticed a light dusting of a blush over his cheekbones while his fingers tried to detangle his bangs from the little horns coming out of his forehead. With a start I realised that his hair actually wasnât black, but there was a deep purple metallic sheen to it that gave off little coloured flashes when it was hit by the light right.
He cleared his throat, somewhat awkwardly, and started shuffling. Immediately I realised I havenât actually answered to him and instead just stood there staring at him. I couldnât help the rush of colour to my cheeks and briefly I wondered whether his blush meant he was feeling similar effects of the established connection.
Iâd have to research bonds a little, Iâd never known it could influence you like this. Wistfully I thought back to the memory of my teacher, the desperate desire to know where he was or that heâd be still here with me manifesting again. Heâd tell me everything, answer all of my questions without hesitation.
But before I could get too off track in my thoughts and leave Jungkook even more hanging, I cleared my throat as well. âDoes- Does that mean you are interested in pursuing the connection?â I squeaked out, throat a little dry and my flustered state making it hard to speak seriously.
The dragon grinned at me, boyish and free with a hint of mischief, and it did make me thaw a little in face of such a display. It made him look young and on top of the world, and I couldnât stop my eyes from briefly jumping to his shackled neck with a painful pang to my heart.
âOf course!â he exclaimed loudly, âYou seem pretty cool.â I raised my eyebrow at him, but ultimately chose to not answer to that. Taking another step back I let food be food and returned an impish grin of my own.
âSure then, see you in three days.â Jungkook seemed very satisfied by that answer and without further ado turned around to leave.
I watched him go with my heart quivering in both hope and nerves as I found myself so close to the edge of something great. Of something meaningful. I couldnât mess it up now.
Of course my father would be beyond overjoyed that Iâd managed to catch the attention of Bangtan, as it would catapult me straight to the top. It would cement me as something special from the very beginning, and that was all he ever wanted of us. The emperor would surely allow me to ride him, because I was a Kang and that was all that mattered. Iâd finally make myself useful and aide my father in his power-hungry ways.
But that wasnât what I wanted.
No. I wanted to change the world. Change would always have to start at the top.
And I would bring this empire down, once and for all.
With a true genuine smile I also turned on my heel, in a completely different direction, and swiftly left the banquet behind me. It was time to learn how to impress a dragon.
Jungkook was slowly getting fed up with Jiminâs disconcerted looks thrown his way, the older dragon making it well known for the several past hours just how upset he was with the youngest.
âOkay, god, I get it, can you stop staring at me like that?â he grumbled out, flinching at his mateâs disbelieving expression. The smaller man had basically smoke rising from his head with how angry he seemed to be, and that was a feat considering he was a water dragon.
âExcuse me?!â he exclaimed wildly, âSo dare you explain to me what the hell was that?!â Something strange and tense settled between them the moment Jungkook offered the Kang girl his hand, and he knew this was long time coming, the blue-haired man very obviously just looking for an opportunity to have a private chat with him.
Jungkook shrugged, and in hindsight, that wasnât the best reaction judging by the frustrated noise he got from Jimin in answer, but he himself didnât really know. Honestly, he was just as confused as everyone else, but something just⌠compelled him?
âI- I donât know,â he quickly remedied, not wanting to provoke the other dragon even more, âit just felt like the thing to do.â That earned him a frown. Jimin stopped in his tracks, turning to look at his youngest mate with something slightly alarming making itself home in his eyes.
âWhat do you mean?â he asked quietly, gaze imploring and looking for answers, âJungkook, this wasnât just âsomething to doâ, you could have made a huge fool out of yourself. Not to mention that you donât just go around offering handshakes to riders! You skipped several steps of a whole process thatâs there for a reason!â
Jungkook shrunk under the barrage of Jiminâs upset words, the inkling need to start defending himself and get upset back wiggling into his bones, but on a rational level he knew his mate was more worried than anything.
âBonds are fickle things, you donât simply jump headfirst into it with a complete stranger!â the water dragon continued, determined to let it all out now that they were gone from public and had space to hash it out, âIt could have made you sick, it could have felt awful, it could have connected you to a terrible person. Itâs not as simple as introducing yourself, bonds are strong and deep and they can influence you. You donât go around doing that with everyone, you wait until you meet a person that feels right to offer it to!â That was Jungkookâs opening.
âBut didnât you feel it too, hyung?â he whispered, knowing he succeeded in worming some doubt into his hyungâs mind, âIt was there even before we touched. Thatâs what I meant when I said it just felt⌠right to do. I canât explain it, I just knew it was meant to happen somehow. And you know how gullible I am to instincts!â He threw in a good pout as well, grabbing onto Jiminâs sleeve and selling the cuteness to the max.
Jimin gave him a chastising look, but it was obvious his resolve was breaking and he was fighting his own smile at the cute display.
âI saw how you reacted, hyung,â Jungkook whispered again, hand sliding down to lock their fingers together, âI know you felt something.â
Both dragons were very well aware that something about this bond was strange, but neither knew how to explain to the other the sensations and feelings that ran through them in that moment they touched. Jimin pursed his lips, not finding the right words and feeling in way over his head.
âLetâs get home, I want to talk to hyungs about it,â he simply murmured and started dragging the other with him through the silent dark streets of the capital city. This part was always dead quiet in the middle of the night, the proximity of the royal palace scaring all nightly activities away into more shady parts. The shadow of the empire just always hung over this district, turning its atmosphere into something rotten and heavy.
It wasnât far to their town house, the building that they reluctantly used whenever they needed to stay over in the capital as opposed to flying two hours back to their den, and both quickly found themselves enveloped in a much warmer aura of their combined scents. Even this deep into the night there was a hum of activity heard, signalling that the whole thunder was still awake and most likely waiting for their return.
Tae was sitting with Hoseok outside in the tiny yard, but they immediately moved inside the moment they heard the two sets of footsteps. The rest of the mates were all already sitting by the dining table, small refreshments waiting for them while Yoongi peacefully read something, and Namjoon was intensely staring at a couple of glowing rocks.
Seokjinâs head suddenly popped into the room from the adjacent study, warm smile already in place.
âHow was Jungkookâs first choosing?â he asked eagerly, quickly padding over to the table and sitting down along with a very interested Tae and a smiling Hoseok. And as shaken as Jungkook and Jimin were from the whole afternoon, they noticed a small strain in their thunderâs expressions as well, deepening the concerned feelings already swirling through their own chests.
âWe have to talk,â jumped Jimin straight in without a preamble, choosing the least comforting words anyone could ever say. The other dragons in the room didnât seem to be very surprised though, only indication of the statement being heard was Jinâs soft sigh and the soft thud of Yoongi closing his book and putting it away.
Five sets of eyes trained on them, waiting for the explanation, and Jungkook helplessly looked towards his hyung to start.
âJungkook found a potential rider,â Jimin started, eyes never leaving Jungkookâs face, his own troubled when he finally turned to the others.
âIsnât that sort of a happy occasion?â Namjoon tested out, but as they all noticed before, the hyungs already seemed to be aware of something happening during the afternoon.
âWell, he just stuck his hand out to her within ten minutes of meeting her,â Jimin suddenly snitched petulantly, leaving Jungkook standing there with his mouth hanging wide open at the betrayal.
âHyung!â he whined out at the same time as Jinâs horrified âJungkook!â floated through the room.
âIt felt right!â he shouted frustrated, feeling like heâs been endlessly repeating himself forever now and everyone just ignored that and focused on the more blaring fact of him completely disregarding age-old rules and making his potential bond into a public spectacle.
But despite his expectations, Jimin didnât protest, or even got into a needless fight with him about it. Instead, he looked towards the older dragons, unsure and nervous. All of them were suddenly shifting in their seats, drawn closer by Jiminâs obvious distress and ready to jump in and comfort him at the drop of the hat.
âThatâs the thing,â the water dragon whispered, âit did. I felt it too.â Silence set over the room. The rugâs been suddenly pulled from under his feet as he thought back to the moment, to the lighting of pure energy zapping through his entire being, feeling as if his fingers were about to burst into flames. To the moment he finally tore his eyes from Y/N and saw his hyungâs horror and shock, immediately pulling him close to whisper if he was okay as Jungkook just stared and tried to comprehend what happened.
It explained a lot.
âWhat?â was what came out of his mouth though, âYou felt the bond through me?â The man in question silently nodded, opening his mouth and considering whether he should speak more. In the end he sighed and resigned himself to this conversation fully.
âYeah, I felt it through our bond,â Jimin explained closely, âIt was strong enough that even I felt the power of it. Itâs never happened to me before. Iâd never felt any of your bondings, let alone the first contact.â The troubled expression on the faces of the other dragons doubled and the two finally noticed it.
âDo you know what that means?â the question was aimed towards Yoongi and Namjoon who had arguably the most knowledge on most things, and if they didnât know it currently, they definitely had a book detailing it, but everyone at the table shifted uncomfortably. Jungkook started having the sense of what must have happened.
âYou felt it too, didnât you?â he whispered, the disbelief creeping into his tired voice. There was a beat of silence, a slight hesitation and then Yoongi nodded.
âYes, but it wasnât anywhere near as strong as what you said,â the black-haired man explained, voice soothing to attempt and calm the rising emotions, âit was more like an echo of what you two were experiencing.â
For a moment they all just let that information sink in, exchanging nervous glances. Hoseok released a long deep breath, drawing the attention to himself.
âSo Jungkookie felt a pull towards someone, immediately went ahead and established a connection and everyone felt an amount of an echo of it through the bond,â he summarised, gesturing towards the two solemn bookworms sitting at the head of the table, âand Iâm assuming youâve also never heard of anything like that happening.â
Both of them shook their head at the same time, and their synchronisation would have been adorable if it wasnât for the heavy atmosphere in the room.
âWhat do we do then?â Tae broke the silence tentatively, looking around everyone with his deep soothing eyes.
âWell,â Seokjin sighed again, slapping one hand on the table and startling poor Yoongi that was up to that point lost in thought sitting next to him, âWe keep an eye on the bond. Jungkook, you just go about it as normally as possible. Jimin, you tag along with him and observe. Yoongi, Namjoon, please tell me you know where to dig up information about this?â Namjoon hummed thoughtfully, golden eyes glazing over in the same way they always did when he started mentally going through the never-ending catalogue of books theyâve managed amass in their hoard over the centuries.
âIâm certain we have a whole section of the library about bonds, it is a very researched subject, but I donât remember ever encountering a mention of this,â he said finally, determination setting into his shoulders along with excitement to tackle something that was potentially unknown to them. Even though heâd prefer if this completely new phenomenon happened to someone else and not to his own packmate so he could study it in peace and not worry about them all the time.
Yoongi suddenly stood up, back cracking from being slouched over the table for god knows how long, and he started slowly making his way for his usual travel backpack.
âWe have to go back to the den to go through all that though, are you all going to be okay here?â he said, face turning a little softer when he threw a look at his thunder. He was always worrying about them, and they all threw him fond looks back, bringing a slight reddish tint to the top of his ears.
âOf course, the universe wonât fall apart if youâre not here all the time, Yoongi,â Jin sassed him back, but making sure to throw him a little wink in teasing. The black-haired dragon smirked. âYou donât know that,â he rumbled back and then he was swiftly walking out onto the street, leaving Namjoon to scramble out behind him, shouting some apologetic goodbyes as he ran after his hyung.
As the situation settled a little bit and the remaining five sat around the table and played with the prepared food, there was still tension hanging over them. Jungkook especially was lost in thought, wondering about what this meant for him and his fate, and the fate of his mates.
Heâd never had a bonded before, he was so far out of his zone here, and it made him nervous that his all-powerful, all-knowing hyungs seemed to be just as surprised by the situation.
His thoughts inevitably carried him to the image of his potential bond, to the expressive eyes screaming out even through the carefully crafted mask of indifference, to the memory of her fighting in the ring. To her kneeling for a dragon and whispering to him softly to make him more comfortable.
He knew Jimin didnât catch that, too busy being lost in thought and upset about Jungkookâs blunder, and it felt wrong bringing something like that up, but it helped him feel that this person was right to bond with. Jungkook has always been close to his instincts, and currently they were telling him this was where they were supposed to be.
His thunder would disagree, they would scold him and call him too naĂŻve, but against the better judgement of his hyungs, he already felt the beginnings of trust establishing between him and who he hoped would be his rider by the end of the week.
He knew he would go along with this, he only had to persuade the others to believe in him and his instincts too.
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stoatfaced, dragonhearted - oneshot.
dark, mean prince regent aemond x wife reader
for my 200 followers poll, i've actually had this one cooking for a while so i'm happy this option won! this is absolutely filthy, i'm sorry in advance.
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content: slight dub-con, smut (specifics below cut), angst, mean aemond, toxic relationship, like in no way is this healthy, good god, smut with little plot, reader is described being from riverlands w/ auburn hair and brown eyes, no use of y/n, not beta read, i literally went into a haze writing this there are probably mistakes
tonight you belong to me - patience & prudence ⢠vampire - olivia rodrigo
warnings: p in v, choking, breath play, dom/sub, degradation, creampie, cockwarming, orgasm denial, breeding, aemond is so mean here thats its own damn warning
Aemond knew what he wanted and the sacrifices that needed to be made to get such things. He wanted a dragon, it took an eye to get it. He wanted the Conquerorâs crown, it took his brother being burnt to get it. He wanted a legacy that would surpass his lifetime, etched into the very being of Westeros itself. The sacrifice needed for this would be to chain himself to a woman he likely wouldnât be interested in.
That is where you came in.Â
You were sweet, he supposed. Sweet in a way that made his teeth ache. Sweet in a way akin to a mouse and how it looked up at the cat just before his jaws snapped around the mouseâs head.Â
He didnât need to like you. Many marriages were forged in dislike or just plain indifference, set to a mutual goal. He supposed your mutual goal was children. All he needed was to use you as a vessel, a womb for his seed to take hold.Â
You poor thing, you didnât really understand that he didnât truly care for you. You were nice enough looking, of courseâ hair that reminded him of autumn leaves, always styled in some intricate style with half a hundred braids, dozens of pins and decorative pearls. You reminded Aemond of a stoat, dark eyes against muted auburn fur, lips always pursed, sniffing the air in search for hounds on your tail. You certainly were a skittish, jittery little thing.
The marriage was a quick affair, done at the Sept two days after Aemond wore the Conquerorâs crown for the first time. You weren't a part of some major house, all of the major houses were too close, too greedy, their breaths hot against his neck as they shoved their wedable daughters at him. The last thing he wished for was to be indebted to some trivial lord who thought his name elevated him to the same stratosphere as Aemondâ a paltry lady of some low house bred in the Riverlands would do just fine, he expected his Valyrian seed to dominate any of their week genes anyhow.
He had met you once before, many years ago before he lost his eye. When he was forced to tag along on some meager diplomacy meeting with his grandsireâ he remembers it as being forced, but in reality, he wished to attend. What else was a second son with no dragon to do? â and you had been there, hiding behind your fatherâs trousers. You had been wearing a blue dress, he remembered this distinctly, as it stood out against the ruby red of the apple you had offered him.Â
Aemond had tried to speak with you, but you only communicated in nods and soft noisesâ something you only partially grew out of. He never understood why he remembered this girl, as you were insignificant in the seas of faces heâs met over his life. Mayhaps it was your quiet nature that he remembered, something that, now at his age and state of mind, struck him as malleable, easy to mold into what he needed you to be.Â
And so it shall be.Â
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It was about two and a half moons after your marriage, he returned from a late council meeting. Rubbing his eye, feeling the familiar thrum of pain right behind the socket, he was already in a particularly sour mood. The council meeting had gone south, ending in most of the lords bickering over one another like children.Â
It irritated Aemond to no end, the strain of an oncoming headache ever looming. He still struggled with intense pain from his eye, or rather, his socket and severed nerves. The pain was debilitating at times and if anyone dared to test his patience when it was particularly bad, he would snap at them like a cornered animal, no matter who it was.Â
Raising his head, he noticed the hearth was still going strong, multiple candles still lit in the solar, despite it being late at night. The now familiar crop of auburn hair was peeking from behind the couchâ his wife was usually never up this late.Â
âWhy are you still awake, wife?â he asked as he took off his gloves, clenching and unclenching his fists.Â
â⌠reading. I was waiting for you.â you murmured in your usual hushed tone, the sound of your book closing was louder than your voice.Â
âI told you not to do that. Itâs unnecessary.â he grunted in response, undoing the latches of his leather doublet.Â
âI-I donât mind it⌠I just sleep a bit easierâŚâ you continued, no doubt twiddling the end of your braid between your fingersâ an anxious habit.
âYou need proper rest. I wonât have my wife looking like a sleepless, sloven mess,â Aemond chastised, discarding his shirt. âNow, what are you reading?â he was becoming increasingly irritated with you, feeling as if he had to force you to take care of yourself and unlatch you like a leech from him. When you looked upon him with your wide eyes filled with uncertainty and fear, he felt the overwhelming urge to wrap his fingers around your throat and squeeze until you passed out or mayhaps went limp, like a doll.
âOh,â you slid the book towards him on the side table, it was a book on the history of Old Valyria and its language, usually used for children to begin speaking it. âNyke j-jaelagon⌠naejot Ädrugon⌠va ao.â I wish to sleep next to you.Â
Aemondâs brow furrowed. âWhat use do you have to learn High Valyrian, wife? Issa dĹna ÄbrazČłrys mijegon nykeÄ notion isse zČłhon bartos, wanting naejot gĹŤrÄĂąagon mirros ziry daor.â My sweet wife without a thought in her head, wanting to learn something she cannot.Â
You reached for the book, your comprehension not skilled enough yet to pull what Aemond was saying to you. Before you could grab it, he slammed his hand down on the book, effectively snatching it from your grasp. You pouted her bottom lip. âI want to learn⌠mayhaps it might bring us closer together.���Â
Aemond scoffed, the sound sending a sting of pain right into the core of your chest. âWe are as close as we need to be, little one. We are married in the eyes of Gods and men and we fulfill our marital duty by trying to produce heirs, hm?â He placed the book back on the shelf. âThis nonsense of wanting to be closer is moot. I wonât hear of it anymore.âÂ
A glaze of sorrow flashed through your eyes before you got up from the couch, tightening the housecoat around your shoulders.Â
âCome to bed,â he said, moreso as a command than a suggestion. âI know you are cold, ÄbrazČłrys.â Wife.Â
You made a small noise of discernment, crawling into bed after him.Â
He looped his arms around you, pressing you to his bare chest. He radiated heat like a furnace and was quick to warm you upâ you were always so cold, he noted. He surely hoped that your children together would inherit his fiery blood and not the weak-willed, uninsulated Andal blood you possessed.
Aemond bounced from being indifferent to you, paying you no more mind than a maid or a whore, to needing you, every part of you. He didnât see you as a person, moreso an extension of himself, latched onto his body until he consumed you entirely, your bones fusing together as one. To him, you were a doll or plaything to entertain him, testing the mettle of your will, to see if you were of poor craftsmanship and would break. He had always broken his toys as a child.
You could tell by the rhythm of his breathing, he wasnât going to sleep just yetâ youâd become very attuned to his moods, his small intakes of air against your neck causing your skin to prickle into goosebumps. His lips ghosted over your throat, one of his arms coming up to wrap near the base of your windpipe, not yet applying pressure, but the threat was there.Â
No, it wasnât so much as a threat than it was a promiseâ he quite liked applying pressure to your airways when you coupled, his lone violet eye centered intently on yours as they went from wide to half-lidded, soft whimpers of pleading to stop, sometimes for more, more. He relished in holding your very life in his hands and you let him.Â
âMayhaps I should get you a collar, wife,â he hummed, his voice husky and deep, reverberating deep within your chest as your heart pounded. âBut I think you like my hands much better, donât you?âÂ
âY-yes,â you breathed, the small swallowing bob of your throat felt against the palm of his hand, causing him to grin. â... I fancy themâ on my tender neck⌠between my legsâŚâ you responded, feeling slightly bold at the notion you put forth. The heat of his body permeated your skin, warming your core into an ever familiar feeling.
Aemond all but growled at your comment, positioning the both of you to where you were laying with your back upon him, as if you were lazing upon him like a chair. âFeeling courageous tonight, are we? No matter, my dear, you will break all the same,â his mouth pressed to the shell of your ear, teeth nipping at your lobe. âLike every night before, and every night to comeâ your life is in my hands,â he enunciated this with a squeeze to your neck, eliciting a small mewl from you. âIs it not? Say it.â
âM-my lifeâ belongs to you, husband,â you managed to squeak out.
âNot husband, not now. You know the rules.â
âM-my king, your grace,â you rephrased quickly.
He clicked his tongue in slight admonishment. âA bit slow on the take tonight, little one,â Aemond muttered, slotting his leg between yours and kicking your thighs apart. âKeep them open.â his voice was dripping with something between venom and sticky sweet honey. He felt akin to a God every time he was in the sky, every time he sat the throne with the crown on his head, and every time he rested his hand on your pretty little throat as he sheathed himself to the hilt inside of you so easily, so free of resistance. âSo slick for me, just from the smallest of chokesâ fucking whore.â he hissed, starting a slow, deliberate pace as his hips met against your bottom. The pair of you were like two threads, intertwined with his legs pretzeling around yours, keeping you spread open.Â
Your breath hitched in your throat as he continued to bully that sensitive, spongy spot within youâ but you craved so much more, feeling waves of heat emanate from your sensitive bud as it screamed at your brain, begging to be touched. You made the critical error, thinking your husband was too focused on his own pleasure to notice you going for your own, as your hand slowly descended between your legs, rubbing small circles upon your pearl.
How wrong you were.
His arm came up further, his bicep pressing to the bottom of your chin, his free palm slapping your hand away from yourself. âAre you truly fucking stupid tonight, wife?â he spat, stilling his thrusts. âWhen did I say you could touch yourself? Have I fucked you stupid already?â Aemond huffed in frustration. âMy poor, dumb wifeâ you cannot do anything right, can you?â he slid you off of him, then flipped over to loom atop you, taking both of your hands within one of his, his large hand encapsulating your wrists with ease, trapping them above your head.Â
You sniffed, tears welling at your lash line, threatening to spillâ not just from his downright mean admonishments, but from your stolen gluttony, your pleasure stolen so close to the precipice. ââM sorry, your grace,â you cried, âForgive me.â
âYouâre lucky you have such a sweet cunt,â Aemond mused, his immodest and downright sinful language going straight to your core as he nestled inside of you once more, menacing atop you like a darkening cloud. âI forgive youâ and will even pleasure you. Thatâs what you want, isnât it? To come?â
You nodded fervently, your lamenting tears spilling over and running down your cheeks.
âIâm feeling quite generous, thenâ Iâll let you. If you beg me.â
âP-pleaseââ you blubbered, âPlease let me come, my king.â
A sickly smirk came over his face once more as he pushed forward again, not bothering with the slow and meticulous pace he had before. His hips slammed into yours as he surged into you, as if you were nothing more than a cocksleeve for his pleasure. And yet, and yetâ his hand didnât move to the apex of your legs, chasing his own high before he would give into yours.
âAemond, please, pleaseâ please touch me, f-fuck, your graceâ my k-king, please!â you were all but wailing now, half in ecstasy and half in pure beseechment, pleading for just some semblance of the lecherous, stimulating and lewd sensation that only he could give you.
He took mercy on you, the pad of his thumb zeroing in on your leaking folds, giving your clit a cheeky pinch. It was a delightful painâ that was what being with Aemond was, what it came down to. Every waking moment with him was thrilling, sublime, agonizing, unending tortureâ and you fucking loved it.Â
Your mouth hung open, you were sobbing freely now, your lips quirked into a euphoric and maddened smile. âThank you, tha-nk you, t-thank you, I love you, I love you,â you gasped, your lungs ballooning with air as you begged him further, âP-please, around my neckââÂ
Something animalistic came out of Aemond at your request, his hand draping around your throat like a necklace. âMy sweet, dumb wifeâ you donât know what to do unless I tell you, unless I let you, unless I guide you to your release, hm?â he prostrated each word with a deep thrust. The combination of his ministrations on your bundle of nerves, the head of his cock callously beating into your sweet spot, and the squeeze of his hand around your neckâ it was enough.Â
With a garbled string of words, prayers, denotes of love, pronouncements of his prowess, his titles, his nameâ the coil inside of you snapped, lighting every nerve you had in your body on fire. You saw stars as your climax wracked through you like a tempest, the absolute vice grip of your core sending Aemond into his own completion, his seed painting your walls and then some.
In your fucked-out delirium, you thought you mightâve heard him say somethingâ you didnât decipher it until later when you were half asleep, his softened member still lodged inside of you somehow as he curled you into his chest.
âMy love, my wifeâ I love you.â
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Possession: By a Tulpa for Tulpas
By: Arcanus of the Dragonheart System
Introduction
Possession is an optional skill in Tulpamancy that allows a tulpa to access the physical world; it gives a chance for a tulpa to experience things not curated or managed by their host or other system members. Thus, what is possession? For those uninformed, possession is quite simply the act of a tulpa or other system members taking partial or full control of the physical body while the previous person in control is still connected to said body. For many tulpas, this is our primary manner of accessing and interacting with the same world our hosts do, especially so for systems where the host is incapable of fully disconnecting from the body, often considered a highly important step for switching. As such, even possession itself is desired by many tulpas for this opportunity of interacting with the outside, with people who are not of the same mind and body, and to gain experience and develop as individuals.
Numerous possession guides are often created by hosts rather than tulpas or by a neutral viewpoint; there are very few possession guides designed by tulpas themselves who are capable of possession and wish to teach it to others. This guide is crafted by a tulpa who has existed as such for six years, and has been capable of possessing quite well for nearly as long. The aim with this piece is to guide other tulpas with this specific perspective in hopes of sparking a form of eureka moment for other tulpas that can be the flicker necessary to obtain this skill, and for tulpas who use solely nonhuman forms that may be uncomfortable with the idea of using a human body.
Preparation and Mindset
Before attempting possession, there are things to consider and prepare for. These preparations allow future training sessions for possession to be less vexing, and can aid in avoiding potential issues further down the line.
A primary thing a host and tulpa should obtain before practicing possession is the ability to have clear communication between each other, often in the form of vocality. Seizing control of the body is an action that requires both parties to communicate their feelings to each other consistently, especially when speaking about consent. Without clear communication, a situation can go awry or create a schism between the two parties. For example, imagine a tulpa possessing the body without informing the host first, causing bewilderment and fear within the host who had no inkling that the tulpa was going to possess. On the opposing side, picture a tulpa possessing and performing activities when the host snatches back control deliberately and without warning, and thus disrupts what the tulpa was doing. With both parties, this can cause unease and anxiety simply due a lack of communication and respecting boundaries.
To avoid this, both the tulpa and host need to speak with each other and mutually agree to the possession beforehand through means akin to vocality or even tulpish. If one member does not consent, then the other should not ignore the boundaries set by the other person. However, this does not mean a host should unreasonably prevent a tulpa from possessing. There are reasonable times to possess and situations where possession is not ideal where a host may state, "Sorry, now's not a good time because we're in public," and other circumstances that are unreasonable such as, "Sorry, but I don't want you doing this harmless thing." From personal experience, it can be quite thrilling to possess and experience existence in such a physical and lifelike sense, but it is best to show self-restraint and ask before attempting possession.
For further reading to learn about techniques to build communication and vocality, here are a few well-written guides:
Tulpamancy: Guide Into the Strange and Wonderful: Section 13: Vocality & Section 25: Methods of Communication
Tips for Hearing Your Tulpa
Quantum's Nametag Method
Clear communication often also requires the tulpa to be fairly developed, capable of making informed decisions without the host's input while also being mature enough to handle any possible outside world responsibilities. Fledgling tulpas have a tendency to be childish and emotional in nature, even being somewhat unstable in form and personality at times, as they continue to establish their identity with forcing sessions and experience. Therefore, a younger tulpa may not understand the importance of respecting boundaries, maintaining what are usually the host's responsibilities such as school or occupations, or may make emotional decisions in favor of logical ones. Harsh world experiences can also be stressful for the tulpa and negatively impact their development while they are still malleable and easily influenced, thus it is ideal for the tulpa to be developed to the point of their identity being mostly solidified, and where they have learned to manage their emotions in times of stress and hardship.
It must be specified that this advice is targeted towards more extensive possession sessions, sessions that may span hours, days, or longer. Shorter sessions within a controlled environment are more suitable for a less developed tulpa learning possession and do not require as much preparation and development from the tulpa.
How much time it takes for both of these to be met is subjective and has a high degree of variance between Tulpamancers. Both maturity and vocality can come with time, consistent forcing sessions, and patience. What is imperative is to not rush possession; possession is not a fleeting opportunity that is capable of vanishing at a moment's notice. Regardless of the system's age, possession is a skill that will always be available, thus do not feel the need to rush it or obtain it as quickly as physically possible. Nor should a Tulpamancy system feel as though they are obligated to learn possession. Though few in number, there are tulpas who are quite content with never being in control of the body, instead preferring to be imposed on the material plane or live their lives in a mindscape. Neither host or tulpa should be forced into learning a skill they do not wish to learn if they do not desire it within reason, however, it does not harm either to at least attempt possession once.
Finally, another common issue, specifically for hosts, is a sense of fear or anxiety when pondering the idea of the tulpa taking control. This fear is reasonable, especially with how possession and control swapping is often portrayed in many nations and cultures. In tandem with this, the host is often one who has spent their entire existence being the singular entity of the body; switching as a concept is a direct opposite of what the vast majority of humanity believes to be the sole way of existence, that each consciousness belongs to one vessel and is that vessel. There are some hosts who require self-introspection and must accept that they are not the body itself, but a single consciousness of multiple that happens to dwell within it.
Anxiety for switching can stem from pathological anxiety or this mindset of singularity, and thus not all Tulpamancy-specific advice may apply. Trust between both parties is critical when exchanging control, not simply that they will do no harm with the power they are given, but as a general rule. For both the tulpa and the host: trust in the tulpa to be responsible, and trust in the host to allow the tulpa to safely express themself without overstepping boundaries. Any and all concerns should be spoken about between both members and genuinely listened to, this includes doing whatever possible to negate any doubts or fears.
In conjunction with maturity, the ability to communicate properly, and dousing any fears and anxieties, another key factor in possession is the mindset of both the host and tulpa. It can be deceivingly simple to believe that possession is this archaic skill, possibly due to preexisting connotations of possession from various forms of media and how only supernatural beings are capable of performing this feat. Despite this, possession is not impossible to achieve, nor does it take years for most Tulpamancy systems to gain. Remember that both the tulpa and host exist within the same mind and body; both parties have access to the same neural pathways, and thus access to movement. As months become years, a tulpa eventually reaches a point to being on equal footing with the host, being a fully separate person capable of all the same feats the host is capable of and not simply some entity that can be willed away on a whim.
In addition to this, it is a highly prevalent and pervasive myth that the host must manually dissociate from the body to allow the tulpa to possess. Quite frankly, this is false, as many tulpas have proven to be capable of possession while the host is still fully connected to the body and is aware of what the body is doing. Mindset, however not being an absolute factor, can still majorly influence how quickly or slowly a skill in Tulpamancy is gained. Another belief that can stymie possession training is the belief that the tulpa is lesser, weaker, or simply less capable than the host. By doing this, the host is setting unnecessary limitations on the tulpa, which further slows skill development. When speaking about Tulpamancy, one should not think in absolutes, but instead keep an open mind for any possibility instead of denying or wholeheartedly believing a certain outcome will occur.
Thirdly and finally with possession myths, older guides often reference possession being this "alien" feeling when experienced, a sensation easily noticeable. In recent years, many Tulpamancers have started fervently exclaiming that possession will not feel alien and that it was merely an artifact from the past. As previously stated, believing in absolutes is often an unhelpful mindset in Tulpamancy. Despite the claims from either side, there are Tulpamancers who experience this "alien" feeling and others who do not. A possible explanation for this is a tulpa's presence and the sensation it gives when the tulpa possess, or perhaps this "alien" feeling is more common with tulpas with nonhuman forms that clash more with a human body when attempting to control it. Regardless of whether or not a system will experience this "alien" feeling is unimportant, as many believe this sensation alerts the host whether or not the tulpa is actually moving the body. If one is simply unsure if the body's movement was theirs or their tulpa's, they can simply verify it with the tulpa instead of merely guessing.
Once mentally overcoming these hurdles to the best of one's ability, possession is much more likely to be swift with ample progression and lowering the possibility of tribulations in the future.
Step-by-Step Process and Explanation
At last, the process of possession specifically for tulpas in the perspective of another tulpa. For the sake of brevity and simplicity, the possession strategy will be laid out in steps first, then the explanation will be placed after the method itself. Remember that this method is done solely in the perspective of the tulpa, however, the host at minimum should relax in whatever means they wish and simply allow the tulpa to go through the process.
Begin by connecting to the body's senses, look through the body's eyes, feel the gravity of the earth pulling downwards, take in any scents or sounds in the area, and even pay close attention to any flavors the mouth may be experiencing.
Hone in on a singular sense, whichever is desired. With the eyes, absorb every single detail possible, every color, every shape, their distance from the body, and more as an example. Or not simply feel the effect of gravity, but also the textures of objects or even the body itself, the temperature of the air or ground, and potentially even focus on negative sensations such as pain if they are present.
Entrench oneself in that specific sense until feeling completely absorbed by it, entranced to the point of losing awareness of one's form or anything else, even the thoughts of oneself or the host.
Become that sense, become the eyes, become the skin, the nose, the mouth, or ears. Not simply using the sense, but embodying that sense itself.
Once this step is complete, repeat the process with the other senses, slowly becoming them while remaining connected to the ones already focused on.
With every sense focused intensely on, attempt to move the body in some capacity. An example would be moving the eyes if the first step taken was to become sight.
Attempt to do this with the other senses and what they are related to. Move the body's arms, look around, take a deep breath, and listen to one's environment.
If the process was successful, the tulpa will be possessing the body.
Note how this strategy does not ask the host to "give up" the body or instruct the tulpa to flow their essence into the body unlike other possession guides. The mindset behind the method presented is guiding the tulpa to essentially synchronize with the body to the point of becoming one with it instead of a nonphysical person, becoming so lost with the world they are experiencing that they simply forget that they are a passenger in the metaphorical car. When honing in on or focusing highly on a sense, it can be possible for a tulpa to accidentally begin possessing what controls that sense. For example, a tulpa may be interested in what the host is eating, paying such close attention to the food that they begin to experience it physically, possibly even moving the mouth to eat without realizing it.
However, not all tulpas understand the idea of "connecting" to the body's senses, especially tulpas used to living their days in a mindscape. Quite simply, this can be done through intuition and trial and error, or through symbolic means that translate to the act of connecting. It boils down to: what seems logical? For every tulpa, this is highly subjective and there is no flawless method that can be taught.
One must also keep in mind that following these steps may not be successful the first attempt or even after multiple attempts. Rather, a tulpa may take time learning how to focus on a particular sense, or possibly learning how to focus so intently in any sense. One day may be a day filled with progress, but said progress is halted by a singular part, mileage will vary between systems.
Possession for Nonhuman Tulpas
Not every tulpa takes on a human appearance, or even an appearance that matches a human's general shape. Though a tulpa is not quite literally their form, there are some tulpas who are quite connected to their form in a sense either through means of identity or simply out of fondness for their appearance. For tulpas in this category, possession or fronting at all can be uncomfortable or possibly unpleasant due to the contrast between the body and the tulpa's form; this connection with the tulpa's form can also impact how they act whilst in control such as mannerisms, walking style, or even voice to a notable degree.
Common advice to counteract this is for the tulpa to temporarily take a human form when fronting to ease the bodily dysphoria, yet, there are tulpas who are uncomfortable with that idea and would prefer to avoid it. This section is intended for tulpas who are uncomfortable with changing their form just to front.
A simple way to ease the discomfort of body dysphoria is to accept any "quirky" fronting mannerisms, opting to embrace them instead of fully attempting to act like a human. Walking on toes, using hands in a way that is considered odd, even imposing one's own form over the body to whatever capacity within reason (typically known as "phantom limbs" if this includes adding otherwise nonexistent limbs). Unless it is necessary not to out the system as plural to others the system is not out to yet, allow oneself to be nonhuman in nature regardless of if they are currently using a human body.
Another method is to have the mindset of, "I am not actually a human, just a nonhuman taking control of a human body," much like the more fantastical definition of possession many are familiar with. This mindset can create a disconnect that may ease the dysphoria, especially for tulpas who solely identify as a singular or set form.
Choose articles of clothing or accessories that match the form or at minimum, mask the human shape such as hoodies or sweatpants. One can also avoid staring at the body in the mirror or undressing, but this can have the negative consequences of becoming more and more avoidant of the body, which is not ideal if one wishes to become at least somewhat accustomed with it.
Conclusion
Being able to control a physical body can be a wonderful opportunity to grow as a person, form relationships and bond with new people, and to have meaningful impact on the world. Possession in of itself may not be a tedious challenge, but it also may not be a breeze a tulpa and host can accomplish within a day. Remember that this guide and strategy are one of many; do not feel shackled to a particular method if it is simply not working out. Every host and tulpa's experiences with possession will vary to some degree, and that is the beauty of such a thing, as it allows for many to share their experiences and knowledge that can reach out to benefit others.
I do hope this guide aids my fellow tulpas.
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This is a slightly improved iteration of my guide, as I was unaware that we had never posted it on this blog. However, the body of the content remains identical to the Tulpa.info and Tulpanomicon iterations of the guide.
7-21-2024
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The Kneeling Queen, ch 13 - Aemond Targaryen x OC
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Summary:Â Aemond Targaryen and Maelessa Velaryon were childhood lovers. They were each otherâs only comfort in a world full of darkness. When they grew up, their love blossomed until they were the only thing the other cared about. Their lives get increasingly complicated due to the fact that theyâre supposed to be on opposite sides of the war. Will their love survive or will it burn to ash as the war ensues?
Chapter warnings:Â Noncanonical dragons, canon divergence, smut, domestic abuse, rough sex, choking, slapping, knife/blood play, breeding kink
âThe king is dead!â âThey found him in his own chamber, throat slit and his hand around the knife.â âCould he truly have taken his own life?â
Maelessa poured wine into the cups as the members of the council discussed the kingâs death. Just as when Viserys had died, the doors to the council room remained shut, and news of the kingâs death were kept quiet until the council figured out their next move.
âWe cannot afford to ponder and wait, the realm needs a ruler. War is being waged on us, we cannot sit and grieve and do nothing. We will hold a public funeral for my brother and afterwards, crown me in the dragon pit just like we did Aegon.â Aemondâs words were harsh but true. This was not the time for patience and slowness to act. Lord Larys was hesitant, Lord Jasper eager to agree with Aemond, and Maester Orwyle was mostly silent.
âIt does seem rather conspicuous that the king would pass so suddenly, before he could speakâŚâ Larys spoke. âAre you insinuating something, Lord Larys?â Maelessa interrupted him harshly. A small smirk appeared on Aemondâs lips.
âStand down, MaelÄŤtsos. Youâve proven yourself a most valuable servant of the realm but I have not granted you a voice on this council,â he reminded her. She bowed her head quickly.
âYes, your Grace, forgive me.â Heat burned between her legs at the public scorn. Aemond wisely pardoned the Clubfootâs words, speaking with a voice soft as honey.
âIt is only natural that we should ask ourselves the true circumstances of Aegonâs death. But we must accept that we may never truly know. I mourn my brother, truly. I loved him dearly. But for the good of the realm we cannot stall. We must proceed,â he stated, and so they did.
Aegonâs funeral was held in the eye of the public. Commoners were welcome to see the as king Aegonâs body, swaddled in bandages, was laid atop a large pyre. Aemond himself carried the torch toward the pyre to light it, honouring Aegon in the way of the dragonlords, sending him off in a great fire. He would have had Vhagar light the pyre in the traditional way, but the dragon was too large and too frightful to involve in such a ceremony. He spoke of his brother in high regard, he reminded the public of Aegonâs heroic deeds in the battle of Rookâs Rest, and laid him to rest calling him Aegon the Dragonheart. Tears were shed among the commoners, and Aemond played his part so perfectly that none would ever suspect him of having a hand in the kingâs death. None but Larys Strong, who wouldnât stop looking between Aemond and Maelessa suspiciously. She would have to find a way to deal with him.
Once the funeral was over, the royal company moved along to the dragonpit. Maelessa had polished the crown, the one of Aegon the Conqueror, and she was eager to place it upon her husbandâs brow. She was the one who spoke at the coronation. The music of trumpets followed Aemondâs walk towards the stage, and when they quieted, Maelessa began to speak.
âIn the time of Aegon the Dragonheartâs injury, prince Aemond has wisely and valiantly served the realm and your city as prince regent! In his short time as regent, he has marshalled armies to keep you safe from the attacks of the enemy!â She twisted her own tongue by calling her mother the enemy, felt the words tug at her very soul, but she went on. âHe has sent his dragonrider to burn the enemyâs blockade, allowing food into the city once more! We should all be honoured to lift Aemond Targaryen up as our king!â her voice echoed through the hall and the commonfolk cheered her. More music played as she lifted up the crown of the Conqueror and placed it on Aemondâs head. Maelessa was the first to kneel before him, the new queen on her knees before her king, and then the septon made the announcement.
âAll hail his Grace, Aemond Targaryen, first of his name! King of the Andals, the Rhoynar and the First Men! Lord of the Seven Kingdoms, and protector of the Realm! Aemond the king!â he announced. The bells rang, the commoners cheered, and Maelessa smiled proudly. Finally, their plans of many years had come into place. Their time was here. Aemond was king, and she was his queen.
The joy had been short lived, as during his first council meeting as king, they had been interrupted by a sighting of a dragon. It was the dragon Seasmoke, flying over the city with a rider on his back. Maelessa was shocked, she couldnât understand how her mother managed to find new dragonriders. Aemond had been furious, commanding Maelessa to stay inside the city while he jumped onto his horse and rode as fast as he could towards Vhagar where she rested outside the gates. She knew he headed towards Dragonstone, but the pain of waiting for him while she knew nothing of his whereabouts was killing her.Â
She tried to be reasonable, tried to think of ways forward, what their next step would be, but all she could think about was where Aemond was, if he was unharmed, if he had met her mother. Who Seasmokeâs new rider was and if there were more. If she had found riders for Silverwing and Vermithor, Aemond could be in danger. She wanted to take Catlys and their new dragon friends and follow him, but she remembered his words. Your king commands you to stay. So she did.
While Aemond was gone, Alicent returned. She was struck with grief upon hearing of the death of her son, and showed not a trace of happiness at the news of Aemondâs coronation. She retired herself to Helaenaâs chambers, preferring not to see anyone else.
When Aemond finally returned he was covered in ash, blind with rage.
âMy love!â Maelessa exclaimed as she ran to greet him, but was met with the back of his hand splitting her cheek. She crashed towards the wall and cried out in shock rather than pain. Quickly his hand snaked around her throat and pinned her to the stone wall.
âYou mother has risen three new dragons against us! All of them have riders!â he spat, eye flashing madly. Maelessa clawed at his wrists. âI would have burned them all, but Vhagar and I were forced to retreat.â His grip softened and he leaned his forehead against hers, tracing his thumb over the tiny wound on her cheek. âI need you, MaelÄŤtsos, I am lost without you. I did something mad,â he whispered.
âWhat did you do, my king?â she asked, looking up at him with tears in her eyes. His breath was heavy, and his hands opened and closed, debating if he should strike her again, or touch her gently to still his rage.
âSharp point. We burned it to the ground,â he confessed, bowing his head in shame, resting it against hers. She sighed in defeat and Aemond clutched her waist with his trembling hands. âIâm frightened, Maelessa. I donât know what to do. Help me,â he begged, and she wiped away the tears on his face before anyone could see. Nodding, she took his face in her hands.
âI will, Aemond. Go talk to Helaena. Her dragon is the largest we have after Vhagar. See if you canât persuade her to use Dreamfyre to defend the city. And speak with your councillors, too. Tell them what happened. But Aemond,â she said, grabbing his wrist before he could take off. âBe careful what you say to Larys. I donât trust him.â
Aemond nodded, taking her advice. He ran his thumb over the cut on her cheek again and gave her a look, a silent apology, before he left.
News of the atrocities at Sharp Point spread quickly, and it seemed Aemond had no luck with his council or with his sister. He returned to Maelessa even more angry than before, this time he found her in their chambers.
âHelaena! Thatâs your solution!â he yelled, slamming the door behind him. Maelessa rose from the chair, looking her mad king in the eye.
âShe refused to help?â she asked. Aemondâs hands twitched, eager to hurt something, or someone. She took a step forward.
âDonâtâŚâ he warned, raising his hand to halt her. She took another step forward. âMaelÄŤtsos, stop, Iâll hurt you again.â His voice shook with pain and his hand still trembled. âIâm not scared of you,â she said, taking step after step towards him.
âI burnt a city to the ground because I was afraid and angry!â he yelled. âIâm not myself! There is something inside me that burns, that makes meâŚâ he trailed off and looked away, beating at his chest in frustration, unable to look at her. âWe are at war! Thereâs no one I can trust anymore save for you and I cannot ask you to fight your family! What I did to you upon my return, it wasnât by choice! Burning that village, striking you⌠Iâm so angry, all the time. Youâre the only person that can still my rage and yetâŚâ He let out a scream. Maelessa took his hand and brought it up to her chest, placing his fingers on the scars spelling out his name.
âHurt me. I can take it,â she whispered. Aemond looked up at her, his eye wide. He shook his head.
âI donât trust myself,â he insisted, but Maelessa smiled and remained calm.
âI trust you. Whatever you do now itâll be done in fury. Thatâs no way for a king to act. Let me be your outlet. Hurt me as much as you like, take all your anger out on me and then weâll resume talks of how to move forward. Trust me, my king. I can take it.â Her voice was just a whisper, but it was enough for Aemond to growl and wrap his fists around her throat, shoving her backwards against the wall and squeezing until she beat at his arms, clawing for breath. Just before she was about to lose consciousness he released her, slapped her face with his palm and then the back of his hand, leaving a purple bruise on her cheekbone. She yelped in pain but smiled at him, happy to be of service.
He crashed his lips down on hers, bit her lip, her tongue, her jaw, her neck, palming at her body through her clothes, ripping holes in the sheer pink gown she wore, rubbing his hands over her breasts and tearing the dress down. He slapped her tits, time and time again until she whimpered and cried, hunching over in pain, then he fisted his hand in her hair and forced her back up to look at him as he pinched her nipples tightly. Despite her tears, Maelessa felt herself grow wet and needy for her king. She would never tire of being used by him, training her body to take whatever abuse he wished to give her.
The tattered remains of her dress fell off when he pushed her towards the floor and she stumbled and fell. He threw the gown aside and shoved her face down into the cold floor as he mounted her. She panted with excitement as she heard him struggle with his belt and trousers. His mind was too clouded with rage and lust to even speak, all he could do was snarl as he dug his nails into her behind and rammed his hard cock into her eagerly awaiting cunt. Her eyes rolled back in her head and she moaned, tasting the floor beneath her as he set a rough and relentless pace, fucking her until her cheek and hips scraped against the stone.
She heard the sound of him spitting before she felt it on her face, and she couldnât help the giggle that escaped her. Angrily, he spat on her again before he rubbed his saliva all over her face, mixing it with the blood from the cut on her cheek. It stung deliciously.
âMore,â she begged. âHurt me, Aemond, I want itâŚâÂ
His cock hit so deeply inside her she swore it touched her cervix, and then he pulled the Valyrian steel dagger from his pants, bringing it to her throat. The threat of the cold steel against her skin at each thrust drove her mad with desire, and judging from the feral sounds coming from Aemond, it had the same effect on him. When he pressed her face into the floor again and thrust into her, the dagger nicked her skin, drawing blood. She winced, but he didnât acknowledge it, lost in his own pleasure. The blade nicked her again and again before Aemond changed his angle. She now found her cheek being smeared in her own blood as he fucked her mercilessly, and the insanity of it all had her spiralling towards an orgasm in no time.
Three more rough thrusts up against her cervix had her coming undone, crying out his name, shaking beneath him as he sank his teeth into the skin of her shoulder, leaving his mark. When she came down from her high he pulled out of her and dragged her up by her wrist, smacking her bloody face one more time for good measure before he bent her over the table and thrust into her again, pumping into her wildly, chasing his own pleasure.
âIâll fill youâŚâ he growled. âIâll put my heir into you⌠fill your sweet cunt with my seed until it takes root. Youâll bear an heir for me, MaelÄŤtsos, I know you will.â His words were ragged, punctuated by his snapping hips grinding into her. With his fists in her hair, he growled one more time and spilled his seed inside her, burying his cock deep. His thrusts grew slow and erratic and then he finally stilled. His hands released her hair and travelled down her back softly, scratching her skin. He pulled out of her and slumped back against the bed, and Maelessa tried to turn around to face him but stumbled, giggling. She sat back into the armchair and watched her husband breathe heavily.
Aemondâs seed dripped out of her wet pussy. What fun for the maids to clean, she thought. He looked at her and his face changed, regret drawing his brows together and he frowned.
âLook at youâŚâ he mumbled. âI put you through too much.â
Maelessa smiled at him and rose, walking on shaky legs towards him and taking his face in her hands.
âDonât go soft on me now, my king. You needed this,â she said, leaning up to kiss him. Then she was the one to find a wet rag to clean them both up with. As they sat down together, she in Aemondâs lap on the armchair, she decided now was the time. âThereâs something I need to tell you. Itâs good news. Iâve made a discovery.â âWhat sort of discovery?â he wondered, trailing his fingers down her thigh.
âOne that will help us in the war. When Catlys and I visited the Kingswood we found dragons. Wild ones. Two are fighting size, two are babes,â she informed him, brushing through his hair with her fingers. Aemondâs eye widened.
âWild dragons in the city? Impossible,â he insisted. âEven so, theyâre wild. They wonât fight for us. And even if they would, we have no riders for them! Iâm not putting low born bastards on dragons like Rhaenyra.â Maelessa smiled again, excited to tell him of her experiments. âIâve trained them,â she said. Aemond furrowed his brows and looked at her on confusion. âJust like dogs. I taught them commands and gave them meat when they obeyed. They will fight with us, Aemond, even without riders, Iâm certain of it.â âWhy didnât you tell me sooner?â he asked, searching her eyes frantically.
âI needed to be absolutely certain before I told you. One of them must have been in the air and seen us when we flew to burn the blockade. It followed us and helped us burn the ships, without command, simply because it expected food in return. Iâm certain theyâll help us protect the city if we throw some sheep at them. What do you say?â she asked and bit her lip eagerly.
âI say youâre fucking brilliant, Maelessa.â
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After spending half the night speaking his his wife, Aemond made another attempt to talk to his sister. Her dragon was formidable, and despite the wild dragons Maelessa had found, they needed more. Dreamfyre would tip the scales in their favour again.
âSister,â he spoke softly as he approached her on her balcony. âWe share the same blood, you and I. I know you wish no harm to anyone. But in a time like this, when the good of the realm depends on usâŚâ He extended his hand, reaching out to touch her, but stopped himself, remembering how he had lost control earlier and treated her much harsher than she deserved, just like he had his own wife. He would not touch her, he decided, fearing he would lose control again. He continued speaking. âOur mother is not a dragonrider. She cannot understand that you and I have a truer call to heed. Come with me,â he said, sounding much more vulnerable that he meant to. âTo Harrenhal. We will lay waste to Daemon and his army. Let our enemies see that we will answer outrage with outrage.â
When he had told Maelessa of his plans to go to Harrenhal, she had cried. She didnât like the idea of him leaving, she thought as king he needed to remain here in the city to protect it. Aemond saw her point, but he also knew that Daemonâs newly marshalled army needed to be defeated, and he thought the best way to do it was by taking Vhagar. Now that Maelessa was queen, she could stay in the city and rule in his absence. Helaena didnât even turn to face him as she answered.
âAnd if I refuse? Will you burn me as you did Aegon?â she asked, and Aemond froze. His blood grew cold and he felt like his tongue grew in his mouth. How did she know?
âThat is a lie,â he whispered. Now his sister turned to look at him.
âI saw it,â she said, looking at him with intent in her eyes like heâd never seen before. Usually, she looked off into the distance or her eyes were cloudy and lost in thought Now she seemed to be staring directly into his soul. âYou burned him, and you let him fall.â âWhat you say is treason,â Aemond countered, desperately wanting to find a way out of this conversation. He didnât understand how Helaena could know this, and it would only get worse.Â
âOr will you let your wife cut my throat in my bed?â she asked. Now Aemondâs hands trembled again and he was fearful for real. How could this be?
âI could have you killed for accusing the queen of such an act,â he threatened, the words spilling out of his mouth before he could stop them. Coming for him was one thing, coming for Maelessa was another entirely. Helaena didnât look menacing, though, she didnât look angry, she did not appear to want to threaten him. She simply spoke as if she had read their story before it had played out.
âThe Stranger looms over your shoulder wherever you go. Sheâs the only reason he will not catch you.â Helaena spoke ominously, then turned to leave him and return back to her chamber. But before she entered, she stopped. âI did not go with you to Harrenhal. But I rode Dreamfyre to protect your wife. That is my part, for the kneeling queen must live in order for you to see victory.â
Aemond returned to his sleeping wife, spooked. He nestled himself close to her warm naked body and held her tightly. If he could make any sense of Helaenaâs words, Maelessa would play a more important part in this war than he had ever thought.
Tag list: @magnificentsapphiresoul @ner-dee @sadgirlxangel
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Thanks for the tag @rhetoricalrogue !
Elena and Serana!
1. Sentinel by Syr
I know you're tired Of fighting and feeling you're losing ground/ I know your desires To shape your own fate and let peace abound/ I see you're weary With the ghosts of a life that is haunting your bones/ Your spirit is angry Howling defiance to all the unknowns
2. Why Don't You & I by Santana featuring Alex Band
So I'll say 'why don't you and I get together and take on the world and be together forever/ Heads we will and tails we'll try again'/ So I say 'why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven/Cause without you they're never gonna let me in'
3. All Or Nothing by Theory of a Deadman
Looking at all or nothing/ Babe it's you and I/With you I know that I'm good for something/ So let's go give it a try/ We've got our backs against the ocean/ It's just us against the world
4. Finally// beautiful stranger by Halsey
Beautiful stranger, here you are in my arms and I know That beautiful strangers only come along to do me wrong/ And I hope, beautiful stranger, here you are in my arms/ But I think it's finally, finally, finally, finally, finally safe For me to fall
5. Blinding Lights by Saint Asonia
And I said, ooh, I'm blinded by the lights/ No, I can't sleep until I feel your touch/ And I said, ooh, I'm drowning in the night/ Oh, when I'm like this, you're the one I trust
Their whole playlist (all 13 hours of it lol) is here.
I am gonna tag @kaleidoscopegirl @commander-krios and anyone else that wants to. tag me! I like listening to new music lol
#the witch speaks#elena songschild#i am seriously considering switching up my tagging systems bc like...name x name gets messy sometimes and honestly it doesnt bring me joy#but ugggggghhhhh editing all the posts#otp: dragonheart
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NR, E, & M reading since 9/23
Finished
Not Rated:
Ghost of you, by ColdXperience
Wei Wuxian is dead, but his ghost never leaves his lover's side. To the point where he might come back ?
The Untamed: On the Same Page At Last, by YenGirl (10 chapters)
A-Qing wants to make things right. She isn't the only one.
Explicit:
The "Patriarch" Was Supposed to be Ironic (or, Wei Wuxian, Chief Cultivator), by groignequi (15 chapters)
Wei Wuxian makes a wish he didn't intend; Lan Wangji creates a path forward.
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The form flickers, letting curls of smoke form something like a smile, and responds, âWhat is it you want, patriarch?â
And Wei Wuxian, incautious at the wrong (the right) moment, says âA way to fix all of it.â
He hears the reply: âAs you wish.â
He knows heâs made a mistake the second the form disperses, moving too fast and in too many directions to be called back and subdued.
___
Only a few hours later, in Koi Tower, a visiting handmaid finds her madam crying over rumors about her daughterâs marriage.
you're so very pretty, by Flxffyfxck (6 chapters)
âLan Zhan! Shijie did my hair today. Do you like it?â
Lan Zhan didnât answer. He couldnât, not when his thoughts were as feral and rampant as they now were.
âCâmon Lan Zhan~â He pouted. âDonât you think I look pretty?â
âMn. Pretty.â
in which Wei Wuxian wears his hair in a bow and a thoroughly whipped Lan Wangji Takes Care of everything
Mature:
i really want to know (who are you), by Stratisphyre
The problem with CT Wei was, lamentably, not incompetence. Incompetence was a failing no one at the Gusu Bureau of Cultivation could forgive. Had he been incompetent, he would have already been dismissed from his position. No, the problem with CT Wei was far worse: he was friendly.
There's a new forensic cultivator in the GBC.
Lan Wangji is unimpressed.
What to Have and What to Hold, by giraffeter (3rd in a series)
âI, ah⌠I wasnât sure if you would want to talk to me.â
âWhy not?â
Because you said you loved me when you thought I was about to die, but I didnât die, and now itâs awkward. âI donât know.â
Lan Zhanâs impeccable eyebrows draw together in confusion. âI always want to talk to you.â
Wei Yingâs stomach flutters, less like a butterfly and more like a moth banging itself against a lightbulb. âYou do?â
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After the events of Keep Track of Losing Days, Lan Zhan takes Wei Ying on their first date.
Seeking Solace, by Devourer Of Worlds (Taer01), DragonHeart (Taer01), Taer01 (25 chapters)
Months after the Siege of Burial Mounds against the Yiling Patriarch, the cultivation world gets a rude awakening.
Unfinished
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Who are these kids?!, by Aira09
What woukd hapoen if the juniors had enough of the cultivation worlds and want to change everything.
or the juniors travel to the past and make the cultivation worlds react to wei wuxian live.
Inspired by Teen Project to change the world and Wangxian : Oracle Pearl
Have I not suffered enough, that you seek to increase my misery?, by Slytherin1130
The cultivation world had come together to commemorate the defeat of the Wens. Happy to drink the night away and revel in the knowledge that the plague that was the Wen Clan had been completely eradicated. The Sunshot campaign's success would be remembered for decades to come, and the young masters' bravery would be commended. They had assembled here to celebrate the beginning of a new era. However, the evening quickly took an unfortunate turn when an infamous patriarch marched into the halls.
Explicit:
The Threads of Fate, by WaitForTheSnitch
âWhat would you do if you could have him back?â Nie Huaisang asked him, a bit too seriously as he leaned forward.
âThere is no way for a dead cultivator to return,â Jiang Cheng scoffed, not even willing to entertain the thought.
âPerhaps, perhaps not,â Nie Huaisang shrugged, âEven if he came back, that wouldnât do much to help, would it? Your sister is still gone. His reputation still damaged.â
âStop speaking in riddles,â Jiang Wanyin growled, âWhat did you come here for, Nie Huaisang?â
âI asked you what you would do for your brother back,â Nie Huaisang started, âI would do anything to have mine back, Jiang Wanyin. And Iâm here to offer you that same choice. Because our brothersâ deaths never should have happened. They happened because of schemes and plots. They happened because of lies and deception. Your brother was made to be a villain and was led to his death because he was too powerful. Mine was murdered because he stood in the way of Jin Guangshan.â
There's nothing Jiang Cheng wouldn't do to have his siblings back. And when Nie Huaisang comes to him with a proposal to save them by changing everything, he doesn't even hesitate to agree.
Only with Time, by adrian_kres (đ)
Thirteen years ago, Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji were arranged to be married as is tradition. Throughout their thirteen-year-long "courtship," things were not always as they seemed. Now, newly married, old secrets have ripped open wounds they thought were closed, and they must work together to rebuild a trust they never had and a love they always did but couldn't see.
Told from alternating points of view between LWJ and WWX with frequent flashbacks to memories of their "courtship".
Discarded, by teawater
Children in Cloud Recesses are succumbing to a dark curse. There's one person who may be able to help.
Mature:
Knife in the Dark, by The_Jade_Goblin (2nd in a series)
A discussion conference. A murder. A cult. A whole new barrel of trouble. All this political scheming and knives in the dark, could Wei Wuxian's life ever be simple? They say there's no rest for the wicked. He's just trying to get married!
hear those bells ring deep in your soul, by Cendiar
Lan Wangji hears an unfamiliar flute when the Wen siblings are brought to Koi Tower, and he immediately goes to the Yiling Barrows to find Wei Wuxian. In that moment, Lan Wangji knows that he will do whatever he must in order to stand by Wei Wuxian's side, keep him safe, and be worthy him. It is not the first time he has bound them together to do so. The two of them do their best to protect each other in a trembling world and, in time, they heal together.
Those We Left Behind, by Sunflower1778
Wei Wuxian looks at his parents, their eyes full of fondness, and love, just for him.
"Oh my A-Ying, look at you," his mother cradles his face, caressing his cheeks with her thumb. He leans into the touch with a soft smile.
AU where most the dead come back to life.
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Dragonheart [Astarion/Themberchaud Fluff]
I decided to finally write the "Getting Together" story for those two. Because I think they are adorable. (Yes, this crack ship is living rent free in my head.) It is also the "Themberchaud adjusting to his life on the surface world" story. Two in one, so to speak.
The picture above has been drawn by @g-vlssz. I posted the full body version here.
Dragonheart
Fandom: Baldur's Gate 3 + DnD Shipping: Astarion/Themberchaud (Background: Astarion/Tav/Kantei) Genre: Fluff
For the first time in his life, Themberchaud has the ability to explore the surface world. And for the first time in his life, he has actual friends.
#baldurs gate 3#baldur's gate 3#bg3#dungeons & dragons#dnd#astarion#astarion ancunin#themberchaud#astarion x themberchaud#astarion x tav x oc#polyamory#compersion#fluff#bg3 fanfiction
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