#dont wanna disturb anyone yknow

[mathswizard]

list 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you. learn to know your mutuals and followers.♡

Oh boy this is difficult lmao

Mathematics? I do love mathematics, im not really that good at it but I can appreciate how beautiful it is

I love love love love recieving things like this. interacting with mutuals is great

Uhhh my IRL friends. I like them. Theyre nice to hang out with

Drinking.

Well written characters.

[nekumiho]

persona 3 reload came out yesterday so Naturally i was obligated to finally do a finished piece with my silly velvet room attendants submas au. alt versions, lore info, and misc doodles under the cut o__o (attendant related p5 spoilers mentioned). also sorry for the eyestrain.

protags they attend to are Fellow Twins hilda and hilbert who always just get referred to as 'passenger(s)'. velvet room manifestation is the inside of a subway car, no i havent worked out what that symbolizes to hilda and hilbert, dont worry about it. but i think whether its visibly in motion or not wld depend on the protags' mental state, one side of the windows for hilda and one for hilbert. mostly dark empty with no visual movement outside the windows w/ maybe a flickering station light somewhere or a visibly blocked tunnel for when theyre feeling stuck in life, default would be like a well lit platform outside of the window with faceless shadow people walking around, how crowded it is depends on their progress with social links. high speed through the tunnels with their half of the car rocking violently when there's high stress super dire stuff going on, steady movement when theyre making progress with something, etc etc

their brassards HOPEFULLY translate to 'down' (χάμω) and 'up' (πάνω) in greek??? i wanted smth like caroline and justine's hats but also not The Same and uhhh yknow. persona 3 and greek mythology are pretty :handshake:.

i dont wanna steal margaret's eldest sibling clout so i think physically ingo and emmet would be younger than her but only barely. margaret is literally the only attendant i can see being physically over like 35 and i need sbms to be mid thirties at like the bare minimum. theyre highkey disturbed whenever lavenza willingly splits herself back into caroline and justine. weirded out by the other 'twins' in general bc they're not even Real twins. they gatekeep being twins. if anyone asks "so are you guys also just two halves of one person" it will be the most offensive thing you could ever say to them. elizabeth and emmet bully theodore together. ingo doesnt dislike theodore but just kind of forgets he exists because the twins are always being like "my brother, [name] (pauses and remembers theodore), i mean, ONE of my brothers,"

emmet is very :handshake: with elizabeth while ingo is very :handshake: with margaret. they both have their own fave sisters whoops. (sorry lavenza). in any sort of 'dancing game' scenario theyre both awkward as hell. very theodore core in general with emmet having some of the elizabeth vibes of just 'i am just never going to stop making random jerky body movements' ingo is a BIT more stiff. but like in general i think theo's way of life and elizabeth's aria of the soul have pretty good ingo and emmet vibes respectively. if i ever learn model editing beyond texture replacement its so over for my mmds.

i love igor dearly but i think since there are Two of them they can kinda handle stuff on their own while igor helps with Other persona protags in their respective rooms? emmet says shit like "YEAH FUCK IGOR THIS IS OUR LINE!!!!!!!!!!!!" and ingos like "emmet be nice thats still our boss and the only reason he let us be in charge is because hes busy".

ingo handles all persona fusion stuff and emmet does storage/organization/other misc stuff and gives you p3 elizabeth styled quests. they can both be social linked because i say so. emmet is justice arcana and ingo is judgement. emmets quests are the only way or at least the main way to increase your social link with him and if you dont finish one of his Special Request ones you lose your link with him. one of the special requests is to take him and ingo to see a real subway station 100% because theyve never seen one.

of all the other velvet rooms, they like the p4 one the most because the inside of the limo is the closest to the subway car they're familiar with but i think theyd like the p3 one too for the possible rocking motion of the elevator eternally going up

thats all i can think of right now i THINK thats everything??? so heres an original concept sketch,

and also a funny emmet quest moments doodle

oh yeah emmet really fucking loves jack frost because they have similar vibes. ingo, on the other hand, is a big pyro jack fan.

[meowchela]

thinking about the running joke in dorabase where suzu is constantly getting mike wazowski'd and while its a good bit that i like, i also can't help but think about what thats been doing to his psyche

like. honestly its part of why i like him so much, he's a genuinely capable player and has a good number of standout moments but they're all undercut by the fact that nobody ever gets to see them/he never gets appreciated or even seen for what he does. do you think that gets to him??? like hes clearly dejected when he sees how nobodys rly reconizing him and i think after a while thats gonna get internalized hard. like i dont think it'll affect him on the field because hes a determined team player but his self esteem and interpersonal relationships are gonna suffer a LOT if he keeps getting treated like that......like if you feel invisible its very easy to start isolating yourself because whos gonna notice yknow. add on the fact that hes a servant robot (for a rich family yes, but considering we havent even seen his owners they probably dont treat him as anything but a product either.....like compared to kuro and hyoro, when we see those two's home lives its a very close familial bond but the one time we see into suzus house we just see another butler with his owners nowhere to be found??? like even chibi has his owner shown once so we know he exists but suzu's are mentioned but never shown so. the whole "not being seen" extends to his home life too no doubt) AND ALSO that hes shown to be sensitive and crumbles under presure easily (example: when he got stressed and cried during wabc and hyoro had to snap him out of it) i really really really domt think his mental state is doing too well

like my brother in christ your sense of self is probably Horrible for so so many reasons

its even more intruiging because outwardly he seems fine and i think thats def playing a part im things. like he just blends into the background so well and he's so polite that he wont wanna disturb anyone with his problems but that In Itself is the problem!!!!! he probably underestimates his own importance a lot because hell everyone else kinda does too and i can def see that leading to him closing off internally

idk its late and im having a lot of thoughts but not much is coming out comprehensive esp bc suzu is mostly a secondary character who has few moments of focus but like. his inner machinations are so fascinating to me and i love atudying him under a microscope

[advernia]

WHERE ARE YOU DIRECTING YOUR ENERGY?

ONE —

Bubbles. Up they go, float like balloons. Colored with muddied tints of blue, purple, white, black. Pop. Another goes, another shows. They are many in number the same time they could vanish all at once, large in size the same way they could become small. They don't touch him but they surround him, live bubble wrap made into a wall. Pop, pop. This wall was restless and tall, too high for anyone to see beyond, too slippery for anyone to climb upon. Blue drips black, purple drips black, white drips black, black drips black. Pop, pop, pop. Where the all the droplets land, no one knows. But they leave their stains, just like the falling rain. Jet black, coal black, pitch black, ink black. Pop, pop, pop, pop.

It's raining, but why does he feel so filthy?

TWO —

"You - hey, you! Yes you, you human child... why are you dragging that poor sword across the ground? Wazzat - you wish to be strong, you say? Ha! But your hands can barely hold the handle of that sword! Start with something your own size, small one!

Huh, who in the blazes - oh, you're that sword dragger from the woods... wait. What do you mean, you broke the wooden sword I lent you!? You punk, that was Lounsbery wood, you hear me!? Sturdy stuff a thing like you shouldn't be able to break! What? You broke it while sparring with a friend!? Hogwash! What in Wonderland is your friend, a dragon!? Sevens, child, don't answer so seriously!

Hmmph, here you are again, thought I nagged you off till next week. Now what do you wa... what you bowing down on the ground for!? Sorry for breaking the sword? And you made a new one!? Now that's absolute bulls - whoa! Watch where you're swinging that thing!

You sure love this part of the forest, dont'cha? Wazzat? Oh, 'cause it's a good training spot... got a point there, I guess. Gonna leave you to it, then... oh, hold up. Never asked why you wanna be strong for. Oh? You wanna serve the prince? As a Royal Guard? Even though you're small stuff and a human? Well, I'll be! You run your mouth pretty wide!

... My name? You've asked me for all sorts of swords for years and now you wanna ask my name? I don't know yours either, you say?! Damn right I don't! Now get that sword off my rack and don't ask again - the only name I'm waiting to hear is the name of Prince Malleus' future human guard!"

THREE —

A human village is littered with tall stones sticking out from lumps of disturbed earth. Every stone is sure to carry a name carved upon its surface, with messages sometimes added underneath. Loyal husband, beloved father. Fifteen years young, lost to the winds. Lovely daughter, proud warrior. One day we shall meet again.

The fae do not share the same level of reverence, the same level of respect the humans had for their fallen. Burying the dead deep under the ground, forming headstones or monuments for them to remember where the dead were laid, prayers and tears and flowers and more tears. The fae did nothing of the sort for their dead, save for the offering of flowers and the shedding of many tears.

But perhaps the humans did what they do was because they were fortunate enough to leave behind their bodies even as they passed on. While the humans let the earth carry their remains, the fae returned everything they were - flesh, blood, magic - to the earth.

And the skies, to the heavens - it is only to them shall every fae would speak their name. A name never to be known by history, a name never to be carved in ink and stone.

The general's smile turns wry.

Having a headstone doesn't sound so bad, though.

FOUR —

12:14 AM

「 u comin home on holiday right 」

「 u better be 」

12:14 AM

「 oooh~! 」

「 so scary! (∩︵∩) 」

「 but yeah kei 」

「 come home k? 」

「 we miss you! (´;︵;`) 」

12:17 AM

「 whats so scary about my msg 」

「 oh yeah dont disappear on us like last time 」

「 tell us if u plan to hang out with ur friend again 」

「 so we can work out a sched 」

「 we cant handle the groceries on our own yknow 」

12:21 AM

「 last years was 」

「 SUUUUUUPER heavy! ( ≧Д≦) 」

「 btw!!!! 」

「 mom plans to make this 」

「 for dessert soooo 」

「 blueberry-raspberry-mousse-cheesecake.png 」

「 we gonna need...................... 」

「 F R U I T!!!!!!!! (ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ 」

「 dancing-fruit-basket.gif 」

「 fresh ones ofc so get ready for 」

「 morning market tour ( ᐛ )و 」

12:25 AM

「 youre the one who sucks at waking up at the morning tho 」

「 but there you go kei 」

「 tell us as soon as u arrive k 」

12:29 AM

「 (╬ Ò ‸ Ó) 」

「 meanie!!! 」

「 ill wake up before U ull see <(｀^´)> 」

「 ANYWAY! 」

「 see u soon kei!!!!!!!!! (‘∀’●)♡ 」

1: azul + cater reappears for this batch! here's everyone's context:

azul -> breathing (ongoing overblot)

silver -> purpose (pre-game + monologue, a fairy's doing it tho)

lilia -> in memoriam (pre-game, vague war timeline)

cater -> self-control

[ghost--ranger]

I went to the tag of that irl ship and wow, people are disgusting. Traumatizing a young woman to the point where she feels predatory and dirty over a friendship? These psychos ruined somebody's self confidence and still double down on their ludicrous conspiracy theories. I'm glad I ship my perfectly fictional Harlivy OTP.

I dont wanna resort to name calling but....yeah. Like for the most part I'm ship and let ship, yknow? But only with fictional characters. Like yeah, ill disagree with some, but for the most part theres nothing fundamentally wrong with shipping these things because...its not real and not hurting anyone.

Irl shipping can be silly and fun...until it crosses that line. And with camren especially, that line has been crossed. Multiple times.

And what i know of it anyway, its been around for years. And these shippers are just so neck deep in it that if theyre told anything that contradicts their fantasy they just straight up don't believe it. Not only not believe it, but in some cases attack them, and the people around them over it and its...disturbing. Especially since it involves someone you're supposedly a fan of and respect.

Sorry, but i cant imagine calling yourself a fan of someone and then continue to deliberately cross the boundaries they set.

[tobacconist]

my house got hit with a nasty strike of bad luck last night, all at once, i think around one o clock till about half past; i blame the full moon in scorpio (i believe saturn, venus, and pluto were retrograde at the time too. not sure if they still are)

i didnt feel like writing it at the time because i was too upset

had a really good day before then too. dads been depressed recently and wed sat out in the sunshine n had a smoke n laugh. we played dominoes later on.

ill say it started with my dad gettin absolutely wankered, like really fuckin drunk n stoned, the kind of wankered where you think youre completely fine but you aint and you wont listen to anyone telling you to sit the fuck down or go to bed

anyway, mum went to bed about 11, told us both to get to bed early (because she is the only sensible person in this house) dad said he was going soon after he’d finished his wine (like he does every night) but he filled his glass a few more times and stayed up.

eventually he went to bed, i told him not to keep coming down to pester me and that id go soon after. of course he came down a few times (its like an incredibly unfunny farce every night) to eat crisps and drunkenly ask me why i wasnt in bed ‘give me some fuckin peace and i’ll likely go to bed sooner!’ i said its a farce

i was trying to think about designing an expanded dominoes set which also functions as a jenga set, and perhaps could be used as some kind of analog calculator a bit like an abacus. i was looking up variations on the game of dominoes and thinking about the esoteric significance of the game

of course i couldnt think about it in peace for long, cus dad came down once again to ask me why i wasnt in bed yet ‘because you wont let me have any fucking peace to think!’ i said ‘the sooner you go to bed the sooner i go to bed!’ it really is like this every fuckin night

‘alright, alright, im going to bed. dont be too long’ he said.  then i heard the dog coming down the stairs ‘fuck sake! dont wake mum up for fuck sake, she’ll come down and yell at both of us!’ i thought then he said (to the dog) ‘oh, do you need a wee?’ n then i got a real bad feeling that i couldnt really place, like everything was going to suddenly go wrong.

i hide his wineglass because for fuck sake if he comes back downstairs im not gonna get any peace hes bumblin around makin a load of noise, then he shuts the door so i presume the dogs inside.

then he comes to me! asking me where the dog is, i say ‘didnt you just let him out? is he inside?’ he shouts to my poor mother, who is just trying to sleep ‘is the dog up there with you!’ she yells back ‘NO! YOUVE JUST LET HIM OUTSIDE YOU STUPID BASTARD!’ or words to that effect. she’s really angry and im like ‘hhhhhhhhhh fuck sake’

i start panicking, for personal insane paranoid reasons (basically a picture of my dog taken that day had a strange lense flare from the sun that, sorta, yknow in the film the omen where they take a picture but theres a weird streak on it and then later the person gets impaled by a huge steel beam. looked sort of like a downward swung scythe to me. praying its just the light, but yeah i got really paranoid.) so i was suddenly like ‘holy shit holy shit is something going to happen to my dog’, i grab my torch and sprint into the garden with my shoes on the wrong feet. i hear my dog suddenly yelp and im genuinely prepared for the worst.

mum had come downstairs now and was yelling like fuck at my dad, who was barely lucid, like, not even understanding why she was angry, and that jus made her angrier)

thankfully, my dog was okay. hed found a hedgehog in the garden, once again, and was once again trying to beat it up and play with it.  i grab his collar and send him back inside. i look at the hedgehog. its all curled up, and i can see that its bleeding. its breathing still though, breathing really heavily. i half cover my torch so as not to frighten it any more and watch it for a bit.

i go back into the kitchen and my mum asks whats wrong, i hesitate for a moment and then tell her dog was being nasty to a hedgehog. i should tell you that hedgehogs are my mums favourite animals, she collects ornaments and paintings of hedgehogs. she really loves them

i dont really know what to do, so i go to the fridge and get an egg and crack it half open, i go back outside and leave it nearby. i notice that mums come outside too, and she asks where it is. i dont want to scare it anymore by getting too close so i just shine the torch on it for a few seconds and point out where its bleeding.

we go back inside, now both feeling really sad. dad is wandering around the house demanding to know where his wine glass is not at all aware of whats happened. mum says shes gonna go for a cig and then try to go back to bed.

i shut the dog in the back room with the curtains closed, i only do that when hes really bad. was too sad even to yell at him. left him in there on his own for atleast an hour an d a half. really disappointed in him. i hope he realises what he did was bad, and i hope he never does it again. hedgehogs are friends.

i went into the living room and sat down and had a drink. dad was still wandering round looking for his wine glass. i say ‘you know the dog just really hurt a hedgehog’ he says ‘dont tell me that right now, i dont want to hear it. where have you put my wine glass!??’ hes just madly looking around calling me a thief, i tell him i havent stolen it, just moved it, but hes drunk too much anyway’ this is another another weekly farce.

he finds it eventually, and sits down. my mum comes in the room now, and i can tell she’d been crying. she says maybe we should put it in a cardboard box or something, i say i dont want to disturb or traumatise it anymore, and it wouldnt want to be in our house anyway. we discuss it for a while, dad keeps making suggestions about what takeaways are open or something because hes half asleep and not actually listening to what were saying.

eventually we decide that i’ll check on it in a few hours to see if its still there or dead or what and if its still alive then i’ll put it in a box and see if we can take it to the vets in the morning (not likely, since theyre only open for emergencies atm)

she goes to bed, dad goes a little while after, still smugly talking about how i should be in bed and mumll be upset if im up to late, cus hes completely out of it

then, just as i put youtube on to distract myself, the internet goes down for like 15 minutes.

i jus sit there refreshing the page. it comes back on after a little while.

i idly browse but cant enjoy anything. i think about writing a tumblr post about it (as i am doing now) but it feels wrong at the time.

i open omegle and tell the first person who’ll listen jus to get it off my chest, theyre very kind, and then we idly chat about some shit. i start to feel better.

then i go have a look in the garden; the hedgehog is gone and the egg is unfinished. i dont know if that means a fox got it, or whether it shuffled away somewhere to die or if it was ok and it wandered off thinking ‘never fucking ever coming to this garden again!’ hopefully the last, but thats still sad. i know hedgehogs are pretty resilient animals. i hope it was okay

i let the dog out of the room about 2 because he started scratching at the door. i didnt say anything i just sent him up to bed. he had an ashamed face. i hope he never does it again.

then i stayed on omegle all night until about 6am. stupid thing to do but i felt better after a while. 

i feel the evil energy was gone in the morning. the moon has begun to wane and moved into sagittarius. mum seems alright. dont know if dad remembers anything from late last night. im feelin okay, jus real hungover. drank a lot more than i meant to

dont think im gonna proof read this so it might be a bit rambling. jus wanna get it off my chest

[moldypieceoflasagna]

36 questions that nobody asked me

(except @lollipoppedchainsaw )

(the 36 questions that lead to love or whatever) https://www.nytimes.com/2015/01/11/fashion/no-37-big-wedding-or-small.html

1. Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?

I hate going out to dinner so much i probably wouldnt be able to enjoy it properly

2. Would you like to be famous? In what way?

It would be interesting to see what it’s like for a short period of time, but i’d never be able to keep it up; i’d probably have an identity crisis

3. Before making a telephone call, do you ever rehearse what you are going to say? Why?

yes i have to mentally prepare myself 100% of the time

4. What would constitute a “perfect” day for you?

hanging out with the people i love is enough to keep me happy for a good while tbh. sitting around doing nothing literally nothing with them is endlessly entertaining to me even though sometimes i might make that hard to believe 

5. When did you last sing to yourself? To someone else?

i sing to myself a lot, not so much to others- although i AM a slut for karaoke

6. If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or body of a 30-year-old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want?

body because i feel thats probably what old people complain about most. plus like,, 90 years of life knowledge? sounds great to me

7. Do you have a secret hunch about how you will die?

probably an accident that’s almost statistically impossible

8. Name three things you and your partner appear to have in common.

single rn (ladies) but i usually try to find friends with similar music tastes because scream-singing in the car is the most fun one can have

9. For what in your life do you feel most grateful?

im most grateful for my dogs and for my friends! i love them and it means the world to me to have people that i can call family. also i would die without my dog juno, she is my rock (and my therapist)

10. If you could change anything about the way you were raised, what would it be?

Not rly how i was raised, but i wish i had a closer relationship with my older siblings. Three of them had moved out before i was rly old enough to not be an asshole child, so most of them still see me as an asshole child and they never take me seriously. im glad i have an alright relationship with them, but that’s kinda all it is and i know i could do better

11. Take four minutes and tell your partner your life story in as much detail as possible.

Lived in Texas my whole life yeehaw. I have 2 brothers and 2 sisters; 2 of them dont like me, and my relationship with the other 2 is,, certainly not bad. Had a lot of physical and mental illness in the past, but 20gayteen is definitely my year, yeet

12. If you could wake up tomorrow having gained any one quality or ability, what would it be?

either speaking a different language or playing the piano. im very jealous of good piano players, and at some point i need to be able to speak a more useful language than french because so far in texas it’s proved absolutely useless (other than talking to my mom but that doesnt count)

13. If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else, what would you want to know?

I’d wanna know wtf im supposed to do with my life because sweaty i still have no idea. passion? dont know her please introduce me

14. Is there something that you’ve dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you done it?

i wanna go skydiving bitch, no one wants to go with me! pussies!!! the lot of you

15. What is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

that one time i did an entire semester’s worth of work in the last three days of the school year

16. What do you value most in a friendship?

being able to put up with my huge fucking mouth. also honesty is super important, even if it’ll make me feel shitty

17. What is your most treasured memory?

when i went camping with a bunch of friends and they were bitter i got to be in the middle of the tent because they were all cold. either that or the time i was getting really bad sleep paralysis and @lonelywaterfall & @skity stayed over so my paranoia didnt render me completely useless,,, also the paramore concert lol ive never been more vulnerable in my life.

18. What is your most terrible memory?

coming out to my mom haha

19. If you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? Why?

i’d go on a trip around the world to explore/to see a few people, and i’d put extra effort into my gender expression

20. What does friendship mean to you?

comfortable silence is my kink. also emotional vulnerability and SAD BOY HOURS we cant forget those

21. What roles do love and affection play in your life?

I’m such a slut for physical affection yall have no idea please hug me as much as possible and play with my hair or my hands

22. Alternate sharing something you consider a positive characteristic of your partner. Share a total of five items.

i guess ill do the same with previous partners so.. i think being funny is probably the #1 thing i appreciate in someone. when you make me laugh so hard i cry, just know that’s like. peak. also stubbornness is strangely attractive to me, plus like,,, uh having an unexpected soft side? an appreciation of art is super important, too. also SPOON VERSATILITY.

23. How close and warm is your family? Do you feel your childhood was happier than most other people’s?

it was probably happier than a lot of people’s but there wasnt much to it. plus being the youngest in my ENTIRE family really sucked during my childhood because everyone picked on me and i think that’s probably what started a lot of my issues lol

24. How do you feel about your relationship with your mother?

better than it could be, but definitely not what i want it to be. we both love each other and i admire her work ethic, but she gave me a lot of anxiety problems (both genetically and not) and she isnt the most understanding person. i have hope though, people change

25. Make three true “we” statements each. For instance, “We are both in this room feeling …

I’m hungry and sitting alone in front of my computer feeling like OVERSHARING ON THIS BEAUTIFUL THURSDAY MORNING, BOYS

26. Complete this sentence: “I wish I had someone with whom I could share …

many, MANY animals and a lighthouse in the middle of nowhere

27. If you were going to become a close friend with your partner, please share what would be important for him or her to know.

I’m REALLY insecure about my body xd

28. Tell your partner what you like about them; be very honest this time, saying things that you might not say to someone you’ve just met.

LOVE feeling safe. 

29. Share an embarrassing moment in your life.

probably every time that i’ve ever worn a dress, because i really,, really dont like wearing dresses and that’s it

30. When did you last cry in front of another person? By yourself?

last cried by myself this morning and last cried in front of another person at my friend’s birthday party

31. Tell your partner something that you like about them already.

no partner but if youre reading this im rly proud of ur attention span. gj buddy

32. What, if anything, is too serious to be joked about?

i think most things can be joked about after a certain amount of time, but like,, it has to actually be funny and it has to come from someone i know isnt serious about it. if a joke is made just for the purpose of being offensive and edgy, it’s never funny no tea just truth. 

33. If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone? Why haven’t you told them yet?

i’d regret not spending enough time with people that i love, not traveling as much as i should have, and also i’d regret not formally coming out of the closet to my family (they probably already been done knew but like. yknow). i came out to myself & the people closest to me a LONG ass time ago, but i’ve kinda seen what it did to my immediate family so im not too excited to do that to my extended family. if i’m not too much of a pussy, ill probably do it in the summer when i see them next, bc ive been meaning to for a while.

34. Your house, containing everything you own, catches fire. After saving your loved ones and pets, you have time to safely make a final dash to save any one item. What would it be? Why?

is it bad of me to say my computer? i feel like everyone else has a much more meaningful answer lol. it would probably either be that or the papers i keep on my bulletin board, bc most of them hold a lot of sentimental value (also my prescriptions  would be a pain to get copies of)

35. Of all the people in your family, whose death would you find most disturbing? Why?

either of my parents because i dont want them dying before i reach the point where i can expect them to be happy for me when i marry a girl

36. Share a personal problem and ask your partner’s advice on how he or she might handle it. Also, ask your partner to reflect back to you how you seem to be feeling about the problem you have chosen.

personal problems? what’re those lmfao dont have any srry try me again later

 i’m too much of a pussy to tag certain people so if you see this and I've had any sort of conversation with you, do it coward

(also @skity  @drawinintherain )

[cali-witxh]

Mkay so I really dont like getting political. But this--

I havent seen anyone say this yet. And please argue this point to me because I wanna see what LEGITIMATE argument someone can make against this--

Someone says that taking away guns wont change anything. That 'criminals' and 'psychos' will find a way to get them anyway. Theyll get them on the 'Black Market' or whatever else.

Here's the thing though. These mass shooters, and in fact the vast majority of 'criminals' are??? Regular. Fucking. People.

Theyre your neighbors and people you see on the sidewalk or at the grocery store or in your CLASSROOM, going through who the hell knows what. Some are desperate, some are disturbed, some have given up all hope of everything.

And yknow what they do? They go to a regular fucking store, like a regular average 'American' exercising his right by the second amendment, and gets himself a gun. (Or 42. Cuz why is that a problem? Hes just a normal dude buying some ak47s to protect his lawn)

Regular people ARE. CRIMINALS. How many average ass people have access to the black market??? I dont think you can just google 'Black Market Sale, Weapons of Mass Destruction 40% off!' shit doesnt work like that. And i dont see any major gangs or 'black market' investors or cartel leaders sending goons to shoot up highschools and concerts.

Why??? Cuz they have BUSINESSES TO RUN. ILLEGAL SHIT TO GET UP TO THAT THEY DONT WANT MEDIA ATTENTION OR POLICE INVESTIGATING. Drawing attention to themselves would disrupt their BUSINESS, so they keep as low a profile as possible??? (As far as active media presence. Do correct me if Im mistaken. But I hear more about school shootings in media than I do about cartel activity and I live 15 minutes from Mexico. You would THINK, thered be a lot of gang activity here based on Trump's calling every Mexican an illegal criminal. Buuut you'd be wrong! Because most people. Arent. Like that! \ouo/ Shocking. I know.)

If you take guns away from the general public then guess what? Most of the general public likely to become criminals-- WILL BE PUTTING THEMSELVES AT A MORE IMMEDIATE RISK IF THEY TRY TO GO THROUGH WITH HARMING PEOPLE. Because at close range, a knife can only do so much damage and anyone from any angle can tackle someone with a knife with minimal casualties. With a gun-- thats not possible because you cant get anywhere NEAR an attacker unless you have a firearm yourself.

People who get down into the headspace that if theyre desperate or angry enough to want to shoot up a school will have SIGNIFICANT ODDS against them attempting such a thing if they have no access to firearms. And that is usually enough to give them second thoughts about walzing into a crowded area with a steak knife.

If an 18 year old had no way of getting ahold of a gun because unless you know some dude who deals directly with the infamous 'Black Market' and have a few thousand dollars on hand-- NO 18 YEAR OLD BRAT SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET AHOLD OF ANYTHING OTHER THAN A KITCHEN KNIFE. If guns werent so immediately accessible this wouldn't be HAPPENING. Because 'criminals' are all just regular people before they commit their crimes. The point is to keep guns out if the hands of regular people so that fewer of them BECOME DEADLY, MASS MURDERERS.

Im not saying you all have to give up your hunting rifle to protect your lifestock from mountain lions or coyotes, or the 9mm in your purse(and even that one's a stretch for me but America will be America...) Nobody. In this country. Needs ANYTHING outside of a small calibre handgun for 'immediate defense' or a hunting rifle when HUNTING.

Every other kind, quantity, or category of firearm is NOT. NEEDED. BY ANYONE. Gun collectors should not be a thing. Collect something more harmless. Find a new hobby. Like fish. Or antiques. If i have to give up my passions and artistic persuits for a society that favors more 'useful endeavours' then you can give up your gun collection to make sure I can attend your school programs without having to worry about being shot in my classroom. There are a billion other things to spend your time, money and garage space on.

Guns are not 'cool' anymore. They arent fun. Or manly or interesting. They belong in the goddamn garbage. And I dont want to know how many more little fucking kids have to die before America wakes its ass up and realises this.