#down with elistism in art

[cowboypossume]

oh no TRUST i will. okay. i'm turning on my keefitz playlist and YAPPING.

this is the fic if someone happens to see this

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ok i have SUCH a thing about hands. like i have [and this is true /gen] broken down and cried at an art piece of hands only to later have it be relived to me that it was a zoomed in section of a dsmp fanart </3. i just thought the EXPRESSION and the artstyle and composition and the eVERYTHING was so beautifully done. and then the whole piece got releaved to me and im HEARTBROKEN.

ALSO. I was taught something (by Stephene King [I think} in his book about writing) through my creative writing class. He was talking about carrie- and spefically all the blood that gets used. He noticed while editing (or writing?) that one of the MAJOR scenes in the book involved blood of some kind, and there was some motifs of it throughout other things, so he added her getting her period to add more. It's a different shape but he knew that without getting mocked for getting her period- or having her mom talk about it over and over-, getting covered in blood wouldn't be as impactful. There had to be buildup and hints of it throughout.

But that is the mindset I entered this in.

With your gentle hand touching mine, I finally believed I could run away from this elist life and into the world you sketched into the margins of a champagne’s napkin.

Right from the beginning I wanted to establish what the hands would be/symbolize. Them holding hands is how Fitz felt safe for the first time.

It's "gentle". His world is so loud and crazy, but Keefe gives gives him something soft and quiet. It's such a stark, and welcomed, difference of COURSE Fitz dives in.

He wants it.

And that leads to the rest of the story.

Our fingers lightly danced over the textbook and pen we held between us, and I couldn’t stop myself from fully wrapping your fingers into mine. ... With your slight squeeze back, I leaned in further to do something I don’t think friends do; I think your slight smile meant you wanted it too.

It's not just his smile you silly goose !!

Ok I really liked that I started with their fingers. I wanted to draw attention to their hands through movement. You don't just read about hands tracing lines across pages and flicking a pen between fingers, you see it somewhere. At least I do.

So I wanted to draw your eyes into that part, so that it'd make sense why Fitz couldn't stop himself. The movement was already flirty, why not take that slight next step.

With that squeeze, again its movement. I can see that part of the his hand slight flex in the mussels. Keefe is reciprocating, so the flirting was not only right but real.

Which is why the whole thing is so overwhelming for Fitz.

He had thought and this idea and it's so much more than what he expected. So he pulls away because he doesn't know what else to do.

"The chilled air tickled the very tips of my hand where you affected me in more ways than I realized."

I'll explore this in a minute, but I'm trying to start the seeds of what it feels like when you're in your body as a teenager and its just weird. There's so much newness, and to show they're still kind of young here Fitz is surprised and confused by this sensation.

You gave a coy smile as if you didn’t miss a beat, and I just twiddled your pen back and forth between my fingers. “I can’t, Keefe.” Your hand found its way back into mine. “I know.”

Holding hands is safe!!

And it's to show that they don't have to be all or nothing to Keefe. There can be some grey area, or just not that color pallet. He's willing to bend to Fitz (at least externally. I wanted to keep his cocky personality a bit).

“I’m in if you are,” you whispered right into my ear, and I gave you the smallest nod, taking your pinky into mine underneath the white cloth.

Not the whole hand. There's a hesitancy and almost lying that happens.

But it's still intimate. There's such like a childlike hopefulness to locking pinkies.

"If I had your hand in mine, I would do it."

Oh this WILL come back, but I wanted to show how much Keefe meant to Fitz.

As I established, Keefe is willing to let there be some grey area. They don't have to be romantic. They can just be with each other.

And in this fantasy Fitz is trying to accept that. As what he chose is becoming more prevalent, the freedom that Keefe granted him is so stark to what is in front of him. So part of him missing Keefe is missing how he could just hold his hand.

And missing when Keefe just wanted to hold his.

"Just to hold your hand in mine over your cheek and whisper the nothings of sweetness full of how much we missed each other."

In my mind, this is how Fitz sees the heart of their relationship. There's still that genuine step of holding hands and honest emotion, but there's also that added step of intimacy.

He's choosing to do something different because he needs rules.

It's why they don't work.

"Right before everyone went into the dining room for dinner, your fingers grabbed mine."

I don't remember if I purposefully worded it differently or I was being fancy and tired of reading "held hands"

Knowing me its purposefully different. You can grab fingers with someone without holding their hand, especially to stop them. But I do think the parallel is interesting, although I'll-be-it not intentional.

"I knew that without averting my gaze from where I so dearly missed you holding onto me."

As the time has went on, Fitz didn't care about what shape it took, he just missed any type of touch from Keefe. So he missed Keefe holding onto him necessarily holding him.

"I pulled my wrist away from your hand "

Notice I switched from fingers to wrist and hand. At some point (don't ask me how or when) Fitz moved. He made it to where the safety they once shared isn't physically there anymore.

But the emotions are, so Keefe's hand is still there.

But maybe not as intimate this time.

You put your hand against mine. Our fingers didn’t perfectly line up anymore. You still wrapped them together.

73RYFRERTG6WTF3R4FTD43RY3RYF

WE ARE TO THE GOOD STUFF

Their fingers don't line up because they've changed. Time has passed between them, they're not the same people they were.

They're not the same bodies they were.

But they still want to try. And Keefe knows he can't just let it be something grey. He has to hold his hand if he wants Fitz to stay, and he has to mean it.

But Fitz didn't start it.

"Before I walked away, you lightly grabbed onto my wrist. ... I wanted to stay with you for only a minute more, so I sat in front of you."

The wrist is back </3 And now Fitz is purposefully making it harder to hold hands </3

"I put my hand on your chest. “I can't be the kids we once were.” Your voice was strained, “I’m not asking you to,” your fingers traced my neck, “Just stay with me.” So I did."

I VIVIDLY remember this scene because it was such a new kind of intimacy for everyone. The two of them, and me the author. I was in the "wanting to be physically close" to people in my own life, and how weird and out of body it was. There's so much new, and unpredictability, and being a kid is just SO many high emotions. All the time!!! And it was just. A lot. And I wanted to convey that correctly.

So I started with Fitz's hand, something that I've established is a safe thing for him, and a safe thing for them, but spun it. Typically hands are like holding as a way to show honesty-all of which previously meant wanting this to work. Here, though, it's distance. He is using his hand to push this thing he wants away. But he honestly wants that distance more.

I purposefully counteracted(?) it with Keefe's fingers because it was still Keefe. The boy Fitz fell in love with. But, as previously shown, they've changed. And it's been a While sense they connected, and now with this new feeling and new desires and new everything, there's still kind of his comfortability, but not, really. It's not right.

And then the scene the scene contines to

"I put my hand into yours as a compromise. I didn’t like that they didn’t match anymore."

Kind of tying back to the previous part of this scene, but now Fitz (and Keefe) know his headspace more. Now he recognizes what he didn't like about it, and it sets the shift up for the rest of this story.

Also, it uses the honesty they once had as a way to show it's changed, again. The very thing that Fitz would have once thrown away everything just to feel once more is now a compromise.

"Conversation fell lightly between us as your left hand stayed still and lonely between us, mocking what we used to be. I didn’t take it."

First off, Keefe's dominant hand is his right. He purposefully chose to give Fitz less of him.

Secondly, Fitz accepts and wants that distance, too.

"Because I’d have paid anything to see you. Just to put your hand in mine and call you the same. ... But I don’t think I actually want that."

HERE IS THE SHIFT IN ACTION !!

Now Fitz isn't being vague with himself. He knows they won't work somewhere deep down. And he doesn't want to be with someone he can't genuinely be with.

But there's a nostalgia to the familiarity. Something to the desire for what they once had -what he once wanted.

I’ll proudly hold your hand in mine, and just be who I want to be. Have the future I want, with you by my side. But I don’t like a gold rush. So I turned back to face the crowd, avoiding your gaze when I made the welcome speech. Your hand probably wouldn’t have fit in mine while I gave it anyway.

And it all comes full circle.

no please no no you dont understand i NEED to talk about hands in that fic but im going to ACTUALLY have a meltdown if i dont shower i just need my dog to go to sleep

think there was either a title drop or a typo i didn’t understand but “talk about hands in that fic” isn’t processing- oh shit you meant hand symbolism in that fic. nvm i think i connected the dots. (lmk if I didn’t connect shit.) i hope you showered and got your dog to go to sleep. please talk about hands in that fic

[keeloves]

Things Caitlin Snow has gotten away with

Caitlin Snow/Killer Frost is litterally the embodiment of white female privlidge here are a list of things she has been able to get away with. 1. Being an elist classist snob towards Jax 2. Being rude to everyone black woman/non black women of color 3. Trying to kill Iris and the rest of the team 4. She's an assecorry to murder 5.She is rude to Kamille at her art show 6.She almost got her best girlfriend's killed just for the sake of powers she didn't want in the first place (Cynthia a woman of color) 7. She tried to kill her best friend three times (A man of color) and would have suceeded if her atttempts weren't intercepted at the last minute 8. She worked with a human trafficker for 6 months 9. She maimed and mutilated people and went so far as to freeze of their fingers and toes 10. She might not have murdered people straight up but she is an accomplice to several. 11. Then again how many people died from their injuries from her 12. Killer Frost "Sarcastic" attitude is not charming, cute and it doesn't suit her she comes off trying to be a 15 year old in a 30 year old woman's body 13 She is allowed to sit on her ass read books on her comfortable couch and do nothing, to contribute to help Iris and get coddled by her victims while Iris mental health is rapidly depleating 14. She has kidnapped Ceicile and held her at knife point and threaten to slit her throat. 15. She had the nerve to show her face at HR's funeral and people acted like she didn't have a part in his death. Her apology was more like "Oh I am sorry the UPS guy ran over your dog" If Irs did a small fraction of this, you would hate on her for ages to come. Iris has a small melt down, she's a bitch, Iris comments on Olicity's rude behavior and returns a gift that wasn't on the registry she's ungrateful, Iris is happy and is giggling she is annoying. Yet Caitlin did everything I mentioned and she is coddled because apparently she "Has a nice thing about her' If you couldn't tell by now I absoutely fucking hate Caitlin Snow/Killer Frost from Flash. There are better versions of her but the version the Flash is a shitty knock off low quality brand!

[themoxiemegan]

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[lauhay]

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